#that he is into me and then it sorta went downhill from there and now im like... well if you wanna hang out one on one it could be fully

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[star1ight0]

Shouta Aizawa x Reader "Room for one more" PLATONIC

Tw for runaway/kicked out, abuse and sh(sorta)

Quirk: garden: allows you to manipulate and grow plants

Request are open

You had attended UA high for some time now and had made it into class 1-A you were lucky to be there considering how against your parents were. However the only reason you are able to attend was under the Principal Nezu's offer to have the school assist money wise. Your parents hated heroes and the idea of their kid being one disgusted them. You made it a point to mention as little school at home to avoid confrontation. But being that you enrolled late you had some paperwork to do.

You had asked for more time to get it filled out as it seemed impossible to talk to your parents together about the matter. However this was already 3 months into the school year, and you could tell both Aizawa and Nezu were tired of your excuses.

Aizawa made an effort early in the year to show as little care as possible to his students, and this was further proven by how strict he was and how careless he seemed to act towards all of 1-A. This was quickly disproven when he seemed to sacrifice himself for the class as a whole.

That being said you were the only enrolled student without everything completed, so he made it clear he'd have you removed from the class.

When you got home your mom was at work and your father seemed to be in a good mood so you pulled out the paper work from you bag and sat at the table with your dad.

"Can you um.. help me fill these out please dad. It has a bunch of questions about family health history and I also need your signature on some."

"Why? I thought you'd be smart enough to do this shit since you seem to be too good for this family we've done enough just allowing you to go to that god forsaken school."

After some back and forth it seemed to escalate and it only worsened once your mother got home. It went from paperwork to how horrible of a child you were.

"Sense you are too good for this family maybe you should just leave. "

Everything seemed to go downhill from there. You tried to reason with her and convince her to just let you say but it only seemed to make her want you in the house even less. Finally you tried to reason with them one more time ultimately getting yourself a hit to the face from your dad. Ending with him giving you till the end of the night to leave the house.

What were you even supposed to do? You had a bag with a few clothes and not much money. Most of your extended family lived on the opposite side of Japan so there was no way you could get there nor stay there for more than a few days.

There was absolutely no way in hell you could tell any of your UA friends you parents just kicked you out over hero school paper work. So you had little to no options.

A few hours passed and you were out wandering the streets and you decided it'd be best to just go back to the school and find somewhere to crash for the night. Halfway to the school it started raining and it was well past midnight and you still had nowhere to go. You sat in a nearby coffee shop soaked and used some of the money left on your card. You scrolled through your phone trying to think of someone to call when your eyes landed on your homeroom teacher's number. It was a bad idea right?

He probably wouldn't answer anyways, but what other choice did you have? The phone rang 3 times and just as you were about to give up the line picked up

It's 2 in the morning you better be dying or calling on accident kid.

No unfortunately, I um- do you - um..

Spit it out kid I'm tired and UA doesn't pay me nearly enough

Yeah no sorry um.. is the school open?

No why the hell would it be open. Why are you even calling?

Um..

You feel a knot in your throat and your mind went completely blank

Are you okay kid? Where the hell are you

Um a coffee show a few blocks from the school. I- don't -

You can feel breaking down completely on the phone and your brain forming incoherent sentences.

Just stay there. Don't move. I'll be there in like.. 8 minutes.

After some time past Aizawa showed up and the first few minutes were just him trying to get you to calm down without saying anything that could possibly make you shut down completely. After you were completely calm and got you in the car.

If you tell me why you're out at 2am and what the hell and who the hell happened to your face. . I'll let you sleep on the couch.

You placed your hands on your lap and summoned small vines with thorns around your hands and then they all disappeared and you could feel Aizawa looking at you canceling it out. "None of that. Okay? Just talk about it. Please kid, you gotta give me something to work with before I let you crash on my couch"

You looked over at him pulled out the blank paper work "They don't like heros. They only let me go because. . Nezu offered to pay for most of it. I asked for them to help and.. it all escalated so quickly. Next thing I knew : hit to the face from my dad and my mom telling me to get out."

He looked to you with a feeling you couldn't quite understand, was it anger? Was he angry at you for this, your mind began to race and you felt yourself closing off again and feel your chest pound.

"you'll stay at my apartment, for now at least. You won't be going back home for a while"

As you went to protest the idea he shut it down quickly saying it was no trouble and reassuring you on the matter as a whole.

Sorry I haven't been posting I'm busy and stressed

[catscidr]

HIIII CAN I GET DOTTORE(WEBTOON VER) X READER (fluff if u want) PLS..... where ur his assistant (besides krupp, like reader and krupp are both his assistant) and he so clearly has favoritism towards reader, bro is SMITTEN. have a good day... :D

this is sorta taking place right when the manga starts, right before dottore and the gang have a meeting about fatui stuff n all. also spoilers for the manga kinda if u haven't read it already?? i threw krupp under the bus a lot but its to make up for the fact that he’s alive in this lmaoa sry to any krupp lovers out there (′ʘ⌄ʘ‵) also there’s a lot of buildup n world building kinda im sorry i got in the zone HAHA ALSO MB THIS TOOK A WHILE TO WRITE i was drowning in leftover dessert from the holidays and was in a food coma for a couple o days. forgive me nonnie but u can get ur food now ⸝⸝⸝⸝⸝⸝ cw: reader is overwhelmed, not proofread i just went ham. not too much dialogue it's mostly unspoken bc webttore is an "actions > words" kinda man includes: fem reader, webttore, krupp, diluc mentionned wc: 1,7k

The mission was a complete and utter disaster. 

All three of you were supposed to attend the Ragnvindr ball with a simple goal; blend in as much as possible, gather intel on the Knights of Favonius and leave without a hitch. Of course, that wasn’t an easy task considering Dottore’s eccentric and unpredictable personality and Krupp being a thorn in your side at best. 

Things started going downhill before you had even left your private quarters. While you were getting ready, carefully blinking as you brushed your mascara into your lashes to blend them in with your fake ones, you were startled by a loud, quick series of knocks on your door, making you smudge the dark pigment on your eyelid. Seeing the look on your face, Krupp had apologized (halfheartedly) before leaving you to your devices, seemingly forgetting why he had even interrupted you in the first place. You tried to convince yourself that it was fine, it was an easy fix anyways- but you couldn’t help but get irritated by your coworker’s behaviour at the very least. 

The next accident happened when the three of you had stepped out of the carriage in front of the Ragnvindr mansion. Masquerading as Dottore’s concubine, he held your hand to help you out of the caravan. That in it of itself was fine; the texture of his velvet glove was nice, the warmth emanating from his hand was even nicer and you swore you saw his face soften at the sight of you carefully stepping down the singular stair, leg jutting out as you balanced yourself on the cobblestone path on your heels. But Krupp just had to step on the back of your dress, a brown footprint now adorning the periwinkle frilly trail of your gown. The only good thing that came out of it was Dottore moving his hand to your waist and swiveling you to his side, fixing his assistant with a hard glare that could kill. 

Then, after you had gotten most of the dirt out of your dress (with the help of a kind butler), your trio stepped into the venue, splitting into two groups. Krupp would blend in with a group of nobles whereas you and Dottore, arms linked together, would speak to people in the Knights directly. Eyeing your coworker in the crowd, you saw him courteously kiss the back of a noblewoman’s hand; despite the slight look of disgust crossing your face, he seemed to be doing well with the mission. 

However, it seemed that whatever Archon was watching over you then didn’t appreciate the lack of drama. As Dottore introduced the both of you to a platinum-haired man, he had gotten his shoulder shoved by what had appeared to be a new hire from the manor (at least, you assumed so considering the way he had immediately gotten yelled at by a lady older than him). 

You yelped when the Harbinger spilled his drink all over the front of your dress, some champagne sliding down your chest leaving an uncomfortable, sticky feeling on your skin. Cheeks reddening from embarrassment and frustration, you brush away his frantic apology as you storm out, grabbing a handful of napkins on a nearby table while making your way to the closest bathroom. 

Thankfully it wasn’t hard to find, not with a maid offering to help you (she had gotten turned down but kindly pointed you in the right direction at the very least). Patting your skin dry, you burst into the surprisingly empty bathroom and assessed the damage. 

That’s where you are currently. 

Staring at the state of your previously pristine appearance you can’t help but tear up. Sure, this was just for a mission, and you could just wipe away the booze as much as you could and go back to do your job. But the one time you get to dress nice, the one time you can rid yourself of that ugly, stuffy uniform and feel pretty... had to be ruined by men. While it wasn’t exactly Dottore’s fault that he spilled his drink all over your dress, you still felt mad at Krupp for stepping on it when you all had first arrived. Was it petty to still be upset about it? Yes. Were your feelings justified? Also yes. 

Being the Doctor’s assistant was a chore. A challenge, sometimes. He was demanding, strict and you often had to walk on eggshells around him to avoid setting him off. Whenever it happened, he’d start ranting and raving about how incompetent everyone in the fatui was- although, he’d never point a finger at you, usually Krupp was on the receiving end of his bite (even if he wasn’t even included in the conversation). 

Knowing him well enough to understand his moods and personality had its perks. Unfortunately, it also had its drawbacks- those being how, naturally, your boss would also know how to read your mood surprisingly well. Dottore was known to be mean and ruthless to anyone he crossed path with, however, he’s always had a soft spot for you. 

Sometimes it was obvious that he did, but sometimes it was like he saw your coworker’s face instead of your own- scowling at your mistakes and scolding you harshly for mixing in the wrong powder in a flask. Whenever that happened, you could almost forget how he was able to hold you so gently, as if you were a glass sculpture ready to break if even the slightest breeze hit you. But if he were to be described with one word, you’d never call him dense- as entitled as he could be, the Harbinger was still (maybe surprisingly) quite well-versed in human emotions. 

You barely hear your name being called in the distance, muffled by the sound of the angelic piano and violin in the main area. Too caught up in your thoughts, you continue seething and aggressively rubbing away the sticky residue on your chest, muttering some choice words about your coworker and your boss. 

The door to the women’s bathroom flies open, revealing a frustrated but concerned Dottore, his curly hair a mess from how often he must have run his hand through it while he ran to find you. Uncaring of how he was intruding on your moment and how he was in the women’s restroom, he stomps over to you, gloved hands coming down to your shoulders as he closes the distance between you so he can look at the damage properly. 

He doesn’t speak for what felt like minutes, leaving your heart to pound in a mix of shock (who wouldn’t get scared at the sight of a Harbinger slamming a door open?) and nervousness. One of his hands come down to move your own that still held onto the (now damp) napkins as he stared at the front of your dress. 

The sweetheart cut of your dress was soaked, the edge and thin lace sticking to your skin, light indigo dye appearing darker because of the stain. Snapping out of your frozen stupor, you push his hand away and bring your hands back up to cover your chest, flustered from how hard he was staring with those blank, crimson eyes. 

“...You’re in the wrong bathroom,” you murmur, unsure of how to get him to leave you alone without possibly setting him off. Dottore’s eyes flicker up to your side profile, his expression still freakishly unreadable. 

You suddenly feel both of his hands on your cheeks as he manhandles you to look at him, your heart skipping a beat. Unable to bring yourself to stay mad, tears prick at your eyes, and you look down. Holding his gaze was impossible, not when you’ve been feeling humiliated since the start of the evening. He doesn’t comment on your sorrow, keeping on staring at you intently. 

“I can always buy you a new, nicer dress if that’s what you want,” you hear him say, voice uncharacteristically quiet, and maybe even... unsure? 

You shake your head softly, sniffling. 

“No? Why are you upset, then?” 

Hearing him so utterly confused, puzzled, perplexed made you even more frustrated. Furious, even. With your emotions all over the place and a newfound fury blazing in your limbs you snatch his hands off from your face and stomp out of the bathroom, shouting I’m waiting in the carriage! before stepping out into the chilly Mondstadtian evening breeze. 

Dottore stood there, brows furrowed and mouth agape in confusion as he blinked at your retreating figure. He didn’t have the chance to go after you because, as if on cue, Krupp interrupted the show. 

“I gathered some juicy intel, boss! Those Knights are incredibly foolish for being so loose lipped,” the mustached man declares proudly, acutely unaware of the stuffy atmosphere. Maybe not completely unaware, but he’s for sure ignoring it if he noticed it. Instead of hearing him out though, Dottore scoffs and walks into him, shoving him to the side with a scowl. 

“Don’t waste my time with your useless boasting. We’re leaving,” the Harbinger all but groaned, running a hand through his hair, stress emanating from him in waves. His assistant catches up to him, stuttering out a Of course sir! as he opens the door for him, his shoes digging into the cobblestone path. 

Dottore immediately looks at your sat figure, chin in your palm, looking out of the window. The sight would make him melt if it weren’t for his other assistant’s presence a mere meter away from him. He says your name quietly, softly enough that no one other than you can hear and Krupp steps into the carriage, shouting directions to the driver. 

“Can I stay in the lab next time?” you grumble, refusing to turn around and look at your boss and coworker. Krupp opens his mouth to scold you, but Dottore beats him to it, shooting him a sharp glare, lips curling down in a frown. 

“You can,” he answers you while still looking at his employee. “In fact, it’ll give me an opportunity to properly teach my other assistant some manners,” he adds, practically growling the sentence. Krupp swallows thickly and pretends to not be involved in the conversation, looking away nervously. On the opposite side of the plush seat, you hide the smile creeping its way onto your features.

Ignoring the way your heart swelled, you inwardly celebrate your small victory. Dottore could be brash and cruel, but you’ll always cherish the moments when he shows you some lenience. Especially when it’s at the cost of your coworker’s imprudence. 

[md-confessions]

Sorry if I sound rambly, but

For the story Liam wanted to tell, he needed N and V's relationship, also, Nuzi was the plan by episode 3 at the latest, the pilot/heartbeat at the earliest. V's treatment of N is required to why N and Uzi connected so much, both N and Uzi were disliked by pretty much everyone in their lives (especially J and Khan in the lives of the Disassembly Drone and the Worker Drone, the former is straight up an Abuser, both physically and emotionally, it's hard to deny it, while Khan says Uzi is a disappointment in public tv like it's nothing, which is kinda abusive IMO. Not even when N was a worker he was free of abuse, the Elliots and other humans aside from Tessa treated him like he was nothing but mere scrap) and they found comfort in each other.

While she cared for N and didn't wanna have him hurt, much less wanting him to remember how his life went downhill, she did it in the worst way she could, she pushed and neglected N for at least 2 decades if we're presuming the DDs were in Copper-9 back when Uzi was a pill baby. (Uzi is canonically 18-19, maybe 20)

V was a stepping stone in N's development, not only as a character but also his relationships, he originally was a traumatized man that was scared to stand up for others, I'd argue his feelings for V were partly due to him still having faint memories of the Manor days but also the fact V didn't abuse him physically like J did, it's sorta like an abused child. They might flock to their "less abusive" parent.

This changed when he met Uzi Doorman, a Worker Drone who had gotten into the corpse spire, while he thought he was some sort of Disassembly/Worker Drone hybrid thing made to blend in with the Workers, but when they got to talking, she wasn't like J or V, she showed him kindness and he showed her kindness back, it's something both have not had for pretty much their entire lives, we also get to see the scene with the heart gun during the V and N/J and Uzi fight, another example of how N still had feelings for V at this point. By the end of the pilot, N hasn't developed his personality much, but he at least has someone to rely on, Uzi.

In episode 2 we get to see N try to keep Uzi and V from fighting during the intro, with the scene where N drags Uzi behind him after V accuses Uzi of her backstory being bullshit, also with later context, V was the liar, she probably knows why the Solver sent them there yet she hid it, trying to act all cool and stuff.

By the end of the episode Uzi becomes scared of N, which causes N to become worried he might have lost his only friend, V just says she hates him normally but this is worse, the only concern is in her face, and it's mild concern. V looks at the broken chain, which leads to the next episode.

And episode 3 is a major part of their relationship, it is where it's revealed V still cares for N and her treatment of him was a way of trying to protect him from the solver stuff, she has a reason and justification for her actions now, it's not just "I don't care about him" V's role in this episode is as its secondary antagonist (just behind Doll) This episode has a very important moment for their relationship, At the start, V demanded N to get her and him suits for the Prom, and get Uzi to let them in and kill all the Workers, V makes fun of Uzi by saying she doesn't have any friends, and then shoot her in the head, N is against this plan, already a sign he's starting to learn to stand up for himself by refusing to free V for "Prom Murder" and he starts talking about his dreams, talking about how they possibly grew up in a haunted mansion, V shows actual concern for N (for the first time in the show, at least directly), asking him and Uzi to stop prying into the Solver business.

She tries to barter with N to free her, she promises she'll only kill if necessary, though she says "You and Me, N" implying she'll still kill Uzi. Before V flies off to go commit mass murder, N tries to get her to talk about her past and work together with him, though she decapitates him, she says she knows what's best for him, even if he hates her for it. This moment outright confirms that V definitely cares for N and just doesn't want him getting hurt, even if it means she has to do it by extreme means.

And then the whole main episode happens, Uzi discovers the plan, Uzi and N reconcile, Uzi's feelings for N probably blossomed here, yadda yadda yadda, Lizzy says V is hot, yadda yadda yadda, Doll fight, yadda yadda yadda, Chica-bow V shoots Doll.

Later while exploring Doll's home, the two Disassembly Drones find the corpses of Yeva and Adam (fan name for Doll's father, I am not calling him Doll's father everytime I mention him) and when V sees the corpses, after Doll used her powers to remind her of her actions, she doesn't care much and the most she says is "they didn't taste good" which leads to N saying "V, you kinda suck" this is something N would have never said in the pilot.

N finally starts to doubt his feelings for V, at this point he doesn't have his memories of the manor, so to him, he's pretty much only ever had those feelings due to the fact she was the least abusive to him, and she literally cut his damn head off, I get why he'd be doubting if he even actually loved V at all.

Episode 4 is also important, it's where N's completely learns to stand up for himself, pretty much part of the reason why Uzi went freaky deaky is because V pretty much gaslighted and antagonize Uzi into thinking N didn't care about her and how if she died he wouldn't care. (Something she for a fact knows isn't true, as seen with N between Heartbeat and The Promening and Uzi didn't even die, imagine if she did) V is still trying to keep Uzi and N away, since from last episode, V knows that Uzi has the solver and she's scared N might get killed by Uzi due to it.

At a later point Uzi turns an arrow into some weird fleshy homunculus and V for a second looked panic, she immediately drew her weapons as she saw that. V went to go chase after Uzi while N tried to stop V, the two argue, at this argument, N finally is honest about this whole thing where V is hiding shit from N and Uzi, it's scaring him, V uses cryptic language to refer to a certain "thing" that will leave them alone, N then finally stands up to V, he berates her about her treatment of him, asking what she's so afraid of, he explains how V keeping him in the dark about this is scaring him and Uzi, N reminds V that Uzi is a kid, like them, to him, V has no reason to fear Uzi. N doesn't know about Cyn and the Solver and stuff due to the Solver wiping his and J's memories.

This argument comes to halt when N asks "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?" V's face goes from anger to worry, N tells V to look after the campers as he goes investigate what's going on with Uzi.

After Uzi murders 2/3rds of her whole class V comes into put down Uzi, the Solver Drone pleads with the Dissasembly Drone to let her live, V refers to Uzi as "Cyn" saying "New Body, same Horrors?" in V's point of view, Cyn is the one behind this, not the solver, for all she knows Cyn IS the solver itself. Uzi pleads with V, asking if she can talk with N, the only person that could calm her down, and as shown later, if V had allowed N to come and comfort Uzi, things probably wouldn't have gone as bad, some campers might still have died but V still got her ass kicked.

V gets her ass kicked by Uzi Yadda, Yadda, Yadda, N comes to the rescue and after Uzi stabs him with the nanite tail she goes back to normal, N throws her into the sky and the two Dissasembly Drones talk, N tells her "what did I tell you about antagonizing her" before he goes comfort Uzi, telling her they'll take baby steps, together. After V sees N and Uzi hugging, she goes from being on edge to calming down slightly, at this point she notices maybe N doesn't need her anymore, maybe he's fine with just Uzi supporting him.

At the end she looks at Uzi and N, worried, a lot of people think she's jealous but I don't think so, I think she's still got that worry that Uzi go haywire again and get N killed, but it could also be due to N and Uzi now looking into the Solver, together.

Episode 5 is mostly a flashback episode (technically) and it shows that N and V, at one point in the past had mutual feelings for each other, as throughout most of that episode N and V are their past selves, they're silly little teenagers who got a mutual crush on each other, I'd argue this is the closest eNVy ever got to being canon. The solver uses V to do weird robot surgery on N and turn him into a Dissasembly Drone, and N gives V back her glasses so she could grab the scalpel, V hesitates and slowly recites the Golden Retrievers have gentle mouths thing, cute moment, sadly the Solver decides to ruin this moment by slamming V into the wall and trying to give N a lobotomy.

Episode 6 is V's (presumable final episode) in this episode V seems to care for both Uzi and N, though there isn't a big V and N moment before the big one (there's more Uzi and V in this episode before the big one)

Ok now lets talk about the big one, AKA: V's sacrifice at the end of the episode, so pretty much throughout the entire episode the reason why V defended Uzi so much against the sentinels, Alice and Beau is because she noticed how much she mattered to N, and it's part of the reason for the sacrifice in my eyes, I wouldn't say she did it exclusively for that though, I feel like you could read it as a form of suicide (I know this took a dark turn but) V has pretty much lived a horrible life, form conception down to this moment, as said before, she has noticed that N needs Uzi, and from V's POV, she has done her purpose, she finally trusts Uzi, the reason she didn't get in the elevator wasn't just because she couldn't, it's because she didn't want to.

I think The Genius page on Eternal Dream is not only an amazing Breakdown of V's character but also the song itself.

N and V never directly do anything in episode 7 (as V doesn't appear herself aside from the Solver posing as her), when Nori tells him to hide the fact she's actually alive, N refuses, saying she won't hide anything from Uzi anymore. Not only is he hiding the fact "Tessa" wants him to kill her, but also, he doesn't want to do the same mistakes V did when trying to protect him.

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[duusheen]

okay but hear me out: do you think Leif did so well with his daughters because he idolized his mom and adored daphne but jay reminded him too much of his dad and so his resentment and him finally being the one with power in the relationship took over??? like they even sorta named the kid after journey and leif & journey KINDA made up but he never actually really dealt with the impact his dad's alcoholism had on his childhood.

first of all. i love you 😭💖👏🏽 And the short answer is yes! Now, the long answer...

I mean, it's never been a secret that Leif enjoys the company of women. Growing up in a household with two men after losing his mom, it makes some sense. Now, the two most important women in his life have been Lindsay and Daphne, both much more mature than him, who dedicated themselves to taking care of him. Can you see that? Because I see some mommy issues there 🤣🤣 Leif's weakness extends to his daughters, being permissive and understanding.

Now, about "fixing" things with Journey… I guess Leif could never fully forgive him for the alcoholism thing, and Journey knew it, but no matter how many apologies were made, the past couldn't be erased. They both agreed to leave it behind for the sake of the entire family.

As for Jay, he not only reminds Leif of Journey but also of himself. We all saw how difficult it was for Leif to decide to leave college, to fight with his dad during that time in his youth when he didn't know exactly what to do with his life until he took the big step to become a freelance artist. A part of him doesn't want Jay to go through all that and have his dreams crushed, especially since being a musician might be even harder than being an artist. The problem with Leif is that he won't put in enough effort to truly UNDERSTAND Jay. He said no, Jay said yes, and from there it all went downhill lol. It didn't help at all that Jay chose Miracle as his life partner because Leif and Lindsay… yeah, not good. Another person he has hurt and has never apologized to.

In essence, Leif has always lived in a bubble where he's the center of attention, and anything that doesn't go his way, he simply brushes aside. The problem is, now that he's lived long enough, he's realizing that all his decisions have only served to push away the people he cares about. Especially because his fight with Jay somehow affected Daphne and the girls, given that he simply disappeared from everyone's life. But even so, I'm not sure if he knows how to take the step and say "I'm sorry"

[johnslittlespoon]

It just makes so much sense that you were writing in 2013, you have the unhinged vibe that the golden fics from that era had.

I'm just here to compliment you really lol, mostly because I am giving a try to write a lil something for the first time and god I can only dream of ever being able to write as good as you. I've been writing poems and music for years now but i find writing actual coherent storys with characters and dialogue so so hard.

I was wondering if you have any tips, or like little rules you follow when you write.

all the love, xxx

🌷

I'M GONNA CRYYYY this was the sweetest thing in the world to wake up to wtf wtf <333 thank you SO much, i really appreciate this wahh my heart :'))) but also you are SILLY. don't compare yourself to others!! if we all did that constantly we'd never get anything written!! there are SO many authors i adore on here that will always have me chasing the "i wish i could write like that" feeling and it's a great motivator but alsooo at the end of the day. you gotta fall in love with your own words and characters and stories <33

and i feel that so much!! we are twinsss, i also started out writing poems and music and then realized i had stories i wanted to tell that wouldn't fit in shorter form, then discovered fanfic in middle school in the early '10s and it was all downhill from there LOL. truly such a golden era tho oh my god. growing up reading the hat fic and borderline illegible wattpad stories was certainly... formative!

yapping ahead vv (i don't have much advice bc i'm still just learning as i go but hopefully some stuff i picked up on can be a bit helpful!)

i have zero method to the madness when writing so it's a relief to know it doesn't come off that way LOL but i do have a few little things that i follow and i always look for them when beta–ing as well! they're pretty small technical things and they're generally up to personal preference, but some of them come from authors i admire and i think they can really take anyone's writing up a notch <3

i don't feel qualified to give advice because i'm just raw–dogging everything lmao i've never taken classes or anything, so take all this yapping with a grain of salt bc it's just what's worked for me!

– i try to use descriptors like "the man" or "the blond" or "his friend" etc sparingly. i wish i could remember the source, but i read a great piece about why it's better to just go with the character's name 99% of the time, and then i went through so many of my works to edit them and i felt so much more confident in my writing afterwards– it made a big difference in readability (imo).

ofc there are exceptions, like if the name of a character is unknown, or if there are too many names being thrown around in one sentence and a "the man" or "the soldier" etc just sits nicer. i definitely still use them occasionally! but it does sometimes put some distance between the reader and the story when those descriptors are used too often instead of names, so it's a good thing to keep an eye out for when it comes to flow. sometimes less or more or whateva ??

– sorta on the topic of less is more, i love challenging myself to show vs tell when i can! whether it's by keeping dialogue short and letting actions speak instead (can add to intimacy/realism– we communicate so much through body language yk), through metaphors (literally how my whole '#john egan is dog coded' fic was born LOL), or describing feelings rather than spelling them out (his heart ached vs he was sad, his pulse raced vs he was scared, you get the gist). you said you've been writing poems so i feel like stuff like that would already probably come easily to you tho! <3

– this guide on ao3 is great for smut writers! whether someone's a beginner or just looking for ways to elevate the filth, i found it really helpful, it's a fun read as well lol. it calls out stereotypes/cliches and teaches you how to reword them, gives lists of slang and reactionary words, do's and don't's, etc. i don't follow everything in it but that's the beauty of writing; we all have things that work for us and things that don't and that's so okay. :-)

– in the same way that artists use references to practice and find their style, you can do that with writing too! i know a lot of writers have a doc or note where they jot down stylistic things they find while reading that they'd like to emanate, or words they want to use, specific phrases, descriptors, etc. if i'm reading a fic and find an auditory descriptor i like, i might take note of it, stuff like that. sorta like a text document version of a pinterest board!

– thesaurus.com is my best friend truly. often going with the 'simplest' version of a word makes for smoothest reading so someone isn't taken out of the story being like wtf does that word mean lol but sometimes things can feel repetitive, or like there just needs to be a little bit more spice; i probs go back and forth btwn my doc and thesaurus a dozen times an hour tbh.

that's all i can think of rn and ik those are pretty basic so i'm sorry about that!! i really do just kinda write what evokes emotions in myself, and then i hit post and hope it translates over to whoever is reading too :') drawing from your own experiences if you can/really sitting with what the characters would be feeling in whatever scenario you're writing is probably the most powerful way to present what you see in your mind.

i have a hard time writing about emotions/things i haven't personally experienced, so i usually stray away from it out of fear of not getting across what i want to, but some people are great at winging it and putting themselves in unfamiliar shoes so!! it's again just personal preference really.

and alsooo be kind to yourself! i'm an anxious wreck every time i post any of my writing, i am very much not confident when posting new fics and i agonize over my docs so much and trash a lot of works, but i know at the end of the day i can't grow or learn if i don't get the words down, and i can't get feedback or gain confidence if i don't post. becoming your own hype man and giving yourself the opportunity to improve is essential <33

sooo much love and best of luck!!! lmk if you end up writing smth, i'd love to read it (◠‿◠✿)

[narashikari]

Truth be told, as someone who is fine with Michinaga (I understand his motives but condemn his actions), I don't think there is any possible way to fully satisfy everyone with his ending? Forgetting everything? The worst option. Dying a painful redemption via death? Haters will dislike the short term process of it. Living with the memories of the DGP? Preferable if you're interested in lost of purpose, empty feelings, and mental anguish. Not so much if you're not interested in atonement.

Continuing my previous ask, I think the struggle to fully satisfy everyone with a 'proper ending' is due to how Buffa is written. Because the concept of someone obsessed with destroying an organization for enabling misery, and in the process being fine with becoming a monster if it means destroying the evil org as well, only to be forced to acknowledge that there is more than simply vengeance, I think is neat. The problem is that due to the writing, he just ends up this giant hypocrite instead.

Buffa's given the basic rule of 'I don't tolerate backhanded cheating' with Mary in the beginning, but when going rogue is allied with Beroba, who is literally that made manifest. I think it's due to Takahashi having a habit of using characters as vehicles for his writing, too focused on presenting the themes of the series through the Riders, and in the process not realizing that what he sees and what the audience sees aren't exactly the same thing. (EX: Thouser's shoehorned 'redemption')

Yup I totally agree with all of this. I sorta pointed it out in a previous ask here, but Azuma's desire is not really an option if justice and closure are what the characters want.

I felt Azuma went downhill as a character when he teamed up with Beroba and especially after the Bullfighting round. I would've appreciated the idea of someone who stopped at nothing to get what he wanted, but still draws the line somewhere, and he even manages to act like a decent guy sometimes. I even would've appreciated him pointing out that it may be more realistic to just bring it all down instead of striving for something as idealistic as what Keiwa wants.

But man... The hypocrisy is truly astonishing. The audacity of this bullhead to say something like that to Keiwa, when he used Keiwa's death to remake the world into his image (which benefited no one but him) really grinded my gears. Man really said he wants to stop the DGP from making people suffer usinh their dreams as bait but goes stomping about literally crushing their dreams in his hands, forever apparently?

It doesn't help that a good chunk of the audience thinks that Azuma is the GOAT or something for his philosophy or whatever is going on in that bull's brain + OP status.

For me though, he just sounds like a typical asshole strongman who wants to enforce his own version of the world onto everyone, thinking it's inherently better than everyone else's and that might makes right, even when it just leaves everybody else empty or worse. He just happened to have succeeded.

For now, at least.

[lukewholey-blog]

Thought of doing this Blog but not sure if I should due to how controversial it is as it’s about youtubers I used to like but not so much anymore. Its not a callout post or me going on about how much I hate this people, these people are just doing their jobs and I have the Utmost respect for those that are fans of these people and you have the right to still like them and their content. It’s just the stuff they do or the stuff they did that make me not be a fan of them anymore and hit ‘unsubscribe’. I wont link them their channels out of respect. If you like these youtubers and their channels that’s great. all the power to you. I thought it would be a way to get it off my chest and Explain why I don’t like these people so much anymore.  So without further ado here are my:

YOUTUBERS I USED TO SUBSCRIBE TO BUT NOT ANYMORE. 

5. The Completionist

Man, this one is the most heartbreaking. Jirard was one of my favourite Gaming youtubers where he makes you proud to be a gamer. I did feel his reviews were best during the Greg era as Greg was the comedic foil to Jirard’s straight man. And even after the fallout and the episodes he was in were re-reviewed for ‘New Game plus’, they were still good. Sadly after December 2023 where he was exposed and accused of Charity Fraud, his team left and his reviews went downhill to becoming just..basic reviews. No in-depth list of things to do and collect to fully complete the game and his ratings were just meh. His fanbase has been split with those that still like Jirard and those that hate him and want him to go down. I still like Jirard and I hope he recovers from what’s going on but with the state of his channel it’s hard to say. I finally unsubscribed to him as he only uploaded 2 videos in the last 4 months. No update video or at least his finale review of Diddy Kong’s quest. I will check in on occassion to see if the channel might one day bounce back. 

4. Projared.

I used to like this guy from the early 2010′s as he was sorta part of the new wave of online Video game Reviewers along with Jontron & The Completionist (as well as Caddicarus later down the line). I liked his Video Game Reviews and is a big fan of Final Fantasy. Then there was this massive controversy that he was accused of some things ,and everyone turned on him wanting to see him fail. I’m usually an Innocent until proven guilty kind of guy so I wasn’t sure if he actually did those things but everyone believed he did. Then Projared came out with a video proving his innocence and although he was cleared of what he did, everyone then started liking him and was on his side again and was like “it’s cool man, we knew you were innocent the whole time”. What dissapointed me was that NOBODY was on his side when the allegations came out. Everyone wanted to see him face justice. So now even though he still does videos I now find it awkward to watch his stuff without being reminded of the things he was accused of doing. 

3. Top Hat Gaming Man 

Another Video game Reviewer I used to like and also he’s British as I like to support British youtubers. I also like his reviews of Handheld consoles and games. But I know he needed to make money so he had to appeal to the Youtube Algorhytmn and that is Clickbatey Rant videos which I hate. You know, the videos where people shit on the things you love due to opinions and try to piss you off. Being a nintendo fan myself I started to dislike his anti-Nintendo vids such as where he says the N64 was overrated and yeah I get the problems the N64 has but he makes it out as if you should be ashamed of ever liking or owning an N64 as if it was the worst Nintendo console ever (which it isn’t). And even his fans agreed with him. I understand the problems and dodgy practices Nintendo has done but I think you should have the right to enjoy Nintendo games and consoles.I think the video where he drew the line was that he says the graphics of the 2019 Link’s Awakening remake was awful. I don’t even get why anyone would find it terrible. So the graphics of Animal Crossing and modern Pokemon games get a free pass then? I know it’s his opinion but I found it to be a bit of an insult. I Don’t think he does those videos anymore and I have my respect for the guy and his work but I’m not into his stuff anymore. 

2. Mugimikey

I used to follow this guy from the early days of Youtube where he made Sonic X parody dubs and does really good voices of Sonic & Robotnik. But he really found his niche when he made Sonic Parody animations, and they were funny and disgusting. I liked his Robotniclaus videos and the Sonic Boom Parody set in a coffee shop. But then he only made animations based around one subject “Sonic Meets X” which I guess is to appeal to the Youtube algorhythm.  And I have to say it can get really mediocre if  it’s just ‘Sonic meets this character’ for 50 videos. But there was one I really didn’t like and that I felt he went too far in (which might be a bit hypocritical due to all the disgusting things Robotnik & classic Robotnik get up to in his animations) which was ‘Sonic Meets Mario’. Based on this erotic fan fic series called ‘sonic’s ultimate harem’ where Sonic brags to Mario about all the women he slept with. I know it’s satirical but I found it so awkward to see Sonic bragging about how he’s dating peach and he started groping and sexually abuse her in front of Mario. I do not like seeing Women being treated or touched like that in public and people seem to love it! So I no longer follow his stuff any more. I still check on his animations on occassion and he did do parodies on the second Sonic movie. 

1. Game Grumps

Oh boy, the big one. I used to love Game Grumps in the early-late 2010′s Especially during the Jontron era and the early Dan years. They were pretty much one of the last major Let’s play channels that are still around. The problem is that Arin is no longer remembered as an animator anymore which was what put him on the map in the first place and made the channel popular. Dan’s a great guy but he kinda acts like a confused Dad and both he and Arin are like a couple of boring old guys now. Also Arin hardly pays attention to the games he plays and in recent years they would play really mediocre indie horror games or rubbish simulator games. I was even put off by their clickbait titles where they don’t tell you what game they are playing, but they seemed to have stopped that. Also I feel their videos are too long and have guests on that nobody cares about (seriously who the hell is Wilbur Soot?) But I still respect the guys and still check in on them from time to time. I really like it when they play Visual Novels as it demonstates their voiceacting and I like their riffing too. But other than that they are pretty mediocre now and I can’t really stand how Arin can be so incompetent in playing certain games and trying to be ‘hip and cool’ as well. And I am so fed up with how they now mostly play Monopoly, Wheel of Fortune, Jeopardy & Mario Party over and over and over with the occasional unique game thrown in.  If you like these guys thats fine and I respect you for that. 

EDIT: Even though I haven’t resubscribed to their channel I still watch Game Grumps depending on what they are playing. They still play retro games on occassion but I mostly watch them on Weekends where they play Danganrompa V3. Most of the week they play either boring simulator games, The same game show games or rubbish Indie Horror games. 

So thats the end of my rant. I don’t really hate these guys I just think their content dont really appeal to me anymore. I respect you if you like them and enjoy their videos. I’m just expressing my own opinions. 

[randomcontentdude]

People

Alright, im not gonna say "my mom" or "my dog" cause there's just one of them out there so I will mostly focus on friends.

Uni

Plurinational Friend: shes my best friend from uni, she's a bit older and we bonded because I used to summer in the country where she grew up, and then everything went downhill and now we are besties. I also know her sisters and parents. She's got like 5 nationalities.

Christian friend: we share one nationality, she moved here with her sister. Right now Plurinational friend can't stand her. Christian friend is extremely christian, we went to church together twice, she's been a great support for me and I really appreciate her, but I cannot force my other friends to hang out with her if they dont want to. She's a great cook since her parents used to own a restaurant of our shared nationality(she's got two).

Emo friend: we live together, we are both gay, he's got a gorgeous boyfriend that honestly im not jealous of even when he's got separately all the features I usually like, but idk, im not attracted to him. Neither am I to emo friend. He looks like he would kill you but its a cinnamon roll, he is everything im not and I dont mean that in a wishful way, I mean it in a we are quite opposite way, both physically and sometimes emotionally. I sometimes feel insecure when Im with him because he's got a lot of game.

King mate: She used to be close to us, now she's got a boyfriend we dont like and has established distance with us, and honestly she's a bit immature and I dont like to hang out with her that much anymore.

Ex-redhead mate: she's no longer a redhead, she used to be fun but now there's been a situation with a guy in our circle and things got awkward, she's behaving immaturely and I dont feel like dealing with her. Both her and King mate hurted my plurinational friend and I feel upset about that.

Snow white: it's allusive to her name and not a cocaine addiction, she's cool, we met her because of King mate. Emo, plurinational and I really like her, we have sorta taken her under our wing.

Ex flatmates

believe it or not this may be the most important group in my life, we do virtually everything together and even now that we dont live together, we see each other almost everyday, not seeing them for two days feels like not seeing a uni friend for two weeks. We all are foreigners too.

Cheesy friend: he is not cheesy, he's the oldest being 12 years older than me. He is a scientist and he's very cool. he's also my only straight male friend and one of my few friends who are males, so I feel some sort of a deeper connection with him because of this. he also loves food from my country so thats cool. He's the one who took us all climbing and he couches us too! in almost everything.

Monkey friend: she's the friend Ive known the longest since she was already living there when I moved in. She's a psychologist and she's very caring of me. She's also older than me but not for as much as cheesy friend. I love her deeply and I would say I sorta look for her approval when I do things sometimes. She's also very short hehe. I was supposed to move in with her until Emo friend got kicked off his aunt's place.

Equestrian friend: we didn't live together but we still hang out all the time. She's a friend of monkey's from back home and she's also a psychologist. She's taken me under her wing and I feel cared for too. Equestrian and monkey friend live together so I sometimes stay at their place, I even left a stuffed panda at their place.

Hometown friends

Foreign trio girl: She's part of our trio named after a mental illness, she never answers my calls but I know she deeply misses me. She used to live abroad but decided to move back home.

Popular trio girl: She decided to stay home by decision and at some point she was my closest friend. Now I feel she resents me for moving away and not staying with her, and she's even more upset I dont feel as miserable as she would have hoped. She does call me more than my mom tho.

Curly friend: This is the friend I got close with because our best friends paired up and left us behind. She decided to move abroad but way closer to home. I really enjoy her company and I feel thats she's someone tat truly understands me even we cannot always help each other, she has stayed by my side for so long and I deeply love her.

Childhood friend: She's been my friend since we were 4, and with our ups and Downs we've stuck together through the years. she also lives abroad now and really far from my abroad, but we are meeting at her sisters (very near of where I live in a global scale) this new years, she's also come to see me here and im just very glad to have her in my life, she's like family.

Disney friend: We met at popular trio girl's friend group. She is very wealthy but also she's very welcoming and kind. She moved to the same country as me, just a different city. We've seen each other here and back home multiple times, and im very glad I have her in my life. It is always so fun to go down and stay with her.

Unstable friend: I met her in French classes, she was living abroad but had to move back due to mental health issues. She's cool and brings on some unique vibe to the table. Right now she's studying in the suburbs of the same city as my Disney friend.

Absent friend: this friend is very particular, she's a party girl, she's a ride or die but only when's she's there. She's got some problems and our lore is so intricate it deserves her own post, and not for good. I can go months without seeing her but when we se each other is like nothing happened, we are fast to forgive each other. We met because she wanted to study in the same uni as me and her grandparents are our family doctors.

Others

Gorgeous gorgeous (gg) blond: he is my crush, physically he is all i ever dreamt of. Sometimes i feel he likes me back but he said he doesn’t want to try anything out because he doesn’t know if he’ll be around in a few months since he wants to take a gap year.

(Update: ignore the blondes, it’s just blond, he is a boy, the situation right now is different? Idkidk we’re friends tho)

Virtual friend: he is my friend since we were 12, we basically shaped each other since we were each others closest friend since we were like 13 all the way to like 16, we talked everyday, now we live in the same city!!

Fellow country girl: She was seeing cheesy friend but now they are friends and she is my friend too! we are from the same city sooooo

[the-firebird69]

Watch "Hulk (2003) - Opening Scene (HD)" on YouTube

Just trying to tell her they had to leave and he did trying to destroy the place out of spite but has certainly going downhill leaves the guy was going to do something to him and you and she didn't get it and knocked her out and threw in the car and the kids too. You look real close you can recognize some of the furniture in the house was in our son's house when he was little. And it was the idiot trying to fool people that it was him and he's trying to take his dad's job to try and kidnap our son because it said the experiment went well and says that you're an idiot aren't you to him this is probably the person who is you're working for is having to do it and so those two don't go together so they shouldn't what they always do you start laughing so good he's one of freedom from being captured against gravel it was gravel and he freed our son and the other one's saying it was him and it wasn't it was Tommy F at the tree. The furniture is a little familiar and it was because of the test but the house and stow was from there. And it was not the Trinity test it's much later and their experiment to go on people including our son and his family and it was said that our son's coming broke them out and that was a partial it was really this guy Trump. But it was the first crew to make the bomb and the other idiots who had it done the idiots are the ones who had it done. And as he's driving out he made sure areny and dee were leaving. And the answer should be obvious what his problem is but he needs the data it doesn't just need our son he's a freaking retard it's been after his friend Dave too. The people of the data are his parents they sort of know how it works and she's trying to connect with the vice president all the time. The answer is very simple this is what Trump is stuck to him for and his son learned it and he's an addict. And her son says it there's nothing to learn from testing me you have to find out what they did and they say all sorts of s*** with the wrong.

So we turn it on them and we're going to get them because this is what it is.

The test occurred in early 1968 and he was in the womb and they were in the neighborhood and we want to tell you you didn't need the boost already we got one and she can't even bigger. He's a big boy if he grows up because it's not going to be able to handle him. What we're saying is that we understand your problem you're not very bright you think the subject has the secret you keep harassing them for it so I'm going to kill you to idiots now three is an innocent child and you're morons

Thor Freya

I want their heads on a pike and nobody's to touch the boy. New people are ridiculous what the f*** are you doing harassing to tell you off you f****** idiots

Mac

I've had enough of this s*** for us to the secret but after the secret sorta see something just a child at the time in the womb actually

Trump

Holy shit we are the dumb onesok. It's true we're sitting here trying to grab him as if we can figure it out and we won't it doesn't want to be rude because we're stupid and Dave said the same thing and I get it but really when you keep trying

Dave

[squarebracketsmileyface]

Okay, yelling more about this fic, because god it's been consuming my soul for too long to just post about it once and be done, but just, this fic has been so fucking fun to write. It started out as a plan for a maybe 4-5k word oneshot about Jay and Alex after that argument in the car park in entry 47, and now a year later it's 100,000 words, and 5 chapters long (whoops. where did that 5th chapter come from?) and goes into Jaylex's relationship more than I ever planned, AND ends up with Jam getting together (for now).

But just. Wow. I finished it?

Honestly it was starting to feel like I would never actually be done with this fic, and I guess I'm not technically done with it in the sense that I have plans for like 8 more fics to go in the series. So even though the main fic is done, I'm still gonna get to explore the characters and universe I put them in. Because I love the universe I've created for them (or i guess like, i took the original mh universe and changed some things idk, anyway) and I really wanna explore it more, including exploring about Jaylex's relationship back in uni and how/why it went downhill, as well as Jam's 'current' relationship. I even have an entry 80 fic planned that'll go into how Jay and Alex's relationship impacts what would happen in that entry.

God this fic is Satan and I sold it my soul I swear. It's everything to me and I have so many thoughts about it just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

The fics I have planned for the series are so cool tho. (Spoilers under the thingy, because I need to talk about it, IF YOU'RE UNDER 18 PLS GO AWAY, a lot if not most of these fics are gonna be nsfw) so:

⬇️

1. Okay so, I have a precanon Jaylex fic planned which will go into Amylex's relationship more and explain Alex's real reasons for ending his and Jay's uni fwb relationship (it's not just internalised homophobia, that's just what Jay saw). That thing jay tried with Tim, where he tried to make tim choke him and tim was like dude wtf, that's not how you go about getting things you want? Yeah jay did that with Alex, except Alex was in the heat of the moment and used to them having a sadist/masochist relationship, so he just punished jay mid-scene for acting out and carried on. Then realised how bad he could have hurt Jay after Jay went home and had a whole breakdown over it that Amy had to look after him through.

And Amy only hears Alex's side of what happened exactly just before, so she assumes Jays this terrible awful person (which, yeah that was a shitty thing to do, so she's not completely wrong) and she convinced Alex to end the fwb relationship, because she's heard him be so low about Jay so many times she's like "honey, this is not a healthy relationship for you, get out of there"

2. I have two fics planned that'll delve more into Jay's gender crisis. Because that boy has 4 months to live and that's long enough for him to decide to start exploring his gender. I'm planning on most of that exploration being done through kink, since kink and sex are the places Jay's most comfortable in himself (sticking to he/him for Jay right now because i haven't actually decided what pronouns he'll go by in the end, if they change at all, it might make more sense for Jay to not actually figure out pronouns in the little time he has to explore his gender.)

Anyway. Kink and forced fem are gonna be the ways Tim and Jay explore jay's gender, because that way jay can sorta keep up his lil denial thing, while also letting himself explore. And once he knows Tim's not gonna hate him for having a kink about dressing as and being called a girl during sex he'll definitely be really comfy with it. Like, he's used to having weird kinks, so as long as he knows Tim won't hate him for this one, why would he care about it either?

One fic will massively focus on jay exploring his gender (and it'll probably be multi chapter because I keep coming up with ideas for it) and the other will probably be a short (hopefully) oneshot that'll just kinda be the starting point for the gender stuff, because I came up with a thing I NEED jay to watch Tim do (getting off in the shower using nothing but the water pressure) and jay is just very horny over it and wants to do it himself, and then finds its REALLY gender affirming for him (even tho he doesnt know thats what it is lol)

3) another smut one >:] jam doing some good old cockwarming where jay gets to worship Tim back (cos he didn't get to in the main fic, and I think he'll explode if he doesn't get to worship Tim's body like Tim worshipped his)

4) ANGST :D Jay tells Tim about the kiss on the doorstep with Alex. And Tim knows it's illogical, but he feels really hurt that Jay didn't tell him before, he hates how upset he is over it, but he can't make it go away. He feels almost betrayed that Jay let him go about thinking he'd given Jay his first properly meaningful kiss.

And, when jay explains the doorstep kiss and why he lied about it, that'll just make Tim dislike Alex more >:]

5) and entry 80 fic that explores how Jay and Alex's relationship and the fact that they both still love (sorta?) and care for each other impacts what happens in entry 80. Alex crying behind the gun because he tried to keep jay out of this, he tried to save him! And Jay refused to listen and just brought himself and now Tim, too, into it. And Alex has to save them the only way he can, the same way he saved everyone else, and that kills him. He can't live with what he's done after he kills Jay, he just can't, so he goes to Tim himself and begs him to show him mercy, begging Tim to kill him.

And Tim does show mercy (hehehheh, take that how you will)

6) and then :D the fic about Tim finding out he's having Jay's baby. This one will probably go at the end of the series so people can skip it easily if they want to, cos not everyone likes pregnancy even being mentioned in fics lol. But still, Tim has Jay's kid and ooooooo the angst that can come from that, especially with all the jay gender stuff and how Jay could have been Moma to this kid! Jay could have been mommy or mom and he never got the chance.

Tim has to raise that kid by himself for so long, Tim has to get better for her, and he does. With the timeline I have for this, I'm pretty sure that by the time that last episode of MH was posted, Tim would already have had the baby, so she could have been in a little car seat in the back of the car when he's driving up to that crossroad and making his decision on what to do next :DDDDD and he chooses her, chooses to live and give her the best life he possibly can :]

The last chapter of Sorry, It's Locked is finally out! After a whole year of writing this fic, it's done! (plus a nice surprise for you at the end of chapter 4 >:] )

i can't believe I actually finally did it. Like, holy shit.

Anyway, the chapters up, and I hope you enjoy (if you're under 18, please don't interact with this post or read the fic, i know I can't really stop you, but for my own comfort, pls dont, as it is an explicit fic)

[bvlladonna]

Ugh I’m having a dilemma. I’ve overwhelmed myself once again.

[manikas-whims]

What do you think is the reason why the MC Cheonliang gang, specifically MC Pesticides, we’re particularly scared of Mary and had some guilty feelings?

She was not bitter but she wasn’t buddy buddy with them either. I remember Vin once told MC Pesticides to apologize to Mary. I thought they may have played a prank on her back when she was bigger, or asking her on a date only to humiliate her.

Whatever it was, Vin sure wasn’t happy with them either.

sorry anon, took me a while to answer cuz i was looking up certain screenshots again 😂

⚠ warning ⚠ long post ahead:

So from everything said about Cheonliang Fam so far, this is how i perceive it:

It probably goes like Vin and his Cheonliang Gang were the strongest gang in Cheonliang and they were all good pals and respected him as the leader.

Around the same time, he was probably a member of the Judo club at his C middle school. And there, he probably knew Mary as another member of the club..you know like someone you just know in passing, not as a friend.

These panels right here are where Vin Jin suddenly starts reminiscing the old days. He was talking about Mary. About how she was the best Judo student of his batch and how every coach and manager wanted her..

Mary was a plus size girl back then and most likely taunted over it, because we know how awful middle schoolers can be 😒

Around the same time, Vin probably met with an unfortunate accident that led to his eye condition– polycoria.

Now, this is where things started going downhill for him. He probably got admitted to a hospital and upon his recovery, his left eye became like that.

From there onwards, probably his parents said some unpleasant stuff, his school kids began mocking him n all..

And i suppose thats when he talked to Mary for the first time. Like one day, she just found him ditching classes n sulking someplace. So she probably talked to him (she is pretty wise) and like..uplifted him and told him that his eyes are still fine.

And maybe thats when he realised she wasn't that bad. I feel like he probably already respected her for being the best of Judo club. As he has stated himself that when it comes to Judo, Mary can beat him. But this is the point where he actually saw her as more than a plus size girl at his school and you know..became friends with her.

So gradually, Vin picked up some glasses and his entire gang took up to wearing glasses as a sign of respect for him. And Mary (now friends with Vin) sorta became a part of their gang, hanging out with them, riding motorcycles and all..

Now this is where i incorporate your date idea..

Mary probably developed a crush on one of their junior members in the gang (just a bad guess). She probably confessed and got rejected and told that even though she's a friend, there's no way anyone would date her due to her plus size (yeah awful middle schoolers 😑)

Thus, she left crestfallen.

By the next year Mary lost all her weight and grew out her hair (Vin said this but I can't add the panel as tumblr only allows 10 pics in a post 😭).

Then, she probably went back to confess to the junior. And this time she got invited to a date but ended up being pranked.

Mc Pesticides is probably the one guy who knew about the prank and still let it happen. Which would explain why she has forgiven him for whatever happened.

But from her gaze its evident that there's still traces of hurt and disappointment.

But after so much time, now she just wants to talk to him like a mature person and get over it.

However, a date prank can't be reason enough to kill someone.

This is my wild guess but probably something worse happened to Mary.

From how I see it, when Mc Pesticides called Vin a murderer, Vin wasn't fazed. He countered by calling out Mc Pesticides for his hypocrisy and said he should be apologizing to Mary.

In Vin's eyes, him killing someone is equal (and even worse) to what Mc Pesticides did to Mary.

Wild guess but not completely unbelievable: Mary was probably sexually harassed.

Lookism deals with a lot of societal issues and scary topics. Harassment of women, especially younger girls, is a common thing prevailing in many parts of the world.

It was their junior who probably touched her inappropriately or tried to force himself upon her.

Now Mc Pesticides probably knew about the prank but didn't expect his junior would go as far as to harass her.

And this is what led to Vin losing his temper as Mary is an important person to him. He ended up beating the guy, probably going too far in his anger and ending up accidentally killing the guy.

He probably also had a fight with Mc Pesticides for knowing about the prank yet not warning Mary.

Which also explains why Vin doesn't regret killing him. And also Mary thanking him for it.

this is just a wild theory so take all of this with a grain of salt :)

[neqeyam]

Kaeya Head Canons!

hey besties, me again! Kaeya brainrot hit hard today LOL, anyways some of these may be ooc bc I don’t main Kaeya anymore so i’ve forgotten a lot about his character plus I don’t read the lore (where tf do yall find it even). 

Also if some of my head canons for any charcter seem personal or have nothing to do with their character it’s me projecting LOL! 

anyways, onto the hcs!

(ps, thank you so much for the love on my last hc post! i really didn’t expect anyone to see it LOL)

He’s a menace. but everyone loves him

Kaeya skips, when he isn’t in a professional setting my guy is skipping. It’s so much faster than walking and more fun than walking. 

This^ is especially true when he’s out with his s/o. holding your hand, he’ll skip and force you to either jog or skip along with him to keep up. 

Again I say; he’s dating Albedo. Kaeya saw Albedo from across the bar and without missing a beat he got up, waltzed over and started flirting with him. Albedo had no idea what was happening, he then asked sucrose to accompany him the next time he went and it was sucrose who broke the news to Albedo that he was being flirted with. Kaeya laughed for 5 minutes and refuses to let Albedo forget it. 

(oh my god tell me why as soon as I go to write these they all leave my mf brain im sorry if these are terrible) 

Kaeya taught bennett how to sword fight, and still does on the rare occasion he has a free hour. 

^most people of Mondstadt think bennett went to Kaeya for help but that’s not true. Someone sent in a letter to AGM Jean (the hand writing looked suspiciously like Diluc’s but he refuses to admit it was him) saying that bennett was looking into learning the art of the sword. The next day Kaeya dispatched himself to look for bennett and for the next two months (technically it’s been like two years but bennett is a fast learner) Kaeya was a dad. 

Kaeya absolutely despises working out but he does it anyways because he wants to be able to pick up kids. 

Kaeya is AMAZING with kids, he makes jokes about hating them but when he sees one he melts. He has to work with them a lot because he is often dispatched for travel mishaps (hilichurls attacking carriages, that sort of thing) and often times the parents are injured so he has to comfort any kids that may be on scene. 

Kaeya is buff, absolutely jacked. you can’t see it because he dresses modestly (sorta) to down play his physical strength but my guy can deadlift like 350 LBS (idk if that’s a lot tbh I don’t workout anymore LMAO)

Kaeya is as smart as he is muscular. He’s among the smartest knights, probably top three (it goes kaeya, jean, lisa). HOWEVER, he ranks first in battle intelligence. my guy can analyse four opponents at the same time, find all their weak spots and exploit them in matter of seconds. 

Kaeya is also a master of manipulation. i can see it in his eyes, this man knows the mind of all his enemies, old and new. 

(wait now i’m imagining Kaeya riding a horse that’s full sprint HELP. I’m turning myself into a Kaeya simp....)  

Kaeya’s horse is all black except for a white patch that looks suspiciously like the star from Khaenri’ah (it’s on its lower neck). his horse is also by far the fastest in the entire company and was once part of a herd of horses that roamed Mondstadt’s country side. (Diluc helped him tame it but shhh nobody is supposed to know)

^Kaeya was extremely pissed of when Varka took his cavalry, still is in fact. I mean, he’s the cavalry captain damn it, find your own horses. Especially because there were enough horses so Kaeya’s could stay behind in case he needed it for something, but NOOOO Varka refused anything but teh best- which happened to be Kaeya’s horse.

Kayea’s named his horse Außenseiter, and that is absolutely a reflection of his feelings. 

Kaeya is fucking fantastic at masking what he’s feeling, you’ll never know what he’s actually feeling. If a situation starts to go downhill, you won’t know it until it’s practically too late because Kaeya is just. that. good. 

he’s also fucking fantastic at playing the long game. nobody knows but he’s the knights of favoniouses official interrogator and he is a menace. he always gets what he wants out of people, whether it takes two hours and two months, he gets it, and reports directly to AGM Jean his findings. 

Kaeya and Eula share ‘war stories’ (how they go their visions mostly, but other things like the way people treat Eula, and how they chalk Kaeya up to being ‘just a flirt’) 

he has a fan club. they aren’t as loud as the Diluc fan club but he knows they’re there. sometimes he’ll pop in on meetings and everyone just. fucking freezes bc their lord and savior- THE Kaeya is standing in their presence. he loves them. 

He openly talks about liking anyone he wants to so that the youth of mondstadt can talk about as well. and the LGBTQ+ of mondstadt know that if they’re having a problem with someone they have his permission of threaten said person with his name. 

^and archons hope he isn’t in the vicinity when it reaches that point. all rational goes out the window and then he’s all threats and no jokes. with a threatening smile that screams “test me, see what happens” 

^then he treats whoever was being disrespected to a meal, on him.

and that’s all for now! thanks again for the love on my first head canon post! i really need to learn how to use tumblr so i can make a masterlist of these LOL. there will definitely be more coming soon!

[redfoxgaming41]

Reunited

This was a request by anonymous and it was cool as hell so I am writing it!

I’m doing this in a one-shot format but it might be a bit crappy since I’m not too good at it!

Warning(s): Slight angst but happy ending, cursing, mention of injuries

(Reader is Female for this)

Let’s get this started!!

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** 3rd person POV**

You were known as (y/n) to your family and friends, you looked like a normal 11 year old human girl but with a not so normal adoptive family.

You were abandoned by your biological parents before they were killed off by some bad guy and then you were picked up off of the ground by a green looking person wearing something red on his face. You now recognize him as Raphael, your older brother who you look up to the most. You obviously have your other brothers as well, Donatello, Michelangelo, and Leonardo. You were basically a mini version of all of them.You loved your brothers and they loved you, they were all pretty overprotective of you as well.

Until everything went downhill.

-

Everything happened so fast you couldn’t believe what was happening, foot soldiers flooded the lair and started attacking your brothers while some big metal man with blades for arms started to attack your father. You wanted to help them but you weren’t as better trained as your father and brothers so you fought the urges. You saw your brothers start to attack the metal man which you now knew was called shredder, and the fight wasn’t looking too well for them. That’s when you saw shredder almost stab Raph.

You felt something inside of you that you’ve never felt before and you didn’t know how to describe it, but it made your blood boil. You quickly rushed over there as fast as you could before your brother was hurt and just closed your eyes and let instincts take over. And by instincts I mean the fact that you turned into a whole wolf and started biting the arm of shredder. You bit through his armor and into his flesh, you couldn’t even control what you were doing, you just knew that you must protect your brothers. Shredder flung you across the room but it didn’t affect you badly, you were back on your feet once again. But you then felt sharp pains in your neck that led you to pass out. Shredder was impressed by your powers and decided to take you with him to “experiment” on you. Even if your brothers and Sensai protested, he easily beat them to the ground and took you with him.

“(Y/N)!!”

“(Y/N)!! PLEASE WAKE UP!”

“(Y/N)!!! YOU’RE STRONG!! WAKE UP PLEASE!!”

“(Y/N)!!!”

Once your brothers were fine again, they instantly were talking about different plans to get you out of shredders hands.

^Time skip~ Two Years^

Your brothers were still on the lookout for you but they weren’t having any luck, they did however find Casey Jones who knew about Shredder, and your parents. They were also still doing their vigilante jobs, protecting New York from any bad people that resigned in it.

“Something could have happened to her! Like she could have gotten mutated-“

“Well she can turn into a wolf so that sorta makes her a hybrid mutant.”

“I guess...but she could be getting hurt there! Or could have already gotten killed!”

“Calm down Raph, she’s strong. I’m sure she’s still alive.”

“You don’t know that, none of us know that.”

**Raphs POV**

Finally, after finally getting the polices trust we can take down whatever the fuck is building this spaceship in the sky. Especially that it’s destroying New York in the process.

“So we’re going up there then jumping on one of those fucking flying pieces in order to land on the base of the ship thing?” I asked Leo.

“Yes, that’s the only possible way we can get up there.” He confirmed with a small sigh. And we went through with that whole plan. The police got us into the building by putting up their shields so civilians wouldn’t see us and off we went onto the roof. As quick as possible we made it up and we’re figuring out which platform to jump on. Donnie found a good one and we hopped on, not the smoothest ride but it was all we had.

**3rd Person POV**

The fight wasn’t going too smoothly for the brothers, especially when they figured out that krang worked with shredder until something happened. But all they need to to send the ship back into the dimension it was coming from. If only it were that easy but it wasn’t. They were facing a serious hardship, especially with The Krangs Advanced tech and suit. They honestly might have almost given up, until someone came into the battle.

It was a big wolf, same color as they last seen their...sister as...

And the wolf was pretty fucking good too! Ripping off parts of Krangs robotic limbs and even some of his tentacle looking things. Needless to say the turtles were impressed but it still have a bit of a downfall though. The Krangs managed to trap the wolves leg under his foot, not enough to break it but enough to stop the wolf from running. The turtles almost charged into the battle once more until the wolf called out.

“Raph! Give me one of your Sai’s!”

Raph recognized that voice, the only voice that belonged to (y/n). He almost did it without hesitation but he threw one of his sai’s to the wolf. She caught it in her mouth and turned her head to face The Krang. Donnie was watching all of this from the area where he was supposed to make the ship fall apart and go back to where it came from but didn’t do it yet because then they might not have enough time to escape and be sucked into the dimension as well. The wolf then transformed into something but the brothers couldn’t quite see what it was because the light was blinding but after it cleared up they saw someone that they never thought they would see again.

(y/n)

Except you looked more badass, plus you were two years older than they last seen you.

You were quick to think, turning around and stabbing The Krang right in his blobbly face. At this point Donnie had already started the whole “Spacship is going back to its dimension” thing so there was little time but it gave Donnie the ability to fight again so he did what anyone would do if there was a high tech pink blob villain on a giant spaceship and your only weapon was a Bo-Staff that had a taser on one end of it. PLUNG IT STRAIGHT INTO THE HEAD AND ELECTROCUTE THE THING!

^Time skip (sorry) after the fight^

Everything went surprisingly well, they won the battle and they get their sister back. Just because it was a happy day for them and with getting keys to the city, they still are the overprotective brothers you knew and loved. Especially the one in red. You finally got to meet the infamous Casey Jones but not only was he a couple feet away but Raph was behind you the whole time making sure he didn’t say nor look at you the wrong way.

“Come on Raph! I just want to introduce myself to her! Why are you so protective!?”

“Because not only is she my younger sister, she also sacrificed her life for us and I want to be more protective of her even more.”

“Fair point but can I at least shake her hand!”

“NO!”

You were happy to be back, to be back in New York.

And to be back with your brothers. ❤️💙🧡💜

[fullmarvelheart]

Wrong Direction (Song Fic AU)

Pairing: Steve x fem!Reader(previously), Steve x Sharon, Bucky x fem!Reader

Word Count: 1,953

Warnings: ANGST!(not kidding ‘bout this one!), heartbreak, mentions of cheating, mentions of emotional abuse and manipulation, Steve is an ass, swearing, lil fluff at the end

A/N:  This is a song fic based off Hailee Steinfeld’s song Wrong Direction. Honestly, it took me awhile to figure out how I wanted to write this and with who. But when I started writing, without picking anyone, Steve somehow came to mind and it fit perfectly in my head. There might be a part two of this, I’m not sure. But if I write one, it’ll be a stand alone (sorta) one shot. I hope you enjoy and know if you ever find yourself with someone like this, you are worth so much more!💕♥️

Main Masterlist

I don't hate you No, I couldn't if I wanted to I just hate all the hurt that you put me through And that I blame myself for letting you Did you know I already knew?

Locked away in the bedroom of your apartment, you wished you could erase the image in your head. The memory of what you saw made you feel like you were going to throw up. But instead of running to the bathroom, you laid on your bed, curled into a ball with tears streaming down your cheeks, not willing to move. At. All.  

But what hurt worse than what he did, what your Steve did, was that you didn’t hate him. You still loved him with all your heart, with all your soul. And you hated that!

Couldn't even see you through the smoke Lookin' back, I probably should have known But I just wanted to believe that you were out sleepin' alone

All the excuses about mission reports, working late, or mission planning that kept him away from you really should have given it away. Natasha had even come up to you to voice her concerns weeks ago. But he wouldn’t do that to you. Not your Steve that loved you, or so he said. So you believed.

It was only a matter of time, really. He still brought that stupid compass around with him everywhere. And even though his first love passed on years ago, he just couldn’t let go. No matter how much you wished, begged, that he could.

No one could compete with Peggy. Well, no one but her it seemed.

Love me with your worst intentions Didn't even stop to question Every time you burned me down Don't know how, for a moment it felt like heaven Love me with your worst intentions Painted us a happy ending Every time you burned me down Don't know how, for a moment it felt like heaven

You knew going into this relationship that part of him still loved Peggy Carter, but you had hoped he would grow to love you more. After the first date, you knew, you knew you couldn’t get rid of Carter, that her memory would be a constant with him. He talked about her during your date, not that much, but enough to remind you that you’re not her. 

But you ignored it.

In the beginning of your new relationship, she was mentioned every now and then. Sometimes he’d point out similarities between you two. As time progressed, his memories morphed into criticism that was like a shot to the heart each time. 

“Peggy would have never let someone talk to her like that.”

“Peggy’s red lipstick color looked better than the one you put on.”

“Could you, at least, try to act professionally. Peggy would have never acted like this on a mission.” 

He’d never say those around others, not intentionally. There were a few slip ups that he somehow turned back on you. 

But regardless, you still loved him. You wanted to be someone strong, someone dependable for him, someone like Peggy. Though, it never seemed like enough.

When things started getting too far downhill, he’d remind you that he loved you. He’d talk about a future with you. But you realized that that future was never meant for you. He’d never be able to picture you in it.

And it's so gut-wrenchin' Fallin' in the wrong direction

And it hurt. So, so much. It hurt. You should have recognized the signs. You should have never went on a second date. But it was too late. You fell for someone who didn’t love you back and who let you fall. Someone who let you fall without even trying to catch you.

On my tip-toes But I still couldn't reach your ego Guess I was crazy to give you my body, my mind Don't know what I was thinkin' 'til now Everyone thinks that your somebody else You even convinced yourself

You tired to be supportive of him, be the woman he needed by his side, be the partner he never had, but there was never room in the spotlight for you. The people didn’t care that you were also an Avenger whenever Captain fucking America walked in. Always preaching about how he fought the bullies of the universe to protect those who couldn’t, making women swoon and children see him as a hero. When did he stop practicing what he preached?

Looking back on all the things you’d done with him, all the ways you opened up and became vulnerable to him, you knew why you gave in. Why you ignored the red flags. Because, like everyone else, you had this perfect image of Steve in your mind. The wall of muscle, who was incredibly sweet and adorably shy, could never become the type of person he hated. The disrespectful and rude people who truly didn’t give others a chance at being happy with themselves. Funny how he even believed that himself. He always said he looks out for the little guys. He didn’t see the hypocrisy or how he made you feel scared for even pointing it out to him. 

Couldn't even see you through the smoke Lookin' back, I probably should have known But I just wanted to believe that you were out sleepin' alone

The longer your relationship progressed, the less you would see of him. You’d sometimes catch him in the hallway or kitchen, and he’d talk to you like nothing had changed. You’d go days without seeing him. Instead of your boyfriend, his best friend would spend time with you in order to help cheer you up, though nothing sexual or anything like that ever happened. Of course, you wouldn’t cheat on Steve, couldn’t even think of it. It was merely a friendship that grew the longer you two interacted that always made you smile. It didn’t always work, though. Some days when he’d manage to come back to your place, at all times of the night, he’d often see you sitting next to Bucky on the couch laughing at some romcom, or Disney movie, and then accuse you of sleeping with his best friend. The arguments always ended with Steve storming off and you breaking down while your new best friend tried to calm you.

Bucky would ask if you were okay, you’d lie saying you’re fine, you’re sure he’s just busy, that he has something else he needs to take care of.

Bucky had never said anything about Sharon. Did he know? Did he know and not tell you?

Love me with your worst intentions Didn't even stop to question Every time you burned me down Don't know how, for a moment it felt like heaven Love me with your worst intentions Painted us a happy ending Every time you burned me down Don't know how, for a moment it felt like heaven

Honestly, you wouldn’t even be surprised if everyone at the Tower knew. You’d turned a blind eye to it all, hoping to save yourself from the hurt. Didn’t work so well in the end.

But now, now you can’t recall why you put up with everything. Why you hadn’t ended things earlier. The neglect from your own partner had become a typical thing, the harsh comments, or things he’d pick apart about you or what you did or wore, you considered normal. So why would you stay with him? Why didn’t you see what he was doing to you? Why didn’t you leave?

And it's so gut-wrenchin' (ooh, ooh) Fallin' in the wrong direction (ooh, ooh)

And with those thoughts, you realized he just hadn’t broken your heart, shattered it into a million pieces. No, he had damaged your soul too. He made you dependent on him, on his approval.

How did you sweep me right off my feet? Baby, I can't keep falling in the wrong direction How did you sweep me right off my feet? Right off my feet

You can’t place what made you agree to a second date, or a third, where things started to shift out of your control. How could you be so naïve to even agree to the first date when you knew he was still in love with Peggy Fucking Carter?

Well, you couldn’t, you wouldn’t do this anymore. You wouldn’t ignore the image of Steve fucking Sharon in the bathroom of the party you’d come from not long ago. They hadn’t even noticed you, how cruel is that? You wouldn’t let him break you apart any longer. You needed to do what you should have done a long time ago.

Couldn't even see you through the smoke Lookin' back, I probably should have known But I just wanted to believe that you were out sleepin' alone

You were so lost in you head, that you didn’t hear the knock at your door, the sound of it opening and closing, or even when the person walked into your room and kneeled in front of you.

“Doll? What happened?” It was the soft timber of Bucky’s voice that brought you back to the present. His fingers gently brushed the hair out of your face before he wiped the tears from your cheeks.

“Did you know?” You croak, voice breaking. When he only looks at you in concerned confusion, your eyes squeeze together as you force yourself to say it out loud for the first time. “Did you know Steve was cheating with Sharon?”

His eye brows jump to his forehead before they furrow in anger.

“No, I didn’t.” He growls. “But I’m guessing that’s the reason for why you left so suddenly or why I couldn’t find him to ask where you went.”

When you nod, he sighs, pinching between his eyebrows as his metal arm curls into a fist. 

“I’m going to kill him. Only after I take care of you.” He states before falling silent. “Y/n, I know I’ve brought this up several times, but-”

“I’m leaving him.” You interrupt, watching as his lip curls into a soft but happy smile. And you know he’s happy because you’ll finally be able to start healing. He’s been waiting for you to realize this on your own. And you’re grateful for that, and for him.

Love me with your worst intentions Didn't even stop to question (oh, no) Every time you burned me down Don't know how, for a moment it felt like heaven Love me with your worst intentions Painted us a happy ending (ooh) Every time you burned me down (me down) Don't know how, for a moment, it felt like heaven

After helping you out of bed and brushing your hair while you cleaned off the ruined makeup caked to your face, Bucky hands you your favorite pair of pjs that haven’t been worn in a while because Steve didn’t like them. You glance at him self consciously, only for him to reassure you with a bright smile. With one last nervous look, you turn back towards the bathroom. When the fabric rests against your skin, a wave of comfort washes over you and you curl your arms around yourself. It’s not much, but it’s a start to finding yourself again.

When you exit the bathroom, you find Bucky perched on the couch with your favorite snacks and favorite movie queued up. You snag the blanket from on top of your bed then curl up into Bucky on the couch.

“Can you help me change my locks after I break up with him?” You ask softly.

“Course, doll. Whatever you need help with, I’m here.” You tear up at the sincerity of his voice, the care, the concern.

“Thank you.” You whisper as the movie begins to play.

“Always.” His arm curls you into his side more and he refuses to let go.

And it's so gut-wrenchin' Fallin' in the wrong direction