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Studying with an apple pie
The pie tastes delicious,
so much better than bread.
I want to be studious,
but I am not well fed.
The apples smell really fancy
and I should finally study.
But I cannot concentrate on learning,
when my desire to eat is that burning.
I will now put my studies aside
and first eat the apple pie at my side.
– Studying with an apple pie by happyheart2
#studying with an apple pie#apple pie#happyheart2#writing#poem#studying#pie#my pictures#study motivation
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#alaina#my art#cute#artists on tumblr#art#anime#mlp#my little pony#my litte pony friendship is magic#steven universe#su#pink diamond#rose quartz#rainbow dash#pinkie pie#twilight sparkle#radiohead#red hot chili peppers#traditional art#traditional illustration#traditional sketch#traditional media#sketch#doodle#studies#figure study#art study#i lost my apple pencil…..e#embrace tradition#embrace traditional art teehehehehe
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did more dessert studies and then forgot to post them literally anywhere haha i'm so good at remember :)
also here's a timelapse of the mango sticky rice one for fun (not a full timelapse because i kind of forgot the feature existed in CSP until i was like halfway through the drawing):
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Day 10/100 of productivity
Sunday, August 11th
It's already day 10. Oh, how fast the time goes. I have been mich more mindful of life since starting this challenge since I want to have some nice photos to post alongside a little paragraph on what I did that day.
I went on an extra long walk this morning, and I took a lot of photos, which I posted earlier today. There is a very nice path to walk along near my apartment, but it doesn't have any lighting, so I can't go there early or late in the day.
I also celebrated my birthday today even though it is tomorrow. Since it's the weekend, my family was able to come visit me and enjoy the cakes I made. My parents gave me their old digital camera, so hopefully, I can take some more retro looking photos soon.
After a very social afternoon, I was happy to be able to sit down and review after dinner. I spent over 2 hours going over last year's vocabulary. I will now be going to bed while setting an alarm for 1.30 a.m. so I can get up to watch the meteor shower. It feels like a birthday present from the stars to me each year.
#studyblr#productive#studywithme#uni life#university student#days of productivity#korean studies#100dop#korean#notes#photography#mine#nature#cakes#apple pie#cheesecake#desk
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November 19 Update:
My mom's cat and my dog are starting to get along! It's a lovely gloomy rainy day and I drank a lot of coffee and had a nice pot roast for dinner. Fika was a spiced apple cider and sweet potato pie.
As for my thesis... I've almost finished my discussions and conclusions so I can send off to my advisor next week. And I wanted to kind of show top of my desk versus my very cluttered drawer lol.
#studyblr#gradblr#studyspo#dark academia#deskspace#study notes#fika#apple cider#pie#autumn#aethetic#moodboard#my post#my photos
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I love that he brought back “the mysterious recipe for Tarte tatin” when it is essentially “fuck up some apples in sugar and butter and slap pastry on top” but I guess if you don’t know how to...fuck up some apples in sugar and butter and make some pastry to slap on top, you don’t know. Tarte tatin is one of those things that sounds so ~French and complicated~ but it is not.
Also Tarte Tartin was invented in the 1880s so your uncle got it from the tartin sisters what, yesterday?
I have never seen this show and know absolutely nothing about it! As that is the fun of having me liveblog this, please let it be fun for EVERYONE by not confirming denying, hinting, saying things like “oh just wait til episode x’, telling me about outside interviews, or anything that is cultural or historical that I’m not picking up on! PLEASE LET ME BE A STUPID PIECE OF SHIT
#Doc watches The Case Study of Vanitas#Vanitas Ep 7#the earliest thing we have that could be called anything like apple pie is an English recipe#So in essence tarte tatin is owed to the English#since tarte tatin is a descendant of actually American-style Apple pie#which is ITSELF descended from a mix of English and Dutch styles#(which makes sense given the history) anyway sorry I'm getting distracted about this
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What even is this “pick one”? Am I eating this apple, or making a pie? And I use two kinds of apples just to make a pie!!!!
Goddammit making me pick Pink Lady because it’s second best at everything which makes it best at an unknown activity
stole this from the tl but i need to know
#the prince bleys of apples#if you understood that hashtag why aren’t we already friends#this list does not contain heritage varieties I will buy out on sight#apple pie#apple eating#pacific northwest#apple#piemaking#red delicious and golden delicious aren’t#i have studied this intensely#i have opinions
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Just choked on my cinnamon tea cause I got too excited about drinking it.
#also my mon made apple pie and goddammit. i think it's my favorite thing on Earth#yes i still have ages of studying to do and and no im evidently not doing it#fuck u Marx and fucking guiddens like why couldn't you have less thoughts#awkwardifying life
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wool ; coriolanus snow.
pairing ; young!coriolanus snow x capitol!reader (gender-neutral)
synopsis ; when you laughed, airy and light and reminiscent to that of wind chimes, coryo wished he could bottle up the sound and keep it as his, only his.
words ; 1.5k
themes ; mild fluff/angst, slightly suggestive
warnings / includes ; set before events of tbosas so no actual spoilers, making out, clemensia appearance, mentions of other characters, coryo's paranoia, he's not exactly toxic yet but the seeds are very much planted, i tried to keep him in character as best i could, let's pretend the academy also serves dinner
a/n ; this man has consumed me body and soul. this fic was inspired by the song wool by flatland cavalry on the movie soundtrack! let me know if you guys would like a second part :)
series masterlist. main masterlist.
Coriolanus Snow was a wolf in sheep’s clothing. He bore an aristocratic last name—yet you noticed that his dress shirt’s buttons seemed to be various different shades of black and slightly misshapen. His voice, so sweetly saccharine, charming, seductive—would whisper falsities like it was second nature. He would often claim that he wasn’t hungry, but you’d catch the longing glint in his pale irises as he eyed the steaming bread rolls Sejanus slathered with generous helpings of butter.
Control. That was all he needed.
It crumbled, ever so slightly, when you nudged your slice of apple pie in his direction. His eye twitched, and you pursed your lips, pulling your plate back to you. You ate quietly, and Coryo stared at you all the while, as if he were mentally dissecting your mind—studying you.
You knew. It was all too clear, even if he wouldn’t tell you. And if he wouldn’t tell his closest friend—or, the closest thing he had to a friend, the two of you certainly did things that friends wouldn’t do—he most definitely wouldn’t let it slip that he was financially strapped to anyone else.
That same day, he met you in the back of the library. The two of you were supposed to be studying history—Professor Demigloss was one of the nicer teachers at the academy, but that didn’t mean he was any less strict with grades. And neither you nor Coryo could afford slipping now. Not if you both wanted to get into university. Being on top meant that there was only greater distance to fall.
But there were… distractions.
Mainly, his foot knocking against yours under the table. Your hand over his jostling knee. His teeth digging into his bottom lip. When you shifted so that your thighs brushed against his, the books spread out over the table were entirely forgotten.
He pushed you against the bookshelves a mere second later, the wood digging into your back uncomfortably, and kissed you until you grew dizzy. You were a welcome distraction—he could taste the apples on your tongue. The way you snaked your arms around his neck, toying with his pale blonde curls, pulling him closer until his body slotted against yours just perfectly—clicking into place like a pair of magnets facing opposite directions. It was desperate and heavy and he could only barely pull away to inhale sharply before cradling the base of your head to tilt your jaw back and kiss you even harder. Coryo swallowed any muffled whimpers that slipped from you when his free hand traveled lower.
Lower, lower, dangerously low—
When Clemensia’s voice echoed through the library in search of her lab partner, the two of you sprang apart, gasping for air.
She rounded the bend, and her dark eyes landed on the two of you. Keen, observant, narrowed. Coriolanus was flushed, hair mussed, lips swollen, chest rising and falling erratically. You were looking anywhere but the two of them, smoothing out your clothes and wiping your mouth with the back of your hand.
“Oh! I guess I’ll just have to find another time to bother you, Coriolanus,” she tittered, sickly sweet. She tilted her head with a tempered smile. “What’re you guys studying?”
Snow rolled his eyes in exasperation. “History,” he said. Curt, simple.
“Right.” She eyed you curiously. When she spoke again, it was directed more to you than him, sounding uncharacteristically void of frigid scorn. “I’d be careful if I were you. You sure he’s not just sleeping with you because you’re the top of the class?”
You stiffened, and Coryo bristled.
“I’ll be fine, Clem. See you tomorrow.”
There was another beat of terse silence. Her eyes darted warily between the two of you, and she whisked away in a flutter of red and black.
You blew out a breath. Your mouth tingled with the phantom memory of his lips planted over yours, and your cheeks flushed with heat. The two of you sat back down, both quiet. You worked in fluid tandem with each other, as you always did. His hands kept to himself this time.
“I’m not using you,” he whispered, eventually. “It’s not like that.”
“I know,” you replied hesitantly, testing the waters. “It’s not like you’d need to. Your grades are just fine as is.”
The two of you kept working until your fingers cramped with overuse and his head pulsed with the beginnings of a migraine.
“Dinner?” you asked once the clock struck six, nudging him. “I think they’ll be serving mashed potatoes today.”
His stomach clenched at the thought of warm food. Control.
“Sure,” he replied coolly, flicking his books closed and gathering up all the papers to stuff into his bag. “I’m sick of mashed potatoes, though.”
You shot him an incredulous smile, brows quirking up. He was lying, but you didn’t know. “Not even when it’s seasoned with roasted garlic? A dash of the freshest of herbs?”
The blue of his eyes gleamed when they bore into yours. “Not even then.”
“You’re a strange man, Coriolanus Snow.” Your lips twisted downward, but it was more of a smile than a frown. When your eyes darted below to glance at his school uniform, you couldn’t help but notice the unironed creases in the carmine fabric. One of the buttons—the very top one—was oddly shaped and a different color from all the rest. It reminded you of his dress shirt. You quite liked that dress shirt. He looked handsome in it, but you chalked it up to his uncanny ability to look handsome in just about anything.
Your head tilted to the side, molten eyes fixed on the button. You knew. He knew that you knew. Panic seized in his chest, an irrational clawing sensation searing within his lungs. Would you tell the rest of the class? What would you say to them? That he was living as filthily as a District boy? That he skipped meals because he couldn’t afford them? That his cousin mended his clothes for him?
But your frown-smile deepened. Fondness stained your expression, clear as day. Coriolanus found himself surprised, as he often did around you.
“I love your buttons, by the way,” you mumbled, reaching out to trace it with a finger. He held his breath on instinct. “Is it a stylistic choice? Having them all irregular like this?”
Stylistic. Coriolanus almost laughed.
“Mhm. It’ll be in fashion one day. I’m just ahead of the trends,” he murmured charmingly. A bluff.
When you laughed, airy and light and reminiscent to that of wind chimes, Coryo wished he could bottle up the sound and keep it as his, only his.
“Maybe I’ll start wearing mismatched buttons now, too. Rebel against uniformity.” You stood up from your chair as you spoke, not catching the way Coriolanus’ expression faltered momentarily with your last three words. It was a joke, he had to remind himself. Just a joke. “Come on. Let’s go have dinner. I’m starving.”
He jerkily stood up. Grabbed your hand just because he could, fingers folding over your wrist. He could feel your pulse, thumping quicker and quicker. You regarded him curiously. Snow’s remaining spindly hand cradled your face and he stepped closer, intuitive eyes roaming over your face, wondering just how much of you was real. How much of you was lying, just as he was?
His lips fell over yours again. This time, the kiss was sweeter. Slower, more languid. His nose brushed over your cheekbone, warm to the touch. You hummed pleasantly against him, before placing a hand flat over his chest—over the crooked button—and pulled away with a dazed smile. It felt dangerously good that you hadn’t tugged your hand out of his grasp yet. His grip tightened in a near possessive manner.
As the two of you began walking out of the library, Coriolanus couldn’t help but think back to your hyperbole—about how far from starving you truly were. You wouldn’t ever know, not when your family was the very epitome of Capitol wealth. But he was glad he wasn’t the only one lying, for once, even if your lie was merely an inflation of the truth.
After dinner, Coryo worked off the top button of his uniform with repeated tugs to the threads, pulling apart Tigris’ handiwork. He slid it over the table to you, watching the way your countenance softened in endearment. He kissed you again in the dark hallways outside the cafeteria, finding it difficult to get your lips to melt away from your tightly-stretched grin.
He walked home with a mirroring smile and a missing button that night. One less piece of the wolf’s sheeply clothes.
#coriolanus snow x reader#coriolanus snow fanfiction#coriolanus snow fluff#coriolanus snow x you#hunger games fanfiction#coriolanus snow drabbles#tbosas fanfiction#tbosas x reader#young!coriolanus snow x reader#young!coriolanus snow#coriolanus snow
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a gilmores girl daily routine:
hi angels! with september drawing to a close i cant stop rewatching gilmore girls - such a cozy show i wish i lived in stars hollow! here is a little daily routine inspired by Rory Gilmore and the aesthetics of Gilmore girls.
AM ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
wake up at 6:30am.
pick out outfit and book for day.
have a shower, using vanilla or autumnal scented body washes etc.
dress and pack bag for school/academia.
have a cosy breakfast such as oatmeal, french toast or pancakes alongside a coffee (or a chai tea if you dont love caffeine!).
clean teeth, do skincare and light makeup.
style hair - add a cute headband or pin the sides like Rory often does.
journal, light a candle and read over notes or any relevant material for your classes.
go to school/whatever academic institute you attend.
PM ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
go to a cute coffee shop and study with a friend!
head home.
change, put on a cute jumper.
finish off any work or homework left.
make dinner, such as a comforting soup with sourdough toast or a salmon, broccoli and rice bowl.
have a warm, comforting bath, try using a bath bomb or cute autumn themed product such as a body scrub.
have a cup of tea and read a book for a little bit.
watch a favourite show under some blankets and get cozy!
brush teeth and do skincare before bed.
do five minutes of journalling.
do some light stretching and yoga before bed!
head to bed and get a nice early night.
ADDITIONAL ACTIVITIES ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
bake a cute autumnal treat, such as pumpkin loaf or apple pie muffins.
take cute photos.
visit a library or book shop.
go on a walk round a local park or green space!
paint your nails.
try writing an article or blog post - like you would if you were a journalist.
have a film night with a family member or friend!
organise your book shelf/book collection.
update your planner and get ready for the week ahead!
plan an outfit for tomorrow.
thank you for reading angels! i hope you have a cozy and cute gilmore girls autumn. remember this list is only ‘inspired’, feel free to adapt it and make it your own and comment and tell me what you would add! love, m.
#becoming that girl#girlblogging#girlhood#it girl#just girly things#clean girl#glow up#it girl energy#that girl#pink pilates princess#gilmore girls#rory gilmore#im just a girl#self improvement#daily routine#self care routine#autumn#spooky season#fall
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lucifer morningstar x fem! reader
you help comfort him after his meet up with his lovely daughter ꓹ⠀ charlie. [ no warnings. fluff. silly nicks. ]
The moment he took a step back in his castle, he felt the overwhelming feeling of panic. His chest was heavy, he was filled with dread, and somewhat bitter joy. It had been over centuries since he’s spoken to his own kin, his daughter whom he adored. His steps sounded heavy, almost like he was trying to carry his own weight. which alerted y/n of his arrival. She left her study and saw him in the hall, gripping his staff and tears threatening to fall.
“Honey pie, what’s wrong?” she walked cautiously, studying his body language and the clear evidence of tears. “Charlie..” he hiccups and began to cry. “Oh.. honey..,” she strolled over to him and lifted his face in her hands. “Charlie wants to get into contact with heaven. I still have my doubts but..” he spoke carefully as she gently wiped his tears with her thumbs. He relaxed in her touch, letting himself breathe.
“But you know you owe her this? Charlie is a bright girl, much like her father” she chuckled and smiled up to him. he smiled a bit then nodded. “I do owe her at least this, I wish you could have seen her.. she was magnificent. Her dreams are beautiful and she cares deeply for all of her people. She’s a wonderful woman now. I’m so proud of her.” He leaned his forehead against her own as they both shared a smile as tears silently fell from his cheek.
“I wish I was there for her, but I was so stuck in my own failures that I didn’t even realize how much I missed out on. I tried so hard to show everyone that freedom is a beautiful thing and yet—” y/n gently placed a kiss on his forehead to stop himself from spiraling into despair.
“Don’t say that about yourself. Stop it. You tried all you could do for your people and even then you tried that’s something you should be proud of. You never gave up.. and even if you did, you still dreamed about it day ‘n night. You’re amazing honey pie.. truly. You should give the helping hand that no one gave to you to Charlie.. you’re the only demon who could help her and plus she only has one father.” She winked and smiled.
He gently gave her a kiss on the lips and stood up straight, almost like a routine. She dusted his shoulders and coat then straightened his collar. “I’m so grateful to have a daughter like Charlie..” she held his hands, feeling the cold feeling of his ring.
She didn’t acknowledge it facially but she knew he loved his ex-wife and daughter with all his heart. It’s something that a new woman couldn’t change, it’s something she had to understand but she knew she loved the man he is. He’s a loving man and she knew he was going to commit to that promise to his daughter. “And.. I know I don’t say it much but I love you so much y/n, my beautiful beautiful apple” he kissed her once more, their hands enveloping each other.
Once they pulled apart she let out a soft giggle and fixed his hat “now go do as you promised and make your daughter proud.”
#hazbin hotel#lucifer morningstar#hazbin hotel charlie#charlie morningstar#hazbin hotel lucifer#hazbin hotel lucifer x reader#hazbin hotel lucifer morningstar x reader#lucifer x reader#lucifer morningstar x reader#hazbin hotel fic
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i LIVE for your sniperscout art they're so silly it feeds me so well :'') mind sharing headcanons or just random thoughts you have abt them?
sorry anon for taking a whole year to reply to this i took all the time to ‘study’ them and write what i like about them or basically how i hc this ship :,> (also trying to come up with new hc that i haven’t read before)
My Sniperscout headcanons/thoughts:
- Sniper, the stoic assassin with a heart as cold as ice, had never expected to have his life turned upside down by a ball of energy and bad puns named Scout. He was the first one to develop feelings. His job consisted of a lot of staring, and well his sniper rifle wasn’t the only thing with a long scope, Sniper’s gaze would linger on Scout, tracing the messy dirty blonde hair, his athletic form and the way his lips moved like a silent film, noticing details about him more than a simple teammate would.
- The loudmouth, messy-haired kid was everything Sniper wasn't: impulsive, loud, and always looking for trouble. Yet, somehow, Scout would find his way into Sniper's quiet life, his laughter chasing away the monotony of Sniper's days, filling the silence with his made up stories and infectious enthusiasm.
- Sniper refuses to admit his growing fondness for the ball of energy that had invaded his quiet world. Scout’s jokes might have been bad but they chased away the deafening solitude of Sniper’s days.
- Scout, on the other hand, being the you youngest and loudest, craved attention he barely found from his brothers let alone the 8 mercs he worked with. But with Sniper, he wasn’t ignored he was listened to, Sniper listened really listened. He would even laugh at his lame jokes! In Sniper’s silence, Scout didn’t have to fight for space or attention. He was simply allowed to be himself, bad jokes and all and Sniper would just smile. Slowly a different kind of warmth would blossom into Scout chest, a warmth beyond friendship.
- Sniper actually enjoyed learning about American culture from Scout. He would develop a surprising fondness for baseball and apple pie, though he’d never admit it.
- Regardless of the fact that they have only a three year age gap (yes my hc is that Scout is 26 and Sniper is 29) they felt like creatures from different planets!: Sniper, the farm boy raised on outdated ways, and Scout, the city kid with a modern swagger (lol) yet this difference somehow only strengthened their bond.
- A bond that was fueled by shared laughter, puns, Aussie slangs, and a mutual dislike for Spy. They loved to elaborate pranks on him and call it a date, much to the Frenchman's chagrin lol.
- Despite his "Professional with Standards" persona, Sniper would feel like a lost puppy when Scout wasn’t around during their off hours, subconsciously fidgeting and always looking for him. Yet refuses to call himself soft.
- Sniper, a man of action, would expressed his affection through whatever small gifts he can give, he would bring funny-shaped rocks, odd plants or flowers he found in the woods to Scout as a souvenir of his lil adventures in the woods, and Scout would usually mock his weird finds playfully yet would collect them all on the shelf of his dorm.
- Scout, meanwhile, being the hopeless romantic is, had his own unique way of flirting, his goofy sweetness and awkward affections (0 rizz, but weirdly endearing) melting even the frostiest corners of Sniper’s heart.
- He'd always make up excuses to be alone with Sniper, "accidentally" forgetting his backpack in the van just for an extra ride back. (i was actually working on a comic about this as a continuation of Scout forgetting his necklace at Sniper’s van). He'd linger in doorways, his hands brushing against Sniper's in a clumsy attempt for physical contact.
- The first time their skin met in a hug, Sniper, being a touch starved man, melted like a hot candle. He became addicted to the warmth.
- He never initiates contact himself since it never was his style, but eagerly cling when Scout did. He'd hold on like a koala bear, clinging to the warmth like a lifeline lol.
- Scout, on the other hand, thrived on physical connection. From fist bumps on the battlefield to playful slaps on the bum (earning a hilarious reaction from Sniper every time), he craved it all
- Although Sniper hated PDA, a weakness exposed by Scout's touch. Scout, initially confused by the battlefield indifference followed by clingy cuddles in their private moments, eventually understood and learned to cherish this weird rhythm of intimacy.
- Sniper had a secret passion for knitting, he often knits sweaters, hats and socks for Scout, another way to gift Scout and to silently demonstrate his love. (i think this one is basically canon lol)
- Sniper’s van had become their mobile love nest, cuddling under the moonlight, sharing stories and dreams until they fall asleep.
- Whenever Scout's boasting gets out of hand, Sniper would silence him with a quick, playful kiss. Scout, flustered but secretly delighted, pretends to be annoyed but can't hide the blush creeping up his neck.
- Sniper who loves to show his gruff stoic exterior, gets all flustered and shy when Scout gives him genuine compliments. He’d mumbles something under his breath and hides behind his hat not used to being complimented, revealing a new weakness for Scout to exploit.
- Scout, despite his outward bravado, secretly worries about Sniper when he's on dangerous missions. He would hide it by throwing playful punches and jokes, but his eyes betray his concern.
- They fit together like puzzle pieces. Sniper, the touch-starved soul, finds solace in Scout's constant physical affection, his warmth a contrast to the coldness of his sniper's lonely lifestyle. And Scout, the braggart with a hidden insecurities, finds comfort in Sniper's quiet protectiveness.
hope that wasn’t too boring to read :>
#my art#my headcanons#sniperscout#sniper x scout#tf2 speeding bullet#speeding bullet#tf2 scout#tf2 sniper#tf2 sniperscout#tf2 ship#tf2 headcanons#tf2 fanart#tf2#team fortress 2#fan art#lennylink#the sillies
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Speak your own individual desires aloud and doom God to kill them. (Better to make it a collective; strength in anonymity and numbers; happiness as a smokescreen)
No, listen Dean had EVERYTHING HE EVER WANTED in season 12. It's even got some strange echoes in common with 2x20 What is and Should Never Be.
HIS MOM ALIVE, HIS DAD DEAD, SAM capable of being safe on his own, the world mostly safe, and and AND--something unconditional with someone of his very own
DEAN: Dad's dead? And the thing that killed him was a... MARY: A stroke. He died in his sleep. You know that. DEAN: That's great. MARY: Excuse me? /// DEAN: I'm really glad you're happy. SAM: looks a little puzzled at DEAN's intensity. /// DEAN: All of them. Everyone that you saved, everyone Sammy and I saved. They're all dead...It's like my old life is, is coming after me or something. Like it like it doesn't want me to be happy. Course I know what you'd say. Well, not the you that played softball but... "So go hunt the Djinn. He put you here, it can put you back. Your happiness for all those people's lives, no contest. Right?" /// DEAN: (shaking his head) I'll die. (voice breaking) The Djinn'll... drain the life out of me in a couple of days. MARY: But in here, with us, it'll feel like years. Like a lifetime. (DEAN looks over at SAM who half-smiles and nods to him) I promise. (She takes his chin in her hand, and he looks down on her) No more pain. (strokes his cheek) Or fear. Just love and comfort. And safety. Dean, stay with us. (strokes his other cheek and he leans into her hand, closing his eyes) Get some rest. JESSICA: You don't have to worry about Sam anymore. (DEAN looks over at her) You get to watch him live a full life. MARY steps away, and CARMEN walks up to him, taking his face in her hands, kissing him.
In season 12, Dean is coming to terms with the fact that family isn't perfect, and it will let you down, and it isn't forever, and the world isn't safe. But it's real. You fight for it.
(And no matter how hard you fight, sometimes it still all goes so wrong. You see, it's much more devastating to actively fight for something and lose, as compared to a halfsies-fighting. It's not like a bargaining phase, where you leave a crack in the door that you never intend to open. No, with this scenario, Dean lost. Soundly. Utterly. 💔)
No wonder Dean had an unusual reaction to the end of season 12. Because it was really real and because he actively fought to keep it, it was more devastating than usual. He did not proceed to the Bargaining phase of grief at all. There were no cracked doors, no hopes, no solutions, no deals. This time, Dean completely lost his faith. He went straight to despair.
He didn't even look for Mary, or to a possible future, because he lost his faith IN the future. It became meaningless, and he didn't even matter. He was at a completely different crossroads and mindset compared to the other losses in his life, so the grief looked a lot different than usual. It smoldered and did not proceed forward. Sadly, it seemed to spiral in on itself.
These ideas of daily life and living in the future--of Sam's future and of Dean's future--are revisited in the terminal seasons.
Dean + "Everything we've always wanted"
Hello, scripted All Along the Watchtower line:
Ah, yes. Everything Dean's we've always wanted. This comes shortly after meeting Max & Alicia Banes on 12x20, who also use "We" to cloak their individual wants and needs, like a shield. So what are the requirements for this everything-I've-always-wanted?
Mary (a flawed-but-Loving Parent-Hero; the symbolic road to accepting Our Imperfect Selves)
Cas ("Flawed Father Material" who is Brave, Dutiful, and Devoted; the One Who Carries Your Burden-Halved; the symbolic road to de-Romanticizing White Picket Fence & Apple Pie Life)
Sammy (the child who finally Grew into Leadership; circa season 12; The one who leads the American hunters against The British Men of Letters; the one who elevates the Family Legacy; the symbolic road to dealing with The Moral Gray of life)
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We also get this aired line from 12x22:
DEAN: (dejectedly) Yeah. You know, it wasn't long ago, I thought we had it made. We saved the world. We got Cas back. We had Mom back. I mean, it wasn't perfect, but still, we had 'em.
It wasn't perfect. Like I was thinking in this season 8 post, this represents the acceptance of De-Romanticizing the Apple Pie Life.
#spn 12x22#spn 12x23#spn 2x20#dean + wants#dean + put your desires behind a smokescreen#tfw + deromanticization of the apple pie life#spn + the different faces of grief#spn + studies in meaning making#tfw + grief#spn all along the watchtower#spn who we are#spn what is and should never be#tfw + the apple pie life#tfw + faith#spn + the human need for comforts all all the human organizations that spawns#spn + war#spn + religion#spn + nihilism versus narrative vs fate
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𝐬𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐬𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐭𝐨𝐨𝐭𝐡
pairing(s):spencer reid x gn!reader, mention of spencer x derek
summary:your meanings of a sweet tooth increased to a ten fold when the leaves start to change and the air becomes crisp. however, you have a level of self respect that your boyfriend doesn’t
word count: 650+
warning(s): fluff, pumpkin spice slander, pet names, kissing, and language
A/N: —GIFs; @undertheniall & @chemicalh3arts— im a little rusty give me a break
Spencer eyed you warily at your foreign action. Right before he could press the skin of his lips onto yours, your head turned with a quickness. A passion. The brunette racked his mind of what he could’ve done going down the mental checklist in his head.
Took the trash out, watered the plants, closed the drawer in the kitchen you frequently bump your hip into early mornings going to brew your coffee when he leaves it open, —boxes of tea sitting against each other in tip top shape and organization—
There were established boundaries in your relationship that the two of you silently promised to never cross. However, the doctor couldn’t help but to itch to break your most solid concrete one.
You weren’t allowed to profile one another.
No matter how dire the situation seemed, or how well intended it seemed. No. Profiling
All of this amused you to no end. While you struggled to keep a decent poker face at your boyfriend’s kicked puppy expression, he battled internal conflict on what could’ve changed in two hours. You were fine getting ready this morning, you were fine at the office, you were fine leaving the office, hell you were fine even with him telling you him and Morgan was going to try a coffee shop down the road.
What changed in a mere hour!?
“You’re a liar!” You accuse strongly, it’s funny how your top doctor lover couldn’t pick out the dramatic undertone in your voice. It was only a matter of time before you were going to crack your ‘hurt’ facade.
“What!? Ab-”
“Out of all the seasonal treats… Apple pie, sweet potato pie, cookie butter, pecan everything, apple cider donuts, fritters, cinnamon swirl bread, the list could run forever!” You throw the back of your hand over your forehead in mock distress. It’s comical the way Spencer deflates at the realization.
“You dare try to lay your lips on mine with that horrid, wretched, foul tas-” Before you can finish your sentence the lanky brunette is already plopping down onto the couch surface with a irritable sound of protest muffled by the fabric of your sweater.You smile down at the head full of curls staring back you, running your fingers through them making more by separating the bunches they make.
“Can’t believe I fell for that” He mumbled almost sadly for himself going crazy that he was so weak to your advances… I mean you worked with these types of people everyday! To think you were actually upset with him for a… rational reason. Instead you were ‘hurt’ simply because of his choice of pumpkin spice black coffee Morgan had convinced him to try.
“I can’t believe out of everything you chose pumpkin.” You teased in a matter of factly way while still massaging the back of his scalp. You could feel the curl of the brunette’s lips past the thin sweater you were wearing. When Spencer finally moved his head from being burrowed in your stomach the big guns were out and blazing. A certain pout with his combination of sad eyes made you fold everytime and the brunette knew it too.
“Spencer.” It was your turn to whine now dragging out the final ‘R’ in his name and he hummed satisfied. Pursing his lips and inching towards you. However, he was still to be met with a completely different texture than the softness of your lips by rather the palm of your hand.
“You seriously have to brush your teeth”
“Well studies recorded that if you face your discomforts head on then you’re 20% more likely to be less uncomfortable about it.” You can hear the smirk in his voice as he inches closer, making you squeal. You quickly turn yourself loose from his hold before it can tighten around your arms and you two spend the evening playing catch the cat with smiles on your faces.
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LAUNDRY STORIES WITH ZAYNE
pt1 headcanons. sfw
ZAYNE WHO RETURNS TO YOUR CROSS-LEGGED FIGURE ON HIS BED HOLDING THE WHITE LATTICE-PATTERN LAUNDRY BASKET. He gives you a small smile as he comes through the doorframe and sets the basket on the bed and takes a seat himself on the mattress, already getting a start on folding the clothes freshout the dryer.
There’s a gentle light coming in through the window, and the sky such a pure light blue shade for the autumn.
The t-shirts and sweatshirts get neatly folded quite quickly with your two pairs of hands, and Zayne begins stacking them to store them. All that’s left in the apple-pie-latticed basket are a sea of mostly white socks.
Zayne turns back to you after storing everything where it should be in the wardrobe, quite inquisitive at the scene he’s now watching.
He flumps down again at the bed and already curiously grabbing one of the rolled pair of socks.
“Well this is unusual,” he says piqued in his hypnotic velvet voice, rotating the sock like if studying it will uncover something new. “I didn’t know you organised your socks this way.”
“Mhm. Foolproof for finding the right sock,” you comment.
Of course he won’t tell you that you can just make piled matching pairs. It’s cuter this way anyway.
He lets the little snowy ball smelling of fabric softener rest in his palms between his opened thighs as he queries back to you, looking a bit distracted making the little rolls.
Before you know, the side of your cheek is met with a small bun of white against your cheek, making you look up to Zayne extending his arm to a v-shape to let it reach you.
“It’s look like a little snowball,” he remarks, with his signature little smile on his face.
Now you’re clearly piqued by his behaviour, which you let know with a breathy smile.
IT’S VERY EARLY IN THE MORNING, AND THE SKY IS STILL GLOWING DARK INDIGO IN THE WET WINTER WEATHER.
Zayne is already risen for work, finishing with what he needs to get done before heading off to the hospital. He’s in the kitchen under only the dim white light of the range hood, looking at his phone for any updates in his schedule. He already transcribed a doodle response and short phrase to your mess on his wall-hung calendar, which he had to complete under the very same scarce light source because it’s so dark outside it illusions night time. There’s leftovers suitable for breakfast in the fridge in case you doze in for a few more minutes and don’t have as much time to prepare it.
The reminder to not forget his watch jolts to his mind, and so he enters the bedroom very quietly, so very slowly turning the door handle and slowly lifting it back up to lessen the recoil sound.
In the same cautious manner he slides open his wardrobe to find his watch. He can’t find it for a while, and turns his head around to where you’re still sleeping.
From his viewpoint looking at you, he can see a little further behind you something silver shine on your bedside table. Ah, he remembers now: when he came home last night, very tired, you insisted on giving him a well deserved hand massage before he head into the shower. With the both of you sat at the foot of the bed when he’d just come in the bedroom, gently kneading his hands…; you took the watch off him then.
But, then you did put it back in its correct place, because he remembers finding it there as he dressed into his loungewear whilst you took your own shower followed by him.
However, before closing the closet door, Zayne quickly began missing your touch on his hands again; which led to him fiddling with his watch, his favourite watch, engraved with his name in your handwriting and a heart.
Then he recalls how he had the watch on during dinner, and how you took it off him again when he settled in bed with you and you continued on his hand massage for a little while. That’s how it wound up there.
Zayne quietly steadies to grab his memento of you on your bedside table, and a very rumbled and near silent thunder brings a streak of light between the small gap of the closed curtains.
From the short-lived light source, he was able to catch glimpse on how your fluffy house slippers now appeared a bit stained and discoloured. He surveyed it was likely from the night you crept to the garden, still in your pijamas and slippers to let a collar-clad cat inside the solarium for the night; who was well received with food, water, and a woolly blanket. It was cold and the grass damp that late night, which is the reason why you let the cat come in and why your slippers got soiled.
Zayne grabs a page from a handy small notepad handing ‘round, clicks his pen once and starts writing on it. He clicks it once more and puts it away.
Zayne follows by lifting your hand that’s almost hanging off the bed and bringing it to his lips with a kiss, settling it back down gently, and turning to fasten his watch clasp secure on his wrist.
Your lover then bends down to pick up your slippers, his flexed index securing one slipper, and a flexed middle finger securing the other. Then he makes a job of toeing off his own slippers.
You wake up a few hours later, and notice the little note by your bedside: “Your slippers are in the washing machine. Wear mine.”
You look down and sure enough, Zayne’s slippers are facing outwards from the bed, just where your feet would naturally go to stand.
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