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rdj the (whitewashed) electric boogaloo
This is a reminder to everyone who's excited about RDJ's casting as Doctor Doom that this casting is whitewashing. Victor Von Doom is a Romani character and has been a Romani character since his introduction in the 1960s. (Fantastic Four Annual #2 [1964]) Not only that, but his Roma identity and the persecution he and his family faced due to it is integral to his character, it is what forms his identity. (Books of Doom by Ed Brubaker) Even if on the off chance this casting is meant to not be Victor but instead be some variant of Tony or whomever else becoming Doctor Doom, it is damaging to the character to rob him of that important cultural background. Doctor Doom does not exist without that history. Fans have been pushing hard to cast Doom as a Romani actor for years, especially since the MCU has whitewashed other Romani characters. (Wanda, Pietro, etc) This casting is not a celebration moment, it's fucking heartbreaking that the MCU repeatedly ignores the important and nuanced cultural backstories of characters.
I know I can't change anybody's mind on whether or not you want to be excited about RDJ's return to the MCU. But I do think at the very least you should be mad that the MCU is baiting us all and destroying nuanced and interesting characters for the sake of self-referential easter eggs and nostalgia bait. Because that's what it is. Feel how you'd like to feel about RDJ's return, but personally, this is soul-sucking. I had such a deep love for the MCU as a teenager, it was obviously something incredibly formative to me, especially Tony Stark. This isn't recreating what I fell in love with the MCU for. This is turning a well-planned and artistic storyline of adaptations into cheap cash grabs and fan service. Because, I think we're past the point of being able to call the MCU an adaptation of anything. They can use existing characters' names and powers, but to say they're being properly adapted is laughable.
This is not an adaptation of Doctor Doom. This is RDJ the Electric Boogaloo because Marvel's fear of losing the interest of dedicated MCU fans overrides their willingness to tell stories that are genuine to the characters. I don't know what there is to be excited about that. The MCU has lost its authenticity and aside from a few projects, feels heartless. Every movie is a copy of a copy. This announcement isn't something celebratory, it feels like a death knell of a cinematic universe that's so desperate to cling to relevancy it's resorting to nostalgia for a character/actor who hasn't even been dead for a decade. We're not getting anything new, we're just rinsing and repeating the same song and dance.
I get it. I love Tony Stark, his death destroyed me and I to this day, rue the ending he got in Endgame. It misunderstood his arc and it robbed him of a satisfying conclusion. But the solution to that isn't dragging the corpse out of the grave five years later to whitewash an existing character with rich and interesting nuance, just to forcibly tie his existence in the MCU to Tony. Whether he is a variant or not. Why would you want someone else's fave's legacy to be destroyed simply so your fave's legacy can go on? Hell, if we were really all so hellbent on the return of RDJ and/or Tony to the MCU, we have the multiverse for a reason. There were other ways to do it that didn't whitewash and ruin someone else. This just. Isn't something to be happy about.
#... we will not be addressing that i'm a dead blog#no one say a WORD about my inactivity for 4 years this isn't about that /lh#also if anyone tries to get smart about “romani isn't a race” i don't care and you can shut up.#it's an ethnic and cultural identity. and it should be portrayed correctly.#ESPECIALLY for a character like *victor von doom* of all people. like it is fundamental to him.#i would've included panels of the comics mentioned but most of them use the g-slur and i don't wish to encourage that here#like listen i don't think you need to be a comics fan to be an mcu fan. they're so divorced from each other atp#nor do i think the mcu owes complete comic accuracy. but i do think you should at *least* care when characters are whitewashed.#look. i really don't want this to be a debate on if rdj's return is good or not#i've been frankly baffled at how many old mutuals are excited but. whatever if you want him back i get it.#but it shouldn't be like this. not at the expense of a different character.#this whole thing made me realize i'm *far* more jaded and turned off to the mcu than most of you guys are.#which is fair you can still be an mcu fan. if it brings you joy i'm so happy for you#but how does this like. bring joy i don't get it.#this is soulless. it's uninspired. it's done purely for shock value.#i occasionally get asks to this blog about why i left and asking me to come back#and i get it. i *want* to come back.#but i don't *care* about the mcu anymore. this is not the franchise i fell in love with.#i don't recognize what once meant everything to me.#winteriron will always hold a special place in my heart (as will tony stark)#but like. i just don't have love for it. and it sucks that this bullshit from marvel actively kills the love i had.#this sours tony stark to me. i'm sorry but it does. because was it really worth this? is this what his legacy has become?#this does cheapen his legacy btw. like without question. it turns him into a cheap cameo reference. heart of the mcu my ass.#my fandom circles have *massively* changed#i'm now entirely surrounded by comics fans bc my primary fandom is dc comics. that's what i'm up to these days#and the difference was actually baffling to me. everyone i follow now is *pissed* about this. comics twitter is so mad.#and then i see ppl on here excited and i'm just genuinely surprised this is something you want. i don't get it.#i don't say that to be rude. i just don't get it. how is *this* actually something people *want*.#do i still care about marvel? eh.#i like winter soldier comics and i could give a comprehensive rec list. and i read some other characters i deeply enjoy.
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my greatest achievement in DA2 is maxing out Carver's friendship
and all it took was begrudgingly kissing a little templar ass in act 1 because Carver didn't want to plan a prison break if my Hawke got his ass arrested for being stupid.
#carver hawke#dragon age#dragon age 2#da2#well that and he didn't want leandra gamlen and himself to also get arrested for harboring an apostate but you get me#carver hawke loves his sibling and doesn't want them to get taken away that's why he's such an ass and approves of 'pro-templar' choices#in act 1 he's not pro-templar himself but kissing a little templar ass is how you avoid being arrested#'why yes cullen you are so right the templars are so cool and sexy' my hawke says through gritted teeth for that +5 friendship#look i love him okay he's my favorite and i will go the extra mile to make him happy and it's worth it for how much softer can be later on#honestly maxing out his friendship isn't hard if you're aware of what quests you're bringing him on and make him a grey warden#oh but you do need the legacy dlc otherwise you can't fully max friendship out... you can still get enough to change his dialogue/attitude#also like... we the player know hawke won't be arrested like they're not in any actual dangers from the templars as the playable character#but carver doesn't know that and neither does hawke so the templars *are* a real threat to them#and it's incredibly reckless to purposely piss off templars AND selfish because it's not just hawke that'll be arrested it's their family#for harboring them like we witness templars going after people hiding apostates soooo.....#i'm just saying that carver isn't irrational or just being an ass to personally annoy you okay he has cause#also once carver's a warden and ed has money and the estate THEN he's way more open about telling the templars to piss off#sigh one day i'll sit down and write an essay about carver.... one day
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Been reading Law Novel 👍
(super legally and not at all from a Google Docs English fan translation 👀)
WOLF ONE PIECE I KNOW YOURE NOT CANON BUT YOU REMAIN FOREVER FAMOUS TO MEEEE!!!
(Handwriting translations under the cut)
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Law: Junk-ya this is Bepo. He’s a polar bear and he’s going to live with us now. Be nice
Bepo: He brought me here without explaining anything..sorry….
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I like this sad old man :)
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Wolf: I swear, I let ONE kid stay - out of pure convenience - and they just kept multiplying!
Dadan: Tell me about it…
Both of them, thinking: I LOVE MY FUCKIN KIIIIDDDDSSSS!!!!
#tho I do acknowledge that wolf’s role - at least towards Law - is not exactly parental#which is one of the reasons Law likes it so much - since he’s being taken seriously after all the Trauma™️#but regardless it’s full of love and they are ‘his kids’ - as in the kids he houses and who follow him around and feel happy living with him#they’re family. but maybe not in the father-son way like you may define his and Cora’s relationship#but the love and safety that comes from having a kind adult to look out for you and prepare you for life as you go through it#or the joy of having a young person in your house who looks up to you and brings joy/meaning to your life is all still there#it’s kinda the same for Dadan actually - though different cuz of the ages and ways that she got her kids are much different- especially Ace#plus wolf does it voluntarily lmao. not to diss Dadan ofc I love her - but it’s sweet to see how non-reluctant this guy is#Law has always been so loved - even if he kept losing the people who loved him for a while - and it makes me so emotional#anyway i love him#he’s canon in my heart stfu 😭#one piece#one piece fanart#my art#trafalgardwaterlaw#trafalgar law#one piece law#law novel#novel law#one piece novel law#wolf one piece#genius inventor wolf#one piece wolf#one piece bepo#bepo one piece#curly dadan#one piece dadan#heart pirates#me yapping#yapping in tags
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I’ve only just watched the first episode of the new Taskmaster today, and the thing is, everyone’s rightfully cracking up at John’s line about the 2 hours spent working out health and safety and insurance with the producers, it’s very funny, but it genuinely took me a little while to remember how funny it is. It’s the John exposure. As a regular listener to the Elis and John radio shows over the years, you just know that this is genuinely how John is. He’ll mention—and probably even get excited to go over the nerdy details of what counts in the car insurance, I can swear he’s done that on Radio X before. He’s the guy that will do an hour long standup special concerning slotted spoons (with a side of anxiety). He’s wildly funny, but to listeners of the Elis and John shows, this is just Friday afternoon.
#John Robins#Taskmaster#Britcom#taskmaster spoilers#taskmaster s17#Elis and John#Elis James and John Robins#BBC Radio 5 Live#Radio X#Radio#comedians#British comedians#It’s also wildly funny to me that people are now saying ‘I’m glad TM is bringing more people to the Elis and John show#And that more people might discover Elis’ work’ when Elis has consistently been the more famous of the two#Elis was on TV a full decade before John#Elis has done football telly; VO’ed documentaries; acted in prime time sitcoms (Josh); even VO’ed supermarkets!#I’m very happy for John but I wonder if Elis is still the better known one?#I mean he is the first of the two to be declared a national treasure.#There is not a Welsh person who does not follow this man on Twitter. It doesn’t matter where they come from—#Musicians footballers pop culture personalities actors celebrities#Everyone has a soft spot for Elis! Got I wish I was like him honestly; what a sweetheart also.#Anyway. This post was about? Oh yes! John is extremely funny.
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argh. This comic writing is taking me way longer than usual. I keep editing things and it doesn’t feel right.
#wip#i think I finally got it#The issue is usually plots come to me formed yk#But for this one#I did have a plot but it was more related to Chil having a v bad experience and Mei hearing about it and then him telling her#Not to go thru with her plans to become involved with adventures in a sort of threatening way#So I had that all sketched out and then randomly I decided I wanted more drama#so initially I extended it and had it be that maybe she tried to hug him or something but he reacted Badly bc of his aforementioned shit#But I didn’t like that and it felt jarring and sort of…over dramatic. Too much.#So then I got rid of that. And then I was like well maybe he and Mei should actually have a conversation about it#Like he brings it up#So I wrote that and I had him get really mad at her and let that sit around for a minute bc uh-oh there’s another problem#Seee the issue with doimg multiple rewrites of something is suddenly the part that was initially meant to be the focus. Is not important#Anymore and is actually distracting from the main point#So OK I delete all that and rewrite that to make it less distracting#Still keep the important buildup in that scene but focus on Mei more bc this is a comic that’s from her pov#Ok ok yeah. I like that. But THEN#UH OH NEW PROBLEM. ! Remember that He gets really mad scene? The one I let sit to go worry about the middle section#Well. Haha. I read the whole comic back again to check for flow and shit#Get to the end#WOW ITS OUT OF CHARACTER AND JARRING. He’s not mean or anything I just don’t think he’d yell in that sort of emotional way?#I got so lost in the sauce I forgot to write good#So now I’m stuck. It’s so out of character so obviously I get rid of that problem.#Change it so he does still yell but less and also differently. and also now Mei gets to be pissed tf off#and tied it into several previous comics since I like things to be connected to each other#I think?? I think I’m happy with it now…but Jesus Christ#I don’t usually have to do Any rewrites#And the number of other comics I want to do is piling up so I take breaks to sketch those out for later#Then return. To my undoing.
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(mgv) it goes to show that house is respected and strangely likable by how kutner, a beta, tries so hard to befriend house. house's sparing pack treatment of thirteen and chase isn't unnoticed, and he wants in but like. he doesn't want to be another pup, he just wants the camaraderie to the point of pushing his luck by lingering around house or thirteen on the last days before house goes on leave in hopes of getting runoff attention. thirteen's aware and makes fun of him for it but given that it tends to work in his favor without repercussions for the rest of them, she doesn't mind this weird middleman position so long as they still get work done
#mgv#house mgv#kutner is just. (clenches trembling fist)#'it's a wonderful lie' killed me and it's mostly his fault!!!!! sweet little dummy!!!!!!#house's heats mess with his leg so he'll flip between snapping more/worse than normal#or being nicer in the day to day. which like he's house so the bar's low but it's still nice#like kutner bringing house his coffee in his red mug and getting a surprised thankful trill in return#and kutner's just like yay!! :3#idk dude's in a weird place of wanting approval and not being sad when he doesn't get it but being happy when he does#kind of the inverse of what chase has going on here now that i think about it
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I love Simon so much and understand every decision he’s made & don’t judge him. Wille is still my fave and my baby cuz I relate to him too hard. When Simon gets hate I get mad and defend him, but when Wille gets hate I’m ready to meet people in the pit to fight to the death. Like it makes me feral. I feel like the vast majority of viewers and fandom members are understanding and supportive of both of them even though I have seen people overly critical of both of them as well. What frustrated me about some of the criticism for Wille in s3 is that people are very sympathetic to what Simon is going through- losing love for his interests, kind of disappearing, being sad- and almost blaming Wille for it. Instead of remembering and understanding that THIS IS WHAT WILLE HAS DEALT WITH HIS ENTIRE LIFE. He has not lost interests because he hasn’t even had the opportunity to discover what he’s really interested in. He lost himself a long time ago, when he was still a child and it’s only continued. Meeting Simon was where he began to really FIND himself. He never wanted the life that he was given, and particularly did not want to be forced into the role of Crown Prince. But he’s also had no opportunity to just figure himself out and find out all the things that he might love and the things that he might want to do. It’s just so SAD. I would never judge Simon from making the decisions that he felt were right for him, I completely understand it and do not blame him at all. I just get really touchy about when I see people claiming that Wille was “dragging Simon down”. Simon had to deal with this for a few months and look how it negatively affected him. Wille has had to deal with it his whole life, and it only got worse when he became crown prince. Simon had a choice and Wille didn’t feel that he did. But he was wrong. Sometimes it just takes someone else from the outside to help you gain perspective and realize that you truly do have a choice.
#really it gives me harry and meghan vibes#harry was always the black sheep and never seemed comfortable in his role -even as the spare#he fell in love with meghan and realized the institution he was in would never bring him peace and also would only hurt his relationship#and family#and he peaced out as he should have#yes he’s still technically a prince just like wille is#but he lives his own life#does what makes him happy#and isn’t owned by the monarchy anymore#like he went home for his grammas funeral but other than that he and Meghan and their kids do their own thing#independent of the monarchy#that’s what I see for wille and simon and their family in the future#young royals#wilmon#prince wilhelm#simon eriksson#just having thoughts
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barton being awkward at first or even completely throughout a whole interaction whenever he's trying to comfort people is so in character for him TBH and let me tell y'all why because i think it's important to his character:
he can fake a lot of things. barton can fake being nice to people, he can fake being innocent, and he can even fake having a much stronger sense of morality around people if he wants to — but whenever it comes to empathizing with someone on an emotional level... barton finds himself often struggling with faking it because of the nature of it. and this is due to it being different than whenever he's trying to feign something easily comprehensible like innocence. but empathy is something that's usually viewed as innate in us as humans and has to do with love, which doesn't depend on logic. it's something that comes from within, so it doesn't have clear parameters as to how you should do it, so whenever barton tries to fake it in the event that he's trying to make someone feel better; he'll stumble. and so although barton can cognitively empathize with someone, his efforts to actually put himself in other people's shoes fall flat, as he just can't physically imagine himself being in someone else's position probably more than half the time.
so if your muse were to ever come to him seeming upset, barton would likely not know what to do / how to comfort them, at least for a bit before referencing back on how he's seen other people do it. because i hate to say it (i don't, in reality, but y'all know what i mean LOL) but barton does actively mimic behaviors that he sees people do whenever he feels the absence of a certain emotion. he especially does this whenever he's trying to appear charming to other people, but like i said, he'll also try to use what he's seen his peers do as a guide as for what he should do in regards to empathy. and sometimes he may even seem a bit flustered before he's able to do this because he knows that it is expected of him to be able to empathize with people and can identify it in other people BUT knowing how to approach faking it has always been sort of hard for him even as an adult.
but yeahhh, that's just my own two cents about how barton sometimes break character that he is quote unquote ' normal, ' though he does try to mask this around people who aren't really familiar with him as simply being social awkwardness. however, it is part of a larger thing with him as despite the fact that he can blend in with the population REALLY well and also is pretty good at manipulating others, i suppose you could say that barton is still not an expert at ' constructing empathy ' because whenever someone is visibly hurt in front of him... he is more liable to act like he isn't sure what to do, than to put on an act immediately since he is likely to feel nothing first before anything else. and i realize that that is a rather unsettling thought, but i think that he is a lot more suspectible to doing this with people he doesn't know well / who he isn't particularly close to, as he's got a lot more practice with being falsely empathetic towards friends and/or sometimes even family members.
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study.#ANGER'S HELPED ME STAY ALIVE: headcanons.#yeah so i do know that this does bring up some questions because if barton mimics emotions then how do you know whether he's being truly-#genuine or not whenever he's interacting with someone? and wellll that is honestly a rather good question bc i feel like sometimes it IS-#probably hard to tell whether he is actually feeling these things rather than just putting on an act in front of people though i feel as if#it's possible that you'd be able to tell in general if you pay close attention to what his tells are for lying / i think humans just in-#general are able to sense whenever someone is not being 100% authentic and i believe i've mentioned this before BUT barton does sometimes-#give off weird / bad vibes sometimes so that could help another character figure out that he mayyy or may not be being real with them rn.#so yeahhh i know that this isn't the most happy or light thing go talk about at 10:30 in the morning on a Sunday but JSJSJ what can i sayyy#/ j JSJSJ nahhh I'm kidding around with y'all but i did promise you guys that I would post fluff so i still fully intend on doing that#my brain just decided it was time to explain some thing's about barton's behavior / some context behind it bc i always like delving deep-#Into my character like this (':#tw: potentially disturbing content.#tw: discussions of symptoms of a mental illness.#tw: mentions of manipulation.
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the forest looks like heaven today i woke up feeling the heaviest weight at the top of my heart
#yesterday on the study they said they were dating two others and it was going well and i cant imagine fucking you but#you have great tits. they got upset at me not inviting them to a party. my research partner told me to write a 1000 word essay on why they#should come. they spoke about how much they wanted theiir ex and they wouldnt tell me much about who theyre dating bc#they thought i still had feelings for them which. god. theyre right but the assumption is so arrogant#the streams r rly beautiful im walking to a date and shes gorgeous and some of my friends know her but i look#exactly like ive slept on my friends floor for the past few days so . aaa anyway#god after that whole call i just felt so deflated like i felt over it but now its all . back. like seeing them being happy w smn else#inflicts active misery upon me which means ii think im becoming a worse person bc of them. i called my friend and i just . idk i walked home#i kept wanting to weep but . woah the sun is so pretty#there are petals and dandelion seeds floating in the air#med school students walking to their lectures#she does biochem btw. the person im meeting now#there are two butterflies dancing together. i cant make this shit up the past few days have looked like actual heaven#ive spent them being on survival mode and not even bc of my studies like ok focus on log functions while the person kn the screen#tells u abt how if her ex were to call shed fold immediately and the new girl is a singer and its going well and maybe ill tell you#more abt it in a few months. SO YOU KNOW IT HURTS ! SO WHY WOULD YOU TELL ME YOUD MAKE OUT W ME AT THE CLUB WHY WOULD U FALL ASLEEP NEXT TO#ME WITHOUT CLOTHES ON ! WHY WOULD YOU CARESS YOUR OWN SKIN LOOKING AT ME IN THE MIRROR !!!!#anyway im like . sane.#i just . felt like it was over#i realised i kept seeing ppl who i thought were more attractive etc etc than her bc i needed to prove to myself#that im attractive enough to be liked or that i can be liked at all and a part of me wanted to prove it to them too#its just a horrible mindset to have and yh not only do they not care but they also bring out the worst in me actively like . I DONT KNOW#BUT THEN WHO ELSE KNOWS THAT THE GOLDEN HOURS IN TEHRAN ARE PINK AND LILAC WHO GOES TO TECHNO RAVES AT THE BASE OF DAMAVAND#WHO CAN PIN YOU AGAINST A WALL LIKE THEM !!!#anyway#standing up it just feels so#exhausting#like this the most exhausted ive felt from all this ever
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I also made a card for him (Patreon)
#My art#SCII#Damned#DAX#Don't look at me lol#I considered making one from my bad batch of printouts but nah I have other uses for them still :P#Besides I get to use full colour here! And he deserves it ♥#DAX's cute expressions through Dex's cute face <3#A lot of the details initially started as guesswork but I feel a teensy bit more confident in them now that I've done some looking around ♪#Heights are still undefined tho lol! Max is 5'9'' and Dexter looks to be at least a good few inches taller than he is so#It's pointed at that Dex is ~6 years older than Max - I put him at 8 years older but I'm happy to move their ages closer in my mind <3#More than that I'm happy to have been so close! :D#It's most likely that he's actually 30 by this point but if Max took a two year rather than a four year college course fjdslafd#My thoughts around DAX's age have shifted a little as well bringing in the consideration that VUX have longer lifespans than humans :0#What does 10 years age difference look like when that's proportionally less for VUX than humans!#Speculation for another time lol#I probably could've added more names in his ''Knows'' section but I stuck with the ones I've seen drawings of haha#He probably wouldn't know DOX...#If I'd thought about it for a moment I would've drawn his eyes reverse-open-closed - I like the idea of him and ZEX mirroring each other <3#Well they can both switch hehe#No matter how many of these I make it's so fun to fill out the Personality section hehe - single-word descriptors are very fun!#Seeing how many simple words I can think of to describe someone hehe <3 With minimal overlap and considering connotation! It's fun!!#I love DAX <3 And I love Dex haha it's the same with Max/ZEX! I love them all ♪♫
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bunny mask is literally the living embodiment of songs like ' dog days are over ' by florence + the machine and ' rebel girl ' by bikini kill. and no, i will not be taking criticism
#SOMETHING FEELS AMISS: musings.#LET ME TEACH YOU: headcanons.#HEAVY on dog days are over though. because the dog days of summer are often the most hot and miserable... so saying that they're over means-#that even though it may seem like these days are never going to end... they will and your spirit of happiness will return.#i don't think there is a solid interpretation out there as to what it's about but it is VERY MUCH a song that is about overcoming-#something difficult and / or overcoming depression to me. and that represents bunny mask pretty well i think. she was literally trapped in-#cave for what felt like FOREVER and wasn't sure whether she'd ever be released but she was + she was given a new start with her life in a-#way because of that. and i'm not trying to overinflate bunny mask's character here but... hey. whenever it comes to ' rebel girl ' -#bunny mask is VERY much a girl's girl so i feel like it's equally as likely that she feels the same kind of admiration for other women that-#the singer does and firmly believes that women should lift other women up rather than bring them down. plusss... this song kind of has-#an underlying message in it about the confusion between friendship and sexuality whichhh i could kind of see bunny mask experiencing?#because she is still trying to wrap her head around the different kinds of love that exist and whether if you like someone so much that you-#want to BE THEM... does that mean that you just really like them as a friend or that you're in love with them?? idk but i just love#bunny mask being unapologetic about defending and loving her friends. so yeah. bunny mask is just very special to me okay
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so like umm what the fuck are we supposed to do with our lives
#i just sit in my house all day#i don’t know how to socialize#got no friends or romantic interests#seen every show and movie on every streaming service#i have no energy at all times#i just feel like i’m existing and i don’t know why#like i’m not happy#and i keep trying to do things that make me happy but i just feel empty#and just like nothing feels worth it?#like why am i here?#what’s the purpose?#just work until the day i die?#but like why am i even working? for material items that only provide me temporary satisfaction?#for a house where i live all alone like i’ve always been my whole life?#for the idea of maybe finding people that bring me happiness be in friends or a lover but at this rate it’s been years and i still can’t do#that#so will i ever?#i don’t know :/#i don’t know what to do#what does anyone do?#what makes people happy?#what makes life worth living?#i want to travel but i need money to do that but it’s like how will i have money if i have to use it for rent and necessities?#living is a scam#i wish i was a inanimate object
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I desperately want to start playing trumpet again I literally can't stop thinking about it
#i own a very very very shitty trumpet but its in storage in the back house (we have 2 trailers combined by a scary room) and is going to#take tremendous effort to get to. i eitber have to break into the back door that has no stair case#or move all of the furniture in the living room to unblock the door into the scary room#and I'll also have to use a flashlight the entire time because the electricity is turned off back there#and also idk if the trumpet is even still good its been in storage for 10 years ya know#did i mention its super shitty and i paid $100 for it like 12 years ago#my other option is to save up my game money for probably 6 months and buy a second hand on off Facebook marketplace#because i am unemployed and while my sister does pay our bills and i get food stamps#i don't get money for fun stuff ever. i just don't think my sister thinks about it which makes me sad#at least once a month she gets a silly little package of stuff she buys for herself to make her happy#i don't. and i don't want her to feel bad about it because she deserves nice things but like i get sad because i can't but thinga#the last time i bought something unimportant was cannabis seeds that she wanted me to get#because she prefers smoking to taking edibles#before that my mom gave me $50 for my birthday and i still could only bring myself to spend $40 at the craft store#i used the other $10 for cat food that we didn't even actually need at the time#because i feel guilty asking for anything let alone stuff that isn't a necessity
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YES miku is from japan YES mexico got eliminated weeks ago NO i don't care . in my heart miku is a mexico fan <3333
based off of this figure and this 5 second edit i made for my discord pfp
#vocaloid#hatsune miku#world cup#mundial#fanart#ok enough lame ass art tags time to use this space to talk about the world cup 👍#so like i really do not want to root for argentina But they're the only latam country left and i feel obligated to root for a latam country#so lieeekkk. i am very begrudgingly rooting for argentina but if they lose i wouldn't be too sad yknow lol#if morocco wins i'll be happy though good for them#they both HAVE to make it to finals though if croatia and/or france makes it i will be physically ill .#favorite world cup moment has probably been me and like 7 or 8 other people huddling around a shitty chromebook#watching argentina vs netherlands in our last class <333 futbol really DOES bring people together ... (sometimes) (kind of)#OK world cup talk over ! go root for morocco (i still cannot in good faith tell anyone to root for argentina)
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i am literally unstoppable now that i have 109 yards of elastic string and a big box full of thousands of beads i haven't used in years
#okay i'm slightly stoppable because i'm completely out of plain black beads#not sure why i thought i probably still had some when that's literally always the color that gets used up the fastest. for me anyway#probably really gonna get back into making kandi now that i have ppl who will go to raves with me again tho#even tho only a small portion of ppl still wear kandi at raves :( which makes me so sad. we need to keep the tradition alive !!!!!!#it is literally a symbol of friendship and solidarity. not to sound Old but where has everyone's sense of plur gone !!!!#i miss seeing everyone wearing kandi all the way up to their armpits. me and my friends were like that#only person i still know who does that is my friend flapjack. he's also one of the only ppl who still DJs happy hardcore :(#anyway i'm bringing a bit of kandi to the rave on friday to trade. even if no one has any to trade i'll still give them to ppl#oh maybe i'll give some to the DJs !!! from what i've seen on their instagrams they seem like they'd appreciate that
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mrs collins arc in summary
#➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure,miss winters.#➤ arc: mrs. collins. ┊ collinwood will always mean home to me.#half the reason I think things would actually Work Out is that they’re both two terrible marriages/engagements down#‘might as well give it a shot. third time’s the charm’#it’s not so much a matter of … passion or whirlwind romance. so much as it is they’re already close and they want to move On from#prev spouses & unhappiness. adversity better faced in partnership#not that there isn’t romance involved but that’s not why they get married.#v’s experience still pales to roger’s but it does not Work unless they’re both divorced (to me)#Roger doesn’t necessarily have to live up to a youthful naive expectation of marriage and V is not a young toy that he’d buy like a new car#I didn’t even count v and barn’s almost vampire marriage but like. that too#they’ve both all but given up on the idea of marriage bringing happiness by then.#not that rog is ever selfless (never!) but he does have some selfless motives in terms of protecting V; keeping her with the family;#ensuring she’s financially provided for#there’s a line when she’s in Bangor looking for Answers about how she feels her future is tied to the Collinses whether or not her past is.#and. yeah. that’s it baby !!!!!#ok enough waxing about the version of the story that lives exclusively in my head lmao
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