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Leon Draisaitl, nash @ edm 11.14.2024
L: ‘No. [Connor] probably could’ve had three guys on him and I still would’ve tried to pass it. Um, yeah, I’m just really proud of him. Very happy for him. He’s such a great player.’
‘What would you say about just the importance of being involved in this goal considering everything you’ve been involved in in his career?’
L: ‘It doesn’t matter. You get just as excited for anyone that’s involved, you’re just excited for him. It’s his accomplishment, not mine or anyone else’s, that’s him. I think we’re all just really happy and proud of him.
‘And just one last one; what would you say to people about the friendship you guys have built during your time in Edmonton?’
L: ‘Yeah, I mean, it’s been a long time. We grew up together. We were little boys, seemingly, and we grew up together with lots of ups and downs. Built a great relationship—friendship, off the ice and [that] obviously translates on the ice. Very lucky and fortunate to call him my good friend.’
#they want me DEAD#the voice cracks???#hello??#sounding so close to tears???#I CANT DO THIS#leon draisaitl#connor mcdavid#mcdrai#edmonton oilers#oilers#nhl#oilers hockey#hockey#oilers lb
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the PJO fandom working their butts off to find two italian babies in the background only to realize the Easter egg is Nico calling for Bianca around the 12:3 mark.
#literally just checked it out#heard Nico calling Bianca twice he sounds so small and it makes me wanna tear up#veggie tells#pjo#pjo series#pjo fandom#pjo spoilers#pjo tv show#percy jackson series#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson#nico di angelo#besure to listen CLOSELY i had to play it mutiple times until his voice broke through the crowd jumble
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Been a minute since I've been able to draw or even post anything. And that's cuz I've been busy af with a job that's been slowly killing me for the last 8 months. But it's all good; I'm actually leaving that shithole at the end of the week. Yay! Maybe that means I can open up commissions again since I'll actually have time for them? Who's to say...
Anyway! Had a rough weekend at Fan Expo Chicago last week, and I've kinda had this in mind to draw ever since my disappointing interaction with Neil Newbon. He was very nice, but it felt pretty clear that he only really cared about Astarion. And, like, to a degree I get it? Astarion seems like a cool character that means a lot to a lot of people, but to act like no one cares anymore about Resident Evil Village cuz it's an "older game" (his words, not mine), kinda killed my mood for the weekend. Not to mention coming back with COVID. That was also a bummer...
*I* still love Heisenberg, at least. And if I'm the only one, then so be it. ❤️🩹
#scammy art#scammy talks too much#shut up scammy chan#con venting#resident evil village#resident evil 8#karl heisenberg#karl heisenburg fanart#self indulgent#neil newbon#mostly just needed to get out the sad feels#I could go on about this weekend#worst con I've ever attended#spent the majority of the weekend in tears#and not of joy#also I don't dislike Neil or think less of him#this is just me dealing with my own disappointment#Neil was otherwise very nice and stuck around well after the con hall closed to make sure he got through everyone#I just think it's sad that he only really cared to engage with this one character#he didn't even have any prints of other characters outside of a general RE print of all the characters he'd done#and honestly I'm also just...kinda sad he didn't like the little Heisenberg plush I'd made...#I know how stupid that sounds but I worked hard on that and it meant a lot to me#and people in line were all excited by it#so to hear Neil be all not interested was just...kind've a bummer...#so yeah...just...in my feelings a lot lately and needed to get it out...#also drew Heisenberg in a way I don't hate for once and I wanted to share that much at least
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☆ "𝓖𝓾𝓲𝓭𝓮 𝓶𝓮, 𝓞 𝓡𝓪𝓭𝓲𝓪𝓷𝓬𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓭𝓲𝓼𝓹𝓮𝓵 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓼,
𝓖𝓾𝓲𝓭𝓮 𝓶𝓮, 𝓞 𝓛𝓪𝓶𝓮𝓶𝓽𝓼, 𝓽𝓸 𝓼𝓮𝓮𝓴 𝓭𝓲𝓼𝓽𝓪𝓷𝓽 𝓮𝓬𝓱𝓸𝓼" ☆
#i just love how he delivers this specific line in this poem so much- like i almost cry every time#he sounds so close to tears himself it guts me#and i love how soft he looks during this moment when theyre counting stars together and shes calling him and monster lol#and he sounds concerned but he still looks at her with so much love and adoration even though she kind of called him awful on accident#idk i just have a lot of Xavier feelings today despite all the Raf and Zayne things going on in my brain#and I wanted to vomit them somewhere so here we are#love and deepspace#lnds#lads#l&ds#love & deepspace#Xavier#xavier love and deepspace#xavvy baby#kay's edits
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Your tags on the snw post... You're right and you should say it!!!
With all the shit I've seen about it online was really surprised how much I actually liked snw, it's really a solid show. Yeah the chapel/spock romance is questionable but they did so many things right and really captured the spirit of the TOS (it being a good mix of serious and whimsical)
yes!!! so much whimsy!!!
i actually feel guilty about not voicing my compliments as loudly as my complaints. i'd hate to be the reason someone doesn't at least give it a chance. i think i'll make a post about some of the parallels to tos that i thought were particularly clever/well done before season three comes out :) also, the new characters are great!
#this is coming from someone who holds tos VERY close to my heart#so even if you're the same way#please try and give snw a chance!#spock isn't handled perfectly but even he has some great moments#and t'pring as a character is super compelling#the sound design alone has made me tear up on several occasions#the beep boops and swishes and red alerts are all EXACTLY like tos#and paul wesley!!! i love him! his kirk is so good!#now there are also things i won't excuse#like heterofying spock to an exhausting degree#and the eugenics stuff..?#i'm hoping i understand it better on my rewatch#because wtf#if it were explicitly offensive in that regard i would not be recommending it at all obv#it's just... weird#snw#strange new worlds#asks
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on one hand I totally understand tropes are popular but on the other hand I think Amos is a lot more compelling as a middle aged woman trying to figure out her life after a loveless relationship than a mother figure ya know
#it's like. oh has anyone read price of salt? It's like carol. she's in a mess trying to figure things out#and dragging anyone close to her into that mess#bc she spent so long in an environment where she is both not getting enough attention from one who she wants#and getting attention from others who are 'below' her. not that she conciously sees people as below her but i think society#would tell Amos that she has a higher role on the hierarchy as Deca's lover than anyone else in mondstadt#...now i'm imagining an old mond rebellion where the original goal was something like 'tear down the walls reform deca' and then Amos joine#went 'no I'm gonna kill him' and the rebellion went '....okay that doesn't sound like a terrible idea he IS the one keeping the walls up'#nb's goal after all was to break down the walls and see the sky right not explicitly to kill a god#.......puts this idea in my pocket to maybe play with#saying that my initial idea of her was also viss er one / eva anim orphs based but sim idea. middle aged woman#upper class middle aged divorced woman amos who has her hands full dealing with the fallout of her own life and making it everyone's proble#i just really like Problematic Woman#saying that carol did kinda really mother therese but also their relationship was uhhhh unequal. Just a Bit#also viss e r one and eva are also both defined by motherhood in a way#except eva is 'long left the role behind bc the world thinks she's dead and her body isn't even hers anymore'#and vis ser one is 'she should NOT be a mother she is a whole empire's tactician for a reason'#anyway don't mind me waking up and starts rambling about Opinions bc my dream supplied me Stress of Snakes#<- thinks snakes are cool but has a healthy respect of them irl idk Where that dream came from#genshin talk
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Ohhh heheheeeeeHEHEEHHEEEEE giggles and rubs my hands together evilly. so we’ve had cult leader!geto and you who’s mad at him… and we’ve also had you who’s slowly accepting loving him…. But what about cult leader!geto and reader that’s just. Moved on. Accepted it when he left because of the understanding that it’s just the way life goes. Doesn’t mean to say that you didn’t miss him, that you still don’t, it just means that you understand that there’s no point being angry about things you can’t change, so you let it go. Obviously, it’s sugu. There’s no replacing him. But you don’t try to replace him, you just carry on with life. You find other people who are special to you and you don’t try to fill the hole he left in your heart, you accept it, heal it, and work around it. He sees you again years later and he excepts you to be angry at him — wishes that you’d be angry at him — but you’re not, you just smile at him. There’s no anger in your eyes, no bared teeth or quips of bitterness, just a soft kind of understanding that you can forgive him and carry on with your life without allowing him back in. IM ACTUALLY GOING INSANE PLEASE…. It’s not quite you forgiving him and loving him, moreso just understanding and accepting that he was someone very special, but just not accepting him into your life again. He can’t exactly tame you because you’re not angry. There’s no storm to wait out, there’s no rage for him to soothe. Nonchalance and acceptance I think is the best way to combat him methinks… :333 OMGGG think of that beabadoobee song “the way things go” ohhhhh..
“Passed your house when I was on the train, in my mind you’ll always stay the same.” “And there’s so much left to say, I guess I’m just the bigger guy.” “A distant memory I used to know, oh I guess that’s just the way things go.” SCREAMS!!!! AUGGHHH IM SORRY THIS IS WAY TOO LONG BUT. AUGHH I could scream ab sugu forever…. <333 — stsg anon !!
STSG ANON i need you to know that this broke me. gutted me. i feel numb inside THIS IS SUCH A TASTY SCENARIO I’M SCREAMING
okay so. just putting this out there; i think this would break him. lmao. this is the cruelest thing you could do to him because it’ll hurt him like nothing else. and he deserves it!! this is the best possible scenario for you, but the worst for him. and that’s just….. soooo bittersweet.
He sees you again years later and he excepts you to be angry at him — wishes that you’d be angry at him — but you’re not, you just smile at him. There’s no anger in your eyes, no bared teeth or quips of bitterness, just a soft kind of understanding that you can forgive him and carry on with your life without allowing him back in.
goshhhh stsg anon…………. the way you wrote this…………. :(((( i’m in awe of you always. this made me so so emotional i’m just ……… hhhhhhh…… my heart is crumbling a tiny bit but i’m gonna try to be coherent…… T_T
i think geto would be happy for you. i think that despite his own feelings, he’d ultimately make the painful choice to respect your wishes and stay out of your life. it hurts him but there’s also this sense of inevitability — this is the natural consequence of his actions. he was a fool for expecting anything else, hoping for anything else. but a part of him always wished that you could be together again; and i think that wish hurts him more than anything.
geto really is just a lonely guy at the end of the day, and the thing about his ideal world is that it doesn’t even just boil down to a world without non-sorcerers — to geto, it boils down to a world where i don’t have to see my loved ones suffer. that’s what he wants more than anything!! and i think that even though he knows it’s unrealistic, even impossible, a part of him was always hoping that you’d wait for him to create that world for you. that you could one day go back to the way things were.
so meeting you again, and being forced to accept that it just won’t happen… that he’s just a person of your past and nothing else…. yeahhhh. it breaks him a little. then again, he always wished for your forgiveness; at least he has that. at least he knows you don’t hate him. there’s a kind of comfort in that, even though he probably would’ve preferred feelings of hatred to no feelings at all. :(
no but this is genuinely heartbreaking from geto’s pov and it’s even worse because you’re just doing what’s best for you!!! there’s no anger, no hard feelings, and it irks him because there’s nothing he can do!! you’re so right stsg anon!!! there’s no storm to wait out, there’s no rage for him to soothe….. there’s nothing he can do to change your mind. it just is what it is.
i also think this forces him into unveiling himself. this is just my own take but my interpretation of cult leader!geto is that he’s pretending to be something he’s not like . 80% of the time…. i think he copes by creating all these new personas, silly and overbearing and cruel, when deep down he’s still just sad and a little bit lost. a little lonely. it’s very telling that he felt the need to create a new family, because that’s just the kind of guy he is — he needs to have people around him to protect and cherish. very similar to gojo (stsg soulmatism strikes again)…. when he meets gojo in jjk 0 he feigns nonchalance, but later, when he’s watching the sunset and thinking about their history, he just looks sad. resigned. there’s a softness he’s trying to hide, but it never quite leaves him.
and i think that with you being so open, so sincere, he really wouldn’t have any choice but to meet that with a sincerity of his own. i can see him giving you one last sad smile, and honestly telling you that he’s happy for you. that he wishes you nothing but the best. and he truly means it. he wants you to be happy more than anything; it’s fine if he can’t be there to see it.
it’s a shame, but he’ll learn to live with it — for you.
so anyway this made me cry AND THEN YOU TOP IT OFF WITH BEABADOBEE????????? ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME????????? THAT SONGGGGG STOP STOP PLEASE I CANT TAKE IT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 it’s so geto i’m abt to throw up blood
can’t remember how to say your name // let alone count all the freckles on your face // a distant memory i used to know // oh, i guess that's just the way things go // oh, i guess that's just the way things go
can’t remember when you said you called // miles away, and it was still my fault // the love you said you had, it sometime showed // oh, i guess that's just the way things go // oh, i guess that's just the way things go
passed your house when i was on a train // in my mind, you'll always stay the same // i’m happy now, i ought to let you know // but i guess that's just the way things go // oh, i guess that's just the way things go // and i don’t mind that that's the way things go.
:(((((( stsg anon i’m not even joking this made me tear up …… he’s just so lonely. you’ll always be you, and he’ll always be suguru. i don’t think he could ever stop being fond of you, even if you were to forget him one day. in my mind, you’ll always stay the same………….. sniffle. he’ll always, always remember you.
#if u listen closely u will hear the sound of me sobbing . pls ignore this#STSG ANON WHEN I CATCH UUUUUUUUUU#ALSO pls plspls never worry about ur asks being too long THEYRE NEVER TOO LONG!! i love reading them sm!!!!!#feel free to drop a whole fic in here ill eat it up happily#TYSM FOR UR THOUGHTS <333333 every time i get an ask from u it’s like opening my fridge and finding a fresh treat :33 ily!!!#no but pairing this w a beabadoobee song is genuinely so evil i cried real tears he’s sooo beabadobee coded … so mitski coded …..#wahhhhhh i miss him :((((((( i wanna give him a big hug.#ask tag ✩#stsg anon !! ✩
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Thinking about baby patty 20 dead 40 wounded
#stranger things#patty newby#(through tears) noo ahah dont think about how patty had no friends in hawkins growing up#and how the closest thing to a friend wouldve been bob vs rhe way bob’s annoyed w her initially re: his radio stuff/the whole fucked up#newby damily dynamic as a whole/the emotional distance that Does exist between bob and patty as a result of mr newbys favouritism#towards bob. do NOT think about how patty is the same age as s4 el vs how el’s had friends since s1#like imagine if el didnt meet max or the party until season 4…. and the fact that patty’s first opening scene/one of the very first things#we’re told about her (and henry) is that she’s lonely… stop stop im already dead#:((((((((#patty i would been your friend its ok#(through tears): when do you guys think baby patty stopped trying to play with bob/when do you guys think that the whole family dynamic#really started to squash any like. proper close bonding yk like they dont hate eachother in tfs by any means but its like#there’s definitely a Distance there in a lot of ways & definitely resent etc you can feel under the surface (although in the end that def#improves) but i just. dont look at me im thinking about baby patty trying to ppay with bob but then going off to sit alone#(through tears and comically loud sobbing sounds) do you guys think that bob blamed patty for his mom leaving the same way mr newby blamed#her for his wife leaving? do you guys think that’s why bob didnt protect/defend her until the end of the play? and even then he didnt DO it#so much as say that he SHOULD have…..#(through even more tears) do NOT think about how quickly patty accepted mr newbys apology and even insisted initially that he has nothing to#apologize for despite the way hes treated her vs the fact that patty so clearly just wants to be loved#do not think about patty’s dad being the principal vs her still getting bullied all the time and then getting in trouble for defending#herself/mocking walter… mr newby when i fucking catch you!!!!!!!#pattyposting
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I’m not gonna lie, I just don’t see what people are hating about Artrem’s characterization in the second anniversary. I thought it was pretty true to form.
My only real beef is that it felt shorter and off theme compared to the other 3 cards which is a huge shame and feels gross considering it’s such a momentous canon card.
BUT
Artem in the 2nd anniversary doesn’t feel super out of character.
He’s putting off engagement because he feels paralyzed by the act of telling Rosa what he feels/wants because he doesn’t know how to convey his feelings or propose in a way that matches his own expectations.
He’s being distant and aloof as a result, and Rosa is doing what she does best and hyper analyzing his behavior with wrong conclusions (that reflect more on outward situations than internal, since Artem still isn’t great at being open up about that stuff unlike Vyn who knows how to communicate well but withholds as a concerted choice, for example).
All of his background cards see him bobbing and weaving not just how Neil and his parents have affected him in front of Rosa, but also when Rosa or anyone else hurts his feelings/comes to a wrong conclusion about him/his intentions, with fleeting exceptions.
Master of deflecting further questions or the topic at hand with (mostly work) segues.
He’s still being cheered on and brought to reality by his work big sis Celestine, who is so invested in Artem and Rosa that she views it as a cherry on top to see them engaged after her wedding. Which is so lovely. And very in character for her—she loves to see the fruits of her labor happen front and center and now she can hold this memory close not just in regards to her wedding but in regards to Artem and Rosa, who she cherishes. Especially Artem! (Also the fact that Mr. Rodriguez is so on board….busy body power couple)
This in particular is where I feel people are just beefing to beef. Celestine has ALWAYS meddled. And this feels very in character for her to guide Artem where he needs to go in a way she likes. She does it in almost every card she’s in!
And he is still struggling with his abandonment issues from Neil being gone and his parents not being around as much. He feels SO hard for Rosa and in a moment of high emotion and still a bit tipsy off alcohol he makes possessive comments which is also not out of character.
To me, it’s Artem feeling comfortable and going to the next step physically (and emotionally) by REALLY admitting that he’s insecure and his fears are manifesting as possessiveness ie YEARNING for Rosa and for more with her. He feels secure with Rosa. And he fears losing her just like he’s lost others. And he wants it to feel real. He doesn’t want to lose her to a case (Neil) or a career (his mother and father) or anything else!
He wants to feel like it isn’t a dream. He wants it to be solid, fully grounded in reality, in a way a lot of his personal relationships never get to be. No one could know about NXX and the full extent of his relationship with Neil (or the other members). He actively hid who his mother is and by extension who he is to her. Despite his relationships with Celestine and Rosa, he feels leagues away from his co-workers at large.
He wants people to KNOW that he has a truly personal relationship. He doesn’t want to for others or himself to see a large distance between himself and Rosa—like they’re strangers attached by business (like others in his life have been). Rosa is his partner, in all senses of the word.
Not just that, but it’s been a full year since Artem and Rosa started dating. In what world is it out of character for them to be familiar with intimacy. I kept seeing a lot of people saying Artem was too sexual and all he did was hold her and kiss her which he’s done……a lot, probably. They’ve been dating a year by now! The ending implies what we see is something they’ve done before but Artem would like to go farther. And Rosa is all for that but has never heard him say that before now! Because the repressed guy has been giving her repression.
Is the expectation truly that Artem’s first time making out and feeling up Rosa is this card? For real?
I have no idea what future cards will bring and I’m not interested in knowing until I can pull them in Global, but personally it feels like frustration toward future events is bleeding onto this card. Because what was presented does not feel disconnected from Artem’s side story, cards, or characterization as a whole.
There was just less time allowed to expand on what was presented which I agree is not ideal or even acceptable, especially for the 2nd anniversary. It should have been on par with the 1st in that regard, full stop.
But acting like this card pulled away from his established characterization in other cards in a huge way feels disingenuous. It did not! It was just rushed which I HATE SO MUCH. Like Rosa and Artem felt like they had the least time actually interacting within these 2nd anni cards!
And among these 2nd anni cards a big theme was family. Artem’s parents are certainly not dead so their exclusion from this proposal warranted at least some form of explanation. ESPECIALLY since his mother is someone Rosa knows and thinks fondly of and it certainly would have been interesting to see Celestine and Artem’s mother interact together.
His card lacked time to explore what he was feeling and cohesion to the 2nd anni theme, for sure. Which is really sad considering he is one of my favorite NXX guys. Like there are criticisms for sure but mine are more toward the structure of the card
#tears of themis#Artem shows a modicum of assurance in intimacy and suddenly it’s Too Out of Character#he’s a square not totally incompetent#I think it’s so funny Artem keeps getting knocked for being possessive when he is like far from alone in that behavior#EVEN ROSA HER SELF WAS PULLING IT IN THE 2ND ANNI#very directly with Vyn for example#like part of a repressed character is that when emotions do come out they’re often immature#this happens even in his highly praised cards like The Weeds/Gufeng#in fact the ending was just a more intense version of the The Weed’s main scene but since Rosa and Artem are actually in a relationship#it wasn’t just half hearted mumbling it was Artem full on SAYING his immature desires#also the proposing thing….people literally had me thinking he did it without permission like#I even re read some of my favorite cards to see if I was going crazy but NO#he mumbles or says never mind when he gets close to being open A LOT#and now that he’s being open but it sounds immature is Bad like???? repression in my repressed workaholic? it’s more likely than you think!
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Maybe they forgot to add me in Cars 2 but at least they didn't remove any of the songs and tried to play it off like I wasn't the reason for them
#in this essay i will-#im sorry just go look at all the lyrics of the songs yes I'm including the ones not in English#credit songs absoLUTELY counted and included as well#sorry Mon Couer Fait Vroum got in my shuffle queue and I'm listening to it now#it sounds light and happy but if you would like to shed tears i encourage looking up the translated version👍#i have so much to say about the songs in especially Cars 2 yall. yall got no idea#self ship#selfship#selfshipping#self shipping#hey guys did you know that when C.ars 2 was originally 2+ hours long when they cut it down they cut all the parts of me out aucusix7uajdcuw8#any💘#<-using that tag cause it is close enough
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pink pony club makes me emotional because life really is about finding your own pink pony club and having the courage to dance on the stage even if it causes a scene
#idk man anything related to finding where you belong hits a bit close to me#but like. specific lyrics make me tear up#like 'where boys and girls can all be queens every single day' uff sounds so hopefully#and also the bridge 'i still love you in Tennessee youre always on my mind'#i also really enjoy that she ends the song with 'im gonna keep on dancin' while it fades out#basically im gonna keep being me in the place i belong 🩷🥺#I've been listening to chappells music and her lyrics are 🩷🩷🩷 the production being amazing helps too but the lyrics take it to#the next level#like are you kidding? naked in Manhattan. red wine supernova is so fin. picture me. THE SUBWAY??#CHAPPELL RELEASE THE SUBWAY AND MY LIFE IS YOURS
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Tell me why I am about to cry happy tears over a goddamn tiny little Lego staff with blue on the end like. what.
#For context I am attempting to get both the Ice Emperor minifigure + his scepter#And until about two seconds ago I thought I’d have to pay about $200 just to get it (which I was not about to do)#Because I literally couldn’t find it anywhere outside of the big set#I was so sad like he needs his scepter#I NEED him to have HIS SCEPTER#BUT THEN I FOUND IT INDIVIDUALLY IM SO SO HAPPY#ITS ONLY LIKE THREE DOLLARS YES#I realize that this sounds actually insane BUT THIS IS SO INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT TO ME#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#This is still an incredibly unusual reaction I do not think I have ever come this close to crying tears of joy#You know what it’s funny
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man i am so sick of these loud ass coyotes coming into my yard and making a ton of noise and getting my dog barking at 4am
#they sounded so close these time too#i actually had to put a flashlight out the window and check for eyes to make sure they weren't somewhere tearing into my birds#go away you annoying pests#m
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HEY, SO I'M LIKE REALLY SAD
Keep in mind that everything I'm going to be talking about is from a lore-perspective- now that Purgatory 2 is over, I just want to gather my thoughts about it; obviously though, Purgatory 2 was such an amazing project filled with so much love and dedication and I kinda wished it lasted a few more days, just so everyone had more time to hang out on the server )))):
This is just me saying that I miss everyone hanging out and I feel dead and empty and I MISS MY MAPACHINHOS MANNNN WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DOOOOOO- but anyways-
So, q!Aldo won Purgatory 2, but from my understanding, he wasn't even granted his freedom off Egg Island. The last thing we see of him is his body floating in a pool of lava as ElQuackity says that he will be a part of Purgatory 3; and this makes me think that he will be subjected to the same fate that Cellbit and Baghera did: a permanent worker/resident/hunter on the island; another pawn for the Watcher to play with and manipulate. This is incredibly tragic because don't know what happened to everyone else that wasn't a part of the main server; they might have been brought back to their homes- but I still find that sad because that means q!Aldo's prize for winning was exchanged for his freedom, or we can assume that everyone who was eliminated was executed which hurts to think about, actually.
The entire nature of Purgatory is tragic, and it's meant to hurt, but I don' t think I realized that until Purgatory 2 because after the first, even though the ending was tragic, I knew most people would survive and return, and I even held faith that the Eggs would come back- and they did!! But, this time, there is no "coming back" for the other competitors; they weren't tied down to Quesadilla Island like some participants were. I felt the same sadness I did when I watched Squid Game a few years ago, except it's heightened because they weren't given a chance to escape. There is no going home. There is no freedom. There is no chance of escape for them. Which kinda makes sense on one level, if you don't want the world to find out there is an island that organizes death competitions and could bomb them for their war crimes-
ANYWAYS I'M RAMBLING NOW---
But yeah- there is a deep sadness whenever I think about that finale of q!Bad looking back at q!Guaxi, q!Brunim, and q!Himaru, his heart breaking because they were his five day familia and now he's leaving them behind, with only q!Molly and q!Rodezel by his side now; or q!Aldo and q!Wuant fighting each other because refusing to fight meant that they would both lose, and they wanted to honor their fallen crows by winning, "I didn't win, the crows did"; or q!Shelby's final moments alone in her fallen Esquelita team's base, as Coco comforts her; or the family of geese that has formed the past five days and thier final hours spent enjoying each other's company as they await their inevitable doom- submitting to insanity, but at least they're together one last time!!
This is how they died: sudden, bloody, tragic, but still so full of love because at least, before their fates were sealed, many of them had the chance to experience being part of a family, one last time before their fates were sealed. And I need everyone to understand how insane this makes me feel. They didn't have to get geared up or prepare much for the last event, but they were allowed a few more hours to hang out with each other. A few more hours to talk and enjoy each other's company. A few hours and the Mapachinhos have rebuilt a new base that will most likely remain undiscovered, with a little raccoon awaiting a return that may never arrive.
How many stories were left untold? How many hopes and dreams of freedom- of escaping with this family they made- were destroyed as the universe's cruelty were exacted unjustly upon them? And still, the love was there. Even though it only lasted for five days, even in their dying moments, they still loved each other.
The love was there; it always has been, and it always will be; no matter how tragic the outcome may be.
I'm going to miss Purgatory 2, and I hope everyone who watched it had a great time with their respective teams- and boy, I sure do hope everyone is doing well right now!! Because I'm doing fine and I'm totally not attached to the Purgatory 2 members now!!!
I'M SO SAAAAAADDDDDDD
#qsmp#qpurgatory squirrels#qpurgatory goose#qpurgatory crows#qsmp purgatory#qpurgatory raccoons#qpurgatory 2#that last event was PURE CINEMA IT WAS CINEMAAAAA#If you listened closely my heart shattered when bad molly and rode were the only one's to make it to the next level#i had tears when bad was fighting to get to the elevator#I FUCKING CRIED WHEN WUANT AND ALDO SOUNDED LIKE THEY WERE ON THE VERGE OF TEARS AS THEY FOUGHT EACH OTHER#this whole post was supposed to be about the tragic nature of purgatory itself#it just turned into me rambling about how sad I was now that it's over#also it is 2 in the morning for me rn and i am so sleep deprived that I definitely think the post purgatory depression is from that too#im not going to tag every character becuase#i wanna sleep pleaaaseeeee#also i think using the main tag is fine for this post but i can edit it if it's a problem#anyways it's Amiga... and Head in Hands and----
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finsihed watching lolla and I just don’t even have any words. They did so fucking amazing every single stage they’re literally such amazing performers it’s insane. I’m so fucking proud of them 😭. They’ve worked so hard😭 their growth is insane they just get bigger and bigger. I’m so glad I’m a moa. IM IN THIS TXT SHIT FOR LIFE
#THE ARRANGEMENTS FOR EVERY SONG WAS SO FUCKING. GOOD LIKE I LOVED HOW THEY ARRANGED THE SONGS SO MUCH#CYSM GAVE ME CHILLS#ALL THE STAGES GAVE ME CHILLS#I LOVE THEIR BAND SM THEY WERE SO GOOD AND WHEN THEY HAD THEIR LITTLE SOLOS OMGG THEY WERE SO GOOD#me and the bassist 😎🤝#I LOVE THE ARRANGEMENT OF DO IT LIKE THAT IT WAS SO GOOD AND THEM ALL SINGING AND THE FULL CHOREOO AHH SO GOOD#when they played anti romantic I was literally crying tears especially blue spring like I was sobbing#WHEN THEY PLAYED WISHLIST I WAS LITERALLY SOBBING STREAMS OF TEARS#it really was 100k people at a txt concert#they made history !#the crowd was so massive omg it actually made me feel nauseous with how many people were there ngl#imagine being at the back of that 😭😭 how did people even get so close#I can’t believe people got to experience that in person I’d do anything for it I’m so fucking depressed#I love tubatu so fucking much they did so good they’re literally amazing they’re literally born to the performers#live bands with txt work so fucking well I’ve never seen a kpop group where live bands just SOUNDS SO FUCKING AMAZING AND GO SO WELL#THEYRE LITERALLY MADE TO BE ROCKSTARS#they should have live bands at their concerts 😩😩
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i have srsly had irl queer people make fun of me for being queer + liking sports and tell me that is like, not gay or something. like ok just say youre chronically online. womens soccer is the queerest thing i have ever been a part of hands down. also youre an awful person
#tobin talks#ITS ABSURD. HOW CAN YOU BE THAT MEAN#this was when i was 15 so maybe thats why. but like..... its so awful. like 15 yo's always gonna act like that#but come on. lots of us online are older than that. we could be better and NOT teach this behavior to 15 yo's#because you know they learned this shit online. the specific person who did this to me was most active on tumblr.#not even tiktok or twitter this was a tumblr gay. begging you guys to change the culture 😭😭#this goes for more than just sports obvs its about general pushing stereotypes#which is how you get queer people sacrificing parts of their identity in order to be accepted into the community#as opposed to sacrificing the queer parts of their identity to be accepted into queerphobic communities?#like tell me how thats morally sound. accept ppl as they are and not just for things theyre systemically discriminated for??#be a nice fucking human being??#the queer community can tear each other apart lately i wish we would go back to the pure love of it all#bc like for me it is not worth it to be close with most queer people anymore. my friends are mostly all cishet#because guess what even though they dont understand my queer identity at least theyre not assholes about my entire personality otherwise#its so awful Like. can we all agree to not be cliquey#you dont have to be a paletable aesthetic gay. you dont have to be chonrically online and never go outside. you dont have to not drive#you dont have to be bad at math. what other fucking stereotypes are there man#its so fucking stupid!!!!!!!!!!!!! like 'let people enjoy things' goes for all things not just online stuff like this is a two way street#yes non online/gay/neurodivergent people should be kinder about 'cringe' interests. but hey that doesnt mean we get to be dicks to people#with more common interests or like... idk man im talking in circles here. but god when did the lgbtq+ community turn into a clique#do this do that if you dont we'll ignore that part of you or actively make fun of you for it.#STOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1#non rebloggable im just ranting here this is not one to rb. but like. ITS SO AWFUL AND MEAN. STOP
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