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Hello :D
So the next question is a hard one:
What is your favourite Dream video?
I don’t know if I could answer this one myself 😅 But I’m excited to read your answers :D
Yesterday’s answers were way more diverse than for the George videos but one was mentioned quite often: We tried the Minecraft cookbook in real life! I guess we all like irl Dteam :D
Have a wonderful day 💙💚🧡
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Good morning! That question is so, so difficult since he has so many good ones, but I shall try to limit myself to three videos again
Minecraft Speedrunner VS 5 Hunters GRAND FINALE.: it's epic as fuck, and it's also the first dteam video I ever saw. Funnily enough, it was also the first time I ever saw anything minecraft related, which is kind of a misleading first impression.
Minecraft Death Shuffle…: Do I even need to explain why this one is up there? Like Dream defying the odds and the game, George's biggest Minecraft skill being that he knows Dream, the dramatic asking Zeus to smite him; that video has it all.
Minecraft, But Speed Rises Every Second: This series makes me laugh so, so much every single time. Peak comedic value.
I have come to the conclusion that I need to rewatch some videos :D
#blu asks#cactus anon#thank you for your very cool questions#I love to read everyone's answers on my dash
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hi hi evie !!! i hope youre doing swell today !!! remember to take breaks from your booth !! heres a refresher 🤲
hey … nick? hi nick! hope you’re doing great!! im picking myself off the floor right now JSNDNKC so actually this is my 5th attempt at typing a proper response (in total i have probably written about a full scientific report’s amount of info about this and decided it still did not do your ask any justice..)
gif A is me clutching onto this ask sobbing, gif B is me still clutching onto his ask sobbing, gif C is me after my tears flood my house (the ask is safe inside my pocket of course…)
#🐦⬛🐕 .#彡 cherishing.#彡 nick!#彡 inbox.#evie.ss#PLEASE THIS IS THE BEST THING EVER YOU ARE SO VERY KIND TO ME#THANKNYOU SO MUCH FOR DOING THESE …. CAN I PLEASE SAVE IT … ITS JUST SO CUTE IM falling apart im becoming a blob oh my god#MOZE’S FLUFFY EARS IM GONNA START CRYING and also just in general the way u draw his hair 🥹🥹🥹 HES SO SOFT HES SO FLUFFY HHGGRRRRRR HES SO#PERFECT i adore your style in general … to see moze in your style is such a blessing ….. his expression is so darn cute ….. i don’t know#enough words to express myself right now i might have to pull out the ancient 10lb dictionary to crack open some new terms for this BECAUSE#because omg… I AM SO DOG /pos IM SO DOG /very pos I LOVE THIS MUCH HANSNCKCK#my dynamic description was so vague and yet you captured exactly what i was thinking 🥹 PLEASE#im pacing around embarrassingly fast im so happy#i am the riled up dog in question over this#THE WAY HE IS LIKE OVER ME . WAIT STOP PUTTING THAT INTO WORDS IS MAKING ME SO SJSNCJKC#anyways moving on … nick your art style is so awesome … i just said that earlier however#i should say it again for extra emphasis ….. nods nods …..#artists are so cool#artists are so cool oh my god#i keep leaving this draft and coming back to think of other ways to show my gratitude but i really am at a loss#*strangled happy noises and frantic pacing* thank you so much >: from the bottom of my heart sobs >: sobs some more >:#in the evie brain museum (perhaps a room in my brain) this is framed in gold btw
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I need to ask the mtt expert, do you think any of the murder trio would be religious?
ooooof this is a hard question to answer because personally i dont practice any religions specifically so i cant exactly offer the best answer to this DXXXX but i'll TRY. take everything i say with the fattest grain of salt. imagine the grain of salt is a salt lamp because i genuinely dont know that much about religion and belief
so i guess the first thing to consider is sans undertale since he's the one that all the mtt originate from. i dont think sans canonically is religious like at all. so if i wanted to take the easy route i COULD just says sans doesn't worship anything so its unlikely that any of the mtt would. but i wont because i have honor. i doubt that any of our surfaceworld religions wouldve made it into the underground since theyve been seperated from humanity for a long ass time. and i think undertale has its own belief based on the delta rune anyways so im gonna stick to that since it seems more plausible than just saying that dust is a hardcore buddist or something
for horror my answer like hell no. he mightve prayed for the angel described in the delta rune to save horrortale or something but i think those are just like desperate times call for shitty tries for ANYTHING to work. he literally describes horrortale as "living in a place like this is like living through an eternal hell" and i think that being in a place like horrortale would kill anyone's hope for some sort of angel to save them. plus i think he's too aware of the issues going on in horrortale to try and put his faith into something that doesn't exist AND also he wouldn't use religion as a moral guide. considering that he literally said in the horrortale flash game that he's "given up on figuring out what's right and what's wrong" (my king with an absolutely terrible moral compass LET'S GOOOOOO) (i love the horrortale flash game. i even have the quote saved because its such a good and important line for horror)
as for dust i think there's more of a possibility of him being religious (undertale delta rune based religion not any of the real world ones). the delta rune says that an angel who has seen the surface will descend from above and bring us freedom OR a harbinger of destruction as the angel of death, waiting to free monsterkind from this mortal realm. mostly gerson's words i stole this from the wiki because i cant be bothered to play undertale more than once. when translating dust's canon fics SPECIFICALLY the one called "a true hero appears" the topic of dust "liberating" the monsters of the underground and "granting their wish" to be free (even though he himself doesn't believe in the underground ever being free especially while hes in the middle of his "mad time") comes up. i dont think dust views himself as an angel at ALL like described in the prophecy but he could view himself as a "savior" type of person. it could be a really coincidental coincidence or it could be dust deciding to take up the role of the angel except a really really shitty one out of a desperate try for something to help like i mentioned with horror earlier. if we're going this route then him taking up the role of the angel could provide a sense of comfort that religion does and also shape his moral compass (i keep bringing these 2 things up because idrk why people worship. so i researched why so i can better support my arguments!!) with all the salvation liberation bullshit. personally i dont think that dust would exactly believe in himself as THE delta rune angel but more of just some sort of rouge savior but the possibility of going in a more delta rune religious way IS there
killer is in a completely different situation than dust and horror here (i'm not like the rest of yall ahh. get back in the original fishbowl you goldfish fuck) because he's AWARE of what arguably could be considered god in an utmv context. and obviously that's US the creators (players in his eyes. smh dont you know i havent played undertale in forever. i needa go back and do a true pacifist run. i did neutral because im shit at dodging attacks. but call me a CREATOR you second dimensional FUCK. you are a lower concept than me call me by a name i DESERVE) because for some reason and i completely forgot why he's aware of the creators. i think this could go in maybe two different ways where since killer is very much so aware that there are millions of gods(/creators. every one of us that creates something for utmv is a god in their multiverse LMAOOO) out there that he could completely just avoid religion itself since the usual reasons of comfort and moral alignment are completely debunked and pointless once you know that the gods that you could believe in just view you as code or characters to play around with. no comfort or morals to align with there. OR it could go in another direction where since killer is aware of the creators that he actually does end up worshiping SOME sort of us-based religion??? (what would that be called. do you think that theres a religion for all the self aware utmv characters who believe in creators. creatism. creationism. idk but would ink be the leader of that??? prophet type ass guy for creatism. this would be a cool concept someone else steal this from me and make a cooler story with it.) anyways i got side tracked. doesn't killer already believe that he has to do things that the creators want or something??? which COULD provide the moral compass part of religion. its definitely not a good moral compass but whatever killer believes his god wants of him he'll do. and also it might provide some sort of nihilistic depressive comfort knowing that everything is out of his hands and predetermined by a higher being. he already has that whole "lowly servant who'll do whats ordered of him" type shit going on. not unlikely that that could apply to the creators (or chara possibly. that relationship would be interesting if killer viewed them as a god and worshipped them as such. HM.)
anyways those are my thoughts on if i think the murder time trio would be religious. this was actually way longer than i expected but maybe thats just because i ramble a lot and have a lot of side thoughts. PERSONALLY i dont think any of them would worship a god just because i dont practice any religion and it makes it easier for me to characterize them without the religious barrier there. but also i do think there are possiblities of the trio all believing in a god (with horror maybe hopelessly believing the in the delta rune, dust becoming a delta rune esque figure, and killer's entire schtick with knowing about creators) but everyone has their own fanon interpretations on these characters!!! so if you wanna make them believe in religion or something then go then ahead and do that. maybe those possible points i brought up where they could worship a god will inspire someone or something idk. triglycercule OUT (off to reread horrortale for the 20th time today)
#DAMN THIS SHIT IS LONG#i thought a lot about this. this was actually a really fun question to answer#even though i dont know much about religion it was an interesting pov to think about#WOULD my favs be religious??? that's a really cool question since i've never considered something like that b4#whoever this anon is that keeps sending me asks i hope you get your wishes granted#IDK WHO THIS IS BUT im very happy to answer your questions. youre an absolute goat ABSOLUTE GOAT#that little idea of there being such a thing as creatism and ink being the leader of it or something????#genius. someone should make that a thing. religious leader ink#im not a major ink fan but i just think that would be soooo fucking cool#most expressive and artistic religion ever. with ever so present hints of nihilism there. because the creators determine everything#i answered this thing with wayyyyy wasyyyybWAYYYY too many words wtf. i need to learn to control my speaking#triglycercule you do NOT need to be typing all that‼️‼️‼️ just answer NO and call it a day#i say as i open up safari to do research on answering this question#this question is so cool i love it i cant stop saying it. whoever asked this thank you so much#tricule asks#gshaewru strikes again
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hello! im a beginner artist and i recently found your blog! ive found inspiration in your art (if that's okay) and i really like your shading style but cant really replicate it in a way i like.. (hopefully this isnt inappropriate to admit) do you mind doing a brief tutorial? many thanks! your art is very lovely
HIII sorry it took so long to respond i was kinda busy... but THANKS! heres some process pics and also a long winded rant about art... hope its helpful
i used this piece cus its one of my recent artworks that i did a lot more rendering for... usually its a bit more condensed than this, but yeah. gradients are. poggers
ive only recently gotten comfortable w this "artstyle" so i'm not exactly the. authority here. but yeah! just some notes and thoughts... wish you all the best on your journey soldier. firm handshake.
#also thanks for giving me a reason to ramble about art!! im such a nerd for like. the creative process. and the role of art.#cuz i do fine arts in school so i come from a perspective thats more conceptual almost? more cognizant of art in relation to culture/time#and this type of fandom art for me is more of an outlet and a challenge at communicating specific ideas. or experimenting with style#its also about the recognition and impact on people and likes but uhhhhh heh heh....#im the type of person who thinks modern art is cool as balls and more people should take the time#to appreciate art because it teaches patience and understanding and expands your worldview#but that is a COMPLETE sidetrack#drop an ask if you have more questions about art i fucking love talking#if its not very relevant to the stuff on this blog then ask it on my sideblog 8cfc00.#dont wanna clog up peoples dashes with my hot takes
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Thank you so much for answering all my asks, I get excited for each bit of new info you share (even the heartbreaking ones, LEON, poor thing, it wasn't nice but he really does deserve to act out...) I'm coming to the end of my haw reread (I've been slowing down because I don't want it to end!), and we know that Matthew, between the asg and that final game against Leon, is trying to get over the thing he finally acknowledged was a thing/a thing he wanted... what is Leon up to in this time? (And is there anybody worrying about him the way Brady and Taryn are for Matthew?)
you're very welcome, anon! i'm glad you've been enjoying! ❤
leon during that stretch is up to similar things as matthew, that is, trying to get over it. he's mopey, and he's sad, and nursing a very tender heart, but he's so sure the thing with matthew is over, so he's trying to focus on moving on. just the slow process of trying to let himself heal, which is tough, because on top of being heartbroken he's honestly still kind of worried about matthew, so trying to heal involves hardening himself toward matthew in a way that just doesn't come naturally to him. he's a feelings guy, he's not good at not feeling.
connor fusses over him a bit, obviously, and gives him a place to wallow with with company when he wants that. his other close buddies on the team can see that he's down about something but they don't know the details, and don't do a lot of prying, because leon shrugs off any questions and is honestly pretty good at distracting himself while hanging out with his buddies. the thing is, leon doesn't really need people worrying about him to the extent that matthew's people are worried, because leon is less of a mess lmao. the people close to him aren't NOT worried, because he is clearly bummed out, but it's a different kind of worry. leon has an emotional support system and he's leaning on it, and the people he's leaning on trust him to talk to them if he needs to.
he is not wearing the stl t-shirt anymore, though. he is leaving it in the bottom of his dirty laundry for the foreseeable future.
#ask#ratnovel#hockey for ts#since you sent this a few days ago i feel like you've probably finished rereading by now so i do want to say thank you for your questions!!#it's very cool to have someone engaging so much and so deeply with something i wrote <3#and obviously flattering to know anyone liked it enough to reread! so thank u sweet anon <33
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I think some of y'all (people in uni) were never 15 and read, "we accept the love we think we deserve" and sobbed while reading perks of being a wallflower and it shows
#gift giving is not a competition to some of us bestie#love is not conditional#dont make me overwhelmed by making our mutual friends bday a fucking competition#thank god her best friend also agrees and we are both her best friends so we know#but just why are people so#like this insecurity with love is so insane#people who want to see your love will see your love at the end of the day and if they don't keep being the lighthouse around please#anyway in other good news spoke to the cool batchmate i always wanted to talk more with and she was also like bro i love having convos with#you lets hangout and so we ate dinner walked and talked about history partition cultural stories my ex friend's bisexuality crisis which was#so similar to hers also takked about my cultural crisis family stories her firefly house urdu poetry her boyfriend my career pospects#so yayy i guess but so tired presentation was good prof questioned a lot cause he literally knows my source text authors its his friend in#uni and this girl said he'll take us out for drinks on last day of course so yayyyyyyy#my roomie and her bf constantly talk eh that is but i am gonna shower play my playlist till i sleep#today has been something but atleast i will have dinner with a new person tomorrow as well so yayyyy#life is just being very overwhelmed lately and i just hope people i love know that i love them and i am missing them even though#they live a floor above from me or live miles away too actually#eni life stories
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Do you have any comic recommendations for stories about pulpy-like heroes in fantastical adventures, a la Atomic Robo or Hellboy?
Those ARE my two big recs, which makes this difficult! Golden age pulp's unpredictable spikes of bigotry makes it hard to suggest to strangers as light reading, while modern pulp pastiches can feel overly self-conscious or just hollow to me (while continuing to import all the same old xenophobia.)
With those critiques in mind, though, I can name some more names.
Tom Strong is a 1999 creation by Alan Moore(!) It's not entirely free of... Moore-isms, but it's deeply sincere: no cruel twist awaits his science-action family or their casually fantastical alt-history.
Tintin is still translated and reprinted worldwide for a reason. IMO you won't find a more solid combo of research, jokes, action, and artwork in any other genuine vintage comic series. However, being written in the 30s-60s does show around the edges.
The Spirit, by comics legend Will Eisner, also dates back to the 40s. Post-Eisner, his legacy still pushes creators to get fun and experimental with format and storytelling. The role of racial caricature in the series history is a little harder to work around.
2000s Agents of Atlas is a team of '50s Timely/Marvel heroes. I have frustrations with its yellow peril "deconstruction" but do love the lineup: a secret agent, talking gorilla, Atlantean princess, Greek goddess, humanoid alien, and killer robot walk into a bar...
The Rocketeer is a popular throwback to the 30s that I find too mired in cardboard nostalgia to reach its full potential, but it's had some genuinely fun installments (and a movie!) so it's worth a look.
Sam & Max are mostly known for the point and click games, but they started out as comics parodying pulp adventure and I love their relentless cheesiness so I'm putting them here.
I also, as always, suggest exploring Franco-Belgian comics. (I think Spirou & Fantasio has decent English translations these days). The tone and formatting will be different; I tend to prefer BDs' longer "episode" length, higher density of physical comedy and puns, and more everyman characters.
And I'm always on the lookout for graphic novels which seem cool. Bone (which is honestly a very European series, stylistically), Bad Island, and Rapunzel's Revenge (+ sequel Calamity Jack) are some favorite one-off fantastical adventures I've picked up at my local library. Mostly from the kids or teens section.
#I only read Tom Strong very recently so I haven't formed full intelligent opinions there#I apologize that these are scifi-weighted rather than fantasy—honestly I probably wouldn't have even gotten into hellboy#if I wasn't head over heels in love with the art in the first place.#John Constantine's pre superhero integration stuff looks cool if you're into that! but I have not read it#Also thank you for your other questions I am thinking about them while reading more hellboy...
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just baked cinnamon rolls for the first time EVER!!! (one for u :3) they came out a liittle overdone but for my first time i think they were super yummy! im stumped for ideas on what to bake next so i thought you could give me an idea? i wanted to do something i imagine sugu would enjoy, for some reason im thinking of a cake with walnuts, perhaps coffee or carrot? thoughts?
!!!!!!!!!! CINNAMON ROLLS CINNAMON ROLLS CINNAMON ROLLS CINNAMON ROLLS
wahhh you’re so sweet anon !!! thank you for the treat ….. 🥺 AND PLS THAT SOUNDS SO FUN !!!!! carrot cake and coffee cake are both great options, i think suguru would thoroughly enjoy them both :3c walnut too !!! in general i imagine that he doesn’t like his baked treats very sweet, he prefers them infused with fruits and nuts….. i can picture him loving a classic apple pie (with lots of cinnamon) too!!!!! it reminds him of autumns in his home town <33
hmmmmmmm what else ………. i know this isn’t exactly a baked treat but while we’re on the topic of sweets i think suguru is a sucker for mochi …. especially matcha & taro mochi !!!! oooooh maybe taiyaki too ??? he’s so summer festival coded ……
#in conclusion!!!!!!!!!!!! all your options are very very good <333#sugu will love them !!!!!!!!!! i’m sure of it <3#i think it’s so cool that you bake sm anon ….#extremely underrated skill pls know i’m in awe of you#i’d love to see the results once you’re done !! 🥺 if you feel like it hehe#thank you for intrusting me with this important question 🙂↕️🙂↕️#ask tag ✩
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i hope the people that respond to my nervousness saying “don’t be nervous” know that a certain ronald radke said that to me like seven years ago and good lord if there is one way to instantly rip a 14 year old out of their falling in reverse phase it would be that anyway if you tell me to just not be nervous you are i automatically associate you with that silly, silly man so perhaps do not
#i say. admittedly Nervous#(seriously though)#(god FORBID i wanted to ask their drummer who promptly left the band about his hair dye preferences)#i had a pressing PRESSING question for ryan but okay thank you ronnie#it is very cool to put your hand on peoples shoulders and like. pull them. that#that is definitely how you make anxious teenagers not be nervous thank you#that was truly the maybe month or so before my egg cracked lmao i was having a rough one already#and then standing for like 3 hours in the boston cold freezing my limbs off#because my best friend at the time had vip tickets to her favorite band and was so excited and invited me#guh i met. a lot of bands that since got a LOT coming out about them#I enjoyed dangerkids but 1) they were not a meet and greet thing they were opening#and 2) even then idk idk their singer produced that fir album so idk idk idk#anyway yes mister radke this shoulder will forever have the lingering feeling of Your Stupid Fucking Hand Grabbing It Very Very Cool#but sure sure be vewy upset about trans people and anyone who says your music is bad#(you make so many songs about how you dont care)#(and the other songs you make are the embodiment of very real abuse tactics)#(you cant be twying to be bettew if you are genuinely not trying)#(you know its bad when even the right wing grifters wont let you be part of their club)#(even blair white is probably holding you at a very far arms length)#(try that. arms length. do not grab kids shoulders thank you)
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hello! i would love to hear the rant about PET scans :3
Holy shit so okay I'm in the train for the next 20 minutes, and I _know_ that's not enough time to get into all of it, but I could rant about this for hours, so. Maybe we cap this at 20 minutes. [20 minutes later] Okay so I wrote a huge wall of very boring text that barely started getting into it, so let me provide way less detail, actually:
It is massively expensive. A PET scanner costs a lot. And it's not a one time purchase, and then you can do scans, no, you wish. You also need some very expensive equipment to create radioactive tracers (which are what is used to do a PET scan) on site, because that stuff needs to be created fresh (under an hour) before every scan. To create the tracers is ALSO incredibly expensive. A single PET scan costs multiple thousands.
This also means that PET research makes use of as few participants as possible. A study with 15 participants is considered big. You simply cannot infer from 15 participants to the whole population. This also means that, statistically, it is highly likely that you don't find an effect even though it exists - meaning if your PET study looks for the effect of A on B, it is highly likely that it will find that A has no effect on B even though it does - simply because you didn't have enough participants (if this explanation doesn't make sense, let me know, and I can explain in detail)
This, together means, that an absolutely absurd amount of money is used for research that, by design, will not find results, because to find results, they would need more participants and even more money.
Because scientific publishing is a shitshow at the moment, research that doesn't find results very rarely gets published, especially not if you can't even be sure whether the result is right. So absurd amounts of money put into research that doesn't even get published.
And I haven't even talked about the results they did find and issues with them. Don't ask me to explain those. Don't tempt me to put hours into writing a multiple page essay that nobody will read.
So, in conclusion: PET is an absolutely amazing feat of engineering that is magnificent in detecting cancer and with it we could learn so. Much. More about the brain and how it works. But to do that, a lot of the basic organisation of how we do science would first need to change. Many labs would have to collaborate and be okay with making the collected data openly available, so appropriate sample sizes (=numbers of participants in a study) can even be achieved (Here's a paper on that). That probably won't happen, though.
Now, obligatory note: one of the professors who taught me about PET is a man who wrote an extremely controversial paper about exactly this stuff, despite also using PET in his research. If you like niche drama in science, look into this paper and all the articles that are responding to it.
#answers#thank you so much for the question!!!#i tried to not go into too much detail and still make sense but let me know if I should explain something better!#don't get me wrong. PET is amazing. we could learn so much with it#but also. i could not do PET research with good conscience because currently it is a waste of a shitton of money#god I wish though. it is such an absolutely cool method.#like - you can look at fucking dopamine. straight up. not just at brain activity but the actual neurotransmitters!!!#that's cool as hell!!!!!#I fucking dream of that being possible and also FEASIBLE#damn reading over this after I hit post and reading 'let me provide WAY less detail actually' and then a long ass post#me @myself: damn man you gotta take your adhd medication#also if you click one of the last two links. I know my profs name is very... unfortunate.#please don't mention his full name in my notes though. i don't want him to google his name and find my tumblr or something#personal#neuroscience
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ive already linked you the narrachara bible as they call it, but some other important analyses id like to recommend are all of andrew cunninghams utdr videos and mollystars device theory series. andrews videos mostly just lay out facts and avoid making major speculation, and device theory isnt finished yet and the first 2 parts mostly do the same but the final part is supposed to actually get into the "theory" stuff. i think andrews videos are just generally very good quality and a good break down of what we know and device theory, with how its going so far, is looking to be the most important theory the deltarune fandom has to offer; and even if i end up not agreeing with the conclusion it reached the information laid out in the first 2 parts is extremely important to dr and generally harder to find yourself than most other details with the niche meta nature of a lot of it
MHMHM THANKS SO MUCH FOR ALL OF THESE LOL. Ive been looking for videos anyways so these are real helpful... Thank you raxz
#💌#emoangel44#cant thank you enough i think i said thank you like 3 times in a row in the last few hours . you write so fast and so much#THATS NOT BAD THOUGH i admire it. youre very passionate about this thing and its one to be impressed about... very cool#thank you for answering my dumb questions btw . strikes a pose
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Be good to me.
-> Day 5: Canon-verse, tw: self-harm, suicidal ideation, references to child abuse ; post s4
They lost. He lost. (There is an itch inside of him). It was nobody's fault, there is no one he can let his anger out on. No conveniently douchy Steve Harrington to punch his fear and his helplessness into. No way to put his black marks into the world, to show that he is not okay, that this is not okay, no matter how arduously the adults try to pretend that everything is as it has always been. Sometimes it feels like that only makes it worse. (There is nobody he can punish for it. Nobody else).
The only person he could maybe realistically be mad at would be Steve - the oldest one there because everyone else left. And he can't be mad at Stevie even if he wanted to. (Jonathan should have been here HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN HERE)
There is an itch inside of him. An itch that grows every time he sees how Steve's hands never stop trembling. An itch that grows every time Will walks in his tiptoes or flinches at a loud noise. (It reminds of how he used to be when Lonnie still haunted their house. But at least he could do something then. He could scream and he could take the attention off of his little brother and he could physically stand between them. He could be a shield, could fulfill the job he realized would become his reason to live when he first held his baby brother in his arms. But now...)
Sometimes the itch lessens. He knows he shouldn't do it. He knows it is bad and wrong and only makes an already horrible situation worse. But he also knows that it lessens the itch, if only for a minute. And sometimes the only alternative seems to follow Barb into the depths of the Harrington pool or rip his eyeballs out of their socket, so truly, this is the lesser of the evils.
"Does it hurt?"
Jonathan looks up. Steve looks upset. Of course he does. He would feel that way, too, were the roles reversed. Doesn't stop him from feeling like crap about it. (but at least the itch is gone. If only for a moment.)
"It's supposed to."
Steve is so achingly tender and Jonathan absolutely loathes it. He should be harsh. He should be angry. He should make it hurt.
But that is Jonathan. Not Steve. No, Stevie would never treat him like he treats himself. Steve would never cause him pain on purpose. Steve would never wish that it was Jonathan who'd been mauled when there is another causality. Steve would gladly let Jonathan punch and cut and hurt and murder him if it meant that he would be rid of this infinite spiral, even if only for a moment. Unfortunately for him, they are way too similar for him to allow that to happen. And so he takes it out on the one person he has left, the one that deserves it the most. (he should've been here.)
It is a funny relationship he has with his own body. Sometimes he will use it as a motivator. If you can run just a little faster, you can create... let's say two holes. Reclaim your body on two spots. Two emergency exits for the fear and the pain and the loathing to slink out with the red of your blood. A moment of ecstasy, of deflating relief. Other times he uses it as a punishment. He doesn't stop. He carves deeper and deeper until there is another scar on this rotting skin that he does not want there. (The problem is he is never quite good enough.) (Could've, should've, would've)
I'm going to stop, he tells himself. It is not the first time. This time I mean it, he tells himself. It is not the first time, either.
Steve leans forward. His lips are gentle as he kisses the wound. It can barely be called a touch, just those big loving eyes and the warm breath against his skin. The gesture alone hurts more than any knife ever could.
"Do you know that you are hurting me?", he asks. Jonathan shudders. He hates how similar they are.
"I love you" he says, and Jonathan wants to cry. He knows. He knows he knows he knows he knows and he hates it as much as he needs it.
"I love you, too", he says instead.
"Do you know that you are hurting me?", Steve repeats.
He closes his eyes. Takes a deep breath. "I'm going to stop", he says. He has said it to himself many times before. He has never said it to someone else before. I mean it, he tells himself, this time I really mean it. I promise.
The kiss they share is chaste and sweet.
Will smelled of ash when they first found him, all those years ago.
(it itches it itches it itches it itches it itches)
Steve lights another cigarette.
@stonathanweek
#title from “That Unwanted Animal” by 'The Amazing Devil'#tw self-harm#tw suicidal ideation#tw self destructive behavior#stonathan#steve harrington#jonathan byers#will byers#stonathanweek2023#btw i find the idea very cool#but im trying not to get my hopes too high bc ive got a feeling the duffers arent going to use it to its full potential#but we'll see ig#also yes i know that it is a very questionable move to link another drabble that is on top of that steve only#HOWEVER im proud of it and want more ppl to see it#AND it explains one of my takes on what the upside dawn hawkins could mean to its citizens ^^#thank you for your understanding and have a good day#tw self harm
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03 Bishop, 24?
OOH INTERESTING
24) What they wish they could change about themselves.
This is a tough one imo because 03 Bishop is generally very self-assured, like to a fault. He's blind to his own flaws, so what he would see as needing to be changed is probably dead wrong. Plus, to a degree, if he wants to change something about his physical body, he can, and we can assume he already has (enhanced strength, iirc, is outright mentioned as one of his newest body's perks.)
So that being said, there are a couple things I could figure. I think the obvious answer is he wants to be deadlier. More efficient. I think he'd cut out the need to sleep or eat entirely, if he could, just so he never has to stop working. If there were a way for him to guarantee nobody could ever stop him, he'd want that.
But I also think he'd want to be better at persuasion. People skills, if you will. We see some evidence to suggest Bishop kinda sucks at the networking/politics side of his job, and surely higher-ups keeping him from doing what he wants has to be a source of endless frustration for him. I kinda headcanon that he's always had difficulty with social interaction, and generally in the show most people don't come away with a positive impression of him. Where he's at in the 2000s, pure intimidation and results have gotten him pretty far, but surely he must know he'd get a lot more done if the people he answers to actually liked him at all. I mean, I guess there's always faking another invasion and/or assassination attempt, but I think those have limited uses.
(And then he does change that about himself! Thank you Fast Forward for affirming me👍)
#and thank YOU for the ask my very cool mutual!! 😊#This is such a cool question to put to Bishop because he's a guy who never really stops trying to change things#constantly striving for more more more. getting way too ambitious and making it work anyway#but he very seldom factors in himself. I think his sense of self is pretty skewed tbh#being able to discard a body for a new one at any point. being able to mold your DNA. becoming increasingly human-adjacent#it's gotta do something to one's sense of personhood#and it gets even worse in FF. In the present he at least has no reason to mask his actual personality. in FF he acts completely different.#I think it's a mask#anyway for those reasons I think anything he'd really want to change would all be in service of doing his job better yknow?#asks#Agent Bishop#marie says words occasionally
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1st of all love your art style & your ocs!! Great art great character design great color theory. Do you have like a post explaining your oc lore ?
I actually have a whole sideblog, it's @cruisectrlll! I don't really post on it because it gets very little traffic but there's an info post with some basic stuff on it. Unfortunately the lore is so extensive I gave up and decided to make it an actual comic (once it hit 35k words in my notes app I realized it wasn't exactly postable lol) which should be coming along... sometime soon? I'm happy you're interested though, my characters/universe mean a lot to me 😅
#hope this answered your question#thank you for the complement also my art style is very representative of me as a person so I love when people find it cool#askbox#txt
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#bruh i just found an email exchange from when i was 16#someone asked hugh laurie a question about slash on inside the actors studio and it caused a huge drama in the house fandom#i got the email of that person from someone on livejournal and i fucking emailed her 😭#i completely forgot that this happened#i was like thank you for asking that question you're so cool I'm sorry people are being mean to you#like I'm literally some random 16 year old girl lmfaooooooo#but she responded and was so nice to me 😭#POV you're an english teacher in 2006 and your very normal and chill question for hugh laurie gets you flamed left and right#and some strange child emails you like 'HI I'M 16 AND YOU ASKED A QUESTION ABOUT MY HYPERFIXATION ON TV LET'S TALK'
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HELLO THERE, FELLOW ROUXLS ENJOYER
HOW IS THY DAY GOINGETH?
i am so sorry for not replying to this much earlier, got a comically short attention span its almost unfunny,.,,, but the day(s) been going well!! nothing really happens here at the cold bog so its a monotonous constant for the most part,.,, got plans to go to a spider exhibit during winter holidays tho so thats one cool thing! hope you have been doing well too!! wishing you the absolute best! :]
added a silly rouxls with spider pic under the keep reading thingy as a lil bonus,.,,,, obvious warning for arachnophobia just in case dfgjkmd
#thank you for asking about the day and sorry for late answer. hope your days are going well too#so very not used to people ever asking that question dfsjdksmf....#probably the happiest i drew him lmao. the joy of holding a cool creature is real
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