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Yet another Adoption Sundays Pool?
//The Mimikyus were amazing to design and I'm so happy on how they turned out! Thanks to the break I was able to focus more on their designs and do some changes to the event that I think were for the better. It also gave me new ideas!
So, for the next batch (time undetermined) I'd love to hear what Pokemon you (yes you!) would like to see! I'll add every single suggestion to a randomizer to pick from, and if your selection wins, I'll do a custom, adoptable design for the next batch with whatever inspiration you want! It can be anything, from hybrids to teratypes to other media you'd like to see.
Additionally, if you would like to adopt the design I end up creating, you'll have priority for that particular design once it goes out for adoption!
Comment here which Pokémon would you like to submit!
Quick TOS:
Please keep the submissions to one per account. I cannot check if a sideblog and a main blog submitted twice but I'm choosing to trust all of you
Don't send multiple submissions! I'll only amount to one (1) Pokémon. If you comment more than one, I'll just pick the first one
I reserve the right to refuse the ask and pick another person for any reason (mostly if you try to suggest something distasteful or break general normal TOS)
Lastly, this is not a commission! It's just an opportunity for us both to create something fun, but I do deserve the right to do the final art in the style and version that I like! Winner will get a sketch to see if they like the general idea; and a finished picture before the adoption to see if they would like to adopt or release the design!
WINNER WILL BE PICKED ON NOV 17, 12:00 GMT+1
#//just to be clear: Ill do three designs. Two will be released as normal. One is the raffle#EJ: you submit beedrill and win. You can tell me to do a Beedrill X Venipede shiny with Adamant nature and Fire Tera inspo#and then the design is up to me!#I hope this makes sense and also i hope this is cool?? I just want to interact with the rotomblr community a bit more!!! :]#adoption sundays#pokemon irl#rotomblr#pokeblogging#pokemon rp#mod talks#pkmn irl#pokeblog rp#pokeblog#pokemon adoptables
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#akumajou dracula#I remember Saint Germain and Tera too#maybe should include Dracula and death or……knight Leon Belmont#sypha?idk#what about Olrox#I don't want to talk about the show.Don't ask me anything about it.#I prefer game design
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Something I think about sometimes is that I can't be fully honest when someone asks me what my favorite book is, because its an AU fanfic about characters from the dream smp in the setting of an interstellar world and society ruled by a very powerful dictatorial nationalist empire which exploits the native species of different planets for their own gain written in 86'083 words devided between 3 chapters, and that's apparently not the answer people are looking for :(
It's called Ad Astra and it was written by Hellenite on Ao3. I read it like 2021 and have not been able to stop thinking about it since
THAT'S the level of world building and characterisation that I strive for
#reading ad astra was a canon event for me#ask me and ill GLADLY talk about ad astra for HOURS im not kidding you#i still get lumps in my stomach & chills & warm cuddly feelings when i think about it#im being as serious as physically possible right now by the way#that is the singular most impressive and imersive piece of fiction i have ever read#and i have still never read the follow up BUT STILL#i havent recovered enough mentally to read de tera#event horizon hellenite#ad astra hellenite#hellenite#ao3#ao3 fanfic#beeduo fanfic#beeduo#fanfic rec#fanfic readers#blabbering#reader#bookblr#fanfic problems#fanfic reader problems#frfr
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Oil is Thicker Then Blood ( Part 38)
Tera was screaming.
It was louder, more primal, more concerning then any sound either parent had ever heard in their life, and it was all coming from the crib, where she was kicking and flailing, throwing off blankets and sounding much more like a banshee then anything else.
Uzi was there at the crib first, sprinting out of the living room where her and N had been chatting (cuddling) on the couch, though N was right behind her, both parents with hollow eyelights, they had just put her down for a nap, and there was no reason why she'd be this upset.
She had never been this upset before.
“Hey. Hey. Tera, what's wrong?” Uzi attempted to pick her up, only for her hand to get kicked away by the irate toddler, hard enough it made her rub her hand.
Tera continued to wail.
N was next, fighting through the flailing limbs to pick up his daughter, tears stained the inside of her visor, and she continued to kick wildly.
“Whats wrong with her?!” N shouted above the noise that was making his core hurt, had they not given her enough attention? Was she in pain in some way?
“I don't know!” Uzi yelled back, N brought her up to his chest, something instinctual, and although she kicked him breifly, the introduction of the heat from his core seemed to calm her down a little bit, ceasing her kicking but still crying loudly.
He brought a finger down to check her temperature, even if he could sense it already and it was fine, well… not as cool as the other workers, but well within his daughters normal temperature at least.
And then, she stuck it in her mouth, her crying almost immediately stopping as N felt her tiny-flat teeth scrape against the casing of his finger, he blinked.
“Do… Do drone toddlers teethe?”
“Uh, no. No they don't.” Uzi replied back, removing from the minor overload to her audio receptors, she looked to where Tera was still sucking on N's finger, as well as small experimental nibbles taken in between.
“Right… what do we do now?” Uzi asked, watching curiously, while it wasn't common, some toddlers would want to test things out with their mouths, but it wasn't typically enough to upset them to screaming.
“Give her something safe to put in her mouth?” N suggested.
“Like?”
“Humans have pacifers.” He vaguely recalled seeing some of the guests at the manor with their babies, most of then sucking on a carved peice of rubber to keep them quiet.
Not that he wanted Tera to adhere to the “Be seen, not heard” rule, but it was rather obvious she wanted something in her mouth.
Uzi thought for a moment before she ran off into her workshop, leaving N to stand awkwardly as he continued to lend his finger to be used as a chew toy, it didn't hurt, Tera's teeth were flat like any other worker drone, not pointed like his or Uzi's.
Uzi returned after about an hour, while N had just sat on the bed and allowed Tera to do whatever she wanted to his finger, he almost fell asleep, and nearly jumped when Uzi flung herself into the room, holding… something.
“What's that?”
She held it up, it was black, made from rubber and silicone, similar in shape to a pacifier only without the handle, instead in was dual sided.
“Chew toy! I had some extra material in my workshop, I'm not sure why she wants to, but it's better than you sacrificing a finger.”
N removed his finger, causing Tera to immediately look upset again, her eyelights creasing and gritted teeth, Thad was right, he was certain he'd seen that look before on his girlfriends face.
Uzi handed her the little toy, which she couldn't really hold on her own, but that didn't matter, her mouth found the tip and she giggled through it, nibbling at it.
“There we go.” N hummed, and Tera proceeded to produce a series of happy trills and chirps, leaning back into her father's lap and enjoying her new toy. Arms clumsily flapping up and down as she got what she'd wanted.
“Well… at least she wasn't overheating.” Uzi sighed, sitting in front of her boyfriend on the bed and grabbing her little gremlin by the hands, lifting them up and down as Tera laughed through the toy in her mouth.
“How much oil is she taking now?” N asked, while he knew she was still being fed, and had fed her some himself, he had unfortunately a seriously awful record of keeping track of how much oil she was going through.
“Way above normal for a toddler, so whatever her overheating issue is, it's ingrained in her software.” Uzi replied, a sad lit to her voice.
“That's… not the best outcome.” He murmured.
“No, but we knew that was possible when we got into this. She'll just need oil, like us.” Uzi's smile was soft, reassuring although a little worried herself.
He could barely believe she was still only 18.
“As much as us or less?” He asked, adjusting as Tera fell over, although still chomping on her toy, her eyelight were dimming however, she would fall asleep soon enough.
“I mean less then you, I don't know how you lived so long with how much oil you need weekly.” Uzi half- teased.
“I got good at rationing.”
“Still, and she probably won't need as much as me either, but we'll see.” Uzi leaned back, looking out the bedroom door as she rested her head on her hand, N tilted his head, but before he could ask if she was alright, she asked him something instead.
“Are you alright?”
“What? Yeah why wouldn't I be?” He asked, slightly smiling, there was nothing wrong, why would their be?
“That night where you woke up, and told me… about J.”
Oh
That.
That had been about a week ago now, he was fine, it had just been a fluke, the nightmare had caught him off guard is all, he wasn't even thinking about it anymore. He lied to himself.
“Yeah, I'm okay. Honest, it's… it's not that big of a deal.” He tried to brush it off, to sweep it underneath the rug so that he hopefully wouldn't think about it anymore, instead, Uzi have him a glare that sent alarm bells of in his head.
He'd said something wrong.
“It is a big deal! You- you were violated! No one, I don't care who, should ever touch you like that.” Her voice was raised, clearly angry although not as much at him as what happened to him.
“I mean. I know.” He paused for a moment “It's not like I thought it was- like normal or anything. I knew it was bad.”
“But… if I didn't… take it. What was stopping her from going after V?” He asked, thinking back to his mindset at the time, he had been the worst hunter, the lowest on the totem pole, he made mistakes constantly.
Didn't he deserve at least some of it?
“V would have put J in her place, do you honestly think V wouldn't have ripped her to peices if she'd tried?” She replied, likely referencing V's penchance for violence.
“V would have done whatever J asked of her. Regardless of what it was. J was our leader, disobeying her would have been against our programing.” He solemnly explained, he didn't know much about how he, and his squadmates were programmed, but what de did know he'd figured out through experience.
“But… you did. You helped me take her down.” She pointed out, still a bit confused.
“I think that virus she got me with broke whatever code that was doing it, but before that… we both had to do whatever she said.” He finished, and quickly Uzi's mind took that and ran, directly into something he'd thought about himself a lot
“Do you think… she tried with V too?”
“I… don't know for sure. I hope not.” He replied, giving him the best answer he could.
V was gone most of the time, even when all three disassembly drones were alive and active, but that didn't mean their weren't times that the two were alone together, specifically on extended hunts.
Did she always leave to avoid J? To not be stuck alone with her?
“Sorry.” Uzi apologized swiftly.
“You're worried about me?” Still somehow he wasn't used to that, for someone else caring about how he was doing.
“I don't know how you even let me touch you after that.” She explained, voice getting even softer.
There was a lull in the conversation, the only sound being Tera sucking on her toy sloppily, N sighed, fingers tangling with his partners as they both lie on the bed.
“I like your touch.” He said softly, hoping that she wouldn't take it the wrong way, because he did, he liked it when she hugged him, or held his hand, or held him like he was the only thing that mattered on the whole of Copper-9.
“It's nice, you struggled to say ‘I love you’, but I always knew because you said it with your actions, with-with whenever you held me.”
Uzi didnt say anything, blushing at the sudden confession, she giggled airly.
“I just… yours was always different, even before we were together. I knew you wouldn't hurt me.”
“Gonna make me cry N.” She hummed, clearly struggling to emotionally deal with what he just said, he just laughed.
“Sorry.” He thought for a moment, before saying his thought out loud accompanied by the slightest bit of blush covering his visor. “I'd let you touch it.”
“What?”
“My core.” He clarified, pointing to his chest.
“N!” Her breath hitched, voilet exploding over her face, that had not been what she was expecting, to be invited to touch a part of him so private. She trembled as she looked away.
“I would. I mean yeah… I'm nervous, but you won't hurt me.”
“I might! It's not like I've done it before!”
“Okay, then you won't hurt me intentionally.”
He had a small, kind smile on his face, despite what he was saying, his blush wasn't nearly as profuse as the drone he was saying it to.
“I uh… okay. That's… good to know.”
Uzi sat and stewed in her own embarrassment, and was thcheat. Robo-God when she got a message in her core systems, from her Dad of all drones. She opened the white colored message;
WID-Khan: hey dronelette, need your help on something.
UID-Uzi: What's up?
WID-Khan: making something for son in law, need measurements.
UID-Uzi: We're not married, you know that, what measurements?
WID-Khan: that thingy on the tip of his tail, making a cap so tera doesn't grab it.
Huh, that was actually a really good idea…
UID-Uzi: I can get them, I'll send them to you when I do.
WID- Khan: thank you!
She sighed, still willing her blush away. So much to do…
Next ->
#murder drones#uzi doorman#serial designation n#biscuitbites#nuzi#n and uzi#oil is thicker then blood#tera doorman#they talk#Tera is teething
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This is an edited repost of the Erzsebet Bathory character analysis I wrote yesterday that I refuse to let go to waste. I tried doing the right thing and tagging all of the necessary trigger warnings only for this post to be completely hidden from the Castlevania Nocturne and Erzsebet Bathory tags. Since I can't afford to tag the proper trigger warnings without being punished please do not read this post if discussions of rape or sexual assault triggers or upsets you in any way. I don't take these topics lightly and they are vital to this analysis of Erzsebet Bathory.
This post also contains major spoilers for this first season of Castlevania Nocturne.
This may seem presumptive of me to say but this thought has been stuck in my head for several hours: Erzsebet Bathory is the most rapist adjacent villainess I've ever seen without her actually being a rapist.
The first and smallest point against her is how often she mentions virgins. I know that Erzsebet's initial mention of virgin sacrifices is supposed to tie into the origin of her alter ego and consumption of Sekhmet but it's super fucking weird that it played into why she wanted to sacrifice Maria.
Next point against her is the lawyer's daughter. I'm not sure if this lady was a virgin but when she's first brought to Erzsebet she's already terrified and too dazed to fight back. It's obvious that she doesn't want to be there and that even if she did that she can't really express that desire. But Erzsebet still takes this lady out of a literal gilded cage, sits down and sits this lady on her dress to admire her despair before drinking her blood. The next time we see the lady she's still dazed. The only differences are that she's dolled up and seems more suggestible. Even with hundreds of people in this ballroom scene the lady is literally ignored by everyone except for Erzsebet who dances with her and parades her around for her own amusement. Everyone else knows that Erzsebet likes to make her victims suffer and they still refuse to acknowledge the lady because Erzsebet has made it clear that she's her possession. Hell the only person who is unhappy enough with Erzsebet to go rogue at this point is Olrox and he STILL IGNORES THIS LADY. When the lady is dragged outside to be fed on again without anyone batting an eye it reminds me of a rapist roofying their target and proceeding to do everything in their power to seem interested in their victim's well-being in order to take them to a second location. And no one speaks up since Erzsebet is the Harvey Weinstein, Prince Andrew or Thomas Jefferson of the vampire world; the embodiment of people in power getting away with abuse until the damage has already been done.
The last and biggest point against Erzsebet is the entire scene where she turns Tera into a vampire. For me personally that is just an allegorical rape scene and it's executed very well. Erzsebet makes her entrance at the abbey as a lioness of a woman, a literal predator who wants to take Maria as a sacrifice and turn her into a vampire to ensure Emmanuel the Abbot's loyalty. Tera protests and offers herself to Erzsebet instead. This is such blatant coercion that Tera refers to herself as the ram Abraham sacrificed to God instead of Isaac. And the only question or concern Erzsebet has at this point is if her sacrifice should be a virgin. The only reasons she accepts the sacrifice are Emmanuel's genuine love for Tera and the fact that Tera is a powerful sorceress. Once Erzsebet settles for Tera and physically lifts her to her level no one can stop her. Maria gets knocked out for trying and Richter gets bodied immediately after. Their only option is to get the hell out of there once Annette makes an opening and Richter rightfully runs for his life. Even Maria, the only person that could look back and see Tera turn, is knocked out and that feels like an intentional writing choice to give Tera one last shred of dignity. Erzsebet holds Tera really close in this sort of hug as she feeds on her and once she's fed she literally sits Tera on her lap for her turn to feed. Then Erzsebet cuts herself and the blood starts dripping down on Tera, starting at her skirt, going to her blouse and reaching her face. At first Tera doesn't react but then her body responds to the blood and she feeds even though she doesn't want to. Even though no one wants this for her. And that is exactly what it's like when someone has an unwanted orgasm. Tera's body is protecting itself the same way a victim of assault would and that paired with the blood on her skirt being reminiscent of the blood on a woman's thigh in the aftermath of an assault hammers home the rape allegory. It's very sad and uncomfortable to think of Tera's turn to vampirism this way but the thought lingers hours after like a grimy film on my brain.
I 100,000% believe that Erzsebet would have been an actual rapist if Netflix Castlevania didn't romanticize Lenore raping Hector and ending their relationship on friendly terms. Not to mention Sumi and Taka's sudden shift from allies to sexually assaulting Alucard out of spite. Castlevania Nocturne seems to shy away from rape and sexual assault in favor of allegories or moments so brief that I missed them unlike its predecessor. So I'm blaming the gratuitous depictions of sexual assault in Castlevania on Warren Ellis, the creator of Netflix Castlevania, who doesn't work on this show for a very good reason.
Everything from her size as Sekhmet to her tendency to torture women and girls before killing them contributes to the allegory of Erzsebet being the vampire equivalent of a rapist. She exudes power and not only does she enjoy making others feel helpless she's also great at it. She is a sadist without honor, willing to parade her lady victim of choice around vampire high society or hang a young girl on hooks to drain dry rather than let any of them die a quick death. The dragged out, needless suffering Erzsebet inflicts along with her preference for women and virgins frames her feeding as something more sexual in nature than the other vampire nobles who simply indulge in their gluttony. Even Olrox feeding on his former boyfriend isn't framed sexually, it's framed as a desperate, romantic gesture to keep his lover alive. And every vampire I remember from Castlevania has their feeding framed as a tool for political power or sheer, simple gluttony. Even the vampire general Cho was shown to be more of a tyrant or a general sadist clinging to power in Japan than a deviant.
Erzsebet's sheer sadism actually contrasts quite well with Dracula's humanity and restraint. He understood humanity, only feeding to survive or strike down the merchants who slighted him. (He probably also used feeding as a tool for political power but I don't think we saw that directly.) Dracula ultimately came to understand humanity so well that he fell for Lisa Tepes, the exemplar of what it means to be human. And that love is why I believe he respected Lisa's wishes and let her keep that humanity instead of turning her into a vampire. And after Lisa's death Dracula stopped feeding entirely, hoping to extinguish his life and take out as many people as he could because he believed that humanity should've been better. He believed that the people who lived alongside Lisa would've stood up for her and they betrayed her out of a mix of fear, religious reverence and apathy. Meanwhile Erzsebet doesn't care about humanity, seeing people like the lawyer's daughter as possessions or people like Tera and Emmanuel the Abbot as pawns to further her own rule. She might be taken aback by Drolta's death once she learns of it but there's an equal chance that she wouldn't even bat an eye.
So what do these points of analysis mean for Erzsebet and Tera's future dynamic as master and pawn? The one thing that's certain is that Tera has been fundamentally changed, forced into an unprecedented nightmare scenario that will drag her down a dark path. But I'm an optimist and I believe that Tera will ultimately be redeemed. She may never be human again but her humanity, her love for her son and daughter will save her soul. Ultimately I hope that Tera lives and recovers from the trauma of Erzsebet turning her. I hope that she goes home to her children and is taken in with open arms. But if Tera dies she will die as Tera, not as a pawn, and that is because Erzsebet could never kill her humanity.
#castlevania nocturne#castlevania nocturne spoilers#please heed the preamble#this post still discusses dark subject matters so I want you guys to be careful#erzsebet bathory#tera#tera renard#tera castlevania#dracula vlad tepes#anti lenore#sumi castlevania#taka castlevania#I really want to know what you guys think#and please forgive me if I've read way too much into Erzsebet#I just can't stop thinking about her lack of regard for most anyone#this could contribute to the colonization allegory with Erzsebet but I don't have the background or education to contribute to that talk#long post#ash rambles
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normalize making pokemon teams on showdown for your favorite characters... nerding out but
#bram.txt.exe#to be honest honchkrow for descole is a must#but ive been toying with replacing it for corviknight#either-way#honchkrow either gets the screenshot or roost + darkanium Z switching out sky attack/sucker punch or i just swap him for corviknight#“why is sylveon here” ah eto ... scratches head#i flip between “sylveon's bravery for foes that can be overwhelmingly larger than them reminds me of vs targent”#and “itd be funny if descole was hoping for an umbreon but forgot to not have it learn a fairy type move”#maushold is there because lol. lmao#dont talk about the tera types i dont have a clue what they are /hj
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I need more Micah and Charlie lore NOW
I JUST POSTED THIS MINI FIC ABOUT THEM HEHEHE!! THERES ALSO THIS POST and the whole #marlie tag!!!
but i’m just thinking about how weirded out charlie is bout tulsa and micah’s just like “wdym this isn’t normal” and charlie, who came from some semi rural town in oregon where everyone helped everyone is like “NO THIS ISNT NORMAL?”
but charlie who’s so open and free and vulnerable vs micah who’s rough and closed off and defensive. they make me SICK. micah only opens up in his home, surrounded by his siblings, and charlie has never had a family to love like micah loves his siblings… auauyyghh. it’s such a combo of charlie getting the domestic joy from micah he’s never had before and micah getting that space to be vulnerable and open and able to Want that he’s never had before.. THEY MAKE ME SICKKKK I HATE GAYVPEOPLE 😭😭😭
#THANK U FOR LETTING ME TALK ABOUT THEM#IF U WANNA KNOW ANY THING SPECIFIC OR WANNA YAP PLS DO!!!#asks#tera-ixie#marlie#charlie torres-moore#micah foster
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Clone wars my beloved
#digital art#star wars#the clone wars#ahsoka tano#jedi#headshot#Tera sinube#luminara unduli#plo koon#I feel like clone wars is underrated#Or just isn't talked about enough
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on arranged marriages
it's funny. mums been in the whatsapp rishta groups for years looking for someone i might marry. she'll send me a profile once in a while and ask what i think, if she should contact his parents or not and most of the time i say yeah, alright. nothing ever comes of it though, so when my dad calls me after work and says mum spoke to him about a rishta she's thinking of moving forward with i'm intrigued, but not particularly invested.
mum's really picky, i tell him. this probably won't go anywhere but we may as well see it through, right? dad is hesitant, but agrees when i say that i do want an arranged marriage.
but then things do move forward and the next thing i know, he is going to visit us with his parents. on the day, my uncle picks me up from work so i don't have to walk. you don't have to make a decision today, he tells me. this is just a first visit. my cousin helps me get ready and i am reminded of the similar scene in the movie vivah. nothing has to happen today, she tells me you guys are just meeting today. the thought does nothing to settle the nerves roiling in my stomach and i try to go back to my room three times instead of going downstairs until my cousin practically shoves me down them.
i enjoy meeting his mum, even though she immediately clocks my nervous clasping and unclasping of my bracelet. she hugs me as if i'm her own daughter and is so happy to see me that my heart lightens. eventually, we go to the other sitting room where the men are sitting-where he is. my nerves flare up again but he doesn't look up from his hands clasped in his lap when we walk in.
too nervous to speak, i only answer say anything when a question is directed at me and try to sneak quick glances at him across the room instead. his mum catches me more than once and smiles knowingly at me. we meet each others eyes only once for a split second and it makes my heart pound rapidly in my chest. when he speaks, i force myself to look at anyone other than him. he has a nice voice, my brain whispers and i bite my tongue, hard.
they leave, and we say they'll know our decision after a couple months. i know what my answer will be though. later, when they get back home and his mum calls my mum, i stand outside the door to eavesdrop, my heart in my throat but i can't stop my grin when i hear his mum say he's happy to go ahead with this, because there was a part of me that still worried he'd see me in person and go NOPE. she suggests that we get to know each other over the next few months and i silently beg my mum to agree. i know that where she is from, in her tradition, the bride and groom speak once or twice before the wedding if they're lucky, and that things are still done that way back home, but just as im gearing up to argue against that, she agrees. it's a miracle!
of course, chronically shy person that i am, the thought of our first conversation taking place on our mums phones is terrifying so instead i ask to get his number so we can text first. she sends his number but theres no way i'm texting first so i send them my number and thankfully he gets the hint and texts me first. i hope you don't mind me texting, i'm just shy still. i say. that's fine, he reassures me. we have time.
time, as it turns out. flies. it doesn't take long to move from texts to voice notes, to phone calls. he really does have a nice voice, i find out, and its not as awkward as i thought it would be. i didn't actually think that we'd talk that much, maybe once a week at most and yet...
i almost cried last night because we were talking about going to Pakistan together next summer and I remembered how when I was a teenager I used to daydream about going to Pakistan with my spouse and visiting all my family with him.
then over the years I sort of gave up on that idea because I'm not the type to go out and meet someone and in the desi arranged marriage market whose gonna choose me?
and now I'm 26, and we talk multiple times a day and when I catch myself thinking oh he isn't really interested, he's just talking to me because he has to to get to know me, why would anyone actually like me?? I find myself countering with well actually if that was the case why would he start calling you every day? how come you went from one call a day ending with 'i'll talk to you tomorrow' to him calling you on his way home from work and 'i'll call you after dinner' when he gets home to a THIRD call after maghrib right before bed? those are not the actions of a man who is uninterested!!
hanaas insecurities- 0, hanaas logic- 1
anyway idk where this is going except i never thought i'd be this excited and happy when it came time for me to get married but here i am and it is SO SCARY to realise that i am maybe possibly (definitely) falling for him but wow, and like? (literally the other day i was telling him a story from when i was a kid and the story had such a silly ending but it was unexpected and he laughed really hard in surprise and it made my heart almost explode i swear its so fun to make him laugh)
but like there's SO MANY logistics i'm restarting my driving lessons so i can pass before i move and i literally just got my new job in april but i'm gonna have to give my notice lmao and i've already started looking for new jobs but GAH so much stuff is happening and yet at the same time i feel so calm about it all it's wild i'm just vibing trying to enjoy my summer holidays and having the highlights of my day being when he calls lmaooo
#banana speaks 🍌#okay that's enough emosh stuff for tonight i think#time to go to bed and watch his tiktoks and kick my feet and giggle at my phone bc i can't believe this is happening still#idk why i made this post honestly but its just like...it is SO SCARY sometimes#and for ages and ages i didn't feel ready at all#my sister had a love marriage and she's been married 10 years w 4 kids she's rlly happy#but i just knew that wasn't gonna happen for me so i was happy w an arranged marriage#but also#i have really strong faith#(mostly)#and something that really helped me here was#im SUCH a chronic over thinker but literally the moment i saw him in our front room#i felt this deep certainty like 'this is it..this is him' it felt like this beautiful peace in my heart#and that was so so lovely like...there's wedding stuff and other things to prepare for but theres no doubt in my mind ab him and its just??#insane im like#its like all my doubts disappeared#and also it's v interesting bc i think if he'd tried any lines on me or flirted when we talk i would be worried but#hes really respectful and my dad likes him my mum likes him we ALL like him hahaha#inshallah inshallah things will go well#also rishta's will come from unexpected places#we were looking in the uk for AGES and couldn't find anyone#but we found him within a year of him being here because turns out...he only came here from pak to be w his parents last year#jo hai tera lab jayega indeed#once agan#inshallah it all goes smoothly :D
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By the way, since the whole "Kieran was being controlled by 'Dokutaro' and that's how he was able to revive the Loyal Three" theory is dead in the water, yet people are still wondering how he managed to do that, it's because he had Ogerpon's mask with him when he punched the grave. Ogerpon's mask has Tera Crystals embedded in it. Earlier on at the Crystal Pool, it was established that the Tera Crystals in the water have the ability to bring back the dead.
He probably just accidentally brought them back to life when he made contact with the grave while holding the Tera Crystals/the lingering spirits of the Loyal Three were able to latch onto some of the energy of the Tera Crystals and revived themselves when he punched it
#pokemon#pokemon teal mask#pokemon indigo disk#pkmn spoilers#i guess??? since i talked about the theory being disproved#I've always been ambivalent to the kieran mind control theory as a whole but this is one of those parts of the theory where I was like#'yeah no dokutaro was not responsible for that part. it's very clear that it's just tera crystal magic'#whether you believe it's some weird time magic/wish magic depends on how you think tera crystals work. idk you decide#(yes i know dokutaro is not the official name but I'm trying to keep the actual name under wraps for those trying to avoid spoilers)#bye bye now
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4. 🧭An alternative title to your/ one of your WIP(s)?
"Stabbing Daddy Caesar Like The Salad"
... I'm not sure I should explain.
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The brain rot is so massive I'm now considering a fire watchtower au set in France, either late XX century or on the first half of the 2000s. Where vampires are of course still a thing. Mizrak takes the job as a fire watcher for summer after a conflict within his church, following Emmanuel's advice to get away for a bit. Olrox is already there working for reasons I won't share in case I ever write this. They are separated by miles, of course, their towers spread apart as they start talking in the evenings before the sun sets using walkie talkies (Olrox is on night shift, of course). Job related convos that quickly get personal. Mizrak the fools starts getting attached, maybe out of loneliness over rarely seeing other people (except the ocasional hikers or the park ranger, who would be Annette in this AU), maybe out of other desires. Olrox irks him, yet there's a weird pull in there, something he can't quite describe. Annoying as much as it is comforting. A voice, nothing else, yet what a voice it is. He wonders what body it is attached to. He starts losing focus doing prayer, ears always alert for the static of the device, the call of his name. He pretends it's because he doesn't want to be distracted in case a fire starts spreading.
Of course they have walkie talkie sex at some point before ever seeing each other, too. Long talks as well, because the show barely has them interacting yet I think their chats would be oh so fun to write.
But of course, vampires still exist. Mizrak slowly notices there are weird things happening in the forest. Something is not quite right, not quite normal. Eventually, he figures out Olrox is not quite right either.
Castlevania Nocturne is such a short show. Why am I wanting to write such a character heavy fanfic when we barely know these men's backgrounds.
#mizrak#olrox#mizrox#I spent one hour today looking at fire watchers in france#some info is so hard to come by#so I'll just do some reality bending#thinking of either Landres or Orléans#The walkie talkie devil's tango would bang#also I was raised chatolic and forced to attend all that bs so#writing mizrak with a modern view on his faith rather than the xviii one would come oh so easy#I want ranger Annette so much too#the rest of the gang would be somewhat in too#but not working there#mizrak would ocasionally talk on the phone with emmanuel or tera#but that's it#olrox wouldn't be washed of his wrongs though julia would still be quite gone here#I'd probably get rid of the countess and just keep droltaaa though#the countess is not needed here fuck her#my beloved edgy vampire queen can stay though and still be evil and funny
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benson's nottemdude cheat sheet
quick guide of the nottemdude au's that have a grip on my mind
fallen angel au: Not Important was created by God to be dude's guardian angel but he So Sucks™ and God punishes him by sending him down to Earth to learn from humans how to be better. but it doesn't go to plan and Nottem ends up so traumatized he carries out the events of Hatred. i also have a playlist for this one!
brain damaged au: Nottem falls asleep napping with Dude on their couch, and Dude accidentally drags Not Important into the Dream World (the one from BD). The Other Dude kidnaps Nottem to use against Dude as some form of leverage over Dude (cuz Nottem is the most important thing to Dude). Postal Dude has to try to rescue Not Important back from The Other Dude. this is basically Brain Damaged 2 to me.
rehab au: Not Important carries out Hatred, but instead of getting killed or killing himself, he gets caught by police and put on death row. Dude finds out about this, breaks him out, and smuggles Nottem to Arizona (they didn't know each other prior but Dude saw a bit of himself in Nottem). much to Dude's horror, Nottem is a complete mess, they both have to work on healing with each other (easily the most obvious hurt/comfort au of them all).
these au's are co-managed with @explosionguts becuz she's WAY BETTER at putting my thoughts into coherent words (more will be added to this list once they get fleshed out LOL)
#nottemdude#fallen angel! nottemdude#brain damaged! nottemdude#rehab! nottemdude#<- these are my designated tags#BTW FEEL FREE TO ASK ME OR TERA ABOUT THESE AU's#i promise we wont gatekeep them and are more than happy to talk about them :3
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bigender terra truther. japanese ppl would know
#its probably impossible to tell in english#but the way they talk (in general and about themself) is not onee or fem#which is very notable and important part of terra's character#they have many fem mannerisms ofc but they always refer to themself as 'boku' and 'tera-kun' which are both masc#also because i say so. thanks for coming to my ted talk#- neo#charisma house#terra charisma house#crsm
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Part 38: Screaming Toddlers and Soft Conversations.
#murder drones#biscuitbites#nuzi#uzi doorman#serial designation n#n and uzi#oil is thicker then blood#tera doorman#they talk#Tera screams bloody murder
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