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[bluetea-00]

Shadow THE fucking Hedgehog YEAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[hinamie]

oversaturate

[royalarchivist]

Bad: I don’t think people understand the effect QSMP had on some of the streamers in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. [...] Imagine that you were given a friend to play Minecraft with — like your best friend — BUT if this person dies, if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Can you imagine what that’s like?

Bad: If you did not live through the QSMP, if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience the Eggs were. They were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with.

Bad: I’m not saying I regret it. To this day, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. [...] I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, it was just that fun.

Earlier today during his stream, Bad shared his experience and thoughts about the Eggs and the significant emotional (and traumatic) impact they had on him and his fellow QSMP members.

This clip a very edited-down version since his commentary was ~13 minutes long, so I highly recommend checking out Bad's VOD if you have the time. (Timestamp: 47:36 - 1:00:14)

[ Full Transcript ↓ ]

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Bad: To be fair Chat, I really think the QSMP... I don't think anyone really can relate to it, Chat. It's something that's so... I've told people this before, like– but it's hard to understand. Right? Like...

Where was I? Sorry Chat, I'm losing my train of thought. Look, let me explain Chat– here's the dealio, ok? Here's the dealio, and this is what I mean when I say like, it's important to keep this in mind, Chat. Ok? It's important to keep this in mind:

I don’t think people understand the effect that the QSMP had on like, some of the streamers, in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. This is the analogy I’ve given to every person who I’ve like, shared this with. Imagine you meet somebody– [He hears a strange noise] What the fudge was that? Did you hear that?

Anyway– Chip! The story I was just relaying to Chat, Chip, was this: I was sharing this story with them, I said–  I was giving them an analogy. 

Imagine Chat, for example, imagine that you were… playing Minecraft, with like– you were given a friend to play Minecraft with, Chat, like your best friend, and [unintelligible] were like, “Hey, you get to play Minecraft with this person, right? BUT if this person dies – they’re currently your best friend, Chip – but if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Ever again.” Can you imagine what that’s like, Chip?

I don’t think a lot of people understand like, what that does, right? I’m not gonna say that like, it creates this situation, Chip, that like, messes with your head, but it– Chip – but it totally, totally does, Chip. It messes with your head! It literally puts you in a position where you’re second-guessing and thinking about everything, Chip! You’re thinking about EVERYTHING Chip! Ok? And that’s the problem, Chip– is you turn into a paranoid monster because of it, Chip! Like, you don’t understand Chip– I was- I was so afraid of every dirt block, I used to carry a shovel with me Chip, and I would specifically right-click dirt blocks that looked suspicious because mines, Chip– mines could not be shoveled! Like, I was crazy, Chip! But here’s the problem, Chip: that craziness is still there. I’m genuinely like–

I remember thinking Chip, that I would one day– I was like, “I’m going to move past–” here, let’s go up here, Chip. I remember thinking one day Chip, I was like, “I’m gonna move past the underground base, one of these days. You know, one of these days, I feel like I’ll be able to grow and achieve the desire to build a base that doesn’t have to be underground.” But I don’t think it’s possible now Chip, because I think… I just don’t know. I feel like the paranoia– there’s still like, residual leftover trauma from that situation, Chip.

But here’s the problem Chip: I don’t think I don’t think– I don’t think people understand it. Like, I just really don’t. But I also don’t blame them Chip, ‘cuz I don’t think it’s possible to fully understand it if you haven’t lived through it. Like, if you did not live through the QSMP… I’m talking about the QSMP, I don’t- I don’t know if that was obvious– if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience like, the Eggs were. Right? I don’t think people realize it. Like, they were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with, Chip. So, it’s just one of those things that–

[He’s interrupted by a loud rumble of thunder above them]

Did lightning just strike here? Is it thunderstorming out…? But anyway, Chip. That’s the food for thought.

But that’s the problem– Like, every time it rains in Minecraft, I have to like, look at the sky, and I get this weird, like, second--hand vibe because of the trauma. The trauma, Chip! The trauma is real! But that’s the point– I’m not saying I regret it. I, to this day Chip, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. 

[He falls down] Dangit, don’t come over here Chip, ‘cuz I’m coming back up! Ok.

I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering  and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, Chip, it was just that fun. I really wi– I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible, Chip, to give people that same energy, like that same experience. You know what I mean, Chip? I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible again. Like, EVER.

Because… because like, one: I will say on one level Chip, I will say on one level, like– it’s sort of emotionally like… It’s emotionally devastating, and I think to actually go through that– and this is where like, if I ever do end up going to a– see a therapist, if I ever do end up going to see a therapist at any point, I’ll talk it over with them and be like, “Hey, what do you think about this?” Because I genuinely think on one level, like– it’s created this fear of forming attachments because of like, how things can go. You know what I mean? Like, the fear of getting attached to something and then potentially losing it. Like, it’s- it’s a genuine thing. I think people forget about that.

Like, at the end of the day, everything was RP, right? On the server. You know what I mean? Like, everything was RP, Chip. BUT at the same point, even though it was RP Chip, it was still like– there the reality of you were still playing like, with another person, and you were still getting that experience, and it felt like you were genuinely attached to someone and you didn’t want anything bad to happen to them. It was GENUINELY stressful, Chip.

But at the same point, I don’t regret it, and I don’t think it was a bad experience. I’m– 

Sometimes in life Chip, you go through stuff, and maybe you have a certain amount of like, things that like, can happen, that you’re like, “You know what, maybe this wasn’t a good thing that this happened,” but at the same point, you still aren’t necessarily upset about it, because… it’s like growing as a person, right? Here’s the thing Chip; even bad situations, Chip, can lead to an overall good outcome. Like–

Even if you’re going through something bad Chip, just because a bad thing happens doesn’t mean that only bad things have to come from that. That’s one of the things I tell people all the time, Chip, is that if you go through a bad situation, you can learn from it, and you can use your experience to help others. And you can be that– you can be, at the worst-case scenario, you can be someone for other people who are going through that same experience to lean on when they go through that.I think there’s a certain amount of comfort that comes from that; from knowing no matter how bad your situation is, you’re not the only person who’s experienced it. You know what I mean?

[swampybogg]

[g3othermal3scapism]

pulling up to school after ur mom got mad and cut ur hair 😔

[artsyebonyrose]

was doodling my boy and tried out a painterly style. I'M SO PROUD OF HOW IT TURNED OUT????

[they-call-me-youngermoney]

i love this drawing of kara from @moeblob sm, she reminds me of a red velvet cupcake lol

[littler0b1n]

(Please click for quality!)

This took an embarrassingly long time that I’m not willing to admit to

I just wanted to draw them In sweater vests lol, as inspired by @mr-jack-letterman it was never supposed to get this out of hand…

Anyway below the cut is a 28 hour timelapse condensed to 30 seconds for your viewing pleasure

Just ignore the first few seconds lol I initially drew this on a doodle page intending this piece to be just that… oops.

[yinyuszi]

Can I req a Queen Of Hearts! Riddle drawing?

not exactly what you asked for but i hope you like it regardless!

[frenchonionsoop]

the man the myth the legend the babygirl

[boxofoxberry]

I WANT THEM GONE!!! NOW!!!!!! /aff

[disconnectedkid]

I wasn’t lying when I called him my muse I swear I can be normal

@radio-frequencies yeah the anon that called him their muse that was me hi :)

[mjdrawsalot]

behold! my child! (2nd youngest character of the story, youngest of the mains)

the mallet is not canonical, they're just a weapon-of-opportunity kind of person because invisibility is not an offensive power

[cleocatrablossy]

Bill Cipher dissection!

[The following is a passage taken from Stanford Pine’s notes dated September 8th 198X]

Eye - No further damage could be done to it, the most I was able to achieve was removing it from my Muse’s body. I must assume the presence of rods and cones in the back of it as Cipher is known to see colors. Attaches to the back of his eye socket alone, with the fat surrounding it seemingly acting as cushioning instead of any sort of connective tissue.

Tissue layers: Cipher has an epidermis, as well as a subcutaneous layer underneath it. However the presence of a serous membrane between the subcutaneous tissue and muscle as seen in his ‘hat’ and ‘tie’ implies that a serous membrane does not only line his (for a lack of a better term or the appearance of a ventral or dorsal- likely due to two dimensional origins) major cavity but every part of his body. The reason for this remains unclear to me, perhaps due to the fact that his bones would otherwise lay directly against the subcutaneous tissue so that they don’t puncture his skin. Bones and skeletal muscle in his ‘hat’ and ‘tie’ imply the possibility of moving them at will- simply hypothesis as I have never witnessed this.

Large spots of luciferase, the enzyme associated with bioluminescence. Luciferin likely diffuses through the subcutaneous membrane to the large spots of luciferase allowing my Muse to glow.

Teeth and ‘lashes’: Four teeth line the upper and lower eye lid each, with a similar structure to a cat’s claw allowing them to retract and extend at will. The slits through which the teeth protrude create the appearance of ‘eyelashes’. It appears that the eye’s resilience has removed the need for actual eyelashes.

Reflective lenses: found posterior the eye and lateral(both left and right) the base of the optic nerve reflective lenses focus light into lasers. Implies the eye and connecting fat to be semi-transparent.

Sea cucumber(?): it appears to be a sea cucumber. Its movement also directly correlates to my Muse’s ability to levitate. It may be functioning as a swim bladder but for air. Why marine life is the form that such a thing has taken baffles me, especially concerning Cipher’s seeming disdain for it.

Multiple appendixes: The appendix is already practically useless, simply a vestigial organ. Why my muse seeming has them running all along his large intestine is a mystery. I’d hate to know what appendicitis would be like for him.

Traditional organs: several organs appear to be the exact same as they appear in humans. These are the liver, pancreas(though location has been changed), small and large intestines, stomach, kidneys, lungs and bile ducts.

Diaphragm: presses down on the lungs from the top and sides, as well as shielding them from other organs.

Brain and antennae: while it appears normal at first, the brain has two metal antennae poking out of it. These antennae function similarly to that of a radio, but instead of picking up on electromagnetic waves the antenna of Cipher’s brain pick up on thought waves. Seemingly this is how he can enter and alter the mindscape.

Time dial: works as a pressure sensor attached to his lungs, the higher the pressure in his lungs the slower time progresses. The slower time is, the further clockwise the major vein in the ‘dial’ shifts.

The gall-stone: Where the gall of Cipher comes from, supposedly. It does tend to move and change shape slightly the moire outrageous my Muse is. When making a deal it appears to grow slightly, I’d hazard to guess that the more impactful a deal is the larger it grows. (It must be said that to test this, my Muse had to be conscious and so it was among my first courses of action. And for reference, the deal made was that if I purchased and wore a shirt of his choosing Cipher would join me in a game of Dungeons, Dungeons, and more Dungeons)

The ‘screen’: the layers of tissue covering it can be pulled back at will and into different shapes and sizes. The screen can then project an image that Cipher chooses. Seemingly uses the brain antenna as a way to receive this information.

The black hole(?): Appears to be a tiny black hole used to remove waste in place of excretion.

Multiple hearts: Only one(the inferior/medial heart) actively pumps blood, but upon severing the aorta the superior/lateral-left heart begins to pump blood while the inferior heart is quickly blocked off. Seemingly just a safety precaution against any issues or damage to his heart.

Note: Cipher is capable of regeneration given enough time, allowing this to be preformed more like a vivisection than a dissection. Though I do worry that despite my Muse’s reassurances that the scalpel ‘tickled’ and that my cutting of his various organs and tissues was ‘funny’ I may have actually done him harm. I can’t imagine the sensation of being cut open while not under any anesthetics could be pleasant, and without any sign of nervous injury that could limit the pain felt it is almost certain to have been rather painful. We will see if he is still willing to speak with me tonight. Hopefully my Muse understands the importance of cataloging his current physical condition so that if any changes occur once the portal is completed they can be noted and handled with the concern necessary.

[shartfinz]

I am so lazy with art I only like shading skin and solid colored shirts then I want to be done LMAO

[de-constructmybones]

Shout out to all the drawings and works I will never finish. You're *always* on my mind.