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Brothers in Arms and Odds (TMNT 2012)
@tmnt-write-fight Attack For @bambiraptorx
A big thank you @awildaspenappeared for helping me write this!
Author Note
Totally not listening to brothers in arms while writing this.
I will probably move this to A03 When I can make an account
Summary
Splinter’s death had left the four brother's relationships strained with tensions high and simply surviving with a false sense of routine and pretending to cope with their Father’s passing. Due to the lack of proper training, self care and especially sleep, a simple fight of the remains of The Foot had them retreating defeated and injured. Tensions snapped and two brothers have to work through their differences and insecurities to move on and start to heal.
OR TLDR: Raph gets his ass beat and he and Leo have a bitch fight before making up.
Word count: 2,560
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A few weeks have passed since Splinter’s death, and no one within the Hamato household is coping well with it. Each of them is dealing with the loss in their own way. Every moment drags on, an endless cycle of distraction and mindless routine.
Michelangelo sleeps most of the time, choosing to avoid the harsh reality of Splinter's absence. This time, there’s no futuristic robot to reverse what’s happened—no way to bring Splinter back. It’s a truth Mikey isn’t ready to face. In his dreams, at least, everything remains as it was, and he’s willing to stay in that world for as long as possible.
Raphael throws himself into his training, his hits growing fiercer with every session. The training dummy doesn’t stand a chance under the relentless barrage of attacks. It’s Chompy, his pet, that occasionally breaks his cycle of aggression. The tenderness with which Raph feeds his alien turtle contrasts sharply with his damaged knuckles and shaky hands, consequences of pushing himself too hard.
Donatello hides away in his lab, avoiding sleep entirely. Every attempt to rest ends in nightmares, haunting him with visions of their father’s death. His near-death experience looms over him too, a constant reminder of how close they came to losing not one, but two family members. So, he focuses obsessively on his ever growing list of to-dos and projects: rebuilding Metalhead, upgrading the Shellraiser, anything he can think of to keep his mind occupied.
Leonardo tries to hold it all together, determined to live up to Splinter’s last command: to be the new sensei. It’s an overwhelming responsibility, but he refuses to let his father down, or his brothers. The weight of leadership is heavier now, after everything they’ve endured, and though the burden grows each day, Leo keeps pushing forward.
The only time the brothers talk anymore is during patrols, and even then, their coordination is lacking. The once effortless flow between them feels now disrupted. Mikey has lost his usual spark, Raph seems more reckless, willing to dive into fights without a second thought, and Donnie appears unfocused, his dislike for his staff more evident than ever. As for Leo, all he can do is watch, trying to lead while feeling like his brothers are slipping further into their own dark cycles.
One night as they race across the rooftops, recent sightings of the Foot Clan in the area bring them to a familiar abandoned warehouse. Smoke billows from the building, and the urgency propels them forward. But when they skid to a stop, Mikey’s momentum sends him over the edge. Leo’s heart leaps into his throat, but he catches Mikey by the lip of his shell in a swift, practiced motion. He put Mikey back on the roof.
Leo breathes in and out, counting under his breath, “One, two, and three,” steadying his nerves. His eyes scan the scene below. Among the Foot soldiers, he spots Tiger Claw and Baxter Stockman—two familiar foes.
He exhales slowly, his mind clearing as he formulates a plan. With a calm, steady voice, he delegates. “Alright, Raph, you’re on Foot duty. Just... don’t break the soldiers like you do the bots. Donnie, I need you to hack into Stockman’s tablet, disarm the Mousers, and gather any intel. Mikey, distract Stockboy, annoy him as much as you can. I’ll take care of Tiger Claw. Understood?”
He didn’t wait for an answer before he kicked off of the roof and flipped as he crashed into the scene very loudly. “Takeshi!” Leonardo yelled. There was no mistaking the mirth in the tiger’s eyes and Leo wasn’t about to give him any more advantages so he rushed forwards, drawing his blades.
The beat of his heart thudded in his tympanum, deafening the clash of Leonardo’s twin katanas locked on Tigerclaw’s machete. Leo felt like he had to take on the biggest threat alone and honestly, Barry Stackmen was not even close to the hardest villain they had to fight. He felt confident to let the other’s handle him without his constant surveillance. He could trust his team.
That was the case until Raph decided the robots weren’t enough of a challenge, his sais spinning in his hands before he steadied them. The middle child running after Tigerclaw, his movements rather unfocused and emotion driven as if this were just another training dummy. Leonardo found himself clutching to his katana’s tighter, he felt worry and annoyance bubble up inside him, “Raph! What are you doing!” He exclaimed in annoyance, turning into anger that seeped venom into his words. “You could’ve gotten hurt or in my way! You-”
Raph would grit his teeth, barely dodging an ice bullet from the enemy. “Yeah? Let you baby us and get hurt? What are you trying to do here Leo? Sacrifice yourself again? Join Spl-” “Raph! Leo! Enough dudes!” Michelangelo interrupts in exasperation. He was tired of their stupid, petty drama that pulled him out of The Zone, trademarked by Dr. Naminstein. He then proceeded to shriek as a Mouser barrelled into the back of his legs that he hadn’t been paying attention to.
Raphael and Leonardo whipped their heads round to the unyielding screech. “Mikey!” They yelled in unison, fear settling deep into them. This unfortunately left them distracted to the original threat facing them. Leo watched helplessly as a flash of red crossed his vision and he saw Raphael landing on the ground. Evidently after being hit with one of Tigerclaw’s lazer’s, a second shot following when his brother tried to get back to his feet.
Leo couldn’t afford to hesitate yet he found his feet glued to the concrete. A Mouser then attempted to bite his arm which shook him back to reality. He saw Mikey and Donnie together, easily fighting off the scientist but the original objective long abandoned.
Raphael was hurt and still climbing to his feet so Leo did the only thing that made sense. He slid in between his brother and Tigerclaw and as loudly as his hoarse voice could go and yelled. “Retreat!”
The safety of the smoke bomb flooded his vision as it exploded on the ground. He hoisted Raph over his shoulders and slunk into the shadows, fleeing back to the rooftops to cooperate. He shoved the fear that they would be followed down until he saw Donnie and Mikey hop over the ledge and join him. Instant relief almost had him forgetting the next plan of action.
With a nod he started sprinting off, ignoring Raphael’s protests and weak hits and demands to be put down. Usually he would’ve quipped back or at least argued with Leo but his silence was deemed serious enough to Raph that he stopped shortly thereafter. Mikey and Donnie were also quiet, even with Mikey’s occasional quips which were more sparse and weaker than usual. All this to say that the journey back had Leo’s body on autopilot and his mind running on overdrive about his failure. He had failed Splinter, his promise to keep his brothers safe, to be a leader and like a sensei and father to them, to be the front line. He had failed- was failing his brothers, his world, his purpose by being inadequate and was he so untrained and indigent that he got so easily distracted in a simple fight to get his brothers hurt was he so useless that- The familiar creak of the turnstiles after they were knocked rang in his ears and brought his mind back to the present. Leonardo let himself take presence in the now. He dumped Raph on the sofa in a more gentle manner, that was more of habit than response considering how hurt his brother was. Leo finally broke his silence. “What were you thinking? Why did you think getting in the way was a good idea you moron.” He then turned to Donnie and had a drastic change to a clear cut and icy tone instead of the fire that had erupted seconds before. “Can you grab the first aid kit for me?”
Raphael’s veins were hotter than lava and his nerves were all fried as he held his anger in. He wanted to scream at his brother, the mental bomb ticking away until Mikey left the room, “what was I thinking?” He laughed bitterly, “What was I thinking? You wanna know what I was thinking? Or do you want to stay on your self righteous high horse and keep pretending everything is fine!”
“Self righteous high horse-?” Leonardo would begin with disinfecting the shots on Raph’s wrist and thigh with a wipe. Luckily it looked mostly surface level for now. “Really? I’m trying to make sure everyone is okay Raph!”
“You’re trying to make sure everyone is okay? What about yourself?!”
“I’m fine Raph, and none of this is about me. I need to make sure you all are okay.” Raph kept pulling away when he had pressed too hard and Leo kept harshly dragging the limbs back in place. “Stay still!”
“None of us are fine Leo, you pretending you are is frustrating!!”
“At least I am trying to help everyone feel better!”
“No, you're trying to replace Splinter!-” there was a moment of silence before Raph would get up, not bothering to wait for Leo to be finished helping him anymore. “It’s like I said before! You were always his favorite and it's no wonder. Now you are even trying to be him!” He snapped before grabbing his sais in his uninjured hand and leaving. Heading out towards the sewers.
Leonardo got up, and made an attempt to go after Raph, however a hand on his shell would stop him, “Let him go bro. He will only get more mad if you try and talk to him now.” Mikey would say softly to his brother.
Minutes would turn into hours as time ticked on, Rapheal having not returned home yet. Leonardo left passing around the commons, eyeing the clock every now and again as he passed it. Eventually he decided enough was enough, it was time to check on his brother, what if he got hurt more? What if Tigerclaw got him? What if he officially quit unlike the 27 other times he has?
Anxiety tearing away at the eldest’s thoughts, till eventually it led him out the lair when he couldn’t just sit back and worry anymore. Running through sewers then moving his focus onto the city, jumping rooftop to rooftop, cold air burning his lungs but he couldn’t bring himself to stop. That was until he noticed a figure sitting in front of him, the door to the rooftop left dented and damaged from having been hit assumingly by his brother.
There was silence, but Raph made a motion to move a sai out of the spot next to him, showing the other he knew the other was there. Allowing him a chance to sit by him, not knowing what to expect out of this action. Though it is one that took Leonardo off guard, he expected to be sent away or need to plea his case as to why he should stay.
Leonardo joined Raph sitting at the ledge of the rooftop, as they both looked out into the dark city.The eldest would finally say, feeling a sinking pain in his chest at the reaction. "Yeah, and how's that working out for you?” Raph’s voice was harsher than he meant, the younger of the two soon moving to get up, however felt a hand on his shoulder keeping him from leaving.
Leo sputtered in protest. “What do you mean, ‘Working out for me? You’re my brother!” Leo sighed and let the fury leave his body. “Look, Raph you can’t keep putting yourself in danger like that. It-I-I can’t keep you safe if you just rush in like that. That’s all I want.”
“You are such an-” “Raphael.” “A hypocrite.” “What? Raph.” “Just listen, Fearless. It’s not your fudging job to protect me. I’m a big turtle and I don’t need you acting like my dad. I had one of them and that was enough for me. I need my brother. I need you to trust me. I ain’t gonna sugar-coat it, Princess. I did get hurt because of you.” Raphael peeled his gaze from the first crackles of dawn on the horizon and landed on his brother’s icy blue eyes filled with fear. Raph could assume he thought his fears were confirmed. He continued, in lieu of his brother’s painful expression and taut shoulders. “That was because you decided to fight me instead of working with me to take down Tiger-face. You decided being a hero and the sole fighter was more important and you didn’t trust me to help. I had already taken out all the stupid, mindless foot soldiers and I came to help your dumb-” A loud blare of a car horn interrupted Raph and broke his flow. It shut off almost immediately and Raph let out a sigh. “Leo. Can you see what I’m trynna say? I-I don’t need you to bear the weight of everything and throw yourself into everything with the bare bones of a plan based on stupid emotions.” Raph could feel the little emotion he let surface start to make him cringe so he lightly punched Leo’s arm for good measure which caused a bubble of laughter. “Alright, alright.” Leo smiles softly and turns his gaze to the rising embers of the morning. “It's just that It has always been my job to look after you three. Splinter… being gone just made me realise I have no one else to help anymore but… you guys aren’t little kids anymore. I should trust you guys more, I just…”
Leo looked at his hands in his lap and fiddled them together, knowingly avoiding his brother’s frown. He couldn’t look at such a harsh gaze right now knowing he was not only the cause but why it was unwavering. He let the swirling storm of thoughts in his head condense further. He didn’t need to unload that mental baggage right now. Instead he’d do something productive for Raphael, and all his little brothers. It would just also benefit himself too.
“I’m going to try and trust you more. All of you. It won’t be easy but-” “If anyone can do it, it's you, Mr Practice-makes-perfect.” As Raphael spoke he hooked an elbow around his elder brother’s neck, dragged his ugly head down and noogied the scales light heartedly.
“Get off! Raph!” Raph softened at the giggles that bubbled up. Sounds unheard since long before their Sensei’s passing. Raph let his victim go and stood up. He offered a hand with a mirthful grin. “Let’s go home, Leo-nerd-o.” Leo wasn’t born yesterday and betted the hand that would inevitably lead to a headlock or sharp yank or worse and stood up. “Last one home has to get Donnie to eat a full meal!” Leo called a second after he had already started running and lept from the rooftop. Things weren’t perfect. But they would be okay. This was probably the first talk of many- with all of his brothers. Things would never be the same but that was alright. Leo had his brothers.
Maybe one day he wouldn’t put his own life worth under those he cared for but that wasn’t likely.
#Leonardo 2012#Raphael 2012#TMNT 2012#Sunset Duo#This fic can hold so much angst#angst with comfort#Raph gets lasered#Bros are NOT coping#unhealthy coping mechanisms#do not copy the turtles no matter how much gender envy they give you#surface wounds#non graphic violence and consequences#the girls fight tooth and nail verbally#Raph has the restraint of a Goddess#Raphael got thrown in the trashcan while writing this#TMNT-write-fight
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His dark child, his love, evil of his evil. The one who broke his heart.
#my art#interview with the vampire#iwtv#interview with the vampire amc#iwtv amc#iwtv fanart#iwtv art#the vampire claudia#lestat de lioncourt#dreamstat#claudia de lioncourt you might have even said except she’d have bitten your head off immediately#doesn’t make it less true though does it#also I love how on this doodle the ‘bleeding/broken heart’ of lestat also looks like a wound from the knife in the back#like it’s making me a little unwell just thinking about it because both of them would deny vehemently the use of that phrase for their circs#and yet and yet… someone with only surface level of knowledge about what happened and from a certain perspective…#could definitely throw that idiom around… and get their head bitten off yep we return to the starting point
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Seeing as the Gerudo turned on Ganon, he might not have been that much better of a ruler.
First of all, we literally have no idea, because the only ancient Gerudo that we actually get to interact with is Ganondorf himself, and he has nothing to say about his own people. The ancient Gerudo sage doesn't count btw, she doesn't have a name, we never even see her face, and she has literally nothing to say except repeating the exact same dialogue as the sages for the other races. The narrative does not treat the ancient sages as people; they are four completely interchangable weapons that are owned by the royal family.
And secondly, I don't care how Ganon ruled them; the Gerudo only get one man every century, if their king sucks, they've obviously got their own system of government to fall back on. I have no idea what kind of authority the sages had among their own people, but honestly I'd say if the four of them were in charge of their respective people, then they were just puppet rulers appointed by Rauru, given that all four of them happily agreed that to sell their entire race into servitude the second Zelda asked them. Say what you will about Ganondorf, but I fucking know that if he was told the Gerudo people existed for the sole purpose of serving the glory of Hyrule, he'd drop kick Zelda into the fucking sun.
And don't get me started on the implications of the cultural differences we see between the independent Gerudo and the annexed Gerudo. The background Gerudo characters all have their own models, and we can clearly see that the ones siding with Ganon have their own unique looks - for example, the amazing lady with the mohawk that summons the molduga swarm in that one flashback. And men are never mentioned in these flashbacks at all, which implies that the Gerudo genuinely didn't care about settling down. Ganon even speaks derisively about marriage, implying that it's very rare for Gerudo women to make serious romantic commitments with men. It implies that their culture is more along the same line as their portrayal in OOT - they are a closed culture. Men trying to force their way into their areas are arrested, and mocked for being entitled dumbasses. Outsiders are only welcome if they can prove that they respect the Gerudo as people, and aren't just there to try and pick up chicks. It's never outright said, but OOT also makes it pretty clear that the Gerudo women just aren't interested in marrying outsiders - close relationships occur with other Gerudo, Hylian men are only considered useful for making babies.
Meanwhile the Gerudo we see serving Hyrule are all trying to measure up to Hylian beauty standards, and appeal to their men. Their one goal in life is to meet a man and get married. Men are welcome in their lands, and only kept out of the town itself... and even then, there's a small army of guys trying to force their way into the town anyways, which is brushed off as just haha, boys will be boys. No men allowed isn't even about independence, it's just a silly romantic tradition.
Of course this is just a fictional culture in a game world, but it's still really fucking uncomfortable that the 'evil' Gerudo are the ones that have independence, both politically and socially, and display a unique culture that refuses to tolerate disrespect from outsiders. Meanwhile the 'good' Gerudo are the ones that canonically exist to serve a kingdom where 95% of the population is light skinned (even setting aside the unfortunate implications, just saying one race exists to serve a different one is super fucked up), they have classes on how to be more appealing to Hylian's, and their entire social structure is built around finding a Hylian man to marry, making them all inherently dependent on the goodwill of outsiders. Even their biggest value of 'women only' is treated as a joke; men trying to trespass in BOTW are just shoved back out the door, letting them keep trying all day if they want. The crowds of men plotting to force their way in are laughed off as a joke. Nobody cares that there's a guy running laps around their city walls and trying to trick women into being alone with him. I mean for fucks sake, in TOTK we find that the creepy guy trying to lure women away has taken advantage of a massive disaster to get into the town, and he's still there once things return to normal. You can't kick him out, or alert anyone to his presence. And the Gerudo just tolerate Hylians blatantly ignoring their boundaries. For fucks sake, TOTK even reveals that the seven legendary heroines they've been revering the whole time were actually completely useless and unable to achieve anything... because they needed the eighth hero, a Hylian man to teach them basic tactics and do all the heavy lifting.
TOTK does not respect the Gerudo people in the slightest. It doesn't respect anyone who isn't Hylian or Zonai.
...This got a little off track, but the point I'm trying to make is, no, I don't consider the Gerudo turning on Ganon to mean anything. The entire game does not feel like the real story of what happened, it feels like the propaganda version of history meant to make Hyrule look as good as possible. I genuinely cannot believe that we're being told the real story about the Imprisoning War, because none of it feels real, and we don't get to know any details that might have made Hyrule look even slightly imperfect. We're told that Ganondorf is evil because he hates Hyrule, and he hates Hyrule because he's evil. The Gerudo people followed Ganondorf and saw him as a hero of their people, then suddenly he was their worst enemy. Hyrule is a perfect kingdom that has strong, equal alliances with the other races, but also all of the non-Hylian races exist for the sole purpose of serving Hyrule, and their leaders are expected to swear eternal loyalty and submission to the Hylian royal family. King Rauru and Queen Sonia united all of the races in peace and equality, which is why they're sitting on the world's supply of magical nuclear missiles, and every member of the Hylian royal family is allowed to walk around wearing them as cute accessories, but everyone else only gets them at the last second, and they all need to outright swear to only use that power to benefit Rauru and his descendants.
There's just so many fucked up contradictions, and so many hints of something more nuanced going on... but the story refuses to acknowledge any of it, and just keeps aggressively pushing the narrative that Hyrule is the ultimate good and couldn't possibly do anything wrong. I don't even believe that Ganon was a bad king honestly; we never hear why his people stopped following him. We also never even see if the Gerudo people turned on him at all; all we know is the ancient Gerudo sage wanted him dead, and given that she also happily sold her people into slavery, she's not exactly the most trustworthy source of information. All we know is that Ganondorf was a hero to his people, only one of his citizens is ever shown having an issue with him (and her motives are never explained), and then he lost the war and was sealed away, leaving his people open to be conquered by Zelda and annexed into Hyrule. By the time we see any Gerudo actually opposing Ganon (apart from the ancient sage), it's been ten thousand years since the war, and all anyone knows is the Hylian version of the story.
#tears of the kingdom spoilers#tears of the kingdom#ganondorf#the secret bonus reason for me arguing about this so much is that it's interesting#on a surface reading TOTK is a really boring story. nothing changes nobody learns anything there's no nuance#the game explains the entire story to us in the opening cutscene. idk why they bothered with the rest of the game#you could walk down those stairs in the intro and kill ganon immediately and it'd be pretty much the exact same story#if i take the game at face value then there's literally nothing to talk about. i just straight up do not care.#but analyzing all the fucked up implications nintendo accidentally included? now thats a story to talk about#i dont think ganondorf is secretly a really nice guy. i think he's more interesting if he's actually a complete bastard#but he's a complete bastard that has a point and if the game wont acknowledge that then i will#sure the people he's fighting against seem nice. but they're not actually good people#i mean ffs zelda certainly doesnt seem concerned that she last saw link taking a fatal blow for her then jumping into a bottomless pit#she doesn't even consider that he might be dead. or just unable/unwilling to fight after being horrifically wounded#at least BOTW had the decency to ask Link if he was willing to risk his life to fight ganon
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yes i am the biggest advocate of surrogate father haymitch & adopted daughter katniss but like. they're so Awful. they've not got a mother/daughter relationship, they've got that father/daughter relationship where the dad is both reaching for a connection and rejecting the thing that he made because she's too much like him, too close to what he is and far away from it because of her potential and the daughter rejects because she doesn't understand him. understanding him is understanding herself. caring for him is caring for herself. and then she's awful to him because she doesn't understand and doesn't want to understand. and he's rejectful of her because she's got so many traits that are for the worse and not for the better. their similarities don't hurt nearly as much as what their differencee impale them with. it will always be what katniss could be (haymitch), and what haymitch prevented/could've been (katniss.)
#“haymitch treats katniss a certain way because he sees himself in her”#which is true!#haymitch objectively is tough on her in ways he would've been with himself#and he cares for her because he sees what wounds she has and knows that support and care will slowly patch them#he's dismissive of her often and doubtful and a little cruel tongued when it comes to her#but it always circles back to a fondness and love#katniss constantly rips the patches off. she isn't trying to understand his care or wants it inherently#she treats him surface level. he goes under the iceberg and they both find things they don't like#she's prejudiced to him because of his outside traits. she waits until she's forcefully sucked into his real face to be sympathetic#haymitch knows her real face. which looks an awful lot like his and *feels* like his to the point where he projects onto her#but she's different. and it's again the empathy/lacking empathy conversation and such#i could bring up every moment of their agrees/disagrees and the times where they tear each other down#but the thing is that it's not JUST because they're the same. it's because they're so different and still HAVE similarities#haymitch abernathy#katniss everdeen#the hunger games#thg#catching fire#mockingjay#the hunger games trilogy#thg analysis
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WHY DID DRAGATO DREW HIS SWORD, I thought he and MK got along-
a continuation of this ask
There was a conversation going on before Dragato arrived.
Tensions were high. The GSA was losing the war. He overheard some things.
And he didn't take to them well.
#post's rambles#meta knight#sir dragato#sir falspar#kirby right back at ya#post's doodle bin#if you've read 'dumb luck' then you know how tightly wound dragato is beneath the surface and how close he can be to having it set off#but you've yet to witness the full extent of dragato's care for falspar until he throws himself at someone with murder in his eyes#and a sword in his hand#MK is not doing so good#he is about to be doing even less good
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Inspired by the fucked headache I had last week I came up with a new hc - when home, Edge will use an eyepatch over his left eye whenever he has/is getting a migraine, since the pain is worse on that side due to the scar
He would never wear it in public but that's not usually a problem since he becomes very light sensitive with migraines and wouldn't be leaving the house for anything less than a dire emergency anyway
#sans absolutely poked fun abt a little but not too much bc he can't risk actually embarrassing papyrus abt smth useful/an accommodation or#he'll stop using it. so just a little teasing here and there abt undyne or pirates. but then he drops it#i know this wasnt the point of the post but i just really need anyone who sees this to know that the uf brothers care abt each other so#much but they're so uncertain how to broach it so sometimes they yell or mock or what have you but they are always trying to be aware of#the other. they really care a lot and there's a lot of open wounds there from their rough past but they do try to allow gentleness#sometimes. especially post surfacing. it's a long and horribly rough road to get to a point of healthy normalcy but they do try#that's really important to me#they both try#sun spots#underfell papyrus#underfell sans#uf edge#uf red
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Reacher in S2E8: Fly Boy
#reacher amazon#reacher season 2#season 2 spoilers#season finale#jack reacher#alan ritchson#tw blood#tw violence#tw wounds#tw bruises#;; REACHER ;; self ; visage.#;; REACHER ;; isms.#;; KUROKI ;; my gifs.#man do I love me some cocky reacher while being hurt#i also love the subtleties of how angry he is beneath the surface rraaaaa
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#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#carmen lobcorp#i suppose what drove me to finish and make this in the first place was the fact i just got a random swing that made me not so stable#whichm YEAH im not anyways bht significantly less so. body and the rest of my body wasnt functioning. like multiple fucked up inputs#inside onem who the HELL is pilotingbthis thing. didnt feel like me buddy. anyways.#the second one was that lingering feeling i had when first learning about carmen. faceless and at first silhouette and blurry of a memory#even in the cutscene her eyes had been not There. fragmented memories putting back together the image of what Went Wong and then of the#memory of a woman so dearly beloved and etched intk the history of this very place. then it further spun into the thougjt of#what can be remembered? how faithfully? how much of Her could be remembered? how much of her love and what she looked like and liked hersel#had been turned into just gapping wounds to even recall. when the sun and outside of the surface brings forth pain and anger and grief is s#soaking into the very being of the place how much would tha grief and self hate and mourning go ahead and twist and distort memories to#bring up upon? in reality likely not much but the idea was interesting all the same. mix that with the general unwell state and said own#inability to remember faces and we got this. yay heart emoji#uhh purple because blue and red makes purple. also it just looks nice . was going to make it the very obvious green but. purple.
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Another book-quet, made for a rainbow lovin' book friend.
#since each signature was it's own color/sheet I wound up with 5 extra sets of the thing which I distributed to folks at the Renegade retreat#has a magnet in the stem so it could live on the fridge/a metal surface rather than a bookshelf#the toner didn't really take to the paper but the emphasis was more on look than content#book flower#little book#book art#bookbinding#les fleurs du mal#charles baudelaire#rainbow#poetry
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Domhildr is from @soupedepates, Oli from @thal-ent, Meili from @azeler and Kaizarz from @corneille-but-not-the-author
"Holy shit, how did you get that many scars ???"
I sigh. We're changing after a day of training, and I got off my shirt because anyway, every single person here saw me half-naked at some point. For either training, silly games or simply going in my room when I was changing reasons.
Well actually this is the first time I don't try to hide myself. I've never been that much of a prude, for the Coast's standards, but I still don't like being laid bare for too long. I guess it's legit Oli looks surprised I am covered in traces of ancient battles.
I still smile, a bit sarcastic.
"Well, the usual way, I suppose."
"Yeah, but nah, you're like, one of the most resistant fighters I know. Some look really painful and probably took a long time to heal, but aside from the day you lost your hand I didn't even see you flinch !"
"It was that day, was it ?" interjected Domhildr, curiosity on her tiny face.
My eyes darken. Domi, you know enough about me to understand that if it was really that day, I wouldn't talk about it.
So, I guess this time you are very lucky.
"No, most of them are from before. Either accidents with my powers, or just classic raids back when I was fifteen. Also, it's normal I recover quickly, Oli. I also have the spell from the royal lineage, might I remind you."
Not like I enjoy boasting about that, but I prefer giving the real explanation rather than let them believe I was some kind of superhuman when I had both my hands.
I see Meili's eyes focus on me right when I say the words "royal lineage". He may look like he's uncaring, but I know he's interested. Kraken nobility always keep an eye on adversaries. I know, since I was born from kings and high nobility alike.
I don't blame him. Paranoïa is a common thing in my life, why wouldn't it inhabit his.
Meili and Oli nod silently, but Domhildr pouts a little.
"Still, those look painful as shit. Especially the big one next to your liver. How did you get it ?"
Oh, this one. In another time, I would have looked upon the memory fondly, but it was before all of this happened. Still, I guess it's nothing wrong to talk about it, at least, how I got it.
"This one ? That was my first raid with Kaizarz. I blame my fighting technique."
All of them look at me with interested eyes, encouraging me to carry on, but I do not utter a single other word.
I only remember.
There were several ships leaving for the gulf, in a zone where Inkan marine was spotted on our kingdom's waters. I was the one who brought the intel to the crown, but they gave me the alarm, so I was allowed to bring them with me. I was supposed to command the ship, since I was the highest nobleborn on it, but when we sailed, I let the commands to the real captain.
We quickly encountered the enemy, engaged the fight. They were surprised to find us here, especially with the king, that was at this time the prince but leading like a true commander. Soon we ended up fighting on the same boat.
We were searching for the Inkan admiral. I have to admit, I'm not the one who killed it. Kaizarz was. But I stopped the second in command from a sneak attack that wouldn't have done much damage anyway, and no other ship could come to assistance thanks to their manoeuver to cut their path.
He was fighting next to me and Kaizarz and at that point I thought maybe just maybe I could link my two worlds together. Future proved me wrong, and it was a feeble hope anyway. But it was one of the only times I was truly happy.
That man fought fierce, and hard. Soon I only saw one way to stop him. My favorite technique, letting the enemy believe they won.
He striked one of my vital points. I felt the blood flowing from the wound, I heard Kaizarz shout my name, I saw his smile. Then the smile of my foe, persuaded he just killed the stupid teen leaving him so big of an opening.
His smile was still big when his head fell on the ground, eyes wide open in absolute surprise.
He thought me unable to move quickly that wounded but here I was, catching his wrist to stop him from pulling his sword out, and using that opportunity to swing Dainsleif. He was properly decapitated in an instant, and his last vision was my victorious smile.
Afterwards, the fight was a formality.
I hadn't finished healing when Kaizarz took out the admiral. He ran towards me almost immediatly, face twitching with worry, but I just pulled out the sword and smiled at him. The wound was already closing for I was of royal lineage, after all.
I remember him laughing right behind me.
"That's Tyr for you, always being so reckless in battle. The day he stop bringing his foes to wound him so he can reach an opening is the day the Kraken Coast is finally free."
I shrugged, still looking at Kaizarz. Seemingly less worried than earlier, but I could still see a shadow in his eyes.
"That was a good fight. But by War I thought he was gonna kill you."
I heard a whisper, of which I guessed the nature, but my concentration was on Kaizarz, and Kaizarz only.
"Bah, the one that can kill me is not born yet. Or it's gonna be you, and I sure hope you wouldn't want me dead..."
... would you ?
He smiled.
"I would never. Ever."
"Good, then you don't have to worry about me dying anytime soon."
"Alright, stop boasting, you dumb fuck, he said with a hearty laugh. We got to bring the ships back to the castle. His Majesty certainly will have a generous reward for us, yes ?"
"With today's catch ? Absolutely !"
And that was it.
I blink, not realising I spent a long time silent. Oli, Meili and Domhildr are still looking at me, still waiting for more. They're all way too patient with me.
Well, except Domhildr, that just poked the scar.
"That's all ? No story ?"
"Heh, you can always ask Kaizarz. I'm sure he remembers."
Why wouldn't he ?
That day, both him and I thought it could only get better.
#hel ocs#lysara#lysara ibruael#hel stories#hel writing#not my ocs#some story behind the more benign scars#and also an idea of Tyr's fighting technique#since he's not especially quick but terribly resistant and having a regeneration spell he often brings his foes to wound him#And when they're close enough he stops them from moving away and uses the opportunity#a lot of his moveset is based on withstanding shocks from close for that reason#also he was definitely showing off.#15 years old Tyr was proud of himself confident af and with a whole lot of ego#but to whom was he showing off that is a mystery :)#(there may or may not be important backstory hints in there but don't worry I haven't even scratched the surface)#odyssey of the liberator
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Heyy I’m unsure if you’re still taking sketch requests atm, my apologies if you aren’t, but if you are I’d love to see more of you’re mosaic OC! They’re just so- MHM!!!
And a sketch you shall receive :D
This is a sketch right-
Aight maybe not, will this suffice?
#I’m figuring out his powers and how they work more properly so I wanted to showcase them here for fun#the mosaic can only be formed on cracked surfaces or by arranging broken parts together#I’ve previously portrayed the mosaic shards as projectiles but I’m not going w that anymore#instead the mosaic will be able to send a light beam#the important part is that once mosaic has been formed it will never disappear#which can both be good for repairs and even healing wounds#but it will also always leave a mark. always be a sign of something once broken#since my oc fights monsters on the regular that leaves him w a lot of damages to repair#idk that’s how far I’ve gotten into the lore so far lol#I’m glad you like him tho anon :’) I do too#w1lmutt’s ocs#w1l sketchdump
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every year I look forward to my birthday so much and every year I suffer a tremendous amount on that day for at least an hour straight.
#the crushing disappointment of unmet unrealistic expectations almost chokes me#it just brings so much to the surface. all the wounds of my self-obsession. all the reality of my loneliness#the cold reality that nothing is going to fill the void inside of me if I look for it from other people#I always cry. and then I calm down and eat cake#but it’s amazing what a rollercoaster it is#like. I just have to wrestle …. sort of ALL DAY#and because it’s only once a year I learn the lessons about it slowly#I am not good at having a birthday (something normal to want and possible to achieve)#it’s just that eternal paradox that I LOVE it just …. because#I love that it IS and EXISTS#and then also like the disappointment (never to be laid at anyone’s door???? because literally people are always so nice to me????)#settles in in SOME WAY OR ANOTHER#And it’s so stupid and I HATE IT but I have to like take the disappointment. try to love it. make it a prayer#and then I can be reasonable but not a SECOND BEFORE I’ve HAD THE CRASH#it is so insane and ridiculous I am turning TWENTY-EIGHT YEARS OLD#I should NOT BE THIS WAY#but like. The secret sadness and restlessness and bitterness and tiredness and jealousy just all comes out#and I have to write a letter to Jesus before I can be okay#literally i have now done that on at least 4 separate birthdays#because I just get so distressed. and then distressed that I am distressed#But tbh maybe that is a good custom and I should think of it as a chance to talk to God more#Just—-about it all. and just say thank you and I’m sorry and I know I’m a baby#There’s a viggo mortensen quote where he talks about how he never tells anyone it’s his birthday and he just reflects on the previous year#with gratitude. and I’m just like INSANELY cool of him I wish that were me#but unfortunately I talk about it all the time to every single person that I know#and at least twice on tumblr#and then it all just gets so overwhelming that it spirals#anyway I’m kind of spiraling now but that’s just because I’m sad and lonely!#it is NOT my birthday I am just reflecting#I guess what I’m trying to say is I wish there was a way to head off the disappointment. and there isn’t
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genuinely baffled when people staunchly believe that mr clarke is unimportant/was forgotten/won’t be in st5. if he was unimportant, they would have only had him in a few scenes… realistically they’d only need him to be slightly present in the classroom and for av stuff as a way to show the party’s involvement in that and that they’re good students
so then… why have him in all the other scenes he’s in? why have an emphasis on scott talking to jim in the search party and be the one to find the gown fabric in the tunnel? why have him be the one to catch the party trying to sneak into the av room and meet el? why have connie go to his house to ask about the kids when she could have, say, gone to some of the other parents? why have the party ask him specifically about the (theoretical) possibility of the ud at will’s wake? why have him be interested in dnd at all? why have dustin call him about the sensory deprivation tank? why couldn’t we have instead had the kids scouring through their dnd manuals, rifling through the library, anything else to show them learning stuff about this. (especially considering how important the library is… how poignant would it be for them to find not only stuff about hnl and terry at the library in s1 but also show the kids learning stuff about parallel universes and alternate planes? what a neat little tie that would’ve been!! not to mention everything else in later seasons that take place there, and even the st5 bts stuff regarding the computer club in the library!!)
and that’s just season 1! they set him up as this incredible fountain of knowledge for our gang, and he continued to be there for them through season 2 (being present for several scenes with d’art, giving the phineas gage information, all of his brain/hive mind and fear talk) and season 3 (helping joyce with her magnets, the constant “russian scott clarke” complaints from jim irt alexei thus tying him directly to the key and the gates and the ud) and he just so happens to not be in season 4 when a lot of the “source” of our issues are uncovered… and he’s not present in tfs despite being around the same age as henry and therefore might have some knowledge about the creels… especially with the vague mentions of the “boy in nevada” who henry hurt who still doesn’t have a name…
they even made another sensory deprivation tank in s4 because of what scott taught them, but he doesn’t even get a name drop? I don’t buy it. they kept him out on purpose because he’s so entrenched in the plot and giving exposition for it that, had he been there at all for s4, he would have started to solve parts of the plot way too quickly
#there’s no reason for him to be as wound up in it as he is UNLESS he’s more than just a side character to give some science knowledge#especially when they’ve been able to express that stuff through other means and characters#and this is just the surface level stuff!!!! staring at all of em’s and james’s scott analysis posts with big eyes like!!! that’s my man!!!#i say things#scott clarke
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I think making sweeping generalizations of specific traits being considered "ugly" is not great the same way i think its rude and unnecessary to call others ugly, i also think its worthwhile to acknowledge that certain traits ARE considered "Ugly" due to societal beauty standards, that doesn't make them ACTUALLY ugly, bc beauty is subjective anyway, and can be found Anywhere, and even someone who seems to tick every single box of societal beauty Ideals will almost certainly have at least one trait or feature about their appearance that they are insecure about or feel is "ugly", bc even within the constraints of conventional attractiveness theres subjectivity
also this fish was so fucking Ugly and i adored it so much. i miss him.
he was also gorgeous.
#toy txt post#toy pic post#he passed in like. man. i want to say 2019? his name was Gus. he was a pink kissing gourami#the thing about albino fish is that they always look a little bit sickly and concerning. his head always seemed a little big for his body#like he was really old. when i got him he looked so bad cos he had wounds all over him from dads fish that got infected and the dude#straight up looked like a zombie. every day id wake up and prepare myself to find him dead. but he recovered and never went back in w the#fish that injured him. his face was hideous. he looked pale and sickly. his head was a little too big like he was super old#his scales were iridescent and pretty and shimmery. he had no concept of giving a shit about me finding him beautiful or not. not even on#his mind. simply not something he would think about. now. im sure he'd have some sort of beauty standard to hold himself to for mating if#that had been an option for him. but it wouldnt be the same. idk. i just. i love the idea. of animals that are not traditionally cute or#beautiful or charismatic and the fact that they do not give a single fucking shit what we think of the way they look. BOTH ways. a#a butterfly does not give a single thought tohow beautiful or inspiring you find the colors of its wings. the wolf fish does not care that#humans find it hideous and terrifying. it just looks the way that it does. its fine. its vibing. it just wants to live and survive and get#enough food. yes beauty is everywhere but so is ugly. and there is beauty in ugly. to me. there is beauty in not even thinking about#standards to be conformed to or not. the beauty is irrelevant. its not For You. it doesnt Matter. its just Existing. if you like how it#looks while it exists? great! good for you. if you dont? okay cry about it i guess. this ugly ass fish doesnt give a shit if humans find it#beautiful or not. he was just going to continue to use his lips covered in teeth to scrape biofilm and algae off the surface of rocks and#driftwood and play in the current of the filter.#let girls be ugly the way marine iguanas dont give a shit if humans find them pretty cos theyre just sunning themselves and eating seaweed#off rocks. all humans are beautiful. all humans are ugly. it doesnt matter. let us go dive into the ocean and scrape seaweed off the rocks#and then bask in the sun on a warm rock and not fucking worry about that#anyway also Yes ive seen uglier fish than him.i know they exist. but he was also special cos he was My Fish u see
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hmm. davesprite sword wound.
#ogre moment?#its only recently that ive started actually analyzing any of homestucks deeper themes#so idk if this is super surface level but im having thots abt like.#even if you take the sword out the wound is still there.#and like. was it bros sword??#THATS WHAT MAKES DOING ANALYSIS DIFFERENT I CANT REMMEBER WHAT HAPPENS IN THAT FUCKING COMIC#MY GOD#anyways. if it WAS. then oh brother.#op
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sol'rys will silently tolerate a lot tbh but quipping or mocking about how drow men are useless or poking at whatever else you know or assume he would have been through in menzoberranzan is definitely the quickest way on his shit list. like. very much fighting words. on one hand lashing out is something he considers weak. on the other. if he's so weak or useless, you can back it up yourself, right?
#he has No patience for surfacers poking the wound or trying to demean him .#fuck around and find out bitch .
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