#same with the kidfic/crossroads fic about tim and how he feels about being pregnant then about actually having the kid

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Okay, yelling more about this fic, because god it's been consuming my soul for too long to just post about it once and be done, but just, this fic has been so fucking fun to write. It started out as a plan for a maybe 4-5k word oneshot about Jay and Alex after that argument in the car park in entry 47, and now a year later it's 100,000 words, and 5 chapters long (whoops. where did that 5th chapter come from?) and goes into Jaylex's relationship more than I ever planned, AND ends up with Jam getting together (for now).

But just. Wow. I finished it?

Honestly it was starting to feel like I would never actually be done with this fic, and I guess I'm not technically done with it in the sense that I have plans for like 8 more fics to go in the series. So even though the main fic is done, I'm still gonna get to explore the characters and universe I put them in. Because I love the universe I've created for them (or i guess like, i took the original mh universe and changed some things idk, anyway) and I really wanna explore it more, including exploring about Jaylex's relationship back in uni and how/why it went downhill, as well as Jam's 'current' relationship. I even have an entry 80 fic planned that'll go into how Jay and Alex's relationship impacts what would happen in that entry.

God this fic is Satan and I sold it my soul I swear. It's everything to me and I have so many thoughts about it just aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

The fics I have planned for the series are so cool tho. (Spoilers under the thingy, because I need to talk about it, IF YOU'RE UNDER 18 PLS GO AWAY, a lot if not most of these fics are gonna be nsfw) so:

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1. Okay so, I have a precanon Jaylex fic planned which will go into Amylex's relationship more and explain Alex's real reasons for ending his and Jay's uni fwb relationship (it's not just internalised homophobia, that's just what Jay saw). That thing jay tried with Tim, where he tried to make tim choke him and tim was like dude wtf, that's not how you go about getting things you want? Yeah jay did that with Alex, except Alex was in the heat of the moment and used to them having a sadist/masochist relationship, so he just punished jay mid-scene for acting out and carried on. Then realised how bad he could have hurt Jay after Jay went home and had a whole breakdown over it that Amy had to look after him through.

And Amy only hears Alex's side of what happened exactly just before, so she assumes Jays this terrible awful person (which, yeah that was a shitty thing to do, so she's not completely wrong) and she convinced Alex to end the fwb relationship, because she's heard him be so low about Jay so many times she's like "honey, this is not a healthy relationship for you, get out of there"

2. I have two fics planned that'll delve more into Jay's gender crisis. Because that boy has 4 months to live and that's long enough for him to decide to start exploring his gender. I'm planning on most of that exploration being done through kink, since kink and sex are the places Jay's most comfortable in himself (sticking to he/him for Jay right now because i haven't actually decided what pronouns he'll go by in the end, if they change at all, it might make more sense for Jay to not actually figure out pronouns in the little time he has to explore his gender.)

Anyway. Kink and forced fem are gonna be the ways Tim and Jay explore jay's gender, because that way jay can sorta keep up his lil denial thing, while also letting himself explore. And once he knows Tim's not gonna hate him for having a kink about dressing as and being called a girl during sex he'll definitely be really comfy with it. Like, he's used to having weird kinks, so as long as he knows Tim won't hate him for this one, why would he care about it either?

One fic will massively focus on jay exploring his gender (and it'll probably be multi chapter because I keep coming up with ideas for it) and the other will probably be a short (hopefully) oneshot that'll just kinda be the starting point for the gender stuff, because I came up with a thing I NEED jay to watch Tim do (getting off in the shower using nothing but the water pressure) and jay is just very horny over it and wants to do it himself, and then finds its REALLY gender affirming for him (even tho he doesnt know thats what it is lol)

3) another smut one >:] jam doing some good old cockwarming where jay gets to worship Tim back (cos he didn't get to in the main fic, and I think he'll explode if he doesn't get to worship Tim's body like Tim worshipped his)

4) ANGST :D Jay tells Tim about the kiss on the doorstep with Alex. And Tim knows it's illogical, but he feels really hurt that Jay didn't tell him before, he hates how upset he is over it, but he can't make it go away. He feels almost betrayed that Jay let him go about thinking he'd given Jay his first properly meaningful kiss.

And, when jay explains the doorstep kiss and why he lied about it, that'll just make Tim dislike Alex more >:]

5) and entry 80 fic that explores how Jay and Alex's relationship and the fact that they both still love (sorta?) and care for each other impacts what happens in entry 80. Alex crying behind the gun because he tried to keep jay out of this, he tried to save him! And Jay refused to listen and just brought himself and now Tim, too, into it. And Alex has to save them the only way he can, the same way he saved everyone else, and that kills him. He can't live with what he's done after he kills Jay, he just can't, so he goes to Tim himself and begs him to show him mercy, begging Tim to kill him.

And Tim does show mercy (hehehheh, take that how you will)

6) and then :D the fic about Tim finding out he's having Jay's baby. This one will probably go at the end of the series so people can skip it easily if they want to, cos not everyone likes pregnancy even being mentioned in fics lol. But still, Tim has Jay's kid and ooooooo the angst that can come from that, especially with all the jay gender stuff and how Jay could have been Moma to this kid! Jay could have been mommy or mom and he never got the chance.

Tim has to raise that kid by himself for so long, Tim has to get better for her, and he does. With the timeline I have for this, I'm pretty sure that by the time that last episode of MH was posted, Tim would already have had the baby, so she could have been in a little car seat in the back of the car when he's driving up to that crossroad and making his decision on what to do next :DDDDD and he chooses her, chooses to live and give her the best life he possibly can :]

The last chapter of Sorry, It's Locked is finally out! After a whole year of writing this fic, it's done! (plus a nice surprise for you at the end of chapter 4 >:] )

i can't believe I actually finally did it. Like, holy shit.

Anyway, the chapters up, and I hope you enjoy (if you're under 18, please don't interact with this post or read the fic, i know I can't really stop you, but for my own comfort, pls dont, as it is an explicit fic)