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//Love causing psychic damage on the whole dash LOL
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[Ready for a new game?]
day 11 definitelynottober - heart in your fist & week 1 weeklyhermittober - beginnings
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IM SO READY LETSGO SO EXCITED FOR THE NEW LIFE SERIES💥💥💥💥💥💥
#definitelynottober#definitelynottober2024#weeklyhermittober#trafficblr#traffic smp#life series#grian#bdoubleo100#bigbst4tz2#ethoslab#geminitay#goodtimeswithscar#impulsesv#martyn inthelittlewood#ldshadowlady#mumbo jumbo#pearlescentmoon#ok not tagging the rest bc theyre so in the back JKASLDJAJAWHAH#but also#zombiecleo#my art#i suffered so much with this piece but i really liked the idea KLASJDKAUEUEHE#maybe ill polish it more later URGH THIS TOOK SO LONGGGGGG#me: ok i need to catch up im two days late#also me: life series all members GO#HOPE U GUYS LIKE IT LOL#i didnt mess up the day count and only just realized now KLSADKLUEHUEJ. AS U CAN TELL THIS PIECE FRIED MY BRAINNNNNNN#edit again i did not completely forget this is also for weeklyhermittober.... trust.......................... KASDUEUEUHGl
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at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"
like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.
"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."
... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.
and i'd still keep writing.
i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.
i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley
"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"
and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.
it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.
you create because you're greedy.
#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME#there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing#and the writing is what i need to be doing#writeblr#this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to#edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol#i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!!#my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means#i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her)#hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong#i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet.#i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse#i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!!#i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO#i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness#and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it#im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us#i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer#and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art.#i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work#even if it means being miserable#but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.
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Thanatos’s sprite being so intimidating with his scythe and his scowl and his pale eyes is actually so funny since it turns out he’s the most ridiculous character in the game and says shit like “what are we” and “i miss not feeling anything” and he gives you his little toy mouse that he’s just had in his pocket since he was a kid and his own mother confirms that he’s a category 1 yearner
#⚠️⚠️#he is a LOSER im so desperately in love with him I need to be put down for my own sake#and for everyone else’s sakes lol you have suffered enough of this#I can’t stop talking about him………………#hello……. help me………………….#I was playing again yesterday and was struck by how scary they make him look and how tsundere he is……….. oh god………..#(dragged off stage)#thanzag#hades game#thanatos hades
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#me: ive gotta read so fucking much by monday if i dont wanna look like a fucking idiot in my lab meeting monday#also me: if i dont draw maid sanji right fucking now im gonna puke#can u tell what my 2nd favorite shojo was in high school? many scenes still live rent free in my head#clannad was my 1st fave btw lol#also. god i kno i say this on every sanji post but i think abt him so much ever sing day#she is my absolute favorite babygirl. i hate him. i want her to suffer forever#female sanji#me in 2014: what if girl sanji? me in 2024: what if girl sanji???#vinsmoke sanji#sanji#roronoa zoro#zosan#one piece
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Character Sheet / Student ID
With the help of some cute Gremlins, I was able to create a Character Sheet / Student ID with different designs for each house for your Hogwarts (Legacy) OC/MC!
Please feel free to use it and share your character(s)! :3 💚💙💛❤️
#Hogwarts#Hogwarts Legacy#HLStudentID#StudentID#HLCharacterSheet#Character Sheet#Thank you everyone for your help#💚#Just a fun little project#that drove me insane sometimes#but this Kiwi loves to suffer#I think it turned out okay#It's not perfect#but okay#This Kiwi is satisfied#(not thanks to A CERTAIN KIWI SLURPING SAVAGE)#(THANK YOU VERY MUCH)#(FFS WHO EATS A KIWI LIKE THAT??)#(LEARN TO EAT YOUR FRUIT LIKE A NORMAL PERSON)#(Bobby would even share his favourite straw with you)#(Because Bobby really loves to suck the sweet juices)#(Bobby is really good at sucking)#(Bobby has a technique that keeps the fruit wet even if all the juices are gone)#(A true master of the moistness)#(Bobby just knows how to run his tongue all up and down a whole sp'kunk)#(Once Bobby starts taking out his flang-diddly to slam it in the flump it's nearly impossible to make him stop)#(When Bobby starts to grab your nootputs by the fleers you know it's over)#(for you)#(Bobby is just getting started Darling)#(Were you expecting me to hold back with my tags for this? lol)
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i like to associate kabru with mushrooms...
#to me they are symbolic of his suffering#dungeon meshi#kabru#mithrun#kabumisu#is the ship name apparently can't say i'm a fan of the name but oh well lol tags be upon ye#art
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two sides of the same coin
#itadori yuuji#ryomen sukuna#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#my art#jujutsu kaisen fanart#brainrot incoming (pls don’t mind me)#one thing sukuna and yuuji have in common is that they’re both absolutely miserable#sukuna is utterly selfish and yet it only made him hollow inside and now he’s just killing time waiting for death to come#yuuji is completely selfless and yet it’s only made him suffer and bc of that he’s been constantly trying to check out of life#and I think the funniest but also the most painful thing about these two is that…#despite that they’re vastly opposite they might be the only people that can understand each other the most#imagine them having a heart to heart lol maybe then they would realise some things about themselves
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The Pale Elf
#astarion#bg3#bg3 fanart#astarion fanart#ive never ascended him and i dont think i ever will because i cant see him suffer like that#but ive def seen the videos on yt and bro...my heart#but also...on your knees quote might make me risk it all lol#baldurs gate fanart#baldur's gate 3#ascended astarion#gonna rant about how cool i think it is that you need to roll fairly high in order to convince him to not ascend#like the guy is ANGRY...of course it takes a lot of work to convince him to not choose the power#i love how larian wrote him--honestly constantly thinking about it every day
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Jealousy, Jealousy
#friend jealousy is a BITCH and i think kei would definitely suffer from it#he made one (1) friend in elementary school and decided it was enough for one lifetime#but now theyre in HS and tadashi is a lot more out of his shell than he previously was and oh look :) now hes making more friends#i just KNOW it eats kei up. watching his best friend laugh with other people.#i think this would be the first time too which is why its a particularly big blow like#for so long its been him and tadashi that this was never a concern#so now he doesnt know how to manage this ugly emotion#definitely see him get snappier with hinata and kageyana#goes unnoticed tho because he usually tends to be an ass to them anyway#Man.#SIGH.#this came to me in a vision and i made myself upset so LOL. Releases this to the wild yaay…#haikyuu#haikyuu!!#tsukishima kei#yamaguchi tadashi#queerplatonic if you understand the workd#tsukkiyama#hq#lots to the read in the tags lol sorry…
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💖 Caption this
#fnf#friday night funkin#friday night funkin fanart#fnf fanart#fnf girlfriend#fnf boyfriend#fnf gf#fnf bf#friday night funkin girlfriend#friday night funkin boyfriend#bf x gf#boyfriend x girlfriend#do they have a ship name?#oomfie said one iirc#blueberry#that's cute tho#my mind has been full of ship art ideas idk why#BOYFRIEND N GIRLFRIEND MY BELOVEDS#They're so dumb but they also love eachother trust me#we're so back with bright colors#i think so lol#can you believe the bg took longer than the drawing itself#i like to make me suffer#i could easily do a simple colores bg but my ass cant do that it feels illegal#ANYWAYS#exploding y'all with my mind#now gotta kms#yayyy :3#epicexplosion#KurokkePostingLol
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never change, man !
#phantom of the paradise#potp#swan potp#nightmaretheater#65 layers and about 24 hours . Eeeyyuppp#Look into my beautiful mind boy#Its a bit unusual to what i usually draw#but i had to push a specific look for this piece#hopefully you all are picking up on the corperate look . the advertisment look#Sneeze. Anyways my point is industry destroys creative people. This includes swan#I feel like phrases like these ; how he was put on a pedistal…. it lead him to be Like That#as awful as he is he desperately needed help#it might seem like vanity on the surface#but i think its… more than that#long story short: we need to destroy the beauty industry. the skincare industry. the anti-aging industry#It ruined his psyche forever and he cant let go of the ideal version of himself he will never truly be again#i dont think he can at this point. hes in too deep and hes suffering for it no matter how much he feels hes fixed his problems#he cant accept a version of himself that isnt that perfect young man. because he never confronted his problems. he just ran away#anyways . Hi swath *punches him**kicks him*#i dont care if nobody gets me lalalalla my truths and headcanons are awesome forever and i live in my own reality lallaallal#sorry i think im gonna be posting about swan alot for a few months hes making me sick#i wass gonna post this earlier but my internet was real bad#*lays down in my pile of pillows* eat up boys. haha#sidenote: drawing white blond people is horrifiying. Boy your skin and hair are the same color. Introduce some contrast to yourself. Please#adding on: its inportant to note this focuses on him looking st himself in the mirror alot on purpouse#to remind himself what he ‘’’’really’’’’ looks like#the 4 middle pannels all represent that too . u have to be in my brain ri get this#sorry for unleashijg another swan essay in my tags. will happen again lol
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Things I learned from Encyclopedia Eorzea III
Do with this what you will, ffxiv fandom.
G'raha and the tower appeared about 15 years after the Flood of Light. Ardbert and team were all already dead. "Our" Minfilia had already dissipated.
At the time, he looked like his normal self. He is described as a Mystel dressed as a mage, so we can assume people knew he was a "Mystel" at the time, vs. later when his appearance is only speculative.
A bunch of refugees clamored to the Crystal Tower when it appeared. He said yeah you can hang out here, the tower defenses will keep you safe.
And then fucked off for 4 years to survey the damage of the Flood of Light.
When he got back he knew shit was really fucked and ASAP started trying to figure out how the hell to get the WoL over for pizza
At some point he figures out he needed to address the WoL verbally for some reason for the summoning to work properly???
It doesn't.
He decides this shit is gonna take 5ever and I'm already having a quarter life crisis. I'm going to bind my aether to the tower. It's the one secret anti-aging trick that has doctors PISSED
It'll be great, like, he'll almost never age.
Downside, his body slowly becomes necrotic with crystal.
More time lost because he has to use aether to discretely animate his crystallized limbs and digits to keep their use.
At some point, early Crystarium dwellers get tired of asking him for his name (he won't give it) and him rejecting the crown they offer him so they start calling him the Crystal Exarch.
Exarch says OK and wheels out some Allagan nodes to help build what would become the Crystarium. Go ham, guys.
Since no one really recalls what the Exarch looks like in present day, G'raha likely began wearing a cowl after returning from traveling Norvrandt, or when his body begins to change. Those who remember are likely dead (age or sineaters) or sworn to secrecy.
The developing crystal, which he did his best to hide, prevented him from truly connecting with the others.
Sometime after this, an infant Lyna falls into his care.
Well technically the Settlement Council (because he was like hey let's have a representative government [not because I grew up in one or anything!]! I'll just be over here.)
But he was very involved in her upbringing.
Probably because he was close friends with her parents.
Who die tragically while serving in the Crystarium guard (Meaning that the guard is at least 30 years old, likely more, as her parents were known to have served in the guard since inception basically and Lyna is 33 in SHB)
G'raha was probably in his mid-eighties at this point, judging by Lyna's age in SHB (33) and that we know G'raha had the Crystal Exarch title for 9 decades + the 24 years he had lived before he entered the tower. (He is likely slightly older due to the intervening time between being awakened in the Bad Timeline and heading to the First.)
He FINALLY gets summoning to work something like 90 years later!!!!! Except it still doesn't! Five years before he could nab the WoL, he nabbed Thancred instead (oops). It took another 2 years for it to successfully transport a soul again.
#g'raha tia#crystal exarch#ffxiv#I wrote this at 1 a.m. in the morning#as you can see it quickly devolved into my own voice and 0 self control lol#but I didn't make it up#Fandom you better make me suffer with this information I give you#shadowbringers spoilers#encyclopedia eorzea
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i LOVE how they had lucy react to feral ghouls three separate times: the first when coop shot/mercy killed roger and she was dismayed, the second when she released a bunch and was forced to put them down when they attacked her and everyone else, and the third when she herself shot/mercy killed her mother.
it's just such a succinct way to showcase how her actions are changing in accordance with what she's learning about the world she finds herself in and how survive inside it, but that these new actions are still ultimately revolving around her own goodness. will be interesting to see how much of that transfers onto coop vs how much of his jadedness ends up affecting her own ethics.
#i enjoyed this show! it was borderline gory for me but still on the sufferable side of it lol#rei rambles#fallout spoilers#fallout 2024 spoilers#fallout#fallout 2024#lucy maclean#fallout tv
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I love that this series of shots looks like Zayne is so freaking done with MC he doesn't even know what to do with himself
Like this poor man has suffered a million lifetimes for her and she's over here eating all his fucking cookies. The audacity 🍪
#love and deepspace#love & deepspace#zayne love and deepspace#zayne#l&ds#lads#li shen#love and deep space#this poor man has suffered so much#wont someone think of his feelings lol#or his fillings rather lmao#astra give me strength to resist the urge to slap anyone who touches my food#beloved or not#kay's edits
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i was watching ahsoka and noticed she has three head tails and i was like, "it's like mitsuri's three braids!" and then it... snowballed. a lot. 😂 so here are some of my kny faves in a star wars au!
may the force be with you 😎
#kny#kny fanart#demon slayer fanart#demon slayer#kimetsu no yaiba#akaza#rengoku kyojuro#renkaza#akaren#hashibira inosuke#kanroji mitsuri#shinazugawa sanemi#shinazugawa genya#inosuke hashibira#mitsuri kanroji#sanemi shinazugawa#genya shinazugawa#gyomei himejima#akaza suffering in his completely body-covering leather black inquisitor uniform makes me laugh lol#i can just imagine the amount of complaining he does hearing the leather squeak when he goes into a deep backstance for a fight#anyways after their fight kyo acquires an empire pest that somehow keeps finding him and asking for a fight#and eventually kyo finds out that akaza actually tries his best to spare people when he can and mostly just goes looking for good fights#and THEN he finds out akaza's suffering from some sort of amnesia? and he uncovers a memory manipulation scheme that akaza#and even the sixth and seventh siblings of the inquisitorius are being put through and ah now he feels obligated to Do Something#and falls in love with akaza along the way lmao
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