#that is a 'sorry i am the only one left'
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I wanna highlight how good the acting was in the scene between Dorian and his dad. Robbie is so good. The frustration, the disappointment. All the conflicted feelings of familial neglect was so well done.
The whole 10 second pause his dad gave and he turns from pleading for his father to understand to anger that his father still can't answer that basic question of "do you believe in me?"
#critical role#cr spoilers#cr3#video#dorian#ignore the green bar idk why my computer does that#the fact that everyone else was so quiet you could hear a pin drop#i also love the “he is gone and i am sorry. it was not my fault it was his choice”#because its not a 'sorry for your loss'#that is a 'sorry i am the only one left'
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last night i got home kind of tipsy and very much in tears and my mother told me the force you exert to keep someone in your life is proportional to the force with which they will leave your life. if you have to fight tooth and claw to keep them, their leaving will be just as hard, just as harsh, and just as definite.
#she said it like a law. its just momentum.#also she told me to get a therapist and start archery ASAP bc i need to get it together#and also she said even granting that this person u were in love w was So Special . as in hot motorcycle-riding iranian masc lesbian in ldn#they arent the only one on earth and that once i start my proper adult life outside of studies etc etc i will probably no longer live in th#UK. she said most non straight iranians u would like have left the country anyway . where do you think they went? theyre out there#and also she asked me to imagine how many hot gay iranians there may be in italy or amsterdam or smth and i was like ok points 😭 maybe#ur right. anyway i was having a feeling of dread bc crying into the arms of ur strict asian mother while buzzed usually results in#death chaos destruction etc in the next few days but actually i think maybe she has genuinely changed as a person and the fear is#unwarranted#anyway i need to eat breakfast and study w the date person i met yesterday#they are so nice ??? genuinely so so sweet i dont feel attracted to them at all omg i genuinely think i have a thing for hot evil ppl 😭#but we could b besties . theyre a lot more romantic than the ex situationship person too like generally . ugh they should be perfect but#alas it appears i am shallow as fuck or potentially a lesbian actually#OH THEY MIGHT ALSO BE POTENTIALLY A LESBIAN BTW#i think i just tend to not date cis ppl entirely by accident#....feel free to rb if u want btw sorry for the rant
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assorted scribbles and Love Bites!!!!
#THEYRE IN MY BRAIN THEYRE IN MY BRAIN MY FUCKING GOD THEY'RE IN THERE!!!!!#i want to PUNCH & BITE SOMETHING theyre soooooooo aghh bsdkjcJKDFNJSVDSL#sorry. sorry. look away im losing my Absolute Marbles#they make me so emotional....#having breathing problems while typing#they Affect Me and Effect Me and Everythingggggggg#literallyyyy FUCK everyone else theyre the only ones who matter#scribble salad#laughingstock#barnaby x howdy#howdy x barnaby#watch barnaby's gonna end up being the token straight-#hes bi In My Heart (until proven otherwise. probably gonna be proven otherwise)#tho man... his pokemon au design is So fruity.... WAIT WHAT EAR WAS THE EARRING IN?! hold on i need to look something up#THE LEFT EAR NOOOOO THAT'S THE STRAIGHT EAR-#again Im Just Joking! Joshing! Jesting! dont take this seriously please dear fucking god dont-#im simply a jester in this giant court. jingling my lil bells and doin a jig#fr tho when i first saw all the neighbors i looked right at barnaby and thought 'ah. thats probably the straight one huh'#BUT! WE HAVE NO CONFIRMATION EITHER WAY!#AND I AM AND ALWAYS WILL BE DELUSIONAL ABOUT LAUGHINGSTOCK! SO!!#straight barnaby can't hurt me he isn't real-#and ofc. howdy has always been so so fruity To Me <3#idk what it is about him! hes just! i look at him and my entire brain goes 'oh that mf has four limp wrists'#AND TOGETHER THEY ARE THE FLUFFY HUSBANDS!!!! WHO WONT LEAVE ME ALONE!!!
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“Sorry that it all went down like it did”
#hi! back at it with more highly specific art from The one The Only!#Apa au#Isa I am sorry I left out my true thoughts behind the scar on this one but I am trying to achieve wider lawlight audience appeal#speaking of:#death note#lawlight#light yagami#l lawliet#my art#anyway.#many a lawlight fight that dissolves into a week long stalemate ends with a shared bath#they make up in water every time I have decided#its a theme and its a motif#anyway. the whole plot of our au goes down in the song Motion Sickness by Phoebe Bridgers#also drawing this I learned I do not know a fucking thing about how to draw water or wet skin.#so uh maybe more bath art soon so I can learn to do that#thats all folks I feel like I am normally more insane in the tags#hmm#OH I know what I will over share#I think im like… going to get to into r*ck and m*orty. I liked it when I was like 13 and I was rewatching it for hahas when I couldn’t sleep#but im so scared guys that im going to get INTO it#like yesterday I felt the urge to draw fanart for it and I had to quickly slam my head on the desk until that idea went away#okay yeah this is a good amount of oversharing in the tags#I feel good
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So the moment Izuku start winning the poll, Jump decide to recount votes. Mmmm what a coincidence.
So when people voting for Bakugo as crazy as f$ck sure with bots involved. They are fine. But when Izuku got first place no no no.. I am sure 100% they already planned a winner and got a film for 1st place winner prepared. It was Bakugo, so when they see that Izuku got 1st place they take an action.
First AFO when they suddenly "lost" 2k votes.
Secondly, this shady stuff with Izuku and recount.
I start truly believe that Jump forbidded Horikoshi doing some things in manga plot and this is why epilogue and final chapter was written so horribly. Because Horikoshi was forced to rewrite all things. Maybe i am delulu.
But hearing how Jump behave with their mangakas and employees. These scandals with Dragon ball rights.
Guys, i am sorry for telling this. But Jump deserves all bad things happening right now... They lost 2 top mangas bringing millions and i am not even mentione Dragon ball... Call me whatever you want, but Jump deserves this all. And i hope bad things keep happening to them.
This poll is rigged. I start feeling that will not include answers in fanbook. All asks already written by Jump team. They just will give to Horikoshi! Jump are scammers.!!! No wonder epilogue was so bad written!!!
#bnha global poll#sorry for my english#dad for one#i am sure Jump forbidd Horikoshi making AFO a complex villain#i am sure Jump forbidd Horikoshi DFO#because last fight and epilogue is like circus.#it was like it was written in last minute.#Jump are scammers#Lol they lodt 2 top mangas in one season!!#Only one piece is left (i don't count Spy family and chainsawman)
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You love to bring up our record. Our record is 4 and 1 after you beat me at WrestleDream, and you beat me, I will give you that.
#aewedit#wrestlingedit#hangman adam page#hangman page#adam page#aew#aew dynamite#fright night dynamite#my gif#hanger gif#that 'not for me' hasn't left my mind one second#this promo hasn't left my mind one second#he's so so sooooo good#the best storyteller in the business and i will not take criticisms bc i am right#i wanna gif the whole thing but my computer has been crashing every 2 seconds this week#i legit wanna ***#anyway bye#edit: i just scrolled down the aewedit tag and there's like at least other 3 versions of this very moment lmao😭😭#sorry i was out all day i only opened tumblr to boop ppl and when i got home i got straight into making this#bc i'd been thinking about it all day i was away from ps it was torture so i didn't see skjdljd so like enjoy all 3467 vers of this ig 😁
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have you even catfished someone?
yes i did. as a male wolf (im afab) inspired by optimus prime. i had 5 wives. on animal jam. in 2015. i was 11.
# nonbinary lesbian in the closet core
also i looked something like this
#i went on dates with them to the cinema in the jungle in different timezones so they wouldn't find out about one another#three of them eventually logged in at the same time and found out#so they divorced me#and i was left with only two wives#gorgeousrose89 i am sorry for cheating on you#you were my favourite wife 💔💔#animal jam#catfishing#catfish#optimus prime#lesbian#nonbinary#sea storytime#sea yaps
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SET SIX - ROUND ONE - MATCH THREE
"Electric Fan (Feel it Motherfuckers): Only Unclaimed Item from the Stephen Earabino Estate" (1997 - John Boskovich) / "Untitled" (Portrait of Ross in L.A.)" (1991 - Félix González-Torres)
ELECTRIC FAN (FEEL IT MOTHERFUCKERS): it makes me literally insane that’s all that’s left of him and he made sure it would stay remembered, something something the last trace of a breath immortalized the only way it could be. Feel it, motherfuckers. (courfeyracs-swordcane) (also submitted by callixton and weeweewhirlwind)
UNTITLED (PORTRAIT OF ROSS IN L.A.): It fucks me up SO MUCH. The artist's partner was named Ross, and died of AIDS in the same year this was created. The ideal weight is roughly the average of an adult man. The allegory there... people taking the candy, decreasing the weight, the same way people took away from Ross and every other victim of the AIDS crisis by refusing to help, to do anything at all. Except this has an "endless supply" of candy. People can take and take and it keeps coming back. They can't get rid of us forever. We will prevail and we will rebuild and I WILL be fucked up about this forever (ceaseless-rambler)
("Electric Fan (Feel It Motherfuckers): Only Unclaimed Item from the Stephen Earabino Estate" is an electric fan encased in plexiglass with vinyl faux etching and a plexiglass base with casters by gay American artist John Boskovich--Stephen Earanbino's partner. It was the last item left in Stephen Earabino's estate after his death by AIDS and measures 56 7/8 x 22 3/4 x 12 1/2 in. (144.5 x 57.8 x 31.8 cm). It is held by The Museum of Contemporary Art in Los Angeles.
"Untitled (Portrait of Ross in LA)" is a modern art installation consisting of wrapped candies (constantly removed and replaced) by gay Cuban-American artist Félix González-Torres after the death of his partner, Ross, by AIDS. The weight is equivalent to a healthy human male - approximately 175 lbs (79kg). It is located at the Art Institute of Chicago, Chicago.)
#art that fucks you up tournament#polls#atfyu polls#id in alt text#did you know wikipedia has an entire page on Art of the AIDS Crisis#i am SO sorry about this matchup. like genuinely. i am torn.#GOD i cannot express how these two make me feel#feel it motherfuckers. feel his breaths. take the candy and know that we are always coming back. that is him and he is here.#idk how to insert this information but john boskovich was not left anything by his lover's family. the refusal of his love by others...#he only got the fan because no one else wanted it. more in the rbs under my main though.#ross in LA has a lot more propaganda but we're going to cycle it. if it doesn't make it past this round we'll post it all.
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it is friday my dudes (little hearts added by @tazmiilly)
#sorryyyyyy for not posting ... please accept these as compensation#gravity falls#fiddleford mcgucket#artwork of the damned#tales of the wild zeep#ummmm ok context for the first one should be mostly self-explanatory#i purposefully left the person he's calling open to interpretation#however for the record i will say i am a 'fiddleford was divorced before he came to gravity falls' truther#but that does not mean he would never call back to cali to check in on his son or anything#so take that as you will#uhhhh everything else is pretty silly and doesnt require much explanation i dont think??#i dont draw pre-college fidds a lot even though i literally have a whole backstory written for him LOLLLL#also i have a whole complex where when i draw a character pre-transition i feel embarrassed#sort of like i've walked in on them in the bathroom or something. like 'whoops sorry' and i politely look away#want to make it VERY CLEAR i dont think theres anything wrong or bad about drawing someone pre-transition!!#it's just a weird thing ive noticed about myself that i'm trying to deal with#and it literally only happens when i'm drawing. not when i'm writing
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also I love 'Yo! Son Goku and Friends Return', it is so stupid (immense joy)
#dbtag#vegeta's so tired of this man every day of his life klasdjaklsj#this movie was the first one toriyama advised on iirc#and it shows it's so silly and fun#this is also the ova that decided geets' style of battle armor is saiyan formal wear and I will die on that hill because nothing is funnier#than a man getting dressed to the nines to go to a fight#one of my all time favorite tropes/gags/character choices#geets during the 7 year gap: damn i'm the only full saiyan left i wish kakarot was still alive#geets experiencing goku during peace time: i am so sorry for what i asked for lord you can have this one back please i'll find the reciept
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My whole life I’ve loved thanksgiving box stuffing. It’s one of my top five favorite foods..I look forward to thanksgiving every year purely for stuffing. Recently I’ve had an awakening and like. Realized I can just make stuffing whenever I want. I can buy a box of stuffing and make it in like 6 minutes. ..eggs are also one of my fav foods, so for dinner tonight I said fuck it and made eggs, avacado toast, and stuffing and lemme tell you it FUCKED
Like hell yeah I’m an adult! I have my own money and free will and I can just combine all my fav foods together for dinner regardless of what anyone else would think about it . Eggs and avacado toast a breakfast food ? FUCK it! Stuffing usually only for holidays or big family gathering meals? FUCK it! Hell yeah I’m enlightened
#mott txt#eggs and avacado toast have been one of my fav meals for years#I mash the avacado with lemon juice salt and pepper#then after it goes on the toast I joint everything bagel seasoning and red pepper flakes#then I like REALLY runny yolks so I put one yolk on the toast#and with the stuffing? immaculate#I also put green onions in the eggs and had broccoli on the side …#I’ll be thinking abt that meal for a while…plus the stuffing will last a while left over and a box was only a dollar!#like no one I know likes stuffing but god it fucks#why am I still going on abt this#sorry
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FINALLY! AT LAST! GRANDDAD’S HORNBLOWER BOOK COLLECTION!!
#news from the cupola#hornblower#granddad tag#LOOK BEHOLD and SEE!#for those who do not recall I have been trying to locate these for Approximately Three Years...#now feeling large and complex emotions about the fact that he left the book-jacket in as a bookmark in lord#I know exactly where he left off when he last read it… (it was page 281)#and now he is Dead. and I miss him.#o granddad... I am stealing his hornblowers and possibly also his name...#feeling also large and complex emotions about the fact that I am only going to have space for one each of his copies of midshipman and#commodore... for each of those he had a lovely crisp copy and one that's worn and battered enough that I'm worried I'll break it#if I really open it up and give it a read! and each of them have their virtues and really it's Augh...#howEver. sorry granddad I will give away your copy of hotspur without shame. I have a lovely scratchboard paperback of which I am Fond.
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I was laying in bed overthinking, as you do, and started to go on a depressive doom spiral. And then, to distract myself I started thinking about the things I like.
[Spoilers and some gross details incoming, you know what Mouthwashing is about]
So, eventually I started thinking about Curly being in a similar headspace as I was, laying down, incapable of doing anything, constantly in pain and hearing time and time again how quickly things are going to shit and that it's all your fault.
Him replaying his mistakes over and over on his head, imagining the many ways things could've gone a different way if only he had done something instead of ignoring the issues to "keep the peace".
Remembering every interaction that led to the accident, Anya's confession, his friends poorly disguised resentment, him ignoring and filtering details of his crew's mental state, her taking the gun, the notice, Jimmy.
Him being a coward and disguising his hate of confrontation with the guise of being a good friend.
And then comming back to reality, to is burning flesh. To the blood, shit and bile staining the bandages, robe and bed, to watching and hearing his friends suffer and die, unable to do anything.
When the kid dies, in the midst of all the emotional chaos, he feels some sick sense of relief knowing that probably Swansea will deal with both of them quickly and it'll be over at last.
Then Jimmy finds the gun.
And he can't help but laugh. He remembers the conversation they had and he cackles bitterly because not even in death can her wishes be respected. She trusted him and he failed her even after she was gone.
Soon enough it's just the two of them left.
Through muffled ears he hears Jimmy rambling, talking to himself, asking questions and answering right after, he sees him moving the bodies around. When Jimmy carries him from the infirmary to the common room table he's still as stone, not a sound leaves his mouth, he doesn't look at the bodies thrown on the chairs around the table, he doesn't even breathe.
But all of Jimmy's attention, hatred, idolatry, and envy are on him only. Eyes glossy, cut pieces of a one sided conversation and a tentative smile on his lips when he reaches for the slightly dented knife.
He screams until his lungs close and his throat burns. When he's fed parts of himself he cries and throws up until he is forced to swallow and keep it down.
He's dehidrated, half delirious from the blood loss and emotionally checked out when Jimmy picks him up and tells him they can still fix this, he knows what to do. That he's going home.
Sure, he thinks, he wants to go home.
When he's placed on the cryopod he just stares at Jimmy talk to himself at him some more, about being heroes and everything being all right now. Then he steps out of sight.
It's on the silence after the loud bang when his brain starts working again, he's completely and utterly alone on a crashed ship of a company that's closing it's doors, with a now depleted shipment that wasn't even important enough to guarantee a search party, and no way of fending for himself in the case of 20 years passing and no one coming, even less if the power gave out before that.
As the cryopod finally starts to cool, the few tears he has left fall from his remaining eye.
He hopes he doesn't wake up to see what happens next.
..ok see y'all when I wake up-
#I wish I was better at talking about the themes of the game and characterizing the crew. There's so much I wanna say-#I want to play the game again just to see if I missed anything in here but it's almost 6 am and my brain is shutting down#I would blame stress and insomnia on this but I legit think about this when I come across the tag again#I want to talk about his guilt of wishing he never helped jimmy get the job. how he wished he died first. how his crew didn't deserve it-#and *if* he makes it out. the surviors guilt. the trauma and the pain it would still chase him for the rest of his life#damn. in any sueing case the company could use him being traumatized and vulnerable to make him agree that it was all his fault-#I swear the rest of the time I imagine a what if AU where Jimmy gets yeeted into space by Swansea and they all live happily ever after#this is basically a fic at this point and I'm so sorry but I wrote too much to delete it all now in a state of post revision clarity lmao#me being a dumbass#mouthwashing#tw death#Ideally Anya would be the one throwing him into space. And Swansea would help her bc honestly fuck Jimmy#Curly would be held at arms length until they've gone back home. only left there to pilot them back safely#long ass post#long ass tags
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2b shidou and cheers. let the man be silly :3
I REMMEBERED I COULD COLOUR THE LINES
anyways finally! the man can be silly!
#milgram#milgram fanart#shidou kirisaki#i hope someone notices how specific i am with making sure all the happy ones are drawn as him in triage and not him in milgram (gunshot)#anyways if you cant tell i really like doomed r/s but only when one is left with the remains of what was. bonus points for untimely death#actually bonus points for the r/s can never be remade and not for a lack of trying#ok ill stop yapping now . i have favourites im sorry if you can tell
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Finally have enough texturing done on him I can get back to taking screenshots. Body is BodyTalk, Skin textures are an edit of Vobla's MACABRE, hair is Oni's Vanilla Retexture, and everything else is custom. Outfit is here.
#there are almost no vanilla textures or models left on this man. he is the blorbo of theseus.#his face shape is untouched besides putting a bit more fat on his neck. the only thing i changed is the overlays#body shape however is totally new. sorry vanilla purists i am down with the thickness#the eyes/eyelashes are all new meshes/textures as are the eyebrows and teeth/tongue but you cant really see those#body hair is actually a daz3d asset that I bought. used blender to shrink wrap and bake it onto the bodytalk body#ive painted my own in the past but i like this one much better#my mods#my screenshots#tag danse later
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Super angry at arc 3 of arcane btw. They rushed to close everything up and it shows
#the characters are so empty#like legit the only one with normal character development is jinx. like. the only one o get where she comes from is JINX.#Also Ekko. loved what they did for him there. everyone gets desolation and he gets a slice of life romance with the (doomed) childhood crush#no one is doing it like him#but also. they don’t even MENTION isha. like. I get it. she died. it’s devastating. but?#what the fuck you go onto the next thing?? WHAT THE FUCK#and I won’t even touch Viktor ‘’’I’m gonna build a place to heal people’ to ‘everyone is a hive mind machine now��� like WHAT#ngl I thought the fandom would be like Jayce I stand by my cancelled wife and all#BUT THE CANON WENT AND JUST….DEPRIVED VIKTOR OF CARE AND HUMANITY? HE IS JUST A WEAPON AND A CALAMITY NOW I GUESS??#Like yeah….he was doomed from the start with the sickness and the canon and all but? there’s doomed by the narrative and there’s like…#WE WILL PUT HOLES THROUGH YOU AND LACK OF CARE AMD COMPASSION AND UNDERSTANDING UNTIL YOU FUCKING GET YOUR DOOM#GET WITHTHE NARRATIVE VIKTOR YOUARE EVIL#‘no I am just healing people from shimmer which is very bad and harmful and painful’‘#NO VIKTOR YOU ARE EVIL SEE? THAT WHY I KILLED YOU BC YOUARE EVIL#existence became so painful to him he went and said no there’s not fixing this. I am throwing my emotions in the waste bin and go machine’#WHY DOESNT HE GETS TO BE ANGRY AND BETRAYED? LIKE AT LEATS SILCO GOT TO BE RIGTEOUS#WHY IS THIS SHIT AGAIN THEY TRY TO KILL YOU BC YOU ARE EVIL AND THEY TURN YOU INTO EVIL BC WHATS LEFT BUT THEN THEY WERE RIGHT TO DO IT??#LIKE. no. I’m sorry but no. fuck that I’m out.#FUCK THIS SHIT I AM WO ANGRY#VIKTOR?? VIKTOR IS THE BIG BAD? THE THING THAT UNIFIES ZAUN AND PILTOBER? FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU. FUCK YOU.
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