Supercharged | JJK
Chapter 13: One Of Us
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🗲summary: It starts with a blow to the chest that changes your life. When your city’s most celebrated hero pays a visit, it turns out the noble Bolt has no trouble tossing lives aside. Lives that won't be missed. Lives like yours. Seven mysterious and powerful men give you another chance – one that starts to feel more like a curse the moment you meet golden boy Jungkook. The boy who wants you as far from his brothers as he can get you. Is it you he hates, or the blue lightning that now runs through your veins? And could it be his golden light that illuminates your heart when darkness threatens?
🗲this chapter: Jungkook doesn’t seem to be angry for the reasons you expected.
🗲pairing: jungkook x female reader
🗲word count: 5.7k
🗲genre: angst, action, eventual fluff, enemies to lovers, slow burn, superheroes/villains au, found family
🗲rating: pg15
🗲warnings: violence with superpowers, swearing, injuries, blood, more guilt and self-doubt, past parental death
a/n: something about jungkook skidding a 180 to stop his bike and just running into the storm.... yeah🥵
A faint knock disturbed Jungkook.
Half-standing from where he had been sat rigid on his bed, he found himself facing Jimin. The other man peeped sheepishly around the door, head dipped apologetically.
Although Jungkook didn’t want to scare his hyung, it was impossible to shake the tension from his frame. The venomous exchange with you still ran hot through his veins. He did feel somewhat responsible for dispelling the group with his foul mood when he had returned upstairs. Maybe they had gathered up and saw fit to invite him again?
It was probably what he needed, even if he didn’t feel particularly sociable right now – so long as you weren’t there. He could do without a reminder…
“Have you seen Y/N?”
Eyes snapping back to Jimin, Jungkook’s brows twitched irritably.
“No,” he shot, incredulous.
At Jimin’s slight wince, Jungkook did feel a bit guilty and swallowed away some of his attitude.
“Okay, I didn’t think so…”
Still, Jimin hovered there biting his lip instead of leaving. He took a breath and eyed Jungkook carefully again.
“But you guys… spoke, right?” Jungkook’s brow raised. That was a generous way to put it. Jimin pressed on, “where did she go after?”
Jungkook straightened up fully.
“I don’t know…” he blinked, confused, frown rapidly clearing to be replaced with apprehension. “Why?”
Jimin’s hand curled tighter around the door. He dropped his eyes before speaking.
“We just… can’t find her right now.”
Jungkook’s face screwed up, uncomprehending.
“What do you mean you can’t find her?”
“Yah, Jimin-ah,” a call stole both men’s attention.
Stepping further into Jungkook’s room, Jimin made way for Yoongi to stride in. The older man stopped, looking to Jungkook.
“Do you know where she is?”
“No!”
Yoongi breathed out steadily, then turned to Jimin. Dipping his chin, his next tone was quieter, making Jungkook strain to catch it.
“The training rooms are clear. Jin’s lab, too.”
Huffing quietly, Jimin shifted on restless feet. Suddenly looking up, he decided to keep questioning Jungkook.
“What did you guys even talk about? What did you say to her?”
Jungkook’s head was spinning. Had you seriously gone missing? Would you have left? He thought his heart dropped enough at the notion that he could have driven you out with his words-
Until the next thought crossed his mind with terrifying clarity.
Oh. Oh.
“Shit.”
All eyes snapped to Jungkook, who stared ahead without seeing. For a moment, they held their breath with him.
Then he blinked rapidly, shutting his gaping mouth.
“She’s gone after him.”
It was Jimin and Yoongi’s turn to gape.
“What?” Jimin shook his head, blinking.
“She’s really not here?” Jungkook reiterated.
Yoongi shook his head.
Jungkook’s only response was a decisive step forwards, walking between the others, who backed out of his way, startled.
“She’s gone after Monsoon?” Jimin echoed as he passed, his voice a hollow whisper.
Equally horrified, Yoongi stared at Jungkook.
“Is she mental?”
Jungkook cocked his head but didn’t stop, only looking over his shoulder in the doorway.
“You hadn’t noticed?”
Carving a beeline through the space, Jungkook drew the eyes of the rest of the group that stood nervously around the space. Even Namjoon was there. Hobi was still looking around, as if he might find you under one of the sofa cushions if he just looked hard enough.
Scurrying after him, Jimin offered an explanation after Jungkook stayed stubbornly quiet.
“He says she’s run off to… to Monsoon.”
Namjoon’s head snapped around to Jungkook.
“She told you that?”
“You think she would tell any of us if that was her plan?” Jungkook retorted, without looking around. He was bending down to observe something below the counter.
“What-? she wouldn’t,” Jin insisted.
“Then why are there keys missing?” Jungkook straightened up.
Namjoon cursed.
“She’s walking to her death,” he then muttered, marching to the door, “we need to find her. Now.”
And so it was all action for the second time that day.
Jungkook was close behind his leader, already swinging a set of keys from his fingers. Tugging a hand roughly through his hair, his feet flew down the steps to the garage.
“And where are we meant to look?” Jin asked, rushing to catch up.
Pausing in the entrance, Namjoon locked eyes with Jungkook.
“Wherever we might find Monsoon.”
Jungkook gave a single nod.
“Alright. Hope, Jimin, with me,” Namjoon jabbed his thumb towards a car and they were off.
Jin peeled away with V and Yoongi while Jungkook forced his legs not to break into a sprint. He hot-footed it to his bike, threw a leg over and was away before any of the others.
Whizzing into the night, rain whipped about his face. Speeding through the buffeting wind forced his mind outwards, on squinting through the storm and not on you. Wherever you had got to. He prayed he wasn't right – but picturing the way you had never quit when he fought you, how you had recklessly trained even at the risk of losing control of your powers… he couldn’t see another explanation for your disappearance.
He couldn’t explain the certainty he felt about it. Didn’t want to.
So he urged his bike faster, the engine roaring below him the only comfort as it ate up the road between you.
The radio crackled through the storm, the others coordinating their destinations. Needless to say, you would be somewhere along the docks, but that didn’t narrow it down much. Jin was heading north, the others central.
Jungkook never responded, his original intentions unchanged.
At the first opportunity, he turned towards the river. He ditched his bike right at the end of the docks, where the concrete became earth banks again. Hardly caring to park it, he only left it upright by sheer luck as he took off running the moment the engine cut.
The storm was thicker here, rain slicing his vision. Blundering on, frustration knotted tighter within him at each stretch of empty paving. Dark shapes loomed, but each was just a piece of machinery, or another container dotted about between the floodlighting.
His heart jolted dangerously at a sound from the radio.
“We’re definitely on the right track,” Namjoon spoke, “the car’s here.”
Somehow that didn’t make Jungkook feel any better. An abandoned car, an abandoned dockyard… where were you?
One more look back, just in case, before he rounded the next large container, impatient eyes roving the desolate scene. It was as he stepped into the light on the other side that a rogue wave was thrown against the bank some way ahead. The slap of water and fountain of spray drew his eyes. Flecks caught the floodlight and rained back to earth in a shower of gold, before the wave was beaten back by the same wind that coaxed it up.
A gust pushed damp hair into Jungkook’s eyes. He brushed it back, eyes fixed on the same spot.
Where the river retreated, something remained.
Heart plummeting like a stone, his vision tunnelled, only seeing the path to you.
His feet moved before his thoughts. Racing towards the body slumped on the ground. No, no, no…
Then, movement. Slowly, you brought your elbows up, palms pushing you from the ground. One hand stayed there, steadying, as you clumsily got your legs below you.
Standing with trepidation, you hardly had time to look around before Jungkook was on you.
He ran to you without slowing, grabbed you, his rough hands finding your arms, wide eyes scanning you intensely. One hand held you steady, but the other shifted instantly to your face.
“Have you lost your mind?!”
Breathless, you simply stared at the man in front of you. No answer found its way to your lips even when his eyes flicked up to meet yours. They burned, but not in a way you were used to. Fear and disbelief blazed brightest in his gaze.
The fingertips at your jaw shook. His thumb hovered on your cheekbone, where blood wept from the cut, diluted in spots by the rain.
His gaze swooped back down to eye it, thumb finally making careful contact with your cold skin. Next, he found the gash above your eye. His jaw tightened, but his severe grip eased to a something gentler at your shoulder.
After the last hellish moments, it felt all too good to be held within his hands.
Meeting your eyes again, he suddenly blinked. Pulled back minutely, as if startled.
As mild mortification took over his features, his touch lightened on your arm, but didn’t disappear. His hand lifted from your face, and for a moment he stared in horror at the bloodied digits.
Then he dropped it, looking sharply back up at you.
Before he could make his last ditch effort to save face and step back completely, he felt you sag into his hand. With the shock of your most blatant injuries wearing off, he tuned into the way you shivered, out of breath, and cradled one arm closer to you.
“What the hell were you thinking-? What did he do to you?”
Jungkook’s heated tone wore off halfway through the questions.
Giving in, he stepped closer, raising a hesitant arm on your other side. Still breathing a little too fast, you latched onto it without a thought, grasping his elbow to lean on, panting.
Even through your exhaustion, cold shame permeated you. You couldn’t meet his eyes.
“I couldn’t get it back,” you admitted.
Jungkook frowned down at you incredulously, even though you didn’t see.
“And you’re insane for trying,” he muttered, already twisting to scan the area you found yourselves in.
Releasing the hand on your shoulder but keeping the arm which bore your weight, he steered you both towards the nearest shipping container.
“We’re going home, alright?”
It hardly sounded like a question.
More wobbly on your feet than you were ready to admit, you followed without protest despite your confusion. Jungkook should be throwing you to the curb! This was your second failure of the day. Your whiplash only increased when you stopped in the relative shelter of a container and Jungkook shook one arm from his jacket.
The river had chilled you, but it wasn’t only the temperature difference that burned when his hand touched yours. He eased your fingers from him for a moment, just long enough to slip off his other sleeve.
It was only then that he hesitated, glancing at the jacket in his hand, and then at you, a little shaken.
He didn’t look you in the eyes as he slung it around you at last. But his pretence at concentrating on fixing it around your shoulders was disrupted at a hiss from you.
You bit your lip, but it was too late. Jungkook pulled back, eyes zeroing in on the slash through your sodden top, hanging away from the bloody cut beneath. Then to the wrist you hurriedly shielded with your other hand.
“Hey,” he murmured, “let me see.”
Before you could convince yourself to object, tentative fingertips were gingerly sliding up your waterlogged sleeve to reveal the deep bruising there, patterned by the sole of Monsoon's boot.
Pure worry filled Jungkook's eyes and he gulped. It was too much for you to look at.
“Thank you,” you murmured, tugging at the heavenly warm jacket and ignoring the sting.
Jungkook nodded absently.
“We’ll wait here… Do you need to sit down?”
Neither of you were meeting the other’s eyes. You chewed your cheek. As much as you wished you could stand strong and prove to Jungkook that you had any respectability left, your legs were not on the same page.
You sank to the ground, grip on Jungkook slipping away. Your frozen hands retreated to the warmth inside his jacket instead.
Only letting his eyes linger on you for a moment, Jungkook forced his gaze to the churning river as he finally remembered his radio. It was hopeless really; he only got as far as lifting the device to his mouth before his eyes were back on you. You were too static, hunched into yourself. The only movement was the creeping of droplets from your hair down his jacket.
This was not what you were. Quiet and surrender were not things that went together with the girl he knew.
Had he done this?
“Hey, hyungs–” so lost in thought, he surprised himself when he spoke “–I found her.”
The response was instant.
“Thank fu-”
“Hey, you really got her?”
“Where are you guys?”
Quickly sending over the location, Jungkook eyed you again. You hadn’t reacted to anything going on around you.
“Hey, I think she needs to go back in the car,” he added quietly.
He pocketed his radio. Then instantly regretted it. Now he was at a loss for what to do with his hands, and he hesitated between staying standing or sitting beside you. Opting for the latter, he purposely tore his eyes from you to lessen the effect.
Stiffening as he lowered himself to your side, you glanced over at him. The floodlighting looked gold on his cheeks, his skin glowing with the sheen of rain coating his face. It only made you feel duller in comparison.
Unable to resist the insistent feeling of your eyes on him, Jungkook finally glanced back.
You sucked in a breath, shoulders raising. Your gaze was all too nervous, watching him warily. And though you were clearly soaked to the bone, he wasn’t sure all the water on your face was from the river and not your own eyes.
The strength of your remorse removed all words you could have used to express it.
I’m so sorry… You sounded pathetic even in your head. Was there anything you could say to Jungkook to make what you had done better?
The warmth of him beside you was already more than you deserved.
Jungkook’s hands were sandwiched between his knees, carefully leaving a space between the two of you. But the longer he looked, his limbs acted almost by themselves. He pinched his lip between his teeth, but didn’t falter. Pulling one hand free, he crossed the no-man’s land. Towards the blood he couldn’t bear to see there, where it cascaded into your eye, one drop outlining your jaw.
The back of his fingers drew closer. When they met your cheek, running steadily upwards to wipe the bleeding, you could have cried. Holding your breath, you gave in and closed your eyes. It shouldn’t feel so… intimate, but the drag of his hand was too visceral to ignore.
Light behind your eyelids made you snap them open again. And then squint.
Blaring headlights swung around, illuminating your momentary hiding spot.
Jungkook’s warmth retreated, leaving you with only the heat of your own blood spilling over your face.
Straightening up, you heard an engine cut out and doors slam. You were still struggling up from the floor when the guys reached you.
“Are you okay?” Hope was the first to ask.
Then Jimin’s hand was on your shoulder. Namjoon emerged behind them.
“Glad we found you,” he said.
Blinking uselessly at each of them gathering around you, your throat was totally uncooperative. You parted your lips, but gave up just as Jin completed your group. Looking you up and down, he tried to ease the tension with a chuckle.
“Wow, you look like you came from the river!” he joked, until his face fell a second later. “…wait- did you-?”
All you could do was stare, too distracted to answer him. What were they all doing here? After what you had done, they came after you?
You should have hated it. You were sorely ashamed, bowing your head under the weight of their concern. But somewhere deep down, you weren’t surprised. Back there in the river, you had dared to hope they would come for you, like they always did. Like you would for them.
But you felt incredibly small for having to count on them nonetheless.
Unconsciously, your feet took you a step back, closer to Jungkook. Shrinking away from the overwhelming tide of emotions you weren’t prepared to face yet.
“I think we all just want to get home,” Jimin smiled softly.
Namjoon nodded, the first to turn away, lessening the glare of the spotlight you felt on you in the centre.
“Yoongi’s going to take the other car,” he said.
Good – you had completely forgotten you had driven here at all. Everything was a blur between your consecutive fights with Jungkook and Monsoon.
Just as you were beginning to debate which one had stung more, a soft hand in yours tugged you from your mind again. Looking up, you found V quietly pulling you along towards a car. He didn’t meet your eyes. Your throat felt tight again at such a simple act guiding you when you needed it.
Blindly following your friend, you glanced back once more. Jungkook’s eyes were already on you, unreadable.
“See you back home.”
Then he dipped his head, slipping past you into the storm.
Your tired body had clearly clocked out on the drive home, finally able to sink into yourself in the silence of the car. You had to admit you felt a bit bad for Jin, who loved to talk. Being stuck in a car with you while you were practically too ashamed to speak, and V who was always quiet, must have made it a long journey.
He got a few words out of you. Honestly, you felt obliged to answer his questions. You owed him – owed them all – some honesty.
If you had to say anything unprompted, though, you were sure all you would muster up was repeated apologies. You felt the heat of them frenetic beneath your skin. I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.
When you arrived, pulling in just after the other cars, only Jungkook still to follow on his bike, you realised just how drained you were. Each step felt like a balancing act as you climbed the stairs, like your legs weren’t quite attached to you.
“So you remembered Monsoon’s base just from seeing the maps way back?” Jin carried on the conversation you hardly registered having, “no wonder Kuyang had you as his secretary. Too bad, we’ve got you now!”
Those words cracked through your distracted haze. As he left you with a pat on the back, you stared after him.
Had he not seen what had happened all day? A treacherous glimmer of hope sparked in you, as if they could still want you on the team. He must be pretending.
“Any dinner requests?” Yoongi asked from the table.
“Uh, um, I don’t mind,” you spoke quietly, “anything is good… thanks.”
Stopping in front of a chair, you never sat. The lot of them filled up the house like always, thankfully not all staring at you, but the appreciation you normally felt for the buzz of people only made you feel far away right now.
Eyes darting to your feet, you noticed the water clinging to your shoes, miniature pools left in your footsteps. Everyone was damp from the rain, but you were a different story. Your clothes clung uncomfortably, and you were suddenly aware of the constricting fabric now it pressed against your skin like this.
“I’ll just… go clean up,” you muttered, finally taking the chance to flee from the people you had wronged. The people who shouldn’t have cared enough to come pick you up from a death wish of an escapade in the middle of a storm.
Falling against the bathroom door at last, you put up with the soggy clothing for a moment longer, needing a pause. Head resting back against the wood, you breathed. Closed your eyes, felt your hands shaking.
Then you pushed away. A spurt of energy had you ridding yourself of your clothes in a hurry, tugging free of the fabric weighted down with cursed water.
Hurling them into the bathtub, you grabbed a towel next and sunk into it. The soft fabric felt like a dream, from somewhere warm where you hadn’t made such a terrible mistake.
When you pulled away, it was bloodstained.
Shoulders drooping, you continued to dry yourself without looking at it. Nor did you want to look at yourself in the mirror. Somehow, you would have to attempt a fix for the wounds you had just acquired, which pulled and stung as you twisted to dry your back. Gritting your teeth, you kept at it. You didn’t really know what you should do, and were mainly counting on your powers to heal them up fast, but you weren’t about to trouble any of the others for help. They had done enough.
You turned next to a stack of dry clothes.
It was as a sweater dropped over your eyes that someone knocked.
The sound wasn’t soft. Only hesitating for a moment, you gave in and found the person on the other side just as decisive as his knock.
Jungkook stood with his arms folded. Expectant.
Your poked your head out, looked at him warily.
He had enough of your waiting and tugged his arms free, pulling the door open and marching inside.
The breath caught in your chest as you backed up, bracing yourself. He would be right to chew you out right now. He had been right earlier too, you saw that now-
“We could have lost you!”
Your eyes were fixed on him. Couldn’t look away, couldn’t even blink.
You thought you had been prepared, but the fierceness of his tone took even you off-guard. Not to mention the words it was paired with. You hadn’t expected that. But as they sunk in, they brought your heart down with them.
“Isn’t that what you wanted?” your voice was quiet, but perfectly clear in the confined space.
His eyes only hardened.
“Don’t talk like that.”
While his eyes pierced you, his tone was less abrasive. If you hadn’t known better, it would almost have sounded like begging.
It even succeeded in making you shut up for a short time. But you forced your jaw to cooperate, breathed in.
“But… but I-” sighing roughly, you dropped your gaze to the side. Glared at yourself in the mirror. “I fucked up. I ruined it, I let Monsoon get what he-”
An abrupt step forwards cut you off. Startled, you looked up to find Jungkook snatching the first aid box from the side and stalking towards you.
“Sit down,” he instructed.
Struck dumb for the second time, you did.
He followed. He knelt down right in front of you, and started unpacking stuff from the medical kit as if this was completely normal. Or perhaps to avoid having to face that it wasn’t.
“I would say you should’ve known he would do a number on you-” Jungkook began, to which you sighed.
“I’m lucky I even made it out alive, I know, I know-”
“Hardly,” Jungkook scoffed, turning back to you with a small cloth in hand, “if it was luck, yours would have run out by now.”
You blinked. And then tried hard to avoid blinking, because he leaned forward to press the wipe above your eye.
You swallowed against the sting. Swallowed harder when his other hand lightly steadied your temple on the opposite side.
“You really think I’m good luck, after today?”
A self-depreciating downward tilt dragged at your lips.
Jungkook, on the other hand, chuckled. It was brief, but it was there, a joyful quirk of his mouth.
“No.”
Your heart shouldn’t have sunk at his agreement.
His eyes flicked to yours, then away again as he focussed on his task. But he surprised you, and spoke again.
“I thought you were good luck before today.”
Though your mouth opened, you found all words had been robbed from you. Now, with your staring, he refused to catch your gaze again.
Resigned to not understanding him at all, you shut your mouth and sat in the silence for another minute. He changed cloths, chucking a now-red one away and moving on to swipe at the stickier blood that lingered on your cheek and jaw.
Somehow, in the peaceful bathroom, with his light touches on your skin, you could finally look over the recent whirlwind of events with clarity. Unfortunately, your embarrassment only burned brighter when you examined it through such a magnifying lens.
Looking hesitantly up at Jungkook as he worked, you cleared your throat.
“How did you find me?”
He spent a second longer, one more long swipe over your cheekbone, before sitting back.
“Because that’s what I would have done. If I wanted to make things right.”
“But I didn’t manage to.”
Jungkook just shrugged.
“That depends. What were you trying to prove?”
“I-I- nothing! I don’t know” – you fell forwards, elbows on knees – “I wanted to get the gun back... that’s what we lost. What you were mad about, before.”
Jungkook didn’t move away, even when you slumped closer. His face looked a little pinched.
“Sure,” he spoke, voice only loud enough to travel the short distance to you, and no further. “But it was also… I was afraid. Because I had started- no, I trusted you. I didn’t want you to throw it back in my face now that I care-”
The end of his sentence snapped into silence like bone china, but the silence after the break was deafening. Reeling from what was thrown. The echoes rang in your skull.
He removed his gaze, staring somewhere to the side.
When you finally recovered your voice your words were simple, quiet.
“I’m sorry.”
Another moment passed. You couldn’t even hear your own breathing. Only saw his chest rise as he inhaled.
Then he levelled you with a gaze. His eyes sharpened as you observed each other.
“What for?”
You swallowed, shoulders sagging, but forced yourself not to look away.
“I’ve broken it. Our trust.”
“You showed me how badly you didn’t want it to break,” he pointed out.
Slowly, your mouth opened, something leaping perilously in your chest. Denying it, you frowned.
“Does that make a difference? I still didn’t fix anything…”
Letting out a breath through his nose, Jungkook dropped his cloth into the first aid bag and folded his arms loosely.
“If you still need to prove it to me, you can tell me why, then. Why you fight.”
His head raised as he cocked his chin up. Face blank, save for the challenging glint of his eye.
Shocked, you straightened up without thinking. Drew your arms back to your sides. This may have been the first time he had given you the chance to explain yourself. The first time he had offered himself to listen.
It took you a moment to gather yourself. Or rather, to wait until you were sure he wasn’t joking. What you had to say was already there, waiting on your tongue.
“I was just a spare… I was in the way, and that was all he needed to dispose of me. And other people… aren’t so lucky. I was given another chance, somehow. I needed to do something with it. I wasn’t part of Bolt’s plot, but that shouldn’t mean I’m not allowed to have my own.”
“You’re right.”
You could only stare, a curious frown shifting your face imperceptibly when Jungkook responded so promptly.
“Other people aren’t so lucky,” he carried on, slower now. His eyes shone under the bathroom lights. “My dad–” his voice unexpectedly gave out on him. His eyes darted down, only for a second, tongue briefly wetting his lips “–my dad was a guard. We didn’t have much money, he didn’t have much choice. So he worked for the first guy who would pay him a steady salary. Then Bolt-”
Horror had well and truly sunk into your bones before Jungkook even had to stop for the second time, choking on the word. Your body felt far away again. All you could see was Jungkook’s face as he staunchly forced his lips into an even line.
“He left the boss alive,” something bitter edged Jungkook’s voice. “He’s in prison. Bolt got his trophy. He has the kind of power that means people will overlook the cost.
“I was thirteen.”
You were stunned. You could only stare at him, lips parted stupidly as what he just told you sunk in. All this time, he had looked at you the way he did because… because you were exactly what he and his dad never got. Not only did you survive Bolt, you then basically became him.
You weren’t Bolt, not by a long shot. Jungkook had made sure of that, all while trying to prove to himself that you were.
But even trying to imagine what he must have thought of you was making your head spin. It would have been easier on him to hate you.
You could hardly breathe, but words were tumbling from your mouth anyway.
“I’m so sorry. Fuck, Jungkook…”
Jungkook was looking at you again. His eyes glistened, yes, but on the surface he held it together, the depth of his sadness flowing beneath.
Bending your head under the weight of understanding, your eyes rested on your hands. Lifting them, you turned them over. The same lightning that ran through your palms had torn his life apart long before Bolt ever turned his sights to you.
You had lived. Why you?
“I’m sorry he never got the chance I did.” Your sentences landed far apart, sparing. What could you say? “It should have been him.”
“I’m glad you got them.”
Time slowed down as Jungkook’s words made impact. You nearly choked on them.
You stared back at him, not breathing. The gaze he returned was level, totally serious. Had you heard him right?
“You’re good, Y/N-”
He dipped his head at last, but didn’t break the eye contact for long. He eyed you as if waiting for you to laugh in his face. Like he couldn’t believe he was saying this, either.
“And you do the right thing. So when you screwed up… I know you never meant for that to happen. You know what went wrong, and you won’t do it again. I know that. So I shouldn’t have-”
Huffing, he looked roughly to one side, jamming a hand into his hair. Glowered into the counter as he kept speaking.
“But it hurt more because it was you. I want you to be with… us. The-the boys all love you a lot, okay? You’re one of us now.”
Jungkook was distracted from his determination to avoid looking at you by a sniffle. You had already pushed the back of your hand against your mouth.
Though you tried for a glare, the awe in it did weaken the effect. You shook your head.
“I hate you, Jeon Jungkook.”
The look that flashed over his face was almost comically hurt.
“I-I thought I was done,” you rambled, “all I want is to be part of this team, I thought I had blown it- and now you’ve made me cry!”
Swiping at the couple of escaped tears with one hand, you jabbed the other one accusingly towards Jungkook. But you only meant a fraction of the venom, and he knew it. His lips tightened the way they did when he tried to suppress a smile.
When he held his hands up as if in surrender, you lowered yours. A watery sigh escaped you.
“You say this now, after you made me think I had to prove it to you all over again-”
Deflating, his stance softened. Dropping his hands, one of them hovered before landing on the closed toilet lid an inch from your knee.
“I never meant that. About you needing to suffer… I know you already have.” He chewed his lip for a moment before something sparked behind his eyes. “But hey, you ran off and did exactly that! I thought your whole point was that you didn’t want to-!”
Rolling your eyes, you couldn’t help the grin breaking out. Shifting, your leg dislodged Jungkook’s hand. His fingertips stilled where they now found themselves grazing your leg.
“We’re both idiots,” you concluded.
“Hey, don’t tell the others!”
With a breathy laugh, you gratefully felt some weight dissolve from your shoulders. Even after the laughter wore off, you felt yourself smiling faintly at your lap and took the chance to blink back your tears.
One was knocked free, shooting down your cheek-
Only to be intercepted by a finger.
Jungkook froze, hand still on your face, and gulped. A second too late to look natural, he glanced down with a gesturing nod.
“That’ll hurt like a bitch in that cut.”
“Oh. Yeah. Thanks.”
The pad of his thumb dragged away the salty water while you tried very hard not to look too hard at anything. Or to close your eyes. Would that be worse?
Then he moved backwards again, reaching for something new. The wound on your cheek was a cleaner cut, easier to deal with. As he wiped it a few times with a fresh gauze, his hand finally placed itself steadily over your knee.
A new kind of silence settled as he pressed two strips over each gash.
“You, um…” he withdrew his hand, “you should rest. And eat. Yeah. Eat, and rest.”
You nodded.
“Yeah, I should.”
Looking over to the door, you dragged your lip between your teeth. In fairness, Jungkook had been your biggest concern. But you had still royally fucked up today. Twice. You had the rest of your group to make it up to.
Maybe braving it sooner would be easiest. As much as you didn’t have the energy for it, they could recharge you. You all gave back to each other in the end.
Sensing your reservation, Jungkook stood.
“Hey,” he called your attention back to him, “they were just worried.”
“I guess they’ll be a piece of cake now, after you,” you couldn’t help smiling, “you’re the most obstinate one, after all.”
As you finished speaking, you followed him to stand, shooting a smirk into his affronted face. It looked as though he couldn’t decide whether to be offended or amused – until all that was erased as you crossed closer to him on your way to the door.
Your expression, too, faded. Your steps fell too sluggishly, but his gravity slowed them without your meaning to. It left you locked in his eyes for too long.
With your breath trapped in your throat, you had no idea how you managed it. Your voice sounded without premeditation, low but clear with your sincerity.
“Thanks, Jungkook.”
And then you turned, leaving him trying to recover his own racing heart behind you.
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