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shivieroy · 7 months

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it's so sad that i reached a point in my life where i think everything i like is cringe 🥲

#take me back to when i was 12 #now the time i have to talk about the things i like are wasted bc i can't bring myself to talk about them lol #i need therapy asap #rambling

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spaghett-onaplate · 4 months

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depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed

#and wdym that lifestyle changed so quickly into being out and about and an active member of the world??#very proud of myself #and i mean it wasn't that quick of a change #it was like 1.5 years primarily depression bedrotting with occasional school -> primarily depression bedrotting ->#primarily depression bedrotting with 3-9 hours of work weekly -> straight into 31+ hours school+9-12 hours work weekly #so there was somewhat of a gradual progression #but still #also wowza i wake up 7-7:30am every morning now. 1pm was an early wake up for a not so insignificant amount of time #i mean of all fundamental growth years to miss out on the ages like what 12/13-15 aren't too bad? they would suck in a different way if i #had been socially involved #anyway it's just. yea i'm proud of myself but it is a crazy lifestyle change #and even when i was deeply depressed in a horrible routine i feel like i learned a lot. how to regulate my emotions and cope well and find #the joy in everything. bc if i stayed in bed all day then i would at least be happy about the sun or whatever #and for the while of being not at school at all i WANTED to be at school i just could not find one bc our school system is so cute like tha #(basically every school is at capacity and the local school that has a guaranteed place for me would have been an all boys or girls 😭)#but i miraculously found and got into this school and miraculously made it work so well for me socially and now academically #it's also a good time to get back into school for my education bc any later and it woulda been pretty bad for all my certifications and uni #ive missed out on so much maths that its not worth it to me to try and catch up but my teacher knows that #but ive always hated maths regardless i only ever understood it for the first half of yr 7 then my attendance dropped #and after my recent exam i decided to try harder at school. but i still got an A on the exam i didn't study for!! academic weapon fr #i'm just idk thinking back to myself in the past few years #and how hopeless it all felt. but i got out of it!! i beat the depression and social anxiety and found a good place and made the most of it #and during the peak of my depression i remember i went out someplace near my old school and panicked so so badly about seeing #kids from my old school. and the friends at the time didnt really check on me when i went to shake and cry in a side street lmao #i kept the best of that friendgroup and have better friends now. but anyway now i take a bus each morning with some kids from my old school #and you see these hands? they look like they're shaking to you?#anyway yeah it's just cool i got to this point :) i really had no hope for so long but now i have a life i'm living and a future i'm build #--ing towards #which is funny i just decided some random day last november after watching some better call saul 'huh actually lawyer would b pretty cool'#and will i get there? we'll see but i do have hope now

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iztea · 10 months

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12 yo iztea art reveal!!!

i was so full of swag you couldn't even fathom

#anon i literally have a folder in my home with drawings from when i was 12/13 how did you know #god the cringe levels are astronomical but this is just how 2014/15 was #i dont have words the type of stuff i used to draw always makes me laugh #THAT ANGELS CAN FLY QYOTE IS JUST TAKING MEEE OUTTTRTTT #I THOUGHT IT WAS SOOOO DEEP BNSHDJBFIS #it REEKS of basic tumblr white girl #i didn't even have tumblr back then mind you #there's more but some of them are just TOO cringe to show #ask iztea

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falldogbombsthemoon · 3 months

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I hate group projects with a passion :3

#tmr biology on insects and information and that stuff #my part is about mimikry. which actually interests me quite a bit so id say my part alone would get graded pretty good #BUT #ofc my group mates just now came up to me like “dang shit i will never have enough for 12 minutes” and others fucking copy pasted wikipedia #and now im back on babysitting these fuckers to get their parts straight #and its not even like i wouldnt have to care. no. we get graded for the whole thing #and i dont even want to babysit them. i didnt do this volunteering #but my neurodivergent ass csnt work with people who dont care/ arent interested so ill take it in my hands to be done bc i cant trust them #to actually do shit and do that shit good #but i fucking hate leading projects #someone please either shoot dead group projects or put me in some project that people like to work on and would work on from free will #and the teacher too is a complete maniac #in frist aid class i was the first one who could actually do cpr and when i did cpr on that dummie she was like #“what are you doing?? youre killing him” so ofc i stopped like “huh” and then she was like “now he'd actually die. dont ever stop cpr”#how about “good job. and remember. dont ever stop cpr unless your own life is at risk” but ig she is unable to say anything positive #anyway what i wanted to say with that is i see my survival chance for tmr first period pretty low :)#thihihi #quinns daily yapping post

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shannonsketches · 26 days

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something something foils moving in opposite directions Goku's always happy to seek and fight stronger opponents because he spent most of his life being the strongest guy in the room and Vegeta wants to be the strongest/is always exhausted to find stronger opponents because he spent most of his life having to navigate his survival around the whims of the strongest guy in the universe room and so Goku has a foundation of safety and stability and so spends his time craving challenge and adventure and Vegeta has a foundation of challenge and adventure and spends his time craving safety and stability and the overlaid section of their venn diagram is that the only way they know how acquire and maintain those things is through battle

#thank you this has been the laziest media analysis post of my career #dbtag #media analysis #something something a game to goku is a threat to vegeta etc #there's a pinned thought here about how Vegeta also didn't learn about the dragon balls until he was ?? 30?? and so all loss is permanent #and goku has been familiar since he was ~12 and hasn't faced a permanent consequence since he was 10 years old and even then he got closure #sometimes I think about how Vegeta saw Trunks die and how Krillin was mad at him for reacting since they could fix it with the dragon balls #but Vegeta has very limited experience with the dragon so to him in that moment that was permanent and Trunks was Dead. Forever.#And we talked before in a 2am post about Vegeta having never experienced grief born of love and I stand by it because his feelings then wer #still very new and very odd and not something he'd accepted until that moment so it was raw power but not as powerful as it could've been #all this to say in my heart of hearts I think Vegeta deserves to retire at the end of super (if super continues) -- not as a warrior #but as an infantryman. he's a prince and now he's got his domain and his family and his planet to look after and I think he deserves #to go home and stay home and help piccolo bully gohan into training more often when goku inevitably leaves to hop the multiverse #geets wanted to take a sabbatical when Bulla was born but didn't get the chance because Freeza coming back freaked him out too much #but whether freeza gets a redemption arc or gets defeated -- Granolah's arc seemed to shift his perspective on being the strongest #and I just grips fist I just think it would be a really nice full circle for Vegeta to inherit his throne in a way he never expected and #finally get his kingdom to look after and protect in the way that he was looking forward to being king of his own planet all those years ag #Goku's got Broly and Jiren and Hit and all the others to keep him busy and happy now -- and if Freeza gets a redemption arc he'll probably #continue playing slap-ass with Goku for the rest of his life -- and Vegeta's got Gohan and Piccolo and Goten and Trunks #I just think them getting a nice bittersweet 'This is where we part ways' would be really nice for both of them because !!#They couldn't have done this without each other. They couldn't have known this kind of life was possible without each other.#So they swap lots and live happier than they ever imagined they could be #especially since Vegeta has proved to himself that he can close any gap Goku creates in progress that's not a concern anymore #And obvs the door's always open!! There's no point closing it Vegeta's tried the locks they don't work on Goku #anyway here's me putting the whole essay in the tags again #this isn't an essay as much as it is stream of consciousness tag blogging #anyway i'm too lazy to write fic or draw comics so we get ramblings instead

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chompe-diem · 2 months

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random insane headcanon but i firmly believe albin takes exclusively cold showers.

#like freezing cold. or he adjusts the the knob only the slightest fraction above the coldest #when he was younger he probs just got used to it from lauchpad's student showers #but now he just like. does it. he's miserable abt it btw #he Could be using hot water but at this point it's so routine it doesnt occur to him #a hot water shower wld fix him btw. only for like 12 min but it wld fix him #he'd still be a child celebrity that fell off but that constant crinkle between his brows would relax for 12 min #and he'd come out of the shower slightly more content #until he realizes too late that he's out of clean underwear #or gets a text that he inexplicably has to work overtime at his toilet paper shift tmrw #or spills the hot chocolate sol left in his room onto his towel #then he's back to average albin patheticness levels #^^^^ all that shit still happens btw. he's just already resigned when he steps out of his cold shower #albin pembroke #also full disclosure im like a month behind on naddpod cause of ✨the depression✨#so this thought is completely independent of whatever theyve been doing recently lol #i jusr think albin would take cold showers #lmk if u disagree. pleasepleaseplease engage with me i wanr fandom friends

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whatwillyousing · 2 months

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one of the most jarring things online ot me still is this widespread notion amongst artists that artstyle theft is a real substantial thing and this idea of practically copyrighted ownership over certain concepts or design choices or styles and it really upsets me because i feel like so often i see artists accuse others of plagiarism when the plagiarized drawing in question was very obviously Not traced or of a different composition or just of a common general concept that anyone could have come up with Or Whatever number of differences, point being the drawing was clearly still a concerted individual effort on part of the accused plagiarist in question. the discussion is much more nuanced than just this alone and i do think in a lot of contexts copying art Does Happen and is absolutely intellectual property theft but i guess also i kind of hate the concept of intellectual property in the first place and this individualist approach to art that treats any & all creative works as if theyre penned in a vacuum in the ether isolated from any other piece of art & void of any human connection that has ever existed

#like i do very much think there are cases where plagiarism is whats actually happening but i also think the line between inspired vs copied #is a lot more nuanced than what people take it for #i remember when i was like 12 and a game i coded & designed on scratch was straight up stolen #and passed off as someone elses original art and program etc.#and it made me sooo crazy upset so its not like. it doesnt happen #and (thinking back to my doppelganger) ive even had someone ''copy'' (word used tenuously and for sake of argument)#my personality & interests etc. which is like. the core i think of why ppl get so offended & hurt that someone might try to copy their art #when all they can see is a crude imitation & praise that isn't deserved #i just also think that nothing exists in isolation and theres a sizeable amount of gray area here #thats just kind of hard to acknowledge in a blanket statement post like the one im making right now

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tranakin-skywalker · 1 year

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I think maybe the funniest interpretation of Vader's "Anakin Skywalker is dead/ that name no longer has any meaning to me" thing is like. You know what you think back to your middle school self and all the stupid cringe things you did and said? Yeah that's Vader's relationship with his pre-sith self.

Is it fail-cringe to believe you are capable of good things and love and happiness? Darth Vader thinks so.

#vader thinks back to a time when he thought he was capable of things other than extreme violence and suffering and gets full bodied shivers #my deranged 4am star wars takes #darth vader #genuinely the funniest thing to me is imagining vader having a 'remembering the stupid shit i said at 12' moment whenever anyone mentions #anakin skywalker #tranakin.txt

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tamagotchikgs · 2 months

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every once in awhile im forced 2 the realization that i will never have a healthy relationship w food and i do not like that i will shut it right back away as fast as i can

#i know it just isnt possible #it's so deeply ingrained in the whole world #i fell into a hole n im stuck here forever. theres no ropes theres only more dirt being piled on top of me #ever since i was like 12 i was like ahah but ill recover one day and everything will be ok :]#no... no it wil not #it's so far gone now #i am so physically and mentally destroyed #even when i was younger my whole life my relationship w food or my body has never been good #i can remember so far back the pure disdain i had for myself and the way everyone treated me eating #not eating always got so much praise #it was so simple #even before i knew how to actually lose weight. i was too young to understand any of it #i had no idea what i was doing but the thought was enough it was in there and it was taking over me #my mom treating every food like a negative every food is unhealthy #not eating keeps u clean #and i am So dirty i am soso unclean

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clairiko · 1 year

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some little fionna doodles

#this is taking me back to when i was 12 and drew nothing but AT fanart #baby me's first fandom 🥹#fionna and cake #fanart #adventure time #doodles

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crazyw3irdo · 1 year

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do y’all ever think about how yancy knows how to break out of prison and actively chooses not to. do you ever think about how when he breaks us out he knows the way so easily as if he’s been there a million times before. do you ever wonder if at some point he considered breaking himself out and just couldn’t go through with it.

#i have been thinking about this for the last few days it’s absolutely rotted my brain. like it’d occurred to me before but my brain is sooo #fixated on this lately like he. he knows. and he doesn’t. he’s done bad things and he doesn’t think he deserves it #just. younger yancy who just killed his parents and hasn’t fully processed anything trying to break himself out #standing at the gate knowing he can take a step out and be free again. and he doesn’t. and everything sinks in for him and he just slowly #goes back to his cell. and a few more times he does the exact same thing but… he just can’t bring himself to leave.#he constructs this half-truth about prison life being great and makes friends- makes a family. but. when y/n leaves the first thing he says #is that he’s done bad things. the ‘and hey! this is home!’ seems more like an afterthought that he’s trying to convince himself is true #god the fact that y/n gets a universal key in ending 12… i can see y/n breaking in to try and convince him to leave but he just won’t. he #could’ve gotten out before even without that. but he won’t. if he’s gonna get out he’s gonna do it right. even if it means he can’t stab any #one anymore :( and cmon everyone knows he loves to STAB #this seemed more tangential to include but also. do you think yancy’s ever broken anyone else out?#…do they visit? he was absolutely overjoyed when y/n visited in space i think he doesn’t get that many ngl…#god this character has like 15 or 16 minutes of screen time idk i haven’t recounted after space came out #*pats his head* this bad boy can fit so much overanalysis and headcanons in him #yancy #markiplier #yancy ahwm #ahwm yancy

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hood-ex · 6 months

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oooo what mafia au or mafia stories prompted the post??

I've read quiiite a lot of mafia boss fics throughout the years that contributed to such thoughts lolol buuut my thoughts were triggered today by a flower shop/mafia boss fic. It's an Ateez fic. I don't remember if you're into kpop or not, so not sure you'd have interest in it, but I'll send it to you if you are.

Honestly don't think I've ever read a mafia boss fic with Dick. Maybe a crime family fic with him and a few of the other bats. That was a longgg time ago though, don't even remember the story. I never really seek out fics where the bats are on the opposite side of the law, but if I happen to stumble across them, I'll take a look and see if they interest me.

No but in another fandom there was a mafia boss fic where the antagonist chopped off the SO's finger and sent it to the mafia boss in a box, and that's the type of shit that makes those fics so good.

#this takes me back to when i was like 12 and sobbing in my room bc one of the gang members in a mafia boss au got killed #no but it's always a good time when a flower shop is involved #it's a bit overdone like the coffee shop au but also not #bc it's always paired w something interesting like a tattoo shop / mafia boss / record shop / bakery / magic user / etc.#yeah idk i can't really bring myself to read coffee shop or library AUs anymore #but i'm usually always down for flower shop/X fics #replies

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jrueships · 7 months

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watching alpey being in the perfect position to get the rebound before seeing Jabari soar over him and struggle to grab it instead while alpey, after recovering from his shock, just let's him have it without a fight. basketball, how i've Missed you

#alpey: nice :] a rebound . finally. i need to get back into grabbing some of the-#jabari: IME UDOKA will TAKE ME TO THE BACK OF A MCDONALDS at 12:30AM and he will SHOOT ME #POINT BLANK #with a TWELVE GAUGE #if i dont PULL THIS ONE (1) REBOUND #DOWN #FOR HIM .#alpey: :]#* relinquishes The Ball *#*jabari nearly falls like when you play tug of war with a puppy thats trying to hard & u suddenly let go to watch it tumble backwards #scampers away*#'THANK' ( doesnt finish the sentence )

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quietwingsinthesky · 7 months

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at some point i am going to have to force even to go back and deal with donna & tentoo & rose & all and everything they ran away from. and that will probably involve them losing tentoo’s chameleon arch watch by giving it back to its rightful owner, whether she chooses to open it or not. and that is. not going to be a very fun or stable time for them.

#this part is v vague and fuzzy because i want to watch the rest of 12 & 13 and finish the doctor/donna specials before i set anything in #stone about it. but i think i need to rearrange some things in the timeline here vis a vis when the doctor is also forced to go back and #deal with his baggage.#i dont think 14 exists in even’s universe for this reason. and for the reason of tentoo kind of taking on his role? the human part of the #doctor who can stay with donna & with rose.#she’s also trans to me because i love trans!tentoo. her name is johanna. i think it’s pretty. i make a singular exception to my rule of #never changing characters names when i trans them.#but i think. what im getting at here is that this cant be a happy ending. not so cleanly. its more bittersweet.#like i think this version of the story. what i have so far. donna does remember. (tentoo doesn’t but that’s because she’s become her own #person. the doctor is who she came from but she isn’t just the doctor anymore.) and rose knows her doctor is out there and loves her but #she has her wife at home.#and even. oh even. you can’t hold onto a heart that’s not yours forever. you have to give it back.#this. i think. is a moment of respite and recovery for the doctor. and a really really low point for even. however this works out.#its not perfect but there’s kindness in it. and there’s a home to go back to. if they can bear it. both of them.#but like i said. this is all preliminary based on what i might play around with here. and how watching more of the show changes my ideas.#but i think. whatever revelations come in 13’s arc. i think in even’s universe they have to come after donna. i’ll find a way to make it #work.#but mostly right now the important thing is forcing even to give up the watch because why would i let them have one single comfort object <3 #dw oc

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petorahs · 7 months

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environmental storytelling.

#yea i finished p3re yea its 7:30am I DIDNT KNOW THE LAST STRETCH WAS SO LONG?#i thought itd take 6 hours max... clearly 12+!#GOD MY BACK'S GONNA HATE ME im never gaming this hard ever again #this game has a lot of nerve making me cry when its gameplay is literally just press A #persona 3 reload #anywayse.... full thoughts on the game later when im more coherent.

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vulpinesaint · 2 months

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i’m secretly in love with you

wow... beautiful world... that's crazy cause you are ma chèrie mon ange mon cœur ma vie. t'es la plus jolie femme du monde et c'est simplement la verité...

#not allowed to call me out if something's wrong in my french. haven't really actually practiced in a while now #new love language i start writing you letters in french to force you to practice your reading comprehension #to prove to you that you are like. fine at french. you have a perfectly good baseline level of understanding.#sorry babydoll didn't mean to take a sharp turn french. remember last night when i said i was going to bed...#couldn't sleep until 1 in the morning and i just found the poem i got back up at 12 to write to try and tire myself out/wind down #*poem i wrote in french. was the operative part of that sentence that i forgot. was trying to access some different parts of the brain.#get it to calm the fuck down. you know how it is #ask

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