#stress and turmoil

[fumifooms]

Honestly I wonder if anyone’s ever read Chilchuck’s “I cheated on her” admission as an implicit reference to prioritizing alcohol over his marriage and feeling guilty abt it.

Ohh… "I cheated on her" as a half-truth because something ended up taking priority over their marriage, because emotionally he was elsewhere… "I cheated on her" because after having all the time in the world to think about it now that he’s alone, he realizes that that might have been how she felt, and that’s how it felt like to him too.

Love that. I def think he’s ironically someone who deflects guilt a lot, in a similar way that he compulsively goes "You’re wrong! I don’t care about you guys at all! I’m an asshole!" he flees emotions by making the problem something else that’s fake, a burden easier to bear, he’s so used to being seen for what he’s not after all. I went into it a bit in one of my fics and in a couple meta posts, but when it comes to his wife he was very much like an ostrich with his head in the sand, seeing her fall into a bad mood on the outing before she left him but dismissing it as something "sudden" that’s not worth thinking deeper about. Overdrinking is a problem for future Chil. I think he did a lot of "You want me to drink less and you’re afraid for my health? Get over it lol" and "I should be less strict with the girls and raise my voice less? My father was a strict drunk and look at me, I turned out functional and great! The girls are literally fine and love me" and "Oh? My drinking is affecting our family? No it’s not smh smh get off my back"< Drunk a significant portion of the time he spends at home since he’s off-work and somewhere he can relax. Type of guy to always dismiss any issues that might exists because he prefers ignoring them as if they’ll go away. All his problem solving energy is spent during work and the issue is with his family he already likes things as they are, they’re his comfort zone and change is scary, he doesn’t want the change, even if it’d be better. He doesn’t want to change, his unhealthy habits are guilty pleasures he wishes people didn’t try to make him feel guilty for

BUT POINT IS he struggles with guilt and like. Letting it be a feeling that he gets sometimes, so it’s all bottled up and festers and gets twisted into frustration or such like how his worry usually does. I like this take, wether it’s something he’s already thought a lot about or it’s something he’s repressed that came suddenly pouring out of him like blood out of a wound, now that he’s putting it into words with someone for maybe the first time.

It’s interesting how he didn’t refuse going up to the bicorn, I’m sure part of him wanted to see if it would like him, like the virtue test it is. Would a monster that loves despicable men be magnetized to him? Would it confirm his fears?

[localguy2]

Having read through the Ghost Ao3 tag for a while now, I've come to a conclusion:

I don't like post Canon Ghost being baby whatsoever :/

I need to see them genuinely struggle being anything but a fighter with the weight of the entire world on their shoulders, I wanna see them be emotionally and mentally lost and unsure of what to do at all times

I need to see them try to deal with the aftermath and try to salvage what little is left of the Kingdom (preferably post Dream No More for me), because anyone with the right mind can tell this kingdom is beyond repair

I need to see them struggling to have a somewhat decent relationship with Hornet, who herself is already struggling with her own turmoil and emotions, most importantly in my head her Mother's full death, which may lead her to hold some irrational resentment against Ghost even if she knew it was ultimately for the greater good for hue kingdom and probably mother as well

I wanna see them try to fit into a world that never accepted them, a world that begrudgingly lets them exist, a world they never thought they could live in

TL;DR I wanna see Ghost suffer because ✨Life✨ happend

[mistress-light]

Forspoken • Endless Tanta Cinta appreciation

[echosong971]

i think Andal deserves to be a little unhinged sometimes, as a treat (wip)

[gloomforrestrunes]

I assume Aiden was going to say "calm down so we can talk like adults" or something along those lines which is SO funny from the guy who just admitted to physically harming a little girl because he wasn't acting rationally and was upset. Like, the time for rational adult talk is out the window my guy.

YYYYEP LOL. he is straight up throwing shit at the wall at this point to de-escalate the situation when like. this never would’ve happened if he chose to do a coping mechanism that wasn’t violence!

[cerealmonster15]

Stupid silly sketchbook doodles of beloved basketball club shhdfbfbgby it’s so important 2 me that they act like annoying brothers to each other and also that everyone in nrc acts like they’d rather be shot than develop a crush on one of their bitch classmates

[charlesleclerc]

i’m stressed and anxious and not having a good time

[brandycranby]

sneef sneef mmmhhh oughhyhhhh 😞

[liatorii]

God, the combination of my professor changing the date of the last exam to a day I had an important thing to be present for and me being at the heights of one of my worst periods is an insane fucking cocktail of turmoil.

[moonofmercury]

Me, thinking that these last few weeks have been so peaceful, so drama free, only normal life stress. Me, realizing, oh that's right, jjk is on break

[binders-and-beanies]

Doin bad again folx

[iridescentis]

i think the reason why i don't read/write my sapphic ships very often is because im just jealous it makes me mad😭

like with guy characters i absolutely adore them and their dynamics but with sapphics its all of that but also like. do yall need a third. im free whenever.

[castielsparkle]

oh god ok so i didn't expect them to send my script as my appointment ended NOR did i expect my pharmacy HAVING IT so i guess my first t shot will be with my cunty claws on.!

[leafsboys]

I want to share a hot take. I love Knies, but if the Leafs season lives or dies by a 19 year old, who has only played a few games for them, not being in games then the Leafs have a bigger problems then I already knew they have.

Agreed 1000%. 34 and 16 deserve all the heat they get because they should be like McDavid/Draisaitl in the playoffs and COMPLETELY TAKE OVER EACH GAME ESPECIALLY SINCE THEY GET PAID THE MOST (other than Tavares)! It makes me shake my head because how does this team play so well in the regular season YET absolutely fall apart in the playoffs?? THIS IS YEAR 7 OF THEM PLAYING IN THE LEAGUE AND THEY HAVE ONLY ONE WON ROUND!!!

[sableeira]

rewriting the system my bachelor project is based on for the third time

[must4rds33d]

finished reading the tenant of wildfell hall just shortly after christmas!! perfect december book ❄️