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nerdgirlnarrates · 1 year ago

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I think part of the difficulty of sharing certain experiences in healthcare with non-healthcare loved ones is that I'm simultaneously telling a story and teaching physiology or pharmacology or what have you. It's not that I resent this at all, it's just difficult to allow myself to fully experience and express my feelings while also keeping track of what I need to explain. I feel that I often do a bad job translating, and I leave some sentiments lost between us.

#I find this happens most often with grief over patients #I really struggle to convey the severity of certain cases #and annotating those experiences #e.g. saying 'this is very serious' after describing the situation #just doesn't convey the level of detail and acuity of understanding #that I wish I could give them #and that I know healthcare people have as soon as I tell the story #anyway I've been reflecting on this a lot #in part because I feel bad that sometimes it is not enough to tell my boyfriend or my parents what's happened #and I need to talk to another medical friend #and sometimes I just immediately go the medical friend #I often don't tell my non-medical friends anything because I fear I lack the words and it would just stress them out #and I think it's created some distance in my relationships #because there's this big thing I haven't or can't express that I'm always carrying #but I've also been reflecting on it because I'm putting together an elective for preclinical students #which among other things touches on grief in healthcare #I'm trying to offer whatever guidance I can #also I saw some fucked up shit on my neurosurgery sub-I and I'm still trying to figure out how to share that with people #I don't have any good answers yet #medicine #medblr #med school #med student #my content #my text posts

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spitedemon · 2 months ago

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i really don’t think it’s “typical dragon age fandom nonsense” for people to be genuinely upset about the world state choices. combat, level design, art direction, gameplay gimmicks, those have all varied across each dragon age game. the one thing that’s remained constant are nods to our previous choices.

i wasn’t expecting my HoF to come riding in on a griffon, but i can’t find a monument dedicated to warden tabris somewhere around the anderfels? lucanis couldn’t have some lines about the time that one arainai boy was stirring up trouble in antiva city? you’re gonna tell me that making a mage the new divine wouldn’t have some impact on nevarra and antiva? on the anderfels, the supposed most devout militant andrastian nation in thedas? you’re saying nobody in the north is paying attention to who rules orlais or ferelden? come on.

#dragon age #yes i’ve seen john epler’s explanation on only wanting to carry forward choices that they could ‘really do something with.’#and i understand what he’s saying and i’m curious to see how those 3 choices they brought forward will impact the story!!#but i’m still disappointed. and i think telling people why they shouldn’t be disappointed is just gonna make them More disappointed.#also don’t really appreciate dev comments like ‘careful what you wish for with cameos. it just gives us an excuse to find new and horrific #ways to kill your faves teehee 🤭🤭’ like okay???????? what???#alistair came back twice & could be fine both times. loghain’s inquisition cameo was so meaningful because who the hell expected to see him #again? leliana can straight up die in origins and yall brought her back anyways. like what are we doing out here.#also when i think of ‘typical’ nonsense for this fandom it’s people doxxing each other over fictional character opinions. or what #fictional side your fictional inquistor took in the fictional mage-templar war. or just plain old racism.#NOT ‘damn it’s fucking upsetting that this excited replay i’ve been doing of the previous games and all the recommending i’ve been doing #for new fans to play the other games before veilguard has turned out to be pretty fucking pointless.’#might as well tell someone to watch a let’s play of trespasser and that’s it.#11/26 in a hater mood so i’m turning rbs back on lol. go forth & be petty

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greghatecrimes · 4 months ago

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We always want to give our children what we never got for ourselves.

#friends bisexual worsties father daughter... whatever they are i love them. and he cares about her sm #he loves her so much. stacy made the call for him and so years later #hes giving her what he wished he had:#the choice to end the suffering on her own time and not when someone else says it's been enough #i could write an essay on this but for now... this will suffice #house md #web weaving #my webs #remy thirteen hadley #gregory house #stacy warner #lisa cuddy #1x21 #7x18 #robert chase #my caps

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shalom-iamcominghome · 7 months ago

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If anyone is interested, please feel free to light a digital candle through Illuminate. I got a name a few years back, and it's a name I won't forget. May every name we have found be a blessing. May their names never be forgotten. May we never forget.

Never again means now.

#jumblr #yom hashoah #shoah tw #this is a very small thing but i think it's a good digital project in the sense that it connects you with a name - a person #and gives you information - however scant - that is connected with them #i know many people have probably shared this but i still wanted to share #never again #i don't think i can attend the irl yom hashoah event near me tomorrow and it's kind of gutting me a little #but the person whose name i lit a digital candle for had... such little information we know. it aches my heart #i hope we continually find names and information about the people we gave found already. may we never ever forget them all #it causes so much anguish that there are names and people we may never know about #or information about people we will never know. i know g-d has not forgotten them i just... i wish we could know too

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bunnieswithknives · 3 months ago

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I feel bad for neglecting Hazel so much, I do have many thoughts about her.. and also a mermaid au that im probably not going to do anything with

#fop #fairly oddparents #fop a new wish #fairly oddparents a new wish #hazel wells #fop hazel #fop dev #dev dimmadome #art #digital art #doodles #I wish Hazels parents were more flawed tbh...#Like I get why they wanted to have them be good rep so that young people could know what a good family is supposed to look like #but it felt like every time there was an opportunity to have them do something genuinely flawed-#they would perfectly sidestep it before it even became a problem #I really enjoyed the first episode because it showed a hint of a very unique emotional issue Hazel had related to having a therapist mother #The idea that she has to be mature all the time #constantly living around therapy speak makes her feel like she isnt allowed room to breathe #Feeling unable to express her emotions without someone there giving advice that she isnt ready for yet #just small things!#She feels so pressured to be emotionally mature all the time BECAUSE she gets praised for it #maybe im projecting everyone always tell me I was so mature for my age...#But like I really really wanted to see that from her!!#And then after that episode it doesnt even come up again #The only other episode that features the moms job as a conflict is the one where she wants to spend more time with her #which is a fine conflict I guess but it still ends with her saying all the perfect things #I wanted Markus to be more of a genuine threat too. even if he didnt actually do anything having him be more looming would have been nice #I feel like they mostly forget hes a para scientist most of the time idk.#I just felt like his interactions could have been more unique #Maybe he will be in future seasons idk

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claraoswalds · 5 months ago

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#mrs flood who are you: time lord edition

#dwedit #doctor who #mrs flood #fifteenth doctor #the master #jacobi!master #tenth doctor #jack harkness #martha jones #twelfth doctor #ninth doctor #*#okay here is my argument: mrs flood IS a time lord but her presence here has nothing to do with the doctor #instead she's here because of ruby. she's seemingly part of/related to the pantheon of discord & we know that ruby is connected to them too #so i think that she was deliberately placed as ruby's neighbor by the pantheon/oldest one/ruby's mom/? in order to watch over her #it also explains why she was there to check on ruby in 1.04. once she realizes she's on the phone w carla she says 'nothing to do with me'#and she leaves. which implies that it COULD have had something to do with her. if it had been something else going on #ANYWAY. to get to the time lordness of it all. rn i personally believe that she's a time lord that's been hiding on earth for 50+ years #bc i don't think she recognized the police box as a tardis initially. that first quote should be taken at face value.#instead picture this: she's watching over ruby as per usual. a police box is there - weird but nbd. then it dematerializes in front of her.#she drops her groceries. she's shocked. she kinda looks scared. if she already knew it was a tardis why would she react like that?#so imo she knows OF tardises. she DIDN'T know the police box was one. and she's worried the time lords have found her hence the fear.#but when nothing happens and nobody comes at her she realizes she's still safe #later when she sees the doctor she realizes the tardis is his/he must be a time lord. he doesn't identify her but that's happened before #so then when she asks him who he is i think what she's actually asking for is his title. WHICH time lord are you.#bc lbr if she knows abt tardises then she knows about time lords and if she knows abt time lords she knows what it means for ruby #to be joining him - and that's why she wishes ruby good luck. meanwhile this is clearly the outcome she WANTS (them to be together)#bc she gets visibly upset when the doctor seems to decide to leave without ruby.#and for once i'm not master clowning bc the list of names the doctor gives out is VERY interesting. some of them we've never heard before:#the bishop; the conquistador; later he adds the pedant and sagi-shi and reiterates the bishop AGAIN. so i wonder if she's the bishop.....

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uncanny-tranny · 1 year ago

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I think it would really benefit people to internalize that mental illnesses are often chronic and not acute. Some of us will never be able to jump the hurdle of managing illness, much less sustaining a sense of normalcy. Many of us will never "recover," will never manage symptoms, will never even come close to appearing normal - and this is for any condition, even the ones labeled as "simple" disorders or "easy-to-manage" disorders.

It isn't a failure if you cannot manage your symptoms. It isn't a moral failure, and you aren't an awful person. You are human. There's only so much you can do before recognizing that you cannot lift the world. Give yourself the space to be ill because, functionally, you are.

#mental health #mental health advocacy #like... anxiety and depression are often concieved of as simple and easy to manage...#...but that isn't the case for so many of us. anxiety and depression just have a lot more research invested into them...#...and while i wish this were the case for literally every other condition it does alter people's perception of you to some extent...#...so while this is NOT solely about anxiety or depression it includes us...#...my anxiety and depression and PTSD have *destroyed* my life. this is chronic and will probably be life-long...#...and that isn't my fault. i've done the fucking work but guess what? that doesn't account for the fact that I Am Just ILL #the least we can do for each other is to be compassionate #be compassionate to those who cannot heal. be compassionate to the people who can't manage their lives. this world is scary enough #recognize that management of symptoms is something not all of us can do - even IF their condition is labeled as 'easy to manage'#i allowed myself to feel angry that i can't heal 'normally' and that was unfair as fuck toward myself #and i NEED people to internalize this so that MAYBE this could help somebody else who is where i was #i NEED them to understand that it's okay that they are where they are - sometimes shit just doesn't turn out how you expect or want #don't beat yourself over you being a person. you are struggling enough. you deserve to rest. just rest please #and just... give yourself space

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queruloustea · 1 year ago

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i really wish you could give him a flower :(

he’s been through a lot, he deserves it

#hollow knight #the knight #quirrel #the blue lake #delicate flower #wish i could give a flower to half the characters in this game :(#or most of them really #anyhow. here are some friends :)#queruloustea

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jkvjimin · 6 months ago

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❝The lights we saw in each other Were saying the same thing The starlight that shines more in the deepest night❞

happy birthday, em! @jinstronaut 💜

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citrusai · 11 days ago

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taash said "they were doing it" and people ran with the interpretation of an npc that doesn't know solas or the history of the elvhenan even when bellara interjected and said, no, that's not right. that's not how it was for the elvhenan. they formed bonds before they had physical bodies. and people ran to doompost or create weird anti-solavellan shit even though mythal & solas refer to each other as old friends and when she releases him there is no tenderness or love in it. it is the act of unchaining a dog from his post, the stepping down of a general. but to each their own ig.

#let the record show i think love was there. do I personally perceive it as romantic / sexual? no.#mythal's perception of love & care is warped in and of itself #i think they loved each other. but she loved what she could take from him and what he could give in terms of service #not because she was romantically into him #also i wish we knew more about her & elgar'nan. her regret prison form says she holds no love for him anymore #and it makes me wonder when that love soured. was it when she was blighted? before that? was that love also born of duty and companionship?#this is the last post i'm gonna make ab this i think #bc i believe people are too caught up in the modern western ideas of love as thing we give solely to our romantic partners #and we literally have a character go ”our perception is warped bc of the age we live in” and some of you are still being purposefully obtuse #and i think trick saying it's up to interpretation is basically admitting EA had them dumb down the game anyway #if everything ab the rise and fall of the evanuris in game #was condensed to five 2min cutscenes it says enough that whatever the writers wanted #was swiftly cut down by corporate dept. basically saying it's in the fans' court now #also bc it's an easy cop out around new players & non solasmancers who are indifferent ab him / dislike him #as a way to appeal thru a more sympathetic lense of look!! he loved and was led astray #not to mention the clear justinia / leliana parallels #and leliana gets angry if you imply she was romantically involved / in love w justinia #and the romance descr when you remake your inq saying the dread wolf could not predict what it would mean to fall IN LOVE #implying he had never fallen in love before or at the very least experienced a romantic love #also him saying drinking from the well would make you a slave and he gets really upset #yet ive seen takes of ”hes doing this for her cus he dgaf ab lavellan” ?? he got mythal killed when he told her ab the blight #whatever feelings of admiration he had for her have rotted. he is literally burdened by his mistakes and his choice in joining her #i feel like if i were a spirit bound and twisted into a weapon i would need my creator to tell me i am Free. i would need that closure #like when cole says its not abuse to bind him if he asks and solas said thats not always true???#if you perceive her interaction w him in vg third act as #anything more than the way justinia released leliana in inq then im sorry maybe youre just obtuse #solavellan #mythal #dragon age meta

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glivs · 1 month ago

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lil sleepy hotel room anim on the backs of my business cards, to recharge for day 3 @ Lightbox expo :]

#first con ive attended and oh goodness it's exciting there is way too much to do!!!#if youre at lbx and see a gal with a mushroom bucket hat thats me please say hi!!#(and tell me how cool my mushroom print hat is) (i will give you a gift if you do)#my animation #2d animation #traditional animation #<- kinda. i wish my cards were flimsier so i could onion skin them tho LOL #animation #rough animation

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eerna · 3 months ago

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me explaining why Will/Elizabeth/Jack love triangle was a perfect little one-movie arc that wasn't present in the final movie because it was never about choosing and instead just about dynamics and character development so they all outgrew it by then

#like first off will and elizabeth are having similar character arcs but in totally opposite directions #he loses himself and gets all sad the further into the world of piracy he gets. she blooms and becomes her best self and excels at it.#and both of their arcs are supervised by jack who is there to make fun of them until it's no longer funny #will is absolutely repulsed by him but also understands him more and more once he realizes he would do anything to get to his goal #elizabeth is absolutely repulsed by him but also wants to BE him. he is what she wishes she could be were she totally free #and her possible attraction to him is treated as FUNNY because it IS VERY RIDICULOUS. like why tf would she want this weird gross guy when #she has actual perfect loverboy will at home. well bc will just doesn't get her. he is sad and lost while she is thriving #and the only one who gets it is the old smelly clown over there. why is the compass pointing at him (bc she wants to be him so bad)#that movie is about the characters not knowing what they want. they are all at a crossroads and have to choose which way to go. so it makes #sense that the main characters have a push and pull dynamic between them!!! c'mon!!!! it is so cool!!!#eernatalk #also i know pirate king elizabeth awakened something in all of us but can i add. the look she gives jack when he stops kissing her bc of th #sound of the shackles. the way she bares her teeth like she is steeling herself for the ''you deserve to die i am not sorry for this''speec #WHEEEWW.... WHEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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crustycrackhead · 3 months ago

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*Throws my swampcat brain rot at y’all*

Swampcat MorningKrem (Morning Frost x Kremy Lecroux)

I’m in literal rare pair hell man, no one understands me nor my freak. I’m gonna be the crazy one that draws them like crazy (draws them only once)

Clean Freak 4 Clean Freak, they both particular and shit okay?!?? SIGH, they would prolly even hold hands but to me… they can be silly (do taxes togther)

#my art #I don’t fuckign know bro #does this count as nudity? they’re furries so I dunno #suggestive #tw partial nudity #I might get suspended for this I dunno but some blogs be posting dick so I think I’m fine #SUGGESTIVE OKAY LOOK AWAY #I just think clean freak x clean freak tickles my brain— their foreplay is giving eachother a bath and doing eachother’s laundry #ouaw swamp cat #ouaw #Swampcat #ouaw Swampcat #Swampcat ouaw #swamp cat ouaw #kremy Lecroux x morning frost #Morning Frost x Kremy Lecroux #I can make this angsty but hmmmm maybe later #I wish I could write well but the scenarios in my head eat so hard man #like literally #I dunno how to tag this I’m being so real #kremy lecroux #morning frost #bro I dunno I’m going to shoot my shelf #not even sexual— just them being naked ig #Kremy x frost #frost x Kremy

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skitskatdacat63 · 6 months ago

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Vettonso complaining about each other not respecting schrondinger's track limits on the radio compilation + Seb's commentary that made me a bit feral

Must include these sexy ass pics okay, it makes me feral how hard they race each other.

Also SO upset that we got this vid and there's also pictures(and presumably a vid out there somewhere) of Fernando, back then, ALSO debriefing this race. And yet we never got them together?????? Evil. Fucked up.

Imagine seeing them complaining about each other but also having to (begrudgingly if you're Fernando) compliment each other IN FRONT of each other. Maybe its a good thing it doesn't exist, bcs then I'd have a heart attack.