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i know its been years but i just relistened to the "i think i can do better"/"why dont you show me" and had to do a lap around my office in front of all my coworkers
#figayda#d20#fantasy high#tagging for my personal organizational purposes#thinking abt fig like. yeah we got that at home#but what i dont have!!! is an ayda!!!#s3 finale tomorrow brennan and istg if ayda doesnt come back at the end to get in the most romantic autistic kisses of all time
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"Are you finished with my portrait yet? Show me!" "Cipacton, I can't draw you if you keep moving!"
#em draws stuff#em is posting about temeraire#temeraire#temeraire worldbuilding collection#⚬⚬⚬⚬⚬𐂂#did you like those guys from the last picture? here they are again :)#at this point I feel like I should have be oc tagging five deer and cipachcoatzin just for organizational purposes#but if I don't then I can pretend I can stop drawing them...#<- He Has Ideas For At Least One More Picture and Other People And Dragons They Know#if you want to see what five deer is drawing then turn your eyeballs to my previous drawing of them!#after finishing that one I wanted to figure out what cipachcoatzin looked like outside of the super stylized depiction - here he is!#also lacking any other ideas I've decided that's his name now. my classical nahuatl is So So So Beginner but I'm Trying#(cipactli [caiman] + glottal stop + coatl [snake] + tzin [honorific suffix]...#...or cipactli [caiman] + ton [diminutive suffix you might use for a kid])#haven't come up with a personal name for five deer yet but what with naming other characters they'll interact with my abilities Do run out#so that can be a work in progress#pretty pleased with how this turned out especially cipachcoatzin's little obsidian mirror-ornaments#the background and color scheme is Heavily based on luis covarrubias' 'view of the valley of mexico'#but maybe I can manage some more urban settings for them or the other characters in future pictures
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thinking so long and hard about joyness once more…like yesss they are very cute and sweet and all but i think them getting together even after their History is sooo interesting. like, does joy first start hanging out around sadness and talking with her more often out of guilt? is it performative? when does it stop being performative?? and at what point does joy realize it’s stopped being performative? how does joy feel when every single interaction she has with sadness after the events of the first movie are just like…constant reminders of how she screwed up with her prior? liking someone who makes her feel that bad when she normally never lingers on what she's done wrong just seems so counterintuitive (fun fact: joy has literally never genuinely apologized for anything she's done, across both movies. she's acknowledged and fixed her mistakes before, sure, but she has never expressed guilt so straightforwardly like that. is she simply incapable of it? or has she just...never given importance to feeling guilty before so long as she can just Fix her mistake? just something very interesting i've noticed...)!!
like, joy’s canonically admitted that she’s literally tried to kick sadness out of headquarters before. that’s truly how little joy thought of her before she got to know her better…she totally would have been fine with just. never seeing her again. imagine disliking your coworker THAT much since the very first day you met her and now you have feelings for her…?! not a possibility joy ever would have considered, and i think joy would struggle a Lot with coming to terms with that initially. she is the Queen of cognitive dissonance. of being Delusional. it’s HARD to shake off old habits just like that!! joy is someone who very much doesn’t fully acknowledge how she feels until it gets so intense it bubbles up to the surface and breaks through her usual demeanor (we’ve seen that both with how she’s gotten sad and angry before…who’s to say romance would not be the same. i think she’d just keep denying it until she just. has an Ah Shit moment with sadness one day. probably over something completely mundane).
and it certainly doesn’t help that sadness is, well. Sadness! she clearly admires joy from the very beginning even when joy treated her so poorly (knowing her she probably thought she deserved it…sigh). she’d literally just assume absolutely nothing would come out of her feelings. and you know she probably might even romanticize and Enjoy it in a weird way…i mean think about it. she canonically likes sad romance novels…this is her own "tragic romance" (apparently. SUPPOSEDLY) so i think she’d kind of insistently cling to that. define their entire relationship as unrequited and reallyyy lean into it and warp anything that happens otherwise to fit her little Doomed Yuri vision. she's observant as hell for pretty much everything, normally, but she just has goddamn Horse Blinders on for just this one thing specifically.
she’s just completely unaware of how fundamentally she’s changed joy and shattered her entire worldview (meanwhile joy is just busy having a whole crisis about exactly that). and NOW she has to deal with actually being treated like she matters, both by joy and the other emotions?? helloooo? she’s definitely got a lot to process by this point because Her entire way of living has changed too now in an entirely different direction.
AND then you add to that how it's pretty clear that sadness knows joy pretty well, but joy still has a Lot to learn about sadness because she never gave her a chance before...very much a recipe for guilt and confusion and miscommunication and other such weird occurrences to arise.
BASICALLY tldr theyre both kind of idiots and i think their dynamic is a little more complicated than people give it credit for. joyness is a veryyy. She fell first (sadness) she fell harder (joy) type of dynamic. To Me.
#nebposting#IS ANY OF THIS COHERENT. PROBABLY NOT BUT THAT'S FINE.#adding this to the long list of thigns i wanna draw out eventually. chanting to myself IM NORMAL IM NORMAL IM NORMAL#SORRY TJEYRE JUST. SO INTERESTING....opposites attract trope sure but opposites also. KINDA fundamentally clash!!#ugh been obsessed with them for 9 years atp i feel crazy#.............#okay yknow what sure joyness tag could always use more posts LOL#joyness#joy x sadness#joy#sadness#<- those last two are for personal organizational purposes lol#side note i feel like i'm just. explaining my thought process for both of my fics so far pretty much HDJKHF.#i definitely had a lot of these thoughts floating around trying to write for them....
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Sorry for kurobasposting in your inbox, but now that (I assume) you've met all the Generation of Miracles, I need to know if your favorite is still Murasakibara. Also, we talk so much about squad dynamics in Bleach, I can't help but think about team dynamics too, like Touou gave me such Squad 11 vibes, and it made me wonder which team you liked best (and if any of them reminded you of Squad 6👀). Also, in a Bleach Sports scenario, do you think kouhai Renji would be devastated when team captain/senpai Byakuya graduates and passes the mantle onto him? I'm imagining a Portions for Foxes kind of AU where Renji agonizes about leading a team, but Rukia lowkey fantasies about how hot he'd look doing it. Think about the pep talks he'd give!!!!!!!! OK I'm done.
No apologies necessary! I am very happy to talk about Kurobas!! I don't talk about it nearly as much as I have thoughts about it, because nearly all my thoughts are tied up around How Much Bleach It Is, because its insane basketball-themed powers system was so incredibly Bleach-structured, and even though the main cast was not very Bleachy at all, so many of their random opponents were just straight up Bleach characters.
Who is my favorite Miracle? I cannot answer this question. I hate them all. They are all my favorite. To me, the Generation of Miracles exists on some plane orthogonal to "liking" or "not liking." Each and every one of them is an Entity, and I am obsessed with them.
Kise is the most human of them. He works so hard and loves basketball so much. He was late to the GoM and to me, there's this degree of sadness that he deserved to have a better time. Also, he wants to be friends with everyone so badly and they are so mean to him. "I would be friends with you, Kise," I say to myself, and then I remember that he's a model and it's like, "You know what? Never mind."
Midorima is 100%, unapologetically himself all of the time, and I respect that, but also: he's terrible. My opinions on him oscillate wildly. I do think he deserves his skill level more than anyone else on the GoM. I want to push him down the stairs.
I am a really simple person: I like character who work hard. I can never love Aomine because he does not go to practice and does not show up for games on time. On the other hand, he is electric on the court, he's the funnest player to watch, by far. I also enjoy his Color Commentary the best. He has merged so completely with Grimmjow in my mind that when I was watching TYBW last week, I was like "why is Aomine here?" and then the next time I watched KNB and he yelled "If you don't beat Rakuzan, I'll kill you!" at Kuroko, I was like "thanks, Grimmjow." I think he has a really toxic relationship with basketball, and should probably quit and do something else instead.
Murasakibara is so precious to me because I love him in a way I have never loved another character. He doesn't work hard, either, but he also Doesn't Want To Be Here and is making it everyone else's problem. I cannot justify it in the least, but I get unreasonably excited whenever he shows up. I actually screamed out loud when he put his hair up in a ponytail.
Akashi might be the greatest anime villain of all time, and that counts Aizen. The scope of his villainy was small, but he brought his A+++ game to it. My favorite Akashi moment was when he was being defeated by the power of friendship and he cured his own multiple personality disorder during a time-out and came back with his own, even better version of the power of friendship. I mean, I hate him, obviously. He has ruined so many people's basketball experience for basically no reason whatsoever. Poster child for eating the rich.
It's hard to like any team better than Seirin because every player on Seirin is a banger, and their teamwork is second to none. I don't think there were any other teams that I liked the full bench as much as Seirin.
I think the match against Yousen was my favorite, maybe because I just love a good defense. I am obsessed with the way Kimuro was just like "Friendship with Kagami ended, uh, uh, Murasakibara is my new best friend!!" Why are they always hanging out???
Shuutoku is Squad Six, I am sorry to say. It just is. Legacy team with long history of consistent greatness. Midorima is Byakuya if Byakuya was raised as a human teen instead of the most important person in Soul Society, and also he got into astrology for some reason. Takao is not really anything like Renji, but his rapport with Midorima is extremely Byakuya-Renji coded. The Sky Direct Three Point shot was one of the high points of the entire series for me, and I think Renji would have cried actual tears if he watched that episode. (He would refuse to pull Byakuya around in a little cart, tho)
I also kinda like Kaijou, but maybe it's just because Kasamatsu was my favorite non-Seirin, non-GoM side character by a long shot. Maybe it's because he works so hard and feels so hard and takes being captain as such a responsibility. Maybe it's his knee socks.
I would not have called the Touou - Squad 11 connection, although I can see it. Imayoshi was Basketball Gin, to me, and Sakurai was Basketball Rikichi.
I adore the scenario you outlined where Renji goes through the entire five stages of grief because Senpai is Furthering his Education. A real Bleach-KNB fusion (Orihime no Basuke) would have to focus on the Karakura kids, but Renji and Byakuya's team would be their first rival team, the one that you get to cheer for later on as the series progresses. Rukia would have transferred from Renji and Byakuya's school to Karakura High and would coach Ichigo and Orihime's team, which would make such good emotional tension.
Bonus answer to the question you didn't ask: Kiyoshi - Hyuuga - Riko OT3.
#oh god i want to tag this for My Blog organizational purposes but i don't actually want it to show up in the knb tags#where any actual knb fan would have to look at it#maybe i put a bunch of other stuff first#i need you all to know what a fantastic person my husband is#because he does not want to watch a sports anime ever#but he has listened to me breathlessly summarize this show which i am sure is even worse#including the last two weeks of 'is the zone bankai? there's a second level to the zone so maybe it's shikai.'#'you fall backwards into water to enter the zone and the visual is exactly like ichigo entering his inner world'#'is a shinigami a being who has an innate connection to the zone???'#he's such an active listener about it too! why does he put up with this?? truly i do not deserve him!#kuroko no basuke#knb
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I understand why people would want an AU where William Afton cares about his kids but I wish they'd stop trying to insist that it's somehow canon
He canonically smacks around his kids like. hello
He's also abusive to Michael in-game, so this isn't like a "oh it's just that way in the novels" thing either
#why cant a man just be awful why does he need to be secretly sympathetic. William is not sympathetic lol#NOT going in the tags I dont wanna hit the hornet's nest but I wish I could tag it for my own organizational purpose#personal
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Just had one of those realizations that was so good and affirming that I checked my horoscope to see what was up.
Also, belated birthday to my Guerlain Vetiver Prince
#personal stuff#fancy men#my guerlain vetiver prince#in case you missed one of my many rambles about blorbi and profumi#i once said Nanami was worthy of wearing the greatest ever men's fragrance Guerlain Vetiver#so that's why i call him that#stuffing my tags so this stupid pointless thing doesn't show up#in nanami's main tag#but that i can still tag#for organizational purposes#nanami kento
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hi idk if ur knowlegable about this but i hope u are. what's with the gaiden/infinite wealth situation? are they the same game or two different games? if they're different ones, are they coming out at the same time? are they both rgg8 or is one a spinoff or What.... sorry im just rly confused by new game announcement stuff always
yeah i can answer that! they are two different games. i will try my best to clarify.
RGG Gaiden (Like a Dragon: Gaiden) is what I’d equate to being Yakuza/RGG 6.5 more or less. It’s not going to be as big a production as a typical mainline game, but it’s a canon addition to the mainline story. you’ll play as kiryu (code name “joryu”) and learn what the hell he was up to between RGG 6 (Yakuza 6) and RGG 7 (Yakuza: Like a Dragon). This game comes out November 8th of this year and is already available for pre-order. if you see any content where kiryu’s a secret agent, that’s gaiden.
LAD: Infinite Wealth is RGG 8. It’s a big beefy full mainline game that comes out in spring of 2024 and it takes place after the events of RGG 7 (Yakuza: Like a Dragon). you’ll play as both ichiban and kiryu. if you see any content where Ichiban and kiryu are in hawaii and/or kiryu’s got a weird grey haircut with bangs, that’s this game.
Explanation to the best of my ability on why the naming has been so convoluted is as follows (apologies if this is long and confusing):
The name situation with LAD: Infinite Wealth/RGG 8 is stupidly confusing because they chose to release it with a different name in Japan than to the US– so in the US it’s LAD: Infinite Wealth, in japan it’s RGG 8. This is because they released RGG 7 as “Yakuza: Like a Dragon” in the US and basically thought westerners would be confused by the sudden jump to “Like a Dragon 8” considering there’s only one game that’s been released with the name Like a Dragon in the US, if that makes any sense.
as for why they’re phasing out the name “yakuza”, i believe they only originally named the series yakuza in the US because it’d be easier to immediately get across what the games are about to westerners prior to them having a bigger, more knowledgeable audience in the west. so now that they have a bigger western audience and don’t have to worry as much about all that, they’ve been trying to advertise with the “like a dragon” name and drop the use of “yakuza” for the most part.
sooooo yeah infinite wealth is pretty needlessly complicated because of how they chose to name it differently in Japan vs the US and all that– to the point where yokoyama even tried to explain it in a letter posted to Twitter but it really didn’t help anything at all and I still think it was a kinda stupid call. In my brain it’s just yakuza 8 honestly lmao.
#yakuza#rgg#gaiden#rgg8#lad infinite wealth#y8#yeah for my own personal organizational tagging purposes im just calling it y8 the same way I tag rgg7 as y7 even though it’s not#Technically called that#it is impossible to make this simple BUT it’s at least simple enough to explain that gaiden and rgg8 are two different things#within the same timeline of course but different points in said timeline#rambling#asks
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Followup to this post, here's xyr team <3
[image id: a compilation of six pokemon (all official art) surrounding their trainer, an oc named Sol. The pokemon, going from left to right, are a honchkrow, a sneasler, a west sea gastrodon, a hisuian decidueye, a luxray, and an alpha rapidash. All of them are sized more or less to scale. End id]
#lemon yemon#not tagging as my art bc the only thing i drew is copy pasted from my ref of xem which i already posted#my oc#oc: sol#ughhghgghh for organizational purposes i should tag all these pokemon#the things i do to make my artblog an easy to use resource for when i need to find specific things ive posted#honchkrow#sneasler#gastrodon#hisuian decidueye#luxray#rapidash#i should make a tag for this au actually also#get eebied au#yeah#the alpha rapidash is indeed the one that burned sols jeans and jacket#and is an absolute sweetheart once xe caught it#which completely blindsided sol#for whatever reason they were expecting it to be...angry? violent? huh must just be because its an alpha#(its curbstomp. xes remembering curbstomps personality)#the luxray is also the shinx xe caught at the very beginning#sneasler was a sneasel that latched onto sol and wouldnt let go and is still very clingy and affectionate even evolved#oh btw if any of the sizes are off no theyre not#this is their sizes in my heart no i dont care about canon sizes#daybreak au#<- new tag for the au
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AU in which Tsukasa and Saki both have the same illness?
Thank you so much for requesting but I'm going to have to decline this one. Personally I don't feel comfortable with AUs of this kind/AUs where Saki and Tsukasa are swapped. Thank you for understanding!
#answered ask#anon#things i wont do#this one is a personal preference ^^'#again thanks for understanding anon!#blog rules#<<tagging for my own organizational purposes
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Unknown Rivals
Pairing: Sukuna x Reader
Synopsis: There was only one thing worse than being paired with Sukuna for an important school project, and that was realizing the slacker somehow had a higher class standing than yourself.
Tags: Academic rivals, enemies to eventual lovers, type A reader.
pt. 1 - next part
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Sukuna would be a super challenging project partner in school.
Say what you like but he absolutely would be the type of person to expect you to do all the work. That, or he would pretend he didn’t understand and wait for you to get frustrated and do it yourself.
He would be popular, but not in the “likable” kind of way, but in the same way that kids always love the teacher that (not so secretly) hates them. He despised how people followed him around, trying to hold a conversation. Despite this, it was as if his fellow students were attracted to him like magnets.
Not you though, you didn’t like a man with an ego. You saw him roll his eyes and sleep in class. You saw as he crawled into his desk at the far back of the classroom, spreading his tattooed thighs in an undignified manor.
And when you were paired with him from a dual project? You could cry with frustration.
He would simply raise a brow at you with his arms crossed as you tried to explain what was needed for the assignment.
“Do you… understand?” Sukuna had hardly spoken a word to you, not just in this exchange, but in all your time at the school.
He would simply grunt, smacking his palms on the table, rising from his chair and sliding your page of notes into his hand. “Cool to go?”
How was it he could sound annoyed without you even doing anything to upset him?
“Right…” you sigh.
You would be working together for up to an hour after class twice a week, and as finals approached, you decided you needed to meet once on Fridays as well in the library.
The pink-haired man would hardly spare you so much as a glance as he scrolled on his phone during class and work time.
When you would text, requesting his portion of the project, he would respond hours later with, “I’ll just turn it in myself.”
You would grind your teeth.
No. Way. Absolutely no shot in the world were you going to allow this delinquent to turn in homework correlated with your name inversely bring your grade down.
You would politely insist on seeing (editing) his work, for organizational purposes only, of course. And his response?
“You worry too much”
You near throttled your innocent roommate with anger at his laissez faire attitude after reading his late message one evening.
On one particularly cruel Friday, you were seriously feeling the effects of finals crawling into your brain. You had hardly slept, spilled coffee on your textbook, and experienced car troubles that caused you to be late to class.
Staying to the end of the lecture to apologize to your professor for this lapse, you expected an understanding, “Hey, no worries, life happens, I’ve been there.” And instead received and overtly harsh, “Do you know how much participation counts for in my class? Don’t let it happen again.”
Was it childish? Yes. Was it overly emotional? Also yes. But did ever ounce of your validation come from the adult figures in your life? Of course. So how could you not cry at the knowledge that you had disappointed, let down, upset, one of the professors you had previously admired?
By the time you reached your seats in the library Sukuna was already laid across his own spot, not unlike a jungle cat.
This was the first time he had arrived before you.
Another wave of shame passed your consciousness at the thought of this no-good-trouble-maker showing up to the library with more dependability than you, and huffed a sigh.
Sukuna rolled his neck back down when you sat across from him. As usual, no words passed between you, but he seemed to be observing you closely.
He didn’t pull out his phone, he didn’t grumble responses. No, in fact, be pulled out a notebook and took notes. Finalized an outline for points of contention in his part of the project. And even seemed to consider your own writings (that you had been sending him weekly).
And even as you were starting to rise from your seat, he didn’t race off, groaning as if he had just wasted an hour of his life he regretted to never see again, but rather, stood slowly, and leaned down to try and catch your gaze.
Eventually, you had to meet his eyes, patient beast he was, and as your arms fumbled with your backpack, he just raised an eyebrow and murmured,
“Take care.”
Before he was gone.
Imagine your shock when your professor grades the paper and presentation you had been slaving over, after being horrified with the end result due to Sukuna inability to send his part in and after a panicked email about how unsportsman your teammate was, begging to please please please take into consideration the difference between students, with a glowing review, claiming that it was always a privilege to read “the two of y’all’s work”.
Turns out the delinquent who slept in class, avoided contact with fellow students, never so much as attempted to prove his understanding of the project, and stared blankly at you as your “tutored” him on the subject, was neck and neck with you as top student in class.
Son of a bitch.
#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk sukuna#sukuna au#ryomen sukuna x reader#ryoumen sukuna#jujutsu kaisen sukuna#sukuna x reader angst#sukuna x reader#sukuna x reader fluff#jujutsu sukuna#sukuna ryomen#sukuna fluff#ryomen sukuna#sukuna#jjk fluff#soft sukuna#sukuna x y/n#sukuna x you#sukuna x oc#jjk x y/n#jjk imagines#sukuna imagine#sukuna oneshot#sukuna angst#sukuna comfort#jjk angst#jjk fanfic#sukuna fanfic#jjk x reader
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gonna be super un-ceremonial about it, but ermmmm does anyone wanna art trade or something
wowza i hit 5k followers, time to do something i rarely do but also semi indulgent because. i got in my feelings.
im offering.. … SOME KIND OF ART TRADE. A DRAWING OF YOUR OC (limit 1) OR WHATEVER YOU GOT 🫵… in what amounts to the above or something like one of these type of things i did. Draw (1) of mine, I draw yours. My art will be of the above quality give or take. Kinda like some of my category 1 commissions. But the transaction is art
I’m only offering it to 5 people (because 5k) I’ll spin a randomized wheel of the 5 people I’ll trade with.
My only entry rules are: Already be a follower, and if you want a shot, just reblog this post and mention in tags that you want in, and maybe if you want include the character you’d wanna see drawn if you get chosen (or just reply if you dont feel like doing any of that). But hey, you don’t have to (but i am only counting reblogs/replies that explicitly mention wanting to participate). This is just for organizational purposes. So no “signal boosts” please
Any other specifics of the trades will go in DMs after the fact once 5 people are chosen 😩 (if theres no answer within 1-2 days im rolling again to the next person)
THIS WILL END…. Saturday October 19th (i will shut off reblogs then). Because im a loose cannon. On that day i’ll @ or message the 5. Whichever happens first
and to my non-artist followers im sorry 😭 and to my non twst followers still left… i got characters from other fandoms we can make it work 💃
BYE
EDIT: IT’S OVER. Names haven been compiled and messages sent out ���.
#cozy texts#i dont know what im possibly getting into here#this’ll probably remain small though#if this flops im closing it lol#kinda like a college class. not enough sign ups? whole class IMPLODES#But yeah. fr. if it doesnt reach at least 5 then im just not doing it. i should just focus on commissions.
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Writeblrs who play tag games: How do you interact with the writeblrs/posts that you tagged/invited?
Twin poll: How do you interact with posts/writing that tagged YOU?
I’m asking specifically about writer tag games—Last Line, Heads Up Seven Up, OC in Fifteen, etc.
Assumptions of this poll:
#1: They tagged you in their post (“I was tagged by...”). You saw the notification and are aware that the person 'took' your tag to participate in the game.
#2: “Reblogs” include instant and queued reblogs.
#3: For the purposes of this poll, organizational tags like #other WIPs or #your writing count as the ‘no tags’ option even though they are, in fact, tags. (If it’s only those, not accompanied by comments on what the person wrote.)
Thanks for helping to sate my curiosity!
#polls#writeblr#writeblr tag games#writers on tumblr#writerscommunity#writer stuff#writers and poets#writer things#writer#creative writing#original writing#fanfic#fanfiction#writeblr community#writing community#tag games
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2024 reflections
In stream of consciousness
This might as well be a journal entry
There’s some fandom stuff in blue
Necessity is a bitch, but she’s also the biggest teacher. Had I not needed so much, I wouldn’t have become a part-time handy man this year.
In the race to the bottom, companies no longer build things to last or for minimal repair and upkeep. Things are purposely built to break and be repurchased. They are consciously creating waste, and as a fixer, this disgusts me. My house taught me the extent of this nonsense.
I’m really fucking over the drive for profit > common sense. Greed.
I’ve also realized that I can only think of two people within my organizational hierarchy at work (a VP and C-suite exec) who don’t worry about money. My coworkers, my boss — everyone is convinced they need more for the basics. I earn less than half what my boss does. I’d be dying with gratitude if I had what he does. So when does it stop? When do we achieve satisfaction? When do we stop worrying?
It’s been a supremely lonely year. At times by choice but mostly by circumstance. In group settings, I’ve become okay with just being and not feeling obligated to socialize or participate. I still enjoy myself, and it’s liberating. I’ve come to understand that I crave deep connections, and I’m not someone who can achieve that with many. I’m too much for people.
IRL, I was not placed on this earth to be liked. It’s lonely, but coming to terms with this has empowered and liberated me tremendously.
I think this is reflected in what I write. Every concept and feeling is intrinsically mine. I love writing for a recipient, for one specific person, and that’s made being part of fandom the most satisfying. I miss being more active, I miss my friends, and I miss the chokehold my ships had on my life previously. That’s what I miss the most - the obsession that drives inspiration and connection.
Fandom feels less open and accepting than when I joined. It feels like there are groups of friends cheering each other on but not excited to make new friends. I love seeing the joy and enthusiasm those groups have for each other, it just feels lonely on the outskirts. Lonelier still when I don’t feel the spark and passion I used to.
That doesn’t mean I love my ships any less, it just means my horizons have widened and that passion has spread instead of concentrated. That expansion makes me want so much more - I want to learn Chinese. I want to thrift and up-cycle clothes. I want to spoil my cats more. I want want want want
I grieved the woman I would have been if necessity hadn’t turned me into a Type A person. Maybe she’s born with it, maybe it’s a trauma response.
I put myself last. Towards the end of the year, I started kicking my job lower in my priorities, but I will always jump on something that affects others before I take care of the things I need. This needs to change.
I’ve been giving people out in the world my brightest smile, and it feels really good. I think it takes them by surprise too. It feels like throwing confetti at people.
I feel like I was never allowed to be shy when I was younger, and I’m really leaning into it now. I didn’t realize how much I needed this space to figure out what feels like me.
I’ve developed this rare skill to move and change and influence. I didn’t realize how much power I had until very recently. It’s both validating and terrifying.
I knew going into 2024 that it was going to be a rough one. To be frank, it kicked my ass. My husbands’ too. It’s 2am on the last day of the year. It’s pretty much over.
It’s starting to feel silly, this way of marking time. But having milestones and times to reflect is nice.
On to the next one
If you want to reflect and open up, tag me - I’d love to read yours ❤️
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1st of all big fan, devoured RC!AU. It's fantastic
2nd of all, I could get lost in your sw resources tag that thing is awesome
3rd Do you have any references for Waxer and Boil's buckets? (Sorry in advance if you've already posted them, and thank u again for all the boxer content 💖)
Aw thanks! <3 I haven't written in the main RCAU for ages, but I'm still plugging away at the Open Skies sub-AU haha 😂
Ah I'm glad that's been helpful! I mostly tag for my own organizational purposes and I know there are some gems in there—especially from @gffa and @fox-trot! My 'sw refs' tag has a lot of overlap, but also includes a lot of image references for fanart or describing things in fics, so that one might be useful, too?
And yeah! I'm not sure if you want Phase I, Phase II, or their ARF helmets, haha, but I know I've got plenty of refs for all of those, so I'll toss them in here...
Boil:
Waxer (The second image shows the back of his Phase I helmet, which is hard to find shots of, in the background behind Boil being awkward 😂 So he had the little droid silhouette on his helmet back then, too):
And some shots of both of their helmets (Waxer is on the far right in the last image—you can see his tally marks):
Their ARF helmets seem to cause a lot of confusion, as I've even seen merch that doesn't show the little Numa painting on Waxer's helmet, and most people seem to mix up who is who in that Landing at Point Rain episode (probably because the writers seem to have done so, as well, since they gave Boil the more cheerful dialogue while having Waxer complain—but maybe he was just having a bad day! 🥺).
There's also the horizontal band of gold paint Boil has under his visor attachment to match the paint on his regular helmets, as well as a grey stripe along the top of the helmet that's lined up with the red triangle on his visor attachment. Waxer has his 'crest' stripe of gold paint, of course, and it continues under his visor attachment a little bit, too. Then he's got his tally marks and snoot triangle. :D
One thing that I only noticed recently is the very faded ship silhouette (or however you interpret the black design on his other helmets) on the left side of his ARF one. In the second-to-last image above, you can just barely see something on his left side, but the only way I knew it was more than just dirt was because I have a little figure with the shape painted on it. Which is also not very visible:
(Thankfully, I don't think I've actually done any images where you can see the left side of Boil's ARF helmet, so I shouldn't have to add that to any of them, haha. Hopefully I haven't mentioned anything about the lack of symbol in any of my fics, though... XD)
I'm still unclear what is going on with the paint on his and Waxer's spaulders in the ARF episode, because it's obviously faded/been scuffed in places, but sometimes, Waxer seems to have an unpainted right spaulder, and sometimes there's a stripe??? His little figurine is the opposite, though, with a striped right spaulder and an unpainted left one. Meanwhile, Boil's left spaulder looks like it could be all painted gold, like in the figure above, but other times, it seems to be a normal stripe??? Who even knows—I'm guessing that the texture for their models got messed up during the production of the episode, so they're inconsistent. Personally, I'm just sticking with 'matching stripes on both sides,' like the rest of their armor. 😂
Anyway, I hope that helps!
#asks#waxer#boil#arf troopers#tcw#clone trooper helmets#arf trooper helmets#oh‚ to have detailed high-res asset sheets for all of their different kinds of armor... the dream#sw refs#arf trooper waxer#arf trooper boil#save
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I think I will try tagging more things I post with Mesopotamia-related tags people actually use as opposed to just my personal "#mesopotamian miscellanea" (I will retain it for organizational purposes); the state of the Mesopotamian mythology tag is abysmal 95% of the time so I don't think I can make the experience any worse for the average viewer.
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