#thank you for reading if you do - from the bottom of my heart

[judesmoonbeauty]

Lover's Contract: Jude Jazza - Premium END

This is a fan translation only. Please expect grammatical errors and translation inaccuracies. This is a full translation. Creative liberties are taken for characterization and smoother translation process. Cybird owns everything. Re-blogs are appreciated, but please do not post my translation elsewhere. Thank you for your support! ☾.

The steamboat’s whistle vibrates into the late night air.

Carrying the target couple, the boat leaves the harbor.

Eventually, the outline of the ship, illuminated by the lights, disappears into the foggy darkness.

Kate: The boat’s gone.

Jude: Let’s head back.

As soon as we observed the elopement, Jude flipped his coat and turned his back to the sea.

Kate: …..Was this a punishment?

I muttered as I gazed out at the sea, only for amethyst eyes to look back at me.

Jude: Dunno.

Jude: Kinda people d’ya think they are?

After observing them I noticed —  How they held their glasses with sophistication, and the way they spoke and laughed with elegance.

(Even observing their confident demeanor, poise and mannerisms…..)

Kate: Those two….are likely nobles of very high social standing.

Kate: They didn't seem servile at all, and looked like people who grew up loved by their families.

Kate: I hate to say this, but there was such a sublime air about them that it’s hard to believe that they’d commit infidelity…..

Jude: Seems like yer eyes ain’t so rotten that they’re blind.

Jude: Right then, let’s suppose yer assumption’s spot-on.

Jude: Whatsit mean fer ‘em to abandon their homeland?

(If those two are who I imagine them to be —)

Abandoning their beloved families and hometowns would be an extremely heavy, and painful punishment for the two of them.

(In return for hurting their families and choosing love, they must abandon their hometowns.)

That’s the crime and punishment they committed.

Kate:….Those two only have each other now.

When I think about how they tossed away everything, and boarded the boat with only the clothes on their backs, my heart swells.

Jude: Plus, it’s easier bumpin’ people off from such respectable families abroad.

Jude: Don’t matter how they die, s’gonna be ruled an accident.

Kate: WHAT, isn’t giving up their homes the punishment?! Don’t say something so dreadful….

Jude: Huh? Weren’t ya wonderin’ if it was a punishment?

Jude: So, I just came up with the plausible endin’.

Jude: But even after I toldja, ya still complained. Yer bein’ too selfish, Princess.

Jude grumbles and starts walking.

Kate: Ah, please don’t leave me behind.

He glanced at me as I quickly stand next to him.

Jude: Ya can stay the night ‘n ponder alone.

T/l note at the bottom due to length.

Kate: I’ll go back with you.

Jude: With me, ya wanna be with me that bad?

Kate: Um, well…I like being with you.

I feel flustered hearing something like that out of the blue.

Jude: Speakin’ of, ya said “We’re together because we can’t completely fill the emptiness”.

(That’s what I said when I was consoling the woman target…!)

Kate: H-How do you know that, Jude?!

Jude: Yer so loud. Obviously, I was listenin’.

Kate: You were listening?! S-Since when?

Jude: That guy still had feelin’s fer her, so I went t’go get ‘er, he bawled ‘n begged.

Jude: Then ya were havin’ some drawn out chit chat on the balcony.

Jude: So, whose line’s that? I read all the scripts when I was investigatin’ the theater troupe fer the mission the other day.

Jude: That line, “Love is something you can’t get enough of, it’s also something you can’t give enough of.”

Jude: Don’t remember seein’ it.

(Yeahhh….that look, this means he knows everything.)

Kate: Just like you said Jude, those lines being from a play is a lie.

(If he knows, there’s no point in hiding it anymore.)

Love is something you can’t get enough of, it’s also something you can’t give enough of.

Those words -

Kate: I was just ad-libbing…..or rather, my feelings were spilling out for you, Jude.

Jude and I gaze into each other’s eyes, we touch each other, and repeatedly share our body’s heat.

Each time we do, I feel my heart filling with love.

But at the same time, my feelings for Jude grow more intense with each passing day —

(I could no longer say that loving you or receiving your love was "enough".)

Kate: I became greedy, after experiencing your love.

Kate: I want to love you even more. Jude, I lov—

The unfinished words melted between overlapping lips.

Jude: What’s this switchin’ back to bein’ a girlfriend without permission. Yer my lover ‘til the mission’s done.

Kate: But the targets are sailing on the ship, so the mission’s basically over…..

Jude: Ya don’t get it.

Jude’s eyes flicker alluringly as he gets closer.

Jude: Ain’t no way I can letcha go back lookin’ like that.

Kate: Looking like what….?

Jude: Like a woman in heat. Yer lil heads filled with unspeakable thin’s, ‘n what’s with all the questions?

Jude: If yer tryin’ to cover up yer perverseness, yer wastin’ yer time.

Jude: I know better than anyone, just how much ya want it.

The instant the whisper falls into the soft spot of my heart, it gets excited and pounds loudly…..

Kate: …..Mmn, haa.

His hand reaches the back of my head and firmly pulls me in.

— Only Jude and I are aware of the echoing sounds that lost in crashing waves.

[Event Master List] [Epilogue]

Translation Note: Jude uses "tasogare," meaning 'Twilight'. In archaic Japanese, it literally means "Who's there," and it was used back then because it was hard to tell who was who in the dusk. So, they'd say "tasogare" or "who's there". I thought the etiology was pretty cool. However, it's also a colloquial term used for those who spend the twilight/nighttime to think in depth. So, I decided to translate it this way.

It's so cute how Kate is learning to read people like Jude does, I love that so much!

Tag List: @sh0jun @theimaginativelyreticent @sapphire-323 @velisle @nateko @greatwitchsongsinger @injudescoat @aeyumicore @complexivelovely @yuoi-the-magnificent @husbandosandladders @cosmowgyral @lunaaka @rosalyne08 @8the-perfect-lie8 @voydsoul @goustmilk @kraiyne @midnightsrunaway @nawlink

If you wish to be added (and 18+ YO), or removed from my translations tag list, please let me know!

[astrasng]

Refined Secret - Who's better sweetheart?||L.J N.J

→ summary: you're having your wedding night with your loving husband, jeno. you feel so guilty for having a secret relationship with his best friend, but somehow jeno plays into your little game?

→ pairing: husband!jeno x fem!reader x jaemin

→ wc: 3.8k

→ warning: smut || threesome, jeno is mad, jaemin is tied up (:P) oj male receiving, gagging, unprotected sex, ENTERING THE BACK DOOR (iykyk), petnames (baby, angel,sweetheart, slut.) swearing

→ a/n: here it is!!! i'm so glad so many people liked the first part with only jaemin, so if you are here from that post thank you for staying and waiting for a part 2!! first part is here, if you haven’t read it yet! this was my first time writing a threesome so excuse me some mistakes or something is not understandable. but, as always,

enjoy!♡

 It was supposed to be your happiest moment in your entire life. Not the most thrilling one. You almost feel your body giving up as your eyes are trained on Jeno leaning against a hotel table in your rented room. 

   You knew it well that what you are doing, is fucked up. The heavy feeling on your heart always makes you want to sob out a cry when you see Jaemin again behind Jeno, letting him have his way with you over and over again until he’s satisfied. His only goal is making you his, the desire too strong to let you go now. 

    But were you seriously that dumb to think Jeno doesn’t know anything? 

    He wants to laugh, honestly. It feels like he underestimated you the whole time, but also he felt betrayed. He felt like he doesn’t know his wife true enough to know what she likes and not. He thought he left something out in your relationship, and perhaps he did. So when he learns the secret relationship of yours, he plays into your little game. Watching the two of you interact with each other with hawk eyes, his hands behind his back fisted as he tries to keep himself back from launching on you and dragging you away from the staring eyes. Especially, from one. The beloved and special day of yours goes by in a minute, finding yourself in the safe arms of your husband. Or so you thought minutes ago before you find yourself in a hotel room, away from the reception of your wedding.

    And this is exactly how you approach Jeno, with loving intent in your eyes to forget everything you did with Jaemin and focus on him and him only. 

    Until you step further into the room, and see Jaemin sitting helplessly on a chair infront of the bed. 

    Fuck. 

 “Hmm, sweetheart don’t be shy now, your beloved boy toy is watching you. Put on a show.” A deep voice rumbles from behind you, Jeno’s warm hands palming your breasts as you try to calm your nerves while your eyes are trained on the mentioned man, Jaemin. He’s wearing a coy smirk on his lips, even though his situation cannot be more comfortable than you soon being on your knees. His hands are tied behind his chair, his shirt long forgotten and only presentable in his dress pants earlier from today. His perfectly styled hair is disheveled now, head tilted to the side as his eyes are boring onto your naked body presented in front of your husband.

    You chew on your bottom lip as you take in the sight in front of you, feeling Jeno behind you getting hard as his cock poke the lower of your back. It’s like he can read your mind, filled with dirty thoughts on how this night will unfold. He thinks the same, as the passing seconds nearly makes him want to throw you on the neatly set hotel bed and devour you in front of his best friend. You feel all the blood rushing to your face when you feel Jeno’s hand slowly sliding all the way down where your pantyline sits, teasing the hem of it as you already know what comes next. 

    As you take a breath his finger glides over your already wet underwear, feeling your folds molding into the material as seconds passes and you get more wetter than before. He nuzzles his nose in the crook of your neck, his piercing eyes trained on the tied up man in front of the both of you. Thousand thoughts flood his mind, imagining the filthy scenarios the two of you have been doing behind his back. All of that comes to an end tonight,making sure you never stray away from Jeno’s side again. 

    “What made you want my wife, hm?” The question slips out of his mouth, barely hearable as he mumbles it into your neck. Your eyes widen in slight fear and shock, eyes landing on Jaemin as his smirk only grows. 

    “Do you truly want to hear my honest answer?” He replies, adjusting his hips slightly just for you to notice the visible tent forming in his pants. “All the reasons that made me seduce your wife and make her mine?” He adds, the smirk in his voice making Jeno irritated as his finger dips under the material and slides inside your warm walls. The sudden action made you let out a whine and throw your head back onto his shoulder, your bottom lip still caught by your teeth. His finger slowly works in and out of you, your wetness spreading all over the material of your underwear, pooling in small portions onto Jeno’s hand. 

    “Tell me.” His grip on you tightens, his other arm fully hugging you to his still fully clothed body. He’s the only one who still has every clothing on, making it impossible to think he doesn’t have the power over the both of you now. You and Jaemin at his mercy, you fully naked in his arms where you belong watching your secret being toyed by your husband. “Look into her eyes and tell me.” 

    Jeno’s long and slender finger curls inside you, making your stomach jump into a knot as you moan into the air while your hand immediately lands on his arm around you for support. Only for him to take that arm and turn your attention to Jaemin, his finger grabbing your chin and tilting your head in his way. He press kisses on the side of your neck, his warm breath only making you cry out for more as his finger is still working between your spongy walls. 

    Somewhere in front of you you hear a faint groan, seeing Jaemin adjusting in his seat again as he momentarily closes his eyes and takes a breath. Your legs squeeze on their own, trying to rub against each other for more friction. Jeno keeps you in his arms securely, his finger speeding up as well as his thumb lands on your puffy clit to ease your pain. 

    Jaemin lifts his head and sees how Jeno’s finger disappears inside you, the squelching noises filling the room only to bring Jaemin to let out a small groan once again. “How could I not want her when she makes the most delicious noises?” He confesses, his pants getting uncomfortably tight against his cock the longer he watches you, wanting to be on his knees in front of you to drink all the juices you spill out of your pussy. “Just as delicious as herself.” He wants to palm himself as he takes in the view, only to be remembered how restrained he is at the moment. Jeno is visibly furious by now, his finger speeding up even more as you writhe now against him, trying to catch your breath as you feel your climax approach. 

    “B-baby…S-slow down..” You whimper to warn Jeno, but it’s like a red light went off in his head. He curls his finger one more time, his thumb never stopping to massage your clit as you can’t help but come undone against his palm. You rub against his hand, letting out pornographic moans as your juices spill on his fingers and palm, making him chuckle into your neck. It drips out of you, feeling your thighs sticky with your arousal as you slowly lift your eyes to Jaemin, your heart skipping a beat. His gray pants are now ruined by a wet patch forming on the material, exactly where the head of his cock sits. He’s taking the air way quicker than before, looking down at himself with an all-knowing smile before looking up at you. The muscles in his arms and shoulders flex as he tries to get out of the restraints, but all it’s in vain. 

    “You did so well baby, look at him.” Jeno whispers into your ear, his arm around you slowly letting you go.

     “Look what you did to him.” 

    You look. Jaemin still looks like he’s been through a night with you, but in all truth, no one even touched him. And it visibly sets something off inside you, your throat going dry as you take in the next scene in front of you. Jeno slowly lets you go, you slowly end up on your knees as you can’t keep your weak body up by yourself. You see him slowly walking up to the other man, standing now next to him as he takes his pathetic form in. Jaemin is still wearing his shit eating grin as he looks up at your husband, his presence radiating nothing more than pride. As your eyes are still trained on them, Jeno slowly brings his fingers up in front of Jaemin, making the latter confused by his action. 

    “Open.”

    He simply says, his arousal coated fingers opening Jaemin’s mouth slowly. You feel yourself getting wetter once again as you see his fingers toy around with his tongue, his eyes watching you now as he fully takes your juices into his mouth,moaning around Jeno’s finger. His eyes flutter at your taste, his chest heaving by the passing moments. You take in Jeno too, he stares down at Jaemin as he lets him devour your taste on his digits, his eyes piercing more than ever. It feels like a decade by the time Jeno pulls his hand away and crutches down behind him, the tie around Jaemin’s hands suddenly hits the ground and he flashes a smile towards you. 

    You, on your knees in nothing but in your panties, feels like two predators are trying to seduce their prey. One single prey. Jeno walks back to you, smiling down at you as you lift your chin up towards him. His broad shoulders flex under his white button-up, taking his time as he rolls his sleeves up teasingly. Suddenly Jaemin appears behind him, looking down at you with the used tie in his hands now. Your eyebrows furrow at the material, looking at your husband with a questioning look. 

    “You didn’t seriously think I wouldn’t punish you too, right?” As you blink up at him he only smirks more, before crouching down in front of you. “Sweetheart,”

“Since you had some nerve playing around behind my back, you surely don’t mind me doing the same, hm?” He whispers, tucking a piece of hair behind your ear in a gentle way. His actions and words in disharmony only throws you off even more, knowing that this time, Jeno’s going full out. “Don’t expect anything less than you being our fuck doll tonight.” He smiles at you sweetly. You’ve never seen him like this, or talk this way about you. It sets a fire inside you. And he sees it too, hell, Jaemin probably knows this is what really turns you on. Something risky, something thrilling, 

    “Do you mind helping her out, Jaem?” Jeno stands up in front of you, his fingers working on unbuckling his belt.

    “Not at all.” He says in a low voice, walking around to stand behind you, crouching behind you as one of his hands softly swipes all of your hair onto your back. “Give me your hands baby.” He sweetly muses into your ear, already taking your delicate hands behind your back, securing it together with the silk tie. You look around confusedly, looking at Jaemin with pleading eyes as you try to put the two together. “Oh, baby…don’t look so surprised. You knew this would happen once, didn't you?” He caresses the skin on your back, making you arch into his touch and shiver with eagerness. Before you could say anything in response, Jeno grabs your chin and turns it in his way, looking down at you with expressionless eyes. 

   “Eyes here,baby.” He says. You see his bulge forming in his pants, your mouth salivating at the thought of tasting him finally. He takes his hands and unbuttons his dress pants, taking his thick, leaking cock out which hangs now in front of your face. The tip is flushed with eagerness, precum already coating the head as his veins are prominent on the skin. You lick your lips before pressing small kisses on the skin, kitten licks teasing the slit and tasting him with a satisfactory moan. You feel a pair of hands creeping up the back of your neck and head, Jaemin gathering all the hair into a ponytail. It’s like they are synchronized, Jeno at the same time holds your chin with one hand, the other grabbing his cock and smearing his precum on your flushed lips. 

    “Open up for me angel, show Jaemin what you got.” 

    At his command you obey, slowly letting his length slide into your warm mouth, hitting the back of your throat almost immediately, making you gag around him. Jaemin behind you peppers kisses on your exposed shoulder, his hand holding your hair as he whispers. 

    “That’s it, pretty girl. Take his cock just like that.”

    Your eyes are already watering by the time Jeno starts thrusting inside your throat, groaning from the warmness and wetness coating his member the more he dips his cock inside you. There’s a visible bulge formed in your throat, Jaemin immediately caressing the front of your throat in a careful way. It makes both you and Jeno moan, Jeno’s grip on your chin getting stronger enough to leave a slight bruise as he pounds inside your mouth. 

    His actions makes you rub your thighs together once again, crying out around his cock as you try to take puffs of air through your nose, wanting to come up for air but it’s no good, Jeno keeps his pace as his eyes are still bored into you, your face scrunching up into something between pleasure and discomfort at the same time. 

    “Look how good you make your husband feel, baby. Taking his cock so well like a good slut, hm?” Jaemin mumbles into your ears as he looks up at Jeno too, a smirk still painting his mouth as his other hand is still stroking the front of your throat for more pleasure. 

    The gagging noises blurred out by Jeno’s grunts makes you whine around him more, your pussy throbbing with need as you take his length more deeper. “Take him a little more, angel. You’re doing so good.” Jaemin whispers once again, and it’s the last drop in the glass when he squeezes his hand around your throat slightly. Jeno grunts at the feeling and reaches his climax, shooting white ropes of cum down your throat as he stills his moves against your mouth. All you can do is cry, tears spilling from your eyes as you feel his cum dripping out from the side, dropping on the bare skin of your thighs. Jaemin chuckles behind you, letting your hair fall around your face when Jeno finally pulls out of your mouth. 

    “Fuck…look at the mess you’ve made, baby.” He groans, gripping your chin once again to gather the spilled arousal on your lips into your mouth. At this point, you are leaned back into Jaemin’s chest, him keeping you up with his arms as Jeno happily stuffs your mouth with more cum. He smiles at you, mumbling a proud “Atta girl.” as you keep swallowing his seed. 

    It’s like a green light going off when Jeno suddenly nods swiftly, Jaemin swooping you into his arms and placing you on the bed in under a second. You look up at him with dazed and still tear coated eyes, seeing Jeno stepping beside him. You feel your slickness pour out of you as you take the two in, Jeno finally kneeling on the bed and pulling you closer to him by your ankles. 

    “We are far not done, sweetheart.” He says in a low voice, his teasing finger finally taking your ruined panty off to reveal your slick folds begging for attention. “Fuck.” He groans, putting your ankles on his wide shoulders. exposing you more than ever as he and Jaemin have the perfect view of your dripping hole. 

    “Fucking hell, princess.” Jaemin groans beside Jeno, his finger too eager to not touch you. You let out a yelp as he caresses your sensitive folds, sucking on his finger once again before leaving Jeno’s side to sit back on the sofa to watch the whole show. You don’t even have time to react when you see Jeno’s muscle flex on his forearm as he grabs his still wet cock and drags it along your arousal, making you whine as he bumps it against your sensitive clit. He circles his tip around it, as well as around your tight hole in a teasing matter before pushing in suddenly, making the both of you moan at the contact. His cock swells up inside you, molding into your walls as you take him inch by inch, easily sliding inside you. “So good,such a good girl.” He grunted, his hips now flushed against yours as you moan into the thin air, your hands still tied up behind you making you writhe on the bed. 

    “J-jeno…please, let me touch you..” 

    You plead with tears on your face, looking up at him as he takes a breath and presses a kiss on your ankle. “You think you deserve it? Touching me?” 

    “Yes, please I’m-”

    “Why don’t you call out for your boy toy over there,huh?” He bends your knees to touch your chest, closing the distance between the two of you as he’s merely a breath away now. His lips are ghosting over yours, almost touching your plush red lips as he pulls his hips back and thrusts forward sharply, making you moan into his mouth with furrowed eyebrows. Jeno can already feel the arousal dripping out the sides, all the slickness coating your skin and his pants as he continues to ram into you. 

    “F-fuck! Please, baby, fill me up..!” The sentence simply slips out as your mind is already back on his cock, feeling it dragging inside your walls just right, your climax for the second (or maybe third?) time of the night approaching quicker than before. But then, like a snap of a finger, Jeno pulls out and turns you to your side, him taking his dressing shirt finally off and throwing it to the side. He lays down on his side behind you, pulling you closer to him as you notice Jaemin kneeling in front of you on the bed now. 

    “So now I can finally join the fun?” He asks cockily, his pants now nowhere to be seen as his cock is standing proudly against his stomach, throbbing with need. He surely has been touching himself because you notice how red and wet it looks. His eyes are now looking hungrier than ever, scanning your flushed body against Jeno’s as he keeps his hands on you as Jaemin finally grabs your legs and lays slightly over you. You whine as you’re passed over to another, your clit throbbing so painfully for a release that you think you might die before you feel Jaemin touching you again, dragging his tip over your folds to coat it with your and Jeno’s slickness. 

    “Please..” You cry again, your eyes fluttering shut as you feel their bodies pressed against you, Jaemin cock teasing your dripping hole as he chuckles. 

    “Baby, you have to be more specific about what you ask for.” He hisses, his slit bumping against your clit again nearly making him cum over your pussy. 

    “I-i need…I need both of you..” You mumble out, your head thrown back on Jeno’s shoulder before you hear him chuckle and bite into your shoulder slightly. Jaemin hums before taking his hand and pulling one of your legs over his waist, getting closer to your body even more. He dips his head down to take one of your nipples into his mouth, swirling his tongue around the perky muscle before biting down to make you arch more into him. But in a sudden minute, you feel him sliding his cock inside your warm walls, getting stretched out on his cock as you moan next to his ear. 

    “So you need both of us, sweetheart?” Jeno asks behind you teasingly, his hands gripping your waist that you believe will leave bruises, his cock rutting into your ass as he groans into your ears. “Let’s see how well you can take us.”

    You feel like your body is on a high fever. 

    Jaemin’s cock drag inside your walls makes you arch more into him, seeing his muscles work as he ruts more and more into your tight pussy, all while Jeno behind you using your dripping arousal coats your even tighter backside with his tip, launching his body more closer to yours ending you up in a tight position between the two men. 

    “Fuck,how can you be even more tighter?” He asks as he presses a finger in testingly, making your body tense up in that second. “You have to relax for me,okay?” He whispers into your ear,you trying to focus on his words but all you can feel is his best friend rutting his cock in your dripping cunt from forward, his grunts and moans filling your mind as all you can do is nod and whimper. “Just please…put it in already..” You mumble, your brain over cloud nine as you feel Jeno groan and press the finger deeper into your whole, easing up the tight rim so he can somehow fit inside you. 

    “Good,‘s so good baby..” Jaemin moans, his lips still paying attention to your nipples before feeling your climax approach, coating his cock with thick arousal and leaving his and Jeno’s member coated abundantly. “Yes, fuck, keep cumming like that..” 

    Before you could say any word, or even let out a hum, your breath gets caught up in your throat as you feel Jeno pressing his tip into your hole, pushing his cum coated member into your backside. 

    “Fuuuck, baby..” Jeno groans, his hands holding you tight as he keeps his cock nestled inside you deeply. With a half lidded eye, you look down where the both of them connect their body with yours, only for your eye catching the bulge showing on your stomach. A thin sheen of sweat gleams on your bodies, ignoring the pleading acclamation to slow down as both of them seem to have fallen into ecstasy. Their cocks rubbing slightly against each other, only to be separated by a wall gives both of them an animal kind of instinct,wanting to claim your body before the other.

    “Come on, scream for us doll,” Jaemin groans against your skin, feeling his climax creeping up on him. 

    “Fuck it deep into her Jaem, let her remember this night.” Jeno suddenly says from behind you, his hips never seem to stop from rutting more inside you as you scream into the night more. 

a/n: i almost lost my mind over this. pls be kind this was my first time writing a threesome bye

important!: this is pure fiction, the act in this story is by my imagination and not based off true events. please do not copy the work.

taglist: @arunainluv @liloraet @peterm4rker @chenlezip

[alicenpai]

my piece for the Hemisphere: a Witch Hat Atelier seasons themed zine! thank you for having me! they're having a leftovers sale until stock runs out 🖋🍀🌷🍁❄🌧 WIPs + inspiration board + symbolism under the cut! got some requests to put this on my inprnt! the site has sales very often & you can grab it as a small or big size print.

I had a pretty good idea of the composition from the get-go. I took inspiration from art nouveau (primarily Alphonse Mucha), German fairy tales, and some 1920s perfume ads. I wanted the girls to look like fairies, akin to The Root Children by Sibylle von Olfers.

Olly just didn't work out in this drawing due to time restraints. I do love him very much though.

I actually kinda stopped making illustrations like these (including the TGAA/DGS tarot card + TGAA/DGS zine pieces a while back) because they were starting to get very hard on my arm, as I had an RSI (repetitive strain injury) a few years back during school. (Not putting the onus on the zines at all ofc! I genuinely love working with zine projects! it's def a me thing WAHAHAHA. my style was getting too anime and too detailed for my liking and everything was just taking forever to finish ngl. but I didn't have time to experiment with a more simple style outside of all of my deadlines)

I think that realizing you need to stop is okay. It's something that Shirahama teaches us in her story and I want to learn to take it to heart.

---

MILD SPOILERS AHEAD (for those who havent read the story I guess)

each character's symbolism:

- Coco - spring, clovers - Coco is the quintessential spring girl, and I wanted her to symbolize new beginnings, and oh boy did Coco bring a big one. The four leaf clover in particular symbolizes luck and good fortune - to some characters, Coco may have brought fortune, to others her presence brings misfortune, take that as you will.

- Tetia - summer, gladiolus - the name "gladiolus" comes from the Latin word "gladius", meaning "sword", based on the shape of the flower. you can interpret it as "you pierce my heart", perfect for a girl like Tetia, who has a contagious energy, with a romantic and grandiose nature.

- Agott - autumn, marigold - I read somewhere marigolds symbolize strength and power, perfect for our little magical powerhouse Agott. They can also symbolize jealousy (yellow flowers in particular have this association), which reflects on her rivalry with Coco in the beginning.

- Riche - winter, snowdrop - The white color of snowdrops has a strong connotation to innocence, which reflects on Riche's wish to stay a child forever. It can also symbolize rebirth and new beginnings (like Coco's clovers), as the snowdrop is the first flower to bloom in the spring, when the snow has not yet melted. I wanted the concept of "rebirth" to associate with Riche's friendship with Euini, and of his sort of "rebirth" into a new being.

- Qifrey - he does not have a flower per se, but as the caregiver and educator of the four girls, he represents the rainy season - precipitation being the one thing that binds all of these seasons together. (Note some areas of the world do not have a rainy season like where I live). I think somewhere along the line I wanted to put hydrangeas behind him, to really bring out the "rainy" theme, but the thought probably got lost somewhere in translation...

- bg flowers - honestly I just picked whatever. white lily, daffodil, hydrangea, zinnia, tulip

[shalaaex]

Thank you cass, your series has really created such a happy little fandom that I find is not my safe space. You have inspired thousands of artists and if it weren’t for you. A lot of people wouldn’t be where they are now. I’m excited to see what else you make, rise or not. You’re an incredible person and I’m glad I was able to follow along this comic. It truly gave me something to look forward to.

Thank you, cass

‘I’ll be grinding a conclusion animatic…

[warmfuzzyanimal]

Hello everyone, I really don't like asking for it, but it's undeniable that me and my housemates could use some help. We live in a very conservative area, and all of us are visibly queer. We're trying to raise funds to move somewhere safer, but the only way I can earn income safely is through art, as I've been threatened or put in harm's way due to my apparent trans-ness at every place I've worked at. My roommates face similar tribulations, living in the public eye here is simply unsustainable. There's more info on the going-ons of our situation in the gofundme, but if you can't afford to donate, sharing this post, my commission post, or the gofundme on my other social medias does so much in the way of getting us out of here.

if you'd rather donate directly, my paypal and kofi.

We are extremely appreciative of any help we can get, shares makes a huge difference.

AND, for your time, an image of our cat, Mr Mayor, who you would also be benefiting.

Thank you.

[timeforaciggy]

These Spencer requests are genuinely helping my creativity. I’m honestly so happy to see them show up! I was not expecting anything a day ago but overnight you guys surprised the f outta me and are amazing!

I’m already working on them and couldn’t be more grateful. I’ve been stuck in a writer’s block for SO long, I’m so excited to start writing these :,) I only have a few requests but that’s INSANE for me.

Thank you for submitting and please don’t hesitate to request! I’m so happy to see ya’ll show up and ask for my writing you’re so sweet and I can’t wait to fulfill all of them! My turnaround rate for requests/prompts/fics can be a bit delayed I’m very busy with life, but I pinky promise I always try my very best to put my all into my writing and create exactly what you want!

Also, don’t be afraid to be specific or picky! It helps me curate my writing and your requests so much! (I’m already writing one and I’m having so much fun)

[depression-napping]

(My time has come to post this, lol)

I Know What’s Beneath the Snow Fields by Zahra

Ok, quick poll Vincent/FFVII fans. I need to know.

I’m extremely biased about this fic because I’ve lived with it for so many years and I love it so much.

I started reading it when I was about 10-11 years old (about 20 years ago) and continued following it for regular updates for the next 5 years.

I saved the entire thing on my computer and even printed it out so I could read it during school 🤦‍♀️ I still go back and reread it occasionally even now.

This fanfic definitely changed my brain chemistry. I’d wager it’s probably 90% of the reason I got so obsessed with Vincent. 100 chapters of the best characterization of Vincent (and the Turks) anyone could ever ask for. Also featuring an OC that serves as the best foil to Vincent’s character than anything the Compilation has bothered to put together. (If you are looking for accurate depictions of Cloud or Rufus, though, this is not the fanfic for you, lol.)

It is a Vincent x Aeris pairing on the surface, but honestly it isn’t what you think—I can’t say more without spoiling the plot.

Honestly, I kind of regret that Dirge of Cerberus was not more like this fanfic (thoughts on the ship aside) because this fic does a better job at exploring and resolving his themes and even provides character growth that DoC did not really do.

If you haven’t read it, and you’re a Vincent fan, I highly recommend it.

[insertawkwardpeacesignshere]

I use cc and the closed caption said: “I used to be called the f word more times than I can count but now I’m a f*ggot with a Tony”

[cloudwisp]

The following message is guaranteed 100% anthrax free!

It had started out as nothing more than adherence to customs. Wriothesley would take your hand in his and let his lips briefly touch the back of your hand.

Of course, people would begin to notice the peace that seemingly washed over the Duke whenever you were near, how his fingers seemed to always reach for you. Some said his entire demeanor changed when you entered his life, no longer were his hands always balled up into fists by his sides.

As much as Wriothesley loved the mundane display of affection, be it as a greeting, a parting (oh, archons he hated the times he did not know when he could see you next), or simply a reassurance - for him as much as you, nothing had prepared him for a reversal of roles.

He'd broken up a scuffle, barely breaking a sweat yet still ending up with cuts along the back of his hand. They had been nothing, barely even felt by him. Until your hands gently cradled one of his, your thumbs trailing along his skin so gently he might break. Seeing you lower your head before feeling a warm breath dance along his hand sent shivers down his spine.

Even worse was the fact that he could barely contain a groan at the press of your lips, the sound urging you to turn his hand and kiss first his palm and then every fingertip. His ears were red by the time you let go, breath hitching when you smiled knowingly and reached for the other hand.

Uhhh hi Hazel :3 I uhm... yeah, I'll admit I'm neither very familiar with you or Wriothesley >< I often see you interact with other mutuals of mine, and I'm very sorry to have been slow/shy to stop by and say hi ;^^ I hope you have a lovely february, hope to get to know and interact more with you (´▽`ʃ♡ƪ)

CROW !! 🥹🤍 !! I am in shambles omgosh I was pleasantly surprised to have received a drabble from you, and I do feel like you captured our dynamic even though you mentioned you weren’t really familiar.

I love this SO much??!! Every line put me out of commission when I realized it’s about Wrio kissing my hand !!!! How my presence seemed to soften him and when he dreaded me leaving bc he doesn’t know how long before he gets to see me again sob!!

And then reversing the roles?? Gasping and clutching my heart !!!! His hands do desperately need some tender loving care hic sniff </33 He doesn’t even notice the inflicted cuts on them bc he’s grown so used to it, but the soft kiss from me?? The way a groan slips and his cute blushing cheeks?? I really love being able to fluster my faves heh. I can feel myself becoming mischievous when giving him the same treatment to his other hand but a touch more teasing >:))

[unriding]

Me sneaking into your asks with this drabble:

Disclaimer: I have yet to get a good grasp of Moze's character so this might be a bit OOC and on your side as well (sorry). I did my best. Also, this was inspired by the post you made abt telling Moze your tasks for the day | 600+ words (not proofread)

.

.

.

In Moze's eyes, you reminded him of a dog catching a case of the zoomies.

You were quite literally everywhere. He'd find you talking to someone one moment before you're rushing off to do something else entirely the next. It seemed like you had quite a lot on your plate as of recently. Tasks, things you wanted to do, and so much more spinning around that mind of yours. You've told him a bit of your plans so he has a general idea. But seeing you juggling all of those tasks at once makes both admiration and concern bloom in his chest.

One time, Moze found you carrying a box filled with items. It would've been amusing to him how comical it was that the items piled so high— he could barely see you behind it. However, he did worry right after given how you almost tripped over something. He managed to catch you and the items before both came crashing all over the floor.

He insisted on helping you carry the items to wherever its destination was. It took a bit of pursuasion on his side. Convincing you that it truly wasn't a bother to him at all, and that he'd be very much glad to be of assistance to you.

"I need to get these delivered first. Then go stop by the shop to buy some things. After that…" You go on to ramble about the things you had to do to help get a better vision on what else you had to do. "Oh, no… I messed up." The smile on your face dropping at the thought that had slipped your mind until that moment. "I forgot to invite Jiaoqiu to dinner with the others—"

"It's tomorrow evening, right? He knows. I mentioned it last time when I spoke to him." Moze says with a calm tone.

You blink at him, slightly caught off-guard by the man beside you. Though it's immediately replaced with relief and gratitude. The smile on your face already back, lighting up your features once more. Infectious as always, it makes the corners of his lips tug upwards as well. A small part of him feels quite proud to have been able to help you ease your worries even by a bit.

And this is when you start noticing it.

Did you mention that you're running out of a certain skincare product, but you can't find the time to stop by the store to buy it? Moze conveniently has to stop by near the store and buys it for you. Did you also mention that you wanted to do a certain task but keep forgetting about it? He gently reminds you about it via message or verbal if he's nearby. Did you also happen to mention that you've been meaning to try out a certain desert from a cafe, but the schedule simply doesn't seem to allow you? No fear, he passes by the store to buy you the treat.

Moze doesn't see you as someone incapable of handling things by yourself. To him, he simply sees it as a way to show his care. If making a quick stop somewhere, sending you a small reminder of something you had to do that day, or even helping you out with the tasks you need to accomplish, makes you smile? Gives you a chance to take a break? Let you worry less about the things you need to do? It's worth it in his eyes.

He does his best to avoid making you feel like you're bothering or troubling him (you really aren't). Most of the time, he does them discrcetly and casually. Partially, since he's also scared that you'll think he's weird or a creep for acting like that.

Please don't think of him badly.

Moze truly means well.

[zestyaahbutler]

How I'm feeling after reading people's tags on my oc stuff

[sydney-carton-of-sour-milk]

no usual post this week, just wanted to say that this last Sunday was actually the tenth anniversary of me finishing A Tale of Two Cities for the first time — and that although (due to a variety of life circumstances) I regrettably didn’t have anything prepared to post for this specific day and anniversary, I’m so grateful that after a full decade now, I still find such joy and now community in continuing to engage in a social context with this book that has had such a profound impact on my life — and the lives of all of us reading this here — in so many ways.

Basically, thank you all for being here with me! Can’t wait to keep celebrating our collective appreciation for the novel through my work here on this blog!

[mjfsupremacy]

I just wrote the last part of TCDS and I'm mad emotional 😭 what a journey this has been. Thank you for going on it with me.

[yaoi-hate-machine]

you know. sometimes i write stuff and i’m like Yeah this was decent, good job me! and then i read other ppl’s writing and i’m like. i will never even come Close 🥺✌️

[miraclewoozi]

okay im ngl, i got ur and lily's storyies mixed which, in my defense, you both wrote beautiful soulamte fics and i lvoed them both soooooo.

anyways i read ur soulmate fic and i loved it and i jsut wanted u to know that i wish to have a love one day liek that even if it's far fetched and unlikley and if u ever stopped writing id be fucking SAD because the world deserces to hav ebeautiful writing like urs and YOU deserve to have as many people read ur writing.

ur story fucking touched me IN THE EHART and i might be a lil drunk rn but that doens't change how much i love ur fic!!!!!

NOT ENTIRELY SURE WHAT I DID TO DESERVE YOU OR THIS MESSAGE BUT IM GONNA CRY ABOUT IT ANYWAY?😭🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵

[gregmarriage]

fake dogs has nearly hit 1k, let’s all have a party <3