#that can't happen i can't lose him
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I really truly genuinely do not want to let him go
#I'm in denial. what order are the 5 stages of grief#like. i don't want it to be true. if it's true that means i can't forgive him this time and i can't go back#that can't happen i can't lose him#idk what to do#i feel so lost and helpless#i can't believe this happened. I'm so sad#i just want things to be good again. everything was so good#why did it have to change#was it worth it? was it worth all my pain#i don't know what to do#and now i have nobody. he was everything to me and now he's gone#it's been years. doesn't that mean anything to him?#but he doesn't want to lose me either. he'll do anything to keep me#but it's too late. we can't change the past and i can't pretend it didn't happen#he can apologize and promise to change but it's too late#and i wish it wasn't. i wish we had more time together#and i wish i wasn't so sensitive and emotional and nostalgic and attached#a stronger person would have let go a long long time ago. and would do it now without hesitation#but i can't. how could i just give up without looking back? i can't#I'm so sad#Sera
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its funny because Percy has been spiraling ever since pjo and whenever he has a particularly bad episode you have other characters actively worried about it and you think to yourself surely they're going to intervene, surely someone is going to talk to him about it, and then like no one ever does lol
#I STILL HAVE NOT READ CHALICE#so maybe something's there#but I think Jason in boo was the closest thing we got (percy initiated the conversation)#but like... I still dont think Jason recognized/understood the extent to which percy was spiraling#and to be fair Jason was not present in tartarus so he wouldn't truly know but like#I dont think annabeth's approached the topic with him#at least not on a non superficial level#or if she did it happened offscreen#anyways#if percy deflects or loses it or whatever you can't say the warning signs weren't there lmao#pjo#percy jackson#mine
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"You betrayed me last season so I don't love you!"
guys i can't believe the gempearl divorce is real guys LOVE IS DEAD wl!gem is salty and bitter about how everything ended in secret life. how is it possible that none of us even thought about that possibility
#wild life spoilers#life series spoilers#gempearl#shiny duo#i'm actually losing it a little#because from gem's perspective pearl is the one person she trusted to be by her side during SL#but now she can't trust her because when she needed her the most#when she was alone and despairing over permakilling scott#pearl wasn't there with her#is it crazy to think that wl!gem being so bend on making friends but also being really prone to lashing out#against quite literally everyone is a consequence of what happened in secret life#also how she is clinging to joel and even swearing that she will give her life for him when she was with martyn#because if she loses him then she will be alone in a world she knows she can't trust#i need gem and pearl to talk because the miscommunication is driving me NUTS
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Some past fiddlestan? (Like Ford just went through the portal. He gone now. Past. Yk?)
The mystery misery yaoi
#the angst potential is so juicy#I understand why it might not be everyone's cup of tea but I like the idea of them being so 'toxic' for each other (after the portal#incident. if they met before I think they'd be pretty healthy and wholesome)#like. Fidds is already kinda losing it because of the memory gun and Stan is grieving. they're not in a mental state for a relationship#Stan would hit him with his car by accident and then try to gaslight him that 'no that never happened you're imagining things'#and Fidds would be pretending that Stan is actually Ford or trying to use the memory gun on Stan to make him believe he IS Ford#or. my favorite yet. the one I have as 'canon' in my head. they end up in a messy relationship but Fidds thinks Stan is Ford#and in tge end Stan can't keep pretending and he ends things or something#there's also the more 'happy' versions. where Fidds is still sane enough to help Stan work on the portal. I'll make some fanart of it#at least of Fiddleford tending to his burn wound or something. for now take this little doodle (I thought it was funny but what do I know)#ask#not anon#gravity falls#stanley pines#stan pines#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#fiddlestan#young fiddleford#young stan pines#young stanley pines#art#fanart#traditional art#misery yaoi#ignore all that it's late I'm tired I don't know what I'm writing
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the mental fortitude and determination it must've taken for kevin to learn to play with his right hand
#my posts#my aftg posts#the foxhole court#aftg#all for the game#kevin day#the trauma of nearly losing his ability to play aka the only thing he /has/#the trauma of leaving the nest and adjusting to a completely different lifestyle#while they were on break he was practicing#probably constantly worrying that riko will find him (he'll kill him if he does)#and wondering what'll happen if he can't play again (they'll kill him for sure)#and six months later he was already testing using his left hand what the fuck!!!!!!!!!#kevin day deserves more love and respect and i will not rest until he gets it
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↠ Tim & Lucy ↳ 5x04 - The Choice
#chenford#chenfordedit#the rookie#therookieedit#tim x lucy#tim and lucy#lucy x tim#jesuis-assez edits: chenford#jesuis-assez edits: chenford season 5#jesuis-assez edits: chenford scenes 5x04#They were both hurting so much and longing for the other#the only way they could show how much the other meant to them in that very moment was through a look#Tim poured everything he felt in that look and Lucy mirrored it back just as deeply.#the way Lucy's eyes followed Tim down until she could no longer see him and even then her eyes lingered just a little more.#That's just how they are.#Showing their love through looks and actions#everything they couldn't voice in that moment they communicated with their eyes.#because Tim telling Lucy it's too dangerous was really him saying: I can't risk anything happening to you. I can't lose you.#I don't even have you now and it kills me to be apart from you.#I don't want to imagine what it'd be like without you. Without your presence in my life. And the thing is.. he already knows.#Before her... he's life was in shambles and she came and changed everything for him.#She's been this constant beacon of light and kindness in his life that continues to influence him for the better.#The love of his life.#Just one last look if it is the last thing I see. It'll be you. And your eyes. Your kindness. All that you are & all that you have given me#They held that look for as long as they possibly could before Tim went completely down. They dove into the ocean of each other's eyes#and found something there that was of equal measure.#an understanding of just how important they are to the other.#just how much love was conveyed in a single look of desperation.
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Fluster
It’s the end of the day and the sun is starting to set. Karl is leaning against a wooden support beam, somberly looking outside.
Karl: "Hm. Time passes unfairly quickly when you're here..."
He turns to Rachel. Karl: "I suppose you have to go soon?"
Rachel: "Yes... It appears so..."
Rachel looks down at the inside of her violin case. She tucks away her instrument and its bow so that they remain in place within their molds. A question pesters her, causing her to fidget nervously while Karl continues to quietly look at the sunset.
Finally, Rachel breaks the silence.
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Rachel: "Karl?"
Karl: "?"
Rachel: "Forgive me if this is a rude question, but can you really not feel anything?"
He gives her a skeptical look. Karl: "I don't know… This conversation's starting to feel a little painful, if you ask me."
Rachel: "O-oh... I'm sorry... I shouldn't have said anything..."
Karl (waving his hands): "I'm kidding! I'm kidding. But last I've checked, statues don't have any nerve endings."
"Why do you ask?"
Rachel looks down at Karl's foot. Rachel: "Well... You almost lost your leg from those crocodiles that one time... But even if you did, would it have hurt? In any way at all?"
“That’s what she’s worried about?” He thinks to himself, bemused.
Karl: "I can feel things, but probably not in the sense you're thinking of."
"I can 'feel' the tugging and impact of forces hitting me, and I can 'feel' my limbs in the sense that I can still move them, even when they're detached. But I have to admit, I barely have an idea of what you humans consider 'pain'..."
He pauses.
"Not that I'm envious. It doesn't look like a good time."
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Rachel: "Does that mean you can sense if something's on you?"
Karl grins wryly. Karl: "I'll always be able to tell if it's you, but we can test that if you're curious..."
Rachel blushes lightly and pushes Karl playfully by his shoulder. Rachel: "Karl-! Do you even know what you're saying..?!"
Karl (clapping): "Haha! Your reaction's really all I need to know! You're so cute when you're flustered."
Rachel (flustered): "Y-You…! Ahh!! Stop teasing me-!!"
Karl laughs at her again.
Karl: "But to answer your question, it depends on the object. If it were something light, like a bug, then probably not."
Rachel: "Let's say you were to balance a heavy book on your head. Would you feel it?"
Karl: "An odd thing to put on your head, but I might be able to feel its weight. Heavy can be relative, after all."
Rachel: "What about water? Do you feel damp when you're drenched?"
Karl: "Thankfully, my resin coating makes it glide right off me, like water off a duck's back! So… no."
Rachel: "How about temperature? Do you feel bothered by hot or cold weather?"
Karl: "Not particularly. Though, I can feel the effects of it; the cold makes me more rigid, so I feel myself using more energy to move around"
Rachel: "I see..."
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Karl eyes her curiously. Karl: "Why the sudden interest, though?"
Rachel: "Hm?"
Karl: "Gasp! Could it be?" Karl: "Are you, perhaps, interested in learning about my body more... intimately?"
Rachel (amused): "Karl..."
Karl (coyly): "Because if you want, I can teach you everything you want to know, and more."
Rachel scoffs and rolls her eyes at him. She ponders a bit before her eyes light up and suddenly, her expression turns mischievous.
Rachel: "And what if I take you up on that offer?"
Karl raises an eyebrow. Karl: "Oh?"
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Rachel starts advancing closer to him.
Rachel: "I've always been curious about you, Karl. And I've been wondering how you'd feel if you were put in... certain situations..."
Rachel doesn't break eye contact, gazing at him as she closes the distance with an expression that makes him nervous, and yet, excited at the same time.
Karl: "For example...?"
Rachel: "For example..."
She puts her hand on his chest, pushing against him with just enough force to make him lean against the wooden support.
Rachel: "Would you be able to feel my weight if I sat on top of you?"
Rachel rests her other hand against the support and brings her hand up to lightly caress his lips with her fingertips.
Rachel: "Would you be able to feel the moisture of my lips if I were to press them against yours?"
She moves her hand onto Karl's shoulder and leans forward, her face inches away from his face.
Rachel: "Would you be able to feel the heat radiating from me if you were close enough to hear my heart beat?"
She gazes at him intently. Rachel: "I'm just so curious, Karl..."
Karl looks back at her, speechless and baffled by this sudden shift. His eyes scans her face as he desperately tries to process a cryptic expression that he’s never seen from her before. Tense with anticipation, he waits to see what she’ll do next.
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A moment passes, and Rachel sighs wistfully, backing away from Karl with faux disappointment.
Rachel: "Based on your answers, though, it doesn't sound like any of those would do much for you."
"...Right?"
Karl snaps back to reality, realizing it's his turn to answer.
Karl: "...!" Karl: "Ahah…" Karl: "Ahaha!!" Karl: "Well!" Karl: "M-Maybe in theory...!"
Karl relaxes a little, though still shaken from the residual fluster. He tries to laugh it off, hoping she hasn’t noticed his lost composure.
Karl: "But you never know unless you try... right?"
Rachel smiles teasingly. She walks over to where her violin rests and picks it up.
Rachel: "It's getting late, Karl. I think should get going before it gets too dark."
Karl deflates a little. Karl: "Ah yes… Of course…" Time really does pass unfairly quickly when she's with him.
Karl: "Let me walk you to the bridge, at least."
Rachel: "Please."
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The two walk over to their usual parting spot outside.
As usual, Rachel's stayed a little longer than she should've tonight. Not that she's ever minded, but she feels bad about worrying her poor mother back home. She'll have to do something to make up for it later.
Rachel: "Alright then. I'll see you around, Karl."
Karl: "I'll be here..."
Rachel smiles. Rachel: "Take care."
Karl watched Rachel as she walked away.
He wished she didn't have to go. She usually visits him once or twice every week, but he's never truly sure when he'll see her again, whether it's due to an upcoming event, or simply because she's not feeling well. She tries to keep him updated, but there's been times when he wasn't able to see her for weeks, without any warning. Sometimes even months.
Karl: "Rachel!"
Rachel turns around.
Karl (grinning): "Made you look!"
Rachel laughs and shakes her head. She waves at him before turning back around.
He always hated sad good-byes.
#castle of nations#dynart#rachel#karl#this pic isn't indicative of what's happening in this segment!#It's just the most fitting pic I currently had haha#in my head these two flirt like they're both playing a game of chicken#whoever backs down or can't come up with a response loses#and they both hate losing#I wanted this to be a valentines day special last year#to give context on how old this is#I wrote this after I wrote the SCRIPT of the Red comic#but eventually I realized that turning this into a comic would take 10000 years due to its length so I gave up o|-<#hope it's still enjoyable to read hahaha#I wrote this to explore karl a little#but take everything you read here with a grain of salt; the answers he gives are just based on my observations of him in the OCTs#blog#all
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I have two (2) Chilchuck thoughts:
#chilchuck tims#dungeon meshi#'oh his anxiety disappeared the minute he got tall' NO DUH#I can't emphasize this enough. he doesn't stand a CHANCE if Laios actually wanted to hurt him.#AND HE KNOWS IT.#the fact that he loses it once he realizes what had actually happened here#gosh. GOSH.#you know whatever you've been working with this guy for three years#yeah you think he's kind of dumb but who doesn't think that about their boss#and then every once in a while he gets a little too close or yells a little too loud or moves a little too quickly#and it's just this jolt of primal terror as you realize. he could ACCIDENTALLY kill you.#this man isn't making it to 35 okay I cannot believe the stress
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Prompt 184
“Well damn.”
Jason wrenched his gaze from the mess of red and green spattered across the room, searching for the source of the voice. His head hurt, he wanted his Dad. He wanted Bruce. He… his head hurt. His everything hurt.
“Honestly, didn’t expect them to find another half-breed. Didn’t think there was another halfa out there…”
He tore his gaze away from the floor- when had it gotten there- finally finding the other… person? The person giving him an empty smile through some sort of muzzle and missing an entire arm. Well, he couldn’t judge, he’d torn his nails off while digging out of his grave before… this.
“Hey, kid, don’t sweat it, it’ll grow back,” the man apparently noticed where he was staring, shoulder twitching as he shrugged and more green pouring out. Jason couldn’t stop staring, eyes slipping from the growing pool to the rest of the chains apparently keeping the person on that side of the… room? Cage? Cell?
“Shit, hey, kid, kid, don’t cry, uh, fuck, shh, kid don’t cry-” the person made a noise, some sort of hum or croon that caused him to relax. To his already brain-damaged confusion. “C’mere, away from the door now, shh…”
Oh, when had he started to move? It was like he blinked and was stumbling away towards the chained person, practically tripping over a limb before the person managed to catch him. “Ope, oh you’re just a little baby-” a hand, clawed, carefully ran through his hair, tucking him against a rumbling chest that nearly made him tear up again. He wanted Bruce.
“It’s alright kid, shh, they won’t get you,” the man rumbled, everything about him green to his rapidly closing eyes. Pale skin like a corpse, black scales like rot, hair white like snow, all stained green with blood. “They’d have to kill me again for that.”
#dcxdp#dpxdc#prompts#Instead of spending 3 years with the league of assassins after digging himself out of his grave#Jason spends it in a GIW lab with an adult Danny#Danny is totally doing okay he swears#He’s FINE and definitely didn’t see the scientists Kill Vlad and Dani by taking things too far#He’s definitely Not feral and slowly losing his humanity with every piece taken away#Danny missing half his limbs and restrained but dragging himself forward: U touch my kid and I will bite your throat out ya hear#He’s not going to let them hurt this Baby Ghostling who is Sick and Hurt#There’s going to be so much Angst when Bruce finds out not only is Jason alive but he’s trapped in a lab being experimented on#Danny does his best to protect Jason but stuff happens#halfa jason todd#guys in white#Danny eventually goes from having 2 arms to 4 in those three years#His 'human' body is mutating with every “test”#Where is Clockwork? Trying his best but he can't see Danny's timelines thx to the time medallion & the Observants being Assholes#Also not helped by the many knots the speedsters have created that resulted in several timelines being completely blacked out to him
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Jason “my family doesn’t know im alive” Todd and Danny “my family doesn’t know I’m dead” Fenton going alongside each of their plans my beloved. like Danny will absolutely go head-to-head with all of Gotham to support his new best friend on all his crime lord endeavors while he drags Jason to also attend collage with him. They are roommates and there never seems to a mention of family from either side. It’s an unspoken understanding they have. They met because Crime alley as a ghost lair thrummed with so much loneliness, it was at first the perfect place for Danny to hide his ecto signature in. But then he saw the dumbass whose lair it was lean his motorcycle just a tad too much when making a sharp turn to an alley, he sweeped the floor through a lifted chain link that passed his body but not his helmet. Yep that’s right the red thing got stuck. Danny who at the moment happened to be watching through his window snorted. Much to his horror because if not a ghost that dude could’ve gotten his head flung off.
Still, the scene was ridiculous.
On a whim he irrationally sees the police closing in on the guy and panicked at the thought of the guy using intangibility to free himself so Danny phased them both through his apartment wall and left the guy sprawled in his couch. Jason didn’t freak out but that’s normal when one’s got a concussion, one the guy immediately denied having as Danny laid out the medical supplies. The idiot proceeded to almost flatten four steps to the door with his stubbornness. He also said “I’m asexual” in the most deadpan voice as Danny dropped him back in the couch.
Danny sighed. Clearly though, he’d done so too early in the night because the guy kept trying to go, kept trying to knock Danny out, kept trying to slash him with knifes Danny didn’t know he had stashed. He’d only disarmed the guy from his guns. The visible ones apparently, cause at one point the guy did take out a gun and shoot until the ammo ran out and then teetered the thing like it was an art prop and hit his moon lamp.
Danny "yeah you aren’t officially my friend until you’ve tried to kill me" fenton my guys.
Anyways both keep having the same argument over if Danny technically kidnapped Jason or not. Danny holds the fact that the police at least didn’t see the guy make the ridicule. Jason argued that happened cause he was sporting a concussion. Danny argued he got that after.
Jason at first thinks the guy's a meta, but no. Danny introduces himself, sheepily now that he recognizes this is who the lair he invaded is from. He bandages him and tries to cook for him. If Danny didn’t have ice powers he most certainly would’ve burned the apartment. Jason then proceeds to kick him out of his own kitchen and make them both enchiladas. It’s the most normal both had in a while with another person and the air seems oddly settled. From then on, Jason constantly invited himself over, under the pretense that this was his territory and therefore he could drop in unannounced. Danny who has actual powers says he only allows this because Jason cooks very well.
Danny stays away from the crime fighting business unless his buddy is in deep shit he can’t get himself out. Also it’s Danny’s turn to cover for his vigilante friend which Sam and Tucker give him so much shit for. (but also advice)
And they were roommates. (omg) Danny effectively derails Jason’s big comeback plans by casually dropping ghost lore every two days. Like,
Jason, talking about how he doesn’t want Bats snooping on his territory:
Danny: Just don’t let them in
Jason: ??
Danny: yeah!! Hasn’t Batman died and got revived??? You can totally kick out death touched people you don’t want entering on your lair.
Jason: …I can?
Danny: Yep dude, your lair’s supposed to feel safe.
Jason: wait does that mean I can kick you out?
Danny: First this is my apartment. Second, im dead, not dead touched. Third, it’s too late to get rid of me. bitch.
Anyways Jason is super excited. You mean to tell him he can actually deny people over to his territory haunt?? (Yes it’s only to people who have died and came back but still!! The sample size is exactly the type of people he doesn’t want to see—!)
Joker my beloathed can’t step foot in Crime Alley.
(Jason’d feel a lot safer if the clown was dead but the possibility of his murderer turning into a ghost and their little loophole not applying on the clown is too scary to contemplate.)
Anyways, Jason loves experimenting with the power. It can go from simply making people shudder and not want to enter crime Alley to straight up not letting them enter like there’s an invisible wall blocking the way.
Jason because he’s hurt that Bruce never even patrols Crime Alley and also because he’s petty put B under the category of “invisible wall” blacklist. His reasoning is that the man doesn’t even attempt to enter Crime Alley. To him it’s surely just a place shadowed in tragedy. (anyways that’s it’s the place he met Jason)
Ironically, Jason totally forgets that Batman does venture into Crime Alley one day in the whole year. The day he met Jason.
Okay. He didn’t forget at first. The first year Jason remembers cause it was only a few months till then but then the next— Jason forgets that today’s the anniversary of the day’s Bruce’s parents died. He forgets to allow B in when he feels a slight tug and dismiss the feeling that prompts Bruce to investigate because he literally can’t enter Crime Alley. He starts the trialsTM, he scouts on the very edge and sees people the whole day enter and get out and cross with no problem but Bruce can’t.
It’s literally just Bruce.
Time to call Constantine, i guess.
#bat shenanigans ensue#JSJSJS okay so i dont have a well versed timeline of events but two years after utrh who HASNT died of the batfam#cause those are the ones who are gonna go undercover to find what shady shit is this: )#im going with timmy cass and duke#sorry steph i KNOW you have died#the others have plausible deniability from my part#the trio is gonna come down hard on this unsuspecting pair#let's just say constantine just had one spare magical rune for each of them so they'll be able to identify who was powerful enough to do it#and duke found civvie jason. cass found civvie danny and tim also found jason a la squared. in his red hood get up later that night#the only useful photos are from tim's side but anyways since they got three suspects (one suspected to be the other. so really-- two)#they decide to split each other up and tag one each (whoever doesn't get the correct guy loses)#tim calls dibs on the twink. cass rolls her eyes and narrows her eyes at the red hood and duke smirks when he gets to keep his guy#he's not cheating if he didn't protest to getting to have the guy he already saw the aura of. he's sure he is IT#coincidentally duke happens to be the only bat jason doesn't recognize (and vice versa)#meanwhile cass is gonna be the one shadowing red hood which at this point he doesn't kill that much since he has his rules verymuch enforce#he does kill tho#so at some point they're gonna clash but at the start of the investigation no#let them be siblings your honor#big sis cass and her little brother 6'4 jay#and tim finally is gonna be the one to smoothly get himself in the conversation with cryptid roommate civilian danny fenton#genius dumbasses protection club#their first meeting is of course arranged but no less meet cute coffee shop au#anyways jason wants to know why the fuck hes got a bat tagging along with him so out of the blue and also why can't he fucking chase her of#cass is curious about how the red hood's mood constantly changes within her range yet he never attacks her despite his hurt-longing-anger#the boy who doesn't make noise fucking screeches when she sneaks up to him#and duke fucking brings his hands to block the chernobyl reject glow stick sun that's stands next to tim#while tim looks like his whole system is rebooting cause that's jason todd#dp x dc#danny phantom#jason todd
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Me, hanging around camp to find interactions and conversations that I've never heard before:
Everyone at camp: go away
#if I hear susan yelling at arthur again I might lose it#“what happened to that man of action??” susan he's depressed please#I know everyone relies on arthur but he can't even stay in his own camp without people giving him grief for it 😭#“I think this is the longest I've seen you around here” okay thanks john#“I never took you for a homebody” like you would know dutch#“you heading out soon?” I wasn't going to hosea but I might just say fuck this and leave anyways#god#poor guy#mick squeaks#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#arthur morgan#red dead redemption community#funnies#john marston
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Do you all ever think about how Fitz must have felt immediately after the Fool's Fate breakup? Like, before he begins properly courting Molly and using that as an escape, back when he still lives in Buckkeep? He largely speeds through this era in his narration, but how was it actually like for him, living through it day by day?
Waking up in the bed of Chade's workroom, expecting to feel the Fool's back against his, but then realizing that no one's there. Listening to nobles and servants gossip about Lord Golden and when asked, having to come up with some sort of an explanation, all the while trying not to show just how much even the mention of him hurts.
Walking past the door to Lord Golden's chambers and resisting the urge to try to pull it open, just in case the Fool might still be there (even if he knows that it would be impossible). Reciting the poem the Fool left him over and over in his mind, searching for any clue that might hint to his return, yet finding nothing. Drinking apricot brandy alone.
For the first time since he was a boy, having to live without either his Wit-bond to Nighteyes, or his Skill-link to the Fool. All by himself, entirely disconnected from the two beings who made him whole.
#i got carried away imagining this and now im very very very sad#but for real. we know how badly fitz handles losing the people he loves#we saw how he reacted to nighteyes and molly's deaths and to chade briefly abandoning him in AA and to burrich and molly's 'betrayal' in AQ#yet this is the one 'mourning period' he refuses to describe at all. and it happens immediately after he regains his full emotions#so it really can't have been good#rote#realm of the elderlings#rote spoilers#fool's fate spoilers#fool's fate
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there's a moment in lesson 45 of nightbringer where mc falls off a thing (again?? is this foreshadowing?? i'm going to rule-of-three this and wait to see if it happens again) and satan tries and fails to grab their hand to catch them, but now i'm imagining the same thing happening with satan and ik except he does succeed, but it's her right hand and the prosthetic just POP comes straight off
#nightbringer spoilers#ik is fine but satan is mildly traumatised#misc thoughts#obey me satan#couldn't sleep so i decided on a whim to do the lesson#i really wasn't planning to for a while after 44 and tbh that was the right decision#it feels like they just completely dumbed beel down?? and i can't tell if they're trying to telegraph that Something Is Wrong#or if they just totally forgot how to write him. which has been happening to him consistently since like s3#we did get more confirmation that simeon's going through smth... but this feels like it's shaping up to be another og s4#where the entire main-plot-that-should-probably-be-focused-on-simeon is just happening in the background while mc does side quests#and then they're gonna spring the twist on us right at the end or immediately before the climax without proper foreshadowing/building it up#i realise i'm being pessimistic here but i'm losing hope in this season with each lesson they release. and we're only 5 in#i'd be delighted to be proven wrong though
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me at least once a week: I need to watch another Russell movie on my watchlist!
also me: *turns Gladiator on again*
#i can't help myself#mystery alaska is next on my list because it's winter and i preemptively am in love with john biebe#BUT#i have this weird thing where i always feel like i'm cheating on my favorite movie / guy#I KNOW THAT'S IRRATIONAL INSANE AND RIDICULOUS BUT#what will i do when i get obsessed with another of russell's characters for awhile and neglect maximus??#my husband my joy the light of my life???#interestingly what happens is i get obsessed with the new character for a week or two and then i'm right back to maximus only more intensel#that happened with alex ross from rough magic#russell made me lose my mind in that movie#and i was insane about him and only him for about a week#and then the maximus fever came back full force#but like??? i can't cheat on maximus with his modern equivalent john biebe without feeling monstrously guilty#i realize that this is in no way shape or form normal behavior#but the heart wants what it wants and the brain doeth whatever it chooseth#i need to just break down and watch it#i need to have another character to obsess over in tandem with maximus#BUT IT JUST HURTS SOMEHOW#I LOVE MAXIMUS SO MUCH I JUST WANT TO OBSESS OVER HIM#hooray for problems that exist only in my brain#gladiator#text posts#maximus#maximus decimus meridius#gladiator 2000#russell crowe
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#the way they both cling to their families while in distress#their families are their most cherished people that they somehow can't reach#Hürrem has literally lost them long ago#while Ibrahim has reunited with them and has placed them close to him due to his own love for them and his position in the castle#but it's precisely that same position that distances him from them and *will* distance him from them even *more* down the line#the reactions here also reveal how Hürrem and Ibrahim view death#Hürrem embraces it because she's lost so much already#they always want to separate her from the family she has and the family she's built in some way#and it's like they succeeded here - it has already happened - she's taken from Süleiman the only other person she could latch onto and from#her child she was going to have from SS that would show that she was actually going to keep on that she can't be separated from her family#*this time* not so easily but it's over it's done it seems so let her go to her mother and father at least let her return to them#let her reunite with them that's all she can have after she's already dead#after she's failed and the evil in the palace has seemingly taken over - in her E01 dream it was *they* who made her push forward#in order to commemorate them in the first place; she doesn't mention her sister tho even though she was there in the dream too#and I think that's because at this point Hürrem searches for protection for *help* and her parental figures can provide that to her#more than anyone else; namely they guided her in her dream mainly her mother so she goes first#it all also goes to show how her latching onto SS is a gradual process as she calls him only later#Ibrahim clings to life as embracing death would indeed mean losing absolutely everything completely#*fully* separating from his family he returned to found and reunited with after he wasn't sure about whether it's even possible#and what's more he has both his past and current family in front of him in the present; he can't let that go he *won't* let that go#so he urges his father and Niko not to leave him as in not to let him give up to help him in the fight he thinks he can still win#but he doesn't mention his mother namely because she isn't there in that picture she's fully gone and already symbolizes#a more distant past that wounds Ibrahim too much and he comes to want to evade as this ep is soon after#his scandal with Hatice; no wonder she appears in E44 and urges him to go home thus to go back as he wants to move on so badly#more subconsciously than even the usual#magnificent century#muhteşem yüzyıl#muhtesem yuzyil#hurrem sultan#ibrahim pasha
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just so you all know i will be campaigning hard for gethen for keeper sexyman 2025 and i will take any losses personally and fight for him like my life depends on it
#guys i can't take another fintan win. two years in a row is too much!!!! two for two!!!! step the fuck aside sir#unraveled better give me something good to put in the VERY long gethen propaganda i will be typing out posthaste#this is gethen's year i can feel it!!!! after watching him lose to fintan and brant for two entire years . . . we can't let it happen again#max should help my agenda and draw fintan ugly for once in his life. hey max can you draw him with a shitty mullet or something#gethen ondsinn#kotlc gethen#kotlc#keeper sexyman 2025
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