#technically nothing actually happened he just fell asleep

[carnage-cathedral]

hey I don't like this at all this feels really bad

[boydepartment]

weird cat guy- nishimura riki x reader

a/n: THIS WAS REQUESTED BY @angrybananapolice I HOPE ITS OKAY <3

request: can i req a comfort kinda fluff with Riki? reader is that kind of friend who's like a side character in her own life. Like, she isn't known by her name, she's known as her best friend's friend. You get me? so basically, reader isn't recognised a lot but then Riki somehow waltzes into her life blah blah thats all on you and then they kiss at the end because :)

warnings: cursing, insecurity, angst, comfort, fluff, kinda romcom

wc- 600-800 words

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in school you were pretty invisible, you didn’t talk much and when you did your friend would accidentally overshadow you. you don’t think she meant to, it just happened.

it was really frustrating you inside but you never were going to say anything. at the end of the day school wasn’t forever and you could move on with your life in a couple years max. there was no reason to make a scene or beg for attention.

that’s how your life was, blending into the background. who were you to change it?

when you walked to school with your friend you listened to her go on and on about some annoying guy in her dms. you thought she didn’t realize how lucky she was for people to actually have a romantic interest in her. you had a feeling something like this would never happen to you. a guy making a fool of himself to gain your attention? funny.

“he was so annoying all he did was yap!” you felt her hand on your shoulder. you couldn’t help but laugh along, no matter how you were feeling- she had a point.

“he really did sound like a yapper.” you started to joke with her as she continued.

“and his instagram was a little odd too! wait look!”

you watched as she pulled up his instagram, you both spent time poking fun and giggling. it was almost like middle school again.

until you got to the school building, then you faded in the background. you loved your best friend just not at school. she talked to way more people and left you by yourself socially. she would drag you around and then not truly include you.

and that’s how you’d spend your days, doodling on your math notes, messing with your shoes under the desk, and trying not to fall asleep. rinse and repeat…

however one thing did happen, on your walk home you were alone because your friend got invited to a study hall.

“i’m sorry y/n… will you be okay on your way home?”

you nodded and smiled at her, forced, “yeah of course! don’t worry about it!”

you started your journey home by yourself, at this point you should’ve gotten used to it. being alone. it was almost tranquil and you felt like nothing could ruin this moment for you. no school, no stress anymore, no-

“PLEASE STOP THAT CAT!”

when you looked up you saw a cat and a lanky figure sprinting towards you, the cat jumped on you and scared you so bad you fell over. the guy toppling down with you.

“what the hell!?” you yelled grabbing your head.

the boy looked at you, “i was trying to get that cat! i wanted him!”

you tried to stop the dizziness, “go to a shelter then, you psycho!”

the guy stood up and grabbed your hands to help you up, “that’s too easy!”

you finally looked at him and he was astonishingly attractive, “you’re crazy!” you looked away from him, now embarrassed. you barely talked to people, let alone attractive people. this was so embarrassing! and it was the hot guy’s fault!

“i’m sorry for knocking you over!” he exclaimed, “listen how can i make it up to you!” he stood there tapping his foot.

you grabbed your bag off the floor, “by leaving me alone.”

“come on! i totally knocked you over! well technically the cat did then i tripped over you but that’s not the point!”

you looked at him again, “you can leave me alone and stop being weird towards stray cats.”

at that, you walked away quickly passed him. god knows what that weirdo does on his free time. chasing cats? what a dork.

the next day was like clockwork, you enjoyed your bestfriends company until school, then you lost her. school and your studies were boring- it was a review week.

you sat down at your desk for lunch, your best friend sitting by you but not with you.

“oh y/n what do-“ everytime she tried to talk to you, someone else took her attention. if you tried to talk, someone talked over you.

you learned your lesson quickly.

“i heard that cute guy has been peeking into the classrooms today!” one of her friends exclaimed. one thing you learned was that listening and noting things was key to at least trying to enjoy the social aspect of school. you didn’t have to be involved.

“which one?” your best friend asked. everyone looked at your friend.

“that cat boy! he always chases cats and birds!”

you found yourself giggling slightly, that was ironic. what are the odds?

your best friend gasped, “oh him! he is so cute!”

they started talking amongst themselves until you heard giggling and gasping. probably some arm smacking too. which was typical in the gossip circle.

“oh my gosh it’s him! (b/f/n) he’s probably going to go over to you! what if he asks you out!”

yeah probably. you knew how this was going to play out. she’d go out with him, probably get the ick, then he’d have a bad rep because he fumbled with the school’s flower.

it was then more silent than usual and you had a box of chocolates thrown on your desk.

you looked up and it was cat boy, the psycho that ran into you.

“what’s- what’s this?!” your eyes widened, the boy started to snicker.

“for running into you. my mom told me to get it.” he pulled up his chair in front of you, all eyes were on you both.

“i didn’t even know you went to my school!” you whisper yelled, panicking that the attention was on you. the boy started to unpack his lunch in front of you and you hid your face from everyone.

“likewise!” he spoke and started unpacking his lunch, “do you like cucumbers? my mom always packs them but i don’t really enjoy them.”

he started speaking like it was the most normal thing in the world.

“ummmm…. what are you doing?”

the boy looked up at you, “actually talking to you.” he whispered, “and having lunch. duh.”

your eyes scanned the room, your best friend’s friends still looking at you, including her. you felt nauseous.

“this isn’t a funny joke if you’re pranking me.” you said firmly, the boy looked a little shocked.

“why would i be pranking you? i don’t have friends either.” he said simply and took a sip of his milk, he put the cucumbers on your plate.

you eyed the cucumbers, “is that why you chase cats and birds?”

he looked up at you, giggled, then nodded, “i’m riki by the way..”

“y/n.”

you honestly expected him to hang out with you once and then drop it. but that didn’t happen… he actually continued to hang out with you. be around you, and actually talk to you. riki would remember the little things too.

he started to walk you home and you got so used to his company that it scared you. in your mind you were boring, he was probably just using you to get to your friend. you’d take whatever riki said with a grain of salt, no matter how sweet. why would you risk having feelings for someone who could just be using you?

the weather was starting to warm up and your allergies were not helping you. your head was in pain and school just wasn’t it for you today. the idea of looking at the green chalkboard sounded nauseating.

you stayed home and took pain meds, around 10 am you were trying to make tea when there was a knocking at your door.

that was terrifying, it was only you home. if someone decided to break it you would probably die.

you rushed over and peeked through the window. and there was riki.

you opened the door, “what are you doing here.”

“you weren’t at school, can i come in?”

“can you stop pretending you actually care?” you wrapped your arms around yourself and looked down at his feet. you were getting tired of riki being overly nice to you, especially because to you it was fake. it was a facade.

you heard a surprise noise and then a scoff.

“i’m not pretending! what do you take me for!?”

you finally got the courage to look up at him, “someone who’s way out of my league and probably only using me to get to my friend, it’s happened since middle school, and she likes you too! so go to her! stop wasting my time.” you went to shut the door but riki stopped it.

“what the fuck are you talking about? have i ever mentioned your stupid- no offense- your stupid friend?” riki readjusted the bag on his shoulder, “i got your schoolwork too dumbass, since she said she forgot it. that’s the one and only time i’ve ever spoken to her.”

you looked at him, still in disbelief. riki looked at you, somewhat annoyed.

“y/n i’ve hung out with you everyday for a month, i have no other friends because people either make fun of me for being cat boy or they’re just trying to date me. it’s a weird 50/50.” he said simply, his stare softened.

“riki-“

“what’s that burning smell?”

“FUCK!” you rushed back to see the water boiling over the stove and went to fix it. you were already upset because you couldn’t find the kettle, now you were upset you fucked up.

“god! i can’t do anything right!”

unbeknownst to you riki let himself in, “go lay down. i’ll make tea.”

you flipped around and looked at him, at this point you didn’t feel well, you were overwhelmed, and you just wanted to lay down, “fine… whatever…”

you laid down on the couch and tried to check your notifications, your best friend hadn’t even checked if you were okay. hell, she didn’t even read your text asking to get your work.

sighing you zoned out until you felt a weight next to you, “sit up and drink up.” you listened, mumbling a thank you.

“i like you.”

you choked on your tea, “you what? riki that’s not funny, that’s mean. you’re being mean.” you spoke quickly and waved your hand brushing him off.

“i’m not lying to you, i’ve been hitting on you this entire time!” riki exclaimed and sat back astonished.

you set the tea down, “it’s hard for me to believe you.”

“i know.” he took a deep breath and leaned his head back, “i know. clearly it is.”

you felt bad now, if he was telling the truth you were the one being mean now…

“i’m sorry, im not used to all of this.” you felt your eyes water and riki sprung into action. he softly grabbed your hands, they were freezing.

“i know you aren’t, listen… i lied when i said i didn’t know we went to the same school-“ he blurted out. you looked up at him.

“what.”

“i’ve had a crush on you since the beginning of school but i didn’t know how to tell you and you were always around that stupid group that never talked to you and i felt really bad but i couldn’t say anything because im known as weird cat boy and i just i was trying to catch that cat to try and impress you but i failed-“

around the middle of his speech it was like time stopped, it was now or never.

if it was a joke and your school social life was over then you could transfer online or something.

you sat up on your knees and made the boy face you, before you leaned in and kissed him.

he tensed up before easing into the kiss, when he pulled away softly he chuckled, “i’m sorry for lying about that, it’s the one thing i lied about and i felt embarrassed for liking you for so long.”

you pecked his lips again, “is it embarrassing to like me?”

“NO!” riki said quickly, “absolutely not! i just felt like a loser, NOT BECAUSE-“

you started to laugh, “i’m just teasing you!” when you calmed down you looked at him, riki’s ears were pink and he was just staring at you.

“thank you for being a real friend to me…” you smiled at him, tearing up again.

“can i be your real boyfriend? or am i about to get friendzoned…?”

you laughed again and hugged him, well tackling him, “you can be my real boyfriend!”

[yesihaveaobsession]

Last Night

Alastor x female reader

Summary: You wake up in a bed in Alastor's room, he teases you.

warnings!: mentions of intimacy but doesn't do it.

A/N: Hey Ya'll enjoy!! Probably won't be doing a part 2, this was in my drafts for a while so :D

You wake up with a horrid headache, also waking up to the smell of trees and water. You stretch and open one eye, realizing you are in a forest but in a bed with silk sheets. That's when it hits you: you are in Alastor's room. ALASTOR'S ROOM. Shit.

That's when you hear the sound of an old radio static voice. Your heart sinks. You have no idea what happened—you forgot—but waking up in a bed in the Radio Demon's room doesn't look good.

"Good morning, sunshine. Sleep well?" He smiles when you turn to face him, your eyes going wider than ever. He lets out a chuckle as he sits back down on the bed beside you.

"Surprised?" he asks with a head tilt.

"Did—did we actually—" You begin, getting nervous.

"No, we did not," Alastor hums, looking around and not meeting your eyes. He laughs again as his attention turns back to you, who still has a baffled expression.

"I just wanted to see your reaction," he shrugs. You let out a sigh of relief, and your shoulders relax.

"Don't get me wrong though, last night was pretty 'wild.'" He lets the statement linger, acting all innocent and nothing out of the ordinary, trying not to laugh out loud once more at the absolute panic that flashes across your face. He loves the teasing.

You then shoot up and prop yourself on your elbow. "You're lying," you tell him, but it's more to convince yourself. Alastor chuckles, then leans up against the fancy headboard of the bed, fixes his suit, and crosses his legs with his feet on the bed, looking over at you with a smile.

"You sure I'm lying?"

"You said that we didn't—" you argue. He just shrugs noncommittally. "I might've left out one detail..." You are speechless, and he knows it.

"You might've, technically, ended up in my bed," he drawls, holding up a finger, emphasizing the 'technically.' "But I assure you, nothing happened." He smiles, enjoying the sight of your expression.

"What? Was I drunk?" Bingo.

"You were out cold by the time I brought you here. You fell asleep the moment you laid down on the bed. So, I assumed it would be rude to just leave you out in the living room. This way, you would at least wake up in a bed. And in a bed you woke up."

"So we didn't," you say slowly.

"No, absolutely not." He places a hand over his heart—if he even has one—faking offense that you thought he would do something without your consent.

"I assure you, I'm truly a gentleman."

Ass, is all you think to yourself. If you two did do it, it would be a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity, and you would wish you could remember, but he loves teasing you. You are just glad it was all part of his stupid games. But this time, this one got you good.

[ofstarsandvibranium]

Shall I Count the Ways: L (FINAL)

Fandom: Criminal Minds

Pairing: Spencer Reid x F!Reader

Summary: You and Spencer are best friends. You’re in love with him and he’s in love with you, but neither of you know it nor decide to tell the other about their feelings. All the love is there, just hidden in the things you say and the things you do with one another.

A/N: IT'S OFFICIALLY OVER. THANK YOU TO ALL WHO CONTINUED TO READ THIS SERIES AND IM SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO ACTUALLY FINISH IT!

Series Masterlist

50. "I love you."

You practically lived at Spencer's apartment. You spent so much of your time at his place than yours. He emptied out part of his dresser and a portion of his closet to make room for some of your things. He encouraged you to bring more of your belongings, but you declined. You didn't want to take up more of his space than you already had.

"But I like you taking up space," he had said softly, with that soft smile of his.

You wanted to confess your love to him right then and there.

You technically have already, through your words and actions, but you never actually said those three words yet. You and Spencer have officially been together for six months and haven't said "I love you" to each other yet.

You feel as though because of Spencer's own insecurities and anxieties, he held back saying them. For you, you just didn't want to put any pressure on Spencer to say it back. But you love him, there is no doubt about that. You know in your heart, your mind, hell, your entire being that you absolutely love this man. You have for so long and you can't imagine not loving him.

You know he loves you too. You know by how he holds you, how he looks at you, how he talks to you. He doesn't say it outright, but you know he does.

Still. Hearing him say it would be nice. But there's that underlying fear, on both sides.

So now, six months into being with Spencer, you've come to accept that it may be a while until you hear him say those words.

Until he does on one random Tuesday evening.

_________________

Spencer was away on a case. He was called by Emily as soon as his last class of the day ended. They needed all hands on deck. He gave you a quick call on his way to his office, to let you know what was going on. He grabbed his go-bag that he always keeps at the school and proceeded to head to Quantico.

He'd been gone for four days. Every night before going to sleep, he'd call you and listen to you relay your day to him. You'd keep talking until either of you fell asleep. The last thing either of you heard were each other's voices.

The last day, Spencer texted you that he'd be coming home late and that you shouldn't wait up for him.

Well, you're stubborn, you so made sure to drink some coffee while you waited for Spencer to arrive back.

You were sitting in Spencer's living room, posting some of the new antiques you received onto your website when you heard a familiar jingle of keys. You set your laptop aside and stood up right as the door swung open.

Spencer's tired eyes brightened in surprise, "I told you not to stay up."

"It's fine. I drank some coffee so I can be awake to greet you," you peck his lips and take his bag from him. You go to bring it to his room, but he catches your wrist.

"Hold on. C'mere," he pulls you to him, causing you to drop his bag at your feet.

You giggle, wrapping your arms around him, "What is it, Spencer?"

His eyes roam your face, taking in every detail before landing on your eyes, "I love you."

It was now your turn to look surprised, "Spencer-"

"I'm sorry it took me so long to say it. First I take forever to confess my feelings for you and now to confess my love. I'm sorry you've had to wait so long for me, but know that I've always loved you and will continue to love you."

You can't help but chuckle in disbelief, "Where is this grand confession coming from, hm? Did something happen? Did someone say something?"

Spencer looks shyly at you, "No. Nothing like that. It's-It's just I was thinking about how excited I was to come back here and to find you here. I felt so much love for you just thinking about seeing you again after these past few days. Then I realized I never even said 'I love you' yet. We've been together for six months, three days, and," he pauses to look at his watch, then finishes, "-twenty-one minutes."

"I love you too, Spencer. I wanted to tell you much sooner, but I didn't want to pressure you in saying it back. You've been going through so much, I didn't want to add any more stress-"

Spencer shakes his head, "No, you could never add any stress to my life. You take it all away just by being here."

You smile brightly at him, "I love you so much, Spencer," you whisper.

"I love you too," he murmurs before closing in the distance and pressing his lips to yours.

You and Spencer have gone through hell and back, but you two have always loved each other. You've said and shown it in various ways and you know that there is absolutely nothing the world can throw at you that will break you two apart.

[givethemsmut]

The Pack | Chapter Three

Characters: Dylan O’Brien, fem!reader

Pairing: Dylan O’Brien, Dylan x You

The next morning I woke up naked in Dylan’s bed in absolutely nothing but his buttery soft sheets.

I reached for my phone that I couldn’t find until I leaned over the edge of the bed. Snatching it off the ground I read the time: it was 9:30 AM. My head was rattling and the hand over was in full effect.

There was no way I would have let some stranger take my virginity. Kiss? Sure, we were both drunk. I sat up covering myself. I had no idea if I should wake him or just leave when I opened an app to order an Uber to come pick me up in 15 minuets.

I swiftly got out of his bed and put my clothes back on. Every few seconds I was checking his bed for movement, any signs of him catching me escaping.

I had no idea if Alex was still here. I had ten texts from my dad worried sick and five from Alex about kissing Tyler. I put my converse back on when I noticed a used condom on the floor of his bedroom. Carefully tip toeing to his bedside I lifted the covers to see if he was naked too and he was. Every slender muscle was on display and my body reacted before could be mortified.

I lost my virginity while drunk to a stranger and can’t even remember.

I snuck down stairs and headed to the kitchen to splash some water on my face when he scared the life out of me. “I’m a morning person. Dylan is not.”

“Sorry I didn’t know we fell asleep. Mind if I just wash my hands?”

He pointed to the sink in a form of a yes, “Fell asleep huh?” I shook my head, not entirely sure. I thanked him for inviting and told him I had to run. He simply asked, “Want to me to give him a message? Or Alex? She also fell asleep in my bed. Making us breakfast if you want any.”

I must of looked confused because he returned the look, “Why would I want you to do that? I don’t even know him. Anyways, thanks.” I left ready to get into the Uber that arrived.

Finally home my dad was sitting on the couch looking pensive. He immediately stood up as I stormed through the entrance and started his dad type rant. “Where the hell were you?! You can send a text letting me know not to expect you to come home at all! I was worried sick! I even called Brody!”

I replied, “You did what?! DAD! I’m not speaking to him!”

He poured himself more coffee no doubt he didn’t get any sleep, “Where the hell were you this whole time?!”

“Don’t freak out. Alex and I went to Tyler Posey’s for a party and we didn’t feel comfortable driving so we slept on his couch.” It was a half lie. I know I’m horrible.

He was beyond angry now, “You expect me to believe you slept over Tyler’s house and nothing happened?”

That was his one rule: I had to stay away from his actors.

I sallowed hard. There’s no lying to my dad. “Actually, I got drunk. And technically I fell asleep in Dylan’s bed. He’s in Teen Wolf too.”

He paced behind the kitchen island furiously, “Dylan Fucking O’Brien’s bed?!! I know who he is young lady! I also know his girlfriend of 6 years! I also know he’s a wildcard! You better have used protection!”

Biting my lip, “Well actually I think they broke up. I just want to remind you I’m an adult now and of age to drink.”

He rubbed his face, “Last I knew you were a virgin despite the shenanigans you and Brody put me through.” Which wasn’t weird information for my dad to know. I was open about being a virgin and proud of it. So many girls were having sex at 14 and getting abortions at 18. I didn’t want that life. I didn’t acknowledge his last comment but went up stairs to showered and nurse my headache out the door.

I finally texted Alex after my shower, ignoring Brody’s messages entirely.

ME: Hey girl. I got so drunk. I feel awful.

ALEX: Tyler said you left this morning. You stayed over?

ME: Fell asleep in Dylan’s bed. And then I woke up naked…

ALEX: WTF. You finally had sex?!

ME: It’s all a blur. Can’t remember. But I think the used condom proves it… You and Tyler…?

ALEX: We just made out and watched a movie! Omg!! You’re not a virgin anymore! Celebration?

I didn’t respond. I was trying to dig for memories. I ended up falling back to sleep in my robe. I woke up remembering pieces like kissing him, getting tangled up, him reaching for a condom. Or at least hoping they were memories and no pure fantasy after seeing his chiseled body.

The rest didn’t come to me until I had some coffee and headed back to my room. More memories of Dylan taking off my panties, push down his boxers, pushing inside me, How the condom felt slippery and cold.

I pulled out my Mac to start some homework when my phone buzzed against my leg, it was from Brody. “Your dad called me saying you didn’t come home. I told him you’re too much of a goody two shoes to be in trouble.”

Which was a half truth. Everyone I knew was comfortable popping pills, smoking, drinking and having sex by fourteen. They all blamed growing up in Hollywood while I avoided everything.

I’ve gotten drunk before, Not last night drunk but enough. I’ve smoked. Broken the law. Virgins doesn’t mean you’re 100% pure. I could be evil too.

I quickly texted, I slept over Dylan’s House, full well knowing he has no idea who that was. I didn’t until last night either.

Another memory became less foggy – the feeling of ecstasy. How it felt when he pushed my body over the edge and he kept pushing himself inside me while I came. I felt him shake inside me. I felt him get even harder between my legs. Solid. I got goosebumps remembering. Almost turned on by the feeling, memory.

My dad yelled up stairs that he was going to work and text him if I’m leaving the house. I shouted okay back.

D Y L A N ‘ S P O V

We both had scenes to shoot today. We both popped three Advil and chugged water followed by ginger ale. Today was gonna suck. Posey drove us into the lot today. I had sunglasses and a beanie on in 85 degree weather of sunny LA when he finally asked, “You had somebody stay over?”

I laughed, “Oh Shit! You heard us?” He looked confused, “You know, we were jumping on my bed?”

I watched him crack up as he turned into the lot for check in. He asked, “You didn’t have sex? What about Britt man?”

I got angry remembering, “Fuck her. Oh fuck yeah I did. You know how long it’s been since I’ve gotten any? Britt was gone for 3 months and I didn’t cheat.”

“Bro. We gotta talk.” Pulling into his usual spot and turned off the car, “The girl you fucked last night? He’d dad is Wes. Our producer.”

I was trying to put it all together. “Wait, Wait. That’s why she was on set. Not for you. Holy. Fuck. I’m fucking dead! I fucked our boss’s daughter! What the fuck!” I was paranoid around every corner he was gonna surprise me and murder me for what I did. We had a table read today and two scenes each. We walked into the board room for the read and he was at the head of the table with his arms crossed.

Posey was always seated closer to Wes, and I was next to him, a one one person buffer. I sat down and didn’t look up when I heard, “Ty switch with Dylan.” Of course we had to he’s our boss. Hunched over I was quiet the whole read until my lines.

During a lines taking place at the other end her dad leaned over and said, “Heard you guys had a party. Heard my daughter fell asleep in your bed. Better have been it.”

I didn’t speak, I didn’t want anyone else to hear, I can’t be the guy who fucks crew’s daughters or get blocked by Wes from other jobs. The room cleared out when I felt his hand on my arm stop me from getting up. I looked up and he said, “You can explain then I’m gonna talk. Go.”

I said, “Posey and I had a party. That’s true…” I trailed off hoping it was enough. He waited for me to continue, “We had a lot to drink. I didn’t expect anything to happen. I didn’t even know she was your daughter. I thought she was here visiting Posey when I ran into her the other day.”

He spoke, “My turn. My daughter was a virgin last night. Last I checked you had a girlfriend I’m fond of, Britt. Ring a bell?”

My mouth dropped, “Wait. What. I – I – um – she. What.”

Her dad passed my shoulder and got up without clarifying. I went to my trailer after. I had to get my head back on. I had a job to do but all I could think was I took someone’s virginity without knowing it.

Tyler was waiting in my trailer and asked what happened when I shouted towards him, “She’s a fucking virgin!”

Posey thought he was being a smart ass by saying, “Well not anymore bro.”

I looked at him in anger, “You fucking think! She didn’t tell me that! We were both wasted. She didn’t even bleed.”

“Why would her dad know that information?? She probably just wants him to think that. She’s our age.”

I sighed heavily like a huge weight was lifted off of me as I slumped down on the couch. “Yeah, you’re totally right. You got her number?” Pos shook his head but he had Alex and that leafless good enough for me, as long as she was willingly to give that number up.

[bullet-clubs-bitch]

If It's wrong I don't wanna be right

Cash Wheeler X Fem reader

Summary: What happens when the bucks younger sister finally caves and gets with one of her brothers biggest rivals. 

Prompt  60 “Please? I’ll be good I promise!”

Warnings: SMUT, use of smoking, alcohol, swearing

Word count:  2218

Main Masterlist Cash Wheeler Masterlist

Cash’s POV

I knew this was wrong but I didn’t care. I had waited years for this moment, no way I was going to let it slip between my fingers. This little obsession started four years ago. I met Y/n at a wrestling event and instantly fell in love. She was the most gorgeous person I had ever seen. Dax and I were thinking of signing with AEW when I met Y/n. She introduced herself and told us all about what AEW had to offer us. I was instantly sold, I knew I needed to get to know her, spend all of my time with her. I would have asked her out right then and there but the ring on her finger told me otherwise.  

Even though she was taken I figured a little crush wouldn't hurt anyone. As I got to know her I learnt that she was engaged and I was shocked to find out that she was the younger sister of Matt and Nick Jackson. Y/n was the polar opposite of her brothers, they were straight edge, she was a party girl. The bucks were good christian boys but Y/n haven't been to church in years. The more I learnt about her the deeper I fell in love. I picked up on her habits and the two of us would often share drinks after shows. 

Then one day everything changed when the rivalry between FTR and The Young Bucks became real. I was quite angry when the bucks beat us for our tag titles but was even more angry when Y/n and I stopped hanging out. My anger continued to grow over the years. In a way I was praying for the downfall of her fiance. I wasn’t stupid I knew she was only with the older man for the money he had to offer. Y/n didn’t wrestle anymore and served as trainer backstage and writer for the show. I knew the job paid well but not good enough for a Birkin bag. 

It made me sick everytime I saw them together. I could love her better than he could. Heck I knew she didn't really love him either. Dax informed me that this crush had turned into an obsession and he was right. Yet, I kept my feelings a secret for three years, waiting for the perfect moment to strike. 

*****

All Out London

I felt like I had been tossing and turning for hours. I couldn't seem to fall asleep. The nerves of the big show kept me awake. I looked at the clock and it read 4:23 AM, too early to start the day but I couldn't stare at the ceiling in my hotel room any longer. I threw on a sweater and headed down to the lobby, hoping the fresh air would help in any form. Just like I suspected the lobby was empty, the drunks had cleared and the morning birds were yet to arrive. I stepped outside to the large balcony on the main floor and was shocked to find Y/n. 

“Can’t sleep?” I asked as I approached her. 

“Nope, you?” She responded

“Nah. I didn’t know you smoked?” I asked Y/n as I watched her place the half gone cigarette between her lips, breathing out the smoke into the gloomy darkness. 

“If my brothers ask, I stopped smoking 10 years ago. It helps me sleep” She said before bringing the cigarette back up to her lips. 

“I think it’s so funny how different you are compared to your brothers” I told Y/n fascinated 

“We are polar opposites. They haven’t had a drink in their lives while I have been drinking since I was 15. Not to mention you know about my little smoking secret.” 

I said nothing, wanting her to continue. “I started smoking when I was 16, I was the trouble maker obviously. I got away with it too and actually technically did quit when I was 20. I only smoke sometimes now. Mostly when I am stressed or I can't sleep”

 “Well, your secret is safe with me.” I told her honestly. In a weird twisted way I was more attracted to her now than before. She stood in front of me with baggy sweatpants and a hoodie that was two sizes too big. She wore no makeup, hair in a messy bun with glasses I have only seen her wear a few times before. She smelt like vanilla and tobacco, her green eyes stared back at me, a mix of exhaustion and desire. 

“If you weren't a sworn enemy of my brothers I would probably have you in my hotel room right now” I choked at the words that left her lips. I could feel my cheeks heat up and get a bit hard with her words. I knew that Y/n was now single but as the time passed the FTR and Bucks rivalry became so intense that it would never work between us. It would be like getting with the enemy. 

I didn’t even know what to say. Y/n left me speechless. I watched as she put out her cigarette and took a step towards me. We were chest to chest, I could smell the smoke on her breath. She didn’t even say anything, she just gave me a look that told me all I needed to know. She wanted me and I wanted her back, I had for years. 

“We really shouldn't be doing this Y/n” The words fell out in a whisper. I was internally punching myself at my choice of words. I knew it was wrong but I needed this.  

“I know baby” Y/n said as she cupped my face and whispered in my ear. “But as you can tell I don’t like following the rules. This is wrong but, don’t they say two wrongs make a right? Me and you can make that right.” I could feel myself getting harder as she continued to speak. “I know you want me, I’ve always known Cash. I’m not stupid. I can feel how bad you want me too” Y/n said in a seductive tone as she palmed my clothed erection. 

I knew this was going to be the only chance I would get so I jumped on it and without hesitation accepted the invite to Y/n’s hotel room. 

****

Everything happened so fast, one second we were in the elevator, the next we were ripping each other's clothes off. Y/n left a trail of kisses from my lips to my navel. Kneeling before me like she was about to say a prayer. I could have came right then and there, but I needed to be inside her. I watched as she placed delicate kisses from the tip of my dick all the way to the base before taking me whole in her mouth in one shot. I let out a loud moan at the feeling. After a moment she started to bob her head around my cock. I was lost in pleasure, I could feel precum starting to spill and my orgasm soon approaching. 

It took all of my strength to get her to stop, she almost looked offended. But I knew I needed to cum inside her. I pushed Y/n on the bed and got on top of her. Spreading her legs ever so gently I pushed into her slowly, wanting to savor the moment. As soon as I was balls deep I took no time and started ramming into her as fast as I could. I took one of her breasts in my mouth, sucking the flesh before switching to the other. 

Y/N’s POV

There was something about this that felt so surreal. Never in a million years would I have thought that I would have Cash Wheeler in my hotel room, not to mention the fact that in a few hours he would be going to war with my brothers. None of that mattered though, I was focused on chasing this high. 

Cash was bigger than I expected, he fit me perfectly, stretching me out beautifully, making me feel things I haven’t felt in a long time. I could feel he was close, so close. It didn’t matter how hard he tried to hold it, I was determined to make him cum first. I managed to pull him off of me, saying nothing as I looked into his eyes and saw something I never thought I would see, fear. 

Cash’s POV

When Y/n pulled me off of her that was when the reality set in. “Did I hurt you?” I asked, as my eyes scanned over her body, looking for non existent injuries. No response, “Did I do something wrong?” I asked again as I leaned down, placing a delicate kiss on her collarbone. Still nothing. 

She then placed her hands on my chest, drawing shapes on my skin before she pushed me on the bed so she was on top of me. Just before as I was about to speak she cut me off “Shhhh, relax darling you didn’t do anything wrong. I was the one who invited you into my home so I’m in charge” she said as she placed her hands gently on my still hard cock, giving it a rather hard squeeze, before placing kisses once again on my shaft. She then sunk down on me, slowly, it was torturous. Once she bottomed out she stopped for a moment before she started to bounce slowly on my cock. My hands found her hips as I guided her down on me, it took me everything in me not to trust up into her, she must have read my mind as she said “Don’t even think about it” 

She then began to pick up her pace, slamming down on me as hard as she could, our mixed moans sounded like music to my ears. “I can feel your close” Y/n said as she continued to fuck herself on me “Not yet” I told her, still wanting to make her cum first. Just then she stopped completely. “Fuck” I called out, “Please” I begged her. She just gave me a look “Please? I’ll be good I promise!” I cried out, not even recognizing my own voice, that was filled with desperation. “You know what on second thought maybe you’re right. I’m changing my mind, I can have some fun with this, you don’t cum until I say you can, do you understand?” “Yes ma'am” I replied 

Y/n remained still, rubbing her clit as she began to chase her own orgasm, I could feel her squeezing me as she continued to rub violent circles on the swollen bud. Everything was getting too much, I felt like I would die if I didn’t cum right there in then. My hands gripped the sheets, head thrown back into the pillows as she began to slowly bounce on my cock once more. I could feel her get closer and closer as she increased her speed, her hands on my chest as she rode me beautifully. She grabbed one of my hands, placing it on her clit, indicating me to grant her that extra sensation needed for her release. “You’re doing so good baby, almost there” 

She said praising me, I could feel her pussy start to spasm around my cock and I knew I couldn't hold off any longer. “Cum, inside me” that was all I needed to hear as I let go, my orgasm washing over me. Y/n came right after, fucking us both through our hard orgasms. 

It didn’t take long before she collapsed on my chest, the two of us trying to catch our breath, coming down from our hard orgasms. I don’t ever think I had cum so hard in my life. 

We stayed like that for a while, laying in a comfortable silence. I was first to break the silence “What the fuck was that” I said, laughing a bit. “I don’t fucking know” she responded slowley getting off of me, as I noticed the mess we made. “I don’t think you understand how much I needed that” Y/n said, burying her face into a pillow. 

“Not as much as I did” I responded, before I got up to grab a towel to clean us both up.

I knelt carefully between her legs as I cleaned the mixture of our juices. “You know, If I wasn’t so sensitive and exhausted I would have asked you to eat me out right now” She said, looking at me between her thighs. I could feel myself blush at the comment. 

I looked at the clock and it read 5:30 am. Without even thinking about it I went to grab my clothing that was thrown in different parts of the room. “Don’t tell me you're leaving already Cash” Y/n called out in a sad tone. “We don’t need to be at the arena until noon, stay, get some rest, you have a big match coming up and plus you look like shit” she said jokingly “Have you looked at yourself?” I looked like a hot mess. 

I decided to join Y/n in bed, for the few hrs of sleep, that would end up being the best sleep of my life. 

I didn't know what would happen after today but I knew something. No matter what would happen in a few hours I would fight. I would fight for us. Nothing would ever be the same after what happened, in good ways and bad but I knew this would be something worth fighting for.

[intothecometverse]

in honor of february ending, here's what i manifested this month!

🐬 this one time i was practicing a bit later than usual and i was like FUCK ION WANNA EAT DINNER AND THEN GO TO ORCHESTRA REHEARSAL WITHIN HALF AN HOUR THAT'S NOT ENOUGH TIME and then i got an email for the rehearsal schedule and i got at least half an hour more than usual until i had to come. funny enough i was thinking to myself like plz don't make me come until later plz plz plz plz plz plz and then i got the email for the rehearsal schedule so yippe

🐬 going on to that i had to fucking take a shit and ended up arriving to the rehearsal room ON THE DOT (which is late for orchestra standards 💔) but luckily there were still ppl waiting outside while the conductor was dealing with the basses and cellos only (which was the reason why ppl who weren't basses and cellows didn't have to come until half an hour later) so i wasn't late woo! and on my walk there (i was speed walking lol) i was affirming to myself i'm not gonna be late im not gonna be late there are still gon' be ppl waiting outside then boom that happened??? like im god hello??

🐬 having dinner + getting to go on a mini walk with my goth sp (i asked them and they said yes)

🐬 also manifesting conversations with my goth sp just by thinking about experiencing it seconds beforehand

🐬 oh ja and i also manifested being released early from orchestra rehearsals thru just thinking abt it seconds before too 😭😭

🐬 manifested seeing another sp during my regular day activities (their dorm room is around the corner from mine so we see each other a lot xD) like whenever i think abt them boom they pop up 😭. manifesting interactions next 𓆩♡𓆪

🐬 (me personally i think this was my most putting-my-foot-down manifesting moment) i overate one time and felt like throwing up, like i was feeling ALL the symptoms i usually do before i throw up so i was like "I'm not gonna throw up im not gonna throw up, remember who's in control. I AM in control, nothing else! the 3d will conform, because i said so, IT'S GOING TO CONFORM, NOW" and then i felt fine, just like that :D

🐬 not needing to get out of bed and take a piss one night when i was rly tired (affirmed "i don't need to piss" until i fell asleep 😭)

🐬 my room being opened one night when i got locked out at like 1/2 am

🐬 my grade in jazz history being raised from a D to a B- (and hopefully an A by the end of the quarter)

🐬 also i have all As in all my other classes

🐬 getting to have a fun hangout before February ended lol

🐬 having friends my age who live in dorms near me xD

🐬 my eczema getting healed without special ointment or anything

🐬 birf control (technically manifested it way back in December bc that was when i got a confirmed appointment but wtv. i got the implant this month so xD)

🐬 clearer skin

🐬 i have super long hair and the ends didn't dry out (technically this is like a continuous manifestation but i just wanted to mention it. basically I've been affirming "the ends of my hair is immune to split ends and drying out as it gets longer" and it worked!)

🐬 being better at trumpet :D (i told my trumpet teacher how much i practiced during one lesson, and continued to play during our lesson even when i surpassed my usual amount of time playing during an average day and he said I've gotten stronger due to playing for so long yet still sounding relatively fresh. and recently I've kept playing for longer amounts of time during the day and I've still been fine so yippe

what i'm looking for manifesting-wise in march:

🦞 shifting lmao

🦞 being successful in my job

🦞 being successful in all areas of life actually

🦞 getting to hang out with both sps + them getting along as friends so we could be a whole trio :3

🦞 my sps texting me first along with me texting them first (like yk how they say it should be like a 50/50 thing with who starts the convos and shit)

🦞 supernatural shit like powers, wings, horns, and like those king sombra kinda smoky eyes

🦞 WORLD. PEACE.

hope this inspired you, and remember, anything is possible, and u are loved!

˚ʚ♡ɞ˚

[idontplaytrack]

Got it from my sister

Janis 'Imi'ike x fem! reader

Warnings: some coarse language?

It's New Year's eve and some unwanted guests make an appearance. Other parts to the series here.

You rolled over in bed, bumping your nose against Janis’ back. You didn’t care and just wrapped your arm around her from how you were lying down. You heard her chuckling, then felt her holding your hand. “You awake?”

“”Not really.” You muttered. Why was she playing with your fingers? “What are you doing?”

“Nothing.” She snickered.

“I’m tired.” 

“Sure you are.” Janis said back.

“I was running after Kalia all afternoon yesterday, thank you very much. That’s how I get repaid for my less than ideal stamina?”

Janis shifted a little bit so she could turn around and look at you. Your eyes were barely open, “I wanna sleep in. Aaron and— Aaron and Azalea are coming over to babysit today anyway.”

“I’m just messing with you, baby.” She chuckles, brushing the hair out of your eyes so she could press a kiss to your forehead. “Those two are gonna have a heck of a time together taking care of our little girl.”

“Don’t I know it.” You laughed sleepily, “Great, now I don’t feel sleepy enough anymore.”

“Well they’ve been begging to babysit so now that they’re actually going to be here in like…” Janis squinted at the wall clock, “Fifty minutes, sleep in to your heart’s content, honey.” 

“Make sure they don’t burn down the house.” You joked.

Janis’ hand rested on your side, “I could…make you sleepy.” 

“Shut up.” You laughed again, “We’re technically not even alone yet and you’re already thinking about that?”

“Well, technically, we are.” She kissed you on the lips, “A lot can happen in the forty-something minutes before they get here. And we both know it.”

You smacked your hand on her chest, “No.” 

“Okay.” She agreed. “Go back to sleep.” Janis was caressing your back, and it was quite soothing. But knowing that you had guests coming over in under an hour, you were somehow just resisting falling back asleep because well, you had people coming over and you didn’t want to be rude and not greet them even though they were technically…family. Okay, so their wedding wasn’t for another two months, but they were already over at the house all the time. What difference does that make?

“Are you sure?”

She laughed, “Honey. Go back to sleep, it’s okay. They’re family, they don’t care if you’re there to say hi first or if you’re asleep because you’re literally tired.”

“I’ll try.” You mumbled, “Hold me?”

Janis grinned cheekily, “Sure, honey.” 

“Yaaay.” You chuckled. She planted a kiss on the top of your head, rubbing your back.

“I’ll make sure Kalia goes easy on you next time she makes you play with her.” Janis joked.

“I’m— not like you.” You laughed airily.

“‘Course you’re not.” Janis wrapped her arms tighter around you, “You’re you. I love you.”

“Sweet.” You laughed, the sleep evident in your voice, “I love you.”

Soon after you fell asleep, Aaron and Azalea arrived. Carl let them in before leaving to go to work at the restaurant he and Grace owned. “Janis is awake but still in bed, Kalia’s playing in her room. Oh, and y/n is asleep.”

“Okay.” Aaron laughed, “Have a good day at work.” 

“Help yourselves to anything, yeah?” 

With that, Carl leaves, shutting the front door behind himself. Aaron headed to the kitchen to get himself and Azalea drinks while Azalea headed for yours and Janis’ room straight away. The door was left slightly ajar so she didn’t knock. “Hey.” Janis greeted her cousin.

“It’s almost noon. She’s still asleep?”

“Kalia wore her out yesterday.” Janis got up and stepped outside, “But I think she’s coming down with something? She’s usually a morning person.”

“Aw.” Azalea frowned, “Hopefully not.” 

“Kalia’s awake.” Janis pointed out, “I’m surprised you guys didn’t head straight to her room to hang out.”

And, cue Kalia squealing and running away from Aaron. But, he obviously caught up with her and swooped her off the ground. “Got you!”

“Kalia.” Janis’ eyes went wide, “Mama’s asleep.”

“You’re in trouble.” Kalia snickered, frowning at Aaron. Azalea laughed, “You’re right. He is. He made you run.” 

“She’s the one who yelled.” Aaron grumbled jokingly.

“She wouldn’t have if you didn’t run after her.” Janis couldn’t contain her laughter, “Anyway. I’m gonna quickly make some lunch. You three try not to fight.”

“Alrighty.” Aaron looked at the kid, “What do you wanna play?”

“Ooh, Legos?” 

“Legos it is.” Aaron agreed, “You too, Aza. No escaping.” 

“Lea.” Janis laughed, “Let’s have a little chat.”

“Hey! No fair.” Aaron exclaimed.

“Highly fair. She wants to play with you, I want to talk with my cousin.” 

“I’m kidding, let’s go play some legos, kiddo.” Aaron laughed, easily picking up Kalia and walking over to this toy corner in the front of the living room.

“Okay, which one are we playing with today?” Aaron sat down with her on the colourful rug. “A new one!” Kalia beamed, reaching for a brand new set.

“Ooh that’s cool.” 

“Mommy got it for me. Christmas.” Kalia grinned.

“Oh, is it?” Aaron asked, squinting at the Hawaiian. Who only laughed and nodded, “Got her plenty.”

“Mama got me a squishy…thing.” Kalia continued, but then forgot what a Squishmallow was called. 

“I saw that one, honey.” Aaron nodded, matching her enthusiasm, “She got you the Stitch didn’t she?”

“Mhm.” The girl nodded happily, tearing open the cardboard box carefully. While Aaron and Kalia were having their fun, Janis was having a nice, quiet moment herself with Azalea. “How are things going? With the wedding planning?”

“Almost done.” Azalea grinned, “We’re gonna do it at the ranch. Kualoa.” 

“Nice.” Janis remarked, sipping on a guava nectar Hawaiian Sun. 

“Were you this nervous before your wedding?”

“Well, I wasn’t really nervous. For me it was disbelief, like— ‘wow, I’m actually going to be spending the rest of my life with someone as incredible as she is.’ She doesn’t think she’s perfect, but she is very much so in my eyes. Thing is, I knew deep down from the moment we met that she was the one. I just felt like no matter what, as long as we are willing to go through it together, we’d be okay. And we’ve been together fourteen years now? It’s crazy to even think about.” 

“I feel the same way about him. Like you said, everything feels right with him. I’m ready, but a lot of big feelings. You know?”

“Oh, I know.” Janis nodded, “You got it, everything will be fine. It’s normal to be a little nervous and a lot excited.” 

Azalea chuckled, looking over at Aaron laughing away with Kalia. “Seeing your partner with a kid is doing something to you, isn’t it?” Janis asked knowingly.

Azalea tried to bite back a laugh, almost blushing, “Yeah.” 

“y/n didn’t say it but her seeing me with Jace definitely contributed to her ultimate decision of going for the IVF.” Janis revealed.

“Really?”

“Yeah, you know she has a lot of stuff with…shitty parents.” Janis continued. Azalea nodded in understanding, “I know, yeah. She mentioned it quite awhile ago. And I mean, we all saw that dang show that woman put on at the wedding.” Azalea talked in a hushed voice at the end. “But I guess…she just saw something she really wanted. And decided to go for it, make it happen instead of letting her fears control her.” 

“I mean, he’s good with kids, he’s sweet and kind and caring so I know he’s going to be a great dad if we ever decide to start a family. We both want kids, but it’s also not easy for me to conceive. We went for a checkup.”

“Mommy?” 

Janis stopped whatever she was doing and looked at the girl, “Yeah, sweetie?”

“Can I have a snack?”

Janis turned the stove off, “Of course, help yourself.”

Kalia grinned, walking over to the pantry. Her usual snacks were placed on lower shelves now that she was old enough to ask for snacks when she wanted. Sometimes, you and Janis let her help herself to a light bite before meals. Right now, that girl was dragging Aaron everywhere she went if he wasn’t picking her up. “Can I have one too?” Aaron asked.

Janis nearly burst out laughing at that question. “Dude, are you asking me? Help yourself. You’re family now.” 

“That’s mineeee.” Kalia sulked, “It’s the last one.”

Aaron immediately gave the mini packet of fruit snacks to her, “Oh, I’m sorry. Here you go.” 

“Kalia, we’ll get more soon, okay?” Janis assured.

“Thank you.” Kalia smiled appreciatively. Aaron ultimately went for some macadamia nuts from the higher shelves instead, not wanting to dip into the kid’s snacks and upset her. “It’s fine, these are great. Let her have it.” Aaron laughed, walking back to the play area with Kalia on his shoulders. She was thrilled about it and quickly forgot about how uncle Aaron tried to take the last of one of her favourite snacks.

————

“Oh, look who finally rolled out of bed?” Janis teased when she saw you walk into the living area. You laughed, rubbing your eyes. “Hi, mama!” Kalia waved “Hi, baby. Ooh, the new Legos. Having fun?”

Kalia nodded excitedly, then was swiftly paying close attention to the set she was building and putting on the next piece. You continued making your way over to Janis, hugging her from behind and pressing a kiss to her cheek, “Hi.”

“Did you sleep good?”

You nodded, “And now I’m hungry.”

She chuckled, “We just ate. But I saved you some lunch. Sit down, I’ll get it for you.”

Janis finished washing the last dish then laid your food in front of you. “Thanks, Jan.” 

“No problem. Enjoy, honey.” 

“Where’s Lea?”

“Oh, she’s out back talking to her best friend on the phone. Something about a…boyfriend that dumped her.”

“On New Year’s Eve? Ass.” You answered in a whisper.

“Dude may be narcissist.” Janis pointed out, “Those kinds of people are always out to ruin people’s day. Especially holidays and significant events. As we know.”

You scoffed, “One sure ruined some big days for me. Anyway, are we gonna do anything today or like—”

“I was thinking about a memory capsule.” Janis began, “Like we put some stuff in a box and bury it somewhere, open it up some years later.” 

“Ooh.” You gasped, “That’s so sweet.”

“So you’re down?” 

“Oh, definitely. Count me in.” You agreed, “In fact, I think I know just what I’m putting in that capsule.”

“What?” She asked, curious as she sat down with you. Kaia walked over and sat on her lap, “Hiiii.”

“Hi, sweetie.” You smiled, digging into your food.

“Lego’s done.” She smiled back, “Mommy, can you help me put it? On the shelf?”

“Me?” Janis chuckled, stroking her hair, “You don’t want Mr. Tall Guy to do it?”

“No.” Kalia answered readily. Aaron laughed, he wasn’t even offended.

“Okay, sweetie. C’mon, to your room we go.”Janis couldn’t help but smile, Kalia basically just jumped onto her back. Janis smoothly held onto her so she was safe. You could hear them laughing and talking in Kalia’s room, and that brought a smile to your face as your mind drifted away for a moment. Aaron appeared opposite of you at the table. “Hey.” You blinked profusely to bring your eyes back into focus. 

“You good?” He asked with a chuckle but looked slightly concerned.

“Me? I’m fine, just had bad sleep the last few nights. Waking up too early, going to bed too late. Running after the kid’s been tiring me out, honestly. I’m not made for sporty stuff or outdoors.” You joked, “I’m an indoor person.”

“Oh we know.” Aaron snickered, “Work’s been stressing you out, I’m guessing?”

“Uh...” You scoffed, “I don’t make a lot and I guess I’m starting to worry because Janis and I were planning to move out to our own place by a certain time but we’re already behind. I think I feel bad for taking up Carl and Grace’s space for free.”

“I mean, you’re family. They have the space and they love that you guys are staying here. So, while I get what you’re saying, please don’t feel bad for staying at home.” 

“Wow.” You ate another mouthful of the musubi, then were reaching for the squeeze bottle of mayonnaise, “Never thought you’d be cheering me up, huh, Samuels?”

“Hey, we’re friends. Aren’t we? Well, family soon.”

“No, family already.” You corrected him, “How’s the little playdate going?”

“I love spending time with her, she’s so cute. I know it’s not going to be exactly the same…but good practice for me, you know? If me and Aza wind up having kids one day.”

You hummed, nodding in agreement, “She’s not dragging you around?”

“A little, but no biggie.” Aaron laughed, “I can handle it.”

“I’d be mad, but you’re right. Unlike me, you were a jock. I was a quiet freak.”

“Hey. Come on.” Aaron tutted.

Later, Janis disappeared into the backyard with Kalia. Then, Janis came back inside to talk to you. “I was thinking about going out for a bit with Azalea and her friend? Just to get her mind off things.” 

“Yeah, of course.” You nodded, “Have fun, we’ll be just fine, Jan.” 

“Okay, honey.” Janis smooched you on the cheek and gave you a hug, “I talked to Kalia, told her I’d be out for a little while, but I’ll buy her some fruit snacks since we’re already out of those.”

You chuckled, “Oh. Alright.”

“I’ll be back soon.” Janis smiled before she walked away to go get ready. 

Before Janis left the house, she gave you and Kalia a hug. So did Azalea. Then, you were back to your chores after a nice lunch. Kalia basically followed you around while you worked, chatting with you. 

“Mama, can we watch a movie together?”

“Of course, my love. Once I’m done cleaning the windows of this room, let’s watch something. Okay?”

Kalia grinned, “Okay, mama.”

There was about a minute of silence, then, “Can we watch Lilo & Stitch?” Excited, and hopeful, she looked at you.

“Sure, baby.” You smiled, ruffling with her hair. She laughed, “Yay.” Yeah it would seem that you’ve made her take a liking to that little blue alien. You and Janis have seen the movie at least once a week with Kalia, by the way. Janis was bored of it, you didn’t mind and just watched it to keep Kalia company. Both of you did. “Wanna go ask your uncle Aaron if he wants to join us?” You dropped the rag, turning your head to ask.

“Yes!” She nodded, you picked her up off the armchair and walked back into the living area where you saw Aaron on his phone. 

Turns out, Janis and Azalea spent quite some time at Azalea’s best friend’s place. The ex had claimed he wanted to come back to collect his things, but well, he got mad and almost violent. They all got away unscathed, but it was scary to get that voice memo update from Janis. You thought one of them got hurt. Aaron too, got a similar message from Azalea and he nearly freaked the hell out reading that her friend’s ex basically threatened the three of them. 

Aaron stepped away to call Azalea, and you remained on the couch holding onto the bowl of popcorn and snuggling with Kalia. She was blissfully unaware of the panic you and Aaron had, which was great. She was too young to be caught up in the grownups’ problems. He was still on the phone, saying bye to his fiancée when he walked back inside. The doorbell rang, you excused yourself, letting Kalia hold onto the snack.

You took a look in the peephole and saw who it was. The colour drained from your face as you cursed under your breath. Aaron thought it was weird that you were just standing there so he came up to you. “Who is it?”

“June.” You whispered.

“Go sit down, let me handle this.” He urged. 

“Oh! It’s you, did she finally leave that short ass art freak? For you?”

“Grow up.” Aaron scoffed, “Leave them alone. You literally could be arrested.”

“Go away!” Kalia saw her and immediately screamed, “You make my mama sad. I don’t like you!”

“How dare you all turn her against me?”

“No one turned anyone against you. You did that all by yourself.” Aaron answered factually. You didn’t even look at her once, just held Kalia closer to you. Aaron shut the door in her face and came back to the couch. The rest of the afternoon went fine, after the movie, you and Kalia went around the house to decide what to put in the memory capsule.

“What you putting in there, mama?” She asked curiously, still rummaging through her toy chest.

“This little thing.” You showed your item to her. It was a keychain version of the Squishmallow that Janis had won for you way back then at the carnival.

“Aw, but he’s cute.”

“I know, my love.” You chuckled, “It’s alright. I’ve got the big one that Mommy also got me.”

What did she decide to put in there? A Lego brick. Just one blue brick that she found in her toy chest, which you were certain it definitely somehow made its way in here instead of being in her big tub of Legos that she had. She claims that it was her favourite piece, but hey, who were you to judge? You remembered, well- there were photos of you at Kalia’s age taking an eventually wilted flower everywhere. And so, you two put your items aside and proceeded to do some colouring while waiting for Janis and Azalea to get home. Aaron’s taken over the TV for a bit, watching a movie while you and Kalia got busy with markers, crayons and a colouring book on the coffee table.  Janis came home with Azalea right around dinnertime, bearing takeout(and Kalia’s beloved fruit snacks). “You okay?” Aaron walked up to Azalea immediately. “I’m good, he didn’t stand a chance against her.” Azalea laughed, tilting her head towards Janis’ direction.

The afternoon’s unfortunate events were quickly forgotten when Janis brought up the memory capsule. Within minutes, the five of you were in the backyard with your chosen items when Carl and Grace returned home from work with Akoni trailing behind them. “Where is everybody?” Akoni asked. The TV was still going, playing an episode of Sesame Street.

“Backyard!” Janis hollered, and quickly, they all came out to the backyard and said they wanted to join in. At first, it was just going to be for you, Kalia and Janis. But you figured, the more the merrier. “I see we have quite a spread for dinner.” Akoni remarked. “We sure do.” Janis nodded, “So, why don’t we quit throwing leaves around and let’s head back inside for dinner?” You laughed, holding out your hand to help her up from the grass. Kalia got picked up by Azalea before the rest of them walked back into the house after you and Janis. 

With the table all set, you were all gathered around it and sat. You and Janis made sure Kalia ate most of her food first before either of you took the time to eat your own meal. Because the kid obviously had a way earlier bedtime. “We’ll be right back, you guys.” You told them, taking Kalia by the hand and heading into her room together with Janis to read her a bedtime story and tuck her in.

“Good night, my love.” You pressed a kiss to her forehead. Janis stroked her cheek, “Sleep tight, don’t let the bed bugs bite.” Kalia giggled, “Good night, mama. Good night, mommy.” Janis turned her nightlight on, and you flipped the wall switch for the main light, off. But, her bedroom door was left open. You and your family weren’t planning on having a noisy rest of the night, after all. Your nearest neighbours weren’t planning on setting off fireworks so you knew Kalia would sleep through any noise from residents slightly further away with little to no trouble. 

You all mainly snacked and had a few drinks while playing card and board games, leaving the TV on to watch the countdown and ring in the new year in about three hours. It was almost 9pm, and you too were ready to turn in. You were never much of a late sleeper. But nonetheless, you stayed awake, wanting to say hello to the new year with the love of your life right next to you. You stopped playing the games right around 10:30 and just leaned onto Janis while she continued.

“Wanna head to bed, honey?” She asked, noticing how quiet you’d gotten.

“No.” You murmured, snuggling closer anyway. She smirked, “It’s still gonna be awhile.” 

“I know.” You answered, “I wanna stay up until 12.” 

“Alright, if you want.” Janis laughed a little, running a hand through your hair. You didn’t tell Janis about June’s surprise visit. But Aaron let it slip, and you didn’t see it coming. Then Janis was worried. You didn’t want that.

“I’m fine, Janis. I didn’t even look at her, Aaron told her to go. Even Kalia did, and yelled that she hated her because she made me sad.” 

Janis forgets about the cards and just held you close while watching TV. Aaron, Azalea, Carl and Grace carried on playing— no questions asked. “She really is your mini me, Jan.” You laughed, leaning your head on hers, “Yelling at her with no hesitation? Took me years.” 

“I’m glad you’re okay.” Janis tilted your chin, “But yeah, it’s pretty amazing that Kalia’s so unapologetic about her opinions— especially on that person.” 

Yes, you were okay. Absolutely okay. And being able to be this calm was thanks to years and years of therapy to heal. When the clock struck twelve, you all clinked your glasses and drank a sip to celebrate the first day of the new year. After which, the living area was packed up and Aaron and Azalea were on their way home. While your uncle and aunty retreated to their room, you and Janis were also back in your own.  

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💬A/N: I didn't really like this one, but I felt like writing so🤠

[eldrbraus]

here we go again.

TWISTED WONDERLAND BOOK 7 CHAPTER 3 SPOILERS.

a small summary with the most important parts and not a dialogue translation. once again, dont trust me a lot on the dialogue parts as this is more of a general summary of what happened. also its a live reaction for the most part so its not exactly super coherent.

·we begin the chapter on idias room, and... ortho is calling him on his phone?

·idia is extremely confused because ortho is supposed to be with him at the nrc but apparently ortho is in the rsa...? hes a student there and its the day of the opening ceremony for both schools, huh! so apparently ortho is alive now. cool cool cool.

·this has to be a dream.

·idia is just as confused as we are honestly, it takes him a while to understand whats happening but everything seems to fall into place after a while

·oh he got a message from crimson muscle ;; they talk about games and something and basically still talk about how they are both going to an event tonight but wont connect the dots www

·they play all day until night and then idia puts on his robes and holy shit hes actually going to the ceremony himself and not by tablet lmao

·idia finds malleus on his way to the mirrors chamber and... malleus has his gao gao all grown up? even when the dragon cant technically do that, its weird. the both of them nerd a lot about the game and apparently idia and malleus have a really good relationship

·yeah this is most definitely a dream because malleus actually went to the ceremony and took the diasomnia students himself instead of lilia ww

·idia comes back to the dorm after all of that and talks with ortho again. apparently rsa is pretty similar to nrc [roomates are the same, theres dormleaders...], except people are actually nice in there www

·we switch pow to yuu/grim [yuu had the sleeping beauty vision just now, aurora was almost stung by the needle]

·they are in a different room in the ramshackle dorm? but they remember the whole thing with the overblot, unlike idia

·they are trying to get out but... apparently cant and now all the furniture is alive. what.

·if this is yuus dream im going to ask myself what the fuck was yuu smoking before they fell asleep honestly

·oh grim ate... something? [grim stop eating random shit i beg of you] and became a gigant but came back to normal after a little while

·yuu says that all of this made them remember what mickey said and... mickey appears ww [a friend told me that the music when mickey appears is... kingdom hearts music? no idea i didnt play the game]

·apparently yuu and grim are on mickeys... dream? dimension? no idea

·they all talk about a little bit of everything, about how yuu is trying to go back to their world, and apparently mickey doesnt have/uses magic so he also has no idea why the room is alive rn. ok great.

·mickey says that he only goes to that world when hes asleep, and now yuu is worried about that because if this is a dream... where the fuck is their body? in diasomnia still?

·a phone rings? and mickey disappears because hes waking up :(

·a lot of blot appears and theres like... a new type of monster and this mf has 50k HP help

·grim is slowly getting out of magic and wants to protect yuu but he cant, poor kitty

·holy shit silver appeared and rescued yuu and grim with... his UM! it got revealed! the name is “Meet in a dream”

·we switch pow to... ortho! who apparently is sleeping in his body BUT hes also on the internet because his consciousness is not tied up to his body ww. we kinda predicted this one

·ortho is trying to wake idia using all the devices on his room but nothing works. he goes around the island and everything is dark, full of thorns and blot and everyone, even the animals, are asleep :(

·apparently even time has stopped??? malleus is op as fuck, even ortho is worried about that

·he tries to contact STYX of course but all communications are just cut off from the exterior... my poor son is all alone

·he says something about an... anthena???? that hes gonna use to get into STYX... internet ig??? lmao something like that. he uses that to go to STYX via the internet apparently ww

·aand we switch pov to STYX where a man with a helmet is kind of nervous, with all the personel. so they do know about the whole thing already, huh

·holy shit they are saying everyone might be dead lmao. so negative-

·oh wait another character appeared, this time a woman with a helmet saying that they musnt lose hope just yet. im betting my everything they are idias parents.

·YUP. THEY ARE. damn the mom is a catgirl ww

·its a shame their heads are covered up

·ortho arrived! [its a call, ortho is not physically on STYX] god this is so cute we get a lot of famiy talk, the mom was so worried about both shroud brothers ;;

·ortho explains everything and something something, apparently the parents said that they should wait for malleus magic to run out but then they remembered that fae get their power from the nature so malleus magic could last forever and it could even EXPAND EVEN MORE. shit.

·they want to contact Briar Valley! cool, lets see those fae folk.

·ortho says “nam fam i got this” and that his parents need to make him new gear, and the mom refuses dsfkjbnsdjfknd she says its too dangerous but ortho said he would take the cerberus with him if they dont do it. bitch if that was my mother i would be SO grounded. the mom agrees after ortho disappears but shes that she will remember this ww

·some time pases and the gear is ready so ortho comes back and the mom yells at him that he shouldnt have hang up the call because you cant hung up your mom like that WWWW.

·the mom told ortho to not tell idia about the fact that she can get into idias pc anytime she wants [because she used that to get the new ortho gear blueprint], but he tells her that idia will know the moment ortho appears in front of him with his gear WWWWWWWWWW why are they so funny help

·orthos mind gets into the gear and hes now physically in STYX on his new body... aww the shroud hug and the parents tell him that both of the shroud brothers are their children even if ortho is an android and to be careful im going to fucking cry.

·we are back to silver/yuu/grim pov and after silver helped them, they are just... fucking falling down from the sky what the fuck

·silver made an spell so they fall to the ground without dying ww

·they are in diasomnia now, and silver says that this is all a dream but that he doesnt know whos person is. apparently he has seen mickey before on his dreams, which he finds weird because his UM can only make him go to the dreams of people he knows

·smth smth about exams, not really important

·silver comments how he cant choose the dream hes going to end up in, but that he can find out because a bird (?) flies next to the host of the dream, and... soon they find sebek with a bird (?) so this is sebeks dream

·silver is taken by sebek to a party they are doing because lilia and malleus finally choose where are they going in their fourth year...? grim asks if this is the farewell party for lilia again, because of the whole “he doesnt have magic now” and sebek is super offended that grim thinks lilia doesnt have magic now WWWWW

·malleus is going to do his fourth year to the country of heroes (?) and lilia to the country of the crimson dragon, silver asks lilia if he would go back to their house once his fourth year is done and lilia says of course because thats his home ;;

·silver cant take it anymore and said that this is all a farce, a dream... and that he would like for lilia to go back to this house with him but he doubts lilia will be alive by then holy shit silver ;;;;;

·he tells sebek to remember everything and that this is not reality but no one listens to him. he keeps going on this and malleus completely loses it uh

·he screams that he knows the three of them are awake and that they shouldnt try and ruin (?) the dreams and 

·sebek goes to defend malleus and challenges silver to a fight! nooooooo my son ;;

·while they fight sebek begins to remember everything and finally sees malleus overblot so he stops

·the four of them wake up and fight overblot malleus once again, but once again they lose and... silver asks the three of them to hold his hand (sebek complained about it but did it anyways), screen goes black

·apparently malleus tried to make them sleep more deeply so they wouldnt wake up this time, and its working because silver is having a hard time trying to use his magic... but the ring that lilia gave him is shining in the dark! so he follows that and

·the four of them appear in a forest... wait its the sleeping beauty forest! so this has to be briar valley!

·suddenly soldiers appear, with masks... they are 100% fae because they are talking in a language only sebek understands ww

·PAST LILIA APPEARED IT HAS TO BE HIM BECAUSE HE IS SMOL AND HAS THE RED-BLACK HAIR HELP [he has a mask so we cant see his face!]

·he told them “shut up, humans” so mean.... its confirmed that they are on lilias dream...

and the fucking chapter ends. HELP. how am i supposed to wait months for more this was so shorttttt ;;

and lilia looked so good in that outfit FUCKKK I NEED MORE.

[archivxx]

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You lay sprawled out on the couch. Your head thrown back at an awkward angle, Nicole’s legs thrown over yours haphazardly. Bebe was cuddled into your side. You’d woken up quite suddenly, you had no concept of time or the ability to move your joints. You can’t even recall the time when you fell asleep, or even started to feel tired.

You craned your neck to look around the room. There was multiple booze bottles scattered around. The more you looked at the bottles the more the memories of last night began to creep back in. You couldn’t help but smile. You felt so incredibly grateful to have the two girls that were passed out next to you. They had managed to pull you out of the pit of overthinking that had caused you to shut away again.

You grabbed you phone to check your socials only to be met with a battery symbol. You rolled your eyes at the inconvenience and untangled yourself from the bodies on you. You trudged over to your bedroom and put your phone on charge before carelessly throwing it on the bed. Seeing your bed and feeling the extreme ache in your neck, it would of been nice to sleep in your bed. However, you thought better of it. Since you were up, you’d cook the girls some breakfast as a thank you. They’d saved you from your thoughts once again. They were like your guardian angels.

You trudged back out to the kitchen and opened the fridge, starting to scan the contents. You found some bacon so you grabbed that. You looked around the small kitchen until you found some bread. You went back to the fridge and grabbed the butter.

You cooked them both some bacon and made them both a bacon sandwich each. When you walked into the sitting room-which was technically also the kitchen-to deliver their food, you found them both watching the TV.

“Hey I made you both bacon sandwiches! Just how you both like them.” Both of their heads whipped around to you. You gave them both their plates and they practically inhaled their food.

“God I could eat like…fifteen of these.” Bebe hummed in agreement to Nicole’s statement. While they finished off you went into your room to check on your phone.

You picked it up and turned it on, a flood of notifications coming through. But there was only two that caught your eye.

And they read; “two missed calls from Kyley B”

You felt your heart physically squeeze. What would he want now? You stared at your phone for an exaggerated amount of time. You couldn’t formulate any real thoughts. You pondered why he’d called you briefly before you saw red.

How dare he? You were furious. How dare he mock you to your face then call you like it was nothing? You let out an exasperated sigh and opened your phone. You clicked on your messages only to be met with 3 texts from Kyle on top of the 2 phone calls. You rolled your eyes involuntarily and opened the texts.

You couldn’t believe he was actually apologising.

You wanted to laugh. You wanted to laugh and laugh until there was not a laugh left in your body. The fact of the matter was that nothing was funny, yet some how this was the funniest thing in the world to you. You weren’t too sure what you actually found funny. Maybe it was that he was apologising after he expressed his dislike towards you. Maybe it was that you were still a little tipsy from last night. Maybe it was the fact it seemed like he actually cared about your well-being.

You organised your thoughts and calmed down however you still couldn’t think of a single response for him so instead your opted for leaving him on read and would reply when you had a response. You’d get round to it eventually.

You dropped your phone back on your bed and walked back out plopping between Bebe and Nicole. They both exchanged a look before turning to you.

“What happened?” Nicole asked. You looked at her like she was crazy as words of denial fell past your lips. She rolled her eyes “oh come on Y/N you know you can’t hide anything form us.” Her tone was very matter-of-fact because she knew she was stating a fact. You couldn’t hide anything from them which is why you decided accept an easy defeat.

You huffed and rolled your eyes before putting it simply “Kyle text me apologising.” This seemed to catch them both off guard. Bebe moved slightly to be facing you more while Nicole sat still staring at you. It seemed they were in the same predicament you had just been in. Kyle really apologised?

“Well you answered him right?” Bebe sputtered at you. You shook you head, you could feel her growing irritation and knew you’d love to regret allowing her to know you had left him on read. “Go. Answer him.” She sounded stern and you were about to protest when the mood shifted from calm to tense. You decided to take your friends advice. You sighed as she opened her mouth to talk, cutting her off.

You got up and stomped back into your room like a child who had just been told off. You grabbed your phone off your bed and replied. Only seconds later he started typing.

Masterlist

[greythroat]

There were a strange amount of entities in this forest that wanted to kill Ethan and Kevin. You know, the usual: dogs, slugs, random guys, horror movie villains, Scaramouche AI bots, Persian cats on the toxic gossip train, the single sauceless chicken finger Cane’s thinks people want.

I’d rather get NOTHING than a single sauceless finger.

But with 5000 Inspiration ATK and DEF thanks to the like 200 Wonyoung photocards Kevin was carrying, they were able to kill literally everything in their way. Except flying things. Those they just ran away from. They even robbed the duck and bear a few times.

“So why the fuck are we killing everything?” Ethan said after the second ridiculously easy fight, where they dispatched Boyfriend Scaramouche, Mafia Scaramouche, Stepbrother Scaramouche, Catboy Scaramouche… you get the message. “Do you secretly have rocket-powered robot legs or something?”

“No. It must be because of this,” Kevin said, holding up the photocard binder. “I didn’t know it would do this. When I bought it, I only knew that it must have come from… where I fell into from the hole.”

“Oh. What was up with that? How did you get back?” With a flick of his yoyo, Ethan casually garroted Omegaverse Scaramouche.

“After I fell into the hole, I had visions of another world. Similar to Terra, yet not. It was a lot. And in part of my vision, I saw this girl.” Kevin opened the binder and pointed at Wonyoung. “After that, I woke back up in Terra and joined up with Patriot. But, uh, you know what happened to him. Anyway, when I saw a guy selling this binder, I knew there was something special about it.”

“Man… this must be what Swire used to clone herself.”

“Sorry. What??”

“Oh, yeah, that happened. Swire cloned herself and the clone stayed at Rhodes, but then the original showed up at the Rhodes job fair and got murdered by the clone. I saw the whole thing because I was there for the food.” Unlike those flops who were there because they were dead on arrival and had a use rate of like 0.00001%, Ethan was actually useful. None of those other Ambushers could permabind an enemy. E2 M3 and mod3 your Ethan today! It’s cheaper than making Mizuki feel decent.

“Sorry… what????”

“Hello I am hot young female demon yandere Sarkaz woman from Arknights how are you my sexy boys” Both of them turned around to see that one Sarkaz lady. She had gigantanormous titties each the size of her head and a BBL that would make Closure fall to the ground crying.

“I think… we’re good,” Kevin said.

“Can I ask you a question?” The Sarkaz woman smirked smirkily and smirkily.

Occasionally, they were accosted by the merchant Cannot, who kept trying to sell things to them and get them to make investments. They refused the majority of his wares, and Cannot had a lot of random stuff to try and sell.

“But it gives 30 ASPD to Specialists,” Cannot said, holding up a book. Behind him was a Meebo, a pair of sunglasses, and a literal pile of shit, all of which had been rejected.

“Nah, seriously man,” Ethan said. “We just need to get to Rhodes Island.”

“But you’re on the fifth floor,” Cannot replied.

“What?”

“I mean, you’re about to cross into Rusthammer territory, and they don’t take kindly to intruders.”

After a moment of deliberation, Ethan and Kevin said yes to the 30 ASPD. They bought a couple other things, though none of the buffs applied to Kevin since he was neither technically allied or an Operator. They said goodbye to Cannot and continued onwards towards Rhodes.

A few miles out from Rusthammer land, they saw Ceobe asleep(?) under a tree.

“Wait here, I’ll go talk to her,” Ethan said to Kevin. “If she sees you she might kill you instantly.”

He went over to Ceobe and confirmed that she was alive, but heavily stoned.

“Wow, you’re here too? How long has it been since I beat those bad guys?” Ceobe wondered, stretching off the effects of seven Valiums. She was wearing an Easter egg colored Ralph Lauren polo shirt— okay, that’s enough of that. WITH THE PONY LOGO!

“Dunno. I just got here.”

“Well, I should go beat them up again! I’ll make sure they don’t come back this time.” She ran across the field towards Rusthammer, carrying 5 axes, 3 spears, 10 knives, 1 gun, 4 grenades, and a little black crown that hadn’t done anything for her. And that was just what was visible.

Ethan ran back to Kevin. Now was their chance. With Ceobe occupying Rusthammer, they ran for it and finally made their way to Rhodes.

[spesphire]

( tragedy)

It was nothing more than a dream.

But something felt so vividly real, it was hard to forget. Him holding me oh so tightly and saying, “you sure you want this? There is no turning back. Promise me you want this and you want me. Promise me you won’t let go and love me through my worse.” I didn’t let him go. I kept holding him tightly without any regrets. And then we kissed. I woke up to my bittersweet dream. In a dream where we were having conversations about stuff. Me knowing I fell for him first, but he fell harder. Oh wow, such a quirky drama that dream was. I woke up with a nauseating feeling. My roommate was awake the whole night studying. I feel fell asleep because I felt tired and, well, suicidal. SHE DIDN’T SLEEP THE WHOLE NIGHT AND I DIDN’T STUDY THAT WELL! My food had gone bad. Which I was technically saving up till December. I got seemingly bad grades in math test. Nothing is going in my way, so how the freak am I supposed to calm down and study. It’s a war in my head. It’s all too much for me. I failed my bio test and I told my parents for the third time I want to kill myself. I’m a God Awful daughter. Oh, yeah, I have the busiest lab of the semester today and a chem midterm tomorrow. Don’t know how that’ll go. 

Oh yeah, the labs. Where they expect me to know everything and where this bitch owing my name ends up putting me in disadvantages.

Oh life, my life.

Everything would be so much better if I killed myself. No money for my parents to spend, no uncertain future, no crying till you feel numb enough to fall asleep, no midterms, no being a disappointment and oh my what life.

I feel sick. Like my heart's about to burst out if I don’t do something with it. No one to heal me. Well, even if they do heal me, it just doesn’t do anything. Sometimes it’s best to lie about my miserable state. Lie that I’m fine and I can do this. A lie that I tell myself and my family pretty often. It hurts. Everything hurts. Like how having a crush hurts. Hurts to know that no one, including that silly crush, will ever love me like that.

Hurts to be all alone, even though my favorite people say you aren’t alone.

Well, I was born alone and most probably die alone. I want to ask for help, but I can’t. Even when I get the help, it ends up being a blob of nothing.

Sorry for this rant. Thought I was going to write a fictional book based on my dream but look what it leads to.

My roommate is like 5 years younger than me and achieving more than me. 

I mean, I wouldn’t feel bad about it, but it’s my mother who makes sure I don’t feel great about it. Something about success means so much to her. To the point, I see ‘successes’ as a successful elder sister my mom loves the most. And I’m abandoned and constantly compared with her.

My mother is a whole different character to study. Sometimes I see her as the good witch. Even if she’s good, she is still a witch. Manipulation, base-minded, offensive, abused, unhappy for the good days ‘cause there’s no point of it and lastly psychotic in nature (sometimes).

Maybe that’s just every mother.

Or maybe, just perhaps, it’s only my mother.

The pages of feels is about to end. I must go back to my studying. My excuses are too much, but they are still invalid somehow.

Saying that everyone feels the same. It’s really normal.

I remember how bluntly the student advisor told me to drop my course that day. How bluntly she said, “it’s all over for you, try again next time.” Well, she didn’t say these exact words, but that was the summary of it. Huh, guess that’s what happens when you pressure the girl to become what she doesn’t want to become. A microbiologist. In my dreams, possibly.

The thing is, I don’t hate studying. I freaking love studying and doing homework. But the exams and evaluation is where I fuck up. Very badly, actually. I’m a girl who doesn’t want to taste defeat but gets defeated every time.

It’s just the beginning, and I’m really not sure how can I go on.

Along with my thoughts to end it all is scary enough. 

Hey.

I just want to live with a peaceful mind. I just want to function and do my studies like a normal freaking person. Making my parents proud seems good enough.

[lemonade2705]

okay i have a really fucking bad story that made me very anxious and after that aggressive

my sorta? friend called me to hang out in the afternoon and i was very late and came to the wrong place so the whole thing was a mess in the beginning but that's nothing new

we were bored, he got a little drunk and decided we gotta go to the other side of the city to visit a friend of ours. i agreed and we got on. the mf fell asleep and i even woke him up at the right station but he said that it's not the one and fell back asleep (don't blame him but mate is hella unreliable) and we banter a lot, not too much but a reasonable amount for people who sit on discord at 5am and argue about whether to show me how he plays dota 2 or not while throwing metal pipes in the soundboard

anyways we got to the last station and walked until we got tired and took another bus back AND MISSED OUR FUCKING STOP AGAIN but that's a story for another day

at the same time a friend of ours was asking if she could come too. we could technically be called best friends because we talk mostly to eachother but we both don't like the term so we don't use it

she arrives, i take the guy im with to the station that she will be on by foot (he didn't want to go at all), she arrives and starts fucking bullying me. relentlessly. it happens every time we're not alone, another person - boom, my boundaries aren't a thing, i dont have feelings, i cant be hurt by words. i asked her why she did it and refused to have a normal conversation to which she had the fucking guts to look me in my two eyes and say "because there's nothing interesting about you except making fun of you" this bitch wrote me a letter on my birthday about me being one of the most interesting people she ever met and i really don't want to know which one was the lie because i might not like the answer

we get on the bus, i confuse everyone accidentally and we ride in the wrong direction, i even fucking pay for their tickets back and they are STILL mad at me and call me stupid

and i have to sit through even more relentless fucking belittling and being told that im boring than before but now the guy sits in the other sit and there's basically just two of us and she keeps fucking going! she keeps the facade up

we get off the bus early and without the other friend and while we walk back to the mall we wanted to go we actually have fun! holy fuck!

this hurts so much because i really don't understand what the implications are and why does she treat me like this

[birbs89]

Smiths last hurrah

I got into writing and when I say got back I mean just sitting in class and writing when I'm done with work but gonna upload them at random gonna do this one first pretty proud of it ngl I guess you could this and the others ones creepypastas I guess? and here's a description and tws so ya enjoy this! :]

descriptions: A man named Smith gets ready for his talent show playing the trumpet! but when he does go on stage and plays his worst fear comes true

tws:suicide shotgun gun implied gore yellling mocking insulting hearing voices in head (technically I guess idk)

chapter 1: fears come true

The date was 2007 and Smith was getting ready for his big show, a show he had been preparing and waiting for over months, the show being a talent show and he was the main star and he would be playing the trumpet at this show which he was very good at but he had to prove this Infront of an entire room full of people so he got himself cleaned up and headed up onto stage. After he had started playing he got a reaction from the crowd he was not expecting but feared they had started booing him throwing trash, drinks, and other things while also insulting him and those insults got louder and louder in his mind as they continued it felt like every single voice was one big laugh at him and soon he broke covering his eyes crying and running off and out of the auditorium and back home. As he ran home he could still hear those voices the insults they said looped over in his mind "you suck get off stage" "why did they let a worthless guy like you on stage" "you should just stop now before you embarrass yourself anymore" "your nothing" until he got home and running straight up to his room throwing his trumpet in the trash and curling up on his bed sobbing until he fell asleep. But even in his sleep he couldn't escape what happened that night he relieved it again and again and again and again everyday even the newspaper even mocked him by their headline "worthless untalented guy makes town into embarrassment" his coworkers were hurling insult after insult telling him that he's ruining their company and that he was the reason they were failing. Until one of his friends came by worried about his mental health after not seeing him for days since the incident at the talent show.

chapter two: one last chorus

Tim his friend had come to his house to check on him since he hadn't seen him in days and with what happened at the talent show he was worried about his mental state and after finding the front door was unlocked he let himself in and up the stairs to Smith's room where it was trashed looks to be from Smiths anger outburst form what happened and at the end of the room stood Smith. And when he said hello Smith turned to face him and he looked horrible huge bags under his eyes from lack of sleep. A look of complete sadness mixed with anger he said "what are you doing here come to insult me like the others?" "No, I'm worried about you Smith! I haven't seen you in days and with what I heard happened I wanted to check if your ok and by the looks of it your not" "who cares who's gonna notice anyway no even cares they all just either stare at me or point and laugh" "but you were great you don't have to b- "NO I was horrible I made an embarrassment out of the town and the company and now look at it the company it's failing and there all blaming it on ME" "no that isn't your fault you made no one look like any kind of embarrassment you actually made it look good!" "stop pitying me, it's not going to do anything or help" "but I'm not I ju- "SHUT UP GODDAMMIT!" and then he snapped it started when smith grabbed at his hair tugging and pulling as he heard the booing mocking and insulting he heard at the performance it got louder and louder it got worse with each passing second until he couldn't take it anymore with all the anger sadness and despair he screamed at the top of his lungs until his throat started to hurt "WHY CAN'T ANYTHING GO RIGHT FOR ME" "WHAT DID I DO TO THEM TO ANYONE I NEVER DID ANYTHING TO THEM" "THEY THINK THEY CAN MOCK ME" "BUT NOW" Tim watched in horror as Smith grabbed a shotgun from his bedside dresser loading and pointing it to his face. "THIS TIME I'LL SHOW THEM WHO THEY'VE BEEN MOCKING" "ONE LAST CHORUS ONE LAST ENCORE THEY WILL SCREAM MY NAME" and with that he pulled the trigger #BANG# The shotgun obliterated the front of his face, his body falling backward and a thump as he landed on the floor. Tim could only scream in horror as his best friend killed himself because of some stupid performance he immediately grabbed the phone and dialed 911.

[lostmyria]

Treasure of the (Vampire) Duke's Family?! By realfakedokja (wordcount 480,792)

When Kim Rok Soo fell asleep while reading, he did not wake up in Cale Henituse's body. In some ways, this changed nothing. In other ways, it changed everything.

What happened to slacking off and farming? By Edzz227 (wordcount 8,907)

Choi Han needs a sparring partner. And this time, just this once, Cale agrees. Unfortunately, Choi Han had fun during the spar and asked for another. And another. And another. And before Cale himself could even realize it, their sparring matches had become a regular thing between them. ‘Dammit, what happened to slacking off and farming?’ | Basically Cale uses the skills he used to have as Kim Rok Soo to spar with Choi Han. Occasionally cheating by predicting his movements with his record. *** | Current chap: “I bet 30 gold coins the Molans get to them first.” Alberu slammed a small bag of coins onto the table. Smiling widely at the silver haired little girl. “Ten gold, saying otherwise.” She countered.

Here I'll Stay by RandomCrayon (wordcount 17,430)

In all honesty, Cale had intended to keep the thoughtless promise to On that he would be there when she woke up from her nap. After all, he’s not such trash that he would lie to a child, a sick one no less. Yet here he was. A liar, apparently. ‘What did I do to deserve this.’ Was all Cale could think as he stared at the stone wall ahead of him. The chains on his wrists were awfully tight. OR Cale and Hong are snatched away while looking after On who had fallen sick that morning. With a sick kitten and now two of their own taken, the rest of the group are finally pushed beyond the edge of rationality and decide excessive violence is the only promising solution.

So this is the world by Ferret_in_a_lake (wordcount 15,456)

“The test starts with the birth of your eldest friend, my child,” explains the Sealed God. But the thing is, Cale’s eldest friend is technically the Super Rock, who had been an old man by the time the Ancient Times were declared over. Meaning that Cale has to relive every single day since the Super Rock’s birth to the day he entered the temple. The toddler in front of him lets out a cheer as a couple rocks move by his command, and Cale swallows a sigh. Three years down, ten thousand to go… This was going to be a long test. Alternatively, the Sealed God's test goes a little differently. Or, well, a lot differently.

Golden Memories by BlueTeller (wordcount 2,584)

Eruhaben receives a divine revelation shortly before he meets Cale. He's... less than pleased about it. Yet he finds out it was actually relevant, some time later. (An AU concept which doesn't change a lot – but it changes the relationship between Cale and Eruhaben on a fundamental level.)

Questions by Blame_GoD (wordcount 15,841)

Just after meeting Eruhaben for the first time, Cale, his allies and some other colorful people are sucked into a large room with a black screen. While seeing many familiar faces, there are also many unfamiliar to the red-head, those of which he had yet to read about past the first 5 volumes of [The Birth of a Hero]. The screen flickers on as words scroll across [Welcome to the trivia room!! ><] [I am system and will guide you on your trivia journey to learn some new tidbits that could potentially save your lives! If you get the questions right, you get to see a sneak peek of the future! If you get it wrong, you see the past that you didn't know!! How fun right!?! Yay!! I'll be cheering for you!! *^_^*] 'What a terrible thing' Cale thought.

Honestly, any of Blueteller's or Vodkassassin's works are really good, so I would recommend checking out their profiles.

I got caught up with lcf part 2 ♥️😭. I need fics and I have been away from AO3 in a while. What are your recommendations???

Let me know!

[messers-moony]

Annotated Books & Sleek Hardcovers | R.B

Paring: Regulus Black X Fem!Lupin!Reader

Summary: Everything told them to be apart, but they said fuck the world.

Inspiration: Click

People would describe the younger Lupin sibling as warm and bright. She shined like the sun and was warm like a sunny summer day. She was the breeze on a warm summer day and the sun on a chilly autumn morning. She was worn books with annotations in the margins, highlighting, and scribbles. She was dependable, sweet, kind, and loving. 

Dependable like a best friend. Sweet like Honeydukes chocolate. Kind of like a puppy dog who had been just adopted and as lovable as soft blankets. Her brother was no different. He oozed shyness, charisma, and intelligence. His tousled sandy hair and gleaming green eyes made everyone bend to his will. He didn’t even know that he was doing it. 

But by fifth year, Remus Lupin had come out as gay. A month later, Sirius Black was on top of the Gryffindor table with a blushing Remus announcing their relationship. Remus had given his sister a sheepish look as he sat back down. Y/n had just kissed his cheek and smiled. 

Y/n and Regulus had been sitting beside each other when Sirius had taken the Great Hall by storm. Instinctively, Regulus tightened his grip on her hand, and Y/n allowed her thumb to run along his. She watched as his shoulders relaxed a prominent amount. 

“Well,” Regulus whispered, “I wasn’t expecting that. Did you know?”

Y/n shook her head, “No, but I’m happy for them. Are you?”

“I ‘spose.” Regulus shrugged, “When do you think they’ll find out about us?”

“Remus is a bit oblivious.” Y/n replied, “Sirius doesn’t really turn his head in your direction.”

Regulus looked down at his lap, “So if anything, we’ll have to tell them.”

“Do you think,” His voice was lower than a whisper, “That he’ll ever be my brother again?”

“I do.” Y/n leaned her head on his shoulder, “Siblings have a special bond.”

“I hope you’re right.”

She snorted, “I’m always right.”

At that, he cracked a smile. 

Maybe it was her warmth that melted the ice surrounding Regulus’ heart. The icy, cold, Regulus Black. It wasn’t like they were hiding their relationship, but people were terrified to talk about it. They didn’t want to face the wrath of the young Black brother. 

Regulus was described as the dark, cold winter nights people despised. The winter nights that were so low in temperature that even staying inside with the heat on, blankets on, and layers of clothes couldn’t warm. He was sleek, hardcover books and soggy leaves in the fall that left you disappointed when the satisfying crunch didn’t echo through your ears. 

Regulus Black was everything but warm. He was your least favorite color. Your least favorite food. He was everything you hated. Perhaps it was Y/n’s sweetness that brought some of the crunchiness back to his leaf, the pen to his book, and the folded pages. 

They were star-crossed lovers. Everything in the universe was trying to keep them apart from the colors of their robes and the clashing of their personalities. Regulus was the dry autumn and brash winter. Y/n was the prospering spring and hopeful summer. Perhaps they were the best of both worlds, and that’s why they worked together so well. 

It wasn’t until their sixth year when their relationship had become the talk of the school. Regulus had begun wearing long sleeves even in the hot months, and people grew suspicious. Only he and she knew what laid beneath that crisp white button-up. Beneath the cold ice he kept around his heart. 

Y/n looked around Platform Nine and Three-Quarters for her raven-haired boyfriend as Remus joined his friends on the train. When she did find him, it wasn’t pleasant. Walburga had been fussing with his sleeve, making sure it stayed down, and she had slapped the back of his head for slouching over. Regulus had rolled his shoulders to stand up straight. Orion didn’t look impressed, and Walburga murmured something along the lines of, “Good enough.”

“Now, what do we say, Regulus?”

Regulus caught Y/n’s eyes for just a split second, and he looked away hastily, “Toujours Pur.”

“Good.” Walburga stated, “Now go.”

He nodded and began walking toward Y/n’s general direction. Regulus took her hand in his directing her on another path, “Meet at our usual compartment.”

Y/n gave him a smile in response as she walked away. It left Regulus with a pink hue coating his usually pale skin. His stomach fluttered, and his heart palpitated. They entered the train on opposite sides and met in the middle at their compartment. She was already sitting down when he plopped down beside her. His head was leaning on her shoulder. 

“Missed you.” Regulus slurred, sleep evident in his tone, “Wish I could’ve escaped.”

“I missed you too, Reggie.” Y/n took his left hand in hers, “But I know that we have a lot to talk about.”

He tensed, “I suppose we do.” 

“Things like what’s on your left forearm?”

“Y/n, please-“

“I’m not mad.”

“But you’re disappointed.”

Her light laugh confused him, “I’m not either, actually.”

Regulus lifted his head to look at her, “You aren’t?”

“I just want to know what you plan on doing with that mark.”

“I don’t have a choice.” Regulus stated, slumping down again, “I have to serve him.”

Y/n hesitated, “You have choices.”

“What are they?”

“Be a spy.” 

“A spy?” Regulus queried incredulously, “Are you serious?”

A silly smile graced her features, “Actually. Forget I asked that. Are you daft?”

“No.” Y/n replied, “I’m actually top of our class, so.”

“If he finds out I’m a spy. Then I’d be killed, Y/n.” Regulus said softly, “It’d be different if I didn’t care about anyone. If I had nothing to lose, but I do, and I don’t want to lose a chance at a future with you because of it.”

Y/n took his face into her hands, “You can’t do this. You can’t work for him. You’ll kill yourself slowly anyway.”

“I don’t have a choice.” He wiped a tear from her cheek, “This was bound to happen. This was my fate.”

“Who gives a shit about fate.” Y/n chuckled tearfully, “Professor Trelawney always said that you could change fate.”

Regulus cracked a tiny smile, “You would pay attention in Divination, wouldn’t you.”

“Someone’s gotta give Sirius the notes.” 

“Sirius… I didn’t even think about-“ Regulus stopped, “He’s- He’s gonna hate me.”

“Hey, Regulus, look at me.” His breathing sped up, and his hands began to tremble, “Sirius isn’t going to hate you.”

He shook his head, “No, he’s- he’s gonna- I’m gonna-“

Y/n wrapped her arms around him. Regulus nosed at the crook of her neck, breathing in the sweet perfume. The fragrance smelt of crisp apples mixed along with her scent of caramel, chocolate, and marshmallow. It gave him something to focus on, and with his muddled mind, Regulus fell asleep. 

Regulus was still asleep three hours later when Sirius came barging into the compartment stopping in his tracks. Y/n brought her index finger to her lips, ordering him to be quiet. Sirius shut the door and sat in front of them. Regulus’ face was out of view from his older brother's. His nose was nuzzled in Y/n’s neck, and his hair hid his face. 

“So,” Sirius began quietly, the atmosphere had never been so thick, “How long?”

“Fourth year.” Y/n thought Sirius’ eyes were going to bulge out of his head. 

“But you- and him- you don’t-“

“Don’t belong together?”

Sirius nodded, “Who are you to say? Technically I could say the same about you and my brother.”

“Fair point.” Sirius muttered. 

It was quiet again, and all that was heard was the slashing of rain on the window of the train, “How- How is he?” Sirius’ voice had never been so quiet before. 

“He’ll be okay.”

“What’s that suppose to mean?”

Before Y/n could respond, Regulus began to tremble again. He was trying to dig his nose deeper into her neck and reaching desperately for something to hold onto. Y/n allowed his hand to grasp hers tightly. His trembling subsided, and Y/n gently kissed the crown of his head, allowing him to relax finally. 

“How did you do that?”

“Do what?”

“I never-“ Sirius looked shocked, “I could never calm his nightmares….”

Y/n gave him a soft smile, “Perhaps it’s a Lupin talent.”

“Perhaps.” Sirius replied, “But, is he okay?”

“He will be.”

“What does that mean?” Sirius questioned loudly, and Y/n hushed him, “They didn’t- did they?”

She nodded solemnly, “We’re gonna- We’re gonna work through it together.” 

Sirius could see her swallowing the lump in her throat. Sirius could see the dullness in her eyes, the same dull that Remus’ eyes got after the full moon. Sirius could always read Remus through his eyes. They were a tell-tale of his emotions. It seemed that he could do the same with Y/n. Her eyes glistened with unshed tears, untold trauma, and unspoken words. 

“Take care of him, yeah?” Sirius requested quietly as he stood up to leave the compartment. 

She nodded, “Yeah.”

He closed the sliding door quietly. It was a quiet walk back to his own compartment with the Marauders. The task of getting the summer homework to copy turned into an entirely new adventure. Sirius opened the door to his compartment to find James and Peter talking animately. Remus sat with his head against the glass and head in a book. He had some muggle markers beside him that Sirius liked to draw with. 

Sirius slumped beside Remus putting space between them. That was the first tell. The second tell was that Sirius didn’t speak, and he stared out to the train's hallway. Remus closed his book, placing it back beside him, and wrapped his arm around his boyfriend's shoulders. 

“What’s wrong?” His voice was low and hot in Sirius’ ear. 

“Nothing.” Sirius replied, still not looking into Remus’ eyes, “Your sister was no help. Said I needed to do the homework on my own. Said I was a tosser for not doing it.”

Remus snorted and nuzzled his nose into Sirius’ cheek, “Well, perhaps I ought to tell her that’s not how she should speak to my boyfriend.” 

“No.” Sirius hated how distant he sounded, “She’s got other things to worry about.”

The lycanthrope furrowed his eyebrows, “Like what?”

“Like you.” Sirius lied like it was nothing, “Who do you think puts hot cocoa and Honeydukes chocolate at your bedside after the full?”

“Then I should give her a sister of the year award.” Remus corrected, and Sirius nodded, “Perhaps you should.”

If only I could get a best brother award, Sirius thought. It was selfish. He knew that. It was wrong to envy Y/n and Remus’ relationship. Unfit to be jealous of his brothers relationship, but he couldn’t help it. Sirius wanted to be the one to chase all of Regulus’ demons away. Sirius wanted to hold him during every thunderstorm as he used to as children. Sirius should be happy for Regulus even if it weren’t because of him. 

It took a month before Remus was storming into the common room and yelled insanities at his sister. Remus wasn’t thinking, words fell from his mouth so carelessly, and the entire common room stared as Remus had his sister pushed against a wall, hands holding her up from the collar on her shirt, seething at her. 

“You must be one of the stupidest people I’ve ever met.” Remus seethed, and Y/n flinched, “You must be fucking insane.”

Sirius could do nothing but stare, “Maybe I should’ve disowned you as my sister the minute I saw you hanging out with him.”

Tears ebbed at Y/n’s eyes, “But I gave you the benefit of the doubt. I trusted you, and you betrayed me.”

James couldn’t tell what was worse, the fact that Remus was so calm and his voice was so low or when Remus yelled, “You were my everything. My sister, my partner in crime, my other half, and you fucking destroyed it.”

“Mate, stop.” James tried to interject, but Remus just shoved her against the wall harder, and streaks of silver appeared on her cheeks. 

“Wonder what dad would do if he found out.” Remus taunted, and Y/n shook her head, “You know how much dad despises them.”

Y/n choked, “Remus-“

“Don’t.” He snarled, “My name isn’t allowed to fall from your mouth. Fucking traitor.”

Sirius had enough, “Remus, stop. That’s enough.”

Remus whirled around, Y/n sliding to the floor, knees to her chest, “Who are you talk? You did the same thing back in fifth year.”

“I’m not your bloody sister.” Sirius snapped, “She’s been there with you through everything. Maybe if you let her explain, then you could understand.”

Remus pointed at her and looked at Sirius with fire in his eyes, “She isn’t my sister. She’ll never be my sister again.”

Sirius could remember the exact same words falling from his mouth only a year earlier, and it crushed him. Y/n was sobbing, and her knees were pulled tightly under her chin. James was trying to console her, but it wasn’t working as Remus and Sirius went toe to toe. Y/n didn’t deserve this for loving who she loved. 

Remus scoffed when Sirius wouldn’t back down and stormed up to the boy's dormitory. Sirius knelt before her and lifted her head from her lap. His thumbs wiped away the tears, and he took her into his arms. So much built-up pain, built-up trauma, built-up lies. She was finally crumbling like a tower on an unsteady foundation. Y/n was a one-hundred-story tower that was collapsing from the bottom up. 

Debris falling everywhere and soot clouding the atmosphere. He could see the smog slipping in her mind, clouding up her judgment and thoughts. Sirius could see the debris cluttering and scraping away at her heart. With every scrap and every tear, her heart began to give out. It felt like being crushed in an elevator, with no room to breathe and no room for moving. She was stuck, and that was it. 

Y/n couldn’t remember much after feeling Sirius’ lips on the top of her head. But she woke up on the plush of the common room couch. The rough maroon fabric was felt beneath her fingertips. Beside her was a boy in an armchair. He was curled up, and a black fleece blanket covered his body from the coldness of the Gryffindor common room. 

Beside her was a glass of water and a note. She picked up the water and allowed it to glide down her throat, soothing the ache from her earlier crying. Her nose still felt stuffy, and she willed herself to sniffle quietly, trying not to wake the boy beside her. The parchment was ripped at the edges and was written in beautiful calligraphy. 

"Il y a toujours des ténèbres avant que la lumière brille."

She folded the note and placed it back on the side table with the empty glass. The fire had gone out fully in the common room, allowing the temperature in the room to fall. It was cold, dry, and dark. Y/n had never seen the common room so dark. Not a candle was lit, and no light was shining from the windows. Just the slightest bit of moonlight. Gently she stood up and reached for the boy's hand in the armchair. 

“Reggie.” Her voice was smooth and soft, “Reg.”

He stirred and opened his eyes to meet his girlfriend's warm ones. Sirius had rushed to the Slytherin common room despite all prejudice. Some of the Slytherins spat at him when he asked for the password. It took ten people before Regulus finally answered to the incessant knocking. He was shocked to be met with his older brother. 

There Sirius had told him what happened, how Remus had shoved his sister against the wall accusing her of betraying him for dating him. Regulus felt ashamed. He didn’t want to be the reason they didn’t get to be civil with each other. Sirius even uttered the exact words Remus had, “She isn’t my sister. She’ll never be my sister again.” Regulus had to bite his tongue to stop himself from saying anything. 

People stared at the younger Black brother as he walked into the Gryffindor common room. The Gryffindor’s glared, spat, and insulted, but he didn’t care. He found his girlfriend lying on the couch with a thick red blanket surrounding her. Sirius had claimed that Marlene had brought it for her, and Sirius had been the one to move her to the couch. Regulus saw the dried tear stains, the swollen eyes, and the bruised lip. 

“It wasn’t pretty.” Sirius had muttered, “Remus isn’t one to hold back.”

Regulus smoothed her hair back, “This is because of me….”

“Reg, no.” Sirius had replied, “Remus will come around. He just doesn’t know how to digest this.”

The common room was silent, and Regulus just held her hand. His thumb stroked the back of her hand softly. Sirius watched as Regulus went through a wave of emotions. He was hurt, confused, concerned, and terrified. It was like watching the seasons go by. Watching everything welt, die, grow back and prosper just to repeat the cycle. It was like watching a new book turn into an old one as the ink was embedded onto the pages, the papers getting folded, tabs being placed, and the spine being cracked. 

Regulus appeared to be a sleek hardcover book, but she was his person. She turned him into a used paperback. One with highlighting, tabs, folded pages, a cracked spine, and a loved cover. His heart beat for her. She was the reason he woke up every morning, the reason he ate, the reason he got good marks. She was his reason. 

“I tried talking sense into him.” Sirius confessed quietly, “He just brought up the incident in fifth year.”

Regulus closed his eyes tightly and tried to withhold his tears, “Maybe I should talk to him.”

“No.” Sirius said sternly, “You’ll be asking for death.”

“What do I do, Sirius?” 

His blue-grey eyes were glittering with desperation, “Nothing… Take care of her.” 

With that, Sirius left a kiss on his younger brother's head and left the common room, retreating to the dormitory. Regulus sighed and placed his forehead on the back of her hand. Tears slipped from his eyes and onto the material of the couch. Everyone was gone at that point. The common room wholly cleared and the fire slowly decaying in the fireplace as Regulus Black finally allowed himself to break. 

He woke up on an armchair with a soft thick black blanket covering his limbs. Red rimmed e/c eyes met his blue-grey ones, and he felt a wave of relief. Y/n reached her hand out, and Regulus took it, keeping the blanket around his shoulders as she brought him to her dormitory. The girls were sleeping, and Y/n sat down on her bed, Regulus doing the same. She drew the curtains and muttered a silencing spell. 

Regulus laid with his head on her pillow, pulling her to lay on his chest. He wrapped the fuzzy black blanket around them. Y/n nuzzled into his side, and he placed a kiss on the top of her head. They didn’t need to exchange words for expressing how they felt. They knew how the other felt. There was no need on elaborating. She fell asleep not too long after, and Regulus laid awake trying of solutions. 

Even when the sun broke the horizon, Regulus still had nothing. 

They continued the year like this. Remus and Y/n didn’t speak at all anymore. Remus went as far as to change his schedule and ignore the sweets left on his bedside after the full moons. Sirius would pretend it came from him, but Remus still would budge. He would chuck the chocolate in the trash even though he knew that Y/n barely had money in the first place to buy it. He’d dump the hot chocolate in the waste bin and smash the mug to get out any frustration. 

Sirius thought that the worst part was Remus never grieved for his sister. He never saw Remus cry or get upset about what he did. It was like Remus had no remorse for what he did. Sirius had grieved. He had sobbed in the midst of twilight with shit silencing charms. Sirius had wailed and clutched his blanket close to his chest, hoping it would soothe the aching of his heart. 

When they graduated, Remus didn’t look for his sister in the crowd. He didn’t care if she was there or not, but she was. Y/n was there holding Regulus’ hand tightly, watching her brother shake Dumbledore’s hand. She watched as Sirius embraced Regulus in a tight hug in the shadows. Y/n smiled bittersweetly at their embrace as Regulus took her hand back in his. 

Sirius began to open his mouth, “No need to lie. I know he doesn’t care if I was here or not.”

Y/n shuffled on her feet, and Sirius took her into his arms. Sirius was shorter than Regulus, and he didn’t smell the same, but his hugs were just as comforting in a brotherly way. His hand caressed her hair, and Sirius couldn’t help the way his heart ached. He shouldn’t be the one hugging her, Remus should, but he isn’t. Sirius kissed her forehead and released her from his hug. 

“I’ll write to you guys.” 

“Don’t get into too much trouble.” Y/n replied with tear-filled eyes, “I can’t imagine you gone.”

Sirius smirked, “Yes, ma’am. Don’t you know I always obey the rules?”

“She’s being real, Sirius.” Regulus didn’t crack a smile, “This war isn’t a joke, and I’d- I’d like to see you next year when I graduate.”

“I’ll be there.” Sirius said solemnly, “I won’t leave you guys. They won’t take me alive.”

Y/n cracked a smile, “Good.”

Regulus nudged his girlfriend, and she wiped the tears from her cheeks, “Protect him. He gets reckless and forgets about himself. Don’t let him do anything stupid.” 

Sirius could still hear Remus’ voice in their first Order meeting, “I swear on all Merlin if they touch her, they’ll be sorry.” 

“‘Course. Don’t forget he’s still my boyfriend.” Sirius replied, and Y/n smiled, “‘S why I’m asking you and not James. Keep- Keep my brother safe, yeah?”

“Yeah.”

They joined the Order of the Phoenix without looking back. Remus, James, Sirius, and Peter quickly became some of the best Aurors of the Ministry of Magic. Sirius had made the Daily Prophet multiple for putting Death Eaters in Azkaban. Many citizens of the Wizarding community thought of him as the next Alastor Moody. 

Seventh year was the worst one yet. Most of the Slytherin Death Eaters were attacking the younger kids. Most of the older Gryffindors, Ravenclaws, and Hufflepuffs had to defend them from the unforgivable curses. It seemed normal to hear the crucio curse being thrown away and seeing green flashes. It made Y/n sick to her stomach. 

It got so surreal that Y/n and Regulus had begun sleeping behind tapestries or hidden tunnels. Dormitories and common rooms were no longer safe. Their backs ached, and body’s sore from lying on concrete, but it was better than dying. Graduation was not a celebration, and no one from outside was allowed in, but Sirius waited for them at Kings Cross. 

The next time Y/n saw Remus was when she was being sworn into the Order, and he barely spared her a glance. Not long after the speech was being spoken, another person entered the meeting point. He was shockingly familiar with wavy black hair and blue-grey eyes. Remus jumped out of his seat, and James had to hold him back. Regulus released a breath and stood beside his girlfriend. 

“Now. I’m sure there’s a lot of confusion.” Dumbledore began calmly, “Regulus has sworn to be our spy.”

Remus growled, “He’s a Death Eater.”

“Exactly.” Remus glared at the old Professor, “Therefore, he can enter and participate in their meetings. Then he can come back here and report what he knows.” 

“I don’t like it any more than you do.” Regulus said, “I don’t want to put anyone in danger, but someone needs to do it.”

Remus went to speak, but Regulus cut him off, “Someone needs to protect your sister.”

Everyone stared in shock at the bold statement that came from the young Black brother's mouth, and Remus leaped from his seat, “She is a traitor. Just like you.”

Instinctively Regulus moved her behind him as Remus was now face to face with him, “She’s everything but. Wasn’t she the one who stopped Fenrir Greyback from killing you?”

“Shut up.”

“Wasn’t she the one who cleaned your wounds after the full moons before the Marauders?” 

“I’m warning you.”

“Wasn’t she the one who used to make you hot chocolate when the nightmares got too bad that you couldn’t sleep?”

Remus snapped, and Sirius pulled him away from Regulus. But they all saw how Y/n cowered when he lunged forward, how she flinched back, covering her face with her hands. Regulus kept a tight hold on her hand, and they watched as Sirius calmed Remus down, bringing him upstairs. When Remus was gone, Dumbledore spoke again. 

“Well, the first Order meeting will be announced in just a couple of days. It allows Y/n and Regulus to get in their positions.” Dumbledore announced, “It allows Y/n to get some training and Regulus to get Voldemort’s trust.”

Everyone dispersed. Y/n and Regulus apparated to a flat they had bought in London. It was relatively modern for the time and had everything they needed. The place was clean and brand new. When they landed in the living room, she went straight to the bedroom. Regulus prepared her a hot drink and set it at her bedside table with a warming charm. He laid beside her, placing her head on his heart. 

“Je Vous Aime.” His french accent was so smooth and gentle, like a baby blanket, “Je t'aime aussi.”

Everything just got more stressful as time passed. Regulus’ job got more and more dangerous, making Y/n worry profusely. It got to times where they had to pretend to throw curses back and forth so he could prove that he was loyal to them. It wasn’t until a rumor of a spy for the Death Eaters came out that Regulus’ job became crucial. It took three more meetings, and on October 15th Regulus knew who it was. 

He could remember the day vividly how Voldemort welcomed Peter Pettigrew to the Death Eaters with open arms. Regulus had stared in mock happiness but, in reality, had been shocked. Someone so close to the Potters had gone and betrayed him. So when Peter was absent from one meeting, Regulus brought it up. 

“They spy is Pettigrew.”

“No.” James chuckled, “You’re lying, right?”

Regulus shook his head, “He plans to kill you, Lily, and Harry on Halloween.”

Everyone stiffened. The air was tense, but Dumbledore smiled victoriously, “Beautiful work, Regulus. We’ll apprehend Pettigrew when he’s seen again.”

They had set up a false meeting where Peter got sent to Azkaban only two days later after Regulus announced he was the traitor. That sparked the war between them, and this time, Regulus was on the right side, the side he always wanted to be on. A week later, and on Halloween, Voldemort was dead. Many people's lives were lost, but many were saved. 

After the war, Remus had proposed to Sirius, and yet Y/n was still not invited to the wedding. Sirius had begged Remus to make amends with her. The war was over. This nonsense was not needed anymore. But Remus was stubborn, and Y/n was too afraid to approach him, so James gave her the invisibility cloak to watch her brother marry. Not the ideal way she planned on watching her brother and his love get married. 

A couple of months later, Regulus and Y/n did the same. Except they did it alone, with Sirius being their only witness and the person marrying them. Sirius couldn’t help but feel awful for Remus not being able to walk her down the aisle, not to see her in the pretty dress she had picked out. It wasn’t until fifteen years later when Y/n had two teenage boys, and a little girl did someone came knocking on her door during the winter holidays. 

Both boys were running around the house, and their little sister was trying to keep up. Two twin boys who were fifteen - Romeo and Romulus. A little girl who was just about ten named Ascella. Romulus was a carbon copy of Sirius. Romeo had the Lupin sandy hair and the Black family eyes with the Black family defined face. He was the best of both worlds. Ascella looked like a female Regulus. 

Romeo was the Keeper of the Slytherin house for Quidditch. Romulus played Beater for Gryffindor, and little Ascella would get her Hogwarts letter in just about a year. Regulus and Y/n both predicted she’d be in Gryffindor with her brave, mischievous nature. Y/n was the one to get the door with her two boys behind her. Ascella had been called into the living room by her father. 

Y/n was shocked to meet familiar green eyes, “Um- hi.”

“Hey.” Remus said nervously, scratching the back of his head, “I hope I’m not intruding.”

Both boys behind her looked confused, “Mum, who is this?”

A pang of hurt hit Remus, “This- This is my brother.”

“Brother?” Romulus questioned, “Like he’s our uncle?”

“Yes.” Y/n retorted, “Now you boys grab your sister. Go do something upstairs while we talk, yeah?” 

Romeo looked crestfallen, “Mum, we aren’t five.”

“I know, but we have a lot of talking to do.”

Romeo sighed, “Fine but be safe.” 

She kissed the tops of their heads, “Of course.”

Ascella was running to her brothers within seconds after Romulus called for her. Remus saw her black hair flutter around as she followed her brothers up the steps. Y/n smiled and motioned for Remus to come inside. The house was lovely and decorated for the holidays. Y/n walked through the hallway to the living room, and Remus followed. 

“I apologize for the mess.” She chuckled, “Having the boys home makes the house messy.”

Remus saw the pictures on the wall, “A Slytherin and a Gryffindor.”

Y/n smiled, “Yep. Romeos the Slytherin, and Romulus is the Gryffindor. We have a feeling Ascella will be in Gryffindor too.”

He placed the picture back down and sighed, “Merlin, what did I miss?”

Regulus was still stiff and stern, “A lot if you couldn’t tell already. That’s what happens when you call your sister a traitor and decide to disown her.”

All three children were listening secretly and grimaced at their father's words, “But don’t worry. I’ve done your job. I’ve been there for her, protected her, and made sure she was happy.” Regulus snapped, “And Sirius did your job of being the children’s uncle.”

“He didn’t even tell me you guys had kids.” Remus muttered, “‘Course he didn’t. In case you don’t remember, you didn’t want anything to do with us.” Regulus retorted. 

The children had never heard their father speak this way with so much ice in his words. Regulus was blunt and unapologetic, “We wanted you to be a part of our family, Remus, we really did. But we didn’t know how you’d feel.” Y/n informed. 

“Plus, the last time you saw us, you tried to kill Regulus.” Ascella covered her ears, and Romeo ushered them to his room to stop listening, “Yeah, so forgive us for not inviting you to be a part of our family.”

Regulus punctuated his statement by putting his arm around Y/n’s waist, “I’m sorry.” Remus murmured. 

“I’m really sorry for how I acted. It was immature and stupid of me.” He continued, “I didn’t know how to feel when I heard my sister was with a Death Eater at the time, and I was just scared.”

Y/n stood up and hugged him, “Remus. What you did isn’t going to be forgiven. I’m sorry.”

He had tears glazing in his emerald green eyes that dulled with age, “I know we were young, but that doesn’t excuse the words you said or how you acted. Trying to kill my husband and saying god awful things about me.”

Y/n took her seat beside Regulus, and Remus sniffled, “You did this. Not us.” Regulus reminded, and Remus nodded. 

“Okay, I just- I’ll go.” Remus stood up from his seat and walked down the hallway to the front door; he took in every family portrait. 

When he got to the door, Y/n opened it for him, and he walked out, “Remus.”

He turned, and Y/n hugged him one last time. His chin rested on top of her head, breathing in her shampoo that still hadn’t changed since third year. The same perfume from fourth year. Her arms fit around him just the same way as they had when they were little children running around the lake. Y/n kissed his cheek and released herself from his embrace. 

“I may not be your sister.” Y/n repeated with tear-filled eyes, and Remus allowed the tears to fall; her two boys were standing beside her, “But you’ll always be my brother.”

The door had closed, and Remus decided that that was the end of his chapter. He had underlined, circled, highlighted, and folded every significant page, but this was the end of the chapter. He was flipping to the next page, where the new chapter began. The new chapter where he had to live without his sister or his niece and nephews. 

Remus always loved fragile, cracked paperbacks.