#t: preorder
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Photo
[230504] hf_dreamcatcher Twitter Update:Â
[đ] Dreamcatcher(ë댟ěşěł) 8th Mini Album [Apocalypse : From us] Album Pre-order Opening Notice Please check the official fancafe for detailsâźď¸ đ cafe.daum.net/Dreamcatcher7/⌠*Platform version to be released later #Apocalypse #From_us
Transl: 7-Dreamers | Please do not take without credit
31 notes
¡
View notes
Text
t shirts soon mayhaps,,
#ramble#the damsons#brb making tour specific t shirts for this fictional vampire band#this would be so sick as a patch as well#this would probably be preorder only bc idk how many people would want them#btw making these is Not as hard as you think!!!!#every death metal font cost a LOT of money so i watched a youtube video and then did it myself
205 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Jim!!đ
#I preordered him back in October but they delayed a lot and then I found a store that could get it to me earlier!#Iâve been looking at the Spock apologetically for months because he looked lonely lmao#now Spock doesnât have to be alone đĽş#soulmates#spirk#star trek#star trek tos#james t kirk#spock#mego action figures
188 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Good morning, everyone! Showroom Certified pre-orders open TODAY, in just a couple of hours! (12 PM EST) Are you as excited as we are? đśđ¸đď¸
Today's countdown art is by @mochiinou!
#animatronics#chuck e cheese#disney parks#rock afire explosion#rockafire explosion#showbiz pizza#jasper t jowls#munch's make believe band#animatronic#fanzine#new zine#zine promo#zine preorders
22 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Babies, the lot of them
They're so messed up, I love them.
#traditional art#poppy playtime#poppy playtime chapter 3#smiling critters#i want all of them#I've preordered a Dogday plushie from the Mobgames website but he won't get here until May T^T
121 notes
¡
View notes
Text
#i´m going through med withdrawal and i have no judgement on whatever this is any good or not#i´ll either drop him on sunday/monday or open preorders for some previous halloween beasts depending on this#my psych: are we sure now is the time to lower the medication dose? me. a fool.: yes i don´t see why not (:
32 notes
¡
View notes
Text
oh mona ft. lxl shikishi how i miss you soâŚ
#i donât think iâve ever mentioned it (till now) but⌠this is the last surviving image i have of this shikishi#idk if it vanished during the moveâ˘ď¸ or if my mother threw it out by accident while i was quarantining in my âc-19 for daizoâ era#or if it just sprouted wings and flew off to become top idols one day⌠but itâs gone :(#im âforever glad that my past self decided to use it as the profile image for the tl account bc otherwise itâd be *gone* gone#thank you past me for the courtesy⌠i still think ur a dumbass for not keeping the shikishi safe in the first place in a memorable location#but thank you for at least giving me a little trace to remember it byâŚ#âŚanyways profile image on there is now asumona shikishi~~~~ got a cleaner pic of them while i was cleaning out the drawer so~~~~~#my miserable shikishi bonus count remains at 2⌠sighssss#missed out on vol 1 bc i bought from am.jp like a dumbass instead of checking for bonuses⌠vol 2âs vanished⌠and vol 3âs just didnt arrive#(which. incidentally. is also. like. a cautionary tale of why u should wait for bonus announcements before placing preordersâŚ)#(<-was dumb enough to preorder vol 3 the moment it went up [note: before the bonus announcements] and was shocked to receive no bonuses)#(idk if it was just a one time thing but iâd rather not risk it yâknow~~~~~~ proxy fees add up~~~~~~)#im just glad that i could buy vol 4 at ani.mate in-person (by chance)⌠though it did make my family think i had bought bl manga insteadâŚ#âŚanyway thatâs enough 4-5 am babbling for one dayâŚ#throwing this âpromiseâ here: if i can get up by 1pm im finally gonna clean the rest of the idolsengen chapters⌠no more procrastinatingâŚ#perhaps. maybe. idk. no guarantee.#either way nghy canon u agree y/y#<-cant stop shillinâ nghy (sorry <3)#t h o u g h speaking of nghy i found. like. 6 nghy stickers in my drawer (the one from the 4th charasong album kuji)#so i trimmed the cheki-esque borders off one of âem and now itâs sitting nicely in one of the card slots of my phone case~~~#cute lilâ âportable nghy that i can just flip up to look at whenever i want~~~~~~~
14 notes
¡
View notes
Text
The Summer Road
â The Moth and the Bear III â
Prologue
7416 words, no content warnings
Lera groaned. Sheâd been the healerâs apprentice for a year now and expected to be woken before sunrise on occasion, but expectation didnât make the experience any easier. The sky was still mostly black when her mother came into the bedroom and lit the lantern.
âArtem is here,â Leraâs mother whispered, gently brushing a strand of hair from her forehead. âHe says Emiliya needs you right away.â
Lera swatted at her motherâs hand. Why did she still insist on waking her up so sweetly, like she was a baby? She was turning fourteen soon. It was undignified. She rolled over and crammed her face into her pillow, but nevertheless grunted an acknowledgement.
As soon as her mother left the room, Lera dragged herself out of bed and got dressed. If the healer had sent a messenger to get her rather than coming herself, that meant she was busy with something important. Maybe an emergency? Leraâs stomach twisted in excitement and anxiety. She hoped it wasnât anything too gruesome⌠but perhaps just a little bit gruesome?Â
Maybe someone had stepped in a snapjaw trap again? Or been attacked by direroden? Or what if they had some sort of horrible boil? Or a foot twisted the wrong way around?
Lera shook her head and tried to banish the guilty thoughts.Â
Her hair was already in two black braids from the night before, so she was able to dress herself quickly and get going. Imagination still running a bit wild, she bade a quick farewell to her mother and stumbled out onto the porch into the cool, crisp morning air. She was wide awake and all prepared to launch herself off the porch in the direction of the healerâs hut, but Artem was there to stop her short with a firm hand on her shoulder.
âWhoa, hold it, Lera,â he grunted. The middle-aged messor was twitching in agitation, and his voice was strained. âIâll explain on the way. Thereâs no need to be so hasty.â
Lera threw a glance over her shoulder to the doorway, where her mother and father were watching with attentive concern. Artem gave them a respectful wave before turning to lead Lera down the steps and onto the street.Â
The smell of spring blossoms and dew drifted up from the scattered village gardens as they made their way towards the healerâs hut on the edge of town. Artem didnât speak to Lera again until they were out of her parentsâ earshot, and even then, his voice was nothing but a low, troubled hiss. âDid you hear what happened to the ferry?â
Leraâs heart flipped again. âI heard the line broke as it was crossing, but⌠wasnât that days ago? Did something else happen?â Another accident already? What has that damned unreliable ferry done this time? Capsized? Caught fire?
Artem shook his head. âWhat else did you hear?â
âWell, I⌠at the inn, they were saying when the line broke, they were rescued by a, uhâŚâ Lera stumbled over her words. This was the part sheâd dismissed as a tall tale when she heard it, some kind of prank the village jokester Yuri had convinced all his fellow ferry-goers to play on the rest of the village.
âAny excuse for a party,â Leraâs mother had sighed indulgently, rolling her eyes as Lera and her passed by the inn days ago. Inside, half the village had been celebrating the rescue of the ferry from certain doom.
Lera had laughed about it. It was so like Yuri to orchestrate an elaborate thing just to stir up revelry. As Lera was smiling to herself, sheâd heard Yuri belt out joyfully: âMead for the Medvedâ Beis!â
So silly. Haha.
But Artem wasnât laughing. The messorâs face was drawn taut, jaw clenched and eyes darting this way and that like a frightened cave rat. âRescued by a what, Lera?â
Lera didnât reply. She felt suddenly small and exposed walking down the road like this. She glanced around at the village, but nothing looked amiss. There were no toppled trees, no crushed houses. Not yet, anyway.
âI donât know how much choice any of us have here,â Artem went on once it became clear Lera wasnât going to answer, âbut Iâm sure Emiliya will understand if youâre too afraid-â
âIâm not afraid,â Lera blurted, like a liar.
Artem didnât look convinced, but he kept moving.
They were nearing the healerâs hut, but Artem shifted into a wary hunch, quietly leading Lera on a roundabout path that took them behind a storehouse. Lera was surprised to find several other people hiding there, some of them huddled on the ground with huge eyes, and others peeking around the corner of the storehouse to watch the healerâs hut like eavesdroppers.
Artem put a finger to his lips as he joined those crouching down in the cover of the storehouse, then gestured for Lera to look.
Heart in her throat, Lera inched towards the corner of the storehouse, quietly stepped up behind a fisherâs son, and leaned out.
What she saw confused her, at first. From this distance and in the dim pre-dawn light, she couldnât be certain what the shadows meant. There was the healerâs hut, which looked perfectly normal, and there was Emiliya the healer, standing on the porch in her nightgown, silver hair glowing in the lamplight thrown from the nearby window. She hadnât dressed yet, having just been woken moments ago. Woken by what?
There was something wrong with the scene, something surreal about it, like a wavering image in a pool of water. A huge dark mass, the color and shape of inconsequence, lay there in the middle of the road. Lera didnât remember there being a bush that big in front of the healerâs hut. The top of the thing was taller than the hut's thatched roof.
The mass shifted, and suddenly the illusion broke. It was no bush at all, but a creature, an enormous, furry creature the size and bulk of a house. It was laying down with its back to the storehouse and had its face hidden in the crook of its arm.
The healer was reaching for the creature as though to reassure it somehow, but had stopped herself. Concerned, but unsure.
Then the creature raised its huge head.
All anyone ever said to Lera about Medvedâ Beis was that it was bad luck to mention them. No one had ever explained how big they were, or how their shoulders bore a hump like the top of a mountain. No one had ever mentioned the subtleness of their presence, the way the eye wanted to slide off of them as if they were nothing more than foliage.Â
And no one ever mentioned anything about them being able to speak.
âIs there anything I can do to help?â it asked the healer, in a voice like the creaking timbers of a riverboat in a storm. Everyone watching from behind the storehouse corner flinched at the sound.
âUmâŚâ The healer looked amused, somehow. âIf I think of anything, Iâll let you know.â
Lera was dizzy. This was so bizarre.Â
âDo you see it?â Artem whispered to her.
Lera almost laughed at him. Do I see it?! There was a gigantic monster laying in the road not forty feet away, and Artem was wondering if sheâd seen it.Â
The creatureâs big round ears twitched, and then it turned to look at them, and Lera had to clap a hand over her mouth to keep from screaming in surprise.
It was looking at them, with enormous human eyes on a human face.
She and the rest of the eavesdroppers all threw themselves back behind the meager shelter of the storehouse, as though the ramshackle building would do anything to stop that beast. Lera and the fisherâs son crouched down beside each other against the splintery boards of the storehouse walls, holding their breath.
Artem was glancing between Lera and the healerâs hut in alarm, but as the seconds passed, nothing happened. In fact, it was Emiliyaâs voice Lera next heard.
âWell,â the healer chuckled, âperhaps you could help by moving a little? It seems my apprentice has arrived, and sheâs a little skittish.â
The Medvedâ Beis grumbled, âRightâŚâ as though this were such a normal thing, such a reasonable thing to be asked. There were a series of low thumps that sounded more like trees being felled than footsteps, and then silence again.
Lera looked at Artem, who nodded to her, and she steeled herself to peek around the corner again.
The Medvedâ Beis had moved around to the side of the healerâs hut and was sitting there on its haunches like a great hulking guard-rodi, staring with its flinty black eyes. Staring at Lera.
Leraâs knees were wobbling. Emiliya, who was waiting patiently for her on the stoop, waved encouragingly to Lera with one hand.
Between the corner of the storehouse and the hutâs stoop lay about forty feet of empty gravel road with absolutely nothing to sneak around or hide behind. Lera was going to have to either stride right out there in the open or not go at all. Not going at all definitely seemed like the more prudent option.
But there was Emiliya, the healer, Leraâs master, waving for her to come forward. So despite all orders from instinct and intelligence screaming for her to do otherwise, Lera took a deep breath and strode out.
As a child, Lera had once spent an afternoon watching a shiny green beetle crawl across her kitchen floor. The beetle was acutely aware of her and of its need to flee, but Lera entertained herself by cutting off its escape routes with her feet and hands. At the time, sheâd laughed at the beetleâs impotent attempts at escape. Sheâd enjoyed the game at the beetleâs expense.
Luckily for Lera, the Medvedâ Beis didnât seem interested in tormenting her as she had the helpless beetle. It just sat and stared. Even so, the creatureâs cold, suspicious glare was menacing enough. As she made for the hutâs stoop, doing her very best not to look up at the giant creature watching her approach, Lera suddenly felt for that beetle.
Without meaning to, Lera was running by the time she got to the stairs. She clambered up and past the healer into the hut with less grace than a newborn weglet.
âThatâs my girl,â Emiliya murmured to her as she passed, patting her on the back with a wizened hand, and underneath all the astonishment and nerves, Lera did feel a flourish of satisfaction.
The healer closed the door behind her as Lera looked around the familiar hut. There were two other people present: the healerâs husband Serhiy, who was stoking the stove in the corner, and a stranger Lera didnât recognize, a young woman who was sprawled on her side on the sickbed like a drunkard asleep in a gutter.
âLera, get her a blanket, just a light one,â the healer ordered, gesturing to the young womanâs unconscious form. âWe need to bring down her fever and get the air in here medicated as quickly as possible.â
Accustomed to being put to work as soon as she stepped into the hut, Lera had no trouble springing into action. She took a quilt out of the bedding cabinet and draped it over the girl, then went to help Serhiy prepare the stove to boil water. Meanwhile, the healer was gathering the ingredients for a fever tincture from the shelves on the north wall.
It all felt quite natural. There was a sick patient, and they were going to help her. Lera almost forgot that there was anything amiss. She tried to pretend there wasnât.
Once the fire in the stove was roaring happily, Lera helped Serhiy lift the big cauldron of water on top. The healer was finishing up the tincture and waddled over to the sickbed, swirling the cup with one hand. Her hair ran in a silver river down her crooked back, an odd sight. Usually the healer was much more put-together and had her hair up in a bun by the time Lera got to the hut.
âPut a handful of chamiweed in the water, Lera,â said the healer. âThereâll be more we need to add, but that will be a good start.â
Lera opened a nearby cabinet and found the big brown pot of dried chamiweed. She took a generous fistful and sprinkled it into the cauldron. The cold, spicy scent clung to her hand.
âSerhiy, please go outside and collect some fresh huilgrass. Lera, I need you to help her sit up.â The healerâs voice was calm and even as she gave orders. Perhaps that was why Serhiy didnât hesitate as he nodded and went out the front door.
Lera came around to the head of the bed and prepared to haul the young woman into a sitting position. Her hands shook as she rolled the woman onto her back. Sheâd had to do this many times before (Emiliya insisted you should never, ever give a sick person something to drink while they were laying down) so it wasnât the action itself that made her so nervous, it was keeping herself from looking out the window above the bed.
Lera positioned her arms under the womanâs shoulders and heaved her up into a sitting position. She was much heavier than she looked, with hard, well-muscled arms and shoulders, and her skin was piping hot to the touch. Her breath came shallow and rapid, and she shifted slightly in Leraâs arms, too weak to hold herself up. She felt strange, inhuman, but Lera told herself it was just because of the context.
Context being: There was a gigantic monster thing right outside.
The healer carefully poured the tincture into the girlâs mouth, and when it was done, she nodded to Lera and stepped back. Lera let the girl back down onto the bed, perhaps a little roughly. She was just so heavy. Lean and muscular and tough.
âWhatâs wrong with her?â Lera asked.
The healer put the cup down in the dish basin. âLetâs see if we canât find that out, shall we?â
With Serhiy still excused, Lera helped the healer undress the woman to give her a proper examination. With the quick, desperate way the woman was breathing, Lera expected to find some sort of horrible sucking wound to her ribs or chest, but there was nothing wrong with her anywhere, save a few odd scars and some missing toes. The most notable thing was a scar on her upper calf, a gash several inches long and likely a ghastly thing when it was fresh, but even that looked like it was more than a year old and well healed.
âSheâs a smith, Iâll bet,â Emiliya said. âThey always end up with a thousand little scars. Itâs a wonder they donât all die of lockjaw.â
âIs that whatâs wrong with her? Lockjaw?âÂ
Emiliya gave Lera a wry look. âYou tell me.â
Oh great, Lera thought. Sheâd walked right into that one. With a nervous sigh, she looked down at the girl again. âShe has a fever.â
âWell I told you that,â the healer snorted. âLook carefully. Ask more questions. Iâm sure youâre full of them.â The healerâs voice turned down a touch, growing more solemn than Lera was used to, as she murmured, âI certainly hope you are. I know I am.â
While Lera considered this, they dressed the sick woman in a soft nightgown and set her clothes aside. The healer took a rag from a drawer and dipped it in the nearby washbasin, wrung it out firmly, then handed the rag to Lera, who draped it over the sick womanâs forehead.
âAny thoughts?â urged the healer.
Lera watched a bead of sweat drip down the womanâs face, then looked up. âShe helped rescue the ferry?â
The healer nodded.
âYuri said she fell in the river,â Lera continued. âBut that was days ago. Didnât she come to the party at the inn?â
âIndeed. I met her there, and she seemed healthy at the time, but these things sometimes take days to develop.â
âCould she⌠have caught something? From the river?â
âIn a way. Do you remember what karaerien means?â
âVengeful water.â Lera stiffened, heart dropping. âItâs lung-fever, from inhaling water.â
âThatâs right. Tell me what you know about lung-fever.â
âI know it isnât good. Many die from it.â
âWho dies from it?â
âUm⌠mostly elders and children and babies, but-â
âHow old do you think this woman is?â
Lera looked at the womanâs face. She was twitching in her sleep, turning weakly this way and that. She had a long face, the sort of face that makes a person look rather solemn and older than their years, but she didnât look old. âIâd say⌠twenty?â
âYoung, then.â
âYeah.â
âDo you think sheâll live?â
Being asked so bluntly made Lera squirm, but that was just how things were with Emiliya. âYes, she seems strong. I think sheâll live, if we treat the lung-fever.â
The healer nodded slowly. âWhatâs the treatment for lung-fever?â
âBedrest and humid air. Plenty to drink. Um⌠keeping the fever down.â
âYes, good.â The healer smiled. âThe fever should go down in the next day or so now that weâre treating it, and when it does, she will wake up and start coughing enough to bring the roof down. What then?â
âSame as before, really. Warm drinks will help, but the coughing will clear the infection out. We shouldnât try to stop it.â
âPerfect,â said the healer, âbut now comes the tricky part, my dear. Thereâs no guarantee she will live. She may be young and strong, but the fever is very bad and coughing has sapped all her strength. If she dies, what should we do?â
Lera opened her mouth to give an automatic answer, then snapped it shut again. Usually when someone died in the healerâs care, the family would be told first and invited in to say their goodbyes. It was always such a slow, upsetting process, but it was something Lera was familiar with, at least.
But where was this womanâs family? Her friends? She was a traveler. As far as they knew, she had no one.
No one but the Medvedâ Beis.
âI donât⌠I donât know,â Lera said.
The healer fixed her with a keen stare, and her yellow-green eyes flashed as she asked, âWhat do you think that creature outside will do if his friend dies in our care, Lera?â
Lera whispered, âI donât know.â
The woman on the sickbed murmured wordlessly, her voice small and wavering. Lera turned the wet rag on her forehead over.Â
âNeither do I,â said the healer. âHopefully we wonât find out.â
Boots tromped up the steps outside, and the healer called out, âCome in!âÂ
Serhiy had returned with an armful of silvery huilgrass. He set the bundle down on the worktable and turned to them with a hearty sigh.
âWell,â he chuckled, âitâs been quite a morning.â
â§
The sun had risen, the air was thick with medicated steam, and everything was quiet. Lera was busy grinding up huilgrass into a mash at the worktable across from Serhiy.Â
The healer was sat in a chair beside the sickbed, stripping the leaves from a sprig of tansy. Just when Lera was starting to relax and let her mind wander, the healer turned to her apprentice with a knowing smirk and said, âSomeone needs to fetch more water.â
Someone. Lera glanced hopefully over at Serhiy working across from her, but he just pursed his lips and kept his eyes on the knife he was chopping huilgrass with.
Lera was always the one to fetch water. It wasnât proper for the elderly healer or her husband to have to carry the heavy buckets. Besides, it wasnât far. It wouldnât be hard.
The stone pestle Lera had been using clattered to the tabletop, and Lera jumped at the sound. Sheâd dropped it. Her hands were shaking.
âWell?â Serhiy grunted, not looking up.
âI-Iâll go,â Lera said. She got to her feet and ambled to the door. It had been a few hours, after all. Maybe the creature outside had gone away?
Lera crept out the door as quietly as possible, trying not to let it or the floor of the porch creak. Tentative as a field mouse, she peeked around the corner of the hut.
She was met with two giant black eyes watching her from yards away. Lera yelped and scrambled back inside.
Serhiy and Emiliya were staring at her with sardonic expressions.
âItâs still out there,â Lera explained, heart pounding as she leaned her back on the door.
Serhiy laughed. âOh, you donât say?âÂ
Lera went beet red, gaping at him. Had the old man forgotten what a Medvedâ Beis was?Â
The healer said, âWe need more water, Lera.â
âWh-what should I do?â
âTry to pretend he isnât there,â Serhiy replied, as nonchalant as if they were discussing one of the stewardâs nosy cronies.
âBut, what ifâŚâ What if it grabs me, or stomps on me? What if it chases me? What if itâs hungry? Lera fidgeted as her imagination went a bit out of control.
The healerâs face changed, a little concerned, as though she could see the things in Leraâs head. âPerhaps you should go with her, Serhiy.â
âOr perhaps you two should go out there and talk to him yourselves, eh?â Serhiy grumbled, and at that moment, Lera remembered something:Â
Serhiy had been on the ferry when it was rescued.
That creature outside had rescued him, rescued the charming Yuri, Jessa the messorâs wife and their five year old daughter Chaya, Leraâs aunt and uncle and their daughter Roza, and half a dozen others. Roza was a year younger than Lera and her best friend. Lera hadnât even asked her about the incident yet, so sure was she that it was merely one of Yuriâs wild tales. Guilt and confusion twisted up in Leraâs throat.
With her hand on the door handle, Lera swallowed hard and took a deep breath. She was going to get that damned water. The door creaked when she threw it open this time.
Lera kept her eyes down as she marched back out onto the porch and around the other side of the hut where the buckets and carrying pole were kept. She lifted the pole to her shoulders and was all prepared to stride right down the road past the Medvedâ Beis and not even look at him, as Serhiy had suggested, but she stumbled to a stop in the shadow of the stoop.
Tension gathered in Leraâs chest and started to escape as an involuntary whine, like the squealing lid on a pot of boiling water. She rallied herself, then stepped out.
Lera meant to walk calmly with her head held high, but as before, she found herself running, squealing all the way. She did her best not to look at the creature that was most definitely watching her as she scurried past.
Finally, she made it to the turn in the road where a big hedge of marshlion blocked line of sight again. She stopped to catch her breath, readjusting the carrying pole, then peeked out from behind the bush.
The Medvedâ Beis looked⌠rather a lot like Emiliya and Serhiy had just looked when sheâd run back into the hut. He was staring at her with one round eyebrow raised and a mocking smirk on his lips.
Oh great. Lera blushed again and hid behind the marshlion bush. She was making such a fool of herself today. Well, this fool has a job to do.
Lera made the rest of the short trek to the well and filled the buckets. By the time she finished and made her way back to the marshlion bush to peek out from behind its hairy green leaves, the Medvedâ Beis had laid down and wasnât watching for her anymore. He was curled around the rear corner of the healerâs hut and was resting his chin on one arm, staring into the middle distance. His bulk made the hut look miniature.
With full buckets, Lera knew she wouldnât be able to run this time. It took her a moment to gather her nerve, but when she got going again, the Medvedâ Beis didnât look at her. As she walked past him, he kept his gaze fixed on some meaningless spot on the ground, pretending to ignore her.
Despite herself, Lera slowed to a stop in front of him, looking him over. His eyes flicked to hers.
It was quite a lot of creature to be scrutinized by, but there was something about his face that captured Leraâs attention. Perhaps it was just because every minute movement was magnified by his size, but his face seemed so open and unguarded; hopeful, somehow, despite a somber cast that was scrunching up his eyes. He seemed young, likely the same age as the woman in the sickbed. Even though Leraâs knees felt weak, she couldnât help but be captivated.
âHas she woken up yet?â the Beis asked, voice low and rumbling and quiet like distant thunder.
Lera shook her head, and then she saw something very interesting.
Many times since beginning her apprenticeship, Lera had witnessed the healer give people bad news. Lera always watched their faces carefully, and every time she saw something a little different, and a little the same: grief, anger, frustration, hopelessness, despair, and every combination thereof.
And on the Medvedâ Beisâ huge face, Lera saw the same.
He blinked and looked at the ground, and his whole countenance dimmed, like a flame turned down in a lantern. He looked⌠sad. So indescribably sad. So sad that for a moment Lera felt almost like she was tipping forward and being sucked down into the gloom with him.
She leaned over to set the waterbuckets down, and suddenly the Beisâ bear-like ears flipped back. He shook his head as though to clear the expression off of his face, and just like that, all the sadness Lera had just seen was replaced with a cobbled-together mask of vague annoyance.
And Lera had seen that before as well. She smiled sympathetically at him.
âTry not to worry,â Lera said. âSheâs young and strong.â
âThatâs what the healer said, but death doesnât care if youâre young and strong,â the Beis grumbled, looking down at his claws. âIt takes what it wants, with whatever tools it has.â
âDeath canât want anything, itâs not a person, itâs just the absence of life.â It was something Lera had heard her mother say, but she flinched internally as she quoted it. Her master held a very different opinion.
The Beis smirked at her darkly. âYou think that makes it any better?â
âI uhâŚâ Lera stammered, terrified sheâd said something to offend him. âI donât- I mean, I guess not.â
The Beis stared at her for a second, a touch of disdain in the turn of his mouth, then he looked down again and dug at the grass with one shovel-sized claw. âMaybe giving desire to death makes losing to it sting a little less.â
Lera let out the breath she was holding, happy she hadnât irritated him too much. She almost leaned down to pick the water buckets back up, but hesitated when she glanced up at the Medvedâ Beis again. He was still digging idly at the grass, but the mask was slipping and the look of despair was peeking through. Lera couldnât help herself.
âWhat will you do?â she asked quietly, âif she dies?â
âGo home, I guessâŚâ he sighed.
Lera knew she ought to be thankful he hadnât said, âIâll destroy this tiny village and everyone in it.â Going home didnât sound like all that bad a thing to Lera. The words were benign, but the way the Beis said them made it seem like the very last thing he wanted to do. Alongside the resignation on his face, there was something more urgent, more weighty. Fear? What did he have waiting at home for him that was so terrible?
Just then, the sound of approaching feet down the gravel path caught their attention. Lera turned to see a group of people making their way down the road, shoulders squared and footsteps heavy with conviction. They were coming down from the opposite side of the hut from the Beis, so they couldnât have seen him laying there.
âOh, botherâŚâ Lera grumbled.
âWhat? Who is it?â asked the Beis.
âItâs the steward. Just a moment, Iâll take care of it.â Lera left the buckets where sheâd put them and went to meet the group.
ââScuse me,â Lera said loudly.Â
The steward and his three assistants tried to ignore Lera and made to go straight into the hut, but Lera quickly shuffled over to stand at the base of the stairs, blocking their path with her arms out.Â
The steward rocked back in surprise, gaping down at Lera as if sheâd just materialized out of thin air.
âDid you need to see the healer?â Lera asked.
The steward wrinkled his nose at her, indignation taking the place of surprise. âYes, I must see her right away.â
âIs someone sick?â
âNo.â The steward started to step around Lera, but Lera grabbed the stair banister to block him.
âYou canât go in. If you need to speak to the healer, Iâll get her.â
âAnd who are you to stop me?â
âIâm her apprentice.â
The stewardâs face twitched with annoyance, but he stepped back. âFine. Fetch her, quickly.â
âWhat shall I tell her is the reason?â
âJust get her already, child!â
Lera bit her lip, trying to maintain her grip on her manners. âIf I canât give her the reason for your visit, sheâs just going to send me back out here to get one.â
The steward scoffed and looked to one of his helpers, a brick wall of a man who blinked dully back at him like a frog. The steward stared at him a moment, as one would stare out a window to gather oneâs thoughts, then turned back to Lera with a pout under his trimmed beard.
âWeâre going to move the stranger from the healerâs sickbed to the inn,â the steward explained.Â
Lera frowned. âWhy?â
âWe cannot have the sickbed taken up by a⌠by aâŚâ The steward waved his hand around contemptuously in the air. âWhat if someone else needs it? One of our own?â
âDoes someone else need it?â
âNot yet, but-â
âThen that sounds like a stupid idea,â Lera huffed, then started, surprised at herself. She resisted the urge to clap a hand over her mouth and hurriedly said, âBut Iâll tell the healer what you want. Give me just a moment, please.â
The steward straightened his long robes with a scornful flourish. âVery well.â
Lera first went to fetch the water buckets. The Beis was watching her with a worried frown, so Lera put a covert finger to her lips as she took the buckets off the carrying pole. The steward hadnât noticed him yet, but it would certainly be hard to miss the Beisâs rumbling voice.
âIâll be right back, sir. Thank you for your patience,â Lera mumbled to the steward as she passed him again to carry the buckets inside.
Healer Emilyia was still sitting beside the sickbed with the tansy in her hands. She didnât look up from her work as Lera hauled the buckets over to the stove.
âWas that Maxim outside?â Emiliya asked.
âYes,â Lera grunted as Serhiy helped her lift one bucket up to pour carefully into the pot. âHe wants us to move her to the inn.â
âWe arenât moving her,â Emiliya said firmly.Â
âRightâŚâ The first bucket was enough to fill the pot, so Lera left the second in the corner for later and prepared to take the empty one back outside. âWhy would he want to move her, anyway? We have spare cots if someone else comes ill.â
âI doubt Maximâs concerned with that,â said Emiliya. âHeâs just throwing his weight around again.â
âHe may be attempting to head off rumors,â Serhiy suggested. âYou know how Lord Arseni is about Medvedâ Beis tales, and this has become rather more material than most tales he ventures to quash.â
Lera sighed, âSo, what should I tell him?â
Emiliya growled, âTell him to go suck up a lungful of river water.â
Lera went back outside with the empty bucket, to find the steward and his gang waiting where sheâd left them in various poses of impatience.
âShe said we canât move her. Sheâs too sick.â Lera set the bucket down beside the door and came to stand at the top of the steps.
âWegshit,â the steward grumbled, and started to come up the stairs. âLet me speak to her.â
âNo!â Lera barred the way. Standing on the topmost step put her eye-to-eye with the steward, which contributed to her boldness. âYou arenât in need of healing. Thereâs no reason for you to be here. Good day.â
The steward drew himself up, practically vibrating with frustration. âWhy you insubordinate-â
âGood day!â Lera said again, louder. Her legs felt wobbly, but she held steady.
The steward opened his mouth to say something else, then seemed to reconsider. He glanced down the road, where several neighbors were now watching the conversation with barely respectful interest.
The steward twitched, then without another word, turned and marched back down the steps and up the street the way heâd come. His helpers scrambled after him.
Lera let out a tense breath through her nose, watching the steward vanish around a corner, then ran down the steps to fetch the carrying pole sheâd left in the grass.
The Beisâs eyes were wide as he watched her.
âItâs alright,â Lera assured him. âI got him to leave, for now.â
âYou sounded like you knew what you were doing. I worry he wonât give up easily, though.â
Lera planted the carrying pole on the ground like a walking stick, satisfaction warming her chest at the compliment. âHeâs always meddling with the healerâs business, weâre quite used to it. He wants to be the boss of everyone.â
âYeahâŚâ the Beis grumbled. âI figured that.â
âDonât worry, we wonât let him bother her.â
The Beis nodded, though he didnât seem entirely assured.
Lera found herself staring at his face again. It was surprising how absorbing his expressions were, how human. âYou donât seem⌠youâre not what I expected a Medvedâ Beis to be like.â
The Beis exhaled heavily and rolled his eyes. âAnd you mean that as a compliment?â
âO-oh, I just meant youâre, uhâŚâ Lera gripped the carrying pole in front of her chest. âYouâre⌠more nice than I expected youâd be?â
ââNiceâŚââ Shaking his head, the Beis scoffed and kept his eyes on the sky.Â
âWell fine. Iâll take it back,â Lera snickered. âYouâre a grouch.â
Pursing his lips, the Beis glanced at her again, but he looked amused. âDonât you have work youâre supposed to be doing? Or something?â
Lera started. The healer was probably wondering what was going on. She fidgeted awkwardly for a moment, wondering what the conventions for leaving a Medvedâ Beisâs presence were. Should she bow? Salute? Wave?Â
âRight. Uh, bye then,â she said quickly, and hurried on her way.
â§
Lera had only returned to her work grinding herbs for a few short moments before voices outside the hut brought her back out. The steward and his men had returned, dragging with them a young man who seemed quite reluctant to be there.
âSirs, really, Iâm fine! The healer said I should just stay off it!â the young man pleaded, trying in vain to wriggle out of the grips of the men who were hauling him. He was holding one foot up, and his lack of balance made it impossible to get enough traction to stop himself.
âNo, youâre very ill,â the steward said dramatically. âDoes he not look ill, friends?â
âPallid as a corpse, he looks,â grumbled one of the helpers.
âDeathly ill,â said another.
The young man whimpered, eyes bulging as they dragged him. Evidently he knew better what was lurking around the healerâs hut than the steward did, or perhaps simply believed what heâd heard.
Lera sighed. She knew this young man, a worker who often took odd jobs around the village. Several days before, heâd tripped on an old plow left in the grass, and his toe had swollen up like a ripe plum. The healer had said it was merely bruised, but that it was healing fine and needed not to be aggravated; for example, by the stewardâs cronies forcing him to walk around pointlessly on it.
The group had arrived before the hut, and Lera crossed her arms as she took her place at the top of the steps.
âCan I help you, misters?â she said.
âThis man needs to be seen by the healer right away!â said the steward, head held high.
âDoes he, though?â Lera grumbled.
âHe does!â
âI donât think he doesâŚâ
The steward gasped, âYou would turn away a sick man? You would leave him to die?â
âHeâs not going to die. He has a stubbed toe.â
âLook at him! He can hardly stand!â
The worker stammered, âI can stand-â
âNo you canât, you need help,â the steward snapped, then turned back to Lera. âCanât you see he needs help?â
Lera sighed, shuffling her feet. The steward was right; she couldnât turn the worker away, but neither could she let the steward in. She turned for the door. âLet me ask-â
âHe needs to see the healer right away!â the steward said, and then waved for his helpers. âHelp him inside, men.â
âWait, hold on-â
The stewardâs men lifted the worker by his armpits and made for the stairs, holding him up like a battering ram.Â
Something moved in Leraâs peripheral vision. In the excitement sheâd almost forgotten about the creature hanging around the side of the hut. By the steward and his groupâs sudden stillness and wide eyes, they hadnât expected it at all.
The Beis had gotten to his feet and was hunched beside the porch, glaring stiffly down at the steward with a look of pure loathing.
The air crackled with tension, but no one moved. The stewardâs assistants were slowly letting the young workerâs arms slip through their grips until he hung awkwardly by his elbows, though he made no attempt to escape.
âYouâre not going in there,â the Beis finally rumbled.
The steward twitched, then shook himself off and straightened up, chin in the air.Â
âYouâve no authority over me,â he said, voice hitching as he tried to maintain his poise. âHis High Excellency Lord Marko Arseni himself has granted me stewardship of Nadporatzhe and its commonality, and the power to order it as I see fit. Your kind has no jurisdiction here.â
The Beis blinked and wrinkled his nose in confusion. âWhat does⌠what?â
âThis is none of your business!â the steward squawked, puffing out his chest.
The Beis just stared at the steward in stunned bewilderment, huge fluffy ears going eschew. The steward nodded sharply, taking the Beisâs silence to mean heâd won, and started to move towards the stairs again.
The Beis shook off his confusion, pinned his ears, and snarled.
It was a thick, raw sound, heavy with a genuine threat of violence. Bared fangs held the same implication as bared knives: that they were ready and able to bury themselves somewhere painful and inconvenient if something about the current situation didnât change immediately.
The steward went stiff and ashen. His helpers stumbled backwards, dropping the young worker onto his backside in the dirt.
Lera realized she was now watching the confrontation from between the slats of the porch banister. Somehow, sheâd crouched down without noticing.
The steward attempted to gather his nerve again, stammering out barely understandable contentions as he took unconscious steps backwards. âTo be⌠of all the schemes and⌠and stunts,â he blurted, puffing himself up like an affronted magpie.
His helpersâ eyes darted between him and the creature staring them all down. This was definitely more than theyâd signed up for.
The steward babbled on, âTo have a haksa in our healerâs care, itâs unconscionable. Itâs preposterous. And to then have her pet demon bar the way-â
The Beis jerked forward with another snarl. The porch railings Lera was gripping vibrated with the sound.
Apparently, that was enough for the steward. With an undignified yelp he turned on his heel and trotted away with his robes held up. His helpers scrambled after him, leaving the stricken worker sitting forgotten in the road.
The Beis shook out his mane with a disgruntled snort and sat back, watching the stewardâs retreat.Â
âHeâd better not be back,â the Beis grumbled, âunless he fancies getting flattened.â
Lera straightened up from behind the banister and made her way down to the worker, who was cautiously trying to get to his feet without taking his eyes off the irritated creature sitting just a few steps away.
âCome on, now,â Lera grunted, hauling the worker up by one elbow. âDid you want to see the healer? Or shall I help you back to your house?â
âUh⌠â
The Beis looked at him, black eyes narrowing.
âHome. Home please,â the worker whimpered, trying to hobble away without Leraâs help.Â
âAh, alright alright. Hold on.âÂ
Lera helped the worker back along the road, but it wasnât long before several others came out from behind cover to take over. The young man thanked her quietly as Artem the messor came over to take Leraâs place.
âGood job, Lera,â Artem whispered, patting her shoulder.
Lera stopped and stood in the middle of the road with her hands on her hips, watching the group help the worker limp slowly home, and all at once, she felt much older than she had when she woke up that morning.
When she turned back to the healerâs cottage, the Beis had retreated back out of sight on the other side of the hut. Lera hurried over, coming to find him laying with his shoulder pressed to the cottage wall. His eyes were downcast and round ears tucked back. He looked worried again, but this time seemed almost ashamed, as though expecting reproach for his behavior.Â
âWhatâs wrong, now?â Lera sighed. Moody thing.
âNothing, I justâŚâ he mumbled, wincing, âI probably should have let you handle that.â
âNo!â Lera barked. âOh, no no. What you did was great! Gods of the pines, I just wish my master had seen it.â Lera put a hand to her forehead and laughed. âOh, the look on his face. I hope I remember that always.â
âI just hope Iâm not stirring up too much trouble.â
âOh please, stir up all the trouble you want. Storm blows rain through the door and troubles out the window, thatâs what my mother always says.â
The Beis chuckled under his breath, then his eyes unfocused and he leaned his head wistfully against the hut wall.
âMy nameâs Lera, by the way. I should have introduced myself earlier. What is your name?â
The Beis replied without looking at her, âIâm Ruyak.â
âWhatâs it mean?â
This question surprised him. Ruyak blinked and cocked an eyebrow at her. âWhy do you want to know that?â
âOh, I didnât mean to be rude. Iâve never heard such a name before, and it reminds me of the language my master sometimes uses. Sheâs taught me many words, but that one I donât remember.â
Ruyak considered that for a moment, eyes cautious, and Lera opted to change the subject. âIs there anything you need?â
âNo. But⌠when Kaelin wakes up, will you tell me?â
âOf course.â
Ruyak closed his eyes. âThank you, Lera.â
Lera nodded, then turned and made her way back up to the porch. She ran her hand along the dry, splintery banister, momentarily swept up in a vision of the future, of a time decades from that moment.Â
Lera would tell this story to her children. She would call them over and gather them âround, smiling in the playful way her mother did when telling stories. She would kneel down and look into their eyes importantly.I met a Medvedâ Beis once, Lera would say to them. He was nice.
The Summer Road ebook preorders are available now!Â
kindle and everywhere else
Paperbacks are coming soon!
#aaah it's happening!!!!#book III is available for preorders!#tmatb#tmatb iii#indie author#authors on tumblr#g/t writing#sfw g/t#monster writing#the moth and the bear#grace o'hare
44 notes
¡
View notes
Text
can ppl in this fandom like... stop... implying that transmasculinity in hcs or (especially) canon is shallow or misogynistic or even transmisogynistic on princible, like literally just by being prescent in someones mind or in the text. like that doesnt fuckin feel good. thats kind of really nasty to imply. if its not okay to say about other trans experiences, maybe dont say it about this one either. why is there a weird little exception here. yall KNOW how much that sucks to hear all day every day. what the fuck
#my t#idk how to tell the hs fandom that every piece of trans coding in roxy in hs1 can be read as transmasc too. like transfem and transmasc#at the same time from the EXACT same reasons. its almost like we all share experiences just by way of being trans. weird i know#its almost like being trans rlly truly highlights what it is to be human and how we are all in fact at the end of the day human together#i just want everyone to stop trying to 'poke holes' in other fans trans hcs FULL STOP across the board no matter who they are#or what the hc is. its needlessly hurtful and more often than not trips into real peoples dysphoria which then#makes the target more likely to lash out. so the person poking them abt it can do a ''SEE? THEYRE ALL MEAN ONE OF THEM#WAS MEAN TO ME JUST NOW'' routine. its so obviously a 'im not touching u!!!' playground maneuver like holy fuck grow up#if you wanna fight for transfem/me folks right to just exist random fans personal headcanons is not the fuckin time or place#the XY in roxys name could be read as her having been DMAB or it could be hussie having a long running giggle about him preordering#his own transmasculinity. roxys colour being pink could be bc shes a girl or it could be compcis!!!#roxys desperation for a bf is from loneliness in canon but its often read as her feeling like she needs one to be a real girl#it can ALSO be read as another aspect of him struggling with compcis and comphet esp w/ his fantasies abt being 'a mother'#yknow what i never fuckin see that rlly highlights the fact that this is just a shitty 'girls rule boys drool' thing? theres like. no#discussions on the potential of roxy being any kinda intersex. absolutely none. he could be mtftm for all you fuckin know#but oh yknow being mtftm is A Shallow Read so we cant have that. hs is only for girls didnt you know we need to terf- i mean turf#out every single instance of queer mascness bc its Evil in the text didnt you know#god help the fandoms word of god token trans boy dirk strider for 'choosing' his eternal misery while everyone else is enlightened#by way of transforming into a girl. bc we must place girlhood on an inhuman pedistal of perfection and niceness and joy and rainbows#like what IS this mahou shojo brand gender essentialism???? im fuckin sick of it#can we remember that girlhood isnt & wasnt safe or joyful for everyone & that that can translate into how we curate our fandom experiences
25 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Book Haul: Preorder Edition!
Apparently 1.) I preordered quite a few books and 2.) a BUNCH of them came out in early June. Very excited for these! Now catch me not reading them for months.
#books#book photography#my photography#book haul#preorders#mirrored heavens#rebecca roanhorse#between earth and sky#the archive undying#emma mieko candon#a house with good bones#t. kingfisher#the first bright thing#j. r. dawson#paperbacks my beloved#i'm saving GOOD BONES for nano prep#UNDYING and BRIGHT THING are not quite the nano vibes#and ofc MIRRORED HEAVENS is book 3 of a trilogy i haven't started yet#(but i do love roanhorse so i've been grabbing these as they come out and shelving them until the series was completed)#(i'm not getting burnt again like i did on TRAIL OF LIGHTNING lol)#i've just had all these books stacked up on my side writing table and i need them Shelved probably#but i'm out of shelf space (again)(house whenmst)#so i'm not sure where to put them....
32 notes
¡
View notes
Text
I'm taking part in a T-shirt design challenge held by RawPaw ink, an Austin, TX based print shop. If you'd like a neat shirt with a little bat boy dreaming of being a rockstar, feel free to check out the link below!
Preorders for this shirt close on September 4th at 12pm CST!
29 notes
¡
View notes
Photo
[230511] hf_dreamcatcher Twitter Update:Â
[đ] Dreamcatcher(ë댟ěşěł) 8th Mini Album [Apocalypse : From us] Platform Album Pre-order Opening Notice Please check the official fancafe for detailsâźď¸ đ cafe.daum.net/Dreamcatcher7/⌠#Apocalypse #From_us
Transl: 7-Dreamers | Please do not take without credit
20 notes
¡
View notes
Text
PRINT COPY OF TAI SUI VOL 1 ACQUIRED!!
It's here it's real I can hold it in my hands!!
I'm genuinely so hyped about this holy shit
#I've never ordered from aliexpress before so I was like. a little scared something was gonna go wrong with the order#but no. it's here it's sitting next to me right now#w stickers and prints of my beautiful son xi ping#It's *such* a gorgeous printing omg#I am v i b r a t i n g#I've been waiting for this for the better part of a month#funny how it finally arrived the day I placed a preorder for a fancy print copy of the official LY translation#this is the andie gets priest novels day I guess#tai sui#tai sui priest#invasion of the frogs
7 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Preorders for my screen printed Glow in the Dark Witchy Pokemon shirt open this Friday the 13th đťđ if you preorder the shirt, you get free shipping and a free Glowy Ghost Girl sticker! The preorders will only be up for a short amount of time. Only at karinamorenoart.com
#pokemon#ghost type pokemon#witchy#witch#hex maniac#preorder#t shirt design#tshirt#Halloween#karinamorenoart
7 notes
¡
View notes
Text
STERN BILD STYLE PRE-ORDERS NOW OPEN!!!
Bonjour Heroes! Are you ready for the fashion event of the year? Stern Bild Style Pre-Orders are now OPEN!!!
đhttps://sternbildstyle.bigcartel.com/
#tiger and bunny#tiger and bunny 2#t&b#tiger and bunny zine#fanzine#zine preorders#barnaby brooks jr#kotetsu t. kaburagi
79 notes
¡
View notes
Text
Tbh I'm at a point in my life when I'm thinking about vampires with like. 10% of my brain at any given moment
#k talks#read Carmilla last spring->rewatch the lost boys this fall w/ friends->read silver under nightfall->write essay on carmilla+the lost boys#->read Fangs->preorder emily carroll's lesbian vampire graphic novel->read an education in malice by S. T. Gibson#I... love vampires. I love gothic fiction I love bloodlust I love the undead I love enthrallment!!!!!#it's just sick and cool. blood. and castles. and turning into a bat or wolf. and drinking blood#and living forever. and grappling with immortality and endless youth. and cool outfits!!!!!!#I need to read more Carmilla retellings I fucking love carmilla dude.#as much as I love textually gay stuff I actually love the repression in the og Carmilla and the fucked up identity reveals and the drama
14 notes
¡
View notes