#sugarenia story time

[sugaroto]

Imagine you to Italy for a school trip and you get a warning from the police in the first, like, 3 hours-

Couldn't be my school haha

[sugaroto]

Also, keep in mind,

I'm not sure how to put this into words, but your joke may be someone's experience

This is based on a tiktok I saw, actually 2, but I saw the one yesterday so it's most recent

You see, something happened to me when I was a kid, and honestly I rarely see it online and that's why I don't really talk about it, also because I was lucky and other's who had a "similar" experience to mine might not be alive anymore, but what happened to me wasn't that bad

But I saw these tiktoks, they were "hoping this happens to me✌" or "in case this happens"

And... I answered to both,

Not in an attack way, since I probably want to relate to something but like "Hey this actually happened to me, didn't except to see that on my fyp"

That user replied and said they were hoping I was doing ok and all

I don't know how to explain it... but both tiktoks were wishing for that to happen to them and me who had experienced it felt bad to reply as if I would ruin their joke

I'm not sure what my point is, but I guess I felt bad to reply to their posts cause in a way they're joking but I've actually experienced it and I wanted to reply but it was awkward cause they probably didn't excepted someone to be like hey this happened to me

Ok I want to say something controversial

But you are responsible for your own safe spaces. You can block tags, block words, block people.

“But i thought fandom was supposed to be a safe space” —yeah you have to curate it.

Unfortunately one persons’s safe space may be another persons’ trigger. That’s ok. Simply block them, block the tag, block the word etc. They can do the same for you.

Maybe I’m just out of touch, but I’ve been around since the days of “don’t like, don’t read” and that’s a good philosophy. If it squicks you, scroll past. If it causes you anxiety or upset, block! Plenty of people are responsive if you ask them to tag an upsetting trigger. And if they’re dicks about it, block em.

[sugaroto]

I think I... kind of made some kids at school believe I'm adopted

So- a friend of mine turned 18 a while ago and he made a joke that as a legal adult he could adopt some of us

And today this was brought up again, adoption and all

And at some point I'm like... oh I'm having flashbacks

Of what?

I was in an orphanage once. ITS NOT WHAT YOU THINK

And then I said "Just to clarify I'm not adopted"

"Keep telling yourself that"

Like.... NOOOOOOOO

And the thing is there were 3 kids there that I don't know, like I just learned the one's name today and I have no idea what the boy's name is

Only my best friend understood what I was talking about

[sugaroto]

I've noticed recently that when I talk my friends aren't interested in what I have to say so I will shut up forever now

[sugaroto]

Years ago when I was in middle school I was in a movie club in which we would watch movies and then discuss them

And at some point we watched a movie where the main character had autism

When it ended the teacher asked us if we knew/had autistic persons in our life etc, you know the experience ✨

Now, my friend, who I used to be best friends with for many years (we now don't talk anymore but that's irrelevant) has a twin autistic brother

By the end of the movie she was obviously touched

I don't remember whether she was crying or holding back tears

But anyway

The teacher asks, "Do you know any autistic persons?"

Some say their cousins, their uncles etc and sharing experiences they had together or something

And this dude

"[Name]'s brother. We were in the same school"

Like. The audacity

I was so mad at him

Like my friend was obviously unwell and your experience with autistic people was her brother?

DUDE WAS NOT EVEN IN THE SAME CLASS AS US

Like we were what? 50 people in there? The 25 went to the same school, 15 or less in the same class

(forgot to clarify, her brother was in the same class with us throughout primary school and then went to a special school)

So like, half the people there knew about her brother, the half of the half had him as a classmate for 6 years and this dude who was in the ΣΤ2 class was like yes i know autistic people. Her brother

Like dude?? I sat with him daily on the bus for years when she had ολοήμερο and I wouldn't point him as an example he probably never even talked to him

Anyway the teacher then turned to my friend and asked if she wanted to share with the class, so she said a few things, I don't remember much, probably "yes, my twin brother is autistic, it's hard" or something at this point I think I just held her hand, or hugged her cause she was tearing up

But to this day I'm still mad at this random dude

25 people shared your experience of having him as a school mate, she shared the experience of being his twin you're not the same it's not your story to tell

[sugaroto]

People back in the day really did swap babies the same way I swapped stickers in primary school lol

Fr though story time

So great grandma A had like 7-8 kids and her bestie was like "A you have so many kids, and I have none. You don't need all of those why not give me one?" And great grandma A was like "yeh sure take the 5 year old baby. I have too many"

And my grandpa the one and oldest son who was around 13 was like NO YOURE NOT GIVING MY BABY SISTER AWAY

So after the whole adoption had been done he went and kidnapped the sister and brought her back home

They gave her back to the adoptive parents

He kidnapped her again

They gave her back

Eventually he realized there wasn't much he could do and gave up but forever felt guilty about it

Meanwhile baby sister never questioned why her name on the papers was M but everybody called her D she didn't know she was adopted and just assumed she had 2 names

It's a small village and they grew up as friends or something since the parents were already friends etc

People at school were calling her adopted but she thought it was just bullying or something

And when they were like 30-40 they were all dining together (maybe it was Christmas or something cause it was a big gathering from what I understood?) Or some celebration

And my drunk grandpa still feeling guilty about it held her hand at some point since she was sitting next to him

She thought it was weird, why was the priest and childhood friend holding her hand, he was married, she was married, they both had their families, that was a weird behavior

So she pulled her hand back thinking he was drunk and flirting

But he was drunk and feeling guilty for 30 years so he grabbed her hand again and said "you won't pull your hand back, because in our veins flows the same blood" (δεν θα τραβάς το χέρι σου από μένα, γιατί στις φλέβες μας ρέει το ίδιο αιμα) ...or wait, I think he said you're not supposed to be scared of me? Something like that

And that's how she learned she was adopted in a room full of people that probably knew and I think they told me she then run away from that house to find her adoptive parents (I assume) and ask for answers

And at some point my mom and her son were in school like "guess we're cousins now"

[sugaroto]

For a second I thought "Prometheus and Epimetheus as Philip and Caleb"

Like why?😭

If anything they remind me of Lolos and Frenimos from the story my grandma used to tell me when I was little

[sugaroto]

When I was younger I used to read the dork diaries and in one of the books there were like questions about yourself and stuff and one had a "letter to 18 year old you"

I'll be reading this letter in a few months

The thing is, I remember some of the stuff I wrote... I'm not sure how old I was but I was in primary school for sure

I think one of the things I wrote was like "is P still bothering you and T? No huh? You're still friends right?" And some things about that I guess, I'm not sure, bc you know me and T were BFFE

As you can guess, we dont talk anymore, me and T

And it's not like we stopped talking years ago, it's recent

And we would still be talking if things didn't go the way they did

I don't really miss her to be honest, I have better friends now. And I can't recognize the person she is now, I see her stories and her snaps. I don't know that person, the girl I knew is long gone

But I know once I open that letter, past me, so sure about our forever friendship is asking questions about her most important person

Hope I wrote other stuff too besides the 10-year-olds-friendship-drama we had bc I don't care about that tbh, hope past me wrote something worth it

[sugaroto]

I had a class and when we were about to finish the girl who had a class after us entered in her pajamas, robe and slippers

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Το mood της 3ης λυκείου βγαίνει προς τα έξω

Και μ το είχε πει η καθηγήτρια μ ότι πέρσι μπουκαραν κάτι μαθήτριες με φρουτοκρεμες και αρκουδάκια νμζ, γτ οι Πανελελε χτυπάνε λίγο αλλά η φιλενάδα έκανε το πιτζάμα ντέι νωρίτερα

Γκουντ φορ χερ

[sugaroto]

My mom had a haircut and it looks like mine now and I'm just like 👁👄👁huh

[sugaroto]

Today my friend was telling me something about Bungou stray dogs and I'm like hey this reminds me of a scene in that show in which a character was like "Hey alex can you fuck my tortoise" and my friend was like I need context- but Also I don't want to fucking know

And I tried to explain and they were like

You're just making it worse

And kinda shamed me cause what the fuck are you watching and then asked what the show was called and I'm like "it's misfits" and this mf goes like "I've seen it"

How dare you shaming me when we hang out in the same shit holes🤨

[sugaroto]

A beggar asked us for money yesterday and she started by calling my mom such a nice woman and wishing me to get married to a rich man

Like, yeah, thanks, kinda wish I could pass my exams but sure, a sugar hubby would solve most of my problems

But when the woman turned around my mom was like "you should've told her you'll marry a woman to see her reaction"

I'm not even out zhdhdhd

[sugaroto]

The power of the mothers-

So- when summer started my mom gave me my gloves which she had washed and told me to take them so I wouldn't lose them and start looking for then once it started being cold again (* they're finger-less and I was wearing them daily from like October- April)

So I put them in a box on my desk and kept them there-

But when I opened the box a few weeks ago cause my hands started getting cold I only found one, and anyways I put it in my bag and said I'll find the other some time later cause it has to be somewhere around here

Long story short I didn't found the other glove but in a few hours we're leaving with the ship and it'll be like 3am and that's fucking cold

So I started looking for it again

But I didn't want to ask my mom all this time cause she said "don't lose them"

But I was like:

-mom?

-....

-hey *searching into the drawer with my underwears*

-what?

-have you seen- Holy shit you found it

I know for a fact I didn't put it there... but the power of mothership helped me find it

[sugaroto]

Imagine getting called to the head teacher's office being accused for cigarettes, for him just to tell you "We're cousins" and τίνος είσαι εσύ?😭

Yall-

Ok so in the morning when I had a class in room 9 I found an old cigarette butt under my desk, and I was like "there's a cigarette here" and my teacher was like that's not yours? Who sits here during the rest of the day? (Cause my class only uses that room for 2 hours a day) and I'm like those 2 guys sit here (which I knew were sitting there cause one has been carving his name in the desk and the second one left his book under my seat the other day) but I was like "it doesn't mean, they're smoking it could be literally anyone else in the class + the teacher would have seen/smell them"

Anyways some hours later I'm sitting out and the teacher comes like "Sugar can you come with me,"

And like what the fuck does she need me for?

Does she need help with something? Probably not, she personally picked me yknow

And I'm like???

And she's like "the head teacher wants to see you, about what you saw in the morning" or something and the bell rings and I'm like -you know I have a class and all- right now?

And anyways, she informed the teacher I had a class with about it I guess and offered to come with me in the head teacher's office, she probably could see I was kinda panicking

And we go in, this mfing celebrity speaks to the phone of course, and the poor science teacher is sitting in the chair, -who knows for how long- and me and the teacher just stand in the corner like 🧍‍♀️🧍‍♀️

And after he's done with his call he's like "what did you saw in the morning?"

Me:"An old cigarette. "

Head teacher:"You don't smoke?"

Me: "No I don't-"

Teacher: "Sugar is a really good kid, I know she doesn't smoke-"

Head teacher: "I know she doesn't, because we're cousins!"

And then he changed the subject so fast asking me if I'm related to X guy who had the English classes and what relationship they have with [place head teacher is from] and I'm like "I don't know much about that side of the family, my mom raised me" like- my knowledge goes as far as recognizing he's talking about my grandfather from father's side, idk what relations they had with [his place]

And he's like "I know. What's your mom's last name?"

And im like "[last name]"

And then he had me explaining my whole family line😭

- Your mom is [that] priest's daughter?

-Yeah

-He has 3 daughters right?

-Yeah, 4 kids

-is your mom the oldest?

-no she's the second

-who is the oldest ?

-my aunt [1name]

-and the 3rd one?

-my aunt [2name]

- who works at [place]?! I know her, who's the 4th one then?

-my uncle he lives in [far]

-oh that's why I got confused, he has a son.

-You're also related to the guy who has the school canteen?

- in junior high school? I think so...

-he's a cousin of your mom?

- I think

- I have a class I need to leave now, (she realized this was a lost cause and I was safe😭)

-your aunt [1name] stil works there? She goes and help sometimes?

-no, that's not my aunt, my aunt works at [place] (my 48 year old aunt and the 70+ woman who had the school canteen have the same first and last name)

-oh the place with the salads?! (Like dude- they sell literally everything what the fuck do you mean salads, why are you so specific?)

Meanwhile after my teacher left I was also getting closer to the door, like 👁👄👁Ihaveaclassletmeleave yeah aunts😀

Btw the convo is little mixed up but before he started with my family line, he was like the cigarette could have fallen from the roof cause we had workers there like a month ago, and it could be old and all

And my teacher had come with me to support me cause she knows I don't smoke 💪

But then he started acting like an aunty and she was like yep I'm out

Meanwhile the physics teacher was there the whole time😭 waiting for the nonsense to end so he could finish his job or whatever

Anyways he sent kisses and love to my aunt #2 cause they work together there and to my mom too

So remember kids, if without your knowledge you're cousins with your head teacher, that means a)you're not smoking and that b) he sends a lot of kisses and love cause he works with politics stuff and needs voters loves your family

[sugaroto]

I had tutoring class and our teacher said something and my friend repeated it in a way as if she had said something funny and we just stared at her like "?Huh what's going on?" And then she was like nothing, it's something we say in our friend group, well mostly in my class

And anyways she explained and then kinda scolded me for not understanding the joke like "where have you been Sugar? You're not paying attention to the inside jokes" or something like that...

I mean.... has she realized I don't spend that much time with the group anymore?

Like, today I was trying to convince my (other) friend she was an angel, I wasn't paying attention to an inside joke of the '2 class

I mean ok I guess the joke was about the head teacher I could have heard it somewhere, I think I may have, I'm not sure, but the way she was like "You're not paying attention lately"

I mean, I don't hang out with all of them lately as I used to

And not in a bad way, like they didn't push me away or we had a fight, I just have been hanging out with 3 other kids and we kinda formed our own group I guess? At least 2 of them weren't friends with my other friends so we kinda... split?

Sometimes we might all hang around together, but not -together- you know what I mean?

I mean, I noticed I'm not that close with the friends I had last year, and I came closer with other people, have they not realized I drifted apart ?