im cold. shivering shivering cold. in my home, no sweater, no blankey. your eyes fill with tears because you are so sad for me. warm a poor girl up with some. ummm you know. like. scarian... um.. maybe...doing.... you know.. kissing...just a Idea. also go fuck
ending all my emails with this from now on i think
bonus:
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played the game ok boomer at my family party today, ended up explaining to a room of ~20 of my relatives what fanfiction is so they could understand the question, “in fanfiction, what does AU stand for?”. and then the card’s definition of “AU” was wrong so i also had to get into the concept of “canon”.
can u believe. in front of my whole family. a room full of people, aged 3 to 80. all staring at me intently as i explain the difference between an alternate universe and canon divergence. at one point my mom was like “daina i think we get it” and a cousin and two aunts were like “wait no we’re interested please continue” and i had to say to my own mother in front of god and my i am kenough sweatshirt “sorry but unlike you the rest of them DON’T have to listen to me talk about fanfiction on the regular”. my uncle is a retired judge. my one cousin worked for the federal government in a job that was so classified that for years he literally couldn’t legally tell us about ANYTHING he was working on. and today those men sat and patiently listened to me define “coffee shop AU”.
also, not one, not two, but THREE of the answers for the young folks, i knew solely because they were either plot points on stranger things or they were things i found out whilst reading stranger things fanfics. and then i was the only person in our age bracket (10 people, ranging from ages 9 to 42) that knew who anne rice was, and had to explain yet again that the reason i had this knowledge was because… fanfic.
it was surreal. also my aunt, aged 68, may or may not begin attempting to read fanfic now because, according to her, “there are so many stories where there are these small side characters and i’d just KILL to hear their backstory or like what was going through their minds during the main action!” i’m very happy for her. today was wild.
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edit: okay so the sourcing on this quote is ganked (the spreadsheet given that shows proof goes to a link about another videogameman who was shitty). whoops! thank you @/maidenheck for doing my due diligence. (i am gonna note here what i said in my reply tho: that burch uses she/her for his partner, who to my knowledge uses they/them)
so dndads fans how do we feel about this
link under cut, also look up why he was previously divorced lol
opinions in tags loooool
further edit to say: i left the fandom after the display of the minneapolis/st. paul live show. i fear for the minors in this fandom; the “vibe” is not dissimilar from many youtubers’ audiences i saw as a young teen. it’s just dick joke on top of sex joke on top of “anthony burch notice me” on top of minors being in situations they should not be; ie leaving a theater at 10PM in the middle of the city on a friday night. teens cannot handle themselves, drunk adults less so. that show should not have been all ages
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sam's uni timeline is really interesting not just for the inconsistencies but for the way those inconsistencies can be interpreted -- sam has been at university for four years. that's not a question. he's 22 years old, he's taken the lsat, he's applying to grad schools. but when dean references the 'almost two years' since he's seen sam, that can mean one of two things -- either dean's forgotten how long it's been since sam left, or somewhere around the beginning of sam's junior year, something happened that stopped them talking to each other.
both are fun to think about -- in the case of the former, to me it has less to do with dean's memory and more to do with the diminished importance of sam's college experience to the show itself. the show isn't interested in accurately tracking sam's university timeline, because that's not what the show is about. in fact, the more time the show spends on sam's uni, the more legitimacy they lend that period of time, the more time they spend on something that is in direct conflict with what the show WANTS to say. the show wants to emphasize how the inevitable choice (and debatably perhaps the correct choice) for sam to make is to abandon all hope of a normal life and to embrace hunting once again, and spending time carefully and consistently referencing sam's university experience undermines that by presenting it as an equally real, equally valid period of his life that he could plausibly return to.
but if the show muddies the waters -- if dean confuses the timeline, if john didn't really mean all that about staying gone and in fact welcomes sam back into the family in 1x16 shadow -- then the fever dream of sam's time at stanford diminishes in realness and in plausibility. it's more of a vaguely remembered farce than a real place he can return to; whereas the Family, and Hunting, and Hunting With the Family -- those are real, and they are current, and they are carefully and meticulously portrayed as the only real place sam has ever been or will ever be.
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So I just started playing In Stars and Time because I got curious about the sad little blorbo you occasionally post about and afshdjdkrn
I just. Wanna hug them. So badly 😭
Siffrin isat my everything my cinnamon fucking apple WKDNWKDNEKEKSK HE IS SOOOOO SQUISHABLE...... THEY NEED A HUG SO BAD I LOVE THEM SO MUCH
Incredibly pleased im helping spread the isat propaganda like the dev rlly just Made a whump fic in video game format huh....... for tumblr girlies by a tumblr girlie.... my gods we respect the grind as if i could EVER be normal abt that
I'll be so real ive already written little tidbits for a longer au oneshot i want to write in between chapters of hunger au, and the exercise in 2nd person pov is SO MUCH FUN im enjoying myself immensely :] here, a snippet for both fun and profit (and more fun):
"Siffrin...." Odile says, and it strikes a sour chord, a ripple of dissonance that screws rivets around your chest and tightens. She shouldn't have to say your name like that, with that kind of weight— as if all the Craft in the world isn't enough to carry it. Pure reflex ducks your chin into the collar of your cloak; you avert your gaze back to the rubble-littered floor of the tunnel, tracing dark crags in the stone where sputtering torchlight fails to reach.
There you go again, stardust. Loop's voice is an ephemeral echo in your ears, a byproduct of months, years worth of past loops gone by. It isn't real. Gone and made yourself another person's problem.
It isn't real.
"— need you to start taking this more seriously." Odile bites out each word with the same deportment of a dog tearing off chunks of meat, clipped and cutting. Her brows knit together, mouth pulling down in a sharp curve; the lines around her eyes are tight, carved from the knife's edge of her own disappointment.
Her disappointment in you.
You almost miss the next sentence as well. "I have no way of helping you if you don't speak to me," she says. "And when you minimize these things you went through— you realize that's going back on your word, yes? Gems alive, Siffrin. We want to help."
You speak before your mind has caught up with your mouth, hundreds of loops sanding down the words into something practiced, rote. "But there's nothing to help me w—"
"Stop lying to me." Odile snaps, and your jaw shuts so fast you miss biting your tongue by a mere hair's-breadth. Your lungs threaten to buckle— inhale. Exhale. Come on, stardust, Loop's imaginary voice sneers, can't you do something as simple as breathe? Or are you just that blinding useless?
... Shut up.
Odile's eyes slip shut. She raises a hand to meet them, kneading at the soft skin between her brows. "I'm... sorry, Siffrin," she says, halting, stilted. "I shouldn't— that wasn't productive. I apologize."
Tentatively, you say: "You don't have to."
"Yes, I do." Odile straightens once again, tucking a strand of sweat-slicked hair back behind her ear with a grimace. "It's not... conversations like these are... hard. Yelling is pointless for both of us. I'm sorry."
"But you didn't—"
"Siffrin," she says, and this time the syllables of your name twist, a rise and fall that cracks wryly in the middle. One sharp eyebrow arches up into the canopy of her hairline. "You're supposed to say you accept the apology."
You stare. She stares right back.
Oh. She's serious.
"I..." you look down. "Um. Accept?"
"Excellent," Odile says brusquely, and bends to peer at an invisible speck of dirt clinging to her forearm. She brushes at it with absent, studious flicks, the epitome of single-minded focus. "Then now we can move on with our lives."
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I definitely will not get back into kpop ever but occasionally I'll go through a youtube binge of my old faves. I only ever liked female artists but the thing was you'd get attached to a girl group or a female vocalist and like a year later it would be like "no she's too old now. time to abandon her and introduce a new group of 15 year olds" . they continually wasted so much incredible talent by viewing the artists as well as talent itself as a replaceable commodity imo (i'm not saying this doesnt happen in western pop too but perhaps not so brazenly)
anyway a lot of it is bad lol but these are some of the things that I've revisited that still actually go so hard:
4minute crazy- excuse me?? this was such a slay. also hate. the tonal plot twist in this track: unparalleled. hyuna was iconic but also jiyoon !!! i agree w the comments of this yt video this would absolutely be a massive hit if it was released today
ladies code. this is just legitimately good pop music. a very sad story behind them as well and they were very undervalued as I recall. but this. galaxy was spectacular. both of the last two EPs tbh. that vocalist's voice does things to me
f(x) 4walls. should have been an international dance hit tbh
wonder girls obviously. even as far back as irony which is so charming in a retro way but I love that they eventually were playing their own instruments/having more of a hand in their own music. specifically i want to point out that park ye-eun from wonder girls was legitimately SUCH a talented musician imo (as a singer and a composer) and so much of her solo stuff as ha:tfelt was incredible. I was very glad to hear that she (and the others i think) left their agency bc they were so mistreated rip
yezi cider.... god she was so talented and i was so in love with her. my underrated fave... at one point i watched a whole reality show about korean female rappers for her lol (which was. a lot. but she should have won)
suzy yes no maybe again this was just really good pop.
dalshabet someone like u this is the corniest thing i'll put on this list but mostly it's just a super interesting case to me. iirc it was fairly popular with international audiences but kind of a flop in korea. which is fascinating to think about in terms of the cultural differences in what music appeals to us. like as a cheesy pop song it is just so catchy to me lol and I can't understand how it could not be but there u go
in capable/caring hands so many of these women could have done INCREDIBLE things imo. like it's undeniable that there is very real talent in kpop, I think the aggressively commercial aspect just limits the artists criminally and it's a shame. which ig is true to some extent about any pop music.
anyway i've put two of my kpop playlists that were popular on 8tracks on spotify: here and here
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