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if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.
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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.
I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.
I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.
If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.
#cw: suicidal ideation#cw: suicide#cw: self harm#cw: mental health#cw: depression#i made the balloon the main representation of my self destructive urges for a reason but im not going to explain it#i tried to keep a lot of the details in this vague#it would be my worst nightmare if this comic encouraged someone to hurt themselves#so. please dont#for a long time even the thought of making this comic felt so insipid and narcissistic#with the state of the world as it is#having the only threat to your life be yourself felt so privileged and trite and shameful#but doing this comic made me sit down and process things in full#and im just. very grateful i didn't give in to my thoughts back when i sincerely felt i'd be more useful to the world dead#i also feel the need to say that this wont represent everyone's battle with mental illness. its unfortunately different for all of us#there is no fix-all#and im afraid this might be one of those comics that either resonates a lot or misses the target by a mile#i made it for myself foremost. and now that its done im glad i did it#thank you for reading#and please stay alive#stillindigo art#stillindigo comics
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charm stat at debonair ‼️‼️
#WOW WHO WOULD HAVE FUCKING THOUGHT THEYD BE MY FAVORITES. THIS TOTALLY WASNT EXPECTED. NOT AT ALL.#i have lots of persona art its just uncolored dw#doing the shujin trio next i miss them so bad☹️☹️ also i need pegoryu content to stay sane and alive#anyway they're like. actually fucking insane 💀💀💀💀#like lawlight level toxic yaoi its so absurd#like i was like damn soukoku is intense WHO ARE THESE FREAKS#WHY THE FUCK ARE THEY LIKE THIS.#ACTUALLY FUCKING INSANE. LIKE EXTREMELY MENTAL AND SICK IN THE HEAD.#AKECHI IS A FUCKING PSYCHOPATH#god they actually make me so fucking AUAUAUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHH#i NEED to finish royal shidos palace GUTTED ME#they were initially so funny to me bc right off the bat you can tell how much of a FREAK akechi is just paraphrasing hegel#and being so ferevently obsessed with ren its like bro why is this guy straightup dickriding us for telling him we like our eggs well done#ANYWAY their dynamic always felt so sad to me bc it was akechi just desperately clawing for what ren had the entire time ☹️#and the more he realized how worthless he was in comparison the more mentally unhinged he became until he actually broke#me when the trope is “the love was there but it wasn't enough to save them” 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 (FUCKING DEVASTATING)#ermmm anyway yea they're neat. ig#persona 5#persona 5 royal#p5#p5r#ren amamiya#akira kurusu#goro akechi#shuake#akeshu#lotus draws
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his therapist woulda had a field day at their next appointment
#my art#doodle#fanart#resident evil 8#ethan winters#i think its so funny that he has a journal in re8. not only does he have a journal but he illustrates it. i dont know if capcom intended to#imply that ethan stops every now and then to jot down the horrors and the hour that the horrors occur my guess is prolly not#but now its there and it makes me laugh. i shouldnt laugh at his mental health journey but i am anyways#shoutout to people who journal i wish i was you but instead i draw a guy feelin my emotions for me#but im so happy the sun goess away at 5pm. truly immaculate. i miss snow. but we stay chillin#i made more dear diary doodles but these were my favs n they went well together#i changed the entry in the 2nd one though cause i thought it was funnier to me this way#i cut my hair too short again im not even sad about it anymore like whatever man#at least its out of my way. and my shower was SO fast i got to stand there 5ever and it was still only like 15 minutes#fantastic. there are so many joys in life. theres twice as many horrors but the joys are definitely there and they are definitely joyful#anyways thats the post stay warm n cozy out there gang
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And so I, I turned the radio on I turned the radio up
And this woman was singing my song
Lover's in love and the other's run away
Lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay
Some of us hover when we weep for the other
Who was dying since the day they were born
Well, well this is not that
I think that I'm throwing but I'm thrown..
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I WANNA DRAAWW!! RAHHHGG!! Absolutely swamped with college work, im so tired TT (hence whatever tf this is lmao)
#posted this doodle on twitter yesterday but it's still very relevant today#fr cant do anything until I get 12 posters drawn make my homemade paper and finish/publish my 200 page book I'm gonna-#Send help#i miss being active sm :'((#SORRY TO THE 60+ ASKS IN MY INBOX I PROMISE ILL GET TO YOU SOON <333#anyway I hope everyone else is doing ok#sending love#(also husk please- stay off the internet lmao)#angel dust#angel dust fanart#husk#husk fanart#huskerdust#huskerdust fanart#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel fanart#tribbleart#<3
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that one twitter trend
#pearlescentmoon#geminitay#secret life smp#shiny duo#mcyt#fanart#i miss my wife (secret life) tails. i miss her a lot#i know a new life serie is coming in a few months and im so happyyyyyyyy#im so patient im sooo good at waiting#anyway woe#shiny duo boogy apocalypse as a gift to you#WAIT#I FORGOT THEIR SHOELACES LMAO#ON THE SHOELACES STEALING SITE? CRAZY#anyway#i dont have anything else to say so stay hydrated and have a good day
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I need someone to stay and not run away when things get hard.
#quotes#writing#sad thoughts#writers on tumblr#love quotes#poetry#love#i love him#i miss you#relationship#spilled feelings#spilled tears#spilled words#spilled thoughts#spilled ink#spilled poetry#spilled writing#stay#please stay
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look at my fbi agents dawg…. they’re going into the lesbian bar
#HI#BUTCHNATURAL NATION#i’ve failed you all it’s been too long#i like to think that they just finished a case and instead of going home#dean convinces sam to stay in their fbi wardrobe because she thinks they’ll be more successful with pulling women LOL#idk#i just miss my dyke siblings#spn#supernatural#dean winchester#sam winchester#fanart#spn fanart#artists on tumblr#butchnatural#d art
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Congrats you got another haiku bot post
HAIKU BOT MOMENT!!!
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#ask reply#THANK YOU BLESSING me again haiku#we got haiku bot like three times now??#I’m glad every time I love you haiku bot#thanks to everyone who’s keeping an eye out for haiku bot#I’d literally miss every time this happens if nobody told me PFF#I don’t stay on the internet long 💜💜
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#vampire hunter d#vhd#art#D the horseman of death (〃‿〃♡)#Hello Hello I hope you're all doing well 🥹🥹#Sorry that I only draw D haha I can't help it (❀ •̀ᴗ•́ )♡#I started Tyrant Stars recently and I finished gold fiend about a week ago?#Honestly I miss the stories where D would stay in one town in the entire story and be a little detective#since pale fallen angel it's been a lot of traveling ....🥲#and it will never not be funny to me that D has pockets full of dirt 😭 D take a shower man.... or wash your clothes please💀#2 versions because as much as I like white hair D he looks like alucard here because of the gold accents ( •_•)#I've never actually watched or played any of his games idk it does interest me? but not enough to sit down and watch it yet#I wanted to experiment with a black out style ( I tried incorporating red but I got too annoyed.#I intend to render it at some point!#so it might end up looking completely different#well...If I get myself to complete this and I like how it looks in the end I think I might make a little bookmark out of it for myself (〃‿〃#I think it would be neat...#....you see me drawing poppies a lot forgive me 💀They're just my favorite flowers💀 The symbolism works out for this drawing....
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I wonder how many times Clark and the batkids + Alfred revived Bruce with the Lazarus Pit and just never told him abt it
#he pieces it together later but i mean. its so hard for him to miss now that hes looking back at it#like why is he always always always cold with a turtleneck on and heating blasting#why is his appetite so scarce? how come his sleep deprived body withstands hours - sometimes DAYS - of patrol#and functions perfectly? how come time passes by but he stays the same? why wont clark and dick stop giving gim#*him looks of loving grief?#why does harley slam her fists on her head when she sees him? ' no no no you're gone. you're GONE. I KNOW you are!'#why does selina smile at him with such heavy pity ' sorry bruce. i don't do ghosts'#bruce wayne#dc#dc comics#batman#batfamily#clark kent#dick grayson#jason todd#bc they def exclude the cloning. they dont want another bruce. they want THEIR bruce. tim#like can you imagine jason getting up in tim's face and just ' if you're not gonna stand by us then stay out of our way'#dark bruce? tired. dark BATKIDS? sign me the FUCK up#batdad#text
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wait, who's getting married??
#akeshu#p5r#persona#p5r spoilers#but also ft royal trio#art tag#throwback to when i first saw maruki's outfit and my first thought was#OMG HE'S A GROOM ?? FOR HIS MISSED WEDDING????#but then i realised it was probs supposed to be more like a therapist theme or sth to go with his palace#BUT THEN I WAS LIKE THAT COLLAR LOWKEY PRIEST-LIKE THO WHY?#idk to me it was a fusion of the three vibes#anyway in my head i think goro would be like#marriage is not on the table until you graduate and get a degree and you are self-sufficient and on equal footing with me#(but in reality he wouldnt really care and he'd keep his stay at home wifey happy no matter what)#(but ofc he wont say that)#and akiren is just like ok :3 i guess it's his rival thing kicking in again#they'd have a whole convo with akechi like#you need these requirements i wont even CONSIDER otherwise#and akiren goes IS THAT A PROPOSAL??#i wanted to draw an extra for this#but im mega tired and no time :(#also i hope this isnt too blurry?? it looks kinda blurry when uploading
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anyway while i'm thinking about it i will never understand people who are like "why would you ever watch a movie/read a book/play the same game/etc. more than one when there are always new media to experience, it's just a waste of time" because like. how else are you supposed to fully appreciate the themes and narratives, the artistic choices made, your personal feelings and interpretations and the creator's intentions, the nuances of the story and the characters? every time i revisit a story i already know, i realize there's something i missed last time. i always discover there's more to learn if i'm willing to keep looking for it. there's nothing more exciting to me than searching the same cave for more hidden treasure.
#🐉#this is my dads opinion. he cant understand what i could possibly gain from a repeat viewing#and when i tell him about the themes and analysis and details he says 'so you make stuff up and read into it to stay interested. that#doesnt make sense' and i dont get what hes missing! but our opinions are just incompatible lmao
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Bhaalists have the dumbest fucking problems, or What if you were so similar, looking to show your devotion most wholly, because your father and god is all you have left. What if with the little heart you had left you wanted to spare your only sister the rejection of god, make sure she was perfect the entire time, and if it means you make her hate you so be it. What if she saw the compassion as your faith wavering and she was right . Still she should've bathed the streets in red and not thought about it any more than what the arm needs to drive the knife through a heart .
#baldur's gate 3#orin the red#durge tav#comic#bg3 fanart#points at them . what if all she was around to witness was a 10 year crisis of faith#sorry girlie you missed both his most bloody and most artistic murer arc#hhhhhh my durge is a bard and i find it so hard to believe he was always straightforward with it#so . what if he simply had to learn his lesson to stay in bhaals bad grace‚ even as his very flesh#tw blood#cw: gore#durge : larkspur
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the way kaladin is like. the only character who gets an arc relating to overcoming his prejudices but it’s…him overcoming his “prejudices” against lighteyes…like huh……?
#every time I remember this i feel like I’m reading the books wrong#and I just missed something crucial#alas I do think this is correct! and it boggles my lil mind!!! like HUH????????#stormlight archive#ellie reads#shallan is RIGHT THERE#shallan would be like. I can’t be bigoted I’m friends with kaladin 🙂#😒😒😒😒😒😒😒#I just…..tired. it’s tired!!!!#don’t even get me started on the ‘fuck moash’ stuff….#moash defender til I die also it’s stupid to hate a character bc they’re too morally grey for you….like it’s fiction.#sorry moash made the story INTERESTING !!!#stay mad kaladin wouldn’t be interesting w/out him!!!#im kidding I love kaladin but you get it.#the subreddit hates moash way too much it’s so annoying#like it’s fiction………#they also think Brandon Sanderson is above critique which is also annoying#anyways. love these books bc they’re well written the world building goes crazy and! they’re interesting from this angle and I enjoy#thinking critically about them.
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Game night ruined.
[First] Prev <–-> Next
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#jiang cheng#wang lingjiao#If the assorted Jiang disciples look familiar it's because they are the same as the disciples in the LWJ in Yunmeng Jiang AU comics!#I decided that if I was going to have background characters come up a lot I may as well solidify a few designs.#We are following MLP background character rules in the sense there are more disciples around but these guys fill in for them#Do they have names? No(t yet).#I just think the jiang disciples are very sweet and cute in the audio drama. I hope nothing bad happens to them.#(let me have me fun and whimsy with them before...you know...)#I feel like I totally missed an opportunity to set WLJ up as an 'Um Actually" girl.#“you're hitting on my man? UM ACTUALLY get BURNT”#“You want to fly kites? UM ACTUALLY It's offensive to my sect so get fucked”#“UM ACTUALLY we're setting up a supervisory office here”#“You want me to stay? UM ACTUALLY I think we pissed off some ghosts so I'm outtie <3”#Do you see the lost potential here? I'm furious at myself for not seeing it sooner.
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