#starting to feel kinda attacked ...

[kerryweaverlesbian]

Dean Winchester of Supernatural fame is NOT reading parenting books he is putting on Cheaper By The Dozen, Daddy Daycare and Honey I Shrunk The Kids taking notes.

[sciencelings-speaks]

I love that even with all the lengths Stronghart went through to hide Kazuma's identity (using a mask to hide his eyes and a cloak to cover everything else, banning him from even speaking), the minute Ryunosuke saw him for the first time he suspected it. From his posture alone, they knew each other for about a year and were separated for like eight months and Ryunosuke could still identify his bbf from the way he stood like... Kazuma lost his memory, his identity, his... everything and Ryunosuke still clocked it, even though he literally thinks Kazuma is dead, that the prosecutor's masked apprentice is the whole reason he's even there at all.

Literally what else could Stronghart have done to hide Kazuma's presence from Ryunosuke, he did as much as he could but still Ryunosuke felt it immediately. This feels gayer than most of the yaoi I've come across, this is a major plot point in a romantic drama, this can't not be a trope in one of the kdramas my dad likes to watch on Netflix.

[moonknightblog]

Correct me if I am wrong, but Moon Knight probably is only one on the team with multiple experiences with dying and coming back-

Is to also say everyone else is like it’s good to be back, when they revive and Marc just like why Khonshu why…

[profounddefendorcrusade-blog]

I feel bad for Starlo.

Star has a point, idk what the four were ticked off about, there is like 99% chance everyone willingly participated in the trolley problem, based on what we've seen of his behavior thus far it's not like Starlo to be that big of a jerk/drag them by force/yell at them to do it. Ed's words:

he does it because Star asks NICELY

clearly jealous

It genuinely seemed like a fun time/fun roleplay, especially since every day is the same. Like, the five are supposed to be a rowdy and adventures bunch, what exactly did Starlo do wrong, I'm genuinely confused and curious. Except taking a big liking in Clover (his posse should know that this is a big moment for him, according to Blackjack they've known each other since high school and had the same liking for westerns. So they were basically a nerd gang.) Starlo was kind, patient and considerate towards Clover the whole time, even warned Mooch about them not being bandits, taught Clover gun safety, wanted to bring his posse along for a fun time, thanked Ace for telling him about getting Clover a new hat...

Sure, at first he only liked Clover for being a human, but as Ceroba says, that changed and he grew to genuinely care about them, plus I can't help but think Star saw himself in Clover and that's part of the reason he was so proud of them all the time even when they messed up (I'll talk more about this at some point)

What exactly made Ace want to leave the gang? He even said how he doesn't mind "getting run over by the fake train"

he's so nice. says sorry for forgetting the safety goggles even when he was scatterbrained due to his excitement. I love him so much

The only real "faults" (I'll call them temporary faults) I saw in Star during the Wild East section was that he was even more enthusiastic and more proud than usual. But how couldn't he be when he met a member of the species that he has admired for so long because they have real cowboys and sheriffs on the surface (who are seen as brave heroes who deliver justice, while Star canonically feels like a nobody farmer). His posse should have realized Clover wouldn't be there forever and just let their boss enjoy himself with his "deputy who'd have to leave sooner or later anyway"(or be more patient with him/ask him why he feels this strongly towards Clover/if there's a deeper reason for that). His friends including Ceroba just turn their back on him so quickly instead. The moment he's gotten the chance to feel valued for once and put himself first and not have to take care of this whole town and everyone in it and live his dream of meeting a real human, suddenly "his personality is damaged?"

Star's literally built this whole town, organised everything, he worries about everyone, Ceroba (plus was the one to give her emotional strength before and after Clover's sacrifice), Kanako, the monsters, his family, struggles with feelings of worthlessness yet never wipes that smile off his face, always does his best to be hopeful and optimistic and make others laugh, gave his posse a nap time so they don't become exhausted, gave Ceroba a free home, didn't act upon his feelings towards her and was a 110% supportive, caring friend instead. THAT'S who he is. He's the papa bear of this friend group, the glue holding everyone together.

He was just *really* excited. Y'all know he's insecure and just wishes to escape who he is and yet y'all blame him for liking Clover so much. Yeah, the four are very clearly jealous. But why won't the four of you control your feelings for a while? As mentioned, Clover WILL HAVE TO LEAVE EVENTUALLY. They won't be Star's "deputy" forever (the kid who's just as into westerns as he is, who values justice just as much, who also values doing the right thing. Someone he clearly felt understood in the presence of, whom he loved; just look at the way he talks about Clove during Showdown). Star seems genuinely confused of what he did wrong poor guy just wanted to live his fantasy for once and feel important:

Even at the beginning Moray's like "oh no Martlet is upset" Mooch replies "don't be a buzzkill nothing exciting ever happens around here" and Ray's like "Yeah you've got a point"

If you all agreed to have a little fun with a human who will very soon leave forever why is Starlo's enthusiasm such a big problem? If the posse weren't into this after all (unless they were simply too jealous which could have been solved with a honest talk and a little patience) why are you doing this "rowdy" job with Star in the first place? Do you want your boring routine day to day life so much back? Or just for Clover to leave (which they will soon enough)? You, western enthusiasts, literally met a real human, A HUMAN FROM WESTERNS YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO BE PASSIONATELY INTO (clearly not as passionate as Star but passionate ENOUGH to understand where he's coming from).

... okay.

[years-n-feather]

My weird relationship with the She-Ra franchise

[tj-crochets]

Still no craft updates on account of I feel Bad* but I did get like half a beanie crocheted this weekend? I also have a bat that's haunting me. In that there's a bat design I desperately want to turn into a plushie not in that I am being literally haunted by a bat. As far as I know I am not haunted by a bat but to be fair I'm not confident I'd know? *my heart rate got high enough that made me cough but my asthma was flaring up enough that cough launched me into an asthma attack, which raised my heart rate even more, so basically I used my emergency inhaler and then was on the floor for a while. Feels bad! Do not recommend. I'm okay though just tired

[electricpurrs]

this really feels so silly to say but it really starts getting to me how #Real shadow the hedgehog gets. like idk i know his edgy backstory has been pretty much milked dry for years by now. but it does hit different in the animated episodes when i guess it stops being so cartoonish, and it goes out of the way to animate shadow having a ptsd panic attack again and again. its always been his thing but it feels more real now someway. (probably bc it isnt in a low poly video game)

i just dont really know how to feel, being a person who has ptsd and seeing it. i dont know if i should identify with it, if his ptsd, even if framed better, is still just part of a cartoonish edgy backstory, if it means anything. i don't know what i should think when it hurts to watch. it gets me uncomfortable i guess

[orcelito]

I wrote. 1k words today!!!!!!!! For dad vash au!!!! So the document is now 3.5k words long (almost a third of them written just Today)(I've been working on this WIP off and on for Months now.....) so that's exciting!!!!!

Idk there was just a feeling midday of like. My brain being surprisingly clear?? Weird bc I didn't get enough sleep last night. But I took full advantage of it.

Hope that this kinda thing keeps up. Maybe I can actually fucking post something finally.

[purgemarchlockdown]

Hm...

[wonderstruck]

i have decided to treat my anxiety as an entity outside of my body rather than a piece of myself and so far the anxiety has taken on the role of like an annoying house cat or something bc everytime i feel an anxiety attack coming on i’ve just been shouting NO! NO! over and over as if i were talking to a pet that wasn’t behaving properly…..anyway so far so good

[skaruresonic]

actually, yesterday I started playing Inuyasha: The Secret of the Cursed Mask for the PS2.

it's a pretty good game! plays a bit like a pared-down FF7 without all the bells and whistles, but it's a fairly solid experience otherwise. Sango is best girl <3

[cruesuffix]

Looking at the pictures you posted makes me realize Nikki is the perfect height to give Mick a little smooch on the forehead...

Ughhhh!!! Imagine the crüe randomly giving him kisses and little pats/pets on the head!!!

and that’s why they’re my fav pairing ngl… tall x short will always go double platinum in my house!! also that and public displays of affection with mick will always be dear to me cause… that man usually avoids it when humanly possible and i’d like to think nikki would go out of his way to be overly affectionate with him just to annoy him. and mick wouldn’t be able to back away from it cause nikki is way too tall and strong for him, so he just kinda has to cringe while he does it.

and then the rest of the band slowly picks up on it and starts to do the same. like tommy never gives up an opportunity to ruffle micks hair, vince (though still apprehensive around mick), usually runs up and gives him a hug and then runs off before mick can even react. then, good ol’ nikki just constantly petting him, kissing him on the cheek, hugging him from behind. any sort of affection he knows mick will cringe at. oh! and don’t forget the random “i love yous” that make mick sneer and tell them to fuck off. it’s not that he hates them or anything. he just finds it weird when they say it at random. he also can’t say it back… like at all. (cringe to say but he reminds me of one of my favs who’s also the sort of tsundere type)

(also i said all of that but… mick still lets them do it!)

[parapsychoiogy]

going to be honest if my bf bombs valentines day after two months of me asking for like the bare minimum of a single date (I EVEN SAID A PICNIC THAT I WOULD PLAN AND PACK FOR, LITERALLY FREE) it might be the last straw actually

[letsplaythermalnuclearwar]

ok so today my parents were like "hey we're short on volunteers at soup kitchen can you help" and me and my sister we're like 'yeah sure' cause yeah why not

so we go to soup kitchen and it's a million degrees because it's Australia and it's summer and we can't turn the fans on so everyone's super hot. we start setting up (pulling out chairs, setting the tables, defrosting the soups, etc.) when suddenly I feel, like, abdominal pain

and I think that's probably fine cause I'm on my period and also I'm not great at body signals so I probably just need to go to the bathroom. so I start walking to grab my bag and in the time it takes to cross a room I feel really bad. like 'my-skull-is-too-thick,-my-skin-is-melting,-I-can't-breathe-properly,-and-my-bones-have-turned-to-moss' kinda bad

so I'm crouching on the floor of this church kitchen and it's suddenly occurring to me that this is a very serious problem maybe. so between hyperventilating (which I'm vaguely aware I shouldn't be doing but also I literally couldnt care less rn) I start calling to my dad and saying that I feel bad (apparently my dad was in middle of straining some incredibly hot pasta and this was pretty stressful for him)

and by this time I'm lying on the floor of this actually quite dirty church kitchen and basically all logical thought is gone and I'm aware of nothing aside from how incredibly hot I am and this lady getting me a pot in case I throw up. and my dad says "you can't lie down here" and he and some others help me get to my feet and before we leave I grab my bag because in my I head I still just need to go to the bathroom or something

so I'm led out of the kitchen and into the hall by the hand by a girl who I've met exactly twice and there are homeless people around but I'm totally unaware of them and my head feels bad and if feels like my skin has started evaporating into the air so I'm some vaguely human shaped cloud and we're at the door to leave the hall

and then I'm on the bench outside, hearing my Mum say "call triple zero" which is pretty concerning because that's the emergency number you only call if someone is maybe dying and I honestly think that shocked me into waking up

I open my eyes and suddenly I'm convinced I've made the whole thing up (I tell a lot of stories in my head and this would not be the first one where I have some sort of medical emergency) because there's no way I actually collapsed on the floor of the church kitchen. that's stupid and weird and there's no way that happened

and I ask what's going on and also where I am because despite this being my church that I've been going to for literal decades I just don't remember getting to this bench outside. and now that I'm awake, I feel really lucid and my mom says not to call triple zero cause i seem ok

anyway I apparently passed out for a few seconds and also stopped breathing and locked my jaw and my lips turned blue. so that's pretty bad. but I got some icy poles and watched epic the musical animatics after so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ it could be worse

[pawsometoons]

What a great day for starting to feel bad about liking specific pieces of media again

Can I have one fucking day without seeing certain people ruining shit for others I swear to god

This is getting so tiring and distressing I don't know how much more of this I can take

Why can't people just be fucking normal and not ruin the enjoyment of a piece of media for others I CANT FUCKING STAND IT

It's starting to make me feel scared and unsafe here but I literally have nowhere else to go so I'm just stuck in an environment where I feel like I can barely be myself anymore. And all around, I'm seeing more people being hurt in worse ways by those who hurt me too

It's getting so stressful and I'm trying so hard to just push through it but now it's just starting to eat away at me and idk what the fuck to do

[xoalsox]

i love you forever my shinee