#suju oc

[sujusdanbi]

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[karamellisokeri]

Dislyte dump (August 24)

Basically everything i did this month excluding some that already have their own post. Im grinding alot more for merch its so 💀💀😭😭 ion like doing chibi LOL anyway more characters coming soon, i just need finish those to print some sample

Also i was like, damn i need to draw more chu yao, but i realized now i draw him alot

[kpoproleplayer04]

Looking for a roleplay partner (kpop)

𝙃𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙤 𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮𝙤𝙣𝙚! My name is Yoyong/Fay and I am 20 years old. I am looking for: (look at the list below)

❀ 𝗠𝘅𝗙 𝗥𝗼𝗹𝗲𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆 (Me portraying the female character)

❀𝗜𝗱𝗼𝗹𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘀𝗲 𝗿𝗼𝗹𝗲𝗽𝗹𝗮𝘆 (Can do a roleplay where both of us portray Idols or semi-idolverse where one of us portrays an actor and the other portrays the idol)

❀𝗠𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗴𝗲𝗱 𝟭𝟴+

❀𝗧𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘇𝗼𝗻𝗲 (𝗚𝗠𝗧 +𝟬/𝗕𝗦𝗧 +𝟭)

❀𝗢𝗖 𝘅 𝗢𝗖 𝗼𝗿 𝗖𝗮𝗻𝗼𝗻 𝘅 𝗢𝗖 (When doing Canon x OC; I would still want to portray the OC rather than the Canon character)

❀I solely use an 𝗢𝗖 (If you end up using an OC too, please provide me with a descriptive Character bio rather than something that is incomplete)

❀ I like to plan my roleplays thoroughly and I refuse to go with the flow.

❀I am literate to advanced literate but can reach novella. Minimum length of a roleplay response is 𝟯 𝗽𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗽𝗵𝘀. I DO NOT accept anything less than that.

❀Communication is key, so if I don't receive a response within 3 days I will ping you or just message you and if there is an unexplained delay, the roleplay will be delayed. If no communication happens to justify the delay etc the roleplay will be terminated.

❀Tell me about your triggers and if you have any rules.

❀ I mainly do roleplays on Discord where I create a private server to keep things organised.

❀Other things I add in roleplays are smut, angst, drama, romance and slice of life.

❀I allow age gaps.

Here is the list of muses that can be chosen and used in our roleplay:

: ̗̀➛𝐆𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐩𝐬; (in bold are idols/actors that are preferred the most)

❀ Seventeen-

𓆩♡𓆪 S.Coups

❀ EXO-

𓆩♡𓆪 Suho

𓆩♡𓆪 Baekhyun

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗖𝗵𝗮𝗻𝘆𝗲𝗼𝗹

𓆩♡𓆪 D.O

𓆩♡𓆪 Kai

❀ NCT-

𓆩♡𓆪 Taeyong

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗞𝘂𝗻

𓆩♡𓆪 Doyoung

𓆩♡𓆪 Ten

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗪𝗶𝗻𝘄𝗶𝗻

𓆩♡𓆪 Mark

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗬𝘂𝘁𝗮

❀ TVXQ! -

𓆩♡𓆪Max Changmin

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗨-𝗞𝗻𝗼𝘄 𝗬𝘂𝗻𝗵𝗼

❀ Big Bang -

𓆩♡𓆪 G.D

𓆩♡𓆪 T.O.P

❀ Astro -

𓆩♡𓆪Rocky

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗝𝗶𝗻𝗷𝗶𝗻

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗘𝘂𝗻-𝘄𝗼𝗼

❀ MonstaX -

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗦𝗵𝗼𝘄𝗻𝘂

𓆩♡𓆪 Minhyuk

𓆩♡𓆪 Joohoney

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗞𝗶𝗵𝘆𝘂𝗻

❀ SHINee -

𓆩♡𓆪Onew

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗠𝗶𝗻𝗵𝗼

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗞𝗲𝘆

𓆩♡𓆪 Taemin

❀ SUJU -

𓆩♡𓆪 Donghae

❀ Pentagon -

𓆩♡𓆪Hui

❀ GOT7 -

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗣𝗮𝗿𝗸 𝗝𝗶𝗻𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗻𝗴

𓆩♡𓆪 Choi Youngjae

❀ 2PM -

𓆩♡𓆪 Ok Taecyeon

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗟𝗲𝗲 𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗵𝗼

❀ JYJ -

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗞𝗶𝗺 𝗝𝗮𝗲𝗷𝗼𝗼𝗻𝗴

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗞𝗶𝗺 𝗝𝘂𝗻𝘀𝘂

: ̗̀➛𝐀𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐬;

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗟𝗲𝗲 𝗗𝗼𝗻𝗴-𝗪𝗼𝗼𝗸

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗡𝗮𝗺 𝗝𝗼𝗼 𝗛𝘆𝘂𝗸

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗴 𝗛𝗮𝗲 𝗜𝗻

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗟𝗲𝗲 𝗗𝗼 𝗛𝘆𝘂𝗻

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗞𝗶𝗺 𝗕𝘂𝗺

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗪𝗶 𝗛𝗮 𝗝𝗼𝗼𝗻

𓆩♡𓆪Kim Min Gue

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗞𝗶𝗺 𝗠𝗶𝗻 𝗦𝗲𝗼𝗸

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗞𝗶𝗺 𝗝𝗶 𝗛𝗼𝗼𝗻

𓆩♡𓆪Song Seung-heon

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗝𝗶 𝗦𝘂𝗻𝗴 (𝗔𝗰𝘁𝗼𝗿)

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗝𝘂𝗻𝗴 𝗪𝗼𝗼 𝘀𝘂𝗻𝗴

𓆩♡𓆪 𝗞𝗮𝗻𝗴 𝗧𝗮𝗲-𝗼𝗵

𓆩♡𓆪𝗔𝗵𝗻 𝗛𝘆𝗼-𝘀𝗲𝗼𝗽

If you are interested, feel free to like the post, comment or message me in private. I am looking forward roleplaying with you. <3

[kwanisms]

Rules

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➤ Minors do not interact with me. If you are a minor or support minors being in adult spaces and potentially getting us adults in LEGAL trouble, you will be blocked and can fuck right tf off. Racists, homophobes, transphobes, and generally awful people stay the fuck away as well. You aren't welcome here.

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Requests are closed!

I mainly write for seventeen, ateez, and stray kids.

I sometimes write for txt, day6, super junior, & nct.

Occasionally, I may write for bts, exo, got7, monsta x, and wonho but more often than not, they will appear as background characters.

Most of my female side characters will come either as OCs or from gg like itzy, twice, red velvet, and aespa. Depending on the series, sometimes I will add or mention idol siblings as minor characters but they will not be heavily involved in the plots. (E.G: Hannah, Lucas, Olivia, Sofia, etc.)

As I mainly write NSFW content, below are the members for each group I write for as well as who my current muses are. These are subject to change.

!!! I will NEVER write for: l*ucas. Period !!!

!!! I will never write NSFW content for Chenle, Park Jisung, Taehyun, or Hueningkai !!!

current muses: Han, Changbin, Chris Bang, Lee Know, S.coups, Hoshi, San, Yunho, Seonghwa. You will see more stuff for these idols

svt: all members

atz: all members

skz: all members

txt: choi line only (yeonjun, soobin, beomgyu)

day6: all members (Jae will not be included in further day6 projects)

suju: yesung

exo: lay, z.tao, chanyeol, baekhyun, junmyeon

➤ WILL NOT WRITE:: watersports, scat, vomit, gore fetishes. I will also not write non-con or dub-con (con non-con is fine), incest, step-cest, illegal age gaps, aged down idols, furries (mild pet play is fine). I also will not include active recreational drug use. I will reference it in some stories for backstory purposes but none of my characters will actively take part in drug use during the events of my stories. Not even marijuana. Most alcohol mentioned in my stories is either wine or soju or a cocktail or two. More may be added at my discretion.

I reserve the right to not fulfill any request for any reason.

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➮ going forward, these rules will apply to all taglists (see this post for why)

»» when filling out the form, PLEASE DO NOT USE A URL BEGINNING WITH 'https://". Just put in your username with the @ symbol. And do not fill out my taglists with links or the names of my own posts. There's literally no way for me to figure out who you are or what you mean. The name/URL is your @. It's really not that difficult. And please make sure it's spelled correctly before submitting. Otherwise, I won't be able to tag you.

»» if you change your blog name at any point AFTER joining the taglist, it is up to you to notify me of any changes. I will not seek you out to fix it. That's not my responsibility, that's on you. After 10 (ten) days, you will be removed from the taglist.

»» you must have your age listed or indicated somewhere on your blog. I have to know you're over 18. Ageless blogs and minors will NOT be added to taglists and will be instead blocked with minors being added to the ever-growing blacklist.

»» you must interact with the posts you want to be tagged in. If you do not, you will be removed from the taglist and a note will be made. I'm not going to do you a solid in exchange for nothing.

»» if you have been inactive without prior notification (on your blog or made a post) for 6 (six) months, you will be removed from my taglists. Anyone on announced hiatuses will be temporarily removed from taglists (unless discussed beforehand) and will be reinstated upon return.

»» do not send asks or DMs or comment on posts to join my taglists. You must fill out the form. I have the form linked on my pinned post and after the first of the year, I will be going through and updating the links on my posts. Remember me: lily of the valley. With school, work, and other life commitments, I cannot keep track of asks and comments for taglists anymore. Please use the form.

»» blank and empty blogs will not be added. If your blog is blank, it shows me that you don't reblog and you're only here to silently read. Which is fine, but you don't get to be added to taglists if you aren't going to interact with the stuff you consume. Reblogging is the best and most important thing you can do on this website. Likes are nice but there's no algorithm on here. All liking does is save the post in your likes, it doesn't help circulate the posts. Reblogging does. Writers want actual feedback. We love that shit.

»» please make sure your visibility is on! Anyone I cannot tag will be removed if the issue is not corrected after a few days. If I cannot initially tag you, I will message the blog you attached to the form. If I do not hear back in 10 days, you will not be added.

If for whatever reason, you absolutely cannot get the form to work for you, please send me a DM or ask to be added to the taglist but please, PLEASE, specify which taglist you want to be added to and what content you want to be tagged in (sfw, nsfw, both, etc.) Only use this option if you absolutely cannot get the form to work.

Link to taglist form.

[haveanotherkpopblog]

Metamorphosis Incorrect Quotes

Masterlist

Onew: Where’s Taemin?

Seonmi: Doing stuff.

Onew: I don’t like how that sounds. Where’s Jinae?

Seonmi: Trying to stop Taemin from doing stuff.

Onew: Annaliese?

Seonmi: Distracting Jinae from trying to stop Taemin from doing stuff.

Onew: Then what’re you doing here?

Seonmi: I’m supposed to be stopping you from stopping Annaliese distracting Jinae so she doesn’t go to stop Taemin from doing stuff.

Onew: I do not get paid enough to deal with this idiocy.

[baejl]

lo siento

exo 10th member au

somi and suju interaction

[it’s been a while but thanks to the anon who requested some somi x suju moments! 💛 this is set at the rehearsal to the smtown in chile.] 

masterlist 🌻 requests are open feedback is always important to me!

As soon as Somi got on theatre where the rehearsals were happening, six wild men started to shout and cheer her name.

"CHOI SOMI! CHOI SOMI!" Shindong's voice was the loudest.

"Hello!" she smiled through the mask and bowed at them and then at the staff sitting at the audience seats. Lee Sooman was sitting right in the middle, with all the A&R team and managers around them.

"How are you doing?" Leeteuk asked her giving the girl a quick hug.

"I'm fine, what about you guys? Rehearsing a lot today?"

"Ugh," Siwon sighed. "don't even mention that. Sooman is unbearable boring today. He keeps telling us to change everything." 

Somi laughed with his tone and put her in-ears on, getting ready to show what they rehearsed all the week. 

When she first heard about the collab stage thingy, she genuinely thought they would choose anyone else but her. Not that Somi didn't like her seniors, quite the opposite, they were good friends, but Somi was sure their first option was Irene.

"We're starting whenever you're ready." Sooman's voice echoed on the theatre, and the idols rushed to their initial positions. 

The instrumental filled Somi's ears, and she took deep breathes, mentally preparing herself. 

For some reason, every time she needed to show something to her boss, even though it's been so long she debuted, it would feel like she was still a trainee. 

When was her part, she did what needed to be done.

She made sure to sing all the parts she had to in the most precisely spanish she could, trying to look as cool and sensual she could. When the song stopped, instead of applauding, the managers and staff were with a straight face. Somi instantly recoiled and waited for the bad news. 

She looked at Eunhyuk, who just gave her a comforting smile. 

"So," the director said. "I think you guys can do better." 

"Somi-ah," Sooman took the mic out of the director's hand and said. "are you scared of your sunbaenims?" 

"No, sir." she said shyly shaking her head. 

"Then why aren't you even touching them the way you should?" Sooman snapped. 

Beside her, all the Super Junior members started to laugh. Yesung put an arm around Somi's shoulder, trying to light up the mood a little bit. 

"I'll do it, sir." she said with a monotonous tone. 

"Okay. We'll do it again from the top." the choreographer said. 

Somi only nodded and put her in-ear on again, taking a deep breath to calm herself. 

"Ya." Donghae called her and put his mic down. "He's stressed. You don't have to worry about the performance. Do what you feel comfortable with."  

She only agreed, trying to hide how embarrassed she was for being called out.

"When it's our part, I'll put my hand on your hip. Is that okay?" Leeteuk asked Somi. 

"Okay." she hummed, beaming at him. 

Once again, the music was loud on her ears, and she tried to focus as much as she could, adding some extra bounce to her moves. 

When it was her part with Siwon, he took her head and led it to his shoulder while she was turning around him, from the corner of her eyes, she could see Sooman whispering something to the choreographer. 

While she was walking towards Leeteuk to his part, he mouthed an 'it's okay' to her and gently placed his hand on her hip, without breaking eye contact. 

Until the end of the song, every time Somi was feeling nervous, she'd pretend that she was dancing with her members and not her senior and, somehow, that helped her more than she thought it would. 

When the song stopped, against what she thought would happen, Sooman was smiling and clapping. 

"Okay!" his voice echoed once again thought the theatre. Somi breathed hard as she took her monitors off. "I think we're done for today." 

The Suju members cheered for Somi as they gave her a high-five. 

"This is what I want from you at the concert." he kept talking. "No weirdness between you." 

"Okay, sir..." Somi mumbled as she bowed at him with a fake smile and the rest of the people on the seats. 

She whished the Suju boys a bit of good luck on their rehearsal and left the stage. She got back to EXO's waiting room taking her mic pack off and rolling her eyes. 

"How was it?" 

Chanyeol asked, looking away from the small tv there. Looking at him with an annoyed expression, she didn't have to say much to explain. 

"Okay, nevermind." 

[hyukja3bbie]

Super Junior 14th member

INFORMATION

Name: Park Chae-Won (박채원)

Stage name: Chae

Birthday: December 31, 1986

Birthplace: Jeollanam, Mokpo

Nationality: Korean

Height: 165 cm / 5'5

Weight: 49 kg / 108 lbs

Blood type: AB-

Position: Main dancer, lead rapper, vocalist, main chaosmaker and moodmaker

Sub-units: Super Junior-T, Super Junior-C. H. L (Leeteuk, Chae and Heechul) (stands for Di-Verse)

faceclaim: Taeyeon, Sooyoung, Nana and random ulzzangs

voiceclaim (singing voice): Ailee, Taeyeon

voiceclaim (speaking voice): Choi Sooyoung

FACTS ABOUT CHAE

She was born just a second away from january 1, 1987. There were a number of confusions during her trainee days because she was registered in 1989. 

Her biological parents are Min Sun-ah and Park Seong-hun. Her mother is a neurosurgeon while Her father was a choreographer and stage director. Both of them were skilled and known dancers in Korea.

When she turned 2, her parents divorced each other because her father cheated on her mother.

Chae fell in love with dancing and skateboarding ever since she was 2 years old.

Her mother, Sun-ah, had gotten a new boyfriend namely Boo Yong-su who was also a dancer and choreographer.

Chae’s had a talkbalk and rebellious attitude even when she was young.

Chae went to the same school as her bandmate Donghae. She’s also very close to his family. She would’ve had been in 13 fights if it weren’t for Donghae. She only got into 9 fights.

None were caused by her, it was because of bullies.

While working, she was scouted 4 times, 1 by YG Ent. then 3 times by two scouting agents from SM Ent. and finally Lee Soo Man (LSM) himself came to scout her. She finally accepted Lee Soo Man’s offer.

Chae eventually had to leave school in 2000 and had to continue her school in 2004

Her life as a trainee, she was given a tougher and longer training compared to others because LSM wanted her to be the best and because she had a lot better foundation in dancing and rapping as well as singing.

Chae got into SM Ent. in May 1998. Her first stats when she got in was dancing - 6, singing - 5, rapping - 6, acting - 2 (1= lowest, 6= expert) making her the only sm trainee ever to get these stats.

Chae has 1 younger brother, Park Changmin.

She took care of them as much as she could as her father died of cancer in 2000.

Enough about her childhood, its time for random facts

Chae is considered as the BEST dancer in the Korean Industry and is known worldwide as a world-class dancer. She is able to cater to majority of the dance styles and genres with ease.

She also has major skills in freestyling, choreographing and battle dancing

She has helped written and produce majority — if not all of super junior’s songs, even sub-unit songs and songs for other groups. She writes and produces all of her songs in her solo albums and produces / writes songs for other groups

Chae is the korean artist with the most written or produced songs with 278 songs

She had debuted in 2000 in a hiphop group Honey Family with Miryo of BEG when she was recruited underground with the stage name TROUBLE.

TROUBLE also is the name she uses in producing and underground thing.

She also debuted with Heechul and Leeteuk in a group called DI-VERSE that surprisingly went well in 2003.

Chae is very very blunt and straightforward. She is a diva. She’s sarcastic and fearless — really. She’s not scared of anything or anyone.

Chae is a dork. And an incredibly funny dork. She is known for her extreme adlibs in songs and in variety shows.

Is known as the most rebellious and troublemaker artist in Korea.

Though not a bad thing, she has never smoked, been in a scandal or have been caught with a problematic behavior from the start of her career till now.

When she was a trainee, a trainer told her to keep her long hair and to keep it black but she cut it short the next day and dyed it blonde. She got yelled to lose more weight. the next time they met, she gained 5 kg and got yelled at by them. SM told her to give write an apology but instead she laughed and wrote a song on the paper instead.

She doesn’t wear make up most of the time and if not needed. Her bare face is also praised all the time because of how perfect her skin is.

Can play 6 instruments. Drums and Guitar as her favorite.

Chae is a boss in drinking, she never gets drunk and can drink for two days straight.

She has an extreme allergy to nuts and cucumber. Even if she eats just a small bit of it, her throat swells up snd she gets difficulty in breathing.

Chae is an advocate and an ambassador for anti-bullying, equality and animal and child welfare.

She is one of the richest musicians in the world and is the richest in Korea with a net worth of $350 million.

Is called “sleep switch” because of how fast she can fall asleep whenever and wherever. But she is hard to wake up in the morning.

She hates aegyo.

Chae can NOT cook. Please don’t let her cook.

She is voted as the scariest member but also the member with the most patience.

On May of 2011 she was appointed as the creative director of sm, as she is one of the stockholders, giving her the task to be the one to console artists about their problems.

She has a lot of friends in boygroups and girlgroups.

Chae is the only member even pre-debut to bug Heechul and Leeteuk even if they’re in a bad mood

Chae used to live in the 12th floor with Heechul, Hangeng, Kangin, Leeteuk and was Heechul’s roommate. They did sleep on one bed.

Heechul and Leeteuk stated that they will both protect Chae with their entire life and that she’s the most important person in their life.

Chae is the CEO of Label SJ but she only gets creative power. 

Is the best at business, contracts, laws and negotiating. Chae negotiated with SM Entertainment in 2010 to change their contract about the profit distributions, issues about the group and more freedom in music. after a few battles, SM Entertainment agreed and their profit distributions became a lot bigger than before.

She has an IQ of 169 and is fluent in 5 languages, korean, english, japanese, chinese and mandarin

She is extremely bad at math and studying

Chae once got into a rumor of her being bi / lesbian in 2008 with numerous female idols.

she was involved in a fatal car crash along with kyuhyun, leeteuk, shindong, eunhyuk and their managers. she suffered critical blood loss and several broken ribs and other serious injuries.

Chae curses the most.

She is the God of flirting. She flirts with anyone.

She is also nicknamed “stone” because of how hard she is to fluster especially during shows and also just because of her stone bitch face that she shows during boring times.

Chae is very picky with men when it comes to age, she doesn’t like —slash does NOT date younger men except for lee seunggi and another guy.

Is well-known for being friends with a lot of people or literally anyone. She is the absolute person you don’t want to mess with because she knows everybody’s secret.

She knows all of the suju members’ secrets.

Despite knowing all of her members’ secrets, she had a hard time in telling people of her problems and feelings. Most of the time she keeps to herself where her depression becomes worse.

Chae has had depression and anxiety ever since she was young. Sometimes it became very serious but sometimes she overcame it.

Her depression reached its peak during 2011 to the point that during a performance for her fanmeeting, she slowly attempted to jump off a platform that held her high above the stage. Thankfully she stopped herself by gripping the handpost.

She is the strongest pillar of super junior despite her anxiety.

In 2008, a group of people started an organization to make her leave the group and give her a lot of hate. With the name Only Male. Her supporters were already big at that time so they sued the organization and got them to leave Chae alone.

During Eunhyuk’s scandal with IU in 2012, she protected Eunhyuk against very malicious comments.

She even let the management reveal her and Lee Seunggi’s dating news just so Eunhyuk won’t get the hate. And it came out badly. Chae got all of the hate especially for being together with the nation’s younger brother who had a very innocent image in contrast to her rebellious and sexy image.

Though Chae didn’t care. She was glad Eunhyuk didn’t get hate about it as more.

In an episode of Exploration of the human body, Chae was tasked to get the tears of each of her groupmates. (that was when they still promoted with hangeng, 2008) Surprisingly with the hidden camera prank her and her manager did the members all cried quickly without knowing about the prank.

Chae developed problem where she doesn’t cry. She gets scared to cry because of her trauma with her step-father. From the past year of Super Junior, Chae had only cried once and thats only 3 tears during the funeral of leeteuk’s grandparents.

Her close friends outside SJ and outside SM are: G-Dragon, TOP, Jessi, Lee Hyori, Rain, the whole njttw cast and Dara

Chae is incredibly blunt, she is much more straightforward, blunt and savage than Kim Heechul or any Korean idol / artist at that fact

Chae has a lot of tattoos.

She also has a high pain tolerance.

She is also known as the Queen of KPoP and Hallyu wave.

Her favorite food is spicy food, rice cakes and chicken.

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ABOUT !

profile — background — facts

a-z with destiny — things she's said on vlive/super tv — random moments

STYLE !

inside destiny's closet — misc. outfits

what's in destiny's bag?

RELATIONSHIPS !

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New oc based from tamamo no mae and she is like junior to sujue in her work

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I posted 2,635 times in 2022

That's 1,877 more posts than 2021!

100 posts created (4%)

2,535 posts reblogged (96%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

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@changbeens

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@jjunis

I tagged 658 of my posts in 2022

#stray kids - 75 posts

#stray kids scenarios - 62 posts

#stray kids imagines - 62 posts

#stray kids smut - 60 posts

#stray kids social media au - 60 posts

#stray kids angst - 60 posts

#hwang hyunjin - 60 posts

#stray kids fluff - 60 posts

#series: hiraeth - 59 posts

#stray kids reactions - 57 posts

Longest Tag: 129 characters

#i cant imagine how stressful and scary it would be to be stranded in a foreign country after your agency cancels your flight home

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

"you can never cross the ocean unless you have the courage to lose sight of the shore"

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#4

Hiraeth Masterlist

➥ 𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐲 𝐤𝐢𝐝𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐦𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐚 𝐚𝐮

summary: Moon Byeoli lives in Busan with her best friend Jamie Park. Their neighbor is Park Sungjin. Growing up, Byeoli has never really believed in the supernatural, always finding a logical explanation for the things that go bump in the night. Her life is about to be thrown out of control when new neighbors move in across the hall. What will happen when Byeoli befriends them and learns that they aren't exactly... human.

pairing: sungjin x oc x hyunjin

warnings: adult language, alcohol consumption, supernatural themes, implied sexual content, see each chapter for further warnings ⚠️

start date: 2022.09.09

end date: tba

updates every friday and saturday @ 7PM CST

a/n: times and dates DO NOT matter!! all photos are taken from pinterest. all photos used for Moon Byeoli are of Nguyen Thanh Thuy from Instagram. she owns all rights to these photos and I am only using them for entertainment purposes.

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(pw) partially written | (w) written

prologue 01

01: too fast for ya Bobby Boy (pw)

02: can it Bob the Builder

03: calm down Spanish Inquisition

04: hot damn. howdy 🤠

05: just let things be

06: yeah shut up Jackson

07: …IN HELL????

08: please tell Perry I love him

09: SOS COME IN JIMJAMS

10: watermelon sugar BYE

11: had some deer

12: clear intent

13: tiny star

14: is that a challenge??

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#3

"if you wish to seduce an angel, you must play the part of a devil"

52 notes - Posted September 7, 2022

#2

All You Have to Do is Ask - k.jh

summary: your boyfriend ruined dinner

pairing: female reader x yesung

genres/themes: idolverse, established relationship, smut (minors dni), fluff at the end, yesung's real name is Jong-hoon (for those that don't know)

wc: 1.5k

warnings: explicit language, graphic sex, mentions of alcohol, slight praise kink, some dirty talk, unprotected sex (use protection!), creampie, and I'm including this in the warnings: Yesung is an older idol, so if the idea of having sex with someone near 40 bothers you, don't read this lmao I'm like 9 years younger than him so it doesn't bother me to read or write for older idols

a/n: hi, this is my first SuJu smut so pls be gentle. SUPER JUNIOR IS A 2ND GEN KPOP GROUP AND AS SUCH, THEY ARE THE OLDEST GROUP I'M WRITING FOR. IF THEIR AGES BOTHER YOU, GO SOMEWHERE ELSE LOL I'M ALMOST 30 SO THEY ARENT MUCH OLDER THAN ME AND IF THAT BOTHERS YOU, GET OFF MY BLOG. We don't accept ageism here. this is a work of fiction and all characters are not reflective of their respective irl counterparts. for entertainment purposes only. gif isnt mine. I do not allow reposts or translations of my works. All my works are ©️ kwanisms.

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Ruined. That was the only word for it. Dinner was completely ruined and it was all your boyfriend's fault.

He'd gone out immediately after practice to grab a bottle of wine before coming home to your shared apartment. You had told him you were making your favorite pasta for dinner and were excited for him to try it.

What you hadn't expected was him to come home, bottle of wine in hand only to slam the bottle on the counter and jump you the moment his eyes landed on you.

You should have expected it honestly. You knew your black dress was a little short, barely reaching the middle of your thighs and you can only imagine how frustrated he must have been to immediately start attacking your neck in wet kisses, tongue running over your skin as his hands grabbed the material of your dress in his fists before he pulled you from the stove and turned you against the counter to kiss you properly.

It was only a few moments later he had you bent over the same counter, skirt hiked up, panties ripped off and lying in a mangled mess on the hardwood floor. Your boyfriend stood behind you, one hand on your hip, the other holding your dress in a clenched fist as he thrust into you from behind.

You buried your head in your arm, moans tumbling from your lips as you felt the tip of his cock nudge against your sensitive spot. "Fuck," you heard him curse from behind you, voice barely audible of the sound of skin hitting skin filling the kitchen. "Goddamn, baby," he growled.

You glanced over your shoulder, peering back at Yesung, the sight of him losing himself completely sending more heat to your core and your walls clenched around him, spurring him on. You loved when he gave himself over to pleasure entirely.

The way his brow furrowed, the way he bit his bottom lip as he tried to focus on the quality of his thrusts. It was always quality over quantity with him in everything he did. He preferred to do things right rather than how quickly he could do them.

And that extended into sex with you.

Every angled thrust and slow deep roll of his hips made you see stars from beginning to end. He knew your body. He knew every inch of skin, knew how to tease you, how to draw out the most lewd sounds from you, whether it was with his tongue, his fingers, or his cock.

Your head dropped, a slew of moans and causes falling from your lips as you felt your orgasm approaching. Yesung must have felt it in the way your walls convulsed around him as he continued to pound into you, savoring the sight of himself disappearing inside you.

He hadn't planned on fucking you as soon as he got home. The plan was to take a shower while you finished cooking and then join you for a nice home-cooked meal and a glass of wine but when he saw you in that black dress, the short one that barely covered your ass and left your thighs completely exposed, he just couldn't hold back.

Practice had been particularly rough, tensions high amongst him and the other members as they prepared for their comeback. Heechul had been getting on their nerves, making snarky comments from the side whenever someone got the choreography wrong despite him not even dancing with them.

They had ended practice a little earlier than usual because they were all tired, annoyed, and tense. When Yesung had seen your text that you were making him dinner and asked you to pick up a nice bottle of red, he jumped at the chance to finally unwind after the last few days.

He didn't expect that he'd be fucking his frustrations out but you didn't seem to be complaining with how you moaned out his name, his real name, your hands trying to hold onto something to ground yourself against the onslaught of his hips but the smooth surface of the white marble countertops made that entirely impossible, leaving you to the mercy of his grip.

"You did this on purpose, didn't you?" he growled, voice low and husky. You let out a whimper, shaking your head quickly. "N-no," you stammered, your voice shaky. "I swear I d-didn't."

"Why else would you wear something so short?" he asked, giving you a particularly hard thrust, making you cry out. "If not to tease me, then what? Were you expecting someone else to see?" Yesung grunted, ignoring a bead of sweat that rolled down the side of his face. Though he'd cooled off from practice, here he was sweating all over again.

Though he'd much rather be fucking you than stuck in the practice room with eight other men, all as crabby as he was.

"N-no!" you mewled, letting out a gasp when you felt Yesung's hand grab your hair and tug you back, his other hand moving to cup your chin as he leaned over your back. "Did you expect me to bring home the guys?" he murmured in your ear, sending chills down your spine. "N-no, Jong-hoon, I swear," you squeaked out. You heard him hum in your ear, the hand in your hair moving around to the front of your body, pressing against your stomach, pulling you against him as he continued to thrust into you hard and slow.

"So you'd never wear this for any of them?" he asked, holding back a chuckle when you shook your head. "Never. Only f-for you," you whimpered. "You're such a good girl," he cooed, his voice sweet in contrast with the way his hips moved, driving his cock deeper and deeper into your wet cunt.

"Are you gonna be a good little slut and come for me?" he whispered. You nodded quickly. "I'm gonna cum, Hoonie," you moaned, the nickname making him groan as he let go of your chin and wrapped both arms around you, burying his face in the crook of your neck as he hastily chased his high.

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My #1 post of 2022

genre: smut, fluff, established relationship, bf!Hongjoong

pairing: Hongjoong × (gn) reader

wc: 963 (we short, so sorry)

warnings: smut (minors dni), cockwarming, slight exhibitionism, semi public, adult language, cuddly Woosan and Yungi, and I think that's it lol

a/n: I'm just catering to my friends who are going thru it over Hongjoong 😌 this one's for you @yoonguurt & @leadinglady17 ♥️

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FORBIDDEN CHAPTER 15

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CHAPTERS | 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | ....

WHAT REALLY HAPPENED AFTER THAT KISS

 – BONUS CONTENT  

Things were stranger than usual since that kiss. Neither of us didn't know what to say. And I definitely didn't know why to say.  Why did I just let her kiss me like that? Why did I kiss back? Did I like my sis..ter? Andwae! No way! That's sick! I can't think like that! But why did I feel like I put the last piece to a jigsaw puzzle together? Everything was so difficult to think about it gave me a headache. Why did this happen? What – how was she feeling? What did she think of when I kissed her back? Was she disgusted? Was I disgusted?

I hate questions.

There she was sleeping in her chair watching over me. She had told me mom and dad were on their way to come see me. Which I wasn't happy about. I was embarrassed by my actions. I didn't think it would go as far as to being in the hospital. I Just wanted A little more numbing to ease the pain. I don't remember wanting to commit suicide, but then again I don't remember that much after I got drunk and took the pills. So Maybe I did mean to kill myself. Only God knows. Because god knows I wasn’t in my right mind.

I looked at my sister. She was so...so....perfect. She was so beautiful it hurt. But why did it hurt? When I thought of questions like this, my mind went Completely blank. Like there was something I was about to find out, but still couldn't quite put my finger on it. I mean I kind of had the idea but I didn’t want to admit it.

Anyways other than that I didn't know how to act around her now after that.... I can't even say it. Ugh. What am going to do? I feel weird. Very weird. I glance over her I'm feeling something I don't want to admit. What is this exactly? Someone help me.

Heaven forbid and forgive me for my sins. I pray that this doesn't get out of hand and even worse Complicated. Sehun is my brother and it should stay that way. But when he kissed me back it had gave me false hope. Hope for us. But we all know how much of a fairy-tale that could be. Reality was and reality is always what we try to avoid. And that why there is a saying "please come back to reality." Because chances are that person is delusional and trying to run from it. Just like I.

After Sehun and I kissed well this is what had happened: 

BONUS

 CONTENT BELOW

"So just get out." He said. "You hesitated, but you got up to grant his wish. "Also move out, do something, I don't want you at home." You froze in place. Really? This was how it was going to be, really? You turned around to give that bastard a piece of your mind. At that point, you didn't care if he was sick in the hospital.

"I don't?!" You yelled.

He looked shocked at your sudden outburst. And you could tell that he didn't expect for this to happen. You were now as close as possible to the edge of the hospital bed in his face.

 "I care Sehun." You sternly said.

He looked at you with an annoyed face. He stared you down and when he realized you weren't going to back down he said. "Really? Then prove it." He hadn't known why he said it in that context but he did. It was just spur of the moment.

At this point, this was a now or never moment. You had No time to think and everyone knows what happens when you don't think. You react. And at that moment your reaction to his statement was...a kiss. 

You kissed him so hard and passionately that Sehun didn't know how to respond. But when he did. He didn't push you away, Instead, he grabbed you closer and he shoved his tongue in your mouth. It went on for At least a minute until you realised how out of hand you had gotten.

You covered your mouth with your hand. "Sehun, I'm sorry I didn't.." he had a shocked look on his face as well. He was just as surprised as you were. You started to tear up. You felt so guilty never in a million years was you supposed to let your feelings out like that and initiate a kiss.

None of you was drunk or high as a kite. Matter of fact you both were down on earth, both feet on the ground. So every feeling in that kiss was real. What was this? Did Sehun really truly speak his feelings last night. When you thought it was because he was high. Was it really that the truth had come out? Were you standing there and him sitting there in that bed, both of you staring at another shocked a result of the fact of the matter? What did matter? Other than your secret had may HAVE been reviled because of that stupid decision you just made. WHY DID YOU DO THAT?

"Ana, what was that?" He whispered. Still shocked. "I..." you didn't know what to say....what should you say in a situation like this? "Ana, why did this just happened?" You looked at him your eyes teared up. You tried to speak but it would come out. Sehun. StaIred at you. "Sehun I'm sorry I didn't mean for." He cut you off. "Ana did we really just kiss?" He said in disbelief. He was taking it kind of hard. He never thought he would enjoy that, or even think time enjoy that with his sister. 

The truth was he was in denial about you. "Sehun I have to confess this before I never do." You started shaking very violently. He looked at you as if he already knew what you were to say. "Something is wrong with me absolutely WRONG WITH ME ..don't know why or how or when it started it just happened." You said trying to look at Sehun through your tears but he was blurry to many tears was in the way. "And so I became distant. Because I thought it would be best if I went away, I didn't want to involve you in my problems. I thought that-"

"Ana what are you trying to say?!" Sehun became frustrated. You looked at him wiping your tears so you could see him clearly. "Sehun I love you." You said. He paused and his eyebrows knitted together.

(a/n: shawty gonna part to the sun down XD)

"Ana I love you too, you’re my s- "

"No Sehun like love. I'm IN love with you," you stated. 

Sehun face was something you could never forget even if you tried the way he looked at you when he finally realized what was really up -was unexplainable. He seemed slightly disgusted with you but his face changed rapidly to hide it.

It scared you as he looked at you with his mouth open in utter disbelief. He didn't understand how this could have happened. And why it was. He completely forgot he kissed you back moments before. But the news from this had blown that out the water.

"Sehun, I'm so sorry, I never meant to tell you. It was support to be a secret. This was my burden, not yours." And you just kept going on and on as Sehun looked at you differently, you were trying to do anything to get him to stop looking at you like that, anything to get him to understand your reasoning, " Sehun I tried so hard to stop, I slept with Kris because I wanted to trying and rid my feelings but it didn't work and the time before that I was trying to sleep with Luhan,"at this point you had broken down." But I couldn't he....he... reminded me of you and I felt like if I did sleep with him it wouldn't help it would only make me this it was you touching and kissing me and making love to me." You turned you back as you sobbed. You crouched down and held yourself to try and calm yourself but you just couldn't. You felt stupid. This was embarrassing.

"Ana...." Sehun finally spoke. "Come here.." But you ignored him. You didn't want him to look at you like that anymore. That look gave you a reason to get rid of yourself because of how disgusting you are. "Ana... "

You could hear movement and you shot up because he wasn't supposed. To get out of bed. "Sehun stop, sit still you just had surgery." You cried. He held out his hand. "Come here." Hesitantly, you grabbed his hand and he pulled you into a hug and he whispered." This is surprising to hear....but don't think I don't love you, Ana. You're my sister, WasI'll help you with whatever. All I know is I'm happy that you don't hate me."

You cried because what?

 Was he support to tell you he loved you also in the Same Were you thinking that kiss was something when it was nothing? Or how about this? Being rejected. Oh how everything hurts. What was supposed to happened he told you let's date, I wanna make love to you too? No Ana No. You should know better by now. Everything isn't always what it seems. And pain runs deeper than you think.

So you were delusional? Yes, very. To ever think he would give you a slightest chance. You weren't meant to be, only as brother and sister, and as a twin.  

Tragic.

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The present- sehuns pov

I have to admit I missed her. I mean I've always missed her, but being alone in this hospital bed without her by my side bothers me. I know I told her to leave but I didn't think she would actually do it. When she had confessed her feelings I didn't know  how to feel about it. It did bring me joy to know all this time she didn't hate me. But feeling more than actually brother sister love, was beyond me. We couldn’t do that that was forbidden.  But the way she cried out all her pain in front of me, her holding in this secret that she had kept from me since forever made me feel a certain way. I just could explain. And again it hurt my head to trty and think about it.

It was one thing to love her but to think about loving her in a different way scared me. How could I. It felt so wrong of me. Could I try Yes. Should I? No. Ah I just don't know anymore. But what I do know is I miss her. Wish she didn't leave. I just got her back, and it feels as if though she and I are even farther apart since our last encounter and I hate it. Mabey hating another was better. Maybe before she told me her true feelings was better. Because now we seemed worse off. So close yet so far away.

"So do you remember anything?" Finally she was here sitting in the chair she had slept in yesterday. She was engaging in conversation and I was glad, but I didn't want to talk about this.  

Yet.

Did I remember anything? Slightly. Would I tell her? No. I laughed nervously and scratched the top of my head.  "No and I'm glad. I probably said some f'ed up things huh?" Though I couldn't exactly remember -I was afraid. Afraid of what she might say. What exactly did I do and was it appropriate? I had a feeling That I might of did or said things I wouldn't normally Say.

She eyed me, trying to figure me out. Seeing if I was telling the truth or not. I eyed her back that uncomfortable silence creeping it way back in. She finally looked down, disappointed. And I sighed internally. It wasn't the answer she was looking for.

"Ana finally you're here." Our mother said. She gave a cold kind of presence towards Ana because she was blaming my actions all on her when clearly it wasn't her fault. It was all mine. My dad was on both sides. But overall he was just mad at the both of us equally, something my mom needed to learn.

Ana got up hugging our mother stiffly, but efficiently. She hugged dad more Warmer. "Ana I'm sorry." Was all my mom voiced out. Although you could tell she didn't want to do it.

Ana just bowed and came back to the chair in front of me still not giving direct contact. "Sehun we brought you food, so you don't have to continue eating this nasty hospital food. We brought you black bean noodles and bubble tea." Our mother said ignore Ana altogether. But Ana being lost in her thoughts didn't notice. Heck she didn't want to be here. Well it seemed that way Anyways.

"Sorry," Baekhyun who left came back. "Well Hi baek." My father's face lit up. He liked my best friend a lot. Probably because of how funny he is. "Hi Mr.Oh," he replied back. "We don't see you at the house anymore," my father continued. "I know I'm sorry, Sehun likes to come to mine and never let's me come to his." I had my reasons.

Ana continued to stay quiet and it was killing me. She was so distant. I rather be arguing than nothing at all.

"Well you should start coming around more again."my father told baekhyun. Baekhyun smiled."sure can do sir." Ana looked at Baekhyun and they exchanged glances. It was like they were communicating without words. And it pissed me off. Why? I don't know...

Yet.

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My parents had went to work so that left me, Ana, and Baekhyun in this room that I was going to be discharged by tomorrow or the next.  

"You feeling better?" Baekhyun finally asked.  

I nodded a Yeah. Then he hit me."You dumb ass you scared the fuck out of me!" He was now standing furious." You're lucky I know CPR or your ass would be dead! What did I tell you."

Ana looked up finally and was alert, so I tried to change the subject. "So how was school without me?" Baekhyun looked at me in disbelief.

" You're asking me this, now?!" I flinched as he about hit me again.

"Yah." I yelped. "Micho-nom " he said cussing at me.

When he calmed down his phone rang. "Ahhhh shit," I knew exactly what he meant by that. His mother. "I'll be back." And as soon as he closed the door. Awkwardness suffocated us. I started at her as she looked down. I hated every bit and piece of this. Argue make snide comments do something! But she wouldn't, and I just about had enough.

"Ana why are you being this way towards me? " I finally asked. She looked up in panic. "Be like what." So she didn't know that she was acting a certain way? "You won't talk or do anything with me" These words they felt like Deja vu.  We were right at square one. I used to stress these Same exact  phrases before. "I'm sorry," was all she said. And then she continue to look down.

Ugh this was frustrating me. I couldn't take this. "We have to talk about this." And by this I meant her love for me." No I'm not talking about it I'm working on it." Working on it? What did that mean. "What do you mean?"  I asked. She looked away and I knew. " Ana don't, don't get with another guy please." But why did I say that? "Sehun I have to it the only way to fix my self!” i became outraged. “ANA NOTHING IS WRONG WITH YOU!” but wait was i accepting  her love then? if really was nothing wrong with her then could i love her back as in the way she wanted me too,  or was i jealous of this “other guy” not in a romantic way, but in a brotherly way?  

Fuck now everything was even more complicated. Now I had to think about my actions and if I meant them in different ways.

"Yes!  Sehun something is wrong with me I think all these bad things" she kept going and I got caught up on bad things. All these thoughts started going through my mind and by that point I had crossed the dark side.

Ana. Ana popped in my head that one time I seen her in her bra and underwear recently.  And I wanted to cut my dick off for the other thoughts. I might have not been in love with her like that, but this first thought of her in that way made me feel bad, and I understood Ana for a brief second even if this was the first encounter.  

"I think, and I think, and when I try to stop it just doesn't work Sehun, I don't know why. But I love you in a way I shouldn't, help me." She was still going. " Sehun I'm not asking for much, I'm not even asking for you to love me back. All I'm asking for is for you to keep your distance, I'm trying to get over this. I"

"Ana..I'm I..." I couldn't tell her. I couldn't..... "what?" She said as always this made her emotional and she was crying rivers. "Nothing." I couldn't say it I couldn't tell her I was struggling my way back to the top, that I was struggling for the air in my lungs before I reached suffocation. I Oh Sehun was as hard as a rock. I wanted Ana I wanted her, I didn't love her like this but my manhood had got the best of me. as always my second head had got the best of me. I probably looked like I was constipated by now as I had been betrayed by a part of me.

Ana looked at me she angrily wiped her tears." You don't know how much I want to...to die because of this. I bet you look at me differently. Huh? I'm disgusting aren't I Sehun? I'm sorry I'm like this She whipped her tears again. I didn't say anything because I couldn't. Because I was afraid of what I might say. And because a certain part of me was thinking of her.

When it shouldn’t have.

[hyukja3bbie]

Chae’s childhood

*this would be a little more serious than the next parts of her life so putting it out there*

warnings: mentions of abuse, killing, depression, physical and emotional abuse (i don’t if there’s more please read with caution)

Parents: Min Sun-ah and Park Seong-hun

Both of them are very well known dancers in S. Korea

Sun-ah is also a neurologist

They divorced when Chae was 2 years old because they fell out of love and Sun-ah thought her husband cheated on her

but he didn’t. They just fell out of love

Sun-ah then met her boyfriend Yong-su who is also a dancer

They raised her pretty well

Chae started dancing when she was 2

Sun-ah and Yong-su helping her out

Mainly Yong-su since Sun-ah was busy with the hospital

Their family was really close to the Lee’s aka Donghae’s family because they were right next to each other

The Lee’s even letting Chae sleep in their house for fun

Sometimes even have Donghae and Chae farm 

Reason why they’re so close

Everything was fine until Yong-su eventually got into gambling and alcohol

That’s when he started physically discipling Chae even in the littlest things like messing up choreography

Chae, being a very talk-balk person talk-balked at him every time he hurt her

But he would only get madder

He became more abusive to her and her mother, hurting her mother if she didn’t give him money for alcohol

His abusive act towards Chae became much more harsher, every day she would get a new bruise or cut

Sun-ah couldn’t do anything because he threatened to kill Chae if she does anything

 Chae took all of those beatings every day while still having to go to school

Donghae would notice her bruises but she would brush him off, not wanting him to get involved scared that he might get hurt

When she got to school, there were times where she would encounter her fellow schoolmates getting bullied

And of course she can’t just ignore it

So she’d get into fights trying to defend them

And what comes with fights? Principal’s office

Yong-su would get called into the principal’s office so much

He wouldn’t care though

He was actually surprised to see Chae still being able to fight in her state

When they get home, he would discipline her much more harsh

Every time Chae cries she would get hit harder

That’s where she developed her phobia of crying

Every time she would cry, she would see visions of her stepfather hurting her

Her mother felt very sorry

Each time she went back home Chae would have sometimes have blood in her legs, hands and face

She helped her in treating her bruises

They felt sorry for each other. Both of them were abused

That’s why Chae created Impulse dance crew when she was 12

And also why she joined multiple sports

So she could stay away from home

She’s the leader of Impulse dance crew, with the three core member: her, Donghae and Jihoon

Impulse dance crew is for another part 

Back to her family, when Chae turned 10 she was forced to work in Seoul because Yong-su had made Sun-ah quit her job

Chae worked 4 jobs back to back and went back to mokpo from seoul until she debuted

4 jobs because she was still young and she could only do jobs in cafes and restaurant like washing dishes and preparing ingredients

Donghae noticed this and that’s only time Chae had told him about what happened to her family

He became protective of her

But he was still a child

One time while Chae was home, a small child came to her house looking for her this was in 1999

That’s when she found Changmin

Changmin, her half-sibling showed her their father who was on his death bed because of stage 3 cancer

Adding onto her responsibilities, She took care of Changmin becoming his noona despite being tired

Having her salary divided into her family and Changmin

Sun-ah helped her daughter as much as she could

But she only did as much to protect her daughter

Sun-ah had given Chae the keys to her small house in seoul, wanting her to stay there.

While in working in Seoul, she was scouted multiple times

But she always declined not wanting to have more work to do

SM scouting her first, then YG, then SM again, and finally Lee Soo Man when she was buying food for Changmin in a street cart

She eventually accepted LSM’s offer

And was given a different contact

Because she had school, training for SM, sports and dance for Impulse, she never was home

Letting her rest from the continuous abuse that her stepfather did to her

But her mother was the one that got abused

Chae felt depressed about her life

Especially because of how her mother is getting hurt by her own boyfriend

On her fifth year of being a trainee (2003), she was called by her stepfather back home

She heard her mother scream bloody murder in the phone call

Making her ditch training and run back home

The last sight making breaking her into a millions pieces

She went home seeing her mother tied into a chair while Yong-su kills her slowly

Chae not being able to do anything because of the gun pointed at her by her psycho stepfather

Having exchanged i love you’s with her mother, Sun-ah dies without seeing her daughter’s future

Yong-su killing himself right after Sun-ah died 

Chae had fallen

She stayed in the house while crying one last time

They were found by Donghae’s father next door when he heard a gun shot go off

Ever since then Chae became broken

She never became happy

She had no one beside Changmin

Chae moved out of the house and moved to her mother’s house in seoul  with Changmin

During the funeral and the destruction of her home in Mokpo, she saw one box by her room

Inside of that box was letters from her mother during the time Chae was in seoul to work

Not only that, letters from Yong-su were also there

Asking for forgiveness

Chae had never made peace with him not until 2007 where she got the strength to forgive him and finally get peace

Her childhood became one of the biggest reasons why Chae is so disciplined, fearless and fragile

She never talked about it, only once

and that one time was enough for the fans to understand her story and why she never cried 

She had only told this story to her members once, making them extremely protective of her

Its always been a mystery how she can smile and be happy in front of cameras while still bearing the pain

But when she learned to make peace, she became much more happier with herself but the pain never left her

Chae’s broken self slowly being healed back by her members and brother