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meet-me-backstage · 11 months ago

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𝐅𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐇𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐓𝐨 𝐄𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 ⎈ 𝐌𝐢𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐋𝐢𝐟𝐞𝐠𝐮𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬

𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 🦇 Eddie Munson x Fem!Reader

𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 🦇 You get dragged into the unfathomable events at Starcourt Mall by your hopeless crush on Billy Hargrove and new-found middle-schooler friends. You struggle to cope with the trauma, which gradually costs you your popular cheerleader reputation when you return to high school for senior year. Though this loss first appears to be the end of the world, you learn that there's worse things than levelling down in popularity.

Though even in darkness, there is always a light - for you this is Eddie Munson, who you gain an unlikely friendship in and fall for him in the process.

𝑻𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒆𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒂 𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒔𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒃𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒍𝒐𝒕𝒔 𝒐𝒇 𝒖𝒑𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏𝒔, 𝒔𝒎𝒖𝒕 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒂 𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒑𝒚 𝒆𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈!

𝐒𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐬 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 🦇 smoking, mention of and consumption of drugs, horror themes, violence (in the upside down and probs Steve losing another fight (•̀ᴗ•́)و jk jk he's king), nightmares, mention of and consumption of alcohol, mention of and a near death experience, death, bad language, blood, bullying, mention of vomit and vomiting, some domestic (mainly verbal and emotional) abuse(‼️), mention of suicidal thoughts, mention of suicide, mention of self-harm, allusion to eating disorder and smUUT so you have to be 18+ to read this series❗️

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 🦇 4.9K words.

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 🦇 bad language and that’s about it I think guys!

𝐃𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐛𝐞 𝐚 𝐬𝐢𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 - 𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞, 𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝, 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐦𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐥𝐲, 𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠!

𝐋𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐨𝐲, 𝐦𝐚𝐲𝐛𝐞 𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐅𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐇𝐞𝐫𝐞 𝐓𝐨 𝐄𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 𝐰𝐡𝐢𝐥𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝! <𝟑

⇜ 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐢𝐱 ⎈ 𝐆𝐫𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐝

You hadn't received your monthly note from 'Ozzy the Tiger' in June, which you figured would be a shining ray of light in your grounded era. You became more disheartened as each day passed, it becoming more and more evident that you weren’t going to receive another note ever again.

It made you question yourself. Had I done something wrong? Had I been forgotten by Ozzy the tiger? You never thought it'd hurt so bad to stop receiving those damn notes. You realised just how much those little notes meant to you in a time where you felt most unlike yourself. Being weak and alone had become all that you knew, like you’d either been lost or hurt by everybody you knew, leaving you with nobody to turn to… not even Ozzy the tiger.

Even at school, you noticed that everybody had somebody - Chrissy now had Jason. The entire cheer team, apart from you, had somebody from the basketball team. You sat at the end of the lunch table with them all still, though you may as well have been sat alone because nobody spoke to you, not even Chrissy.

You didn't feel welcome anywhere... forgotten. Until the day before summer break... you received a note...

🦇 𝟏𝐬𝐭 𝐉𝐮��𝐲, 𝟏𝟗𝟖𝟓 🦇

You read it over and over, in fact, you’re pretty sure that the note has been in between your fingertips since you’d first received it. Billy... it has to be Billy.

Though you had been sure for a small while, you physically couldn't confront him about the notes because you’re still grounded... you’d been wanting to ask for weeks now if they were from him and why… if they were from him of course. The only good thing about being grounded was that you’d had a lot of time to think, but once you came to a conclusion - finally - you wanted nothing other than to get everything off of your chest.

You’d been in your room for so long that you thought you’d never leave, sure that your mom and sister were entirely happy to let you rot in your room all day ever since summer break started.

Today is the first time in a month that you’ve been out of your home because your mom and Rebecca had decided together that your behaviour had been 'good' enough… They'd allowed you to go to Starcourt on your own for a work shift at The Gap.

“Can I not just stay and help for another hour?” You plead after Dana had insisted that you leave early.

"Definitely not, you’ve worked hard enough today, especially as Chrissy didn’t bother to show - but it's been so great to have you here again. It's been chaos without you with all the kids being on summer break - don't be a stranger!" Dana waves with a sweet smile. You are surprised at the fact that she even remembers you, you’re surprised a lot of people remember you - some other kids from school even had said 'hello' to you in the midst of their shopping sprees.

You wave back, grinning as you leave the store, "I'll be back, promise!"

As you approach the centre of the mall you notice a familiar head of red hair, it is Chrissy... and Jason - they are walking hand in hand to the escalator, you immediately guess that they're going on a cinema date... you don’t want to interrupt but you have to speak to her about the last note you’d received as a matter of urgency.

You look back and forth between the exit of the mall and Chrissy... I have an hour before I’m expected to be home - that’s plenty of time… "Fuck it," you mutter to yourself before you start running up the escalator. By the time you reach the top, Chrissy and Jason are stood in the queue for the cinema, "Chrissy!"

She turns, her eyes darting around until she sees you running towards her, she grins widely, though her eyes clearly express confusion, "Oh - hi!?" She opens her arms for you to hug her, "Where have you been? I've been so worried - I tried to call but your mom told me you had a flu and not to bother visiting!" She pouts, still holding onto your arms.

You laugh awkwardly at the lie your mom had told her... the only way I could've been ill this last month was from the lack of food I’d had, "I've er - been okay - all better now, especially now I've found you."

"Are you sure?" She looks closely into your eyes and blushes, looking away, "I mean, you look tired - are you sleeping?"

No, because this goddamn note has been keeping me up and I've not used any energy up for me to sleep off because I‘ve practically been Rapunzel locked up in a tower with her mom and I couldn't call you about it because mom or Rebecca would probably listen in... and I'd be damned if they found out about the notes, "I - er-."

"Make it quick - we're gonna be late," Jason steps forward and gestures towards the shrinking queue that is disappearing through the entrance to the cinema.

You roll your eyes before taking a deep breath, “Alright - I've been - kept up by a note I got from Ozzy, I've lost hours of sleep over it because it was asking me for forgiv-," you hadn't realised you’d been rambling until you notice Chrissy looking extremely overwhelmed by your sudden and loud voice, while Jason just looks frustrated.

"Oh my - are you dumb or what - isn’t it obvious it's Billy!" He bursts, louder and more abruptly than even he expected because as soon as he said it he did a 360 with his entire body, checking to see if anyone was looking. You are too caught up and shocked by his outburst to be embarrassed, Chrissy mirrors your actions by staring at Jason with wide eyes.

"How - would you know that?" You mumble, trying to keep your emotions at bay.

Jason's eyes wander, seemingly unable to look you in the eye, "He told me," he scratches the back of his neck and you tilt your head, "Look - he felt bad for what happened at that party and he wanted to make up for it somehow," he speaks defensively, like you’re stupid for being surprised by his confession.

"And - where would Billy be right now?" Your voice raises in pitch. You blink at Jason afterwards and gulp.

Jason shrugs, still not being able to make eye contact with you. Your heart beat keeps creeping faster, this power that you now have over Jason makes adrenaline flood through you, so you take a step closer to him and move your head so that he's forced to look at you, "At the - swimming pool."

"The community one?"

He looks you dead in the eye now, "Yes - the Hawkins community pool, he's a lifeguard there... the pool closes at six so you'll miss him if you don't run along now," he states in a threatening way, reclaiming his power, and like he'd chuck you over the balcony if you didn't leave him and Chrissy alone.

You glare, not saying another word before looking at Chrissy, "Enjoy your date," you smile sweetly and spin yourself around. As you run you hear Chrissy call a 'good luck!' but you don’t turn back. You barge past people on the escalator and ignore them grumble about ‘the youth of today’ being so ‘ignorant’.

You peek into Scoops Ahoy on your way out of the mall, Chrissy and you had stopped going when Jason swooped in and stole her. You stop running to double-check it is actually Steve ‘the hair’ Harrington working there now, but you’re quick to continue sprinting after checking your watch.

5:52pm. Thats wicked! What am I even going to do when I get there? What will I say? Fuck you, Billy! No. Thanks for the notes? I hate you but a part of me still really really really likes you so much and thinks you're a decent guy. No. Is this a bad idea? Yes.

But even when you’re stood, gripping onto the handle of your bike which is between your legs, in front the entrance of the community pool you still hadn’t found your words. You realise that you can’t leave because you’re now completely drenched from the rain and you’d be grounded for another month just for making the carpet dirty at home...

Mom would probably double kill me because of the state my clothes are in right now.

You don’t want to face them, you also don’t want to face Billy now but at least you have the excuse that Heather works as a lifeguard here too, and Billy knows that you are in the cheerleading team together - friends, more or less.

It’s raining heavily and people are frantically running past you to leave the pool. There are others stood by the building for shelter.

You reluctantly start your search after leaving your bike beside another disregarded bike under shelter, looking to see if Billy is sat on the lifeguard chair or helping by guiding people to shelter... but he wasn't. He is nowhere to be seen outside and neither is Heather. Maybe they're inside. You run inside the building, simultaneously wiping the rain from your eyes, but your sleeves are so wet that not even that helps you. You shake your head and try to ignore the cold shivers running through your body because you needed desperately to see this note - situation through… and you’re so close to solving it that you can’t leave now.

There are two workers behind the main desk who look to be a little older than you. You recognise them from Hawkins High but you’ve never spoken to them before - and they definitely recognise you, "Keg queen - sucker punch!"

"I do have a name," you lean on the desk that is separating you from them.

The girl has her hair in a ponytail and keeps on glancing at the guy sitting down, "Sorry - it’s just - what everyone calls you," she apologises half-heartedly, "Oh - I'm Katie - this is Adam, by the way - we've seen you at the parties," she tells you excitedly and Adam looks up, which she notices and stops talking, "How's it going?" She asks eagerly after clearing her throat.

"Just fine, I'm actually er - looking for Heather, or Billy," You state awkwardly and Katie seems to look more interested, leaning onto the counter.

Adam lowers the magazine in his hands, "I already had this conversation with two girls about Heather. Neither of ‘em showed up for work today, bailed out on me so I had to call Katie to fill in."

Your mouth is hung open, you’re entirely puzzled - Katie interrupts before you can ask for Billy's address, "Is there a secret party that we don't know about?"

"Couldn't give top secret information out, could I?" You lie, smiling smugly before straitening your back suddenly, "See you around guys, I've gotta go - hopefully you get an invite," you wink, pointing at them as you walk backwards. Katie pout her lips but is quickly distracted by Adam, who shows her something in the magazine - you take that as an opportunity to look around because they aren’t exactly aware of their surroundings, especially as people are screaming and running just metres away.

Billy could be around here somewhere - maybe he did something stupid like get himself locked in storage.

It gets much quieter the deeper you delve into the building. You check the changing rooms first and find... no one, but you still call out his and Heather's name quietly as you wander until you hear faint mumbles coming from ahead.

"Heather - Billy," You call again in a hushed voice, your eyes squint to try and see through the mirror in the door where the noises seemed to be coming from. It led into the showers and as you walk closer you still can’t hear what these voices are saying because the showers are on, "Heather - Billy!" You say a louder now before sucking in a breath and opening the door, closing your eyes, "Heather or Billy, if you're in here please don't be doing anything weir- oh," you hesitantly open your eyes, instead of seeing Billy or Heather, you see two girls, "Sorry for um - barging in - are you two - okay?"

You notice that one of them, the girl sat on the floor in a puddle of water, has blood trickling from her left nostril and is shaking, maybe startled by your sudden entrance - she nods, pursing her lips... the other girl looks shocked, like you weren’t meant to be here.

"Are you sure?" You start to walk closer only for the brunette to start crawling away, she has an eye mask wrapped around her wrist and she uses her other hand to wipe the blood away messily, “Hey, it’s okay. I won’t hurt you - I've got tissue to clear that up bette-."

"She's fine," the redhead states, her voice is hurried and she rolls her eyes as if you’re being an inconvenience, "We're kinda busy figuring - stuff out - so if you could leave that'd be great."

Her tone is sassy but her voice gets quieter as you notice a picture of Heather in her lifeguard uniform on the floor, taken from it's spot on the noticeboard opposite the main desk. You crouch down, pick it up and squint your eyes. Why would they need this picture? Kinda weird. "Do you know Heather or is this some kind of weird - capturing lifeguards ritual?" You ask playfully, to which the two girls share more awkward glances.

"We're just - looking for her becaaauuuse - we found her bag!?” The redhead admits, sounding unsure - you realise that they must have been the girls Adam mentioned that had been asking about Heather. “We want to return it to her.”

"By sitting - here with her picture and an eye mask with all the showers on?" You tilt your head and furrow your brows, "That's one way of 'looking' - I guess, but why don't you go to her house? It's not far from here, I'm her neighbour actually."

They keep exchanging looks, like they know something that you don’t. It frustrates you so you roll your eyes and stand up before turning to leave them to their strange search party.

Middle schoolers. You huff before halting your steps. Wait, the redhead… I recognise her, she stepped out of Billy's car the first time I ever saw him. Did she know that Billy was likely to be with Heather? It would be pretty obvious since they both happened to bail out today.

You open the door again and hold it as you look over your shoulder, "Chances are that Heather is with Billy - he bailed from work today too, but you probably know that already."

"You know Billy?" The redhead asks suddenly, her voice stopping you from completely leaving.

You scrunch your nose, "Yeah - er, I know Billy from school - we go back - a little," You say unsurely and the girls continue to stare. You huff out a laugh, "Anyway, 'm gonna - go and leave you to-," you tilt your head, "whatever you're doing in here."

"Wait - where are you going?" She asks while the other girl picks herself up off the floor and stands by the mouthy redhead.

You sigh as you’re stopped from leaving the shower room again, "Not that it's any of your business, but I've got some stuff to clear up with Billy - and I'm pretty sure he's with Heather - so my best shot is her house, I think,” you smile before opening the door again, thinking it'd be the last time.

It wasn't... because the door suddenly slams shut on it's own with brute force, so fast that you almost fall backwards. You manage to balance yourself on your left heel and quickly grab onto the door handle again but you quickly realise that after a few pushes that you’re not going to get it to open. It must've been shut by someone on the other side... probably Adam or Katie locking up for the day. “Shit! Adam - Katie, can you unlock the door please!" You call out but receive no answer, so you bang on the door repeatedly until your fist starts to ache. You sigh, resting your forehead against the door, “Great,” you mumble under your breath and shake your head against the door, refusing to believe that you’re going to spend the night in a damp shower with these strangers, “Adam - Katie! It’s the sucker-punching - keg queen! If you let me out I’ll invite you to the secret party!”

“Will you shut up?!” The mouthy redhead interrupts your desperate rambling.

“No offence, you seem like-,” you clear your throat, “lovely girls, but I really don’t have time for a slumber party with either of you in this very cold and wet room. I need to - get outta here - before Adam - and - Katie - leave,” you keep fiddling with the door handle and start to kick the door between words, but you continue to have no luck in anyone hearing you from the other side.

“No,” the quiet girl finally speaks, making you slowly turn to face them with wide eyes.

You nervously point at the door with your thumb over your shoulder as you maintain nervous eye contact with them, "Um - with all due respect, I don't have to listen to either of you soooo," the once quiet girl is looking at you blankly, but sternly, while the other is clearly worried about the scene you’d just caused, "We're just gonna f-forget whatever this is," You, now extremely unnerved and even more desperate to get out of this room, grab the door handle for what felt like the hundredth time.

You throw your side at the door, using the entirety of your body weight against it and this time, to your amazement… the door clicks.

You silently chuckle at the small triumph, but your relief is short-lived when you reach for the handle, but are stopped by the sound of the brunette’s voice getting closer.

"No.” She sure is intimidating for a girl younger than me, "We can't - forget." You instinctively back yourself up against the door while the redhead holds onto the quiet, scary girl's arm and steps in front of her.

"Look - what we're doing is serious, this is not equal to - one of Billy's girl... conquests," the redhead boldly states.

Pfft - 'conquests'.

You roll your eyes while sudden determination courses through you - all the uneasiness and confusion you felt suddenly leaving your body.

Those notes meant something, I'm not sure what, but confronting him about it today would be my best chance at finding out before - he potentially leaves for college, or worse… he falls for someone who isn’t me. Those notes he'd been slipping in my locker prove that I am not Billy Hargrove's conquest - he really cares about me.

You decide in that moment to stand your ground, "No, you look - believe it or not, I am not a - 'conquest', he cares about me and I care about him a lot… and Heather is my friend - so I am either leaving here on my own to go find them, or I am staying here - but you have to explain to me what your - deal is and then we can go together," you speak desperately and stomp your foot on the floor. You cross your arms and your eyes are wide, staring intensely between both girls.

It became a staring contest between the three of you, the girls seem to realise that you are refusing to back down, which causes you to smirk and turn on your heel to leave… again, but for good this time.

"Wait, what's your name?" The quiet brunette asks, her voice even more gentle than before.

You don’t even look back now that the door is half open, but you hesitantly sigh out your name anyway.

"If you go alone you'll be in big danger," she confesses, hushed but still bold nonetheless.

At 'danger' being mentioned you swiftly turn your upper half to face them because it had been the last word you’d expect to hear in relation to this situation, "Danger - what kind of danger?" You nervously chuckle.

The redhead looks at her friend in complete disbelief.

You blink between both girls and a small, nervous smile tugs at your lips… it’s all lies to discourage me from searching.

"Death," the word rolls off of her tongue with no hesitation.

She's a wicked liar. You laugh, "You - you guys a-re good!"

They stare, puzzled by your laughter, "You will die if you go alone - you need us-," the redhead looks at her friend with wide eyes and quickly places her hand over her mouth.

They are being... serious?

Your eyes are wide and you shut the door carefully yourself, choosing to stay with them, "I - I don’t understand. You’re - not joking?" You whisper and you can see that the two of them are debating via eye contact before they turn themselves from you and start whispering. The redhead is the most reluctant to tell you anything, while the other girl argues that they’re in too deep with you to let you go - only making you more curious.

‘She could help us.’

‘How?’

‘Heather can trust her more than us.’

‘But-.”

‘They’re friends - and friends don’t lie.’

‘Okay, but we have one bike… that’s not gonna hold three people.’

“That’s not a problem, I have my own ride outside!” You chirp into their not so secret discussion, smugly smiling when the redhead shoots you a glare over her shoulder.

They come to a mutual decision minutes later, "You can come with us - but you have to trust us when we tell you that this could get really dangerous," the redhead speaks now, she looks at you with such sincerity that you instantly trust her.

"I'm coming with you."

She raises her brows and looks at her friend again, probably thinking that you’re being stubborn as hell - they both sigh and nod, but the redhead still looks very reluctant to be letting you in on their search party.

The quiet one reaches her hand out to shake yours, "I'm Jane," she speaks as you take her hand and she nods towards her friend, "This is Max," Max forces a smile.

You can tell that they are nervous, especially about your presence, they act like you’re an extra heavy bag that they have to carry all the way to Heather's home in the rain - which doesn’t exactly make you feel welcome… especially with the addition of Max’s constant glaring at you while you rode on your bikes alongside each other.

Once you reach Heather's home you try desperately not to look at your home to the right of it. To avoid being seen you quickly run to the door and knock. You hear the girls shout 'wait!' as they run after you, squeezing either side of you to stand in front and knock again, "I already knocked - maybe they're not in."

"Shut up - we're going in one way or another!" Max whisper shouts. Jane stands in a power stance, spreading her legs slightly which Max notices and realisation spreads across her features, "Please don't scream, yell - or ask any questions, okay?" She nods, staring into your eyes again.

I’ve never met kids as intense as these two.

"Of course, why would I..." Somehow the door unlatches itself as Jane bows and tilts her head, staring intensely, like a missile setting it’s target. How did she do that?! Your eyes widen at the realisation.... What have I got myself into? "S-cream," you mutter with a shaky breath before biting your lips together and staring into the hallway that you’d seen many times on occasions where the Holloway's would invite your family over for dinner.

The warmth of the home had once felt inviting to you, but not in this moment, you freak out as you sense the reality in a situation that feels entirely otherworldly. You try to stay calm, but your eyes are glued to Jane, wearily watching her every move. She notices this and looks at you oddly, like you’re weird for thinking that this situation is batshit crazy.

You open your mouth to whisper, "How did you do that? Do you have - powers?" As the words leave your lips you realise just how crazy you sound... how could someone have super powers? This shit only happens on the tv, how could it be happening now? “I don’t understand - were you born with them? Are you real? Is this really happening? Am I even real? Do you have two hearts? Are you an alien-.”

Max rolls her eyes at all of your questions, “I told you it would be a bad idea to bring her with us,” she whispers to Jane.

Jane ignores Max and takes a step towards you, which makes you move to step back, but before you can move away from her she grabs both your arms. Your nerves make your arms shake in her hands and you stare down at her with widened eyes, trembling lips and goosebumps all over your body. Jane’s large brown eyes softly gaze into yours and her grip on your arms tighten, “I’ll tell you everything once we know that Heather and Billy are safe - promise?” Her small, sweet voice raises in pitch as she lets go of one of your arms and lifts her pinky finger.

Your gaze softens too, “P-promise.” You connect your pinky finger with Jane’s, her mouth twitches upward into a shy, warm smile. Though your heart is still racing from the craziness of this situation and your lips continue to tremble with questions you so want to ask her, you are temporarily satisfied with her comforting words.

The three of you proceed to walk further into Heather’s home.

You come face to face with a picture of the Holloway family and you hold your shaking hand up to it, "Please be ok-."

A loud laugh echoes throughout the house, making you jump and quickly turn your head in the direction of the sound. You smell cookies, the familiarity of the delicious smell gets more intense as you creep closer and peek your head into the room enough not to be detected… you see Billy sat with Mr and Mrs Holloway, it looks like they'd just eaten dinner, and are drinking wine while music blares from the record player.

Max and Jane are the first to show themselves while you try to fix your extremely damp hair, stained clothes and smudged make up - you wipe under your eyes frantically.

Billy can't see me like this.

"Max!" You hear Billy's voice - it makes your heart swell with excitement because you’d not heard it in months.

"We didn't mean to uh... barge in... we tried to knock - but maybe you didn't hear over the storm," Max speaks and Jane looks at you before her attention is snapped back to the table.

"I'm sorry - who is this dripping all over my living room right now?" Mr Holloway speaks with authority and you hear Billy apologise. A chair squeaks as he introduces Max as his sister - I figured.

"What on earth are you doing here? Is something wrong?" You hear Billy ask, his voice getting closer, he must've been the one to get up from his chair.

"We just wanted to make sure everything was okay."

"Okay? Why wouldn't it be okay?" He sounds genuinely concerned, but is smooth and something, like he is trying to calm the situation with it.

He has changed, he’s no longer... mean, maybe I had slapped some sense into him.

You reach into your pocket to squeeze the damp 'forgive me' note he'd slipped into your locker and suddenly you feel the courage to show yourself. You jog in as if you had been running after Max and Jane, "There you are!" You say, pretending to be out of breath and everyone looks at you, Mrs Holloway grins, saying 'It's so lovely to see you!’

Billy just stares. It isn’t a cold stare, he even starts to smile at the sight of you before him. He utters your name and he seems to... Is he blushing? He looks down and grins, "You know, I was hoping to see you... after everything - you look beautiful, by the way," he looks up at you with fond eyes, like he'd completely forgotten that you’d slapped him and that you both had been avoiding each other for months.

"S-so do you," you manage to stammer out, giggling shyly afterwards. He does he always look so good? You wonder as you notice his outfit. He is dressed up nice in a blue shirt and jeans, you can’t help but imagine what he looks like underneath them for a brief second and blush at your realisation that you’d both been admiring each other for what felt like ages.

"Where is she?" Jane suddenly interjects, which breaks yours and Billy's eye contact.

He looks slightly annoyed that your moment with him had been interrupted but unlike the old Billy, who would've argued, he withheld his frustration, "I'm sorry - where is who?"

"Well, they're a little burnt... I'm sorry," a voice you immediately recognise as Heather's fills the room, she walks in with a tray of cookies and looks at you, Max and Jane, she falters in her step a little.

"Heather - this is my sister, Maxine," he gestures with his hands a lot and looks at you again, smiling almost... adoringly, "you obviously know er... my little miss keg queen over here," he continues to look at you and you have to look away because you’re afraid of turning into a puddle of mush in the middle of the Holloway living area. Instead you look at Heather, who smiles at you warmly, to your surprise as you had always been well aware of her indifference towards you even though everyone assumed that you were friends just because you’re in the cheer team together, "And, I'm sorry, I did not quite catch your name."

"El," El? I thought it was Jane? Another question added to my long list. Thunder rumbles outside and you look at Billy, searching for comfort but he is staring at Jane, his eyes slightly glossy.

"El - now what is it you were saying, El? You were looking for somebody?" He asks, having no clue as to what Jane is talking about. You stand closer to Max and Jane because there is - something about this thunder storm that is unsettling you, which you find odd as the sound and sight of thunder and lightning usually calms you down.

Jane murmurs, confused, which especially catches the attention of Heather, who is still holding tightly onto the tray of cookies. Max steps in, "Your co-workers - we saw them at the pool - they said you guys didn't come in today and...," she looks at you, her mouth still open, unable to come up with an excuse for you.

"Oh," your heart beats out of your chest, "I - was at the pool because I wanted - I wanted to talk to you, to clear things up between us," you manage to look at Billy without losing all control of your limbs, "and I overheard Max and - El’s conversation with your co-workers," you ramble, sounding confused when you mention 'El's' name and you feel your face getting hotter, "We all were just - really worried and decided to come here," you nod.

"My keg queen, always looking out for me - I'm fine, sweetheart," he grins widely at you, his voice smooth like velvet. He gestures towards Heather, looking between all three of you, "Heather however - she wasn't feeling so hot today so we thought we'd take the day off to nurse her back to health-," That's so kind of him, "But you're feeling just fine right now, aren't you Heather?"

"I'm feeling so much better," Heather grins, the Holloways look up at their daughter lovingly.

Billy smiles genuinely, he's stood differently too, in a less intimidating way - his whole demeanour had changed so much since you last saw him, almost too much... you find it quite strange. Jane and Max glare, but you choose to smile back at him... still blushing at his sweet treatment towards you.

"Would you girls want a cookie? Little miss?" Heather pipes up again, smiling warmly as she holds the tray towards you. You always wanted to be accepted by her, but of course, being your neighbour meant that she’d seen you playing basketball with your brother, Mason, ding dong ditching houses in the neighbourhood (the Holloways had been victim to that game), flipping the bird at the paper boy whenever he’d hit you with the morning paper… not so typical cheerleader behaviour in her eyes.

What’s the harm in one cookie anyway?

You reach out to grab a cookie, but Max is quick to shove her arm in front of you to stop you from doing so. You open your mouth to protest, but the look she gives me is so fearful... and even though you thought that they'd played a playful joke about the possibility of 'death' at first, you think about the possibility of the cookies being poisoned, so you decide against it and let your hand fall back to your side, "I think we'd better go," Max states.

You hesitate because a part of you wants to stay because there is still so much that you want to say to Billy, but you feel both of your hands being taken and pulled by Jane and Max in the direction of the front door.

"I'll escort you to the door," Billy speaks, already following behind you. You feel goosebumps beginning to form at his close proximity and once you’re stood beside the front door you turn yourself around to say goodbye. Instead you gasp because you hadn’t realised just how close his face is to yours. "Hopefully we can - catch up alone sometime soon, yeah?" He smiles warmly, his eyes glassy, making them twinkle under the moonlight.

You smile again, your body shivers from the cold, but is also really warm at his presence, right now you want nothing more than to gravitate towards him, "Sure - that'd be p-perfect," you continue to look into his eyes, you find it nearing impossible to look away, but Max and Jane tug at my hands again... the pull startles you, it’s almost as if they’d just shaken you out of a trance.

"Thanks for the... notes-.”

Billy furrows his brows and tilts his head before opening his mouth to respond but they tug at your hand again, “C’mon, let’s go,” Max states, cutting your final chance to speak to Billy tonight short.

You start to walk away, hearing the door shut behind you. You stand in the rain watching Jane walk ahead and Max grabbing her bike... they’re so quiet, it feels like they're trying to leave you without another word.

"Where are you going?" You call after them, then you turn to look at Heather's house one last time, seeing Billy still looking out of the window to the side of the front door. He suddenly smiles again, noticing you looking and you quickly wave, give him a strained, squinted smile because raindrops are violently falling into your eyes... at least he can’t see me blushing again. "Jane, Max - wait up!" You call, picking up your bike and catching up with them, they now have the hoods of their red and yellow raincoats pulled over their heads.

Max abruptly turns to face you, her eyes squinted, "Isn't your house like - right there? You're gonna get a cold for no reason."

"Right - sorry er - I guess I’ll - see you around,” you start to turn yourself around, already noticing that the lights are on in your home, your heart sank at the sight of it and so does the thought of returning to it. You think of going back to the trailer park with your dad, but you’d have to cycle all the way across town… you just hope that everything would fizzle out by morning and you could return home then.

"Stay with us?" Jane suddenly suggests with a worried tone in her voice, she doesn’t look settled even though everything is supposedly fine... Billy and Heather are okay, "Besides - I think you have some questions for me?"

You could not have turned back around to face them quicker, your face lights up with so much intrigue, “I have so many questions!”

Mom and Rebecca definitely wouldn't be able to find me if I cooped up for the night in a random power-holding middle schooler's home.

You hop onto your bike and enthusiastically cycle towards the two girls, almost slipping due to the slipperiness of rain on concrete, causing Max to playfully roll her eyes and smile to herself.

“So are you?!” You breathily ask, struggling to speak with the rain and wind blowing against your face.

“What?!” Jane answers with a strained laugh.

“An alien with two hearts?!” You ask, humour evident in your voice.

The three of you all giggle while cycling in unison before Jane shakes her head, “Just a - girl!”

⇝ 𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐄𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 ⎈ 𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐌𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐅𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐫

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lokorum · 1 year ago

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Bg3 act 1 asks

1,17

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHONESTLY at this point everyone here knows that im loko-slowko, slowpokes great grandmother, so what can i say but ₊˚⊹thank you₊˚⊹ for 1. being the sweetest bun in the world and taking your time to ask me about my silly oc!!! and 2. thank you for surviving this month or two while i was replying!!!!! I COULD SAY that i was thinking about my reply but i know better than to pretend to have a braaaaain ( o˘◡˘o)

so!! questions!!!

tell us about your tav! name, class and subclass, race, pronouns. do you have a headcanon for where they're from? their family? are they a dark urge? or did you choose an origin character? was it an easy decision? (1)

my tav's name - isa or ise!! (with the emphasis on a\e!)

their main class is rogue-assassin (tho they're not above unorthodox usage of salami) (in a fight!!!!!) and im still yet to try to play with amazing blood hunter mod!! (•̀ᴗ•́ )و

you can see that in game they are tiefling but thats just because for some reason this head??? this beautiful head??? can be used only on fem!tieflings!!!!!! but thankfully we're blessed with transmask top surgery mod so it just works. i think of them as of sooooomeeeekiiiind offfff elfff??? idk honestly!!! dnd races make me want to cry////////////but the vibe i was going for was "they look like they're 30 yo MAX when in actuality they like 150 ooops"

their pronouns - they\he but! they're also mute (guess who grew up roleplaying silent-protagonists from early 2000 and cant get over it? CORVO SHOUDNT TALK BETHESDA OH MY FUCKING GOD WHAT HAVE YOU DONE????) and not very communicative so i bet no one from the party knows their pronouns.,,,,,,,,,,,,,,or name ??????????????????????( l|l⚆ᗝ⚆)

hpphphph i heard people saying "you shouldn't take durge for your first playthrough" and ⚠️REVERSED PSYCHOLOGY ACTIVATED⚠️ FLASHBACKS FROM VTM WHERE EVERYONE TELLS YOU NOT TO PLAY MALKAVIAN ON THE FIRST TRY BUT OFC I DID AND I LOVED IT so yeah no regrets, best decision of 2023 right after playing deltarune (spamton fanart incomiiiiiinnnngggg)

in short - they are from skyrim any snowy land im faerun, name of which im gonna learn when i'll finally start to gather info together phpphphph sorry!! i 100000% adamant on them traveliong A LOT, but by that i dont mean `✦ ˑ ִֶ 𓂃⊹"5 best luxury boat tours in faerun for you and your questionably looking butler"‧₊˚✩彡 i mean..............................."youre *unexpected gerard way voice:* RAT and youre eating RATS on the boat that looks like its gonna sink. the smell of fish and seaweed is so bad you know you not gonna be able to wash it from your frozen shivering bleeding body. you hide in the boxes, in sacks, in dead people clothes, in everyone's shadows and when you're finally out - your eyes sting from the light and you cry but your cheeks are so cold you cant feel it" kinda tours? 😳🙄

17. what does your character think of withers?

CURIOUS! isa are very curious about withers and like......they want to touch him?? to know whats up with their skin?? THEY SMELLED HIM HANNIBAL STYLE!!!! i bet they were suspiciously watching him talking with other party members in the camp, while hiding in a bush. PROBABLY WITH ASTARION THAT RAT OH MY GOSH

honestly if we could have a platonic ship with withers isa would be first in line kissing him on a cheek and taking him on a date (just so this cold-hearted sexy skeleton could dump them later saying "YOuR WheELs Of FaTe TurNEd EvEr tO thE DaRKnesS" or whatever......SO MEAN!!)

#bg3 durge #lord gortrash my beloved #yes this is my tag for bg what can i do with it #if i create another one i'll just #FORGET BOTH

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call-me-copycat · 1 year ago

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Hi sweetheart! I know you like Shinsou (I do too, like a lot 😍) so let's have these questions about him shall we?

3/ 6/ 21/ 22/ 23/ 25 I hope this isn't too much but these questions are really interesting, please feel free to ignore some of them if it's a lot to answer ❤️

Sending you much love.

Hello again Teach! Don't worry about the number, no one usually sends in any asks (apart from you send @epickiya722 ), so please, ask away! :⁠-⁠)

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character?

Hmm, this one was a bit hard since there's so much I love about him, but I'd have to say that I once heard he joined class B instead of A, and I was a little bitter about that (￣^￣゜) I just really wanted to see him more with Aizawa!

6. What's something you have in common with this character?

Ooh, I really thought about this one before! I'd say that I tend to be rather antisocial like how he seems to be, and that when I have a goal I do like to work hard for it ٩(,,•ω•,,)و⚑⁎∗ﾌﾚﾌﾚ

21. If you're a fic writer and have written for this character, what's your favorite thing to do when you're writing for this character? What's something you don't like?

Ah, I love to have him learn things and develop bonds with people! I just really like trying to look into his mind and attempting to write how he would interact with people and how his relationships are formed ⸜( ˶'ᵕ'˶)⸝♡

22. If you're a fic reader, what's something you like in fics when it comes to this character? Something you don't like?

I love it when people have a nicely developed character for him, even if he's not the main character! Whenever he has actual thoughts behind his actions, it makes it seem like a lot of thought was put behind the writing (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧

On that same note! I don't really care for fics where he's just there to move the plot forward. Nothing but the surface is shown, and his character feels hollow. I think that's just a personal bias though ╮(´･ᴗ･` )╭

23. Favorite picture of this character?

I have so many photos!! ( ₪﹏ ₪ ）՞ ՞

All for you! ( ͜♡･ω･) ͜♡

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

My first impression of him...

Believe it or not but I didn't really have a good feeling about him or Aizawa when I first saw them (Aizawa especially)

It quickly changed though, especially after the USJ Arc and the Sports Festival, I believe that's where my obsession formed

Sorry if it's kind of vague, I first saw My Hero about 4-5 years ago, so it's kind of hard to remember exactly what I thought of them when I first watched.

Also when I first watched, Bakugo was my favorite character for a short amount of time (_˶'∀'˶)_

♡ ••┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈•• ♡ ♡ ••┈┈┈┈┈┈┈┈•• ♡

Thank you for being here Teach! I'm so happy to hear from you! I've been really busy so I was worried I probably bored everyone away with my absences (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) Glad to see you're still here! I hope you have a wonderful day! ୧꒰*´꒳`*꒱૭✧

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starboodoesstuff · 1 year ago

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what's ur favorite dinosaur :33

I love when people ask me this :D

If I had to choose, (since ALL dinosaurs are so cool haha) it'd go like this:

-Stegosaurus has been my fave since I was a kid, because WOAH pretty plates and WOAH tail spikeys :0 and it still DEFINITELY holds a special place in my heart, so definitely a favorite :>

-Velociraptors have always been really cool to me, what with the pack mentality and the fact that they were smol but mighty! (و˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و I also thought the huge claw on each foot was really cool too! And then, when I finally watched the entire saga of Jurassic Park a couple years ago, they got even cooler in my eyes :>

-Archaeropteryx (whew, what a mouthful- (･ω･") ) mostly intrigued me when I was young because of the interesting name, and when I learned that they were teeny AND had feathers? INSTANT favorite. I just wanna pick up the lil guy and snuggle it :3

-T-Rex, because the are big. And strong. And have a LOT of teeth. But they've got itty bitty arms and their heads seem to big for the body. So they're just a big little skrunkly :> I honestly don't care that it would eat me. I just wanna hug it :3

Sorry this is so long, I just love talking about dinosaurs :D

#asks #dinosaurs

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k-yurieee · 25 days ago

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This!! I know there are still some ppl who look down on fanfiction, but honestly there have been SO many fanfics I've read that had the most intricate storylines, the most beautiful and meaningful character relationships, interactions and dialogue, and mostly have just been some of the most wonderfully fun and incredible pieces of art that I've had the pleasure of reading ✧✶☆

It's very special to me because when I was younger, I would read a LOT of books but at some point during my teen years there was a period of time where I just stopped reading for fun completely. After a few years I got back into reading fanfiction (and picked up reading manga as well) and I have been having such a blast ever since! (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و

I cannot express how appreciation I have towards all of the amazing fanfiction writers whose fanfiction have touched my heart, whose stories made me smile and laugh (and sometimes cry, too), whose works helped me learn to love reading again. Thanks so much for sharing your passion and love with us in your stories!! ♡♡ \(⌯^ ▾ ^⌯ )

not to be emotional on main but fanfiction is a gift and it’s so fundamentally human to tell each other stories and i am deeply grateful to have that in my life. thank you all for adding so much emotion and meaning to the world with your words

#everyday i repeat “thank god fanfic writers exist” to myself like a mantra #Thank you fanfic writers ily ♡♡♡#leave feedback for creators ♡#kyu_blogs

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neristudy · 6 days ago

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100 day of learning German: 34/100

Was actually quite a nice and productive day. Well, with the fact that I had to do most of my homework in bed again, since my back hurts so much ╥﹏╥

But that's okay! Sometimes I need help with my mental health, and sometimes - with my physical one. I actually can do a lot more now, when I allow myself the rest I need, even if it'll look "not that productive" from a side view. I am a few months in a course now, and even if I don't do homework from time to time, it's usually bc I need help with it and my teacher can help me with that, and not, well.

Just me being unable to XD

I think tho that I need to make one post with all of my daily routine... Just to make sure that I train all the sides to my future exam

(๑˃̵　ᴗ　˂̵)و

It's so close... But it's okay, I can do this. I still have time (ˊ˘ˋ*)

#100 days of studying #100 days of study #100 days challenge #100 days #100 days of productivity #langblr #german learning #german #language learning #german langblr #german language #deutsch #deutsch lernen #study tumblr #german study

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scarletrecords · 8 months ago

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i was hoping to save a lot for arlecchino’s banner knowing how botched my luck has been in genshin gacha since fontaine opened but my mind just couldn’t stop thinking about chiori and how much i really saved up for her (before knowing that arle will arrive at 4.5 okay!!) and how much i want to have her because of her dolls so i decided to check my limited banner history and pulled a 10-pull on a whim and oH MY GOD??!!!!?

BBG ACTUALLY CAME HOME WHEN I LEAST EXPECTED TO WIN MY 50/50 ₊*ˈ˚·(๑˃̶̡̢̥ ॣಐ ॣ˂̶̡̢̥๑)·˚ˈ*₊

i didn’t expect i’ll actually have it that easy (?) since i got nahida from the last banner (nahida was guaranteed because i lost my 50/50 pulling for navia) BUT SHE’S FINALLY HOME!! ₊*ˈ˚·(๑˃̶̡̢̥ ॣಐ ॣ˂̶̡̢̥๑)·˚ˈ*₊ the last time i was this lucky with my pulls was on ayato’s, yelan’s, cyno’s, and alhaitham’s first banners. after that everything just went downhill, i guess (except the guaranteed ones ofc).

her team animation is also so cool, too! (๑ↀᆺↀ๑)✧ so sleek!

now that i have chiori, my art department is complete (freminet is their youngest member). no elemental reactions, only art ¡¡¡( •̀ ᴗ •́ )و!!! i also realized that all of them are sword users (claymores are swords, after all?) so exploration-wise, this team’s also bad, but i can always work around that for the love of my weird team comps (4ggravate is probably the least weirdest of them all).

i’ve yet to level her up more and build her more because i need some fodder to feed the artifacts i have for her and more adventure books, too, as i’ve spent them a lot recently on nahida and layla (for my shatterbloom team, ofc. anything for kaveh, my love and my light) before i send her to battle, ofc. her split scaling still confuses me, but i’ll learn it well eventually, ofc. it’s too bad that the only weapon i have suitable for her because of it’s defense substat is the traveler’s handy sword. it’s also somehwat fashion impact (i credit jeikage for that one) on her, thankfully.

oh, and besides getting chiori in her banner, i also managed to pull my favourite husband in a single pull while trying to get her (TvT \)

my kaveh is now C1, and though it’s not impressive for all, it’s alright because all i want as a casual genshin enjoyer is to complete my favourite husbands’ constellations (for the four stars ofc, like kaveh and thoma) unless they’re five stars because that’s too pricey already (T^T \)

now i can proceed with the character story quests i’ve left since the highly emotional 4.2 archon quest! wuw.

#farts 💨#genshin impact diaries ✨#in my casual gamer era #favourite playable character file 🗃️

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academari · 2 years ago

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It looks like you have stumbled upon my study blog, fellow wanderer. What brings you here?

Still reading? Well then, let me start by introducing myself a little! ٩(ˊᗜˋ*)و ♡

My name is Mari, I am a first-year law student and I’ve decided to create a studyblr hoping that, by interacting with others, I’m going to motivate myself to study harder than ever! (˵ •̀ ᴗ - ˵ ) ✧ This is my secondary blog, my main being @marilogs which I’m going to use to interact with others in the future. I wanted to create a studyblr for a pretty long time, however I was really nervous to do so, since I had no idea where to start from. There was also the faculty’s entrance exam, which was really important for me and I couldn’t bring myself to start a blog like this at that time, thinking that I would lose my focus. Now that everything settled, I’m happy to start interacting with others in hopes of finding out more about different learning tips, school experiences and so on (I am a huge procrastinator, so any advice is welcome!). ৻( •̀ ᗜ •́ ৻)

Now that my small introduction is over, I’ll probably add a little section for small facts! Proceed if you dare muahaha (งᓀ‸ᓂ)ง

Facts:

Fellow INTP – T

I like listening to lofi music when I’m studying, since it’s really calming

My wish is to start annotating books (I have no idea how at the moment, but I’m not rushing)

I have a small maltese dog named Miki

English is not my first language, so if there are any grammatical mistakes, my apologies!

(There isn’t much to put here honestly, so I’ll stop here for now haha)

Interests:

Reading

Video games (usually playing them to pass the time, Overwatch is a favorite of mine at the moment)

Watching anime (Spy x Family Part 2 let’s go!)

Art (I don’t do it as often as I used to, but it’s a great way to calm my mind)

What to expect on this blog:

The usual academia photos, study notes, books, coffee, all that jazz

I’ll sprinkle some anime gifs from time to time (it’s all about the aesthetic (¬‿¬) )

Maybe sprinkle some video games-related stuff as well? Nothing much, but small posts that remind me of certain things ( Don’t worry, I’ll make sure to tag these posts)

I will try to post about the books that I’m reading if I have the time to do so (maybe try to discuss about the books in question as well)

I want to try my hand at writing small affirmations from time to time as a way of motivation, so bear with me on this one haha

And that’s pretty much it for now! Thank you for reading this if you’ve come this far and I hope that I get to meet a lot of great individuals on this platform! Cheers ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ✩‧₊

#studyblr #studyblr intro #studyblr intro post #studyblr introduction #studyblr community #studyspo #study inspiration #new studyblr #study motivation #light academia #pink academia #romantic academia #study blog

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st0rmyskies · 3 years ago

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HAI ok so idk its late and i keep thinking about it but i absolutely adore wild in ur hsh au, he’s an absolute sweetheart and i just can’t stop myself from loving him even more thru your writing so imagine my shock when my baby evaporated and now i have baby pt 2 but i guess.. technically pt 1??? baby prequel? IDK BUT LITERALLY EVER SINCE that chapter i’ve had champion on the mind and it clicked like… i’m still very much in love with him now he just has cute short hair!! and i know he’s got a whole new vibe which will probably be explored but idk i just wanted to let you know i love ur character work i love ur writing and you’ve managed to hook me on wild/champion even more than i was before hsh (๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و

Thank you so much for the kind words!! Wild is definitely one of my top three fav boys to write, and Champion is becoming a fast favorite, too. They are very much opposites: where Wild is outgoing and wears his heart on his sleeve, Champion is more reserved and soft-spoken; where Wild is a lovable disaster, Champion was a very accomplished and capable member of the Royal Guard. There is still a lot to learn about Champion in this story, and I am excited to explore his character!

RIP those luscious long locks, though.

#townhouse au #home sweet home #hsh #linked universe fanfic #linked universe fanfiction #home sweet home au #stormy talks

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hydrangeatea · 4 years ago

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How did you get so good at writing?

ADHJAHJDK THANK YOU FOR THINKING SO!!!! i thought about how to answer this for a while;; the (semi) short answer is that i’ve been writing a long time--since elementary school, i guess! i think it also helps that i read a lot? book-wise i’m not necessarily wide read in terms of genre, as i do tend to stick to fantasy, but reading opens you up to so much as well! and growing up there were fic authors that i wanted to write like SO, SO badly!! then it was a matter of...struggling to reach that, and not being able to because you can’t write exactly like someone, and then trial and error-ing over the years until i eventually seem to have landed my own style haha. i can’t discount that i did major in literature + creative writing concentration in college/uni, where i was exposed to various and different things, but the content and situation is a little different in school, so i also don’t think it’s unfair of me to say that where i am now is really largely due to fic and reading so much growing up.

i’m flattered you think my writing is good! it’s one thing to write something and have your own feelings on your own writing, but how it communicates or is perceived when you post it is another, so hearing that it’s being enjoyed is a delight. i’m still learning and hopefully improving!! (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

i kept my answer a bit more general and tried not to make it too long, but if there’s anything specific you’d like to know, please let me know! thanks for your ask! (*^▽^*)

#asks #LFJKSJFS ONCE MORE I THOUGHT THIS WAS VIA MY WRITING BLOG #also the reading includes manga!!

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kaleidiope · 4 years ago

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(•̀ᴗ•́)و ̑̑

So, apparently this the end of 2020′s reign? Here’s to clinging to the hope that 2021 is actually better. Though, I've heard some people have had a nice 2020. And that’s great, personally! Nothing will top 2019 for me personally. This year’s been rough, but still good. And I could sit here and talk about each and every thing. Like my regrets and so on. But really, I don’t want to do that. I rather think about the nice things. Yes, the bad needs attention. But I have already learned as much as I could from my mistakes this year, so I don’t wish to list them right now. I started and scraped my log post ideas. I posted my first cover. I made and posted vent art. I got better at art. I learned so much more about music creation. I learned more German and Swedish. Started Japaneses, Finnish, Latin and Spanish. Even though i’m not focusing on them, I still started them. I started learning about Utau more. I learned more about myself. And got to be around people I care about more and seen a bit more into their lives. I continued more on my story. I started a story series. Started more cover and original song ideas. Learned more about tuning and animation. Found new artists and songs to jam to. Found new games and fandoms to enjoy. So far, the worst thing for me this year, is I started having way worse “Whatever the heck” as I call them. Might be anxiety attacks. But not going to straight up say it. My brain’s been doing this weird thing where before I could actually understand and rationalize what was wrong, and think it through to a degree, but now it’s PANIC! RUN! BAD THINGS!! FEEL BAD!! why? DO!!! And it’s getting in the way of a few things now. I don’t like how my mind just goes blank to the point I can’t even remember things fully during these times. And distractions don’t work. These just happen. I feel them build, but I don’t know why. But also, I don’t want to die. I’m actually afraid of it now in a small, odd, way. And have gotten a lot more squeamish, oddly. I used to be really stoned faced. Now things actually provoke reactions! So, that's a nice trade off. Emotions are painful and draining, but actually pretty cool! XD The very last thing I ever what to be, is edgy. But really, as a person who wanted to die when they were younger and no longer does. (I don’t wish to talk much about that as of now, but no one can tell me that came as a surprise.) I want to just say, you’ll never fully get rid of those feelings. But instead, they’ll get smaller, and quieter. As to make room for the louder, happier things that’ll come into your life! All-in-all, here’s to that better tomorrow and I wish all of you self-growth, self-care, realization of self-worth, and self-love! My plans for next year is to work more on my main story, OUL. And to work on my covers and post a few originals. Along with working to become better at understanding Swedish. I hope you are all having a great day!

#Happy new year #Goodbye 2020 #Have a wonderful year everyone #Update

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H-hi I would like to request for Haikyuu and Yona of the dawn and um music box and jewellery box. I'm female, 18 y/o. My height is 172 cm. My hair is black and a bit below my shoulders. My skin is somewhat fair/yellowish. My eyes are dark brown and i wear glasses. My zodiac sign is Gemini and my MTBI test is ISFP-T. I'm still very confused about my sexuality so I'm okay with either and i never were in a relationship before. My hobbies are listening to music and watching anime. (1/2)🌼

Other than that, my hobbies change from time to time. I'm very kind and am very good at comforting. I'm very shy but open up very slowly to someone. I'm not that talkative. I'm very protective towards my friends. I'm very anxious, oversensitive and very insecure. I also lack a lot of self esteem. But even if i have flaws i try my best amd know that my friends are always there for me. I also get easily embarrassed. Thank you *bows* (2/2) 🌼

♡︎ matchup for 🌼anon

hi there! thanks for your patience, and i hope you enjoy your matches!

haikyuu: i match you with . . .

hinata shoyo !!

• isfp-t's tend to be sensitive and gentle as well as intense and experimental. i think you're a good balance for Hinata because you'd keep his feet on the ground while he would help you be more confident about yourself. believe me, this ray of sunshine would adore you to the moon and back !!

• he becomes more observant thanks to you as he learns better how to keep his voice down and excitability under control so you wouldn't get overwhelmed. he loves you and only wishes for your comfort ♡︎

• you came to cheer on Kenma and Kuroo actually for a Nekoma vs Karasuno practice match the first time you two met. After the match Hinata was looking for his friend when he spotted you being surrounded by tall strangers and looking rather anxious.

• his instincts made him jump in and try to get them to stop bothering you, trying to be as intimidating as possible. but then you reached out and said they were first years just asking for directions (・∀・)

• it was an honest mistake, you assured him and found his kindness touching despite the truth. your mutual friends helped you feel more comfortable around this ball of energy, and, though you had already graduated by then, he was able to confess his feelings.

• he's talkative enough for the both of you and will happily do speaking in your stead if that's what you want until you become accustomed to the situation. always encourages and supports you no matter what!

• doesn't understand why you'd feel insecure because he's in love with you for who you are, but can relate to the feeling of inferiority nevertheless. he's your biggest cheerleader and admires your determination to keep doing your best! honestly, you're his inspiration.

• he's delighted to say the least when you begin opening up to him. knows better than to pressure you but sometimes he can't help but to cheer you on "uwah, your laugh is so pretty, y/n! i wanna hear it more!" – "i like this artist too! you have such a great taste in music!"

• thinks it's awesome sauce that you switch between hobbies. you get to try out new things all the time, and whenever you show/tell him about what you started you can see stars in his eyes. it comes as no surprise he's tried getting you into volleyball too.

• you'd think with all the volleyball going on in his head Hinata's never been in a relationship before either. well, you are absolutely correct. you're just two awkward dorks in love trying your best.

• Hinata would be a stuttering mess at first, his hands sweating buckets as he tries to take hold of yours. however, once he understands you're also shy he makes an effort to appear more confident.

• brags about you to everyone because he needs them to know how incredible you are.

• one time when he was showing you volleyball he praised you for an amazing receive so many times that your face overheated and you hid in the corner from embarrassment. bby was so worried he'd said something wrong that he went crying to Suga. "i broke y/n!!" ｡ﾟ(*´□`)ﾟ｡

• tol girlfriend makes his heart go doki doki. loves that you accept his height as well (pre-timeskip at least). will give you piggybacks to train but to also have fun with you. post-timeskip you're the same height which means he lifts you up and carries you a lot more to make up for lost time (•̀ᴗ•́)و

• for dates you'd have, for example, anime marathons (his favorites are shounen, sports, and comedy, surprise!), go to adventure parks and conventions and shopping at music stores.

♫︎ music box

— Someone To You by BANNERS

— Sunkissed by khai dreams

— Talk Too Much by COIN

— Appreciated by Rixton

— Magic Shop by BTS

♡︎ runner up: Tadashi Yamaguchi

⋆*･ﾟ:⋆*･ﾟ:⠀ *⋆.*:･ﾟ .: ⋆*･ﾟ: .⋆

akatsuki no yona: i match you with . . .

kija !!

• all right, i have my reasons! Kija may be quite headstrong and startle you with that trait sometimes but he is also extremely caring and attentive—it goes well with your kind and shy personality, he finds those traits the absolute cutest. it also squeezes his heart how protective you are of your loved ones ♡︎

• this dear boy invests all of his emotions into everything he does so it's easy for him to get hurt. during times like these your presence and advice are the best remedies he could wish for. he seeks you out sometimes even not registering it himself.

• you'd known each other for a long time, having grown up in the same village, but hardly interacted due to Kija always being secluded and treated as a god. once he was escaping the women who were trying to get to him, and met you at the edge of the village. you offered to hide him despite knowing better.

• you stayed on his mind ever since and whenever he'd see you he called your name for attention. the word about you two got around fast but you weren't liking the attention. Kija just wanted to be with you without everyone poking their nosees into it.

• so when Yona, Hak and Yoon arrived at last Kija insisted you'd come with them, swearing to protect you from all harm!

• it saddens him that you don't have a lot of self-esteem. he easily goes into rants whenever someone else says something even slightly bad about you. will throw hands with that person regardless of who they are, don't test him. you might want to step in though if starts turning into a scene.

• anyway, he won't let you forget how much potential you have. he'll stop you the moment you try to put yourself down and lists all the great things you've done. he remembers your smallest actions and words of kindness and makes sure you do as well.

• Kija seeks your approval like a puppy. whenever he wins a competition against Hak or does anything even slightly praiseworthy he turns to you with sparkling eyes. lighting a fire? yep. cooking? uh-uh. waking up earlier than Hak? most definitely. "did you see that, y/n? amazing, right??"

• very blushy about anything publically affectionate, but if you're feeling anxious any situation at all he will gently make sure you know he's there for you. tenderly touching you or whispering "it's all right. you'll be okay", anything to help put your mind at ease.

• not to be nsfw or anything but please run your fingers through his hair and over his scars and tell him how proud you are of him. he will melt into your touch ｡ﾟ°(❁ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)

• it's so adorable though that you can compliment each other like there's no tomorrow but the moment you recieve one ever you'll turn into flustered little bundles ♡︎ it's quite fun for the rest of the gang to watch as you lowkey argue over who has prettier eyes.

• your dates include exploring around towns and villages, picnics by lakes and rivers, dancing to the music in city centres and studying new things such as a place or language—anything new that you're curious about!

𑁍 jewellery box

— favourite memory with you:

the time both of you got lost in a cave and separated from others. you were scared and worried whether or not you'd make it out yet still put on a strong appearance for Kija's sake. admittedly, he tried acting tough too although there were bugs everywhere and he was freaking out. you, on the other hand, were so gentle with him and joked around lightly to ease his mind. it wasn't a particularly the happiest memory but it's his favourite because it always reminds him what a loyal, kind spirit you are.

— favourite activity to do together:

he loves going exploring with you! it teaches him new things about the world but also you, what you're facinated or repulsed by, what are things that make you laugh or sad. overall Kija is very big on quality time so don't be surprised when he asks if you'd like to go on a walk or teach him how to do something.

— favourite place to kiss you:

forehead, forehead, forehead, maybe cheeks too. a kiss doesn't come the most naturally for Kija, and you both prefer to show your affections through other actions. but a forehead kiss is sweet and innocent. he likes giving them to you when you're parting or saying goodnight/morning ♡︎

— favourite nicknames for you:

hmm, i think he'd be too shy to use anything but your name. BUT in the spur of the moment of complimenting you he easily describes you as cute, lovely, beautiful, enchanting, to name a few (・ωｰ)

— favourite thing about you:

if it comes down to it, it's your protectiveness and how much you care for others that makes Kija head-over-heels smitten with you. he's the same, so knowing you two share the same values makes him incredibly happy as it brings you even closer together ♡︎ though if you're too nice to anyone he'll get jelly like a little doggy and whine

♡︎ runner up: Yoon

thank you for requesting, dear! i had fun finding songs for the music box ( ^ω^) stay well and healthy, you are important ♡︎

#len's matches #matchups #anime matchups #🌼anon #haikyuu matchups #any matchups

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advernia · 5 years ago

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moved this over to a text post, hope u don’t mind anon! ( ᐛ )و

ANYWAY EEEEEE THANK YOU AND I’D BE MORE THAN HAPPY TO SHARE!!!! o(*≧□≦)o tbh this headcanon is me 100% refusing to accept that post-route!alice just stays in red/black army hq as a… uh, maid??? cook??? cheerleader??? idk lmao but imo alice has a lot of potential with her canon profession lolol! okay so maybe they did her justice in kyle’s route bc she ends up as his assistant but as for other routes fight me cybird (ง •̀_•́)ง

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i got the idea after reading fenrir’s dramatic end, where alice gets a job in cradle’s best confectionery (like wow lmao if only getting a job was that fast irl). anyway!!! i’d like to dream that alice does this for all routes + a month after the route events (sans kyle’s). you’d think she doesn’t need to get a job especially if her ikeman’s part of the red army, but she does this bc she wants to. and to feel less like a freeloader lmao. since the situation’s different with the neutrals, this isn’t much of an issue.

so, yay! she feels better about passing time productively + having her own lin to spend but tbh she doesn’t really buy much stuff???? eventually she saves up quite the amount that it becomes a problem - what could/should she do with that much cash????

tbh the idea to start her own business came from her boss lol…. it started from his objective assessment that she was good enough to open her own shop… eventually she starts entertaining the idea…. then she gets second opinions from friends + ikeman…. and she actually does it after much consideration?!??! her boss is shook, but he wishes her well anyway! he gets a free slice of cake whenever he visits the cafe lol!

so alice ends up with a cafe! since confectioneries were more on selling than service + she’s on her own now & has a lot of stuff to handle on her own, she becomes pretty busy and takes some time to adjust, but eventually she gets by! it’s tiring, but she enjoys her every day!

any of her extra profits she chooses to donate to various causes + she eventually ends up becoming some sort of sponsor to the armies with all her donations HELLA RAD ೕ(•̀ᴗ•́)

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alternatively, in a common route scenario where amon still gets his ass kicked + alice stays in cradle but doesn’t fall in love with that one ikeman (no one falls in love…. not yet LMAO), she lives with the black/red army + works in a confectionery until she has enough to buy a home of her own. blanc + oliver + mousse have been secretly helping her scout around for a good place. it’s only when everything’s ready that she talks to the black/red army about her intentions.

get this - her general explanation goes this way: she starts off by saying that she’s very thankful that everyone has accommodated her and she’ll always be in their debt, but now that she’s living as an actual resident of cradle and no longer just a guest, she’d hate to impose on them any further. to boot, she’s not even an official part of the army + a soldier, so it may look odd that she’s still staying within army hq. stuff about reputation and pride, something like that.

the black army (see: seth) is sad about this, but they understand her sentiments and let her go. after a three-day long party. aaaaand of course, they’re more than willing to do any heavy lifting for her move + just anything in general - all she needed to do was ask!

the red army respects her decision as well, and they’re… more subtle in expressing their disappointment (how is jonah’s blatant frown even subtle lol). like the black army, they let her go + remind her that she can always ask them for help.

so alice lives alone for a couple of months.... then the armies hear that she’s planning to open a cafe from blanc.... ha.... the black army totally helps her out with general recontrustion + repairs. she does not take no for an answer when she pays them for their work lmao. plus, they totally helped her out by giving her tours around the stalls on the central quarter market that give the best bargains + freshest produce! the flowers alice put up for decoration + plant outside her yard are always sponsored by canis major..... and seth drops by regularly to talk about trending aesthetics alice could adapt in the cafe!

the red army’s idea of helping her out with her cafe is to send her furniture + kitchen appliances + sets of tableware.... they’re gorgeous + simple but UMMMM????? alice literally panics about the kitchen, especially about the stove + oven bc it be so fine.... and expensive-looking.... but negotiating with lancelot + jonah is like talking to a brick + diamond wall so edgar + kyle + zero convince her to just take it lmao - it isn’t much, but lancelot gets a free drink & jonah a free mille-feuille each time they visit!

again: she donates to various causes + sends the black/red army a fair amount of her extra profits each month! she’d give more to the red army bc she still can’t get over their....... generous gifts and how much they probably cost lmao....... edgar stops her there though bc honestly..... do u think the red army needs more money??????????

the cafe

so why in central of all places? actually, it does make sense to set up a business there since it’s like the country’s central business district. but if i’d base it from alice’s general personality, i think she’d choose central bc that’s where every citizen of cradle; whether they be from red, black, or neutral territory, all gather together. in central, she can see every side living side cradle, not just red or black - and in a simple establishment like a cafe, something simple like food can bring all those different sides together.

she set up her cafe in central with the thought of helping in the efforts of bridging the gap between the armies + to have an actual experience of how it is to live as a citizen of cradle. technically she is one already, but sometimes living in cradle is really so different from living in london. it makes her feel displaced sometimes.

her cafe is probably somewhere close to blanc’s house or smth and u bet that blanc is very happy to have a pretty lady living close by/around his neighborhood lmao! but if you want to be serious about it, this is intentional on blanc’s part bc her safety isn’t exactly assured after the magic tower fiasco - disciple stragglers might come back for her, and since the whole of cradle already knows that she’s the alice the second, there may be other people/groups lurking around that are interested in her power......

in comparison to most cafes in central, alice’s place is relatively small - she doesn’t mind though, since she’s running the place on her own. the thought of expanding makes her doubt her capability of providing + distributing the same quality of service + attention she usually gives to a small crowd.

alice changes the cafe decors + scents according to each season!!! in general, she wants her cafe to have a homey, relaxing feel, doing her best to impart a feel of london + her hometown in her cafe. you’d think that seasonal redecorating would be a hassle, but magic makes that process very easy... once she learns about cradle’s unique holidays + festivals, she also redecorates + tweaks her menu in tune to the special day!

a variety of sandwiches + light meals such as pastas are on the menu now and then, but her cafe is well-known for the desserts. like the decor, the food + drink selection adjusts accordingly to the season.

her edge among her competitors is the fact that she’s from the land of reason - her techniques + use/handling of ingredients + and other assorted methods are quite different from that practiced in cradle since they have the advantage of magic. tastes, colors, textures, and even presentation end up differently. plus, she knows how to make various foods + sweets unfamiliar to cradle, so some of the stuff she makes are seen as novelty to the locals!

she does pay attention to what tastes of london are positively + negatively recepted in cradle though - from there she experiments or improvises her recipes, and seeks out feedback immediately.

following context side b, i’m all in for the romance with her ikeman developing here instead OH YEAAAH ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) it’s a lot more hectic tho since it’s an open playground and there are the.... common interferences..... coughsethcoughlokicough LMAO

also!!! following all the not-so-spoilery content of her + seth, i’ve recently been digging the idea of nojisha / rapunzel (localization ain’t being subtle anymore lol) working + possibly living in alice’s cafe too bc god knows that alice needs an actual girl friend among all that testosterone lmao!

rapunzel’s more of a waitress but is totally into designing whatever cakes + drinks + pastries alice has on the menu and on display… takes dibs in writing out the menu on the chalkboard as her chance to practice some pretty lettering… and also actively helps out alice in picking seasonal decors + packaging for the cafe!

on the sidelines rapunzel also keeps a close eye on alice bc… heh… them odd folks coming in for the foods but staying longer for the girl(s)… those red army officers dropping by more often even if they’re on patrol…. dudes from the civic center + other colorful characters talking so familiarly to alice…. yaaa~n! pick up the pace, onii-chan!!! lmao

depending on who’s the ikeman out for alice, rapunzel can and will cockblock, omfg...... she’ll totally stop if she sees that alice has mutual feelings for the guy but sometimes rapunzel really has impeccable, unintentional timing haha... seth hyde, what have u been teaching ur little sister smh (ಡ艸ಡ)

opening time: 6AM, closing: 7PM. accepts orders of wedding + birthday cakes, does not handle catering. for any inquiries, pls call....... (^ц^ )

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alice’s cafe develops different reputations depending on who she ends up with LMAO........ local newspapers + cradle’s grapevine love her cafe and totally not bc they can get a glimpse of the red/black army chosen if they get their timing right haHA..... here’s a couple of examples:

if she’s with mousse, her cafe has quite the interesting reputation! while there’s a good selection of the local teas/coffees in her menu, there’s also a fair share of exotic blends with brief details about the country where the blend is from + how the beverage is prepared + possible tastes, written by no other than mousse himself! sometimes alice showcases some limited edition sweets + pastries made from an interesting mix of local and foreign ingredients + spices too......

if she ends up with a king, novels/tales + plays + songs/poems about royalty/nobility falling for the common worker (lancelot) or adventures of a hero and a maiden (ray) suddenly become a thing™….. the boom is especially huge in black/red territory, be it from nobles to commoners.... another common point??? there’s always a cafe referenced in there, a rendezvous point some way or another in the story… and it sounds veeeeery familiar, even if they switch the setting into a tavern/inn, hmmmm....

did you know that one cafe in central quarter is owned by alice the second, the woman who’s rumored to be the lover of cradle’s most notorious criminal + strongest wizard???? no???? are they really a thing??? do you think the stuff she sells in her cafe is fit is for consumption???? does she make those cakes herself or does she ask the wizard to make it through dark magic or are those smuggled goods??????? man, those cakes are damn good though!!!!!

newspaper headlines: students of cradle’s local boarding school promptly create a literal lake of tears in the central quarter after spending time and meeting a kind cafe owner who happens to really be their terror professor’s lover (side note: this article was removed upon the request of a certain mr. d.)

the sole exemption i have for this hc is kyle’s alice! she has her hands full + committing herself to being a doctor’s assistant so opening a cafe doesn’t cross her mind, but that doesn’t stop her from making treats now and then for their patients… in fact, becomes a thing among the children of cradle that if you be a good boy/girl who takes their medicine + shots from the redhead doctor without complaining, the pretty assistant lady will give you a tasty treat for being so well-behaved! (*≧▽≦)

#askdfghjl #ikemen kakumei #ikemen revolution #ikerev alice #... there aren't that much hcs on alice herself and i wish to address that lolol #this is one of my fav hcs for her bc i really like the concept of a common route lmao #alice ain't best otome mc to me but i do like her + fleshing out her character!

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