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Such sweet sorrow chapter four is here
For the first time, Armand’s plush, homely apartment is cloying and claustrophobic. He finishes his coffee standing upright at the counter, before abandoning his mug in the sink. His thoughts feel like radio waves, broadcast on all frequencies, a dangerous jumble of static. He expects Armand to stop him at the door, or arrest him outside the apartment, cold fingers tightening around his spasming wrist—but he emerges into the daylight alone, the last remnants of a pink dawn sunrise smudged against the sky. Even after only a few days, the shallow warmth against his skin is oddly unfamiliar.
post season 2, old man mortal Daniel, set in Paris
#devil's minion#armandaniel#devil's minion fic#armandaniel fic#such sweet sorrow#i am SO sorry for the delay
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"Fight for the Future"
Near the homeworld of the Xahean people, the USS Discovery and USS Enterprise engage a fleet of Section 31 vessels to save the future of their galaxy. Hijacked by their AI - Control - the Section 31 ships are armed with thousands of automated attack drones, running interference for their motherships, while Starfleet auxiliary craft do the same for the Enterprise and Discovery. Retrofit Class C shuttles and modified single-pilot landing pods with armed with phaser cannons are launched from Discovery, while Enterprise dispatches hundreds of two-seater tactical flyers.
#star trek#fanart#3d render#3d#3d art#starship#star trek discovery#section 31#artwork#uss enterprise#uss discovery#control#blender render#blender3d#blender#discovery#star trek dsc#red angel#such sweet sorrow#3d artwork#fan art#xahea#class c shuttle#spaceship#star trek starships#scifiart#scifi#battle#spacebattle#starfleet
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I love the crew farewell letters. It just makes me want to learn more about these characters.
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Alas, this beautiful dream could not last.
#dungeon meshi#falin touden#dungeon meshi spoilers#better drawn mdzs#(<- my higher effort art tag. I need to get a new one.) While it's different from my usual style I really loved how this came out!#Strolling back to the art scene to remind everyone I am still a lover of botanicals.#I had a blast with the symbolism for this one:#White lilium longiflorum (easter lily) for rebirth. Purple hyacinthus orientalis for sorrow and forgiveness.#Red spider lily (Lycoris radiata) for loss and death.#'Rebirth into something new' is so well done in Dungeon Meshi. She is back but she is not the same.#The last few episodes/chapters gives her this dreamy quality to her. As if she's not quite real. She's so perfect in their memories.#And as we know of dreams - no matter how sweet- they must end once we wake up.#It is so painful to lose someone twice. To see someone you loved in a dream and wake up and remember that loss again.#Dungeon Meshi being a grief allegory is important to me. I'll explain more as the story continues B'*)
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SWEET SORROW OF EVIL … series (21+)
CHAPTER ONE : ALL HAIL THE QUEEN | M.LIST
pairing : ateez x evil queen!f!reader
genre : mature, fantasy au, royalty au, angst, eventually poly relationship, dark
word count : 3.7k
warnings : language, ostracized (from family), kidnapping, weapons, murder / death, blood / body gore
co-author : @sanjoongie !!
she rules her kingdom well, sitting upon her throne, but what is a queen without her trusted advisor? what is a queen without making sure the rats stay in line? surely, even the queen has secrets that make her the most cursed of all.
You never understood why your siblings saw you as a threat. You, a simple child and youngest to the throne. And really... you'll probably never understand why, especially your sister. You can vividly remember her scowl that she always wore when looking at you.
She was always such a pretty girl, if it wasn't for that scowl and ugly attitude she had. You think she gets it from your parents.
"Ugh, get away from us, y/n! We don't want you near us!" your sister shouted before she harshly shoved you away from her and your brother. You let out a small grunt as you fell to the ground. The palms of your hands scraping against the dirt and uprooted tree roots.
"But why can't I play with you guys? You never let me play!" you wanted to know why your siblings pushed you away just like your parents.
Your sister let out an annoyed sound, like you should already know the answer for why she didn't want you around, "Because you're nothing but a freak. A monster," she answers as she crosses her arms.
You felt like shrinking away from her harsh stare. You wanted to disappear so you didn't have to hear her harsh words again. Carefully, you stood up and brushed your dress off. The palms burned from the scrapes from your fall, but you pushed the pain to the back of your mind.
"Mother and father should have just gotten rid of you, you bring nothing but shame to our family," she says and you feel the tears beginning to sting your eyes as they form at your waterline. No, you can't cry, don't let her see you cry.
You can't help but look towards your brother. He said nothing throughout all of this, just remained silent by your sister's side. Watching as she and your parents berate you. You could see he was conflicted about how they always talked down to you, but he never said anything. You hated how he was a coward like that.
"Why are you always so mean to me? You're supposed to be my big sister and care about me, not call me mean names!" You tell her and you see her look at you with surprise for a moment before her usual frown paints her face again.
She lets out another annoyed tsk before she's walking up to you, bending down slightly to meet your height. "Why would I care about a monster like you? You're nothing but a curse that stains this family."
You couldn't help the sudden rush of anger that flows through you. It all happened so fast with your sister's words continuously stabbing at your heart and your brother's pitiful stare. It was all too much.
So you shoved your sister harshly away from you and as hard as your ten-year-old body could muster. This sudden action took your sister off guard as she stumbled back several steps before falling to the ground. Her movements mimic yours from moments ago.
You also noted the loud tearing sound that accompanied her fall and all three of you noticed the large tear that appeared in her dress. You didn't have to say anything as your sister's screaming overpowered anything that you would have said.
"You fucking freak! You ripped my new dress!" Her shrill screams made you flinch and you noticed from the corner of your eye that your brother did the same thing.
"What in the world is going on here?" you felt a chill run down your spine as the sound of your mother's voice. Your blood ran cold knowing that this wasn't going to end well for you now that she was here. She would immediately believe what your sister said, because even though her words hurt, you would always be seen as a monster to your mother.
"Y/n ripped my new dress mother!" Your sister said, eyes immediately brimming with large tears. Fake, they were fake tears, yet they fooled your mother.
"What?" Your mother gasped looking at your sister with worry and then turned to you with a harsh scowl. Your sister is the spitting image of your mother. "How dare you rip your sister's dress! Who do you think you are?"
"B-but I didn't–
"Shut up!" She cuts you off with her loud voice and it makes you shrink away and into yourself. You hated yourself for being so afraid of her, but you had no other choice but to submit to her. She was more powerful than you and you knew what would happen if you disobeyed her. "Get out of my sight, child, before I punish you."
You didn't waste any time in turning on your heel and running in whatever direction would get you the furthest from your family. Tears filled your vision as you ran, making everything around you blurry and hard to see and before you knew it, you were lost. Lost in the garden maze with stinging palms and burning tears.
Rubbing your tears away, you took a deep breath before you made your way over to the stone bench that was nearby. Now alone, you couldn't help the thoughts that poured into your brain. You never understood why your family hated you, calling you a monster even though you have done nothing.
It just didn't make sense.
"Y/n!" you raised your head at the sound of your name. The voice brings a familiar feeling to your body as you feel your heart skip a beat. "Y/n! Princess!"
"Jongho!" you called back, hopping off the bench and walking towards the sound of your friend's voice.
Suddenly you felt an embrace wrap around you. Jongho held you as tightly as he could, his arms squeezing you and comforting you. The embrace felt nice and warm and you felt yourself tear up knowing that Jongho was here with you.
"Y/n, are you okay?" He asks when he steps away from you, just enough to look over you before he notices your scratched up palms. "Your hands," he gasps as he takes them within his own, "we have to get them treated!"
"What's the point, Jongho?"
"The point? Y/n, you're injured and need to be treated," he says, why does he sound so mature for his young age.
"When did you get so serious sounding, Jongho?"
"Since I decided that I will be the protector of your heart," he says, his face the most serious you have ever seen it. You couldn't help but crack a smile at his words, "Don't laugh! I'm serious!"
"Sorry, sorry," you say, still laughing, but you're suddenly cut off by Jongho hugging you again.
"I mean it. I promise you will never cry like this again. Not by your family and not by anyone else."
"Thank you, Jongho."
“Y/n, are you listening?” the sound of Jongho’s voice cuts through your thoughts and brings you back to the present. You let out a sigh before you’re straightening yourself up on your throne. Your eyes settle on Jongho and the line of councilmen before the two of you.
“What did you say?”
Jongho sends you a curt look before brushing off some invisible dust as he speaks again, “we wanted to discuss dates for your upcoming coronation.”
“Coronation? Jongho, I do not need something silly and insignificant like a coronation when I am already queen.”
“But your highness,” a councilman says before shrinking a little under your stare, “i-it is mandatory for the new ruler to have a coronation for it to be made official.”
“Are you saying that I am not officially queen, councilman?”
“N-no, that’s not what he’s saying at all, your highness!” another one spoke up trying to save his fellow councilman and friend.
“What they are trying to say is that a coronation would make it more official, your highness. Let the country and all the other ones know that there is a new and better ruler for Illimité,” Jongho says, finally stepping in and not wanting the councilmen to it up more than they already have. He internally rolled his eyes at how they were basically shaking in their boots in front of you.
“I still don’t think it’s necessary,” you say, crossing your arms and leaning further back into the plush cushions of your throne. You note it had to be replaced after… that night. Which is probably for the better since this throne is a lot more comfortable than the original one your father and ancestors had previously.
“But think about it, my queen,” Jongho says, leaning closer to you so all your attention becomes immediately focused on him. His scent of paper and ink fills your nostrils and brings a calming presence in the otherwise tense throne room. “By sending invitations out, we can see who really supports you as Illimité’s queen.”
“Oh?” Jongho sees the gears begin to turn in your head, and he knows that he’s got you. “Well… I mean when you put it that way, I guess having a coronation wouldn’t be so bad. But make the responses mandatory! Anyone who doesn’t respond within a week we will pay some personal visits to.”
Jongho lets out a chuckle at your words, “of course, my queen.” He then turns to the awaiting councilmen, all still wide-eyed and waiting for either him or you to give a command. “Begin making the invitations for the queen’s coronation.”
The councilmen all bow before turning and filing out of the throne room, muttering to themselves and you find yourself letting your thoughts consume you once again.
All you could hear was your ragged breathing. You couldn't decide if it was because of your anger or your heartache. You tried to breath through your mouth because if you breathed through your nose, you were sure you were going to throw up.
The only thing that brought you back to reality was a commotion outside of the doors that your magic had kept shut. It was muffled at first, voices getting louder and louder, until finally one clear voice cut through everything.
“Y/N!” Jongho cried through the door. “Let me in, let me see her!”
“We are not the ones keeping the doors closed, young Lord Choi,” a guard said on the other side.
You took a shaky step towards the doors, which felt like they were a million miles away, and then another. You slipped and yelped as you crashed into something slimy and foul smelling. You gagged and cried out, throwing it away from you.
“Y/N! What’s going on? I can help! Let me in,” Jongho cajoled from the other side of the door.
“Jong-jongho,” You cried out pitifully, “You can’t.”
“Please y/n, please,” Jongho begged, “It’s my duty.”
Your hands slipped in pools of blood as you attempted to stand up again. “Your duty is to a monster!” You screamed back.
You had just murdered your entire family. Part was planned, but part was by accident. If only--! You couldn't risk Jongho, you’d never risk Jongho. You’d stay in this nightmare of a throne room for the rest of your life if that meant you kept Jongho safe.
“You’d never hurt me, y/n,” Jongho shouted, “You and I both know that. Now let me in!”
“Jongho…” You weren’t sure if the wetness moving down your face was blood or tears.
“I command it!” Jongho said courageously, although his voice sounded like he was worried, “I’m in charge of your heart so you have to listen to me, remember!”
Somehow you managed to stand up, stumble towards the large doors but couldn't pull them open; they were too large for you, especially covered in blood… “I can’t, Jongho,” You sobbed through the door, “I can’t!”
Jongho breathed in and out, his voice still coming from the seam of the doors. “You can do it. I believe in you. I’ll always believe in you, Y/N.”
You closed your eyes and pressed your forehead to the seam. You imagined Jongho coming through the doors, the wide, gummy smile taking up most of his face. He was your constant in a dark world alone. You needed light in this darkness right now.
You backed up and threw your hands up. You imagined the doors opening and then with a groan, they did. You blinked and threw up a hand to shield your eyes from the stark light. Then something hit you.
“Y/N!”
Jongho embraced you in a hug that felt like it broke your ribs but it was so genuine, so full of worry and love, that you accepted it and prayed that the monster side of you wouldn’t see it as a threat. Then, just as fast as he was on you, he put you at arm's length, eyes moving along your body, but there was too much blood to tell if you were actually harmed.
“We have to get you in the bath immediately!” Jongho informed you with a frown.
You laughed bitterly. “I don’t think a bath is going to wash this all away, Jongho.”
Jongho’s frown eased as he sensed the underlying words in your sentence. “The only thing that needs to be washed away is the blood. You are the queen, after all.”
“You are the queen, after all.”
You shook your head to dispel your old memories. Something about today had really made you contemplative of what you’ve got through. Perhaps it was Jongho, who’s own life was so interlaced with your own.
“I suspect that there are some that still see me as the sickly child that they only heard of,” You mused, eyes still on the rolling hills that sped by.
Jongho’s lips pushed out and his eyebrows furrowed. “That was a lifetime ago. Even I practically can’t remember…” His words trailed off as he saw you hold your hands up, flipping them up and down.
Immediately, he grabbed them. “They’re clean, y/n. Even if they were covered in blood, they’re still clean.”
You sent Jongho a brief smile and then allowed your mantle of royalty slip back on. Your back straightened, your shoulders were back, and your chin up high. “Let’s hope Lady Danvers sees the blood.”
“That is, if she can spare a few thoughts for anything other than her dogs,” Jongho muttered under his breath.
“Perhaps that’s why she did not respond,” You mused, Jongho slowly but surely pulling you from your contemplative mood. “One of the doggos ate--”
A resounding boom that sounded nothing like thunder echoed through the carriage, halting your words.
“What in the nine hells was that?” Jongho demanded.
He stuck his head out the window but when you heard a scream, you grabbed a fistful of his jacket and pulled him back in. “Let the guards do their job,” You hissed.
Riders whipped by and soon the carriage was slowed down. You gathered your magic around you, about to inflict walking nightmares on whomever dared attack you, when an arm shot through the windows on Jongho’s side and a knife appeared pointer at his neck.
“One wrong move and I slit his throat,” the bandit growled.
You felt all your magic drain from you, and all the blood from your face. You held up your hands in an act of showing you offered no harm, hoping nothing would happen to Jongho.
“I'll do as you say.”
“Slowly now, old chap,” the bandit instructed.
Jongho stepped out of the carriage and all you could focus on was the knife at Jongho’s throat. You hadn't felt this helpless since before your family’s murder.
“You're going to deliver ten chests full of gold and jewels,” Another bandit said, drawing your attention. “We'll keep your advisor hostage until we receive our dues. Then, we'll give him back to you once we've carted away our treasure.”
“Alive,” You snarled.
“Alive, aye,” the bandit agreed. “So long as you don't follow us and try to murder us, your advisor will remain on this plane.”
Jongho began to struggle in the bandit’s grasp. “It's a trap, Your Majesty! They want you to appear weak. Kill them! Kill them all!”
You had to use all your control to not retaliate as blood appeared at Jongho’s neck. “Shut up and do as they say, Jongho.”
Jongho stopped at your command but his eyes burned still with suppressed anger on your behalf. Jongho would do whatever it took to uphold your image as the queen in control… even if that meant sacrificing himself in the process.
But you would never allow that.
“I will bring you all that you deserve,” You vowed. “And you will return to me what is mine.”
Jongho's face became pink when your words sunk in. Good. Then perhaps he would truly understand that he was NEVER expendable.
“Until then.” The bandit swept his floppy hat in a bow and the other dragged Jongho backwards, fading into the forest around the dirt road you had been travelling along.
“Your Majesty,” One of your guards approached, wincing at a wound at his side. “Are you truly going to give into their demands?”
“Of course not,” You replied simply. “But I will require you all to go back to the castle.”
“But--”
You held up a hand. “Leave two horses, that is all I need. But you will follow my commands to the letter. You’re not going to be very good guards if you die.”
The soldier saluted by pounding a fist over his heart and then he started to order the other’s to gather the injured and to leave two horses.
Once they were all cleared out, you grabbed the reins of the horses and led them into the forest, following the bath of the bandits. It wasn’t hard; they left the forest a mess with broken branches and sliced foliage. Halfway you secured the horses to a low hanging branch and then began to discard your clothes.
It was time to pull out your ultimate trump card: changing into the beast form you had been cursed with at birth.
You bent to all fours on the ground, holding in your screams as your body transformed into a shape that was completely opposite of your human form. Your arms and legs elongated, as did your head. Your teeth became sharp and your human thoughts pushed to the back. You needed the animalistic brain to come to the forefront if you were to accomplish your task.
Once your cursed beast form was complete, you began to gallop the rest of the way. Your nostrils flared and you followed the scent of your prey now. Saliva began to drip from your lips. A red mist spread over your eyes, with only one purpose in mind: to kill.
The first bandit didn’t see you coming. You simply impaled him on your horn with your head held low as you charged. You tossed his body to the side and he screamed. Other bandits stood up, unsheathing their swords at the first glimpse of attack. But quickly more were screaming.
“It’s a monster!” One man yelled.
“Stand your ground,” the bandit in charge bellowed.
But who had the nerve to stand in front of a raging, black unicorn?
You slaughtered the entire camp, almost as if you were creating the throne room after the christening of your powers. Blood sprayed the ground and the trees. Entrails and limbs were cast about as if macabre decorations. Not a soul was left alive, other than Jongho, of course.
You carefully, cautiously walked towards Jongho, flanks shaking, and hot air escaping your nostrils in plumes of smoke. Your hoof pawed at the dirt right in front of him. Your monster brain knew he was important but your bloodthirst was barely simmering down.
“Y/N,” Jongho said softly, his hand level with the bridge of your nose.
You whinied and shook your head. Some of your mane was matted with the blood of your prey. But you held still, waiting to see what he would do with that hand.
“You’re beautiful,” Jongho said, awe coating his voice.
The hand landed on your nose and you allowed him to pet you and praise you.
Slowly, but surely, as Jongho cooed at you, your bloodlust faded and your body shrunk back into your woman form.
You curled into yourself, shivering in the cool air. Jongho immediately removed his jacket and draped it over your form. You sat up and adjusted the jacket to sit on your shoulders.
“Y/N, look at me,” Jongho commanded.
“We should get back to the horses,” You said gruffly.
“My queen.”
Your eyes finally shot up and met Jongho’s defiantly. “What, Jongho?”
“Thank you,” Jongho said simply.
You looked away, unable to handle any other emotion other than retribution right now. You could not afford to become soft when you had nobles to interrogate in where their loyalties lay. That had been the whole point to this trip, after all.
Instead, you replied with. “Take care of my heart. I won’t be needing it for the time being.”
Jongho nodded astutely, reading between the lines. “Of course, my queen.”
Not once did Jongho insist that he carry you back to the horses and that is why he was the constant in your life. Jongho knew exactly when you needed him and exactly when he needed to step back and let you be the strong queen he knew you were.
“May I suggest something?” Jongho asked after you had donned your clothes.
“That is your job,” You mused.
“We were to visit Lady Danvers and then Duke Foix. I know you planned on using all the pomp and circumstance of your army to arrive and show your queenly-ness, but I think arriving ahead of the appointed hour might allow us some insights to what exactly these nobles are doing,” Jongho laid out for you.
You mocked a gasp. “Why Counselor Choi, one would assume you are thinking of the very worst in Duke Foix’s case.”
A small, tiny, conspiratory smile pulled at Jongho’s lips. “Perhaps.”
“I suppose I could take this piece of advice under consideration,” You replied, flipping your hair over your shoulder. “I am the Queen after all. All that’s required is my mere presence and my subjects should be impressed.”
“Precisely,” Jongho agreed, his smile becoming wider as your ego inflated bigger.
“Then we shall sneak across the border, into Duke Foix’s duchy, and see exactly what that old fox is up to,” You announced.
“As you wish, Your Majesty,” Jongho bowed formally and then swung his leg around to mount his horse. “To the Duchy of Foix.”
#sweet sorrow of evil.#lapydiariesnet#cromernet#ateez jongho x reader#ateez x reader#poly ateez x reader#ateez blurbs#ateez imagines#ateez angst#ateez fantasy au#ateez royal au#ateez scenarios
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As Astarion regains his autonomy, he learns to love all the things his body can do, both for others and for himself.
His elegant hands work needle and thread with ease. He's embroidered nearly every article of clothing he owns. And maybe if you ask nicely, he'll add some much needed embellishment to yours, too.
Can't open that locked chest? Don't worry, darling, he's on it. His nimble fingers make quick work of it. He plays it off as no big deal, but secretly likes it when you praise him for his efforts. Or, he makes a gigantic deal of your praise in the most obnoxious way possible, but deep down, he truly does appreciate it.
His silver tongue can draw from you the most sumptuous moans and the sweetest blushes, but also the most jubilant of laughter. He prides himself on his quick wit and is delighted when you provide him with the sustenance of banter.
He's lithe and swift. He can dodge volleys of arrows fired at him, deftly roll out of harms way, or dexterously slip from the grasp of his captors. He's a master with a dagger and bow. Watch him take down foes, left and right. He's strong. He can lift boxes, crates, barrels, you name it. Need help lifting something? Astarion can certainly assist (but not without some amount of whining).
His voice can be soft and sultry, like when he's reading poetry to you under flickering candlelight. It can be strong and commanding when he's defending himself or you. Firm when he needs to advocate for himself. You remind him to always advocate for himself, a notion he's only recently started to take to heart.
His eyes are keen. They can see in the shadows with utmost precision. He's observant, something he's had to be in order to survive. His excellent eyesight has come in handy many a time over the course of your journey.
He likes that his nose can pick up the scent of blood from a mile away. He likes how precise his sense of smell is when it comes to differentiating blood. He likes that his ears can pick up the faintest sounds. Centuries of living in darkness, of having to sneak about have helped him hone his senses.
He likes the way he can feel delightful tingles coursing through his veins when you run your fingers through his fine, silver hair. He likes the way the fine strands of snowy white curl over his forehead, tickle his skin when a breeze lifts them.
He likes the way you describe him. It's been so long since he's seen himself in a mirror, but your verbal (or literal) illustrations of him will suffice. He's edges and angles. Paleness, crimson, and silver. Ethereal. He's pretty and he knows it, but sometimes, the reassurance is much appreciated. Much needed.
Astarion likes that he can bring you pleasure. He likes that he can feel pleasure all his own when he's with you. He doesn't have to use his body to ensure his own safety. To guarantee that you won't harm or betray him. He likes that you don't ask him to do anything he doesn't want to.
Astarion loves his body. He loves how strong it is. How swift, how fragile, how durable it is. He loves how hard it works for him. Astarion's body is his and his alone, and he loves this.
#astarion#astarion baldurs gate#baldurs gate 3#bg3#astarion bg3#bodily autonomy#astarion headcanons#i love everything about his story arc#i love that he is on a journey to regain his bodily autonomy#his story is so very sorrowful and wonderful#i adore astarion#baldurs gate spoilers#astarion spoilers#he deserves softness and goodness and sweetness#everything he’s missed out on#he deserves gentility and peace#astarion x you#astarion x tav
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woke up from a dead sleep last night realizing I could make soroku flavored pitch pearl and no one could stop me
edit: you know what? I'm feral and I won't apologize. more under the cut bc this is my house
I slammed this out all at once so I apologize for the quality but I'm having EMOTIONS
so imagine. bc of the way Danny was quickly resuscitated, his ghost only barely started forming. With the excess blast of ectoplasm from the portal being created, that little whisp was given form even after Danny's soul returned to his body.
except this ghost (Phantom) slowly comes into consciousness while trapped in Danny's body. they're separate entities sharing one body, but Phantom doesn't really have a sense of self right away. he pieces together vague fragments of Danny's memory to get a basic understanding of the world, and is mostly just observing like a backseat passenger.
Phantom starts reflexively protecting Danny, his powers and instincts bleeding through when his emotions are high. Danny doesn't really transform, and his personality doesn't totally shift that much at first because Phantom’s mind isn't complex yet. but as time goes on, and Danny has tense conversations with ghosts, Phantom realizes that's what he is. he's a ghost, somehow trapped in his old body. and even now, this early on, he already feels separate. he doesn't have all the memories Danny has.
this slowly turns into horror. into rage. sorrow, mourning a life he never got and will never get to have. forever trapped behind the eyes of someone else, never able to interact with the world. Phantom's rage eventually boils over until it allows him short bursts of taking over Danny's body. it starts out small–a stray hand moving without his consent, knees locking up, ghost abilities going awry. Danny can start feeling emotions that don't belong to him. get vague impressions, almost hears a voice inside him.
and eventually, Phantom is able to fully take over. this is when Danny “transforms". at first, Danny blacks out because his consciousness isn't used to being shoved into the back seat. but eventually, he's awake for these “episodes", trapped in the back of his mind while Phantom controls his body. this only happens when ghost stuff is happening, when Phantom feels threatened enough. he's not protecting Danny, he's protecting himself. Phantom knows instinctively that if Danny dies, he dies too. he's not a normal ghost, he wouldn't be freed. he'd simply disappear.
at one point after a fight, Phantom can feel Danny struggling to take back control. and he talks to Danny for the first time, acknowledges he's there. asks how it's fair that Danny is the one that gets to exist. but Phantom is tired and weak, he slips back into the passenger seat.
over the next few days, he's able to start talking to Danny even while he's not driving. though he's not chatty, it's only when necessary. and Danny knows, can feel it across the link between them–Phantom hates him. the ghost he created is desperate to find a way to take over completely. and as time goes on, Danny realizes with horror that it might actually be possible for Phantom to do that. he grows stronger every day, can stay transformed longer, controls Danny's body with much more ease.
it's only through a chance meeting with Frostbite that Danny and Phantom fully learn what happened to them. Danny feels sympathetic towards Phantom now. this isn't a malevolent ghost, it's a person who was never given the chance to live. who's trapped. who has to watch someone else live a life they're just as deserving of.
and Phantom feels that emotion from Danny. is so shocked by it, he doesn't know how to handle it at first. it takes him a while to contemplate, to talk to other ghosts like Frostbite. until one day, Phantom realizes… he feels sympathy for Danny, too.
neither of them asked for this. both of them deserve to live. Danny didn't do anything wrong. they're both villains to each other's story. and if anything… doesn't Phantom owe his life to Danny in the first place?
Phantom takes over less often. Danny doesn't feel hatred from him anymore. anger, yes–but not aimed at him. in fact, Phantom starts controlling their body in little ways in order to protect Danny from things that aren't even dangerous. just to avoid pain that would only affect the human tethered to him.
it isn't long before they're separated, either thanks to another ghost or Danny's parents. they're thrown apart in the middle of a horrific fight, and when Danny sees Phantom's equally shocked expression, he's terrified.
this ghost that hated him for so long–at best, Phantom would leave him defenseless. at worst, surely some part of Phantom still wants to kill him for stealing away his chance for autonomy.
and yet, when fire rains down on them, Phantom risks it all to grab Danny and get them both to safety. they're still both shaken and stunned this is even happening, but Phantom is able to nervously be like shit shit shit okay stay here don't go anywhere or I can't protect you, okay?
after the fight is over and dust settles, Phantom offers Danny his hand. they stare at each other and god if this isn't the weirdest thing. like, uh, okay, what now? they decide to go see Frostbite, who confirms that they're fully separate now. they ask if there's any chance of merging again and Frostbite assures it's impossible.
Phantom asks, even if I overshadowed Danny? or stay real close? yes, it's nothing to worry about. they leave, and back in the quiet of Danny's room, they talk. Phantom isn't sure what to do. now that opportunity is in front of him, he feels paralyzed. Danny does his best to let Phantom know that… they might be separate now, but if he ever wants help or even just a friendly ear, he's here for him.
Phantom is quiet for a while. then says maybe he just needs to rest first. he'll think about it tomorrow. they're both exhausted and injured. Phantom asks quietly… if he could rest in Danny for the night.
Danny's shocked, and–really confused. Phantom blushes and is like I don't know what my haunt is yet, I don't know where to go, but I know… you're kind of my home. now that I know I can leave whenever I want, it's not something bad anymore. I miss feeling your heart next to my core, just a little bit.
and Danny is just as surprised when Phantom overshadows him, then quietly nestles into the passenger seat again. he didn't realize how he got used to feeling Phantom with him. it's a feedback loop of contentedness, and Danny sleeps easily. (they also find out while sharing a body, Danny gets to reap the benefits of Phantom's supernatural healing)
anyway that's all I got for now thank u for coming to my ted talk
#I'll be honest. it has interested me. I've read fics. I'm just more interested in other stuff for dp#but the prospect of pitch pearl 'enemies to friends also maybe they kiss about it' has me sweating nervously#the struggle and angst of defining yourself against your progenitor. the defiant sorrowful anger funneled into misplaced hatred#only to slowly realize your progenitor is a sweet person who didn't condemn you. they even fight for you to have your own agency#so once you finally have your own body you'll do anything to protect that person you've come to truly care about#and because you shared a body for so long. because you had the same origin. you know them as well as you know yourself#you're not incomplete but you still hold half of each other#HAHA WOW anyway I'm in danger :)#don't. don't look at me#should i even tag this. yeah okay#Danny Phantom#pitch pearl
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#14shyx#14shyx edits#kamen rider#kamen rider gavv#gavv ୨୧ kr log#kr gifs ♡*+:。#kr gifs ♡*+:。 gavv#gavv spoilers#the henshin collection#kr.gavv: episode 6#kr.gavv: hanto karakida#long post#flashing gifs#ooh every piece of chocolate is wrapped in foil!#that's how you know it's the luxurious kind of chocolate 🥰#what a time to be someone who was born on valentine's day and loves sweets#kamen rider valen was made with trauma and rage and depression and a huge undercurrent of sorrow#in hindsight i think the ep's not hitting me as hard as it would (and i'm already taking it hard) bc they kind rushed through it#probably to ensure enough toys are being sold#but it's still quite effective! it gave me deja vu of good old keiichiro getting fired up hehe#if i didn't know any better (aka checked riderwiki) then i would've assumed that george karizaki-like guy carved the face onto that gochizo
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“Unauthorized duplication will result in gerard coming to your house and sucking your blood”
i love my bullets cd more than anything
#i brought you my bullets you brought me your love#my chemical romance#my chem gerard#ibymbybmyl#demoliton lovers#early sunsets over monroeville#honey this mirror isnt big enough for the two of us#romance#gerard way#vampireswillneverhurtyou#our lady of sorrows#cubicles mcr#mcr bullets#mcr#bullets era#2000s emo#post hardcore#mikey way#frank iero#ray toro#2002#the used#cds#pop punk#alternative#life on the murder scene#three cheers for sweet revenge#the black parade#danger days#mcrmy
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STRANGE NEW WORLDS
#la'an noonien singh#spock#spock x la'an#star trek#star trek snw#star trek strange new worlds#SNW season 1#snw 1x04#memento mori#star trek discovery#dsc 2x14#such sweet sorrow part II#trekedit#*
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Chapter one of Such sweet sorrow is up.
The plane ticket arrives in a sleek, cream envelope, inscribed with his name and nothing else, written out in neat, precise block capitals.
Isn’t it better the Devil you know?
Feat. mortal, old man Daniel, Paris, Armand’s attempts at courting, reflections on memory and immortality
#posted bc I am trying to free myself#armandaniel fic#devil’s minion fic#devil’s minion#iwtv fic#such sweet sorrow
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The Demolition Woman as Our Lady of Sorrows!!!
(I made mistakes in the lyrics but 💔💔)
#mcr#my chemical romance#our lady of sorrows#demolition woman#three cheers for sweet revenge#demolition lovers#i brought you my bullets you brought me your love#art
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looks like practice paid off but he does it best when it's actually genuine (his *sniffles* FAMILY)
#alien stage#alnst ivan#alien stage ivan#alnst#same guy who thinks hes not human btw 🤑#like how are you “inhuman robot” or some shit and this is also you#get your head out of the black sorrow bro#he's so fucking sweet IVAN 😭😭😭
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*leans in* the bass riff for the beginning of give em hell kid is just the bass riff of the chorus of our lady of sorrows moved up 3 half-steps and played in sixteenth notes instead of eighth notes
#dead serious#mcr#my chemical romance#ibymbybmyl#i brought you my bullets you brought me your love#our lady of sorrows#three cheers for sweet revenge#tcfsr#give em hell kid
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dabi looks like he’d know how to juggle. he just gives me that vibe. look at him. you give him three items and he will immediately start juggling like a reflex
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baela's face is sending me into a fit i'm sorry, jace is (presumably) just finding out that his little brother got straight up eaten ten days ago and she's over here just not giving a shit, nary a care in the world, full "aw...well, anyway!" about it as the man right next to her is having a breakdown
#personal#she doesn't even look all that sympathetic i'm cackling#jace: luke my sweet brother luke they've killed him they've murdered my little brother i'm in shambles#baela who looks like she does not remember who luke is: sorrows...sorrows...prayers...
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