#sure would be nice to be able to figure out how to color it tho

[dawntainbobbynash]

Yep. Careful. Careful, careful!

Oh, my God.

Ok.

+ Bonus, the incredible (incredibly adorable) husband in question:

[mamamittens]

Had a hilarious thought of like, Nikia in Wano and naturally word spreads about this... Actually, what would they call a 'skypean'? They use different words in this country for all sorts of things so I wonder...

Well, they likely call King that too, so anyway! Word gets out and I can't imagine the various Beast Pirates aren't nosy shits who investigate a bit for some excitement.

It's obvious to at least King that she's not what he is, or at least not totally, but the wingspan is definitely not skypeian so he has different questions. More to follow if he learns she can actually fucking fly without a devil fruit. And those complicated 'last surviving member' feelings are not helped when Nikia thoughtfully adjusts her height to talk to him eye to eye.

They're rude tho so I imagine at least light kidnapping for this interrogation, which means wardrobe change time so I'll have something fun to draw later ig

Perhaps they think she's a seraphim given her strong resting bitch face.

"Do you know Doctor Egghead?"

"Wow... What a rude way to address a doctor..."

"that's his name."

"...ah. like yours is King? I imagined it was since no one uses the 'liege' or 'your Majesty' but it's hard to be sure sometimes. Not totally confident in the politics of Wano to say for certain."

"...yes."

"oh. Neat. Nope. Don't know Doctor Egghead. Why?"

If she does have Lunarian in her family tree, the good doctor would probably be able to find out through testing.

This also means a nice rescue scene with more WBP, so I'm down for that too. It'd be fun all around, honestly. With Nikia just awkwardly sitting around like "wtf do you do when you're kidnapped??? There's nothing to do here but stare down this giant ass bdsm weirdo on fire and his weirdly intimate questions about my family history." While the Bois are running around trying to figure out where the hell she is and how to get her back from the Beast Pirates.

Maybe she's given a kimono setup with King's colors since she's sorta 'his guest' (and every anime kidnapping have the kidnapped do a wardrobe change so its basically a fun trope at this point) but she sneaks Thatch's foulard into the ensemble cause she doesn't trust any of them with it and it's a nice reassurance. She's definitely not telling what it means to her though, cause she absolutely knows by now the importance of color/style for pirates and her new threads are pretty obvious. Let them think it's her personal wear. Still not sure what she'd have from Izou so I'll shelve that.

Finally finds Izou and is like "I managed to put it all on myself!!! Not my style but your lessons weren't wasted!!!" And he's just like 😮‍💨 "that's nice, sweetie, but we should find you something else before Thatch sees and gets pissy. U know how he feels about wearing someone's colors" lmao

Izou is more chill about it but Thatch likely gets pouty on sight once he connects the dots. It's sorta their thing, the colors, ever since he gave her it.

[minimoll7]

The one thing I like about drawing slimes in that simple, chalk style, is that its nice and quick. A huge reason why I don't really post art that much anymore at this point is that I don't like how long it takes, I start a lot of stuff but never really finish them

But this drawing style is a lot quicker and doesn't hurt my hands as much. I'd love to apply it to other stuff tho, not just Slime Rancher art. I just don't know how well I'd be able to pull it off. It is lineless art but because of the brush I'm using, some colors don't stand out as well as they otherwise would. Not sure what exactly I'll do but I think I can figure something out, eventually

[roman-cup]

You have pretty eyes

Garrance oneshot based on my PDH rewrite I didnt write yet

Posted on ao3 and quotev before, now its here

past garmau and garroth x ivy  mentioned

"You have beautiful eyes." Laurance looked over at Garroth, who clearly does not understand personal space, as he leaned VERY close to Laurance face. He blinked "..Thanks..?" He did not blush because that would be lame and he's a shadow knight hes not lame! Garroth nodded. He moved away and looked back at his work. Laurance stared to see if he would say anything else. He did not. Ok then? Laurance had hetrochromia. One eye blue one green. but, still? Unprompted?? "Uh...??? Elaborate?" "On what?" "Dude??" "Oh. You're eyes are pretty" he shrugged. "Like, the sun is hitting them right now and its pretty" Laurance, for some embarrassing reason. Responded to that by throwing his hand in front of his eyes. Which is stupid, because who cares if he looks at his eyes? Weird compliment aside. Lucky Garroth had just looked away again. -- It was there Junior year of high school and Garroth and Laurance have been dating for 1 year. "You're eyes are pretty" Garroth grinned as he put his head on Laurance shoulder, showing off his braces clearly. Laurance was finally able to get his braces off a few months ago. Maybe he felt bad eating popcorn in front of him, but all in all? Not his fault his boyfriend has to wear braces. Plus Laurance still has to suffer. The dentist said he has to wear a retainer?? Forever?? Garroth, competently unaware of Laurance internal monologue continues to speak "They're all shiny and stuff.." Laurance smiled and held his hand, but held a laugh. "Deja vu" "Whatt..?" Garroth looked up at him "You already told me my eyes were prettyyy" Laurance sung light heartily. Laurance is still not sure if Garroth was trying to flirt with him freshman year, or if he was just, like that. "No I didn't...oh no" Garroth sat up "You remembered that?" "I was supposed to forget?" He laughed. "Yes!" Garroth grabbed his shoulders "oh my irene.." he groaned "That has haunted me..," "Oh and I'm dramatic?" He elbowed him lightly "Come on, its not like I was gonna be upset that my -favorite person- and love of my life likes my eyes' Laurance tried to comfort "You didn't like me freshman year" he corrected, he crossed his arms, and cracked a smile. Still embarrassed. "You don't know that." Neither did Laurance, to be honest. When DID he start to like him? He knows he likes him now, obviously, but he didn't even notice until after GarroTh and Aph had broken up. "Well did you?" Garroth looked at him "If you did I'd feel bad, because I didn't" Laurance thought. Well, Laurance did flirt with him that year, and last year, he was joking thought...right? "Oh yeah I'm heartbroken, and it was so platonic and straight of you to tell me how nice my eyes were by the way" Garroth flushed embarrassed again. "My boyfriend thinks my eyes are pretty~" Laurance sung. To add to his shame. "Oh hush, come it was weird, that I said that!" Laurance shrugged. He definitely thought it was weird when he said it. He still hung out with him after though, so, he got over it. "So like,, why did you say it? I mean I know you said you didn't like me but like,, was that flirtingggg? Orr?" Garroth shrugged. "Who knows. I haven't seen two eye colors much, I figured it was cool" Laurance nodded. He held Garroth hand "Hmm." He hummed again and grinned "My boyfriend thinks my eyes are pretty~" Garroth groaned light-heartily "Oh hush you love me." Laurance laughed "Yeah I do" he laughed a bit.  "What?" "What? I didn't say anything, nope." "Nope don't do that." Laurance stared at him, flustered.

They hadn't really used the 'i love you' phase. Yes, nicknames like "love" "lovely" "love of my life" where definitely there, but the actual words? Nope. "You love me?" Laurance looked up him. He asked casually, or he tried very hard to, and that what matter right? A for effort? Garroth shrugged. "I dont..know?" He said honesty. "I feel like I do! But I thought I loved Aphmau too." "Oh yeah.." Laurence bit his lip. "But like" Garroth continued "We know that didn't like-" he put his own hands in the air to visually demonstrate and short line "go on for long." "Yeahhh-"

"And there was my relationship with Ivy freshman year,,poor girls still mad at me for it."

"I wouldn't call her a 'poor girl'"

Garroth rolled his eyes. "whatever, my point is- I'm scared."  Laurance looked up "offf-" he looked around like what he was saying was forbidden, and it kinda felt like it was "Saying I love you?" Garroth nodded. Relaxing and putting his head back on Laurance shoulder, Laurance put an arm around him. "I don't want to go on and saying things like that and have it end up being wrong again. I mean me and Aph are still friends thankfully, But-" Laurance just stared at him. He felt he should comment on this this speech, but he didn't want to interrupt. Plus, now he was wondering, did he love Garroth? "But- I don't really want to lose you- an-and! I,, currently would like to date you as long as you let me- but if-" Garroth held his hands up again to vaguely gesture as he spoke " if I say -that- I think it would be worse when you.. no longer want to." Garroth ended awkwardly. Then blushed "I am sorry for the speech, I ruined the moment, didn't I?" He chuckled. Laurance stared at him. Before he shook his head to get rid of his thoughts. He then shook it again. "No way!" He yelled. Then put a hand over his mouth and sighed. "You didn't ruin anything dude, don't worry about that. Plus,, I dunno that was kinda sweet.." "Its sweet that I won't say I love you..?" Garroth looked at Laurance weirdly. "I must have explained it was wrong then" Laurance giggled "No no, but like, I dunno.." he started using a hand to nervously play with his hair. It made it down past his shoulders by now. Geez. "I like knowing you wanna stay with me." "Well..yeah of course I do.." Laurence looked at him smiled and continued "By the wayyy, if that's the case, Then this relationship won't end because I am going to propose the moment I can..". Laurence, despite only being 16, nodded proudly. Fully trusting this statement. This didn't seem to shake Garroth, who is also 16, for long. He stared at him a moment before laughing "Oh please, I'll beat you too it." "Oh yeah?" "Yes!" "We will see..." "Well-!"Garroth looked ready to say something, then stopped himself. Laurence bit his lip nervously, did he cross a line somehow. Was marriage to much? "Well..what?" "Nothing,,nothing" Laurance frowned. "YOU..ok? Sorry I- oh my irene" he groaned " you just talked about not wanting to bring up 'I love yours and I bring up marriage, fuck-.sorry" he facepalmed. "What no no it was sweet!" Garroth looked at him "I'm not upset, I just paused because-" "Causeee?'" "I figured.. I could beat you too it if I do it -now- "You're ...proposing now..?" Laurance stated blanking. Yeah, he said it, but, seriously, they were 16. "Well no not that but.. I figured. We could get promise rings?" "Ohhhh- so like, a promise to stay together." "Yeah! When we are older,, well we will see..but- oh fuck that would be going to far again-" Garroth put his hands over his face. "See? Even I can't stop myself from going to far!" "I mean- we don't have to..butt.. I won't mind." Garroth looked up over his hands "Really?" Laurance nodded "yeah, really" he stared to grin. Laurance had no idea WHEN he started to like Garroth really, and maybe love was still a strong word, but Laurance knew he wanted Garroth to be in his life. Which, whenever Laurance thought of a future he though marriage. So? Why not? Garroth sat up and smiled "OK! I'll buy us rings! Oh wanna help or a surprise." "Surprise me!" "Ok!" Garroth seems to have calmed down. That was good. "Oh and by the way." Laurence started. "What?" "Back to the whole, love thing.. how about this.. we can say,, I love you,, if you want, but not in super serious way, yet yeah?" "Hmm yeah. Ok then. Should I say it now." "I'll say it back if you do." "Ok."Garroth took a breath "Laurance I love you,," he closed his eyes for a second, like he expected everything to crash right now, when it didn't he added" anndd your eyes are still shiny." he grinned.  "Pf-" laurance laughed "Well I love you too...anndd I love your eyes too." "Oh yeah?" "Yeah!" Garroth laughed, he kissed Laurance cheek "I think we are dorks" "Oh you are. I'm cool though" laurance nudged him "its ok though, your adorable" "Hmp,, okk Mr. Long bright orange hair." "You LIKED my hair" "Not relevant" "Also-" Laurance gestured to his hair, his brown roots growing out but the bottom half was definitely orange, just slightly faded. Still bright though "its STILL orange, dickhead" "So..I win?" "No, your a dork" "Damn it" Laurance grabbed his hand once again "Hey." "Hn?" "I love you" Garroth sighed "I love you too." 

[words-etched-in-her-skin]

ok so, ik i havent been on here in literal ages but i got really busy with classes this semester, but im hoping i'll be able to talk a lil more often cuz im on break now! and i have good news about my finals and my swim class earlier in the summer! i passed my art history and my illustration classes with B's (no clue what i got for my animation class but we move on) and for my swim class i can mostly do front strokes (still cant figure out how to take a breath yet but im sure i'll figure that out next summer!) i also found out that, while i hat floating on my back, i seem to not mind it as much if im moving! i think one of the things that helped me was imagining sal there with me, staying close by and making sure i was ok, sometimes putting her hand under me to help gently push me up a little more or gently pushing the top of my head a little more under the water so i can float better. i think she'd be super proud of the progress i made!

also, i finally got around to drawing a spicy sketch of alcina (and me and a couple of my oc's djjd). its not exactly a pinup but its def something spicy. i used different colors for everyone so i can see which parts belonged to who. the blue harpy girl is andromeda, the octopus mermaid is ruby, and then theres me in between the lady's legs! still have to finish it, but so far so good! (still need to do a pinup of just alcina tho... but i did see a couple really pretty rennaisence paintings that i could try to put her in too, i just need to pick which one i like more.... leaning a little bit to the "venus of urbino" painting cuz it vibes with her a lot shdb

Hello, there, dear! I hope this break treats you well and congratulations on the grades 😊♥️ And that is really fucking cute, honestly. Sal would love to know the thought of her being by your side was able to help you with that 🥺 And she'd absolutely be proud, dear 😁 Also, Sal would be a really hot great swimming coach (Sal swim coach AU when? 👀🤣)

And ooooooooh 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 Very nice, indeed 👀 A blue harpy, you say? 👀 Also, a renaissance style pin up of Lady D sounds fucking incredible, ngl! Like, please do share if end up doing anymore, yeah? 👀 For science, of course.. extremely gay science 👀

[fairyhaos]

yena !! i hope u still remember me ʕ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴥ⁠ꈍ⁠ʔ it's the wind chime anon !! 🎐

how have u been omg (⁠◍⁠•⁠ᴗ⁠•⁠◍⁠) i had my exams last month n i have da notifs on for way too many blogs on here so i just uninstalled tumblr instead,,, but im back now (i was about to send this ask sooner (2 days ago ?) but i was a bit scared lmao,,, but i just saw ur post about shua so i had to come and say hi >:3) but wahh congrats on all ur milestones ! before i left i think u were about to start ur 500 followers event ! ! n i think u crossed 1234 already !! and probably even more ! that's supa cool n 'm so so proud of you ☆૮꒰ˊᗜˋ* ꒱ა also i love love love ur new theme *ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ✩

ooo n about finding jeonghan's colour,,, u looked at his pictures to figure out what colour he is ?? that's super intriguing actually. bcs the thing is idk if i have this type of synesthesia,,, im afraid what im doing is just strongly associating colours with people ? like the aspects of their personality play a major role in determining their colour but similar to the process of getting to know someone, it's v hard for me to decide on their colour. for example, jihoon. it's like, , the more i see him the more i feel like i don't even know him yk? for hansol, even tho i don't know what his colour is, i can at least tell that his colour would most prolly be a cooler shade. but for jihoon n sometimes even mingyu i can't rly figure them out? it's like i have options but i don't know for sure. n i don't rly know if this is synesthesia ?? lmdoajdjska i think i should just take the test by synesthesia battery but im just scared lmao </3

anygays i read the rest of your synesthesia posts and wahh, , yena ur just so talented. ur so cool ! ! i rly don't know what else to say. you have a way w words and it's as if i can feel the colors permeating through the descriptions. honestly it's such a gift to be able to share your vivid perception with others and i just wanna thank u for that (⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠) i have sm to say about each member's colour and esp shua's but this got rly long so i'll do that in another ask ?? heh >:3

-🎐

WIND CHIME ANON OMGGGG YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH I MISSED YOU :<

i hope you've been doing okay!! how did your exams go????? literally i'd be sitting here and just thinking :(( i hope wind chime anon is doing okay in this world :(( haha ive missed you sm

it's okayy there's no need to be scared im super nice!! (i think?) thank u sm for loving my new theme too haha i love it a lot as well

and abt jeonghan: yeah! honestly synaesthesia is a really really different experience for anyone so i like to think of it as one of those sexuality labels. if you feel like it fits, then you're allowed to use it! those tests online are sketchy af anyways unless you wanna pay for a Real and Scientific Test

i think assigning colours to vibes and personalities is very interesting though!! i don't think i could do that haha, personalities have always just been so complex and different for me that a colour just doesn't come to mind at all (i don't think my synaesthesia works in that way lmao) so that's really really fascinating! honestly tho,,, im also struggling w jihoon too and maybe that's bc i haven't spent several minutes just Staring at his face yet but i just have a gut feeling that he's gonna be one tough cookie

aww thank u so much please that's so lovely to hear ^^ that really makes me the happiest oml, being told that people are able to feel my writing and my descriptions <3

aww yess please do lmk what you think of the others !! it's so nice to see you in my inbox again 💗

[leafbatraccoon]

these were notes on my journal till yesterday but the news that we're getting the nectar-making skill with horses i figured i'd have some fun with it yet still be loud with my opinions, so i'll reblog with updates from time to time - im reposting with the original slot texts bc i was unhappy with my sleepless decision making 👍👍 | details under the cut if u wanna know but i'm a bit of a hater fyi |

longer seasons - i don't think this will happen, if miracle mods show up i might stamp them on in a different color but from what i've found it's pretty ingrained in the game that 28 days is the longest and if modders we're going to crack it they might've done it already but when im playing on pretty long life spans i just 💔💔 50+ days seasons would be the dream, but i'd be happy with 45 👀 10 outfits per category - same as before ig, this is probably super niche but i'm not satisfied and i hate having to get into cas to change it up so much bc in my head they have a closet each and i want to mix and match pieces in a realistic way 👚 pack refreshes - tbf, they did set up an expectation for that one which for the looks of it they are done with it; there's so much to fix, dine out in general, mermaids deserve some love in comparison to the other occults, updates to the bodies of water (going in the water in windenburg would be legendary), hu just bug fixes and compatiblity here and there would be nice (more hiking ? power walks in more places? its so weird how they are restricted to ONE place) now by world refreshes - i mean that in my dreams they go back and expand the maps they give us 🗺️🗺️ im greedy and want 2 neighbourhoods for my vampires & spellcasters, a lil more space in moonwood mill, granite falls & del sol valley too why not not gonna happen so i can say wtv an extra space in mt komorebi with apartments and since we're at it in san sequoia too; will def not happen working gallery - ig that might be coming too ?? idk my gallery sucks at times like it wont find any results when there are ?? and i know there are bc if i restrict more it might come up with something?? also just wanted better mechanism for the searches, i never had issues with disturbing content showing up tho so idk i heard some simmers weren't so lucky

bigger households - having to control or monitor 8 human/humanish sims is challeging enough but because pets, because having to fake apartments, because reasons; i use mccc but this workaround brings issues in cas so yea, wishlist ✔️ snakes // lizards - this would've been appropriate to launch with horses imo and i'd love if there had been interaction/compatibility from snakes in the wild and those taller friends & other small pets - small pet options in ts4 are non existent, sorry, birds only exist in that one tree (they are probably happy about not being captive actually), bunnies are also wild (personally im fine with it but i know that its a popular pet so i'd love if it was an option), reptiles don't exist (yet) and rodents are exclusive to the slap-in-the-face-of-this-community pack... 🐁🐇🐢🦎🐍🐦🐜 faeries or other fae kin - i feel like they've hinted at it for quite a while and we've seen it show up in quizzes too?? 🧚‍♀️ so i'm hopeful for this one and hope they are just trying to make sure they properly deliver on it bc there's a lot of fantasy enthusiasts and they deserve it & woodland creatures - personally would love it if the fae pack came with woodsy world and the addition of woodland creatures at least the spiritual kind (like unicorns or a white doe which they possibly alluded to with puzzles - it made me real giddy) bonus points if it has some outdoor retreat compatibility

owning more lots - after winning the lottery or keeping up with a family for generations, sims can accumulate quite a lot of money, there's not a lot of expenses in the life of a sim tbh, travelling only costs one loading screen, gardeing makes you rich and thats ok ig but being able to own a holiday house would be welcomed, not just a business 🏘️ nectar making - when tartosa came but no nectar making i was a bit let down, imagine making or acquiring a special batch for your wedding?? it would've been lovely and appropriate for a wedding pack but ... yeah anyway it comes with the horse pack for some reason so at least it's coming, and only 3 years after juice fizzing 🥂 bands and more instruments - another thing they've hinted at in polls and i kinda wished it to come with HSY yet was not surprised it didn't; that being said we need drums and other instruments like bass and/or contrabass, just more than what we have if we're to have bands plz skating and/or surfing - these two are very different and honestly idk how the latter one would work, i just think they are popular sports we could have; at least skate boards should be easy enough to implement and a cute way for sims to drift around their closed off worlds so i have more hope for that one 🏄

hotels - even if they've been around the franchise and ts4 seems to draw all it's ideas from previous iterations i'm not confident they haven't just been replaced by rental properties but it's not the same, i'd like to be able to meet other guests vacationing on the property without having to engineer everything about it, ordering meals at hotel services and running/owning a hotel also; retirement homes - ELDER SIM LOVE IN GENERAL (canes, health issues, idk im not that old yet ..hum wills & testiments, special interactions) i feel growing together really fucked up on that one but i was not surprised bc it's ts4 and we rely on crumbs mods here and thats why some players stop buying dlc 👵☕👴 the townie refreshes - just pay some fans to do it at this point bc it's taking so long; most of them don't need to be redesigned anyway, just add hot and cold weather outfits, preferences and maybe a sneaky extra trait or lifestyle they could have developed and voilá, finish that chapter disabilities - i don't want it in the form of traits and thing it's rotten to make people to pay for it BUT i'd love to see some disability representation in this game, physical, cognitive and what not. i understand at this point it might be hard to introduce but i think it be really important to have this in the sims and ts4 is about time funerals & cemeteries - death is a part of life, this is a life sim... thats it basically, i want it, i miss it in comparison to previous games, i fake it with parks and inviting guests over, but we shouldn't have to tho seems pretty basic stuff

more and better apartments - i would like it if we saw more conjoined builds, more apartment builds, both with few floors and plenty, the option to have sims living in different floors of the same building and even having business or community lots in builds that are divided into multiple lots - ambitious ik - bonus points if they update apartments in a way you can own one or more and rent them out - i don't want to play as a landlord, i swear - i just want my sims to be allowed do simbnb while they go for a weekend in the city (which ig u cant bc of the current system/coding idk) or bringing them to more existing worlds but bc of the obstacles to that i have 0 hopes well-crafted worldly words - i see a lot of americancentric choices being made when creating the worlds, it's unrealistic for a global player base and hum.. a life sim and whenever they drop interesting worlds they are always so frigging small you have to sacrifice making a lively town, with people and businesses, if you want you're sim to live in certain environments (or use multibuilds, which is fine ig but it bothers me a bit) and they fail to utilize the common spaces of the neighbourhoods in ways simmers would love to, to bring some life into these worlds; 🌍 the worldly part of it... i am yet to see african like climates and cultures represented, asia is so wide & full of diversity and we get one japan inspired world so far, south america if confined to a destination world if you don't have mods ig (maybe it's changed by now im not sure) and europe while being represented in 3 packs so far - and one of them being the best in terms of lots per world we've had so far - 2 of them have few lots and its all very niche, so in a way i don't need to be able to point to the actual cities that inspired those worlds, it's not my priority just something that crowded and lively that draws from wider range of cultures and that mre people could recognize as close to their experience would be nice 🌏 also more islands maybe im a sulani simp new jobs & careers - i love GTW, it was the first pack i got and sure it deserved a refresh by now and i would welcome it, especially if it meant more careers, i really liked that gameplay feature; that being said i feel like we deserve more job options OR branches. y no dentist ??? i cant think of ideas right now but while playing the game and setting up townies or sims i feel limited a lot trans content fixes - yea i avoid using the in-game system for trans rep (i headcanon a lot and cheat stuff basically) bc its just not the best in general (clothes fit weird, there's no changes in the frame through time as there would be with hormonal treatments - which there arent in the game so makes sense), not in comparison bc i dont know other games to compare it to just real life ig but im not even that informed tbh; i am happy they didnt create a life sim where trans people are erased and don't want them to be discouraged to stop investing in this at all so i try not to mention it but fix the binder at least & here's a tumblr post that helps me a bit something that surprises me - /pos !! because... they don't... a lot of what we see seems to me like repeating the content ideas from older games but spreading it out to make as much dlc as possible; i had a lot of more wow reveal moments with ts2 & ts3 i feel like but cant truly be sure bc brain is mush

[sheliesshattered]

now that that bit of complaining is out of the way

I can officially call the pattern for Rhaenyra’s red dress done! Today I managed to squeeze in a bit of time around work stuff to finish truing up all the pattern pieces based on the experimental taking-in I did over the weekend, as detailed in the last post. Once those edits had been made to the paper pattern, I had to move a few of the markings on the curved seams and raise the armscye a bit, and then trim down the width of the skirt so all the panels match again.

Each of the skirt panels will now take up about 10.5″ of width there at the lowest point, so depending on how much the fabric shrinks when I (hand) wash it and (line) dry it, I might even be able to fit four panels side by side in the ~45″ wide red silk, even without staggering them. Because that fabric is a silk brocade I’m going to assume that it has a nap of one sort, color or pattern or both, and arrange all my panels with the same end up. But for the black silk organza for the underdress, I don’t have to worry about nap, and I should be able to get them in there at least four across, maybe even a bit tighter.

The 60/8 microtex machine needles I ordered arrived today, so I officially have everything needed to make the underdress. Even though I’m still at least a few days away from needing those needles, it’s nice to have them on hand and ready to go. I think the red silk should arrive by the end of the week, but I don’t think I’ll get to that until sometime in March.

My plan for the black organza is to trace the panels onto the fabric, then stay-stitch just slightly outside the stitching line, and then cut out all the pieces, just to avoid any sort of warping or unraveling. I don’t know if this silk is going to be nearly that fiddly or not, but better safe than sorry I figure. And I’m almost certainly going to do the same thing with the red brocade, so might as well give it a test run now on fabric that won’t really be seen.

Once I have the panels all traced, stay-stitched, and cut out, I’m going to hand-baste a couple of the curvier seams, particularly the one that runs over the bust, and possibly the one over the shoulderblade as well. That bust curve is so extreme, with no real way to change it, so all I can do is work out the easing issues during the basting phase, rather than trying to wrangle it with dozens of pins under the machine needle.

I think everything besides those curved seams should be really easy, tho. All the notches (well, triangles on the silk) should match up exactly since I measured so carefully, and the majority of the seams are those long straight perfectly matched skirt panels. Hopefully it’ll all go together really smoothly. Fingers crossed, anyway.

I’ve decided I’m going to do a mock-French seam finish for the black organza, since it’ll be easier than trying to adjust my seam allowance just for the underdress like a real French seam would need, but still give a nice clean inside edge and help prevent any fraying. I’ll finish the neck and armscyes by hand, and I have plans for a deep hem based on a picture from the HotD set, but I’ll talk more about that when the time comes.

As with most of my projects, I can see it all so clearly in my head, and I’ve planned several steps ahead of where I am now, but we’ll see if that plan survives once it’s put into action, lol. And my job may get super busy over the next week and a half or so, so it may be awhile before I can really dig into this again, I’m not sure yet. But either way, I’ll post pictures of the underdress as it starts to come together!

[pinkseas]

[parasocial bestie] GOOD EVENING BESTIE!!!! CHEERING U ON!!!! although itll take another few days weeks months for u to finish the fic its totally understandable why it takes that long like!! even as an artist, working on a supposed 4 hr art can take Weeks without that energy. it could be me who doesnt write tho but id always think writers have it hardest to do all the brain connecting the Thinking the Gears Moving in their head to figure out every scene every dialog every word that fits to get a perfect imagery of sumn and i respect dat... i respect yew!!!! SO DO UR BEST ALYYYYYY ILYSM YOURE DOING SO GREAT WITH UR CURRENT WORDCOUNT ALREADY 💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💪💖💞💞💕💓💖💓💕💓💖💓💓💓💖💓💕💓💖💓💖💓💓💖💞💕💞💖💓💖💓💖💓 ONTO THE NEXT FEW THOUSAND UR SO CLOSE 👊👊👊👊 BEATS THE BURNOUT BEATS EVERYTHING THAT STOPS U FROM WRITING AND BEING THE BESTEST 👊👊👊💥💥👊💥💥💥👊💥💥💥

NO BC LIKE AS SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T DO ART. i will never ever ever understand how u guys do it. anyone can picture things in their mind to some degree but how in the everloving FUCK do you make that picture REAL>?????????????? proportions shading colors how the FUCK do you do the little glowy thing how do you make it Look Right how do you make it Look Good like. ive been doing creative writing in various ways to various degrees for over a decade now and i am still So Very Mediocre i STILL couldnt explain to you how i do it or how it happens and im sure if i had that same experience with art itd be different but. i do Not have that experience with art. so instead i stare at said art and go Hey Genuinely How The Hell Did You Do That and love it with all my heart

i dont even understand how other writers write like wdym you have a PLOT you have PACING you have proper balance between characters pertaining to who you want to focus on the most/least what do you MEANNNNNN you found the most gorgeous words and turns of phrase to make something sound Exactly write or get an Exact image into someones head like. HELLO ????????????????

dorry that got away from me i may be okay at writing but i am SO very fucking good at rambling every time without fail amen <3

anyways more importnatly GOOD EVENING I LOVE U SO SO SO FUCKING BAD I SAW THIS AND IMMEDIATELY WENT 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 & then powercry emoji x2345987345 like man. MAN.

onto the next few thousand 😁😁😁 <- words of someone who would KILL to be able to accomplish this tone and such in So Many Fewer Words but who does Not Know How To Do That so ten hundred billion words it is 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

THANK U FOR BEATING UP THE BURNOUT I RLY NEED IT like its barely gotten in the way yet ive taken enough breaks given myself enough time it is just SO FRUSTRATINGGGGGGGGGGG knowing that i need those breaks and need that time like why am i not allowed to just be the specialest person in the whole wide world who never burns out ever hm? hmmm? do i not deserve it have i not suffered enough

not to be soooo silly but i genuinely cannot express how much it means to me and how much it has meant to me from the very first little comment that you just. IDK IDK IDK. you care so much and you're so fucking NICE about it and so passionate about it and EVERY single time we ramble about ANYTHING it inspires and pushes me so much and i love love love talking to you and like. u simply did not need/do not need to be constantly so fucking sweet and encouraging and wonderful about everything all the time ever but then you Are and then i die and and and <- maybe its a good thing i didnt try forcing myself to write too much this morning if this is the way im wording things today 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 idk it is just. ily so bad and i am so so happy and grateful every time i see u in my silly little inbox and to this day i owe u my Life for the thoughts that u have brought to my silly little brain and

yeha. yeah. yeah. Yeah. explodes into a billion pieces

[jadethest0ne]

Just wanted to day that I really love your work!!! And Aldo was wondering if you'd be able to talk through the process of how you make your comics? You get them done so quick!! And their always so good from backgrounds to expression their amazing!!! Loving your aftermath comic BTW, I look for it constantly even tho I know you post mostly on Tuesday lolol.

Also- Ace solidarity unite!!! ✌️

Hey there! It is possible that you have me confused with @happyfoxx-art who is the one who does the Aftermath comic, so maybe she can say a thing or two about her comic process.

The comics I'm more known for are "The Brains and The Brawn", "Puppet on a String", and "Mikey Bakes a Cake."

In case you are asking about me specifically, I'll talk about my comic process. I usually start with lots of brainstorming in the form of daydreaming and occasionally scribbling out ideas. I often switch between creating a script and sketching out rough scenes depending on how visual the moment is. If there's more dialogue or I want to note down the events panel-by-panel, I'll script more, if the scene is more action-y and I have a specific idea for the layout that I want to visualize, I'll sketch it. I already talked about how I figure out posing in my sketchwork on a previous ask.

Often I create the scenes out of order and write/draw whichever comes to mind first. For example, these are an assortment of drawings I did on my first concept sketch page for "The Brains and The Brawn".

These are from pages 3, 4, 8, and 10, and while they have nothing to do with each other, they represented the main ideas I had for the comic overall.

After that I'll essentially finalize my written script to make sure everything flows well story-wise, and then go about adding or subtracting panels to lay them out in a proper page-like format. It's kind of like slotting puzzle pieces together to see what fits. This is how I get more dynamic action paneling in my comics. Below you can see some of my more disjointed initial sketches (left) become a bit more finalized (right):

From there I block in all the panels with lines, then trace over the sketches with lineart, and fill in the lines with color. Those stages involve a little less thinking on my part, since a lot of it is just filling in what I already have planned out.

I would personally like to get a bit better with color since I tend to color-pick from other source material a lot. I'm hoping in my next comic project to get a bit more trippy and abstract with the coloring. I make sure to keep each color on a separate layer, and group the layers by character to keep things organized. I usually fully color a character at a time.

After that, I add in lights, shadows, and any special effects. I think the shading and lighting is where it really comes together because it adds a nice sense of depth to everything.

Eye shines are very important to me.

I do dialogue and sound effects last. Yes, there is a basic dialogue I put in the script, but honestly, I struggle most with dialogue (I am shocked folks think that the lines are so in-character), so I put the most time and effort into finalizing that. I will make sure to keep space for where the dialogue bubble should go, but it's often filled with placeholder dialogue until I finalize it on the last step.

I'm aware that this is rather rare for comic artists - often the dialogue comes/is blocked in first for most from what I hear, But for me, the final drawing helps me figure out the right mood/tone for the dialogue in the end anyway. That's just what works for me.

Anyway, that's at least how my comic process goes. Thanks so much for asking! And if you were looking for @happyfoxx-art, then maybe she'll add onto this post. I, for one, would be interested in her process as well :3

(also, heck yeah! Ace solidarity baby!!! [shakes your hand])

[moemoemammon]

So bear with me. MC sleeps like a rock. A bomb could go off next to them, and they don't wake up. Now, add shallow breathing, and they look like a corpse. You could mistake them for a corpse if you don't check their pulse.

How would the brothers (+ datables if you're not too picky hehe) react to the first time waking them up for school only to think they probably died in their sleep on day one??

Sleeping Like a Corpse!

(Feat. GN!MC and the Demon Bros)

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Lucifer

Lucifer didn’t think much of you when you arrived, now could he be bothered to personally make sure you peeled yourself out of bed in the morning. So naturally, he sent Mammon to go do it.

But when Mammon came back complaining about how you didn’t budge an inch, big bro realized he’d have to take care of it himself, like usual.

He figured slamming your door open would’ve done the trick, but you remain still. And as much as he wants to drag you out of bed by the ankle, he knows how fragile humans can be. He opts for giving you a vigorous shake, and.... you don’t budge.

He calls your name, nothing. He literally pulls you upright by the shoulders and jostles you around like a protein shaker bottle, but you don’t move, and- wait... are you breathing? MAMMOOOOOO-

“Haaah... It’s your first morning with us, and you’re already causing me trouble. If it weren’t for the warmth of your skin, I’d have thought you were dead. Perhaps I should give you an enchanted alarm clock, if you prove to be this difficult to wake every morning.”

Mammon

Tch, he seriously didn’t get why THE Great Mammon had to do this sorta grunt work! Why should he have to make sure a lousy human gets up for school? It’s not like he’s their babysitter! but we all know he’s a p*ssy so he’s not gonna say that out loud

But that means he’s gonna make sure you know how irritated he is! Mammon bursts into your room, calling you a ‘stinkin’ human’ at the top of his lungs, and... you don’t move a muscle. So his next step is to stomp over and rip your blankets off, and..... you still don’t move.

What the hell? It’s like trying to wake up Belphie! He leans in to try to smack you awake, when he finally notices how it...kinda...looks like you aren’t breathing.

Wait. Wait wait wait-! SURE he didn’t feel like having to watch you, but that didn’t mean he wanted you to die on the first night! Lucifer was gonna KILL him-! Did you die of fright or something?! He didn’t really mean all that stuff he said about eating you, you know?! Hey, snap out of it-!

“What the- You’re ALIVE?! I thought you died in your sleep, dammit! TCH! What’s the big idea, playin’ dead like that?! Ya tryin’ to get me in trouble?!” “-N-no I wasn’t worried about ya!”

Leviathan

Why does HE have to wake you up..? Sure, he has to go to school today anyway for the student council meeting, but what does that have to do with a human..? Couldn’t Lucifer have asked ANYONE else..?

Beyond annoyed when he enters your room. What’s he supposed to do?? Shake you?? Hit you with something???? Levi opts for awkwardly poking your side, and noticing how you don’t react. Great. Ugh... this sucked....

He tries again, then pokes the back of your head, tugs your sleeve, shakes your arm... then you roll over from the movement and he nearly has a heart attack. Not only because you surprised him, but because you.. wait, did you die?!

Stuck between “LMAOOOO ROFLMAO the human died on their first night! What a noob! #fail!” and “KDAKLFHLDSJFKL OH NO HELLO?????”

“WH- Ahhh... I thought you were dead. You know how long Lucifer would've lectured if if you died, right? He'd be so mad, i bet he'd even confiscate my D.D.D.! Normies like you are nothing but trouble. This is why a human shouldn't even be here..."

Satan

What a chore... This felt like more of a punishment than anything, and Satan hadn’t even done anything yet. Unless Lucifer already discovered the ink he dripped into his shampoo? Either way, he wasn’t the slightest bit interested in you.

But seeing as he got to hang around you in your most vulnerable state, wouldn’t it be funny if he put a curse on you? He was sure that whatever he chose would become a headache for Lucifer in some way, so the possibilities were endless.

Temporary blindness, backwards speech, rainbow colored skin, extreme bad luck, he didn’t know what to choose! Ah, and there were a few curses he wanted to use on Lucifer that needed to be tested out, so why not experiment on you?

He had plenty of time to pick the perfect one and- ah. Were you.. dead? Did someone beat him to the punch?

“Ah, so you’re alive after all. And here I thought I could harass Lucifer with knowing his human had died in their sleep. Well, it’ll have to wait, I guess...I was really looking forward to the expression on his face...”

Asmo

What? Lucifer was ACTUALLY letting him go in the cute little human’s room, completely unsupervised? What a bold move, dearest big brother~! There’s no way he’d pass up the chance to take a peek at your sleeping face! You were pretty cute, but he’d like to see if you were worth his attention.

That being said, Asmo creeps into your room like a sneaky toddler, and doesn’t hesitate to grab your shoulder and roll you over to get a good look at your sleeping face. Hmm... Not bad! 

So with that, he hops right into your bed unannounced, bouncing you around and giving you that innocent giggle of his. Aren’t you lucky? You get to be woken up by the endlessly charming Asmo-chan~! The first thing you’ll see is his gorgeous face, and you’ll be blessed with the perfect first school day! 

Why, there are hundreds and thousands of demons who wish they were as lucky as you were right now! He’s seen how they’ll fight tooth and nail for a chance to-..... hey, how come you’re not breathing..? Er, he’s not really into that sort of thing...

“Oh thank goodness! I thought you up and died before I had a chance to get to know you! You know how disappointed I’d be, right? Knowing I wasn’t able to explore the cute human living in our house... it’d be a tragedy!”

Beel

Surprisingly, he doesn’t mind that much. Having to go and wake you up reminds him of when Belphie was still around, so it’s familiar and feels kind of nice. What DOESN’T feel nice is that he’s missing valuable time he could be spending inhaling his breakfast, because you won’t wake up.

Hangry Beel enters your room with a bagel in his mouth, so you couldn’t understand what he was saying even if you were awake. Just know he’s calling your name and threatening to eat your breakfast. It’s your loss if you miss out.

Hm... You don’t wake up even after he shakes you, so he’s tempted to just leave. But he knows Lucifer will scold you if he returns downstairs without you, so he’s got to improvise.

It’s fine if he just carries you downstairs, right? He’s just tryin to eat man why can’t you- ...Beel is noticing a distinct lack of breath coming from you when he picks you up. Uhhh

“Oh, you aren’t dead. I was going to ask Lucifer if we could have you for breakfast too, but I guess that’s not an option anymore. He says hurry up and get dressed, and that you should give me your breakfast. Bye.”

Belphie

He’s in the attic, so same lmao.

Twins! Still gonna strangle and throw you down the stairs in the future tho

Couple goals amirite?

[trashiewrites]

Call of Duty: Wedding Headcanons

Price:

+it was a rather simple wedding.

+The After party was killer tho

+Booze everywhere, a big bottle of Prices Favorite whiskey.

+you wore a very flowey dress that wrapped around your figure nicely.

+yall played some oldies at the reception.

+let's just say it was crazy and definitely memorable. For the most part.

+atleast before you were wasted.

Soap

+OUTDOOR WEDDING IN THE SCOTTISH COUNTRY SIDE

+it was a rather big wedding. Not only does soap have a large family but also the 141, family friends. Not to forget your family.

+lots of food for sure.

+his family was a bit iffy about it not being in the church. But you both made sure the local pastor was doing the vows.

+the reception was rather tame due to your families being there. Still memorable tho.

+back in the hotel room with the  best men as well as the maids were fun! They got tipsy. You and soap were fucking hammering yourselves.

Ghost

+if it was his choice he would of passed on having a wedding.

+you nagged him otherwise. Saying "you cant rob me of this experience simon! I wanna feel like a princess!"

+he tried to say how you are already his queen. While you are flattered your opinion doesn't change.

+yall settle with a small wedding with your immediate family and the 141 were invited. At you favorite Gazebo.

+he refused to take off his mask

+despite it all he wrote custom vows that made everyone awe and you, cry. (Of joy)

+you also did custom vows and explained how much this meant to you. Thanking him.

+yall didnt have a reception but you both just got takeout, went into the hotel,  and enjoyed eachother first moments into this new way of life.

+yall tease eachother saying mr./Ms. Riley back and forth.

Gaz

+GAZ WANTED A FUN WEDDING

+Man he went all out for the reception.

+games, amazing food, amazing venue and service. The reception was def the most expensive thing ever.

+he wanted his first moments after marrying you to be unforgettable and damn they def were.

+you both are the couple to shove eachother into the cake. (He started it)

+yall didnt really drink much but there was booze available.

+you can bet the 141 are teasing him the entire time for his generally bashful nature.

+gaz made the mistake of letting Price say the best man speech. Story after story more of his will to exist left his body.

+yall didnt do a slow dance. Nah nah nah nah. Yall point out some hard s h I t

Roach

+BABY BOIIIIIII IS GETTING MARRIEDDDDDD

+you could hear the boys going off in chants from your dressing room.

+I mean the baby is getting married you didnt blame them.

+so... you didn't have anyone to walk you down so yall thought it be funny to do a think.

+so you were the at the altar and he with Price was walking down the aisle.

+you can over hear the best Ken singing "her come the groom, here comes the groom"

+It was so bizarre and fitting that no one dared questioned it.

+you both agreed on having a very small reception. Wanting to save most of the money for the honey moon.

+the reception was dance, photos, food, speech and that it.

+most likely to do a disney wedding let's be honest here.

Adler

+very traditional wedding in a church.

+you both didnt bother with a reception. Yall just invited them over for some booze, some smokes, and a tad bit of catering.

+your dress was a beautiful, slightly puffy floral imprinted gown. Of course long sleeved.

+adler surprisingly made custom vows. You actually didnt know he was gonna do that. It was touching.

Park

+park isnt fond of big social gatherings. And so yall just went to the courts.

+all that mattered to her was she could spend of the rest of her days with you.

(For specifically female readers)

+having the courts to fucking agree was a fucking bother. And so, with some bribes and Parks whose choice of words yall were able to get the lisence.

+cold war times were rough as shit but who gives a flying fuck.

Lazar

+you did the wedding in his tradition. And he was very happy you agreed.

+he takes his culture very seriously.

+Learning all the proper manners and events was definitely a culture shock of and experience. But you had not only Lazar but some really nice ladies helping out.

+very colorful wedding you both had.

Woods 

+yall had your wedding in the Philadelphia. In the family homes back yard.

+his entire family was present and so was yours.

+they have a huge fucling tard.

+speeches were spent as wood would tightly curl himself into a ball tighter and tighter with every speech.

+"one time I rember frank went into the front and tripped over some wagon and fell right in and rolled off into the sunset! Man we chased for atleast a mile" (cues the chronic laughter from you.)

+karma is a bitch. And he laughs at your stupid family stories.

Mason 

+private wedding with you close family and Masons family. Woods was also invited

+you two got married cause you were already pregnant. Not like you didnt want to anyways.

+the music consisted of 50s tunes played by a local jazz band you enjoyed.

+mason really did spoil you with the wedding. Got everything you desired. To the tiniest decor detail.

+you fav part was you slow dance since mason is just such a sweetheart. And an amazing dancer.

+"PUT YOU HEAD ON MY SHOOOUUULDDEEER, HOLD ME IN YOU ARMSS, BABBBYYYYY"

+Yall are both teasing eachother the entire reception.

+you both had to help wood home since he was bloody fucked.

Hudson

+To everyone's surprise he actually had a big wedding. You both had large families so it made sense.

+yall know he do a church wedding. He may be a war criminal but he still a man of god.

+his best men which were mason, woods, adler and one other you were unaware about were crying not of joy but of sadness of losing one of "The Boys"

+in his vows he apologized for his dumbass best men.

+you found the whole thing funny and knew Hudson still loved those guys to his grave. Tho he may never show it.

[liannelara-dracula]

Reiji's Ideal Type Aesthetic (Vampire)

I had some time, and in bc it's Reiji's Birthday in Japan y not upload some stuff for him.

-Liannelara

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There’s a charm about you that’s always had him hooked from the start, he just hasn’t said it.

Or rather, he’d never admit to himself.

It was the way you were, elegant about anything you did.

You displayed the color black so well, he’d never seen a woman look as sophisticated as you.

Knowledgeable in every area as a vampire, he couldn’t resist getting to know you.

There was a fire behind those eyes and your personality.

You were full of witty remarks and played mind games with him and despite him hating the idea of being toyed.

He could never resist it from such a woman.

Everything you did was entrancing and you were secretive which kept him even more entertained to get to know you.

The way your dazzling smile would shine or how your smirk came onto display when seeing him from afar and trying to gain his attention by scheming something to happen.

And some way or another, Reiji was always being present in your world bc you made it happen discreetly or he did.

Although you hardly had to bc Reiji was obsessed with the idea of getting to know you even if he’d never openly expressed it.

It was the kind of atmosphere where no words were exchanged but then both of you knew there was something going on.

As a vampire with heightened skills, he loves to see you complete or figure something out at school bc you are not like any human.

Although he’s heavily into your brain and you being smart he loves how you’re not easily bought.

You aren't even a troublesome woman like the triplet's mother even if you like to scheme when it comes to catching a said vampire prince’s eye.

He really likes that you are full of surprises and it drives him mad bc he can never tell what you’re thinking.

Though it may come as a shock, he enjoys how you are free-spirited and take risks.

Bc even as a vampire you still choose to live in the moment, which is something he’s never been able to do.

He also likes to see how you get mad bc he hopes that something sexual will be initiated by it.

Likes it when you can be fascinated by something he’s showing you.

He’d take a liking to you more as he’d realize that you appreciated everything he’s shared with you, unlike his mother.

He’d take a liking to you more as he’d realize that you appreciated everything he’s shared with you, unlike his mother.

Reiji hardly encounters someone with the same interest as him and even tho you don’t (i just don’t see her liking science like he does) take interest in it you are still familiar with it.

Which gives him the excuse to see you move your body in his lab when you help him with potion-making.

Apart from your personality, this man is heavily into your body.

He’d prefer that she was tall but can see his vampire gf being a bit short which he may of at first thought about disregarding her but after finding out all the other qualities he simply couldn’t.

You’d have an hourglass body for a sure cause that’s just what he’s into but he’d still want you to be on the slim side of the spectrum.

He also doesn’t mind if you’re slim like a model either, but he is into wide hips.

And let’s not forget, good posture is key for him.

You have to wear lipstick because you will have this man especially if it’s red and I see that he likes a girl with kinda thin lips.

He likes when you have makeup on but not too much.

Long, curly lashes, and you, in general, most likely have dark hair, I don’t see him being into blondes bc his brother is one.

Nice soft skin and are probably pale bc I see him being into European women the most.

I see that he really likes a girl with curly hair whether or not she’s a vampire. But he also likes it when you have your hair straightened and you leave it down, but that’s mostly with a sacrificial bride tho.

Anyways he really likes your hands and when you put them over his and he likes your long sharp nails.

Especially if they are sharp bc it makes it more fun in bed.

You are not submissive all the time even tho he has a high sex drive and he prefers a girl who’s kinda shy, but his vamp gf wouldn’t be.

He kinda hopes you’ll get in trouble at school bc he being able to scold you.

Plus it’s something I really see happening since it’s one of the many perks he has to deal with having a vampire gf bc she does have a temper.

He really likes that you wear form-fitting clothes and dresses which expose your shoulders and back to him.

And you are his test subject, yes you may be a vampire but that doesn’t mean he won’t test things on you. He just won’t test it if it’s fatal since he likes you but he will use you to run tests.

Which could mean you possibly turning into a cat or something for a little while.

He wouldn’t be afraid to drug your tea without asking either, he’d even slip in an aphrodisiac or some kind of herbs that are said to make you aroused or fertile.

˗ˏˋ 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑦 𝑤𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑖𝑠 𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑎𝑙 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝐼 𝑑𝑜 𝑛𝑜𝑡 𝑜𝑤𝑛 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠 ˎˊ˗

©𝟐𝟎𝟏𝟔~Present

[starvine]

first date headcanons

attack on titan (modern au)

summary: some first date headcanons with some of the attack on titan characters. 

warnings: none, just fluff :)

eren jaeger: movie 

a little basic but it’s all eren could come up with

besides, it was between a movie and dinner and dinner felt too formal so y’all decided on a movie

he’d let you pick the movie tho

he might argue with you if it’s something stupid and claim that it’s horribly written (as if he knows a thing) but that’s it

eren would make sure to get the BEST snacks. spicy food? check. candy? check. popcorn? check. fruits? check.

he just wants to impress you (even if he did have to confide in his friends for some advice)

he just really likes you

during the movie, you guys would start shifting closer to each other, both a little too timid to move all the way all at once

but you guys would make commentary throughout the movie, laughing when things seem too cliché or when a character says something funny

half way throughout the movie, you guys aren’t even really paying attention it it

you’re too busy throwing popcorn at each other and trying to catch it in your mouths, feeding each other candy, and giggling at each other

it’s intimate in its own relaxed way, which makes eren realize how perfect you are

you both could make the most out of a pretty average first date situation and make it into a beyond amazing first date

and that was all he needed to ask you on a second date before he dropped you off at your car, walking with you to make sure you got there safely

and ngl you’d be a bit of a fool to say no to eren

armin arlert: aquarium 

sweetheart is so nervous 

before he came to your apartment to pick you up for your date, he was a little nervous wreck 

he was fidgeting with his fingers, playing with the buttons on his shirt--he probably accidentally opened one by accident 

but once he saw you, he felt fine 

it was as if he physically melted, you just make everything okay 

once you guys got to the aquarium, he would NOT shut up

he was probably pointing things out, telling you fun facts, asking you what is your favorite marine life 

“oh, you like pufferfish? that’s cool! i like them too. they’re very... puffy.” 

he’s like a child in a candy store 

but while he’s rambling about how the digestive system of a sea cucumber basically cleans the ocean, he’s wondering how he should make a move 

he doesn’t want to scare you off or anything, but he doesn’t want you to be disappointed 

but while you guys are looking at one of those large fish tanks, the ones where you walk through a tunnel, you guys just sort of stand there and watch in awe

or rather armin watches in awe while you look at him, a soft smile gracing his pink lips as his eyes dart across the illustriously blue colored glass

and when he feels your pinky latch onto his, he’s a little shocked that you had made the first move

he didn’t not expect it per say, he just thought that he would be the one to make the first move 

but his overthinking got in the way

and when he turns to look down at your intertwined pinkies, he caught you sending him a delicate smile that made his heart squeeze until he felt as if every part of him was on fire

but it was him who finally held your hand fully 

he just needed you to give him the extra push

mikasa ackerman: book store 

it’s a very calming atmosphere, which is something you’d both need for this first date

mikasa is probably pretty anxious for the first date, and wants to make sure you’re okay and enjoying yourself while also making sure she’s okay and enjoying herself

so the calming scent of the book store and the quietness is perfect for her to multitask between mediating the two

you’d both be tasked with picking each other books and then buying them for each other

so initially mikasa was nervous because she wasn’t sure what to get you but then you asked what she liked to read and so that allowed her to ask the same, making the situation less stressful

and all while you two are walking from isle to isle, eyes scanning the various book titles and covers, she sneaks glances at you and how pretty you look

and the fact that you seem very deep in thought, heavily concentrated on getting her the right book, makes her feel less concerned on whether or not you’d rather be with her or not

the answer is obviously a yes but mikasa has a hard time understanding that sometimes

so when you give her the book you bought for her, making sure to lightly touch her fingers while you hand it to her, she already knows that another date is what she wants you both to have or else she’ll probably explode

and based off of how flushed she looks, the possibility of her exploding is not highly unlikely

you guys will sit at this little table in the corner of the store, reading your books

i can picture mikasa annotating certain lines that remind her of you, making mental notes to show you later

overall, the date is pretty lowkey and very sweet

connie springer: dave + busters/bowling

ok there’s not much of an explanation for this one besides the point that if feels right

like connie is pretty energetic and i feel like you can learn a lot about a person based off of the games they’re drawn to 

hence the arcade

i think connie really likes those racing games or the zombie shooting games

he also claims he’s really good at ski ball (he’s not, he’s trash)

so a good portion of the date consists of you just laughing at him the whole time cuz in all honestly he’s not the best at games but he enjoys them for the fun of them

he’d definitely cheer you on when you were playing or try to mess you up if it was you two against each other

but either way he’d give you a hug or a pat on the head after every game

even if u beat him

he’d probably try to sneak a kiss when you guys were in one of those shooting games that requires a booth and the curtains drawn (does that make sense?)

it’s not really romantic like at all, especially since it smells like a million different people in there, but it’s very low stress so in all honesty that’s what makes the kiss nice

and after you guys had used up all your tokens, you’d combine your tickets and pick something together

your prizes would mostly consist of candy and him insisting he get you a plastic gem ring so you can always remember your first date together

it was also his little, strange way of asking you for a second date

levi ackerman: art museum 

unlike connie, he’s not super energetic

so a museum is right up his alley

levi’s a bit awkward, he doesn’t really know how to talk to you

and especially since you’re lovely, his words jumble together and he gets all flustered

so a nice, quiet museum exhibit is perfect for him

it’s a nice balance between casual and formal, so you both dress nice but aren’t restricted by the need to be super polite and stuff

he’d probably like it when you try to imitate the poses that are shown in the paintings or sculptures

just imagine the soft chuckle he’d be unable to prevent from escaping his lips which then melts into a soft smirk

beautiful, beautiful lad

he probably wouldn’t join you though, he doesn’t want to embarrass himself

he just smiles at you and stares at the art, reading the background info they give on those little plates near them

but he would notice when you stare at him

he could be looking at some art made during the dutch golden age, but as soon as your head slightly tilted in his direction, his cheeks would HEAT up

you almost asked him if he was feeling alright he was so red

but as the date went on, levi really just thought about how much he enjoyed your presence

and he’s not a wicked talkative guy so being able to feel comfortable with someone even if you aren’t talking or doing much is pretty important to him

as the date concludes, levi finally works up the courage to place his hand on your shoulder, asking if there was anything else you wanted to see before the museum closes for the day

his face might be bright red, but the smile you give him makes him feel a little less embarrassed

what can you say, you’ve got charm 💅

hange: the fucking zoo

ok i won’t lie when i got the idea of hange taking you to the zoo for your first date i thought it was so funny and idk why

like they’d be so excited that they’d nearly forget that they’re on a date with you

they’d drag you around from exhibit to exhibit, pointing out the exact breed of tortoise or some really strange fact about the zebras without looking at the little description panel in front of the exhibit

it’s pretty comical

but then randomly, when you guys are sitting down and eating some fries from one of the concession stands, they start going on a rant about animal cruelty and how a lot of zoos don’t treat the animals properly

and you’re just sitting there like “what 🧍‍♀️” cuz they’re mood changed so quickly LMAO

and as soon as their rant started, it finishes and they’re rushing you to the reptile exhibit

they’d probably try to figure out if they could hold one of the snakes

you’d have to drag them out of there before they start harassing one of the workers into letting them hold a snake

they’d also give all of the animals names only to forget them in 2 seconds

“hey, robert, it’s good to see you again!” “hange, i thought you named them dante?” “oh... did i? 😁”

however there’s probably like one animal they absolutely despise and idk why but i feel like it’s parrots

y’all would be walking through this rainforest exhibit, birds flying from tree to tree and the whole time they’re cursing the birds under their breath for no reason at all

just an angry person walking through a rainforest exhibit, cursing out birds

pretty normal if you ask me

however, the date itself is pretty casual and almost feels like you guys are just hanging out

or it would if they didn’t ask you out on another date before dropping you off at home, kissing your cheek as their farewell

pieck finger: café

very simple and quaint

i feel like pieck has a coffee addiction and always puts her in a better mood

so what better place to go on a date then a café?

she’s definitely an iced coffee drinker, and will occasionally go for a hot drink but usually iced coffee is her go-to

and if you get a coffee or tea that she also happens to like, you’re already practically golden in her eyes

since pieck has a very soothing and lowkey nature, i can see the date being much more just like a conversation with someone you’ve known for forever instead of interview-y which is something i’ve found coffee/lunch/dinner dates to be a bit like

but pieck knows how to keep things interesting and she’s a pretty calming person to be around so all is well

i also can’t see her getting super nervous before the date

she seems pretty calm unless in high-stress situations, but even then, she’s pretty level-headed

but since she’s so calm, it makes you wonder if she really cares for the date

and of COURSE she does, she’s so excited about it

it’s just the way pieck is

but as the date continues, she’d probably start to tease you by playing footsies under the table

you gotta keep the date interesting, you know?

you guys would talk about your interests, family, friends, shows you’re watching

literally just anything and everything that’ll allow you guys to get a feel for each other

and if all goes well she’ll definitely suggest another date ;)

also don’t expect to leave without her either writing something cute on your cup, pressing a lip-stick stained kiss to your cheek that matches the one surrounding the rim of her cup, or a promise that your game of footsies will continue next time you see each other

[narsicen]

File 004: A Study on ‘Loneliness’.

Word count: 9k+

Pairing: Hwang Hyunjin (stray kids) x GN! Y/N x Lee Felix (stray kids)

Genre: a slice of life, romance, unrequited love, college au! best friends to lovers au! (Not for one of them tho </3) angst, some fluff, artist au!Hyunjin, med student au!Y/N

Warnings: mentions of food (Please do tell me if something is triggering and I missed it!)

A/N note: soooo, this is supposed to be a Hyunjin x Y/N type of fic..? And this has no relation with an upcoming Felix fic that I’m working on, and you guYS- don’t hold grudges on Y/N or Felix KJKJDFKJH it’s just how it goes, plus I didn’t wanna make Felix seem like someone bAD??? SO- uhm yeah. . . Enjoy!

Special thanks to @kookthief , @mygnolia and @taecup-ontrack for helping beta read this story </3 (and mainly putting up with my dysfunctional story LMAooO)

Writing down the words your professor spoke from the front of the lecture room, his words echoed throughout the space with the help of the mic that was propped on the lectern just on the far side of the big projector screen.

You would look up from your notebook every once in a while to examine the presented PowerPoint up front. Letting your elbow rest on the smooth desk, you lean the side of your head on your hand before finding your thoughts fly out the window together with the endless monotone droning of your professor.

‘That’s all for today’s class, get ready for next week’s exam, have a nice weekend everyone.’ A faint thud from the heavy book that your professor always carried to wherever he was, which grabbed your attention to the front, luckily you were able to catch the last words of farewell your professor granted to all the students in his class.

‘Y/N! Hyunjin’s waiting for you outside.’ Jisung chirped in from the entrance of the nearly empty lecture hall, and you stood up and gave him a small smile and nod that showed you understood him. The boy gave you a thumbs up just above his head with a bright grin to follow before he left.

You sighed lightly, pursing your lips as you packed your things into your bag, swinging it onto your shoulder as you steadily descended the vast steps down to the entrance of the hall to meet your best friend.

The sea of students blocking your face caused you to take a step back to avoid being hit in the face. You balked at the thought of having to fight against the flow just to meet someone.

Hyunjin watched after each passing head or body that bumped into him, pushing him into a corner in the hall to avoid being thrown into the flow. He spotted the familiar cap you wore to school today, and waved his hand in hopes of catching your attention.

Turning your head left and right to spot him anywhere, you hoped the color of his sweater would help you spot him as you turned your head left and right. Unfortunately, nothing came out of you aimlessly trying to find a white sweater with small streaks of red and blue when nearly everyone is wearing white or black and a few others wore something like red or yellow. You soon found a jumping figure in the corners in between the hallway, you saw his familiar brown hair that bounced when he jumped to catch your attention. Sighing in defeat, you made your way through the crowd to reach him.

‘Ugh, that was such a hassle..’ You looked behind your shoulder at the crowd with disdain, you turned back to meet Hyunjin, he met your face with a tight-lipped smile. The cap you wore covered your eyes so you had to tilt your head upwards to meet with his eyes—that looked full of discomfort for you.

‘You look better without the cap,’ Hyunjin gently removed the hat off your head, his other hand patted the stray hair that clung to the hat while he removed it and became a little frizzy, so he decided to flatten it and somewhat fix them back in place. He handed you the cap back, ‘Seeeeee?’

His gestures sure looked romantic from a distance, but his dialogue and the tone only reframed the childish picture that your friendship was always in. You rolled your eyes playfully with a light simpering grin, snatching the hat back and stuffing it into your bag. ‘Aren’t you busy? We could have just met in the cafeteria.’ You took off an early head start walking in the direction of your building’s exit, and he followed with hurried steps to your side, ‘Well, yes, I WAS busy but as a good upperclassman and best friend, I thought, why not pick you up or something.’

You nodded your head while you listened to his explanation, finding it childish but you decided not to act on it, ‘I think I'm old enough to walk to the cafeteria on my own, Mr. Hwang.’

‘I’m just trying to be nice!’ His arms outstretched to his sides as if he was being falsely accused and he was trying to reason out. His eyebrows furrowed, and his steps stopped when you halted as well to look at him. ‘Thank you for your efforts, then.’ You subtly replied to him, turning back to make your way out the building’s door.

Hyunjin’s eyebrows relaxed and instead one of them raised in amusement, jogging to follow you out the glass door. Your conversation was muffled by the doors— which only consisted of the two of you bantering and sarcastically imitating each other.

Flowers grow rapidly.

~

‘Would you say that my painting looks pretty impressive? Seriously, I feel like I’ve outdone myself again’ Hyunjin stood up from his stool, bending forward with his thumb that pressed against his paintbrush, closing an eye and examining his painting from a few steps back. You looked at him weirdly before turning back to his painting. It was a fully sketched-out drawing of a bouquet, specifically of blooming daffodils.

Beautiful, that’s one word to describe it, and even if the work was unfinished, you always knew better than to expect it to turn out downright bad because it never does, ‘It looks.. okay, I guess.’ You turned from his work back to your own, you’re not an art student but you occasionally find yourself in the art room with Hyunjin, trying to solve math equations or memorizing the steps to perform CPR while he’s painting pictures and scenery. While Hyunjin isn’t the only one who turns up with paint splattered all over him, you had at least half of what he had.

‘Be a little bit more descriptive please, I have to use it to be better!’ He waved his extra hand in the air to emphasize the word ‘please’, you couldn’t (or you just didn't want to) turn to face him, you slowly nodded at his statement with a hum, currently displaying that you were occupied with your homework.

Hyunjin noticed the lack of response from you,frowning at the sight of you hunched over another stool, answering on your notebook, followed by a huff. Hyunjin decided to leave you to work your assignment out before he poked more fun out of you.

~

Smacking your books on top of each other with a grunt, finally finishing a much-dreaded assignment, Hyunjin was still busy painting, or that’s what it looks like, from your view, you peeked from the side of the canvas to see how he’s doing, he was hyper-focused onto the pigments of paint he would apply along the lines.

You found this as an open opportunity to see something for yourself, and you mused a sneaky grin. Making your way behind him as quickly as possible (and praying he hadn’t heard the light stumble when you tripped on a notebook stack) your smile grew as you slowly raised your arms, with a small laugh of victory, you attacked his sides, his elbow tucked to your hand that poked on his side instinctively, he avoided his paintbrush from the canvas the best he could at the abrupt surprise.

He laughed a little too hard, his chair somehow tipped with him while he had a fit and now he’s on the floor probably still laughing. From the sight, you couldn’t help but laugh at his circumstances, you had a hand on your stomach and you supported yourself on your knee with the other hand.

~

‘You didn’t need to do that! I could have ruined and tainted my artwork.’ Hyunjin tried his best to sound stern, but the playful scoff he couldn’t control broke his expression, and his eyes crinkled with a grin curling upwards.

‘Yo..u- did you ..’ and you broke out into another laughing fit at the recurring memory of the boy falling, you wiped a fake tear from your eyes after the good laugh you shared with him.

You heaved a quiet sigh, bending over to pick up the scattered notebooks on the floor to put together with the rest of your books, you slung your bag strap onto your shoulder. ‘Are you done, by the way? I just finished and I think I should head back to my dorm soon.’ you glanced at him over your shoulder as you readjusted your bag strap.

Hyunjin looked up from packing away his art materials, the faint cluttering of the paintbrushes and pencils always reminded you that your best friend was an art student, and considering that you’ve heard this same cluttering ever since you started doing your work in an art studio, specifically the one at the end of the hallway of the fine arts building that no one likes hanging around in (they say it could be haunted but it’s really just the open window and the dust-filled room that makes it that way.)

But that’s probably what makes it even better, just about two or three brave students to ever enter and use the room but usually, it’s just you and/or Hyunjin. You liked to come here for the quiet atmosphere, and Hyunjin would find you just sitting in the middle of the room, copying your classmate’s notes from a previous lecture.

The one thing you observed for the past few months that you’ve been hanging around the art studio with Hyunjin was that he actually did not have a case or a bag for his stuff, like his art materials- just a ziplock and a paper bag and he’d just shove it into his bag. You thought it was absurd of him to not have a bag at least for his materials, considering how he’s been an art major for a while now. (he is your senior)

You decided against asking him why he doesn’t have a bag for his paintbrushes and pencils and you brushed it off as “it’s his business, not mine”

‘No I’m not done but I should pack up too, I can walk you to your dorm if you want,’ The boy quickly zipped his bag up and threw off his apron, spreading it onto his stool. ‘Well, it’s not really your choice, I’ll walk you there anyway.’

You scoffed, boo-ing at him jokingly while showing a thumbs down. Hyunjin could only roll his eyes as he threw his bag on his back and headed for the door.

‘Just get out the door.’ Hyunjin gestured to the door with his head.

~

‘Wanna get ice cream?’

‘No.’

‘Why not?’

You both stopped walking and turned to face each other, ‘I don’t want to, anyway, you’re old enough to cross a street and get your ice cream.’

‘Yeah, but where's the fun in crossing a street and getting ice cream on your own,’ Hyunjin reasoned with his arms stretched out to the road behind you. ‘That’s exactly something that you’d do!’

‘What do you mean by “something that I’d do”?’ You narrowed your eyes at him.

~

Hyunjin rubbed the back of his head, wincing at the sharp pain now and then that would return, closing an eye as he continued to try to relieve the pain. Seriously, what do you keep in your bag?

He realized the lack of movement from beside him which caused him to realize your figure that seemed taller than usual, you loosely hung your thumbs on your bag straps, tapping your foot lightly on the concrete steps. ‘No, I am not saying sorry for your “head injury”, and good night.’

Hyunjin gave you a sarcastic frown as he let his other hand drop to his side. ‘For a med-student, you sure do a lot more damage than fixing or caring.’

‘I’m not a doctor yet, which means I don’t need to take up being that nice,’ You averted your gaze to somewhere behind him while shifting your weight on your feet slowly, the slight flickering of the fairly worn out light bulb just above your head at the entrance of the dormitory gained a few moths swarming around it, the cicadas and crickets broke the quiet chilly night that fell upon the city.

‘And I certainly don’t need to be nice when someone indirectly calls me a loner.’ Glaring at him with slightly furrowed brows, this sent shivers down Hyunjin’s spine, and that’s not a treat you’d expect or want after walking your friend home.

‘I said I was sorry.. and I didn’t mean it like that! I just meant that you like it quiet, and I’m not into that quiet stuff.. Ice cream shouldn’t be enjoyed alone, y’know... it’s just more fun that way, at least for me.’ He looked down at his feet, slowly digging his shoe into the gravel on the pavement, the slight crackling sounds gave his action away.

You tried to look at him, but you ended up looking at anything and everything that wasn't him, neither of you would bat an eye to the other, it was true, you admitted to yourself that it did get lonely when you had to eat ice cream alone during your junior days, it might as well be good enough to melt, it wouldn’t taste as good anyway.

‘Whatever.. it’s late, I’ll head inside now..’ You swiftly turned around to make your way in, you hesitated to tell him to get back to his dorm safe, but then again it's all on the campus, what was the worst that could happen at this hour?

‘Ye-ah good ni-‘ He realized the faint bell sounds from behind the glass door to the building, and your figure trudging up the stairs. Hyunjin’s fingers curled down before he let his hand fall to his side, he found a flat smile on his lips before he decided to make his way back to his dorm.

~

Hyunjin rubbed his towel onto the side of his head, flopping to his bed on the ground, he didn’t mind that his hair was wet and the fact that his pillow was probably going to be drenched in the morning or the fact that his towel was ruining his sheets. Today was tiring, but that’s nothing new to his journal.

He groaned when he realized his lamp wasn’t closed and his desk was a mess, his materials were a mess on the floor and a bunch of old, tainted clothes scattered across his floor. And he wondered why his roommate wishes not to enter his room.

Hyunjin stumbled as he stood up from his bed, throwing the sheets that entangled his foot and tossed his towel onto his chair, he fell back onto the wooden chair in front of his desk that held his notebook open, scribbled out ideas and drawings of flowers were just everywhere on the pages, grabbing his trash can beside the desk to sweep up all the crumpled paper balls on the desk, he was about to finish up by reaching over to close his lamp.

His phone vibrated with a high note, alerting him that his phone was below 10%, Hyunjin grumbled loudly as he pulled his drawer open to pull out his charger. Dismissing the pop-up notification, he realized the small red banner on the top right corner of his messaging app.

Hyunjin blinked twice. Huh? He thought while scrunching his face. This was never a regular thing, and it obviously will not continue in the future. Processing the 4 messages you sent to him was a nerve-wracking experience for you, on the other hand.

You decided to leave him be, opting to worry about it tomorrow, or at least when you aren’t tired. You sighed, dropping your head just as you tossed your phone on the mattress, you hugged the blankets closer to your body, turned away from your phone in hopes you would be forced to sleep without any distractions.

A particular ‘ding’ fought for your attention, you itched to look if it was Hyunjin who answered or something, you labeled it under ‘it might be something important,’ but who were you trying to fool? It was 1 in the morning.

‘Ugh,’ you grumbled while flipping to your side, grabbing your phone to check, if only you knew what was coming your way.

You squint at the brightness of your screen, you curse at your phone while you navigate through your messages to get it over with.

The message itself was the reason why this isn’t and will never be a regular thing. You scoffed, typing a quick reply before tossing it to the mattress once again. Snuggling into the blanket that went up to your chin, drifting off to sleep.

~

‘Y/N!’ You glanced over your shoulder, shoving your phone into your jacket pocket as you gave the boy who ran up to you an unamused face, you watched him bend down, supporting himself on his hands that rested on his knees, trying to catch his breath.

‘What were you even doing last night, I would have thought you already went to bed when I texted you.’ Hyunjin raised a hand in front of your face, still bent down as a sign to give him a moment.

‘I was going to bed, but my brain told me to clean up my mess on my desk, and that is not my fault!’

‘You basically decided it yourself’

‘Y/N let your senior catch his breath,’ Hyunjin gasped for air while dragging his feet towards the entrance of the main building on the campus. You scoffed before jogging right behind him, ‘Well I have a lecture in a bit, I'll see you later then, Y/N.’ Hyunjin waved goodbye to you, he twirled around to shoot you finger guns before continuing his wave.

You rolled your eyes while waving back at him, ‘Yeah yeah whatever, see you later.’ Nonetheless, you had a grin on your lips.

Both of you parted ways to complete your daily classes and activities. But across the campus, somehow both of you seemed to smile while running on 5 or fewer hours of sleep, starting your day right, always starting with saying good morning to your best friend.

Flowers looked nice under the sun.

~

‘Y/N you he-‘ Hyunjin opened the door to peek into the art room you two always met up in, the dust that flew around the room became somewhat visible due to the bright lamp at the center of the room.

No signs of you in the room at all, Hyunjin fully opened the door to stare blankly at the rest of the corners of the art room, the quiet atmosphere was disrupted by a small ‘ping’ from Hyunjin’s pocket, with a huff he quickly fished his phone out.

‘Sorry, I don’t think I'll be able to meet up today, but if you really insist on hanging out, we can meet up later like outside the ice cream shop down the street.’ The boy muttered the words that you texted him, he formed a small pout at your text, he was really looking forward to working on his painting with you today.

Hyunjin threw on his apron before tossing his phone to the small table beside the singular easel, he sluggishly walked over to the unfinished painting of a bouquet of daffodils that sat in a corner that the light barely touched, the partially painted petals seemed like it reached out to be in the light.

The others who remained a sketch hid in the dark corner next to other paintings that were left alone, basking in the dust and occasional spider webs. Hyunjin observed the setting his painting was under, he turned his head to the side to watch his thoughts wander silently in his head, he doesn't know what or where they are, he can’t hear them, but he knows they’re there.

Hyunjin scoffed, but it only came out as a faint exhale, he reached down to pick up the painting, relishing the slightly dust-covered canvas and how the oil paint pigments were sunken into all the right spaces.

He faintly smiled at his painting, how fragile the petals looked, the way the stems grew outwardly in the way that it looked like it was being pulled down a little by the weight of the flower itself, if you took a closer look it felt like you could see and feel the subtle swaying as the flower petals were carried by the wind.

What a beautiful feeling.

What a beautiful sight.

Hyunjin brought his painting to the easel, he dropped onto the stool that was stationed right in front of the painting, he side-eyed the cup full of paintbrushes beside him. Hesitantly hovering his hand over them, gosh was it so hard to finally finish the painting?

Was it so hard?

Hyunjin allowed himself to gaze on the soft touch of the petals that lined with the beige-like paint that covered the sketch marks, the stem that grew crookedly but gracefully to its position. He realized the ways it all twisted so beautifully together, but so complicated in a way, you could trace with your eyes and see which stem belonged to which head of the daisies, but you could notice how they grew like vines.

His eyes flickered from the brushes to the painting of the daisies, his shoulders relaxed. He let his hand down to rest just beside the cup on the table.

‘What am I going to do with this?’ Hyunjin mumbled under his breath, he guffawed just as he instinctively picked up his favourite brush from the set.

Flowers are fragile.

~

‘Y/N!’ You looked up at the call of your name, glancing up from your phone to see Hyunjin waving from across the street, not just an ordinary wave though, it was the kind of wave that eventually would make you sway together with it.

You bit back the smile that grew on your lips, you felt embarrassed to say that this was your friend, your best friend to be exact. You made a gesture to tell him to stop what he was doing, it was currently 10:56 pm, but you being a med-student on their break time would also mean that your other classmates could be wandering around looking for something to eat to pass the time for a bit.

You hated being embarrassed. That’s a given, but it wasn’t helping that Hyunjin always tried to stick by your side. He jogged across the street to meet with you, face to face.

You looked up at him and he looked down at you, ‘So.. you’re paying for the ice cream?’ Hyunjin smiled innocently at you.

‘You kidding me? Their ice cream cones are like 65 bucks, no way.’ You glared at him, crossing your arms to signal that you aren’t going to give up 65 bucks or so for ice cream.

‘Right, right, let the broke to-be artist pay.’ Hyunjin rolled his eyes as he sarcastically waved his hand over his shoulder.

‘That’s right! Good job Hyunjin!’ Your voice went up a pitch higher with a sarcastic grin to follow (though behind that grin was probably your best victory grin at that time)

You both walked to the ice cream parlor just down the street. Bumping each other’s elbows with faint jokes that filled the bubble you two made around yourselves.

Flowers can mean two things.

~

‘Oh come on, that wasn’t even good!’ You exclaimed, you giggled faintly at the sight of the other, bent down on his knees, still laughing his heart out after his joke.

‘Geez...’ Finding your gaze up at the sky, you leaned on the railing on the edge of the sidewalk, Hyunjin’s laughter died down as he realized you moving on from the topic, he gazed in the same direction, he noticed the lack of stars in the sky and he frowned internally how could people deal with one or two stars in the dark sky and call them beautiful. What’s there to call beautiful when there’s barely anything in the sky?

Hyunjin slowly turned to look at you beside him, you continued to look and admire the twinkling star in the distance and a passing plane. He noticed how the sides of your lips were eager to go higher with the sight of the plane that passed just beneath the star.

Or how your eyes crinkled and reflected the night sky with the singular sparkle of a star, it wasn’t grand, but Hyunjin found himself staring at something so simple, but it made him feel something new, something weird.

Something like what an art piece would offer you, the beauty of the story behind the lines, the strokes and the paint, and the indescribable feeling that it fills you with when you gaze at it.

That’s what he felt -- Would you feel the same if it was me? Or would you feel different because it’s me?

What kind of loneliness would we call it when one of the two feels it, while the other gets to smile at them after all the damage they’ve done.

Would you call it loneliness, even?

‘Y/N,’ Hyunjin called softly to you, you hummed in response without batting an eye to him as you continued to roam around the sky. What kind of loneliness would we call it when one person feels so much from just an answer from someone when the other wouldn't even bat an eye to them?

Calling it damage might be too much, but it was lovely. What kind of artist would make something so beautifully destructive to the heart?

‘I want to get your advice on something, and I’m only going to say it once. Okay?’ Hyunjin seemed scared to even look at you. You hummed as a response to his sudden change of behavior.

‘I have a friend..who I’ve known for a long time now.’ Hyunjin looked down at his feet as he spoke.

He felt like backing out from this, but decided on going for it, he shoved his shaky hands into his sweater pockets. ‘I.. I think I started to like them… along the way.’

You looked at him upon hearing the little confession on his problems, you noticed how he wasn’t staring at you anymore, and he was fiddling with the tissues he had gotten together with his ice cream from the shop earlier.

‘… - If I tell them how I feel.. things might get awkward and I might ruin our friendship.’

If we weren’t in a generation of hate and broken feelings, would I still call this loneliness? Or being too ‘sensitive’?

‘But if I back out from doing so.. And not tell them the truth,’ Hyunjin huffed and looked to the black sky, before muttering the rest of the sentence. ‘I know I’m going to lose them to someone else, and I’ll regret not telling them.’

You were holding back a scoff to brush off the random “confession” Hyunjin gave you out of nowhere, instead of seeing him playfully trying to hold in a laugh, but instead, you saw his brown eyes that had a sparkle or two just like the stars in the sky, but they weren’t shining on their own or reflecting off of his own sun, it was flickering with a hope he wasn’t sure where he was supposed to look first to find it.

He pursed his lips slightly, why do you look so nervous? You’re only asking for my opinion. You thought, pulling away from his gaze, you glared at your, now gray, sneakers that you used to kick a pebble across the street.

Hyunjin observed you from the corner of his eye, noticing you fiddling with your fingers and your serious expression; he decided to brush it off to save both of you from growing tension in the atmosphere.

‘You can give me an answer next time, I have to finish a project. I’ll have a long night ahead so, I’ll see you tomorrow?’ He tried to joke around to leave the night on a good note, you chuckled lightly at his attempt at a joke. Maybe it was the ice cream? Or the feeling of desperation to leave this awkward situation, or the fact that it was 12:35 PM.

‘See you tomorrow, for someone older, you would think you’d be more responsible and not pull all-nighters to finish projects.’ Hyunjin walked backwards as the conversation went on, scoffing at your “joke”, you did mean a little behind the teasing, but it was all in good fun.

‘Yeah yeah, See you N/N.’ You waved to his back as he walked away.

Sort of leaving the night on a good note? Accomplished (?) Definitely a mission accomplished in both of your books.

Flowers are poisonous to us sometimes.

~

‘Uh-.. is uhm Y/N here?’ Hyunjin leaned over the counter where the head nurse sat, Hyunjin gently lowered a polka dot print randomly decorated the box with a white bow on top beside him.

‘Doctor L/N? Oh, I believe-‘ The nurse stood up from their seat, vaguely pointing off in a random direction as he spoke.

The nurse searched all around the table, hoping you’d come out of the corner from your rounds, ‘Oh, there they are.’

Hyunjin whirled to follow the voice of the nurse, both Hyunjin and the head nurse watched as you aimlessly turned the corner to enter behind the front desk just to slump right into a seat, your back facing the two boys.

Hyunjin scoffed faintly, shaking his head, ‘Here, Y/N seems busy, can you just give this to them?’ Hyunjin slightly nudged the box on the counter as a gesture to the other.

‘Oh.. okay, thank you! Get home safely!’ Hyunjin bowed politely as he jogged to the exit.

Whipping his phone out, he left you a small message in case you would ignore his message in the box.

‘Eat well, Felix made these today, and he asked me to bring this to you :D, it’s supposedly healthier, Felix said, also make sure to share some with the other staff too.’

Flowers are beautifully and thoughtfully crafted.

~

‘Hyunjin?’

‘Yeah, he asked to give you this.’

You caught the box as it was shoved to you, you curiously opened the box, you hoped this was what you’ve been imagining all week.

‘BROWNIES!’ You threw the cover off and went straight for the chocolate treats.

‘Hey buddy there’s a note for ya, man how could you miss that? it was literally right there, and you ask me why no one wants to give you gifts.’ You rolled your eyes at the nurse, snatching the note that he waved in front to mock you.

‘Whatever, go bother some other resident and mind your own business.’ The two of you exchanged odd faces as the boy left the room to do just as you said.

You heaved a sigh of relief, unfolding the letter to find the familiar handwriting of Hyunjin.

‘Enjoy the brownies, we should hang out more Y/N! Sorry, I couldn’t bring these to you in person, I got caught up in some stuff y’know with the student council and all, but all these aside, You should say thanks to Hyunjin for bringing these! :) - Felix‘

‘So this was what Hyunjin’s text meant, I should tell Felix to take a break.’ you muttered as you scoffed at the letter, stopping midway from tossing the piece of paper off to the side, you decided against it, and instead, you folded it just like before, shoving it into your breast pocket in your doctor’s coat.

‘Doctor L/N, Professor Kim is asking for you.’ The nurse from earlier chirped from the door, you groaned internally as you gave him a hum for a response, you pushed the box aside before heading out.

~

‘Hey giraffe, am I late?’ You strolled towards the boy who just glanced up from his phone with an unamused smile. You slid right in front of him with added jazz hands, Hyunjin noted that this was probably the most you’ve been all week, or ever, you just never seemed and were someone to do this. ‘By the way, thanks for delivering the brownies’

Hyunjin waved his other hand, dismissing the thanks you gave him, he finished typing something on his phone before glancing at you with a smile.

‘You seem happy?’ Hyunjin shoved his phone into his pocket while he scoffed at your random swats in the air after a mosquito flew into your face, ‘Can’t I be happy to see my best friend after 3 whole months?’ You grunted trying to move to a spot next to him hoping the mosquito wouldn’t bite the tip of your nose or something. You weren’t in the mood to want Hyunjin calling you Rudolph, in this friendship, you were the one calling him names, not the other way around.

You noticed the faint marks of paint that faded into his skin, ‘Did you paint today?’ you asked while nudging his elbow with yours, you both walked down the street to your favorite ice cream parlor. ‘uh - well, I colored a few petals and the sun.’

‘Pft-’ bursting into a fit of laughter, you hit him on the back lightly, for someone about to graduate, you would have thought he could be painting more than a few petals and the sun in the corner.

‘Being an artist is harder than you think,’ Hyunjin waved a hand in the air, you both joked some more on the way down to the same ice cream parlor. ‘Right, and I can eat my elbow.’

Hyunjin scoffed but had an amused grin, to replace his usual eye rolls. ‘Just get on with your order, I am a busy person’

‘Busy painting petals.’

‘Petals are still important!’

Flowers are either too incomplete or too much.

~

‘Shut up, he did not do that!’

‘I’m not wrong! You can ask him about it! I mean Jisung’s pretty unexpected, and come to think of it, he was bound to do it anyway. He did say he didn’t like it in his department.’ Hyunjin reasoned but you only laughed a little louder at his attempts, Hyunjin chuckled to accompany your laughter, you two strolled around the campus and across streets for a few rounds now.

Both of you refused to go back or end the hang-out early, you both had all the time in the world, or that’s what it felt like.

‘Gosh, Who would have thought he’d want to switch courses now? And just for that reason?’ You stopped to signal you were tired of walking, or you were tired of stumbling every time you two shared a funny joke or a story.

Leaning on the railing at the side of the street, Hyunjin went beside you and did the same, you both sighed softly, had you two actually had all the time in the world, you admit you wouldn't want to trade this for any praise your professors gave you.

And Hyunjin would trade any pencil or paintbrush to stay this close to you.

‘…Hey, Hyun.’

‘Hm?’ Hyunjin hummed in response, giving you a small glance before drawing back to the sky that held one star, if you took up a major for astronomy, you would know the brightest and twinkling star in the sky could be a star called Fomalhaut or, Alpha Piscis Austrinus, the loneliest star known to us.

It’s the only bright star in a wide stretch of sky that gives it the title of being the loneliest star. Hyunjin admired it, he adored the bright glow it gave off into the sky that turned darker as your wristwatch ticked. Was it an artist thing to feel connections with things they can’t explain, even through their works? Gosh, if you think of it that way, being one can be a little sad.

‘I think I can answer your question.’

‘What question?’ Hyunjin tore his attention from the sky, he eyed you curiously.

You gave him a knowing look, surprisingly, he caught onto it quickly. He blurted out a small raspberry. ‘Nah, I was just kidding with you before, it’s fine really.’

‘You sure? I mean I already have my answer and I’ve thought about it for a while sooo..’ You watched him cross his arms to look off in the distance instead of the sky like before, you did the same but kept a steady gaze on him like you taunted the seeker whenever you’d play hide-and-seek in grade 2.

‘Go on, if you already thought of an answer, don’t let it go to waste.’

You nodded slowly in response before gathering your thoughts. You say you’ve thought about it for a while now, but you didn’t have a concrete one, just some thoughts scattered here and there.

‘Well first off.. I don’t think you should confess to them.’ You eyed him for any violent reaction from the side, but you only caught a glimpse of him ‘studying’ a pine tree in the distance.

‘Because… Well, If they are your best friend, sometimes, they wouldn't, you know, like you that way. I mean there are scenarios where it happens but usually or I don’t usually see those happening.’ Hyunjin nodded as you went on.

‘Second.. I think they’d want to stay close to you without the weird tension or awkward feeling or something after, an-and I woul- I mean, I think they would probably say.. that they don’t want to ruin this friendship that they adore and want to treasure with you, I don’t think they would want to lose you because of the awkwardness later on.’ You explained, you kept your gaze straight down at your feet as you kicked a rock or two onto the asphalt.

You felt a slight shiver in your spine as you felt him burn holes into you. You glanced at him. He had nothing but a slightly furrowed reaction, you felt like turning back and explaining further but it made sense not to, you weren’t being rejected or anything like that, you tried to convince yourself, that you were simply giving him an opinion.

Hyunjin’s lips curved into a playful smirk as he threw his head back in laughter, this time you gave him furrowed brows and a slightly-agape mouth — just speechless. Though you were not amused at the reaction.

‘Gosh, look at your face! I said it was a joke. Come on, I don’t like anyone you should know that, since I’m SO in love with the art room like you said.’ Hyunjin wiped a fake tear under his eyes, you glared at him, grumbling to yourself.

‘Hey this is still slightly your fault, I mean it's not like you’re rejecting me anyway, calm down doc.’ Hyunjin patted your head while heading off in the direction of the school campus’ entrance, leaving you to stomp beside him and him teasing you along the way.

Flowers still look like art that was meant to be trapped in poem-filled pages.

~

Hyunjin chatted with his classmates while waiting for his professor to open the classrooms. A faint vibration came from his pocket together with a little ‘ding’ that chimed after the buzz.

The ongoing conversation that was shared among his friends continued, even with Hyunjin excusing himself to check his phone.

‘Hey, are you free right now? Felix and I wanted to have lunch together or basically just hang out since I don’t have anything planned for school lately. U coming?’

Hyunjin smiled slightly at the set of words, he swiftly snatched a look at the door leading to the art hall, he guessed he had a few minutes to spare.

The boy typed a quick answer, whispering a small farewell to inform his friend beside him, just as he waved to the rest of the group.

‘I can spare a few minutes to say hello :D be there in a sec’

Flowers always look for the sun.

~

Hyunjin supported himself on the palm of his hands that rested on his knees. He cursed himself for thinking he could run half the campus to the cafeteria just to say hello, then return in time for his lecture.

The boy sluggishly pushed the heavy metal doors to the cafeteria, as soon as he glanced back up to see where he was going, a group of his juniors bumped into him as they tried to leave the cafeteria.

‘O- I- uh—‘ Hyunjin stammered while shoving himself to the side, trying his best to hold the heavy door open for them. He waved and bowed slightly to return the gesture the group gave him as they left.

Holding his shoulder with his other arm, trying to roll it backward. The lesson of the day? Hold the door with your back, not with your arm.

Hyunjin groaned silently as he waddled through the waves of students to find you and Felix.

The sudden burst of laughter from a corner caught his attention, before he could raise his hand to wave to get both of your attention, his grin faltered with the sight.

Gosh.

Was this the definition of ‘what a sight for sore eyes’? Being a few meters from the table seemed like miles to him.

Felix’s smile was glowing, but something made it shine brighter. You were leaning on his shoulder while you laughed at a joke Felix made. Even with Hyunjin, you’d never do something like that.

You just couldn’t miss it. He couldn’t miss it. Hyunjin felt like he shouldn’t have agreed to give the brownies Felix made for you. Hyunjin felt like he shouldn’t be jealous of Felix, but he was jealous.

All these years, and every Christmas and every New Year’s Eve, Hyunjin would have died to be in Felix’s spot right now.

What a sight for sore eyes.

Some would say artists never miss a single detail and call it a blessing to avoid heartbreaks or mistakes. But would you call this a blessing? Had Hyunjin been someone else instead of just your best friend, maybe he’d be here laughing with you.

The boy plastered a newfound smile, he continued his implied gesture of a wave.

‘Lix! N/N!’

Some flowers were chosen to be planted inside the house, while others are left outside

~

‘Hyung!’ Felix called from the end of the hall. Hyunjin perked up from his phone and looked behind his shoulder.

‘Lix? Yeah, what’s up?’ Hyunjin smiled at the younger boy. Felix held onto Hyunjin’s shoulder for support as he tried to explain himself between breaths.

‘Woah, woah, okay just breathe, I don’t think you need to explain everything in one breath.’ Hyunjin chuckled lightly.

‘What I’m saying is! Do you want to hang out with me and Y/N later? Y/N suggested going to an ice cream parlor just down the street from the university, and I knew how much you liked ice cream, so I thought of inviting you.’ Felix grinned at Hyunjin. The other boy, on the other hand, felt sick to the stomach.

Why would you suggest that place? I thought that was our place to keep?

‘Hyung?’

‘Yeah, sorry, uhm- no I don’t think I can come, I uh- have to get started on a painting for class, hope you guys have fun on your little date though.’ Hyunjin managed to tease Felix just a little more.

Felix looked a little flustered while he tried to bring out an explanation without stuttering, he eventually started scratching the back of his neck while doing so.

Hyunjin softened his gaze at the other. What kind of a friend would he be if he would ruin his friend’s dream like this?

Hyunjin couldn’t help but internally curse at himself for even wanting to do something like that to his friend.

Does the sun ever look for flowers too?

~

There he was again, it was currently 9:26 pm, the same old position, the same old painting.

Hyunjin blankly stared back at the painting of the daisies, 3 out of 4 daisies fully sketched and colored, the last daisy at the left, bent over from the back of the other three, it seemed like it so desperately wanted to be seen, to be noticed like the rest.

The paintbrush that balanced in between his fingers, his favorite paintbrush, glancing down at the brush in his fingers, Hyunjin furrowed his brows slightly, why, of all brushes, was this his favorite?

The boy gently placed the brush down on the side table beside him. Maybe if he tried to use another one, it would make up for the daisy that longed to be noticed like the rest.

He picked up a new brush from the cup, dipping it in the paint he had mixed onto his palette, hesitantly, he reached for the last flower’s petals.

What’s wrong?

Why did he stop?

Hyunjin wished he knew the answer.

It just felt so wrong to use another brush when he’s been through hell and Heaven with the other one.

He knows exactly how the curves and streaks would look like with the other brush, he knows exactly how the outcome will be, and he knows it’s going to be good.

So how could he ever try another one, wherein he never had an idea how it would affect his work.

Hyunjin sighed heavily. He dropped his hand onto his lap, careful not to paint his pants or the apron. He stood up as he placed the brush down next to the other brushes he had used before.

He trudged to his bag near the entrance of the art studio, grabbing his phone that sat on top of the bag, he pressed the home button hoping he’d get another text from you, or a missed call, or basically anything.

Anything from you.

Hyunjin’s fingers mindlessly switched through apps on his phone, hoping to find something to get his attention so he’d have an ‘excuse’ to not do the painting.

The motivation was scarce these days, and Hyunjin couldn’t find a single fiber in him to even try to hold a brush or a pen to draw or paint a picture.

He found himself scrolling up to your contact. His thumb hovered over the call button, gosh, you wouldn’t understand how much he wants to hear your voice again.

Even if you two met a few hours ago this afternoon, it feels unfamiliar to him to not hear you around this time, teasing and poking fun out of each other while you two went to get ice cream, then talk some more until he’d have to drop you off at your dorm.

If Felix really does like you, this would be one of the last late-night ‘hangouts’ he’d ever get with you. And if you liked Felix back? This might be one of the last late-night calls he can ever have with you again.

Hyunjin retracted his thumb and went against it. This was you and Felix’s hangout, he can’t just intrude it because he feels slightly jealous at the turn of events.

He hastily pressed the power button and let his hand fall to his side, he pressed his eyes closed tight, sighing.

Hyunjin abruptly raised his hand that held his phone and aimed it at the wall, his sudden movements were caught, he stayed frozen in that position, half of him desperately wanted to take out his anger on this throw, and half of him was asking why was he so mad?

Felix did nothing wrong to him, you did nothing wrong to him either. Was he mad at himself?

His phone dropped from his grip and bounced onto his bag, Hyunjin crouched down and his head between his knees, folding his arms around his head. It wasn’t a nice feeling to be mad at someone for your mistakes of being late or doing something wrong.

Hyunjin hated the feeling. He desperately wanted to stop, but he couldn’t?

~

Slumping down on his chair, Hyunjin found himself in his dark room again, his desk a mess, just a single lamp open and a load of clothes on the floor.

He groaned as he picked up the trash bin beside his desk to sweep the mess into it.

His phone remained quiet and still, on the corner of the table, Hyunjin tried to pay no attention to it, but he couldn’t help but wonder if you were thinking and waiting for his text or call too.

Sure, you went out with Felix but wouldn’t you want to hear from your friend at least? Putting aside his feelings, wouldn’t a normal friend think of that?

He glanced at his phone, no new notifications, and just like the city, it stayed silent. Placing down the trash bin and picking up his phone instead.

Finding himself in front of your contact profile and a thumb hovering over the call button. Maybe you’re trying to sleep? No, impossible, you always drink coffee around this time, you’d surely be on your way to a cafe or something, could you still be with Felix? Most likely not, it was past midnight, and even if you were still with him, your dorm didn’t allow others to enter.

The list of possibilities went on in his head and all the time he tried to look for an answer to say ‘no, that would be impossible’

But nothing seemed to be full-proof ‘impossible’.

Hyunjin tapped the call button, pressing it to his ear, and for the next few minutes, all he heard was the dial tone repeating itself, he swiveled his chair to keep himself busy as he stared at his windowsill that overlooked the small parking lot in front of his dorm.

‘Sorry, the line is busy, please try again later.’ Gee, he hadn’t thought that you could be calling Felix right now.

Hyunjin put his phone down abruptly and sighed, not out of relief, but just out of the feeling of hopelessness.

He returned to the sight of his nearly emptied-out table under the warm tone of his lamp.

Until something caught his eye.

He turned back to his windowsill and watched closely, anyone would have recognized that this was exactly the first day the snow had fallen upon the city.

And Hyunjin witnessed it, at the very first minute the first flake fell from the sky but was it worth anything? To see the first snowfall when he had nothing but doubts and loneliness with him instead of you?

He watched solemnly as the number of snow fell to the ground.

Hyunjin turned back to his desk with a sigh. He wasn’t a doctor, or a physician, or a scientist, but it felt like he went through the worst a lab rat could have gone through, the worst stump in the road a driver has ever come across.

And the smallest mistake that seemed visible on top of an artist’s canvas. He felt as if he spent all his time experimenting to find what seemed to be the loneliest feeling he’s ever come across as a human being.

Hyunjin looked back at the seemingly never-ending snowflakes falling to the ground, at least they have each other? He thought maybe if he’d had someone, he wouldn’t feel like he was alone in the art room, the warm feeling of knowing you have someone that would meet with you even if you spent a whole day being tired and on your own, it’s just something Hyunjin always liked.

And now he’s unsure about that, as days went on, it seemed like he felt even more alone when he’s with you.

Feelings were never his forte either.

Had he painted a clearer picture for you, maybe you would have probably liked him back? Maybe you would have seen his efforts. How cruel of you.

Hyunjin turned away from the window, the desk he sat at seemed so foreign yet so familiar, this was the same table he planned all his paintings here, he had calls and texts with you at this very table, he did his first art homework here. (which didn’t always end well)

He eyed the wooden table-top that his lamp created this circle of a light, yellow hue in front of him. Glancing up, he noticed a notebook with paper pieces poking from the edges and colorful bookmarks that coordinate well with the paper pieces.

Dragging the book in front of him, he flipped through the pages, with each page passing by, a few papers flew out to the side, he paid no mind as he was preoccupied with the artworks filled with notes and notes to himself.

‘You’re doing great!’

‘Keep going!’

‘:)’

‘You did a lot of improvements today.’

He cringed slightly at the little sticky notes he pasted on top of sketches and notes from classes he had before. He held up pretty fine, all these cheesy memories were distracting him from the quiet room he would call his bedroom.

“You should stop eating paint all day and actually get out of the art room :/ If you get lonely eating in the cafeteria, just text me. Take care of yourself, stupid. >:/

-Y/N”

Hyunjin smiled slightly at the note he had come across randomly, he pressed on the pages, spreading out any wrinkles, he accidentally smudged a part of the rough sketch he had, his smile faltered slightly.

‘So there you were the whole time.’ He muttered to himself.

Leaning back in his seat, he examined the rough sketch of his painting, the bouquet of daisies. He saw all the details he tried to fit in the pages. Hyunjin read each thought his past self wrote, the details and ideas with the color palette that he “tried” to custom make.

He sighed.

“Make it beautiful for Y/N.”

“Daisies, probably because it means new beginnings.”

“Daffodils mean unequaled feelings, but on the other hand it also means, “The sun is always shining when I’m with you.” Isn’t that pretty?”

Hyunjin scrambled to put all the pages that flung off to the side of the table, sandwiching them into the book hastily. Slamming the book closed, he frowned at his own circumstances.

Maybe physically, he wasn’t alone, but being with you, sometimes he has never felt so alone, but sometimes you made him feel Iike he was worth it.

He gripped the sides of the notebook, it looked messier than it was before he took a look at it. Gosh, what’s wrong with me? Hyunjin closed his eyes, he sighed heavily, he didn’t know what he felt, but he knew he didn’t like it. If he hadn’t felt like this the majority of the time with you, he didn’t think he’d be familiar with this feeling.

“I think it would have been better if we had never met.”

[jeo9n]

Majesty || JJK

Pairing : Jeon Jungkook x Reader

Genre : Angst,fluff,smut,King Jungkook

Warnings : angst, future smut, reader is like rlly shy:/, mean jungkook, virgin reader.

this is my first fanfic pls be nice to me🥺 also let me know if i made any mistakes.

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Growing up poor was never easy. ever since my siblings and I were younger our mom tried everything to provide a good life for us. Her being a single mom of 3 children and having to work all the time was rough. Nonetheless our mom made sure we had a good childhood. As i grew older i started noticing how hard our mom worked for us. I wanted to start working too so our mom could get a little rest. So I started working at small bakery in our small village even tho I didn’t really liked it there.   

My two older brother’s were already married and had a family of their own and had long since moved out. My mom wanted me to get married really bad. She kept on looking for a potential husband for me, but none of them would ever chose me to as their wife. And i was honestly happy about that. The idea of marrying some stranger and leaving my mom behind wasn’t something that I wanted to do. But I knew I had to get married eventually.

There were some news going around that a new mysterious King was looking for a wife. flyers have been passed around for a "potential wife competition“ here and there, who would even attend such a thing? anyway, that’s all that was being talked about in the village young girls being excited for potentially marrying a King and becoming his wife. I honestly felt bad for them. Why would a King even marry a poor girl when he could marry a girl that came from a more wealthier family?

A few days have passed and the day for the competition was becoming nearer and nearer. As i was walking home from the small Bakery that I work at with some baked goods for my mom and I, I could see every mom going crazy for the upcoming day, every mom made sure that their daughter looked the absolute best. In hopes that the King takes interest in one of these girls. As i reached home my mom greeted me with a hug. „how was work?“ she asked „good i brought something to eat“ i said as i handed her the basket i was holding with a smile on my face. She took them and put them on a plate for us to eat. „so have you heard the news?“ she asked „what do you mean? What news?“ I asked her with a confused look on my face „you know what news“ she said while sipping on her tea. „The King is looking for a wife.... and I was wondering since you’re still not married and probably won’t be for a while why don’t you.... participate in the competition?“ she looked at me with a hopeful look on her face „Mom no. I don’t want to participate in such a thing.“ i said while munching on my croissant. „You know Y/n I don’t think it would be a such bad thing, both of your brothers are already married and have a family of their own, don’t you want the same thing?“ she asked. Well, i do want a family... but i want to find my Partner naturally not at a competition with thousands of other girls.

„I don’t even know what he looks like mom for all we know, he could be some old disgusting looking guy that has a fetish for younger girls“ I said with a look of disgust on my face. „Well, yeah, your right“ she said. „But he could also be some good looking guy but if you don’t participate, we’ll never know...“ she said while finishing her cup of tea. Okay maybe she’s right and it won’t be such a bad thing... participating won’t hurt right? Because my mom was right it’s time for me to get married. „ I‘ll think about it okay? Im gonna go head to bed now tho i’m really tired. goodnight mom.“ I said while giving her a kiss on her cheek. „thank you sweetheart.“ I heard her saying as i was walking to my room.

The day of the competition came sooner than i thought it would. My mom kept on bugging me to say yes so I eventually agreed to attending the competition. Ever since then my mom made sure i looked my absolute best. She bought me a long white nice looking dress, made sure that my hair always looked shiny and healthy. And i honestly felt so pretty my dress hugged my figure so nicely and my hair looked so beautiful all thanks to my mom. „You look so beautiful y/n i’ll miss you so much“ she said with tears in her eyes, as if i won’t come back home with her later tonight. „Relax mom it’s not like i’m getting married or something.“ I said while giggling. „Well you might“ she said with a big smile on her face. „I won’t.“ I said while rolling my eyes but she just looked at me with that smile still on her face. „Come on we don’t wanna be late“ she said while grabbing my hand, and leading me to where the competition was gonna be held.

Almost an hour later my mom and I arrived at this huge building. It was one of the biggest building i have ever seen. There were so many pretty flowers surrounding it, I was in awe at the sight that was in front of me. As i was looking around i noticed all the other girls and started feeling a little self conscious... they all looked so pretty with their colorful dresses while I was here wearing a boring white dress. How would I even stand out among all these girls? I doubt the King would even look at me.

An old Man with a smile on his face started approaching us „good evening ladies you all look beautiful i must say.“ He said with a big smile on his face. „ I know the weather is beautiful today but the King would rather have all you girls inside“ he said, while stretching his arm out pointing to the building. „let’s go ladies“ he started walking towards the entrance and we all followed him.

The room itself where the competition was being held wasn’t that big as I thought. But the old man told us it’s because, the King wanted to get a close look at us. So, he chose a smaller room so he could look at all of us more closely. ...I was so nervous my hands were trembling and i kept picking at my nails a habit of mine that i never got rid of. Even tho my mom told me stop many times. All the other girls seemed to be not as nervous as I was. They were all taking to each other, except for me I stayed by myself sat at a table. I didn’t feel like talking, I was way too shy to approach any of them anyway.

30 minutes later the King arrived. The doors to the room have opened, and the King and the older man from earlier started walking inside. There were gasps coming from all the girls, as soon as they saw his face. I was at the back so I wasnt able to see his face yet, but I once I did My eyes widened and my heart started beating faster. He was probably one of the prettiest man I have ever seen. He had a such flawless good looking face. Everything about him was perfect, he was tall, his eyes were pretty, his nose looked pretty, even his dark hair was pretty. It was slicked back with only on strand hanging in his face. Truly flawless. He was stood at the center of the room wearing a white suit with gold details on it. He looked around the room looking at every girl carefully. With the older man right beside him, his eyes wandered around the room and they found mine. I immediately looked away once we made eye contact, I couldn’t bear to look into his eyes. I felt myself blushing. Once I thought he looked away, I looked at him again but he was still looking at me. And I wondered why? Am I not pretty enough? Does he think I don’t belong in a place like this? The older man beside him started coughed and he eventually looked away.

The older man started introducing the King to us. „Ladies this is Jeon Jungkook King of Aramella“ he said. And we all bowed to greet him. „As u all know the King is here today, to find a Wife, that can fulfill his wishes and dreams and stay by his side till the rest of your lives. So, if u think you would be his perfect wife, than please step forward.“ the older man said.

And all the girls immediately stepped forward. Well, except for me. I didn’t have enough confidence in me to step forward.

The Kings eyes wandered around once again. He looked at every girl in front of him that stepped forward. But soon his eyes found mine again and he looked at me with furrowed brows.

„Why aren’t you stepping forward?“ he asked me with a cold tone to his voice. And suddenly everyone turned around to look at me.

stay tuned for part two. ☺️