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Itâs kinda funny to me that even team black fans get vicious with other team black fans if they disagree with their interpretation of a character or event or rumor. Now, there are some wild or dubious claims about canon, and I get shutting those down or insisting they be treated with skepticism. But there are also genuine disagreements that, imo, donât deserve the vitriol.
I am not talking about things we *know*, like dates and events and crucial elements of the charactersâ relationships and personalities. Iâm talking about the things we *cannot* know because the sources and Gyldayn simply canât and donât have access to every inner thought or belief of the characters. Those same sources canât and donât have knowledge of everything the characters did and why they did it. Those sources have their own viewpoints and bias, and so they might have witnessed or heard things that they didnât write down because they deemed those things unimportant or counter to their bias. They might have elevated information that had little factual basis because they trusted the source it came from or it confirmed their bias (*cough* Sara Snowâs entire existence). Thatâs the beauty of F&B. It isnât a novel, it isnât a dry accounting of events, it is a history book written after the events by a maester raised in a post-Dance, post-dragons world with his own belief system, and the sources he used are limited and imperfect.
Because of the nature of the book, I would never claim my interpretation of a character is the definitive truth, only that it seems most plausible to me. I know who Rhaenyra isnât, but I donât know all that she is. I know who Daemon isnât, but I donât know all that he is. I canât, and neither can anyone else, because the sources themselves didnât and couldnât. F&B is written in a way to obscure and distort at least some of the truth. GRRM isnât an idiot, he studied journalism and history in college, he knew exactly what he was doing and he well understood the pitfalls and complications of primary sources and secondary literature. Itâs not his fault that many of his fans donât lmao (and yes, I blame HBO for the increase in stupidity, but I digress).
There are many things we know for sure (which makes the shitshowâs manipulation or removal of all the *literal facts* extra infuriating; now we have people claiming those facts are unreliable even when they are among the few things that are reliable). But Iâm sorry to say, there is MUCH that is unknown.
The characters do not have their own POVs. That creates fertile ground for different interpretations of them and their motivations, even if some aspects of both are clearly defined. And entertaining those interpretations isnât bad faith. I know we all like to think we have the One True Interpretation of our fave characters, but in F&B, even the most fleshed-out characters donât speak in their own words with their own voice. We are reading them in the voices of other people, and those people have their own perspectives, biases, and agendas. Thatâs why I love the book so much, it reminds me of my days writing my history dissertation and trying to identify the societal influence and personal bias of the people I studied (sorry, Iâm a bit of a nerd lol)
I know we are used to fighting team green and years of wild GOT shenanigans, but come on. Iâve seen people absolutely lose their shit because other fans disagree over the degree to which Daemon wanted a Valyrian wife. Another one I love is the fury over Valyrian customs. Some people believe the Targaryens might have continued practicing some Valyrian customs, while others believe they were true followers of the Seven (other than incest). Literally who cares?? The book doesnât include much on this topic, but why is it so offensive that some readers think the Targaryens truly converted or that they held to their beliefs more than the maesters and septons claimed? We donât actually KNOW because the sources wouldnât have been privy to everything, especially things the royal family did privately, and extra especially when the conversion was for political reasons (as confirmed by GRRM) and the Targaryens wouldâve had ever reason to hide customs deemed heretical by the majority religion. This, to me, is a completely inoffensive difference in interpretation, and I cannot fathom why some people view it as akin to team green stans claiming book Alicent was a child bride.
There are degrees of difference in which readers believe the sources of F&B, which I think contributes to diverging interpretations, and we should acknowledge that this is a personal choice. If you give more credence to certain sources, youâre going to come away with a different view of a character than if you donât, and thatâs okay! Thatâs how interpreting primary sources works, and thatâs part of why historians can write books using the same bank of sources and come to different conclusions. Another reason is someone coming along that looks at those sources from a different perspective, or pays attention to sources other historians had ignored. For example, most historians pre-1970 didnât think to check the records of the wives of politicians, so when others went back through the archives, there were tons of revelations missed by earlier scholars. This just goes to show secondary sources, aka Gyldayn, also have their limitations, viewpoints and/or bias.
A lot of people donât even stop to question the sources. Some people put a lot more stock in Mushroomâs account than I ever would (the shitshow didnât cast him, but it sure used his dubious claims). Some people think Eustace was pretty much a straight shooter bar a few exceptions, which I completely disagree with. Gyldayn is also a problem for me, heâs a bit of a weirdo and perv. Tbh I donât trust any of them. Could be because I was trained to interrogate sources, not trust them, but Iâd rather do that than blindly believe someone like Orwyle. Itâs up to every reader to decide what seems most plausible.
And no, that doesnât mean everything is fair game. Some things are blatantly untrue, like the bizarre metas Iâve seen claiming the character ages in the shitshow are the actual true ages lmao
Trust in a source isnât necessary to glean facts, and from these accounts we *can* learn about the Dance, so itâs all about assessing whatâs a fact, whatâs propaganda, whatâs exaggerated but true, whatâs true but unspoken, whatâs a bald-faced lie or a lie of omission, etc. And with a book like F&B with biased sources and rumors and contradictions, there will be genuine differences in interpretation that are in good faith. It isnât fair to act like these differences are headcanons pulled out of thin air.
If you want to argue what you believe is more likely, thatâs fine, but whatâs the point of shitting on other fans that read the book and made their own informed opinion? Some pieces of evidence and supposition are more compelling to me but may not be as compelling to someone else. These differences are fair and good faith and shouldnât be reduced to âyou didnât read rightâ or âyou didnât read at all.â And if someone claims that of other book fans, they should have the humility to admit their interpretation might not be entirely right either. Only GRRM can know the full truth, and tbh, Iâm not even sure he does because that man can be contradictory af đ
And yes, I used this as an excuse to nerd out over analyzing primary sources. Even historians that leave the ivory tower retain their obnoxious urge to pour over and question primary sources, and that extends to fictional ones.
#reading primary sources: F&B edition#obligatory anti team green#stop yelling at people for no reason#youâre probably not as right as you think#obligatory HOTD was a mistake#tbh HBO getting its grubby hands on GRRMâs works was a mistake
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eleven is fascinating to me because he came right off the back of tens horrible traumatic breakdown after he lost everything and he immediately tried to establish himself as the opposite of that. he is funny and goofy and almost childlike, and he bulldozes on in his adventures with amy like nothing happened at all. but then something happens and his masks slips and it's like oh! the core of this man is still anger. he is so so angry all of the time and this façade is the only thing stopping him from being consumed by it. he isn't over any of it and he hasn't moved on. he is wearing a fez and laughing but under that all that exists is age old anger and grief and it is going to consume him
#i do think that this pit of anger was eventually covered and soothed by the ponds#but he didn't adress it and he couldn't even look at it until he was twelve#when he stopped pushing back and repressing everything and finally allowed himself to exist as he was#but ok listen#its all layed out in the first 3 episodes of season 5 and in the way amy sees him#episode 1. here is the new doctor he is energetic and reeling and fun#episode 2. the space whale comparison. here is the new doctor. he is unthinkably ancient and almost godlike but he is so so kind#and patient and good. he is ancient and lonely but he can't stand to see children cry. so the doctor helps people#episode 3. daleks. the doctor is a soldier. these are his age old enemies. he wants them dead and he will stop at nothing#all logic and reason vanish. he is hitting the dalek with a pipe and yelling his head off while amy watches in horror#like obviously we know why but amy didnt#this is not a sane or rational man he is unstable and angry#and in that episode he was stripped back to what he largely is: hate#you would make a good dalek ect ect ect#anyway 3 episodes with 3 very distinct and equally definitely traits layed out like: here you go#i don't like elevens era much but those first 3 episodes were great#doctor who#eleven#amy#eleventh doctor#matt smith#dr who#dw#i mean idk this is what river literally had to spell out for him#eleven was careening completely out of control#how long til doctor means warrior indeed?#mine
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I'm sorry but the concept that overstressed Izzy that looked like he was at the verge of his fifth anxiety breakdown in a week, is somehow a lying manipulative mastermind, is simply hilarious to me.
#izzy hands#only tag I will use cause I see no reason for the antis to look at this tag and I don't wanna argue#but also I am really wondering what people would think of Gates in BS who did a lot of things Izzy did#yell at his captain (for a reason)#tried to save them#brought a pardon in to stop Flint from flinting...#maybe he too was a huge homophobe who knows#I haven't seen people treat Flint like Ed#DID NOTHING WRONG EVER#but I am not sure if the antis were in BS?#if they were... I'm very interesting in talking tbh
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i'm alive i just keep forgetting that posting WIPs is fun, easy, and valid
#thanks tychou#because now I have a little tychou on my shoulder to box my earlobe and yell at me to throw down a WIP or 8 instead of going radio dark#iykyk#...the kick is I dddon't think I'm gonna use this composition in the end#s'cute tho#but somebody gonna see it anyway#wip#my iteration leo and karai#i... can't really stop the rest of y'all from tagging it as 03 or idk rise for some reason but like........ s'not#thanks to thiah for pointing out some people forget to confirm tags in the euphoria of reblogging#and just go on what it âlooks likeâ#but like... idk what to tell the kids is not 03 or rise or 12... not even the series i was thinking of when I made my iteration#(it was Archie run comics and Next Mutation)
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the punk to capitalist pipeline is kinda insane and makes no sense to me
and yet that is what mcr (and many others who aren't famous) have done
#my chemical romance#mcr#the way in which the band has done fuck all to make ticket prices reasonable is insane#other bands have fixed the issue with ticketmaster#they are perfectly capable of it#but no#instead they're celebrating because scalpers have sold them out#which means fuck all if half of the audience is not fans#I cannot stress enough for people to Not Buy A Ticket If It's Overpriced#I understand you desperately want to see them#but they are actively abusing you right now#when the economy is in shambles too#it's downright predatory what's happening#I wish I knew how to check voting records in the usa because I am starting to have some serious doubts about mr Toro and mr Way#tbh both mr Ways are on my enemy list#we all know Frank is simply an idiot at the core#literally blinded by his obsession for mcr#but at least he technically still has the brain to be decent#it probably helps that he hangs out with so many people who are significantly less successful#and that he's in ls dunes which is comparatively tiny#anyway remember what pete wentz said y'all:#Do Your Part to Save the Scene and Stop Going to Shows#mcr will not understand wtf they are doing unless we make it very fucking clear by Not Going To Their Nostalgia Tour#by spitting in their face and yelling âFuck You!!!â#Gerard Way is all words and no actions#I don't know why people look up to him
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Tbh, nothing has made me sympathize more with Kipperlilly Copperkettle than her anger issues.
Cause anger is an emotion we feel when we're missing something. When we need something and can't get it. It's a balm to make us feel better when things don't go our way.
When things aren't fair.
#d20#dimension 20#d20 fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#d20 spoilers#fhjy#fantasy high spoilers#of course just cause you feel like things are unfair doesnt mean they actually are#and the reason why its an anger issue is cause the anger has befome detrimental#its warped from being somethjng to comfort you when you feel powerless to a tool you use against others when you fedl slighted#part of why anger issues are so hard to overcome is cause of how good it feels in the moment#even if you feel terrible guilt afterwards#the catharsis of releasing anger can be such a relief#that you dont even realise youve started looking for reasons to be angry#youre listing things that are terrible with the world just so you can feel better by getting angry at them#things like capitalism and people who bullied you and how your boss is a terrible racist#things that everyone can get angry over#until they get more personal and warps your judgment#âmy boss called a group of immigrant a bunch of racial slursâ âhis secretary was there too she can back me upâ#âwhen i brought it up with her she says she wasnt payjng attention or somethingâ âshes peobably racist too and thats why he hired herâ#it becomes easier to make jumps like that instead of giving people the benefit of the doubt#easier to justify your anger with the smallest slights#until youre yelling at a pedestrian whe. you almost ran them over#âsure it was a red light but they shouldve paid attention and seen me coming tooâ#anyways this is all to say kipperlilly probably has some issues to deal with#idk if shes actually behind this plot or if shes being manipulated#doesmt stop her from being a total dick tho#but it does make me a little more sympathetic to her
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6. âNot to be dramatic, but Iâm back from the dead. Hope yâall missed me.â With Virgil and Remus?
Title: On a Stormy Sea of Emotion
Word-Count: 1.7k
Summary:
"Not to be dramatic, but I'm back from the dead. Surprise!" Remus shoots a pair of finger guns, droplets of blood spraying out from his finger tips, "Hope y'all missed me."
The cloaked figure, the target of his finger guns, does not move. Their facemask, elegantly carved to mimic a raven, stares Remus down apathetically.
Remus laughs, clasping his hands behind his neck as he leans against a building that makes up the alleyway of their standoff, "C'mon, old man. I clawed myself out of the grave and this is how you treat your 'beloved son, departed from the earth too soon?'"
OR: a Superhero AU featuring Jason Todd coded-Remus.
Pairing: parental dukexity
Warnings: Superhero AU, Death mentions, blood mention, vomit mention, implied self harm, pstd flashback, morally grey characters, angst with ambiguous ending
Thank you for the prompt! This infected my brain all last night and today, hope you enjoy <3
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Killing isn't that hard of an action, really. There is a million ways to kill someone. Guns, knives, poison or the way Remus liked it--using your bare hands. It wasn't always the most effective, but when your target knocks your knife out of your hands--well, then you gotta go for the jugular.
Remus hums as he picks up his knife, examining it. The blood dripping from its blade landed on his gloves, coating it with a metallic stench. One time as a kid, he received a paper cut and out of curiosity, he stuck his finger inside his mouth to taste his own blood.
It just had a copper tangy taste, not very appetizing. But well, he's never tried someone else's blood, what if it had a different taste? Would a greedy drug lord's blood taste too greasy? Tainted by their lack of remorse and regard for the suffering and lives destroyed in their avaricious pursuit of wealth?
He is almost halfway to enacting on such an impulse, when something shifts behind him. He turns around swiftly, his knife meeting nothing but air. But there is something there, or rather someone.
Remus cackles, his eyes darting around his surroundings. There, in the shadows of the nearby dumpster. He lowers his knife, putting it away for now.
His heart clangs loudly against his ribcage as his ears began to clamor with a loud ringing noise. This moment has always been inevitable since the second he decided to remain in this hellish city.
Remus is many things, but he is not a fool nor is he a coward. He is exhilarated this moment has come at last. Not terrified.
"Hello daddy dearest," He calls out, "it's been a while."
His words are enough to draw out the cloaked figure from out of the shadows.
"Not to be dramatic, but I'm back from the dead. Surprise!" Remus shoots a pair of finger guns, droplets of blood spraying out from his finger tips, "Hope y'all missed me."
The cloaked figure, the target of his finger guns, does not move. Their facemask, elegantly carved to mimic a raven, stares Remus down apathetically.
Remus laughs, clasping his hands behind his neck as he leans against a building that makes up the alleyway of their standoff, "C'mon, old man. I clawed myself out of the grave and this is how you treat your 'beloved son, departed from the earth too soon?'"
He already knows the truth; maybe there was a time this man had regarded him as a beloved son. Back when Remus had been a quiet, subdued child, perfectly manageable and obedient. But that time had long passed.
"I know I probably should've stayed dead but you know me! I'm not great at following rules."
Virgil Storm, or in this case, "The Raven" still doesn't do anything. It is a little unnerving, actually. Remus had expected there to be harsh words thrown his way, or perhaps even be pinned into a chokehold by this point in the interaction.
The Raven doesn't kill. During his first bout at the whole being alive thing, that been a contentious point between the two. Yet, would an abomination like Remus count as a living being?
"And," Remus says abruptly, shifting his weight against the wall, "you can't kill me. You can try, but like. It won't work. I jumped off like a twenty story building--went splat! Like a bug, it was really messy, but I didn't die. Um, you can take a DNA sample to prove it's me--"
"Remus?" The Raven speaks at last, his voice garbled and gravelly from the voice modifier of the mask.
"Yeah, it's me. I mean, we both know Prince Boring doesn't have the guts to pull off a prank like this," Remus smirks, "I'm sure he's happy that I haven't been around to play screamo when I have the aux or fill his backpack with severed Barbie doll heads."
The Raven's cloaked figure starts staggering towards him. Remus moves to stand upright once more, his body tensing. He can take the punch, it'll hurt but it won't leave any bruises. Remus has done enough experimenting to know he can't be physically harmed anymore. At least not permanently in any way that matters.
But rather a punch thrown his way, the Raven's arms seize hold of him. Not around his neck, but around his body, as the Raven leans around him, his cloak wrapping around Remus like a blanket. He is...hugging Remus? What the fuck?
A cold pricking sensation hits Remus, spreading out through every inch of his body. But he does not move to resist the Raven's embrace.
"I'm sorry," His adoptive father murmurs, "I made so many mistakes, I was afraid but I shouldn't have allowed my fear to control me in the way that I did--"
"Aren't you paranoid?" Remus whispers, "What if I'm not actually Remus? What if I'm just a shapeshifter pretending to be him? Or--or something else?"
"But I know you're you. Do you really think I wouldn't have investigated the assumed grave robbery of my son's corpse?" The Raven counters, "I already have a DNA sample I collected from your confrontation with the Dragon Witch analyzed."
Of course, of course Virgil already had a DNA sample. To any sane person, this might've been a horrifying realization. But for Remus, who spent ten years under the man's roof, this was perfectly normal behavior of a man obsessive enough to run around as a nonpowered cloaked vigilante.
"Remus, you have every reason to hate me or even Roman," The voice modifier pitched upwards in an odd high tone, "but would you'd be willing to come home for at least Janus's sake?"
Remus forgets how to breathe for a moment. There are many reasons why he hasn't sought out his family. He isn't sure if he is willing to accept Virgil's apology, much less risk seeing Roman's face again. But Janus is different. He has always understood Remus in the ways the others never did.
Despite Janus being Virgil's "man in the chair" as it were, he has never operated with the same morals. Remus will never forget the time some henchmen broke into their secret hideout while Virgil and Roman had been away on a mission. Janus had not hesitated to put lead directly into their foreheads.
"I'm afraid I don't indulge in the same mercy as your father," Janus had said, tidying up the mess they'd left behind, "It is my duty to preserve the safety of those I've been sworn to protect, even if comes at the lives of others."
The Raven is a vigilante that is shrouded in mystery. There are rumors that circulate the streets that the Raven is inhuman, a being that moves swiftly and strikes without warning. Some even dare to whisper about the unfortunate ends that some of the Raven's victims have met. What they don't know is that last bit is all of Janus's doing.
It's why Remus has never understood Virgil's hypocrisy. He'll turn a blind eye to Janus's actions but Remus, roughing up a thug a little too harshly? Oh no, no, no, that was the most heinous thing Remus could ever do.
(He wonders what his adoptive father thinks of his actions not only tonight, but the past few months. Isn't this everything his father feared and more? Putting aside the whole "not being dead" thing, isn't this enough to make him irredeemable in the Raven's eyes?)
"Janus?" Remus hesitates, "would he be willing to make his tea?"
"For you, I am sure he is willing to prepare a full spread of pastries along with a pot of tea. He has...missed you a lot, Remus."
Remus's stomach rumbles. He hasn't eaten in weeks--not since he realized his body technically doesn't need food to survive. But he does need Janus's pastries. Those pastries are never a want, but a necessity.
"Okay, I'll go." Remus says, craning his neck to meet the Raven's gaze, "but only because I'm hungry."
Somehow, this causes a snort from his adoptive father. The closest thing resembling a laugh that the Raven will ever do. When he is not the Raven, and is simply Virgil--sometimes the man will actually laugh. Even so, that snort is the closest thing to a laugh that Remus has heard from the man in close to a year before his death.
Remus's legs buckle beneath him, almost bringing the Raven down with him. But it's not from the shock of the old man laughing. No, it's more likely his body protesting his week long streak of not sleeping.
It seems even though he doesn't require as much sleep as before, he still requires a certain amount of it. Or at least, that is what makes the most sense in his hazy racing thoughts.
"I've got you," Virgil whispers, his words unfettered by the voice modifier, "you're safe now."
Arms gather underneath him, as a long Kevlar cloak is draped around his wiry figure. An unwanted memory drifts to the surface; a time where his kid self demanded to be carried home and the Raven obliged without complaint. Roman had trailed after them, begging to be carried as well.
Janus had taken one look at their return (Roman clinging to Virgil's back like a baby koala while Remus was cradled in his arms) and simply raised an eyebrow. But it was clear through his stifled breathing that he found the entire thing comical.
Remus doesn't want to fall unconscious. He'll deny it, protest it with a wide grin and a cackle, that death doesn't scare him. But he is terrified of pitch black darkness.
He fears a confined undetermined space that is meant to seal him away deep in the ground. He fears wood splinters underneath his fingernails as he chokes on dirt as he continues to dig upwards, driven by an urge to survive--to break out of the ground to blessed, fresh air. He fears staring at a gravestone and just laughing until he started vomiting clods of dirt.
What if Virgil is lying about Janus? What if he decides to bury Remus again, this time in a coffin made out of titanium or reinforced concrete--dooming him to a living death?
"No," He mumbles, attempting to grasp tightly to Virgil's cloak, "I don't--"
But his eyes flutter shut against his volition, and he can only hope that they truly did miss him enough; that the words carved on his gravestone were genuine and sincere.
Remus Seagrove
20XX-20XXX
Beloved Son, Brother, Friend
Dearly Missed and Departed from the Earth too Soon
#sander sides#virgil sanders#remus sanders#sasi fic#thomas sanders#kat writes#time to yell thoughts in the tags#firstly this fic is roughly inspired by batman comics but not a one for one AU obviously#Virgil is a very flawed individual who was trying his best parenting both Roman and Remus#Janus is acting in an Alfred role here but he is actually a former villain of Virgil's who has been 'reformed'#but he obviously still isnt above killing people lmao#he was badly wounded in a fight and isnt able to be active in the field thus the reason he operates behind the scenes for virgil#Roman and Remus take on Robin-esque roles in this AU#they are biological twins who Virgil adopted after their parents were murdered#Roman probably the most like Dick Grayson in this AU#Virgil didnt want literal children out on the streets fighting crime but eventually caved because they craved violence#Remus used to be very withdrawn as a child#it wasnt until he became a teenager he found his voice and became more vocal and resistant to blindly following authority#virgil to janus: 'stop encouraging him! you're a bad influence!'#janus sipping his tea: no <3#in comparison roman seemed like a saint and thus some tension erupted between the two#as to how he returned from the dead? similar to jason some cosmic reset occurred causing him to wake up in his coffin#unlike jason he didnt require a lazarus pit and has become some undead being that probably shouldnt exist but does#also virgil isnt old hes like in his forties lol#remus is just being annoying
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There's something I need to get out before going to sleep:
I don't like people who always take their stress out on others.
I don't like people who always criticize and don't even try to understand other's choices and differences
I don't like people who only see the bad around them, especially in other people, completely ignoring everything that's positive and just harshly criticizing others
I don't like people who feel entitled to give you their opinion when it has not been asked
And don't like being yelled at because I don't agree or understand a stupid and irrational social rule
#People are stupid sometimes and when its long term it can quickly wear the person out and seriously affect them#i hate social norms#especially the ones that stop me from doing what I want to without a valid reason#i hate people who yell and cant control their emotions#and i hate being hurt and having to endure everything#its not because i dont show it that it doesnt bother me#i may act like one but i am not a robot#feels like people always exploit me yet still complain about everthing i do#sorry that was just a rant#now i feel better#i never complained like that#but it does help me heal a bit#im very patient and always try to be positive to protect my mind but sometimes i just run out of patience
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oh damn maybe I do got issues and my life isn't funny sad its just sad sad and I'm using humor to cope
nah I'm fine I've just maxed out my depressing relatable humor stat
#shitpost#/j?#vent? ish?#idk#I got no one to vent to other than my therapist once a week#just yell into the void of Tumblr where no one will believe you#maybe my abandonment issues are the reason I like yanderes#nah I think I'm just a fucked up freak#I probably shouldnt be putting this in tags#shut up auntie I don't spiral at night I just can think more at night#leave me alone ;v;#I need to stop being depressing people see me as that one troubled kid#I'll shut up now sorry
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haha. hahaahahaha. i want to cry.
#my classmate who is very cool is on the other side of the shipping fandom from me#and believes that my side is VERY WRONG and SHOULD NOT BELIEVE WHAT WE BELIEVE#im more of a ship and let ship yk?? like it ain't my problem and it ain't affecting me so idrc what yall do#yall being literally everyone#anyway so i overheard her talking abt it to some other ppl in my class#and i got lowk scared cuz she seems like the type to like#get rlly heated abt it?? and stop being friends w me if i told her erm actually i believe that the ship you hate is canon#so im just gonna try to not bring it up in conversation? and not talk to her abt it? which sounds like me running away from#my problems but really i'm just trying to keep friends yk?? ppl r scary and making friends is hard.#anyway i still want to cry just not as much#guess i didnt tell yall what i was talking about did i#i was talking abt dkbkdk vs izuocha#im obv the dkbkdk here like cmon.... and shes over there yelling abt how âITS TOXIC KATSUKI TOLD HIM TO JUMP OFF A BUILDINGâ#and allat like man u rlly think thats the reason we ship it.#no??#i ship it cuz a) theyre cute b) they make more canon sense than izuocha and c) cmon mannnnnn look at izuku that boy is not in love w urarak#of all people :skull:
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kacchan
#doodles#bakugou katsuki#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#I feel like a lot of people who dislike katsuki are like forgetting the oldest hes ever been is 16#like you are beefing with a 16 year old fictional guy. and the reception to him in earlier years was like.. hes 14-15.... he was changing#to stop being a bully. maybe just for personal reasons but then you look at now and see how much hes really changed and that hes been#changing since the story started.#mfw when people say the love character development and then hate on the teenager that has issues.#because lets not forget that his mom like. hits him. even if its played for a gag and the fact that he lives with her constant yelling#my point being i understand him and nobody should be mean to him#bnha
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I hate men and their need to act like any emotional reactions you have while youâre on your period is just you being âhormonalâ and ânot yourselfâ
(Rant in tags)
#like sorry Iâm actually defending myself rather than just letting you talk shit about me directly infront of me??#when Iâm on my period I tend to show more of my real emotions rather than what people want to see so yeah#but the conversation I was having with my brother was fine- I wasnât talking to him in any way#he asked me about the monster that I had because like an hour or two ago he asked me not to throw it away since itâs one with the cod#qr code thing on it and he asked me if I threw it away and I said âno itâs not empty right now itâs infront of the microwaveâ and right#after my dad jumps in saying nobody needs to take offense to how Iâm talking or how Iâm being? when I didnât say anything in any way? like#my brother didnât even have the time to respond to me before he jumped in and started indirectly talking shit#Iâm so done right now- all heâs done the last few days is nit pick at me about stupid shit like yesterday we missed the our bus stop and we#get off and this man starts yelling at me that now he doesnât get to eat (mind you he never explicitly said he wanted to get off at that#stop I thought we were just going directly home)- he constantly says shit on purpose to get a rise out of me and now for some reason my#brother (the one that is 17) has been budding in and telling me to stfu and all this shit and my dad feeds off it and uses it as more of a#reason to justify how heâs treating me and itâs just so upsetting cause he does know Iâm in a more vulnerable time right now since my period#is always really difficult anyways really sorry for the rant donât have any friends I can talk to irl about any of this so to the internet#it goes đ#random0lover emotional dumps#random0lover rambling âĄ
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Oooooh do you think gnomes would have their own language/dialect??
Short answer: Yes. Technically.
Long answer: I have. Feelings. About how language is treated in fantasy. Like âthis race has their Own languageâ despite living in vastly different areas of the same world. Like. Humans having their Own language. Elves having their Own language. Elves, orcs, etc etc. Its not Bad but its definitely like A Thing that pokes at my sides a little lol.
Humans have hundreds of spoken and visual languages! Id like to imagine that in a world with other races, they would have their own variety of spoken language đ So yes; Gus does speak in his own native tongue. And he has absolutely badmouthed someone who got on his nerves without them realizing it lol
#answered#chattin#gustavo#theyre like WHAT and hes like what? just talkin out loud :0#anyway#not to point fingers at popular properties bc basically ALL major games and shows do this#let ur races get confused as hell when they travel the planet lol#gustavo travels to an entirely different continent w like an adventuring group or something#and theyre like hey! theres a town full of gnomes here; maybe u can chat them up#and hes like. i dont know what the fuck theyre saying im so sorry#while were on the subject I love love love that he has such a deep voice#its very strange (obviously from sound clips being distorted)#but like i can imagine he doesnt really come across easily to alot of people#like he talks slower than usual but its also just very deep and he can often slur words together#and for some reason i keep hearing him w a southern (ish) accent in english?? i dunno how to make it stop đđđ#like very deep very gentle and hospitableâŚ..if theres an italian equivalent of that hmu lmao#this is like COMPLETELY different from Vigis bc he sounds southern and deep too#but like he speaks WAY faster and he sounds completely incoherent when hes angry/yelling#YOU KNOW WHAT#im going to just say Gus being an adventurer#he is just a polyglot#and very fluent in those languages#justifying my sweet southern boy gus! voice agenda lmao
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i hate ocd because it's so illogical that most advice to combat it ends up being useless. when i tell people i'm irrationally stressed or paranoid about something they try and explain why it's either very unlikely to happen or why it doesn't make sense to be worried about said thing. and i appreciate the sentiment but the problem is i already know that. once my brain thinks of something to be scared of it will graphically torture me with it until i get completely burnt out or have an episode <3333
#on a sort of related note how do i function without being destroyed by guilt for eating or sleeping#when i should be writing my thesis#logically i know that i need to eat and sleep to function and i know how bad i feel when i don't do it#but i still have a constant thing in my head screaming at me for doing it so it stops me from sleeping bc it's so loud#and that's another ocd thing like it literally is a voice it's like someone screaming non stop and it's painful#80% of the reason i have a constant headache and migraines. my brain is SO LOUD#like please stop screaming at me i promise i am trying my best#also sucks because it can be hard to speak to people because it's like i can't hear properly#like sorry if i seem distracted girl there is literally someone in my head yelling full volume#another ocd thing bothering me recently which is REALLY DUMB#is i have this thing where i get scared to delete photos of my cats bc my brain tells me something bad will happen to them if i do#so my phone storage is SO FULL and even though i have backed up the photos on a hard drive and therefore can delete them#my brain is like nononono if you delete the picture of them they will die and you won't remember them#and i told my mother and she's like you need medication again#and i'm like yes i know but antidepressants make me evil and insane#compared to silly and insane as is my current statee#help
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#ryuuji suguro#blue exorcist#ao no exorcist#ryuji suguro#suguro ryuuji#bon suguro#suguro ryuji#manga ryuuji#shimane illuminati arc#chapter 65#fuck it i'm going on another ramble#ryuuji has spent the last arc and a half deconstructing everything he believed about himself and his people#he has been floundering hard and struggling to figure out his place in everything#from the truth about his father and the fact that even with that revealed he will NEVER have the childhood memory of his dad leading#and chanting over the flames again#that is over and all his fighting and struggling didn't fix that and will never#then he has konekomaru yelling at him (again) and telling him to stop leading#(He doesn't. he says to stop trying so hard to lead. They'll follow him without him trying to shove his way to the front)#and his myodha don't have a reason to stay together either#and then the gut punch that is renzou's betrayal#and now he finds out it's all just another lie#just another thing he didn't know and wasn't trusted with#and it feels like nothing he has ever believed is true and that devastation and unsteadiness will lead him head first into the next arc
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very very personal, just insight into where im at w my family and things that bother me/have encouraged me to move out
"i know youre moving out so im just gonna say no ones kicking you out and if you feel like this is something you have to do then ok"
thanks! i know im not being kicked out! but yknow i kinda yet a weird vibe when your out of touch husband takes me to a cemetery to yell at me, tell me im just like my father/dont give my father "the time of day", and that im "mean to people who care about me" in front of his dead mother's grave in a poor attempt at guilting me out of speaking my mind. but no yeah thanks for stating the fucking obvious that im leaving on my own terms
#problems!#people seem to underestimate how quick i am to make moves#the job market is piss. cant believe yall two would blame me for being unemployed when all i do from rise to slumber is hound ppl for jobs#im not going to stay in a house where i will be 'scared straight'. that shit doesnt work on me. in fact it has the opposite effect#i respect yall even LESS now#and youre so so fucking lucky one of my goals for next year is to make things right with you it would be easy to cut you off forever#same way i did with my abusive transphobic dad.#my mom is someone i know can do better and can actually listen to reason instead of being stuck in her generation's mentality of#'x is easy if you just do y. you kids have it so easy the world is at your fingertips' blah blah fucking blah#i am autistic i do not keep jobs easily. i am trans jobs do not want me. i am black and perceived as a woman. every customer at all of my#past jobs thinks i am rude or mean or have an attitude when i do nothing but treat others the exact way i would want to be treated#customers dont like what i say? i stop talking. customers dont like when i dont talk? i talk to them. rinse repeat#like i know im the problem here but all of my problems circle back to my autism and the fact that because im not a supergenius or#someone whose special interest is capitalism i fail at every avenue i try to jam myself in.#but yeah no i need to work harder i need to be taken to a FUCKING CEMETERY and yelled at by YOUR HUSBAND for wanting to go to the bathroom#in front of his mothers grave. god rest her soul and yall know im no christian so i actually mean that shit#because in his mind all i want to do is smoke and party. when i smoke because i have fucking migraines and g to shows#(two out of three of them being free and for the purpose of their willingness to 'get me out of the house')#bc i like music and i like engaging w my scene. but no its all violent noise theres no actual purpose or activism behind moshing. nope#its just one big party right. im just wasting my time right. because i like sleepin on a couch every night with no doors to close. yep ok#anyway heres to me getting my meds getting the fuck out and being somewhat far from my scene now that im moving#hows that for smoking and partying all the time huh?#if any of yall read this i am so so sorry. bitching about my stepdad will become a thing i think#hes one of those bible thumpers that are totally boring and indifferent to differences around them and thinks my mom is just like him#in some ways? she is. but she is a people pleaser and will never take her wants or her feelings seriously#because she had the unfortunate upbringing in being brainwashed into thinking her feelings/wants are sinful#shoutout to my christian or catholic mutuals who are fucking normal and dont let some old fantasy novel control your life. peace#religion mention
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