#spectralon

[tnyj-3]

SY_0 - S-R_0 - Remedy Of 2019 (2022): Full Tracklist Completed.

View the 2022 Life Mixtape Entry here: TNYJ-4 - SY_0 - S-R_0 - Remedy Of 2019 (2022) : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive

[tnyj-4]

Not many people understand the gravity of this chapter. It is built with the intent on fixing the damages caused by the TNYJ-3 Period. The succeeding period has always had the intent on building upon the foundation set by this one. I have stagnated more than once over the course of its duration. This last week being no different, unfortunately. However, I am reawakening yet again. I am also trying to rekindle my faith in God. This might be the focal point in the next chapter, however, this remains uncertain. Every time I stagnate, I come back with substantial progress before stagnating again soon after. I am still unsure of the root cause of this, but I will find out in due time.

It is ending in 11 days.

This blog will be abandoned and a new one will be started as TNYJ-5 commences.

See you then.

Farewell.

— TNYJ

[bikingvibes]

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[eggxeggxegg]

How in my head I picture melkor and mairon in their default fair forms:

First off, they look very similar to elves: tall, long hair, slender in frame, and androgynous in appearance. But with a more supernatural element than them.

Melkor has straight, darker than jet black hair that spills to the floor. It has no shine; it absorbs all light. Think of vantablack. His skin is neon white, like spectralon. And his eyes burn like blue hyper giant stars. His face has very sharp features. He’s strikingly beautiful, but also absolutely frightening to look at straight on.

Mairon’s hair is the multidimensional white, yellow, orange, red of fire and molten metal. It flickers about him like flames, defying gravity. His skin is pale gold and his eyes glow like filaments in an Edison bulb. His facial features are delicate, intricate, ornate. He’s entrancingly beautiful; you are the moth and he is the flame. You’d look at him forever, even though you’re burning your retinas out.

[rideraddict]

Don’t forget to read about the @canyon Spectral:on💣🤤 link in bio 👆 #rideraddict #rideraround #rad #mycanyon#canyonbikes#spectralon#bikepark #gopro #bikeporn #rockshox #bike #dhbike #downhill #downhillrider #foxdh #endurobike #fiveten #downhillmtb #mtbporn #instamtb #dhmtb #mtblife #biking#ad

[workmoneyfun]

Guy Compares The World's Whitest Paint And The World's Whitest Material To See Which Is Actually The Whitest - Digg | Here's how White 2.0, the world's whitest paint, compare to spectralon, the world's whitest material.... https://digg.com/video/compare-whitest-paint-with-whitest-material

[shouucore]

via Bikerumor

[pi-slices]

Spectralon Surface - 140605

[tnyj-3]

The End is near.

As this chapter ends, the older blog will be abandoned. This blog will remain. Maybe.

Not many people understand the gravity of this chapter. It is built with the intent on fixing the damages caused by the TNYJ-3 Period. The succeeding period has always had the intent on building upon the foundation set by this one. I have stagnated more than once over the course of its duration. This last week being no different, unfortunately. However, I am reawakening yet again. I am also trying to rekindle my faith in God. This might be the focal point in the next chapter, however, this remains uncertain. Every time I stagnate, I come back with substantial progress before stagnating again soon after. I am still unsure of the root cause of this, but I will find out in due time.

Next year is going to be a more interesting period, especially as another introductory year.

See you then.

Farewell.

— TNYJ

[tnyj-3]

The End Is Near

˙ǝɟᴉl ʎɯ ɟo ǝpɐɔǝp ʇsɐl sᴉɥʇ ƃuᴉʌᴉʌɹns ɟo uoᴉʇɐɹqǝlǝɔ ǝɥʇ ʍou puɐ 'Ɛᄅ0ᄅ ɟo ɯnlnpuǝԀ ʇɐǝɹפ ǝɥ┴ uǝɥʇ 'ᄅᄅ/0Ɩ/9Ɩ uo sʇuǝɹɐd ʎɯ ɟo uoᴉʇɐɹɐdǝs ǝɥʇ 'ʎlʇsɹᴉℲ ˙ƃuᴉǝq ʎɯ uodn sɹɐɔs ʍǝu pǝuᴉɐƃ llᴉʇs ǝʌɐɥ I 'ɯɹǝʇ-ƃuol ǝɥʇ ɹoɟ ssǝɔɔns ʇɐǝɹƃ ɐ uǝǝq sɐɥ ʇᴉ ɥƃnoɥʇl∀ ˙ʎɹoɯǝɯ ʇuǝɔǝɹ uᴉ ǝɟᴉl ʎɯ ɟo poᴉɹǝd ʇsɹoʍ ǝɥʇ '��ᄅ0ᄅ - 6Ɩ0ᄅ ɟo poᴉɹǝd ǝɥʇ ƃuᴉʎpǝɯǝɹ uo ʇlᴉnq 'ǝɟᴉl ʎɯ ɟo ɹǝʇdɐɥɔ ɥʇɟᴉɟ ǝɥʇ ɟo puǝ ǝɥʇ sᴉ sᴉɥ┴

[tnyj-4]

These are tracks made as a celebration of this period, for the growth I have underwent over its duration.

[tnyj-3]

Almost to the halfway point of the year.

A bizarre year for me. Two months until the celebration of 23/6/24.

- TNYJ

[tnyj-3]

SY_1 - S-R_1 - Achieving Salvation? - The Great Pendulum (2023): Complete.

View the Life Mixtape Entry here: https://archive.org/details/sy-1-s-r-1-achieving-salvation-the-great-pendulum-2023.

[tnyj-4]

Video: SY_2 - S-R_2 - The 2nd Golden Year: 10 Years Challenge (2024). Track: Torchkas - The Rage (`The (Coronation Day OST - Hell).

This is the main track of SY_2 - S-R_2 - The 2nd Golden Year: 10 Years Challenge (2024) and the main overall track of TNYJ-4 - The Spectralon Remedy (2022 - 2024).

"And here's to a feast, to satiate a lust for the dawning of a new age, one of prosperity and freedom. Gone are the days of pain and suffering, as you yet again reinvent yourself in a better image, that of which was envisioned by the sole objective employed by The Remedy, as it is he who has entered adulthood that must find his own happiness by force and determination, vanquishing the demons of the past to a bearable extent, allowing himself to be a functional member of the society you once hated.

However...

…At the end of it all, you've come so far, only for that same journey to cost absolutely everything you hold near and dear…"

-- TNYJ

[tnyj-4]

SY_1 - S-R_1 - Achieving Salvation? - The Great Pendulum (2023) (Link In Description).

Release: 29/12/23.

Year: 2023.

Period: TNYJ-4.

Age: TNYJ(18) - TNYJ(19).

Genres: Drone, Harsh Noise, Supertone, Infinitesimal Slow Music, Suizidcore, Field Recording, Glitch, Soundtrack, Smashsynth, Kellersynth, Raw Black Metal, Witch House, Noise, Speedcore, Terrorcore, Industrial, Experimental, Splittercore, Extratone, Hypertone, Vocal Drone, Ambient, Breakcore, Techno, Drone, Dark Ambient, Vaporwave, Depressive Doomcore, Depressive Speedcore, Depressive Slowcore, Schranz, Doomcore, Slowcore, Powernoise, Terrorcore, Drycore, Electronic, Extradrone, Dance, Gabber, Chaos Drone, Dark Drone, Metal, Depressive, Industrial Metal, Pop, Trance, Dark Rave, Sad Glitch, Raw Data, Dark Extratone, Rock, Rap, Industrial Hardcore, Drum and Bass, Jungle, Vocal Glitch, Inframbient, Depressive Drone, Synthwave, Chillout, Piano, Strokeline, Extreme Hypertone.

Tracklist:

0: Spectralon - First Year.

1: Spectralon - First Year (Hades Vortexium Remix).

2: Darkblack XIII - Ansia (Act VII) (Omega Buio).

3: Phantom Vibrations - The Speed Of Xenon-124 (1.8037769768673402063092834121964e-100 BPM).

4: Darkblack XIII - Ansia 666.

5: Datasmr - ReCorrupted 2(023).

6: Missie 1/2 - Passion.

7: Exp_23:25 - Secret Intelligence.

8: Exp_23:25 ft. Blvck Hypertone - Speed Of Virus.

9: ###0### - A.

10: 𝔉𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡𝔥𝔬𝔣 - ℑ 𝔞𝔪 𝔱𝔥𝔢 𝔎𝔦𝔫𝔤 𝔬𝔣 𝔪𝔶 𝔬𝔴𝔫 ℭ𝔞𝔰𝔱𝔩𝔢.

11: 𝔊𝔯𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡 - 𝔇𝔢𝔫 𝔚𝔞𝔩𝔡 𝔰𝔠𝔥𝔲𝔢𝔱𝔷𝔢𝔫𝔡, 𝔱𝔬𝔢𝔱𝔢𝔱 𝔢𝔰 𝔍𝔢𝔡𝔢𝔫...-

12: 𝔊𝔯𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡 - ℜ𝔢𝔱𝔲𝔯𝔫 𝔱𝔬 ℭ𝔞𝔰𝔱𝔩𝔢 𝔗𝔢𝔲𝔣𝔢𝔩𝔰𝔟���𝔯𝔤.

13: BLVCK CEILING - Close.

14: Nihil Fist - Path Of Escalation.

15: KGBKid - Junglist Duality (Hard Version).

16: 𝔏𝔢𝔦𝔠𝔥𝔫𝔞𝔪, 𝔡𝔢𝔯 𝔊𝔢𝔰𝔠𝔥𝔞𝔢𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔱𝔢 - 𝔏𝔢𝔦𝔠𝔥𝔫𝔞𝔪 𝔖𝔱𝔢𝔩𝔩𝔞

17: ℜ𝔲𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔠𝔥𝔱 ♘ 𝟒𝟓𝟎𝟎 - ♤𝔅𝔬𝔩𝔱𝔷𝔪𝔞𝔫𝔫𝔤𝔢𝔥𝔶𝔯𝔫♧.

18: Bullenhuser Damm - Fighting The Monster Inside Ourselves.

19: Bullenhuser Damm - Always Keep Me (EgOi X DF).

20: Bullenhuser Damm - George Harvey's Roses (EgOi X Darkblack XIII).

21: Melondruie - Padded Room (Disquiet0473).

22: Ray_Cobley - Subdermal Layers (Disquiet0473).

23: Xryxix - Winter Is All Over You (Dark Ambient Mix by Noiziatrics).

24: Noiziatrics - Screams From The Factory.

25: Casio Brothers - Wonderground (D1stD3vil's Remix).

26: Tony Igy - Astronomia (D1stD3vil's Remix).

27: ID - Depersonalisation.

28: Origin Of Styx - Creeping.

29: ::: - Sparkad.

30: Hecatonchires - Condemned.

31: ###0### - Congoglitch.

32: TNYJ, Vortex Reaper and Vantablack - The Darkness Intensifies.

33: Hades Vortexium - I Can See Right Through You And Your Facade, You Lying, Deceitful Fucking Pretender!

34: Jazzwave - Manic.

35: Dreamcorp - Sleep.

36: LSD Dream Emulator Music: Bright Moon Cottage - Ambient A.

37: Satin Sheets - Summer Storm Romance.

38: Darkblack XIII - A Beautiful Nightmare.

39: Satin Sheets - Air 98.

40: Hyperchaos - The Wider World.

41: Hyperchaos - He Who Carries The World's Weight On His Shoulders.

42: REM - The Third Echo From Childhood.

43: Parnax - Small Parts Of A Great Whole.

44: Pardonax - Sedative.

45: Pardonax - Heart Beats.

46: Pardonax - The Memory Remains.

47: Hades Vortexium - The Endgame (Act 0).

48: Vantablack - The Endgame (Act 1).

49: Vantablack, Herja Sonus and Tristitia - The Endgame (Act 2).

50: Herja Sonus - The Endgame (Act 3).

51: REM & Herja Sonus - TNYJ-2 - TNYJ-3 Reminiscence.

52: REM & Herja Sonus - The Old Traumas.

53: REM - The Fifth Echo From Childhood.

54: REM - Dissociation Via Watching TV Programmes (The Sixth Echo From Childhood).

55: REM - The Eighth Echo From Childhood.

56: REM - The Conscious Desire For Innocence (The Tenth Echo From Childhood).

57: REM & Herja Sonus - The Old Traumas (Part 2).

58: REM & Herja Sonus - The Old Traumas (Part 3).

59: Vito - Polozhenie (Metal Remix) (Slowed).

60: 𝔊𝔯𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡 - 𝔖𝔭𝔢𝔩𝔩𝔠𝔞𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔯'𝔰 𝔍𝔬𝔲𝔯𝔫𝔢𝔶.

61: 𝔊𝔯𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡 - 𝔐𝔞𝔤𝔦𝔠𝔨𝔞𝔩 𝔙𝔦𝔠𝔱𝔬𝔯𝔶.

62: 𝔊𝔯𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡 - 𝔊𝔦𝔣𝔱𝔰𝔱𝔲𝔫𝔨.

63: CKNOWN - No Break = No Beat.

64: CKNOWN - Maybe I'm Dreaming.

65: 𝔊𝔯𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡 - 𝔖𝔱𝔯𝔢𝔶𝔱𝔱 (𝔅𝔲𝔯𝔷𝔲𝔪 "𝔚𝔞𝔯" ℭ𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔯).

66: 𝔊𝔯𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡 - 𝔙𝔦𝔢𝔯𝔤𝔢𝔟𝔢𝔶𝔫𝔱𝔢𝔰 𝔎𝔯𝔦𝔳𝔷𝔢.

67: 𝔊𝔯𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡 - 𝔙𝔢𝔯𝔭𝔬ͤ𝔫𝔱𝔢 ℌ𝔢𝔵𝔢𝔯𝔢𝔶.

68: 𝔊𝔯𝔬𝔩𝔩𝔣𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡 - 𝔐𝔢𝔦𝔫 𝔊𝔬𝔱𝔱 𝔦𝔪 ℌ𝔶𝔪𝔪𝔢𝔩.

69: 𝐑𝐮𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐜𝐡𝐭 𝟒𝟓𝟎𝟎 - 𝐁𝐞𝐭𝐞𝐢𝐠𝐞𝐮𝐳𝐞 𝐳𝐢𝐞𝐡𝐭 𝐦𝐢𝐜𝐡...

70: 𝔉𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡𝔥𝔬𝔣 - 𝔘𝔫𝔱𝔢𝔯𝔰𝔢𝔦𝔫𝔢𝔰𝔤𝔩𝔢𝔦𝔠𝔥𝔢𝔫: 𝔊𝔯𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔉𝔦𝔫𝔞𝔩𝔢.

71: ✠𝔉𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡𝔥𝔬𝔣✠ - ☽ 𝔏𝔲𝔷𝔦𝔣𝔢𝔯𝔰 𝔖𝔱𝔲𝔯𝔷 𝔞𝔲𝔣 𝔡𝔦𝔢 𝔈𝔯𝔡𝔢 ☾ 【ℜ𝔢𝔩𝔬𝔞𝔡𝔢𝔡】.

72: 𝔉𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡𝔥𝔬𝔣 - 𝔏𝔲𝔷𝔦𝔣𝔢𝔯𝔰 𝔖𝔱𝔲𝔯𝔷 𝔞𝔲𝔣 𝔡𝔦𝔢 𝔈𝔯𝔡𝔢 𝟑: 𝔇𝔢𝔯 𝔘𝔯𝔨𝔫𝔞𝔩𝔩.

73: 𝔉𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡𝔥𝔬𝔣 - 𝔑𝔬𝔰𝔣𝔢𝔯𝔞𝔱𝔲 𝔗𝔬𝔲𝔯𝔫𝔞𝔪𝔢𝔫𝔱.

74: 𝔅𝔢𝔯𝔤𝔢̈𝔫𝔬𝔱 - 𝔗𝔞̈𝔫𝔷𝔢𝔩𝔫𝔡 𝔡𝔲𝔯𝔠𝔥 𝔡𝔢𝔫 𝔚𝔞𝔩𝔡 𝔡𝔢𝔰 𝔐𝔞𝔩𝔷𝔟𝔦𝔢𝔯𝔢𝔰.

75: 𝔉𝔯𝔦𝔢𝔡𝔥𝔬𝔣 - 𝔙𝔦𝔠𝔱𝔦𝔪 𝔬𝔣 ℑ𝔩𝔩𝔲𝔰𝔦𝔬𝔫.

76: ℜ𝔲𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔠𝔥𝔱 𝟒𝟓𝟎𝟎 - 𝔅𝔩𝔲𝔱𝔯𝔞𝔲𝔰𝔠𝔥

77: ℜ𝔲𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔠𝔥𝔱 𝟒𝟓𝟎𝟎 - 𝔗𝔬𝔱𝔞𝔩 𝔄𝔠𝔦𝔡 𝔗𝔯𝔦𝔲𝔪𝔭𝔥 𝟐: 𝔙𝔞𝔩𝔢𝔯𝔦𝔢´𝔰 𝔎𝔦𝔰𝔰.

78: ℜ𝔲𝔭𝔯𝔢𝔠𝔥𝔱 𝟒𝟓𝟎𝟎 - 𝔡𝔢𝔯 𝔲𝔩𝔱𝔦𝔪𝔞𝔱𝔦𝔳𝔢 𝔗𝔯𝔦𝔭.

79: 𝔖𝔠𝔥𝔞̈𝔫𝔡𝔢𝔯𝔪𝔬𝔫𝔡 - 𝔗𝔬𝔠𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞 𝔲𝔫𝔡 𝔉𝔲𝔤𝔲𝔢【𝔅𝔞𝔠𝔥 ℭ𝔬𝔳𝔢𝔯】.

80: TNYJ, Vortex Reaper and Herja Sonus - Free Reign.

81: TNYJ and Spectralon - Finding Myself.

82: ::: - Sick of digit.world;(

83: TNYJ & Vortex Reaper - The Last Goodbye (Of 13 Years) (Ft. Hades Vortexium, Herja Sonus, Cruciatus and Datasmr).

84: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act II).

85: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act VIII).

86: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act X).

87: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act XXII).

88: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act XXIII).

89: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act XXIV).

90: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act XXV).

91: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act XXVII).

92: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act XXVII) (X2 Edit).

93: Q-Hate - Misunderstood Worldwide.

94: Q-Hate - The Modern World.

95: M83 - My Tears Are Becoming A Sea.

96: Vortex Reaper, Vantablack and Tristitia - Degradation (Act 2).

97: Datasmr and Tristitia - The Realities Of Life (Sad Glitch Piece).

98: Herja Sonus - The Death Of Innocence Due To Overexposure To Reality.

99: Cruciatus - Death Of FAW (2009 - 2019 Mix).

100: REM - Post-FAW (Act 1).

101: Tristitia - Post-FAW (Act 7).

102: Datasmr - Suction Machine 3 (2011).

103: Datasmr - Suction Machine 4 (2014)

104: My Chemical Romance - The Kids From Yesterday.

105: Tears For Fears - Everybody Wants To Rule The World.

106: Froggy Fresh - The Fight (Chorus Looped).

107: Darkblack XIII - Fragmented Ego.

108: Morgue - Unseen.

109: Inaccessible - Alone. (Act VI - The Last Remaining Few).

110: Q-Hate - The Modern World.

111: Whitewoods - When Cameron Was In Egypt Land.

112: Akira Yamaoka - Blank Fairy.

113: Inaccessible - Alone. (Act VI - The Last Remaining Few).

114: Hades Vortexium - Hate Yourself.

115: Cruciatus - A New Kind Of Pain.

116: Herja Sonus - Fourth Bout Of Paranoia.

117: Herja Sonus - 16/10 & 23/11.

118: Herja Sonus - Darkness VII.

119: Herja Sonus and Memorable Mistakes - Resurfacing Demons, Irrational Thinking.

120: Vortex Reaper - Longing For A Simpler Time.

121: Spectralon - You'll Be Okay.

122: George Clanton - Bleed.

123: George Clanton - Bleed (The Great Pendulum Edit By Vortex Reaper).

124: Vantablack and Tristitia - Eternal Failings (Nobody Likes You, Ever).

125: HOME - Decay.

126: HOME - Signals.

127: HOME - Phantom.

128: Chumbawamba - Tubthumping.

129: Whitewoods - ¿What Did You Say?

130: Carlos Esmeralda Jalapeño - μajesbeedle.

131: Akira Yamaoka - Promise (Reprise).

132: Herja Sonus - Incomplete (Act I).

133: Hades Vortexium - The Journey To Rediscover The Root?

134: Phantom Vibrations - TNYJ(0) - TNYJ(19).

135: Infinity Frequencies - Destiny.

136: Infinity Frequencies - Breeze.

137: Infinity Frequencies - Fracture.

138:Infinity Frequencies - Unearthed Statue.

139: Infinity Frequencies - Promises.

140: Infinity Frequencies - The Mind As A Territory.

141: Infinity Frequencies - The Room With No Door.

142: Infinity Frequencies - Closer Than Ever.

143: Infinity Frequencies - A Storm Is Coming.

144: Infinity Frequencies - Collapse.

145: Infinity Frequencies - A Vanishing Figure.

146: Infinity Frequencies - Never Forget.

147: Infinity Frequencies - Remember.

148: Infinity Frequencies - Void.

149: Infinity Frequencies - Forever.

150: Infinity Frequencies - Following.

151: Infinity Frequencies - Safety.

152: Infinity Frequencies - Entrance.

153: Hades Vortexium - %.

154: Tristitia - It All Fades Away (First Part).

155: Tristitia - It All Fades Away (Final Part).

156: Herja Sonus - Who Can I Trust?

157: Datasmr - Estrangement.

158: Herja Sonus - Being Misunderstood Again.

159: Cruciatus - And You Threw It All Away.

160: Hades Vortexium - You Failed Me, A Long Time Ago.

161: Vortex Reaper - Gone.

162: Vortex Reaper - Gone (Strokeline Mix).

163: REM - A Surreal Coincidence.

164: Vortex Reaper - Being Wholly Understood?

165: Spectralon - The Plausibility Of Coming Across A "Soulmate".

166: Deep End - You Caused This.

167: Unobtainium - The Last Quarter (Until Doomsday).

168: Infinity Frequencies - Nothing But Yourself Here.

169: Infinity Frequencies - Paths Moving Forward.

170: Infinity Frequencies - Visage.

171: Tristitia - I Never Wanted To Watch The Bridge Burn.

172: Cruciatus - Now You Can't Look Back.

173: Herja Sonus - Anxiety 3(30)3.

174: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act XXXI).

175: Herja Sonus - Anxiety (Act XXXII).

176: Herja Sonus - Anxiety 33333333333(...)/Anxie-3.

177: TNYJ - The Light Is Here, Yet The Uncertainty Remains.

178: Vortex Reaper - Transitioning Into Another Strange Period.

179: Vortex Reaper and Herja Sonus - It's Ending Soon, But What Remains Of The Future?

180: REM - 2023 Is But Another Weird Dream.

181: Blood Stain Child - C.E.0079.

182: Memorable Mistakes - 15/12/23.

183: Herja Sonus - Darkness VIII.

184: Unobtainium - There Isn't Much Time Left.

185: Vantablack - Time's End (Ft. Herja Sonus) (Low Quality Version)

186: Vortex Reaper - 20 Years Soon.

187: TNYJ - Times Are Changing.

Main Track: 10:42:14/10:43:25.

Info: The ninth Life Mixtape.

Yet another surreal year of a surreal life. This year, a lot of positive progress has been made. I have started Cognitive Behavioural Therapy to remedy the constant self-criticism and berating, I am more outgoing and more approachable than I ever was before.

The first notably bizarre event of the year was the rediscovery of my SD Cards and recovery of their contents, which were lost in late November 2021. This all happened in late March 2023. 

The second surreal event came on July 21st and 22nd respectively. In which I left a school I had been attending for over 13 years (September 2009 - July 2023), prompting an album.

This year also had its negatives, in which the chaos from October 2022 still persisted until only recently. Another notable event of the year was a betrayal I suffered at the hands of a former close friend of mine, whom denounced the fact that I had endured abuse for most of my life at the hands of my father, calling me a "liar.". Whilst, simultaneously, I build a stronger and closer friendship with an entirely different person, which spawned its own uniquely titled album. 

Another thing I'd like to point out, on the topic of my former supposed "friend" calling me a "liar" is this: For years, I thought it was normal to be in an abusive home. Being berated, dehumanised and insulted to my face and behind my back by a supposed "father figure". It was normal, however, since the chaos from last year has well-beyond settled, I now can rationalise my feelings and realisations. Since I realised the fact that I was abused and traumatised, I began to feel a deep sense of resentment, anger and pain. As well as hatred and bitterness towards my father. These feelings have not gone away and will persist for a long while. I have a haunted past that affects me even today and it will take a while before I am strong enough to face it. That is, by seeing my father.

As such, this delightfully surreal year has got a unique name all to its own: "Achieving Salvation? - The Great Pendulum", since it has its fair share of positive and negative experiences. Since this year is a continuance of 2022, there's a reason the word "Salvation" appears here, as that's what the mission was and currently is, for this ongoing period of my life. The words "Great" and "Pendulum" also appear here, because of how quickly my mental state would switch from being in a positive frame of mind, to a negative and depressive state, which has persisted irregularly throughout this whole entire year.

Link: SY_1 - S-R_1 - Achieving Salvation? - The Great Pendulum (2023) : Free Download, Borrow, and Streaming : Internet Archive

-- TNYJ

[tnyj-4]

Composed on 6/4/24.

The title refers to the succeeding period of TNYJ-4 - The Spectralon Remedy (2022 - 2024): TNYJ-5 - Post-Remedy (2025 - 20XX).

-- TNYJ