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vivian-pascal · 1 year ago
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When you call my name, I won't answer
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stranger!joel x f!reader
summary: After a series of downfalls in your life, you meet a very mysterious man at a bar one night, you two seem to get along just fine.
warnings: piv (wrap it up) dirty talk joel, oral f!receiving, kissing, sexual tension, aftercare, fluff
authors note: hi folks! this is the 100 followers special, it's pretty short but i hope you enjoy it! i can't thank you all enough, this means a whole lot to me!
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On a cool, winters eve, you were sat at a bar drinking your usual cocktail. This is how you spent most nights, drinking, sleeping, drinking, sleeping and repeat. You'd been off the hook for a couple of months now and couldn't register what else to do with your life.
Your family abandoned you, you got fired from the only job you had, your three months past rent and can't afford to pay it, so what else is there than to drink all your worries away?
You've gone to this bar for many weeks. Even getting acquainted with the workers. They've considered you as a usual person here and even made the drink you first ordered a special on the menu.
You ordered your usual drink and sat in the same spot you always do. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary but you did sense someone's eyes on you. When you looked to your right, you saw some older folks sitting down in a booth, they surely weren't looking at you. When you look to your left however, there is an older man sat on a bar stool just a couple down from yours.
He had broad shoulders, salt and pepper hair, soft gruff growing around his face. His big, veiny hand held onto what you assumed was a glass of whiskey. He looked back at you and you quickly turned your head as to not seem you were staring.
The older man turns to you, his eyes clouded in thought. "You remind me of someone." You turn your head and look his way. "Oh yeah, and who might that be?" You quirk an eyebrow as you take another sip of your drink.
He slowly takes a deep breath in and picks up his glass. "Oh you know, just someone in a past life." He smirks at you and nods to the bartender to refill his drink.
You decide to inspect him more. He has a rugged and weathered appearance, his face is lined with only a certain amount of wrinkles, each telling a story of their own. His hair speckled gray, you could see he was quite strong with the way his shoulders were, broad and firm. There was a sense of mystery with this man, like there's something he isn't sharing yet.
His hands are rough and calloused from years of hard work. His voice a deep and resonant with a gravelly quality that adds to his charm and charisma. He wore a faded flannel with jeans, you could tell he was a simple man, adorned to his own sense of fashion.
When he turned back to look at you, he could tell you were checking him out. "What's your name?" You bring your eyes up to his and told him. He smiles at the sweet sound and repeats your name off his tongue. "That's a lovely name darlin'." You smile shyly and pull a hair behind your ear and ask him his. "M'names Joel."
You nod your head and begin to look around. You notice that he moved his stool closer to yours and you begin to squeeze your thighs together.
You both talk for a while, about work, past lovers, how you got fired. You like taking with Joel. He has this easiness that would allow you to say whatever you wanted and he would just listen. He would respond perfectly and laugh at your sarcastic jokes. He was an easy going man, and you were feral for him.
Time had past and you could feel the tension growing. Sometimes he would put his hand on your thighs or get very close to your face, like he wanted to kiss you.
"My daughter Sarah is comin home soon." He brings his glass to his lips and takes a drink. "Oh that's nice! Where is she now?" He puts his glass down and twirls his finger along the rim. "She's in college down south, been studyin abroad, wantin to become something in the medical field." You bring your purse up from your side and set it on the counter in front of you. "That's great, you must be very proud of her Joel." His face pulls into a sweet smile as he thinks of his little girl.
You open your purse and pull out your wallet. His hand quickly joins yours and you look him in the eyes. "That's fine, i'll pay." He smiles as he reaches for his leather wallet in the back pocket of his jeans. "Oh no, really, it's fine, i can pay." You call the bartender over and as your about to pay you get interrupted.
Joel manages to grab the bartender's attention first and hands him his card. He tells his to pay for your tab too and adds an extra tip. "You really didn't have to do that you know." He sits back on his stool as he downs the rest of his drink. "No, I didn't, but i did." He smirks as you roll your eyes.
The bartender returns with Joel's card and he puts it back in his wallet. You both stand up and begin to walk to the exit.
"You gotta ride?" He looks down at you and you shake your head no. "I walked here." He pauses and looks ahead. "You walked here all by yourself?" His southern drawl picks up more and you shiver at his voice. You nod your head as you near the parking lot. "Well I could give ya a ride, I ain't gonna let you walk back home alone now, who knows what happens to pretty girls like you around this hour." Your heart flutters at the thought that he called you pretty.
He gets to his truck and opens the passenger side door. "Hop in." You smile as you slowly climb into the truck. He shuts your door and walks back around to his side. He jumps in and starts the engine.
"Thank you Joel, this means a lot." He smiles softly and brings his hand to your face. His thumb strokes your cheek and rests his palm there.
"It's okay sweetheart, no need to worry. M'just helpin a doll out." He gives you a sly look as you close your thighs together and blush. A few minutes into the drive, you could feel the tension growing. His hand was resting on your thigh and would occasionally rise up to your waist.
"Oh, I didn't tell you my address sorry, it's-" He cuts you off with a pat on your leg. "That's alright darlin, we're goin to my place, if that's okay with you." You stare at him for a bit before nodding.
Once you two pull into his driveway, he parks the car and exits his vehicle. He goes around to your side and opens the door. You give him a quick smile as he takes your hand and helps you out.
You both walk up to the door and he pulls out his keys. When he opens it, your instantly pushed up against the back of the door as it closes. His lips crash onto yours and you moan at the kiss.
"I've been waitin to do this all night baby." He begins to pick you up and carry you upstairs. He throws you down onto the bed and you giggle at the fall.
He crawls up your body and up to your face. "How bout we loose the clothing yeah?" You nod your head as you frantically begin ripping off your shirt. His eyes immediately go to your breasts. Your bra isn't the best fit and they could easily fall out.
He reaches behind you and unclasps it. He groans at the sight of your bare breasts. He removes his shirt and throws it to the ground along with your clothes. He begins to slowly move down your body and in between your legs. He teasingly opens the buttons of your jeans and carefully pulls down the zipper.
You lift your hips in attempts to help him get them off. He grabs onto the top of your pants and forcefully pulls them off of you. He makes eye contact with your soaked panties and moans at the sight, He brings his middle finger up to your wet center and presses in firmly against the fabric. You grab onto the sheets at the sudden attention and arch your back.
He stops his movements for just a second as he removes your underwear. He has to stop himself from coming right then and there at the sight before him. "God baby, she's dripping for me."You moan at his remark and grab onto his hair.
He positions your legs over his shoulders as he begins to get to work. "Joel." You whine at the contact of his tongue seething into your weeping hole. He begins to lap at your arousal and you pull onto his hair roughly.
He begins to flick his tongue on your clit and you moan aloud as he speeds up. He shakes his head side to side and you arch your back further. He brings his hands to your thighs and pushes you down to keep you steady. His tongue goes back to your hole and submerges inside. His nose occasionally bumps your clit and that sends you wailing.
Your orgasm comes up quick and you pull his hair even tighter as he digs his nails into your thighs. The movements of his mouth begin to increase when he feels your body shake. You moan and whine his name as it washes over you. He drinks up all your juices as you rest your head back against your pillow.
He crawls over you and kisses your lips. You can taste the tangy flavor of your orgasms as he invades your mouth with his tongue.
"Ya ready f'me baby?" He begins to grind his erections against your soaked center and you moan at the friction. "Please Joel. I need you." He growls into your neck as he removes his pants and boxers. He lines his cock with your pussy and begins to rub his tip against your clit.
You just know he's big. You can feel the size of him just from his thrusts. He lines his cock with your hole and begins to seethe himself inside of you. Your mouth falls open as he inserts himself all the way in. He stays still for a moment and you wonder if something is wrong. "Joel please move." You grab onto his hair and pull him down for a kiss. "I know baby girl, just hold on for a minute." He rests his forehead against yours as he closes his eyes and takes a deep breath.
"Joel please just-" He begins to thrust into your soaking pussy at an exhilarating pace. The tip of his cock just hits your cervix and it sends you screaming. He grunts as he hears your pretty little sounds you make for him.
"Oh god Joel." You arch your back and open your mouth in a silent plea of how much pleasure you are feeling in this moment. "I know baby I know, I hear ya, taking it so well f'me." He brings his lips to yours and instantly speeds up.
His hips are thrusting at a pace you can't seem to keep up with and he groans when he feels you squeeze around him. Your heart rate picks up when you feel another orgasm begin to brim. He brings his hand to the bottom of your stomach and pushes down. You loudly moan when you feel this new sensation.
"God, I can feel myself all up in your fucking stomach." He growls and bites your neck as your orgasm begins to break. "Joel, I'm coming." You barely manage to get the words out as your vision goes white. The amount of pleasure has you rolling your eyes back and arching off the bed. He speeds up as his orgasm nears.
"Oh fuck baby, so goddamn tight." He bites down onto your shoulder as he spills his cum inside you. You walls become surrounded with a warm, sticky mess. His hips come to a stutter as his orgasm subsides. He instantly falls on top of you and closes his eyes.
He rolls over and begins to get out of bed. He grabs his boxers and puts them on. He walks out of the room and goes into the bathroom, he returns to you with a warm wash cloth and some water.
He opens your thighs and you wince at the soreness. He puts the cloth up to your pussy and slowly begins to wipe it down. He sets the water onto the bed and throws the towel into his hamper. He crawls back into bed and you huddle up to him.
"How ya feeling?" He gently stokes the top of your head as you breath in his scent. ''Fucking fantastic. " He chuckles at your remark and kisses the top of your head. "Goodnight darlin." He holds you closer as you wrap your arms around his middle. "Night Joel."
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@iamsherlocked-1998 @pinkcrystal44 @heartpascalispunk  @heartramen  @tupelomiss  @simplewanderer @ursagittariusgirlfriend  @amyispxnk @livingonthehems
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inknopewetrust · 4 months ago
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goodkidmadcity · 5 months ago
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when the fic was so good, you just sit and wish it was you there rn….
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solarmorrigan · 7 months ago
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So "Uptown Girl" released in 1983, and I feel like Steve would have sung it to Nancy sometimes, and she would humor him, because it was sweet, and he actually sounded pretty good when he wasn't doing it just to be goofy
Fast forward a few years, Eddie and Steve are dating, and they're sitting on the couch at Eddie's place one evening, comfortably high, Eddie noodling around on his acoustic and Steve just kinda vibing. And Eddie knows Steve likes Billy Joel, so he starts up with the tune of the first one he can think of: "Uptown Girl." And suddenly Steve's mouth is dropping open like he's just had some great realization
Eddie: What is it?
Steve, in a hushed voice: I'm the uptown girl
Eddie laughs so hard he falls off the couch
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moonpascal · 9 months ago
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self insert x canon will always hold a special place in my heart
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rumble-bee-art · 3 months ago
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Sometimes you do have to stomp on your music taste to properly serenade your crush (the uptown girl boy)
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pedgito · 21 days ago
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𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐒 | Joel Miller x reader
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part two– summary | It's a shitty situation, dependency brimming unspoken and one wrong move puts your life in danger and once again, you find yourself owing everything to Joel.
content warning | DDDNE — DUBCON, coercion, selective mutism on readers behalf, graphic depictions of violence, injury tw, attempted sa (briefly), brief mentions of pregnancy and procedures to prevent it, mean!joel, unhealthy coping mechanisms for trauma, all angst no fluff but a lot of emotion, smut (bc without it who am i), sex riding an adrenaline high after life or death situation, joel fucks you against a tree, showering together, weird domesticity, guilt-riddled joel, bed-sharing, unprotected piv, creampies, lots of progress made here i promise
author's note | part three will more than likely be out by the end of this month i promise! also thank you to everyone who's shown this story so much love, it means so much to me. this chapter is about as light as this story gets...so....sorry? <3
word count —9k
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They argue about you like you’re not standing a few feet away.
“She needs a job,” Tommy tells him, “Rules, Joel. Everyone pulls their weight—how this works.”
“You act like I don’t know that,” Joel gripes, “but what are you expecting her to do? She don’t talk, she refuses to go anywhere without me. She sure as hell ain’t gonna be much use workin’ the stables or fixin’ fences when she’s so goddamn skittish.”
Tommy shrugs, “Patrol, then.”
Joel’s eyes narrow, “Like hell,”
Another silent standoff you were more than happy to stay out of, the nylon of your coat scratching against itself as you take a couple steps back in the fear of an impending blow up.
“Give me another option then,” Tommy argues, “You just said she won’t leave your side—”
“She ain’t ready for that,” Joel says rather defensively, your brow furrowing at his disdain over the idea, ignoring the fact you were on the run for several weeks, surviving on your own—this was different.
Admittedly, you had clung to Joel.
He was safe, comfortable, and had become a strange sense of home in an unfamiliar place.
As much as he tried to act like it didn’t affect him, he’s grown used to your presence. Though, he’s set a hard boundary with you—no touching, keep your distance, and always make yourself known. You were always quiet, eerily so, and Joel hated that.
Tommy attempts to decipher Joel, staring at his brother, “You don’t think she can do it,”
“Both,” Joel admits, both of their eyes flickering toward you briefly, expressions unreadable.
“I think she’ll surprise you,” Tommy admits.
Joel shakes his head in a lazy disbelief, not believing an ounce of what Tommy is trying to convince him of, “We’ll see—but she’s with me, no one else. Not even Ellie.”
“Figured that,” Tommy retorts, “You’re goin’ out pretty far, we haven’t hit the lodge in a couple weeks. That alright?”
Your body tenses at the mention of it, but neither of them notice. Joel’s hand curls into a fist and flexes open, a nervous tic you’ve noticed about him when he was trying to steady himself, he nods silently in response.
When you both arrive back to the Miller home, Joel begins packing his bag up, already half-stuffed and switching out a few things. He tosses you a tattered bag, old and well-loved before he’s pointing toward the basement.
“A couple pairs of clothes, extra pair of shoes, nothing that ain’t a necessity—I’ll stock your pack with the other stuff come mornin’ before we head out,”
You had a night then.
There was only one lodge near Jackson that you could remember. It was the last time you saw them.
The men in tailored gear, embroidered with a gold patch that designated their status amongst the group. 
Trackers, seekers—they handled the recruiting, though often forced. They were glorified kidnappers, taking young men and women against their will if they were unfortunate enough to cross their path, but they also managed the hunting.
If someone escaped, they never came back in one piece.
Whether that was a shattered mind or a missing limb, it was never good.
The lodge was empty when you found it, just at the crest of winter when you had snuck in, fitting yourself into a sizable gap in the flooring covered by a wooden panel.
The men had been on your tail for days, tracking you through the miles of forests behind you and into the town.
Luckily, they were unsuspecting at that moment.
Your misfortune came later, but the lodge was a warning.
They were near, always near—you had no idea if they were still searching, even after a few weeks of settling in.
It was the unknown, the looming presence, that terrified you. 
They had an obligation to follow demands but most of them did it for sport.
It was never anything but a game.
Sleep is fickle that night, scratching at the rusted metal of your bed frame until it was caked under your nails, the soft hum of electricity above as it moved through Joel’s house, his soft footsteps as he woke, gentle as he strolled barefoot, eventually trading it for heavy footfall as his boots went on—it was early dawn when the tap came to your door, feigning sleep as you hid under the sheets.
Joel gives you a few minutes, pacing beyond the threshold.
His patience reminds you of the kind you used to wish for back when everything was different, back when you were nothing but a prisoner—you were pushing it, though. Even Joel’s patience would wear thin, making your best attempt to delay the patrol before he’s opening the door with a click, the key shoved into the mechanism before the door creaks open.
“Get up,” he barks, “we’re already late and holding up the rest of ‘em,”
You moan tiredly, barely audible, shuffling under the sheets, only for them to be ripped back in an instant.
“You’ve got about five seconds,” he warns, snatching your pack off the floor as he stands over you, daring to pry your eyes open to take a peek at him, “or I’m rippin’ you out of that bed,”
He catches your eyes as they open and his brow is cocked authoritatively, making your body move despite your apprehensiveness for the entire situation and Joel eyes you skeptically, stepping around you as you move with little enthusiasm.
“If you changed your mind, I can talk to Tommy,” Joel says with a tone that makes your chest tighten with fear—both of abandonment and helplessness, “I’m sure he’ll find somethin’ for you to do here while I go and—”
You stop in your tracks at his words, coat on and shoes barely slipped over your heel as you’re approaching him with immediate worry, shaking your head furiously as you grip onto his bicep, eyes pleading.
He’s always direct with you now, making sure your eyes connect with his. He’s learned to read you through facial expression and emotion, settling with the fact you weren’t going to speak to him, whether capable or not.
“Alright,” he sighs, and you shrug slightly but not enough to break your hold, “then hurry up.”
His voice carries the weight of a thousand other mornings like this, where silence and glances fill the space between you. He’s grown comfortable, surprisingly. He didn’t like how normal your presence had become or how you seemed to settle into his life easily.
“Probably make a few stops along the way,” Joel explains, “I took myself off patrol duty for this,” he means you, this, the burden of your situation and disruption, “the lodge is far but usually out there we aren’t dealin’ with much, less infected in the cold and all.”
But not people, you think.
He sees you tense at the mention, coat shrugging over your shoulders.
Last ditch effort. Anything.
Just change his mind.
You reach for his palm as he extends it face up, examining you carefully.
You tap your pointer finger into the center of his palm before pointing it at the floor, the hand holding his wrist tugging insistently.
Stay. A finger into his palm.
Here. A finger to the floor.
You repeat it a few times until he seems to understand through the silent communication.
“Stay..stay,” he begins, deciphering your message, “we’re not—no we’re not stayin’ here.”
Your face falls, instincts turning to drastic measures as you drop his hand, invading his space in a way he’s been careful to avoid, hands curling around the side of his face and the soft brush of his beard itching your palm before you’re leaning forward to press your lips against his own, eagerly pulling him toward you.
Joel’s quick, though. He rips your hands away, fingers tightening around your bicep harshly.
“Don’t try that shit again,” he growls, “ain’t no fuckin’ choice in you stayin’ here.”
You try to yank away from him but it was pointless.
“Are you gonna listen or do I need to drag you out?”
Your jaw tightens and you slackening under his grip and while he could let you go, he doesn’t.
You stumble behind as he pulls you with him, up the stairs, around the hall and into the living room until you’re standing at the door and he’s releasing you to jab a finger in your face, flinching with every flick as it grows closer, making you go nearly cross eyed. 
“You give me even the slightest amount of trouble while we’re out and I won’t hesitate to leave you behind,” Joel threatens, that sinking feeling of regret swirling in his gut the moment your expression softens.
She fucking trusts you, he reminds himself.
As slippery as that slope could be, he’s got a responsibility. 
You nod shakily and the tightness of his grip pierces your soul, immediately submitting to his hold as he jerks you to face forward and reaches around to grab the knob, chest pressed against your back as you step outside.
A swirling wind greets you, whistling its own kind of warning as Joel drags you through the brittle, dried grass. Your boots crunch against the frosty ground, doing your best to keep pace with him, breath puffing out in frantic clouds. Cold air bites your skin and the crunch of your boots, now on gravel, fills the silence between you. It’s tense. 
You follow him to the stable as he releases his grip on you, to the weapon compound, close at his side as he steers the horse to the front gate, looking rather apologetic to his brother who seems to sense the situation between you and Joel and quickly averts the watchful eyes of others with his voice, calling off the list of locations and names like a roll call.
“Get on,” he orders, softer now but still edged and you oblige, feeling a hovering touch of his hand over your thigh as you climb onto the horse and lean back, making room for him to climb on.
Joel’s arms snake behind him to wrap yours around his jacket before he grabs the reins and clicks his tongue. The horse hesitates, feeling your combined weight, then lurches forward. You cling to the saddle as Joel steadies you with a firm grip, holding you close as Jackson fades from view.
The solace you’ve come to appreciate slipping through your fingers, even if temporary, made the pit in your stomach grow rapidly.
The landscape stretches out in muted colors. Bare trees reach like fingers, tendrils to the gray sky and frost clings to their branches. Joel’s silence feels like a wall between you, and you bite your lip to fight the chill that’s creeping into your bones, shrugging the hood of your coat over your head as you bury your face in between his shoulder blades, eyes peeking over.
It’s a strange kind of comfort for Joel the way you settle into him, close and warm. 
As much as he tried to keep his distance, there was always a loophole.
“You gonna explain what that was back there?” Joel asks, knowing his questioning is pointless, the roar of the wind and the bumpy ride making it nearly impossible for any type of silent communication, “I don’t want you doin’ that anymore, thinkin’ you need to act that way to…I don’t know—do whatever you’re wanting to do,”
The landscape rolls by like a somber, black and white film strip; broken fences and abandoned cars sprouting from the ground, dead infected and rotting animals, houses abandoned. It wasn’t as normal now, living in a lively place with such a dichotomy only a ride away, reminding you just how temporary your life was in this world.
“Were you scared to leave Jackson?” he asks curiously, trying to decipher what he could.
You hesitate, unsure how to answer. It was a yes and no question—safe was anywhere with Joel, but you were still weary. You don’t answer immediately, so Joel assumed that wasn’t the problem.
“Is it the weather? Don’t like the snow?” you shake your head almost immediately, uncaring for the elements, finding that dying from frostbite or heatstroke were both equally miserable.
“The lodge?” he asks after a long, drawn out silence—the ride was still long, more difficult as the snow began to pick up, falling in thick sheets, “Is there somethin’ out here you ain’t told us?”
You shift slightly, the leather of Joel’s jacket creaking beneath your cheek. The question hangs heavy, like the snow. It’s too much to explain, the knot of reasons tangled inside you. You press your face into his back again, wishing you could dissolve into him and stay there. You feel his sigh before you hear it, learning the way his body works through touch and sound. It’s not disappointment—it’s understanding. 
But, that frightens you too.
Joel makes a few short stops along the way, simple checks on smaller lookouts that don't even require you to get off the horse, keeping watch as he was in and out within a couple of minutes, eyes always on you no matter where he moved.
You can sense the way his anger lingers in his face and the stiffness of his shoulders but his instinct to protect is stronger, shoving the sturdy emotion aside to traverse through the heavy storm until, hours later, the lodge comes into view, your heart hammering in your chest.
Your fingers tighten around the lapels of his jacket and he looks down, watching the way you strangle the fabric under your grip, shifting slightly on the saddle as he slows to a stop just inside the lodge before Joel helps you off the horse and ties him, leaving you for a moment that feels nothing short of a century, frozen in your spot as you hold your bag close to your chest.
“At some point you gotta start talkin’,” his voice startles you as it comes from the shadows, jacket stripped as he kneeled down at the fire pit near the center of the room, working quickly to warm the place up, “it ain’t about inconvenience either, it could get you killed.”
You move silently and sit nearby, eyes downturned and lips pulled tight.
It’s impossible to explain, the way your throat constricts at any attempt to speak, like a knee jerk reaction as you anticipate the strike of a hand or foot, a lash at your back or the hot prick of a cigarette into your skin. 
You still felt it occasionally, the phantom pain.
Your bottom lip trembles as they part, desperately wanting to make the attempt but knowing your body won’t let you out of self-preservation. Joel doesn’t see the struggle, but he can see your fingers fidgeting, restlessness laying in wait. 
“Did you bring your paper and pen with you?” Joel asks, sounding fatherly in a way that hints of a life lived and lost, “You can’t just ask the way you did this morning for no reason, I want answers,”
You nod obediently, riffling through your bag for the items.
Joel waits until they're in your hand and the fire crackles to life before he asks his first question.
“Is it the lodge? Is that why you wanted to stay in Jackson?” he asks, watching you scribble down a swift answer.
Yes. But, more.
He leans forward on his knees and into your space to read the scribbled note, sighing tiredly.
It isn’t what he wanted, obvious in the roll of his eyes.
“Explain,” He says tensely, “Stop bein’ so damn cryptic, I don’t like that shit,”
They followed me here. I hid. 
Joel’s face contorts in confusion.
“They followed you that far?”
It was their job. Bad men, all of them. They enjoy it. I hid and they didn’t find me. That time. I was worried they might find me again. They didn’t that time.
Joel examines the concentration on your phase as you write out the words, taking the notebook as you gently shove it into his palm, large fingers wrapping around the notepad.
“Who is they?” Joel asks, “You keep writin’ they,” his fingernail scratches over the word, leaving an indent in the paper, “We’re tight about patrols out here, we woulda saw ‘em. You sure it wasn’t someone else? Maybe just some random raider? They stroll through from time to time lookin’ for shelter.”
No. Not random. They wore emblems, gold and threaded to look like an anchor. There are men we serve, higher-ups. Then ones that follow a code, like an army. The men after me were hunters. Trackers. Do you understand? Not for animals.
“Sick fucks,” Joel says mostly to himself as he reads over your writing,
Don’t leave me. Please. I will do anything.
His earlier words echo in your head, seeming to cross his own mind at the same time.
You shove the notepad at him hastily, hands trembling slightly,
“Don’t get worked up," Joel says, voice a little gruff, "I’m not leavin’.”
Safe. He writes it out underneath your own words. 
Thick. Heavy. 
He nods.
Suddenly, as Joel feels around in his pocket as he stands, he comes across an object Tommy had handed him before he left, careful as he approaches you and reaches for your hand, pressing the solid weight of the object into it.
It was your knife, cleaned up and sharpened to a dangerous point.
Joel makes a noise of warning, fingers tight around your wrist.
“This ain’t yours to keep,” Joel explains, “jus’ while we’re out here, in case you come across an animal or something, it comes right back to me when we leave, understood?”
Begrudgingly, you nod.
“Put it away,” he instructed, watching as you closed the knife and stuffed it into your pocket.
You couldn’t explain it, but the frustration in him still simmered, unsure if it was because of you or not. Joel was a sorrowful man, carrying enough guilt for a thousand men—it could be that he was just having a day, desperate for a moment to himself.
It comes a while later after you’ve both settled in and the place was filled with warmth, “Keep watch, don’t wander—I’ll sleep for a couple hours then take over, got it?”
You nod quickly, perched on the wide, open window as you watch the snowfall. 
Something about it was oddly therapeutic, looking over to watch the scowl on Joel’s face soften as he fell into a deep slumber, leaning half reclined against a wall with his jacket balled up by his head to double as a pillow.
Hours pass without incident, thankfully. Joel said two, but it was already four and he was still sleeping, snoring now as he’s slumped down into a more horizontal position, growing slightly restless as the storm had calmed and the sun was shining overhead, desperate for a few moments of fresh air now that you were here, feeling comfortable enough in the quiet and with Joel’s presence that you could step out for a moment and breathe, putting on your shoes and coat quickly as you slipped out the back door of the lodge and watched a pair of birds on a branch as they hopped beside each other, chirping quietly.
You can’t remember the last time you’ve felt this calm or relaxed, glancing over at Joel sheepishly despite his obliviousness. 
You inhale deeply, letting the crisp, post-storm air fill your lungs. 
The lodge is silent behind you, save for the faint sound of Joel’s snoring. The fresh air feels like a relief, a moment of stillness that you hadn’t realized you needed. That you deserved.
Your eyes follow the pair of birds a moment longer, chirping softly to each other.
It’s peaceful—almost too peaceful. 
A small prickle of unease creeps up your spine, but you shake it off.
It’s just quiet. 
Nothing’s wrong.
Then—
You feel your throat swell.
The snap of a twig.
You freeze. The birds flutter away, startled. Your breath catches.
You don’t have time to turn before an arm locks around your chest, a rough hand clamping over your mouth. You couldn’t scream even if you wanted to.
“Oh, easy, ea-sy,” the stranger coos with a sickening softness, “don’t wanna wake him up, do ya?”
The faceless attacker holds you tight, something sharp and jagged at your back as he guides you backwards, further away from Joel.
Your pulse pounds in your ears as you struggle, but he’s strong. 
He reeks of sweat and damp clothes, his grip unyielding.
"You people think you’re so damn careful… but you’re just easy pickings if you ain’t watchin’,” he sounds so smug and amused, greedy as he dragged you further and further away, feet stumbling out beneath you as you fell into the snow against him, a grunt shooting from his chest but ultimately it was followed by a spine-chilling chuckle, a hand slipping underneath the material of your shirt and over your abdomen, “been camped out here all day watchin’ you both, thought you were a dime, though–couldn’t pass up the opportunity,”
You twist sharply, managing to get free, clawing at his arm as you shove it away. He grunts in irritation but grabs at your ankle, yanking you back down as you fall to your ass, silently groaning at the pain.
"Feisty," he mutters. "I like it. Ain’t much fun otherwise."
You’ve fought for your life plenty of times and this was no different.
It shouldn’t surprise you that misfortune met you at every turn, allowing yourself to fall into a false confidence only to be disappointed once more as the man looms over you, a shadow of menace. You kick wildly, connecting with his shin. A low snarl escapes him.
“Little bitch,” he hisses, shaking his leg as if to brush off the sting. 
But, it gives you a moment to scramble backward on your hands and heels, snow biting at your palms as you shoved your hand into your pocket to find your knife, watching as he stalked toward you in a pure rage, opening your mouth in a scream you know will never come, but then he’s tripping, scrambling to catch his bearings over you.
The tip of the blade slices through his guts like butter, feeling the bile rise in your throat at the sensation and the warm spread of blood over your hand, desperately trying to force his weight off of you, but his hands finds your face, thumbs reaching for your eyes in any attempt to injure you but then there’s a shot ringing out, startling the both of you.
Simultaneously, the man jerks violently, his hands going slack around your face as he falls with a gurgling choke. Blood flows down his neck and onto you, drenching your clothes in a way that makes you want to crawl out of your skin.
You scramble to your knees, backing away without looking toward the gunman as you panic, wiping the blood from your skin and into the snow, desperate to rid yourself of the thick fluid before Joel’s invading your space, fingers tightening into your coat to yank you upright as he shoves you back against a tree, blinded with pure rage.
He had saved you. He was angry, sure. But, he saved your life. Again.
“Are you fucking stupid, girl?!” he asks, his tone tight and harsh, met with a meek nod.
“Wrong answer,” He snaps, “I said two hours, then you wake me. I said not to wander and you did—so answer me again, are you—fucking stu—”
He doesn’t register that sting of your teeth in his bottom lip until your hand curls around the back of his neck, tongue spearing into his mouth as his mouth parts in surprise, your fingers tangling into his hair as you pull him into the kiss. 
Thank you, it breathes.
His grip slackens for the briefest moment before turning to steel again, fingers knotted in your clothes, twisting and pulling you closer. The violence of him feels like a lifeline, like something sure and solid in this brutal world. He’s safe. 
Safe.
He shoves you harder against the tree, rough bark biting through your coat as his teeth gnash against yours, tangled breaths turning to steam in the cold.
Your head spins, heart shuddering up into your throat, and you lose yourself in the way he feels, like fury itself. His hand moves from your clothes to splay over your belly, warm and forceful where the knife was just seconds before on your attacker who lay lifeless on the snowy ground.
You can’t stop thinking. 
The coppery taste of blood lingers everywhere: on your clothes, on the dead man, on Joel’s mouth now. The snow around you is red-stained as his hands roam over you, your own hands mirroring his unspoken neediness as you tear into the belt of his jeans, feeling him undo your own in tandem, unable to look one another directly in the eye at that moment, desperate for connection by other means.
He shouldn’t be allowing this, but the urge to consume your gratitude is stronger.
His thumb fumbles with the button of your jeans, and you’re practically writhing to get them off, burning up despite the chill. You sigh internally as he manages to get them free, yanking them far enough down your thighs before he’s turning you against the tree.
The world fades around you; it’s just him, just you, each breath mingling as he frees himself from his pants. You feel his heat press against you, insistent, frenzied, somehow apologetic as it fits between your thighs.
You feel his fingers fit between your legs and spread between your folds like instinct but you’re shaking your head, hand clawing at back of his neck as you arch your ass into him, a silent plea for him to just fuck you instead, needy as you bring his mouth to yours with a distinct hunger, swallowing up his ragged breaths as he rubs his thumb and pointer finger over the head of his cock and through your slick before he’s stretching you open with little grace, mouth open in a silent gasp as your free hand grabs at his hip.
“Fuck,” he breathes into your mouth, words dissolving into a groan as he sets an unrelenting pace. The tree bark is rough against your skin, but you don’t care, the rawness of it only adds to the frenzy growing between you. Hastily undressed and filthy, the kiss-smudged blood across his face smearing into yours.
He’s practically holding you up like this, his grip slipping over your hips as his mouth finds your neck, biting down just enough to bruise or draw blood of your own, not entirely sure.
His thrusts breath raw desperation, nails clawing at bare skin as he hisses into your neck.
There’s nothing soft about it, no measured rhythm, just a brutal need for each other. 
Joel is acutely aware of the way your body is responding to him, silent sobs racking your chest as you pull him impossibly closer, “I gotcha,” he says, “I feel you, you’re gonna give it to me, aren’t ya? S’right there, I feel it,”
And he wants it more than he was comfortable admitting to himself, the satisfaction of filling the insatiable need you had craved from him.
His hand snakes over your mouth, smothering sounds that would never surface, but the gesture is heady, biting at the skin of his palm until you knew it would sting.
Desperation blurs into pleasure, and you feel it shuddering through you like an electric current and the world comes rushing in again all at once: the cold air nipping at sweat-slick skin, branches clawing at your chest like a bitter, jealous lover. It’s hard to tell, the way you both are clawing at this for dear life, but you think this is maybe as close as the two of you have ever been, filthy and frantic and burning up together as you come, feeling Joel pull out in enough time to spill into his fist, low and drawn-out grunts that had you cunt pulsing, resting dissociatively against the tree.
It was the most human you’ve felt in years.
“Get inside,” Joel says suddenly, pulling you back to reality—surprisingly, his voice is calmer.
And for once, you don’t argue.
Joel watches you change, trading the bloodied clothes for fresh ones and wiping you down in between, a silent but intimate gesture that neither of you outwardly address, eyes scanning his face carefully as he taps at your chin so he can wipe underneath your neck.
And you don’t speak about it.
Joel doesn’t even acknowledge it.
He takes care of the body, stays on watch despite your quiet persistence to help
But, as your hand trembles at your side as you approach him beside the fire pit, his fingers thread into your own, a heavy weight holding you down until it stops shaking. You can feel the small tremor on his own, harbored for different reasons. But, it calms him too.
You felt like there was finally equal ground to stand on.
When you arrive back in Jackson a couple days later, Joel relays information about the raider with some omissions, only suggesting that there be more frequent checks, but as you and Joel settle into a routine, things become almost…too easy.
He’s always expectant of your knife the moment you approach the gates, handing it over without problem, but just as easily sliding it into your own as you settle into your patrol spot for whatever rotation you both ended up on, still increasingly weary around others that weren’t Joel, you find a similar protection with Tommy, though not entirely comparable. 
Tommy only took you out so far as to teach you how to shoot and clear out infected that were a safe enough distance they couldn’t do any real harm, only swarms passing through.
Joel still hasn’t initiated any touch with you since that day, but his actions are increasingly more intimate despite his body language around you—though, that doesn’t mean he stops you.
Maybe it was how he justified his own righteousness, that he was absolving himself of the guilt that he had knowingly allowed you to attach yourself to him, almost selfishly.
With Ellie’s growing independence becoming more and more obvious, Joel leans toward your odd connection and the ease it brings to his routine.
You’re shivering over a cup of coffee one morning despite your layers and blanket wrapped around your shoulders, the chill making your bones ache.
“You can sleep up here, you know,” Joel tells you, “the couch is comfortable, s’close to the fire, too.”
You shrug nonchalantly, sipping softly at the strong brew.
“Sleep up here,” he tries again, a command, your hesitation curling around the steaming cup as your eyes connect, nodding hesitantly.
His mug scuffs the counter as his fingers curl around the ceramic, his hip settling into the edge as he leans into the surface and you meet him with an honest gaze.
“Are you only agreeing because I’m tellin’ you to?”
Sheepishly, you nod.
Joel doesn’t harp on it, though. It was a small battle won, less worry of you catching frostbite or a cold down in the basement, your presence more apparent as you move into the neutral living space, there when he wakes and when he retires for the night, quiet and somber.
Then, there was an instance with the shower that became routine. 
Your skin caked with dirt and re-opened cuts crusted with days old blood, a particularly rough run-in with a group of infected that Joel had dealt with mostly, you trailing close behind and taking out the few stragglers.
Joel always opted for privacy anymore—save the moment at the lodge when you had shed your blood stained clothes and Joel had to make sure none of it was your own, but your body was exhausted as was your mind, losing your footing as you stumbled into the sink and made a soft noise that Joel’s never heard before.
He’s never heard anything from you, really. 
Only your breathing, heavier in moments of anxiety or despair, but soft as you slept.
You were hunched over the tub and half-dressed, your head pounding as the blood rushed there, eyes squeezing shut as you bit at the inside of your cheek and Joel’s presence is there, but far, hovering near the door as he just needed eyes on you to confirm you weren’t hurt.
As the door closes and you’re pushing back to your feet, you yank it back with a similar strength and Joel watches your hand reach for him, curling in the fabric of his shirt as you silently plead for him to come closer.
Help me, your eyes plead.
Quietly, you guide the shirt over his head and his mind finally catches up, reaching behind you as he turns the water on until the bathroom was smothered with steam, his eyes wondering anywhere but you as you both stepped in naked under the stream, guided by Joel to turn away as he washed you in silence, careful and methodical, leaning into his touch as his fingers curl around the back of your neck to wash your hair.
It happens once or twice again, based around the frequency of patrols and whenever the house was empty and though Joel is hesitant to your touch, eventually he gives in, eyes usually closed as you face him, hands tugging through his dirtied hair and over his chest, a low rumble as your fingers curl a little too low, grazing over the curve of his ass before his fingers catch your wrist and his eyes pry open, shaking his head.
Eventually, his resolve fades.
He tries, but your persistence is steadfast, growing needful to his proximity in every facet of your life and the kisses are shy at first, gentle presses to his shoulder or arm, occasionally over his chest or neck, his hands hovering but never touching without necessity. 
He doesn’t like to talk, either. But, he became familiar with the scar on your lower abdomen, just above your pelvis and thick, the skin clearly marred but not like the others on your body.
You always guide his hand away out of discomfort, unsure how to explain without using words.
Though, given what you’ve told him and the behaviors you’ve exhibited, Joel can make a guess.
He blurts it out one night as you shower until the water grows cold.
“They take something from you?” he asks, already knowing the answer.
You nod slightly, hands curving over his shoulders to dig into the muscle and knead, his eyes downturned and dark, intimidating as always.
The doctors performed a salpingectomy on many, including you, unsafe and at risk of death given the environment and lack of understanding, there was no telling what kind of damage they had done, but the most important part was that reproduction was null, some sick and twisted belief to keep women obedient and available. 
You don’t remember much, but it was years ago.
Your face heats as you mimic a pregnant belly, ignoring how his hand guides over your breast with the soapy rag as you lock eyes with him, shaking your head.
His face twitches emotionlessly, nostrils flaring, “I’m sorry,” and he means it.
Joel remembers the harsh accusation he’d thrown at you, assuming your motives without understanding or knowing, but this—it gives him perspective. 
A few hours later, you wake from a night terror.
It was dark, pitch black and quiet, but you couldn’t move.
Your mouth opens to scream but nothing comes out, thrashing against invisible bindings until you come to, Joel’s hands locked around your shoulders to keep you still, shaking you back to reality.
“Hey, hey,” his voice is an instant drug that soothes, eyes ripping open and searching frantically until they land on his face, “breathe, kid—you’re here, not there,”
Joel knew—of course he did.
He stays until you calm, pushing up on your hands to sit up and reaching for his arm as he stands, repeating the same gesture in his palm that he’s come to understand, crystal clear.
Stay, you gesture.
“Okay,” he agrees quietly, but you’re pulling him closer, fingers curling against his sides and Joel shakes his head, giving you some resistance, “nono—ain’t enough room for that, alright?”
Your grip tightens, begging.
Joel exhales through his nose in defeat, his hands twitching slightly where they still hold you. 
He doesn’t even need to ask, your footsteps following closely behind his own as he turns, padding back toward his room down the hall, slipping into his bed and under the sheets without a word, the weight of him next to you enough to settle your anxiety.
The second time you crawl into his bed, it’s after another nightmare. 
He doesn’t say anything—just lets out a tired sigh and shifts over, leaving space for you. You don’t touch him, not at first. Just tuck yourself into the blankets, facing away, the tension in your body easing just enough for sleep to take hold.
Then, it happens again. And again.
Every night, the same thing. 
You slip in, quiet as ever, and Joel tells himself it’s fine. That he can keep his distance.
But, you always end up entangled by the time you wake.
Your cheek pressed into his chest. His arm curled protectively around your waist. 
His breath in your hair.
Him, around you.
Joel knows he should stop this. 
He should tell you to stay in your own damn bed.
That it ain't right.
That he can’t be what you need him to be.
One night, he’s not asleep when you slip into his bed.
He feels the mattress dip, the hesitant pause before you settle in beside him, close but not touching. Joel keeps his eyes shut, breath steady, pretending he doesn’t notice.
But, then your fingers ghost over his wrist, then around his waist, your knee shifting between his thighs as you curl into him and nuzzle against his neck, lips pressing into his pulse point.
He stiffens. Feels you hesitate, then try again, pressing a kiss into the sensitive skin of his neck.
"Kid," he mutters, voice low, warning.
He can feel the neediness in your touch, eyes flicking up shyly to look at him as he bows his head to look down at you.
"You do everything I tell you to," he murmurs, and he’s right—voice rough with sleep. "If I told you to go back to your own bed, would you listen?"
Silence.
Then, your fingers tighten slightly where they’re wrapped around him. A slow shake of your head to answer his question and a sigh from him that follows, it shakes the room.
It’s defeat.
Your lips brush against his jaw first, tentative, testing. When he doesn’t stop you, you press again, slower this time. Then lower, over the rough stubble of his throat.
Joel lets out a slow, shuddering breath. His hand finds your waist, fingers curling tight before forcing himself to loosen his grip.
His fingers twitch against your waist, the calloused pads pressing firm into the soft give of your skin. His breath is heavy, slow, controlled—because he has to be.
“Shouldn’t be doin’ this,” he says, but it’s weak, “can’t be.”
A hollow protest. 
You don’t say anything, just tilt your head, lips tracing along his pulse, feeling it thrum beneath your mouth, slow and steady. He’s always so calm, a constant beat that never skipped or faltered.
He exhales sharply, his grip tightening. “Christ,” he breathes, head tipping forward until his forehead brushes against yours. “You don’t listen worth a damn, do you?”
You shake your head again, more deliberate this time.
His eyes flick to yours, dark and searching, like he’s looking for something—one last excuse to push you away. 
But there’s nothing—he’s guilty for the need of this too.
And then you’re pulling him down, lips pressing against his, soft but insistent, and any last restraint he had left crumbles in an instant.
Joel groans against your mouth, deep and wrecked, his hands still hesitant to touch, only allowing it as you initiate, dragging his hand to your waist and down, under your thigh until he’s hiking your leg over his hip.
His lips part, teeth grazing your bottom lip before he kisses you again, harder, deeper, like he needs this just as much as you do. Like he’s just as desperate for it.
He is.
Joel pulls you closer, his hands gripping at your waist. His lips are slow at first, searching, but when you whimper against his mouth, something inside him snaps. It’s a sound he hasn’t heard, the first he’s ever heard, surprising yourself as the sound slips out, throat immediately collapsing on itself in fear, awaiting the hands that wrap tight around your throat and suffocate.
Instead, his hand fists in the fabric of your shorts, curling around your hip as your core drags over his groin, his quickly hardening cock pressing against the inside of your thigh.
"You don’t even think twice, do you?" he rasps against your lips, his breath warm and unsteady. "Just do whatever the hell I tell you without arguing?”
You nod, fingers threading into his hair, tugging just enough to make him groan. You nod, pressing a kiss to the corner of his mouth. With your muteness, it meant Joel’s eyes had to be on you, constantly waiting and searching for communication.
It made you feel special, the way he was attentive to you at all times.
Your thumb drags over his lip as you pause for a moment, letting the weight of his words sink in.
His eyes darken, something unreadable flickers across his face, and his hands still for a moment too, resting heavy on the bare skin of your leg.
“That ain’t always a good thing,” he tell you, but he’s already leaning back in, following the push into his shoulder as you raise your leg over his abdomen to straddle him, pressing him into the mattress as you grind down into him.
Somehow you know he’ll follow, that he won’t resist. 
He’s guilty, too—doesn’t ever think twice when it comes to you. That’s what eats at him the most—how easily you give in to each other. How willingly.
Your hands skim down his chest, nails scratching lightly over the thick hair there, down to his stomach, lower—until he catches your wrist, shaking his head.
"Slow down," he murmurs, voice strained, rough around the edges as your hips moving at a leisurely pace, glancing down to admire the thickness of his shaft as the fabric hugged around him, leaving no part of him to imagination, the thick trail of hair that disappeared beyond his waistband, "You don't gotta—"
You shake your head, mouth hung open in silence as your eyes fall shut.
A groan rumbles low in his chest as he lets go of you, hands falling to his side as lets you use him, slowly realizing what this moment was for you.
A reclamation of your own pleasure and autonomy, using his body for release that did nothing to benefit him outside of the wonder that bloomed into his features as you move more frantic, fabric bunching up higher at your hips as you chase your high, working toward the crest of your orgasm that you just couldn’t reach, face scrunching up in annoyance as you start to hit as his chest with soft blows, seemingly frustrated.
Joel knows what you need, skin against skin, flush connection.
You look up at him with a pout that pleads, screaming out.
And this time, he doesn’t stop you as you shift, a fury of limbs as you remove your shorts with impatience, tossing them to the floor as you tug at his sweats, his cock bobbing heavy and free, just far enough down his thighs that you can see how his balls tighten at your touch, taking a moment to admire him this way, his face contorted into something unreadable as your thumb slides over his slit, leaking with precum and his tip a blushed red.
Joel lets out a strangled breath, his head tilting back against the pillow as your fingers wrap around him, slow and deliberate, dragging over the length of him with just enough pressure to make his stomach tense.
He breathes slowly, his hands twitching at his sides, like he’s resisting the urge to touch you. 
To guide you. Teach you.
But he won’t—he lets you take what you need, lets you move at your own pace. 
You shift upwards, lining yourself up with him, the heat of your slick cunt teasing against his length, dragging up and down as you shudder at the feeling, the head of his cock sliding against your clit, the shlick of your bodies as they move against each other.
His jaw clenches, muscles taut as he watches.
Your fingers curl against his skin, nails pressing into him as you take all of him, inch by inch.
He finds himself waiting for a sound, silently begging for it, curious if you would sound as wrecked as he did, grunting when you’re seated fully, the burn mixing with pleasure so intense it makes your head fall forward. 
Joel’s breath stutters. His hands find your waist with your guidance, squeezing tight, like this was your attempt in trying to get him to ground himself too. He doesn’t move, doesn’t thrust up into you—just lets you adjust, lets you take him however you want. 
“Fuck,” he grunts, voice wrecked. “You feel that?” You nod, biting your lip, rolling your hips experimentally. A pleasurable ache growing in your gut. He groans, low and guttural, his fingers digging into your flesh. “That’s it,” he breathes. “Take what you need.” 
And you do.
You start slow, your hands braced against his chest, feeling the taut muscle beneath your palms as you roll your hips, testing, searching for something you’re not sure of. The stretch is deep, almost too much, but it’s what you want—what you need.
Joel’s hands grip your waist, like he’s holding himself back, like if he lets go, he’ll take over. 
But he doesn’t. He just watches, dark eyes hooded, jaw tight as you find your rhythm.
He exhales through gritted teeth, watching the way you move, the way your body trembles every time you take him deeper, your breasts shifting under your shirt as you bounce, finding himself speaking before the words filter, like his pleasure has a mind of its own.
"You always listen so well, don’t you?"
Your breath hitches at the praise, the smallest whimper slipping from your lips, and Joel's fingers tighten on your hips, not guiding you, but steadying you, anchoring you to him. You’ve never made sounds like this before, not even by accident.
With him, the fear of retaliation has begun to ease. Each noise that slips isn’t met with anger or rage, but astonishment, eyes widening in wonder.
“You like that?” he asks, voice rough, like it’s been dragged down a gravel road, "Doin’ what you’re told?"
You nod frantically, grinding down harder, desperate for more.
For him, you think. Only for him.
Give me safety. I’ll give you everything.
He curses under his breath, his restraint fraying at the edges. "Fuck—look at you," he groans, his fingers digging into your flesh now, a warning, his own control slipping. "Takin’ me so fuckin’ good."
A shudder runs through you at his words, your walls fluttering around him, making him hiss.
"Keep goin'," he murmurs, lifting up slightly as he settles on an elbow, the thumb of his free hand stroking your skin, the tension in his body betraying how much effort it takes to stay still, “I feel ya, how bad you need it,”
Your fingers reach for him, prying his grip from your waist and guiding his hands up, over your body, pressing them against your breasts, your stomach, anywhere you can, until he gets it—until he stops holding back. He rises to meet you, arms wrapping around your waist similar to how you had cornered him on the couch in the basement, but the implication is different.
A deep, guttural groan escapes him, and then his hands are moving on their own, sliding down to grip your ass, to spread you wider as he thrusts up into you, slow but deep, pushing a broken moan from your throat.
"Yeah?" he rasps in surprise, voice strained. "Is that what you wanted?"
You nod helplessly, nails scraping over his chest as you try to keep up with his pace, but Joel doesn’t let you. He takes over now, fucking up into you with long, deliberate strokes, each one dragging a whimper from your lips.
More sounds, he needed more sounds.
"You gotta tell me," he pleads, his grip almost bruising now. "I need to hear it."
You open your mouth, but all that comes out is a breathy gasp, your head falling forward against his shoulder, and Joel growls, wrapping the arm around your back tight to keep you pressed against him.
"Say it," he demands, voice thick with need as he looks up at you, "Tell me what you need. I know you can—you’re doin’ so good," It was such a stark contrast, the praise.
Your lips part, voice shaky, barely above a whisper and broken, your voice foreign to your ears as it leaves your mouth
"You."
Joel freezes beneath you, stilling for half a second, something unreadable flickering across his face before it’s gone, replaced with something darker, something deeper.
He wants to fucking ruin you and build you back up watching as the tears form in your eyes, knowing what the action meant, the energy and bravery it took, he doesn’t push it aside.
His chest rises sharply against yours, breath stalling like he’s not sure he heard right. His fingers twitch against your skin, gripping tighter, but he doesn’t move. Doesn’t speak.
You feel the weight of it, the shift in the air. 
His pulse hammers against your palm where you press against his throat, his body locked beneath you like the words had cut him deeper than any knife ever could.
Your voice.
You’ve never spoken before.
Not to him. Not to anyone.
And now, with your body wrapped around him, shaking, desperate, it’s him you ask for. 
Him you need.
His name is on the tip of your tongue, but you don’t say it. 
You just press closer, urging him with slow rolls of your hips, hoping he understands, hoping he doesn’t make you say it again—because you don’t think you can.
And then, Joel moves.
Slowly. Carefully.
His hands roam, sweeping over your back, your waist, fingertips ghosting over the curve of your ribs like he’s memorizing you, feeling you breathe. His touch is softer now, reverent, as if the moment itself has changed, evolved into something neither of you expected.
You nod to an unasked question, pressing your lips against his cheek, his jaw, anywhere you can reach, trying to coax him back, trying to keep the moment from slipping away.
His hips snap up, slow but deep, dragging a soft, broken moan from your throat that makes his grip tighten. A noise barely audible.
"That’s it," he breathes, his voice thick with something you can’t explain. His hands guide you now, steady but unrelenting, moving you with him, driving deeper, harder, every roll of your hips pulling another sound from your lips, another shudder from your body.
He drinks in every noise, every gasp, every trembling sigh like it’s the most precious thing in the world. Collecting them all and committing them to memory.
"Keep talkin’ to me," he mutters, voice ragged, desperate. "Let me hear you."
But, you can’t.
The pleasure is too much, coiling tight, pulling you under, and all you can do is cling to him, gasping against his throat as your body starts to shake through your orgasm. The energy it takes to speak, the courage bleeding you dry. You’d lost your voice again.
Joel feels it—your unraveling, your breaking, the way your walls flutter around him—and it undoes him completely. Your hands cradle your face, tilting his head back so you can see him, his dark eyes burning into yours as he thrusts up hard as he spills inside of you, not entirely thinking as he does it.
"That’s it, baby," he praises, “Keep squeezin’ me, I’m right here,”
And for a long moment, neither of you move. 
The only sound is his ragged breaths, the pounding of your heart.
His lips brush your collarbone, his breath warm against your skin.
"You," he murmurs to you, soft, like it means something to him too.
Maybe it does, you weren’t sure.
He reaches you this way, through connection and touch.
Sex or something similar, the intensity of the moment clouding your thoughts and relaxing your worry, and his too.
It was a give and take with each other, distracting Joel from his constant stream of troubling thoughts and worries, still never approaching you—it was always under your guidance.
Maybe it’s selfish. Maybe it’s wrong. But every time your hands find him, every time you press yourself into his space, silently asking for comfort, for connection, he gives in.
The moment you touch him, the constant, gnawing dread in his mind quiets.
Just for a little while. And selfishly, he needs it.
Your fingers trail up his chest, light, uncertain, tracing the scars like a map. Joel watches, his breath slow and steady, his muscles tense beneath your touch—but he doesn’t stop you.
He never does.
You cornered him in the kitchen this particular night, his hands curled over the edge of the sink with his head hung, chest heaving like he had just woken up from his own nightmare, sneaking out of bed but not quite enough that you wouldn’t notice.
When you press your lips against his skin, soft and searching, he exhales like he’s been holding it in for too long. 
Like you were the answer.
"You sure?" he asks, his voice rough, low, but there’s no demand in it. 
No expectation. 
Only restraint. 
He’s not sure how much longer he can hold back, between the constant time spent together and the nights spent inside of you, allowing your greediness to take hold.
He pushed his own aside, stuffed until it was boiling over.
You nod, and that’s all it takes.
His hands find your waist, pulling you against him, guiding you the way you he needs, the way he knows you need too, his grip firm, like he’s holding something fragile—something breakable.
That's what this was, after all.
A delicate balance. A silent understanding.
You give each other this, and in return, he gives you himself, as do you—fully, completely, no barriers, no walls.
When he moves it is slow and deliberate, when his mouth finds your throat and his fingers grip your neck, guiding you against and up on the counter, fingers spreading underneath your top before it’s torn over your head, it was all the same. His palms curve around your neck, pulling you toward him as his lips capture yours in a surprisingly tender kiss, lips parting immediately as his tongue licks along your own, mirroring his touch as you spread your legs to make room for him. 
You don’t need anything else but this.
Only this.
Only him.
Only you.
But, there’s that gnawing in Joel’s chest that makes him out to be the monster he knows he can be, taking advantage of your trauma and pushing your limits, using you like you’ve been used before.
He’s no better, he thinks.
If anything, he’s worse.
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blckbrrybasket · 7 months ago
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𓆩 𓉸 𓆪 Kinktober 2024
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• MDNI! porn with little plot
• all of these are x reader with no use of y/n
• both female and gender neutral readers featured
꒰33k+ words total꒱
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1st. — “Hotter than a Burning Fire”
        -> Face sitting + Inexperience, Robin Buckley
2nd. — “Give and Take”
        -> Squirting + Edging, Steve Harrington 
3rd. — “Bite her Hip”
        -> Caught + Hate Sex, Nancy Wheeler
4th. — “Yer Killin’ Me”
        -> Boot Worship, Arthur Morgan
5th. — “Girls on Film”
        -> Being Filmed, Mickey Altieri
6th. — “Heaven in Your Mouth”
        -> Throat Fucking + Breath Play, Rafe Cameron
7th. — “Closer”
        -> Mutual Masturbation + Forbidden, Robin Buckley 
8th. — “Oh Honey”
        -> First Time + Domination, Kurt Kunkle
9th. — “Hearts a Mess”
        -> Public Sex + Gag, Art Donaldson
10th. — “Ghosting”
        -> Under the table, Javier Peña
11th. — “Burning For You”
        -> Sleepy Sex + Cockwarming, Sejanus Plinth
12th. — “She’s in Parties”
        -> High sex, Rafe Cameron
13th. — “Melting With You”
        -> Double Penetration, Stu and Mickey
14th. — “As You Are”
        -> 69, Ellie Williams
15th. — “Of Love For Love”
        -> Cream Pie + Cum Play, John ‘Soap’ MacTavish
16th. — “Maneater”
        -> Dacryphilia + Masochism, Kurt Kunkle
17th. — “What I Need”
        -> Degradation + Cum Eating, Ethan Landry
18th. — “I was made for loving you”
        -> Praise Kink + Body Worship, Steve Harrington 
19th. — “Takin’ Time”
        -> Spanking + Orgasm Denial, Joel Miller
20th. — “Sweet As Whiskey”
        -> Blood Kink + Period, Vampire!Eddie Munson
21st. — “Wind You Up”
        -> Hair Pulling + Rough Sex, Trevor (Hellraiser)
22nd. — “Eyes On Me”
        -> Bondage + Femdom, Agent Whiskey
23th. — “Show and I’ll Learn”
        -> Sex Toys, Robin Buckley
24th. — “If You Knew”
        -> Overstimulation + Wet Dream, Joel Miller
25th. — “Hell And You”
        -> Mask Kink + Knife Kink, Stu Macher
26th. — “You’ve Got Me Now”
        -> Dry Humping + Tipsy Sex, Eddie Munson
27th. — “Happy Birthday, Baby”
        -> Lingerie + On The Counter, Walter ‘Keys’ McKey
28th. — “Quit While Ahead”
        -> Pussy slapping, Rafe Cameron
29th. — “Love My Way”
        -> Scissoring, Tara Carpenter
30th. — “Suck It Up”
        -> Marking + Possessiveness, Love Quinn
31st. — “Body Electric”
        -> Cucking + Breeding Kink, Eddie Munson and Steve Harrington
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justagalwhowrites · 4 months ago
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Fucksgiving 2k24: Growing Family
You and Joel try to patch things up with your father while starting a family of your own. A Thanksgiving oneshot in the Stranger in a Bar universe.
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^This is how I pictured this Joel as I was writing, with his lil tie on. Sorry not sorry.
Pairing: DBF!Joel x Female Reader (from Stranger in a Bar)
Length: 3.8k
CW: BREEDING KINK. Unprotected P in V for obvious reasons. Planning for pregnancy. Age gap (Joel is 20 years older, reader is 35 and Joel is 55.) Reader's dad is kind of a dick. No outbreak AU. Can be read as a stand alone fic with the understanding that Joel was reader's dad's bestie and he and reader are living together after dating years prior. No use of Y/N, minors DNI 18+ only.
A/N: Here's something to read while you navigate your own Thanksgiving dinner situations which are, hopefully, less awkward than this one. Happy Thanksgiving!!
“I mean it,” you said, clutching the casserole dish of mashed potatoes tightly to your stomach. “Best. Behavior.” 
“When am I ever not on my best behavior?” Joel asked, his hand on the small of your back possessively. 
You stopped in the middle of the drive on the mercifully long walk to your parents’ front door to stare at him, incredulous. 
“When are you?” You asked, brows raised. “I don’t think I’ve ever seen you behave yourself, not once, especially not where my dad is involved…” 
“Alright,” he chuckled good naturedly. “I’ll do my best.” 
“You’d better,” you said. “He’s just coming around to this, OK? I’d rather not blow it.” 
“I know, baby,” he said, kissing your temple. “I’ll be good. Promise.” 
“Thank you,” you said, continuing up to the front door.
“Your dad needs to behave too, though,” Joel said, sticking close to you. “Because I’m not gonna just let him say the same shit he always does, I don’t care.” 
“Please try,” you said, ringing the doorbell. “If you do, I’ll make it worth your while.” 
“Really?” He asked, his voice husky. “Dyin’ to know what you mean by that.” 
“I mean,” you said, keeping your voice low. “Given how much I want to fuck your brains out, I’m pretty sure I’m ovulating and I can think of all kinds of ways you can try to knock me up - hey Mom!” 
“Hey, honey!” Your mom opened the door and pulled you in for a hug. You just caught Joel’s expression out of the corner of your eye, his mouth slightly agape as he stared at you. “Oh, it’s so good to see you.” 
“It’s good to see you, too,” you gave her a squeeze, carefully angling the casserole dish away from her before stepping back. “We come bearing potatoes.” 
“So you do!” She said, taking the dish before turning to your boyfriend and taking a deep breath. “Joel. Always good to see you.” 
You looked to Joel and saw him collect himself for half a second before smiling to your mom. 
“Good to see you, too,” he said. “Been a while.” 
“Yeah,” she smiled a little bigger and reached out to give his arm a squeeze. “It has.” 
You gave Joel an encouraging smile as the two of you followed your mother into a kitchen that was overflowing with dishes. 
“Can I help?” You asked, laughing a little as you looked around. 
“Oh…” she sighed, looking around before she laughed, too. “Yes, yes please. Your father has been utterly useless, just wandering around, muttering to himself. Not that he’s the most helpful in the kitchen but he’s not completely incompetent…”
“He’s good on the grill,” you said. “Kitchen… eh.” 
“Well, yes,” she giggled conspiratorially. “But I try to give him credit where it’s due. Usually I’m not on my own for a holiday but this year he’s been… something.” 
You just hummed in agreement and started in on the green beans because you were pretty sure you knew the reason why your dad was acting strange and that reason was currently asking your mom how she wanted the cucumber cut for the salad. 
Joel and your father had barely spoken in the six months since you’d moved back to Austin and gotten back together with Joel. 
Not that you were too surprised about that. He was, after all, one of your dad’s closest friends and was much closer to his age than your own. You hadn’t exactly expected the news of your relationship to go over well but it had been even worse than you’d anticipated. 
You’d arranged to talk to your parents in public when you decided to tell them. Neutral ground, as it were. Plus, you were pretty sure your father would be less likely to punch Joel in the face if you were in public. 
It ended up not making much of a difference. 
“You’re what!” Your father stood up so fast that his chair fell over, the sharp clatter of the wood on the tile restaurant floor and violence of his tone plunging the once bustling room into silence. 
“Dad,” you said gently. “It’s not a big deal…” 
“The hell it’s not!” He yelled, looking between the two of you. “When the fuck did this start, hm? When the hell did you start fucking my daughter!” 
“Why don’t you sit down and…” Joel began, but your dad didn’t let him finish. 
“Don’t you dare tell me what to do,” he put his finger inches from Joel’s face. “She is a child!” 
“I’m 35!” You gaped at him. “Dad, you’re being ridiculous!” 
“You’re already in hot water,” he snapped at you. “So keep your damn mouth shut while…” 
“Don’t talk to her that way,” Joel said, standing up with too much force, his voice hot. “You got a problem with me, handle it with me, don’t take it out on her.” 
“Don’t you tell me how to treat my own fucking kid!” Your dad yelled. “I’ll handle her however I damn well please!” 
You weren’t sure who threw the first punch but it devolved quickly then, your mother pulling your father away while you dragged Joel back, both men bloody and panting for breath. 
You kept your distance from your father after that. You talked to your mom regularly - she was smart enough to give up on trying to talk you out of your relationship quickly and, eventually, was even happy for you - but your father took some time. 
After a while, he was willing to talk to you. Your mother must have given him strict rules - he didn’t try to talk you out of your relationship or question Joel’s integrity - but it was stiff and awkward. 
Thanksgiving had been your mom’s idea. Joel was hesitant but - after you conspired with Sarah (you and Joel’s daughter becoming fast friends once you moved past the awkwardness of your closeness in age) so she would stay in Dallas to go to have dinner with her boyfriend’s family - he’d agreed eventually. 
“If this don’t prove how much I love you, woman,” he’d grumbled as he tied his tie that morning. 
“You? Love me?” You asked, adjusting the knot under his chin. “News to me…” 
“Uh huh,” he smiled a little, just enough to make his cheek dimple. 
“Never said it,” you had to fight to hold your smirk back. “Definitely not 20 times while you were inside me last night…” 
“That don’t sound like me at all,” he teased back before going to kiss your cheek. “You look beautiful, baby.” 
“Well, I do have a hot date.” 
“Really? When’s he showing up?” 
You glared at him and he laughed before giving you another kiss. 
“Let’s go before I lose my damn nerve,” he said. “Gonna be the most awkward Thanksgiving ever.” 
For a little while, there in the kitchen with just Joel and your mother, you almost forgot how awkward this was supposed to be. 
You and Joel moved around each other in tandem now. You’d been living together for months and you’d fallen into sync so fast it was almost strange when you stopped to think about it. When you’d moved in with your ex, it took what felt like a small eternity to really understand the flow of his life, to subconsciously recognize where he was going in the kitchen when you were cooking side by side, to remember to consider him when making decisions big and small. With Joel, it was almost instantaneous. There had been no odd fumbling around each other as you went through your lives under one roof, no putting one brand of peanut butter back to pick up the one you suddenly remembered he preferred, no confusion or frustration when you came home from the office to find him not back yet. It all clicked, like you’d been built to do this alongside each other all along. Even in the unfamiliar space of your parents’ kitchen, his hand found the small of your back as he moved behind you to get a serving bowl and you just knew which knife to pass him from the block beside you when he went to reach for it. 
Things shifted when your sister showed up about an hour and a half before dinner, her arrival finally coaxing your father out from wherever he’d been hiding since you and Joel had gotten there. 
“Hey Dad,” you smiled at him after he finished greeting your sister and he stood, hovering awkwardly in the kitchen. “Good to see you.” 
“Good to see you, too, princess,” he said pulling you in for a quick hug. 
He turned his attention to Joel then, looking him up and down like he would an adversary. 
“Joel,” he said, nodding once. 
“Hey man,” Joel said, holding his hand out. Your father’s jaw twitched but he shook Joel’s hand all the same. “Good to see you.” 
Your father just grunted before going to the fridge and getting out a beer. Joel followed him and you and your mother exchanged worried glances. 
“Think the Cowboys are gonna pull out a win this year?” Joel asked. 
Your dad held his beer for a moment, looking like he was considering just not responding but then seemed to think better of it. 
“We’ll see,” he said. “With their record, I’d settle for not getting our asses handed to us.” 
Things were easier after that. Your father and Joel disappeared to the living room and you heard the telltale sounds of football follow immediately after.
“I still can’t believe you’re fucking Dad’s weirdly hot friend!” Your sister said, just quiet enough that your mother was out of earshot. “Or that you were for years, forever ago! Seriously, there are rules about holding back to your sister like that.” 
“You don’t need to know everything I do, you know,” you said. 
“No but I need to know everyone you do,” she said. You snorted. “So… you think it’s going to last?” 
“Well, we’re trying for kids,” you said, putting the last of the shredded cheese on the mac and cheese. “So it’d better.” 
“What!” She yelped. 
“What?” Your mom ran over. “Everyone OK? Did you burn yourself?” 
“We’re good,” you smiled. “Just catching up. Sister shit, you know.” 
“Yeah,” your sister said. “Sister shit.” 
Your mother went back to the other side of the kitchen and your sister mouthed oh my God at you and you fought the urge to laugh. Your dad might hate your boyfriend but at least you could count on your sister to be your sister. 
Eventually, the rest of the family came over, too, and everyone settled around the overly full dining room table, Joel sitting beside you with a reassuring hand on your knee as he made small talk with one of your uncles. 
Dinner went surprisingly well, at least until everyone was a few glasses of wine deep and your father decided to pick a fight. 
“So, Joel,” he said, setting his wine glass down with a little too much force. “Not sure if I should thank you for getting my daughter to move back home or if I should blame you for her obsession with being a failed musician for a living.” 
“Dad!” Your sister gaped at him. “What the fuck!” 
“Language, please!” Your mother said. 
“Just seems to be real clear to me now,” he said. “Doubt she’d be so stuck on playing that damn guitar all the time if it weren’t for your bad influence.” 
“Bad influence?” You laughed. “Dad, I’m almost middle aged, I’m not some impressionable teenager. I love my work, I don’t consider myself to be a failure just because I do music therapy instead of being a rock star, I…” 
“You could have actually done something with yourself, you know,” he cut you off. “Instead, you decided to drive your life into the ground with this man and some bullshit career path…” 
“Watch it,” Joel said sharply. “Not gonna let you talk to her that way. You will treat her with respect or I will make you treat her with respect.” 
“Respect?” Your dad asked, his eyebrows raised. “You’re gonna sit there, in my house, at my table and lecture me about respect when you decided to take up with my daughter?” 
“Stop it!” You shoved your chair back, throwing your napkin on your gravy smeared plate. “Both of you! Dad, stop acting like your my keeper and that I don’t have any goddamn agency because you raised me! Joel, stop acting like I need you to defend my honor! Just… fucking stop it!” 
“Baby,” Joel said but you ignored him, stalking off to the guest room at the back of your parents’ house, needing some space from everyone. 
You let yourself cry for a minute, sitting on the edge of the bed and staring at an old family photo of you with your parents and sister, back when you were just 10 years old. Your hand drifted to your lower stomach. You weren’t pregnant yet - at least, not that you knew - but you couldn’t imagine your child doing anything that would make you as mad at them as your father seemed to be at you loving Joel. 
There was a soft knock at the door and you wiped your eyes on the backs of your wrists. 
“Yeah?” 
“S’me,” Joel said quietly. “Can I come in?” 
“Yeah,” you sniffed. 
He came in, closing the door gently behind him before sitting next to you. 
“You OK?” He asked after a moment. 
“I will be,” you sniffed again. 
“I’m sorry baby,” he said, reaching out and cupping your face, his thumb tracing the arch of your cheekbone. “Know I promised to be on my best behavior but… Look, him being a dick to me is fine, I can handle that. I just can’t watch him say that shit to you. But that don’t mean I should get… aggressive and…” 
“It’s not your fault,” you said. “I’d do the same thing if I were you, I can’t really blame you for it. And I appreciate that you care about me…” 
“I love you,” he smiled a little. “More than just about anything else. But that means I need to take care of you in the way you want me to, not just the way I want to do it.” 
You smiled tightly before leaning in to kiss him. Joel kissed you back, gentle at first but, before long, something shifted, the kiss becoming hot and needy. 
“Baby,” Joel said, his voice low. “Should… should probably get back out there…” 
“They can wait,” you said, panting a little. “I want you.” 
He groaned, nipping at your lower lip but still hesitating. 
“Please, Joel,” you breathed, pressing yourself closer to him. “I need you. Let’s make a baby.” 
“Fuck,” he said, his tone shifting, and then he was on you. His tongue plunged into your mouth as he lay you back on the bed. 
He didn’t bother taking your panties off, just tucking them to the side and tugging the low v-neck of your sweater down to expose your cleavage. 
“Christ, you’re so fuckin’ pretty,” he groaned, cupping your sex with one hand and tugging your breasts free of your bra with the other. He mouthed at your nipple, licking and sucking over your breasts as he ground his palm against your clit, one thick finger slipping inside your seam to your already dripping entrance. “Don’t deserve you, baby.” 
“Yes you do,” you whispered. “You deserve the world.” 
He just moaned in response, kissing you again, one large hand cupping your breast, his thumb brushing your nipple. 
It wasn’t long before he shoved his pants and underwear down just enough to free his cock and he jerked himself a few times with the hand that had become coated in your wetness. He notched himself at your entrance, his head thick and large and swollen, and pressed inside, a moment of resistance before your channel stretched over him and he buried himself within you. 
He pulled his lips from yours, his head falling to the bed over your shoulder as he panted for breath. 
“Goddamn you feel good,” he said, voice tight and hot in your ear. You rolled your hips up against him, making him moan. 
“Good,” you said. “Love making you feel good, sometimes that’s all I want to do.” 
“Fuck, you think your daddy hates me now,” he said. “If he knew what you do to me he’d shoot me.” 
He started to fuck into you then, keeping his chest pressed tight to yours while his cock worked you hard and fast inside, his head finding that soft and tender place within you that built your orgasm fast with every stroke. He ground his cock against you there, his hips on your clit, making every ounce of need inside yourself gather tight and low. 
“Fuck, Joel,” you panted. “I’m gonna come, you’re gonna make me come, I…” 
“Good,” he growled. “Come for me, come while I get you pregnant, c’mon baby and come all over me.” 
You had to bury your face in his shoulder to keep quiet, your orgasm hitting you hard and fast, your center fluttering over his thick length as he held himself inside you. 
“Oh you like hearin’ that, huh?” He asked, breathless, starting to move again, already building your next orgasm as he did. “Like hearing how I’m gonna put a baby in my baby, that it?” 
“Yes,” you groaned, your second climax growing quickly. “Yes, please, please, please, please…” 
“You don’t gotta beg for it baby,” he said, pulling back from you enough to look you in the eyes as he spoke. “I’ll give you everything, as many babies as you want, fuck, gonna give you my baby right now, gonna make you pregnant, fuck!” 
He buried his face in your neck and pressed himself so deep inside you as he came, the heat of him spilling into you in thick, heavy pulses. 
“Fuck,” he said after he finished, kissing your neck before pulling back from you to kiss your lips, too. “Didn’t mean to come that quick, wanted to get you off one more time first.” 
“It’s OK,” you said, panting, even though it was kind of a lie. You’d been so close to coming again that you felt tight inside your skin, an energy rippling over you that you knew you wouldn’t be able to shake until you came again once you got home. 
“No, it’s not,” he said, sitting up and slowly, carefully pulling his softening cock from you. “Got you all worked up, not taking care of you the way you deserve if I don’t finish the job.” 
You felt some of his come slip out of you but he caught it with the tip of his cock, pressing it back inside before tucking himself away in his underwear and cupping your swollen, aching sex. 
“I’ll take care of you,” he said quietly. “Take care of you the rest of my life.” 
He worked your clit, slow and gentle circles at first before his touch grew firmer, drawing your orgasm back to the surface in the way that only Joel seemed to know how to do. You came to his touch, feeling his thick come inside you as you did, like your body was trying to pull him even deeper inside. 
“There you go,” he said, his eyes locked on your dripping pussy. “Fuck, so pretty, every damn inch of you.” 
You panted for breath, relaxing down into the bed before suddenly remembering that your entire family was down the hall. 
“Fuck,” you sighed. “We should get back.” 
“We should,” Joel said, tugging your panties back in place and helping you cover your chest again before chuckling. “Think your daddy really might shoot me if he found us like this.” 
You laughed and sat up, looking at Joel for a moment. You trailed your fingers through his hair and he smiled a little, his eyes crinkling at the edges. 
“Really not sure why you think I’m worth all this trouble,” he said. “But I sure am thankful I have you.” 
You smiled back. 
“I’m thankful for you, too.” 
You kissed him and he helped make sure your hair and makeup didn’t look like you just got fucked within an inch of your life before you emerged, the party having moved to the living room, your mom and aunts on one side of the room, your dad and uncles on the other, an uncomfortable silence falling when the two of you walked in. 
“Joel,” your dad said, getting up and walking over with a sigh. “Look… not sure I’ll ever really be OK with this but… my daughter could do worse than a man seems to adore her and is willing to stand up for her.” 
“I do adore her,” Joel said. “I love her. I want to do everything I can for here as long as she’ll let me.” 
Your dad nodded slowly. 
“Think I can live with that,” he said. “But you hurt her? I will kill you.” 
Joel laughed a little. 
“I expect nothing less.” 
Joel and your dad seemed a little more like the friends they’d started out as after that, laughing and talking and watching football. When the two of you left for home, your father and mother walked you out, containers of leftovers in hand. 
“It was so good to see you both,” your mom smiled, giving you a squeeze. “We’ll have to do this again. Soon.” 
“We will,” you kissed her cheek before turning to your dad. “It’ll be nice.” 
“It will,” he said before looking to Joel and holding out his hand. “Welcome to the family.” 
Joel smiled a little, taking his hand and shaking it. 
“Thanks for letting me in it.” 
You smiled the whole drive home, Joel’s hand on your knee. 
“So,” he said, looking at you conspiratorially as he pulled into the drive way. “Think the family will be even bigger next Thanksgiving?” 
“I sure hope so,” you smiled. “But I think we’ll have fun trying either way.” 
“Think we should try again now?” He asked, taking your hand and kissing your knuckles. “Because, you know… if you’re ovulating, should probably do it again. Seems like the smart move.” 
You laughed, already adding pregnancy tests to your mental shopping list.
“Well we can’t start out our lives as parents doing the dumb thing,” you said and he laughed before the two of you went inside to try again to grow your family.
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squilfmybeloved · 6 months ago
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grumpy men and the feral child they found on the streets are so special to me
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keeryhours · 2 months ago
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keeryhours masterlist
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welcome to my masterlist! here you’ll find all my work in one place!
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series
wildflower - an eddie munson x fem!reader and steve harrington x fem!reader love triangle|mom!reader, dad!eddie, rockstar!eddie, ex!eddie, best friend!steve|+18|ongoing
the needle and the damage done - an eddie munson x fem!reader rockstar au|mom!wife!reader, dad!husband!eddie, rockstar!eddie, addict!eddie|+18|ongoing
real love, baby - billy hargrove x fem!reader|hookup to lovers|pregnant!reader|+18|ongoing
nothing’s gonna hurt you, baby - eddie munson x fem!reader|dbf!eddie, older!eddie, harrington!reader|dad’s best friend trope|+18|ongoing
teen pregnancy series - a ST x fem!reader pregnancy series|+18|ongoing
baby daddy! rafe series - a rafe cameron x fem!reader anthology series|dad!rafe, mom!reader, ex!rafe|+18|ongoing
runaways - steve harrington x fem!reader|preacher’s daughter!reader, track star!reader, baseball player!steve|+18|coming soon
scream: the hawkins massacre - an eddie munson x fem!reader horror miniseries|scream au|+18|coming soon
stop the stars - billy hargrove x fem! oc katelyn henderson|hookup to lovers angst|+18|semi-hiatus
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one shots
steve harrington
zombie movies & first kisses - steve x fem! henderson! reader|first date|fluff
lover boy - steve x fem!reader|modern college au|frat king!steve|+18|smut
for the very first time - steve x fem!reader|virgin!reader|+18|fluff, smut
is there someone else? - steve x fem!reader, some eddie munson x fem!reader|college au|+18|smut
baby, it’s cold outside - steve x fem!reader|best friend!steve, christmas|promptmas 2024|+18|smut
fall in love again - steve x ex wife!reader|mom!reader, dad!steve|christmas ‘24|fluff
no one knows (oh, what you do to me) - steve x fem!reader|ceo!steve, older!steve, personal assistant!reader|1k celebration|+18|smut
i bet on losing dogs - steve harrington x billy hargrove|+18|angst, smut
billy hargrove
how do i live without you? - billy x fem!reader, platonic steve harrington!reader|pregnant!reader|angst with some fluff
i bet on losing dogs - billy hargrove x steve harrington|+18|angst, smut
eddie munson
late night with the devil - eddie x fem!reader|+18|smut
please please please - eddie x fem!reader|hopper!reader, delinquent!eddie|+18|smut
flesh and bone - eddie x fem!reader|+18|smut
new year’s magic - eddie x fem!reader|NYE ‘24|fluff
nothing else matters - eddie x fem!reader|older!eddie, birthday boy for CCF|+18|smut
meet the parents - eddie x fem!reader|promptmas ‘24|+18|smut
do you trust me? - eddie x fem!reader|vampire!eddie|+18|smut
please be gentle (when you’re tearing me apart) - eddie x fem!reader, steve harrington x fem!reader|asshole!eddie|+18|major angst, some smut
do you wanna come over? - eddie x fem!reader|virgin!eddie, cheerleader!reader|+18|smut
robin buckley
naked in manhattan - robin x fem!reader|best friend!robin|promptmas ‘24|+18|smut
jonathan byers
girls on film - jonathan x fem!reader|+18|smut
rafe cameron
baby, come here (i get so lonely at night) - rafe x fem!reader|frat!rafe|+18|smut
jj maybank
friends don’t - jj x fem!reader|best friend!jj|fluff
emperor geta
an heir for an emperor - geta x fem!reader|empress!reader|+18|smut
⤷ the emperor’s love - geta x fem!reader| empress!reader|part 2|+18|smut
gator tillman
you know my desire - gator x fem!reader|+18|smut
don’t forget (you’re mine) - gator x fem!reader|1k celebration|+18|smut
joel miller
listen to that fireplace roar - joel x fem!reader|younger!reader|+18|smut
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steve harrington
take a ride - steve x fem!reader|baby making in the truck|+18|smut
good for us - steve x eddie munson x fem!reader|hard dom!steve, soft dom!eddie, sub!reader, threesome|+18|smut
kiss me - steve x fem!reader|coworker!reader|1k celebration|fluff
billy hargrove
please… - billy x fem!reader|+18|smut
eddie munson
good for us - eddie x steve harrington x fem!reader|hard dom!steve, soft dom!eddie, sub!reader, threesome|+18|smut
pussydrunk eddie - eddie x fem!reader|+18|smut
sucking eddie off - eddie x fem!reader|+18|smut
eddie & plus size gf go to prom - eddie x plus size! fem!reader|+18|smut
love letters - eddie x fem!reader|dom!eddie|+18|smut
obey your (dungeon) master - eddie x fem!reader|dom!eddie|+18|smut
don’t stop - eddie x fem!reader|sub!eddie|+18|smut
rafe cameron
rafe & his plus size gf - rafe x plus size! fem!reader|+18|smut
satoru gojo
taking it! - gojo x fem!reader|+18|smut
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promptmas 2024
1k celebration
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sunny-aster · 9 months ago
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They're such wildly different examples of what an emotionally tired person looks like
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goodkidmadcity · 6 months ago
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The only person I'll ever be jealous of is y/n, bro she be living THE LIIIIFE
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orangechickenpillow · 10 months ago
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happy fathers (?) day
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voidsuites · 2 months ago
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MULTI BOT RELEASE !!! (1/31/25) ⌢ ✨ .ᐟ
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art donaldson ・゜゜・.noid. tennis has given art everything anyone could ever want— a fulfilling career, you and lily, and countless influential titles and wins— and with him getting closer to becoming a household name, art’s more than aware of his luck. he’s beyond grateful. however, fame’s a double-edged sword and it’s getting harder to both play into the paparazzi and their mind-games and also protect his family, so it’s not a surprise that art loses his temper when those lines finally get crossed. (based off “noid” by tyler the creator!)
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bruce wayne・゜゜・.billie bossa nova. underneath all the sneaking around hotel rooms and charity galas, both you and bruce long to be understood for more than just your family names and your money. whatever’s going on between the two of you is merely putting a band-aid on another issue, you’re aware, but there’s something about bruce that helps you rationalize the less-than-ideal circumstances. a lot can change in twenty seconds… a lot can happen in the dark. (based off “billie bossa nova” by billie eilish!)
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jim hopper ・゜゜・.you’re a fighter. in one moment, all hop had to worry about was you slowly growing more independent and mike wheeler’s insufferable attitude, but now the mind flayer’s set its sights on you and you’ve seemingly lost your powers. setting the mess with the russians beneath starcourt mall aside, hopper’s main priority is making sure you’re safe and away from any more danger. you may be a fighter, but you’re his kid first. (based off “you’re a fighter” by kyle dixon and michael stein!)
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joel miller ・゜゜・.western nights. joel knows you’re not supportive of the violent ways he provides for you, but in a post-apocalyptic world morals are put on the back burner while he concerns himself with keeping you both fed, housed, and taken care of. you’re stubborn, he’s stubborn, but you’d never think of taking off and leaving him behind. this time’s no different. (based off “western nights” by ethel cain!)
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patrick zweig ・゜゜・.part of your world. mermaids were nothing but a mere children's bedtime story— they weren't real. that’s what patrick’s father had told him since he'd been a boy; that the wondrous creatures he believed in with all his heart were nothing but tall tales meant to put the children of new rochelle to bed with little fight. that’s proven to be false when you rescue him from swimming with the fishes for eternity, and now that he knows your kind is real, patrick just has to learn more. he’ll bring you as many human trinkets for your collection as you’d like if you’d let him be part of your world for a moment. (based off “part of your world” by jodi benson and disney!)
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tashi duncan ・゜゜・.bodyguard. wlw. tashi’s always been protective of you since you started seeing each other, but it’s always amusing to see just how worked-up she gets when you’re the center of attention. stanford’s hosting a concert in the park, art and patrick are nowhere to be found, and tashi’s left to keep herself in control lest she “accidentally” scare people off because they’ve looked at you too long. she’ll protect you in the mosh pit, no doubt— but she’s still working on keeping that territorial nature of hers in check. (based off “bodyguard” by beyoncé!)
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got a request? go ahead and leave em here :) THANK YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH FOR FOR 10.4K! so excited to get started on my celebration requests— you guys once again are the BEST!!!! i hope all of these are to your liking… but do forgive me if joel is a little too ooc lol i’ve only seen bits of tlou but i tried to capture him right. hehe. i also made a tumblr community for all things voidsuites-oriented 🤭 join yap city if you dare (i’m still figuring out what i’ll post on there but think of it as a communal close friends story on ig haha) anyways i love these characters and i love these songs and i love you all!!!! thank you for making this so much fun for me i’m so grateful <3
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