#soul is relapsing

[souloinandoutofpocket]

Chappell Roan

[spidersins]

𝙃𝙀𝘼𝘿𝘾𝘼𝙉𝙊𝙉

angel is incredibly reserved and cagey about both his birthday and his death day, so very few actually know the dates of these days.

there are only two people he openly told.

the first was valentino in the early days, where he was open and trusting and in love. he since regrets this, as valentino often sends him cruel reminders around the day to taunt him.

cherri was the second, a few months into their friendship while they were high off their asses, and he trusts her not to say shit to anyone, even if they ask her, just the same as he'd do for her if she wanted.

his birthday is one that he accidentally tells people at points, drunken moments in the bar where he makes off comments about being 'born a joke' due to being born on april fools day, but he won't remind anyone of the day. instead he'll use the date as an excuse to party, taking his friends out dancing and drinking to surround himself with people he cares about. usually this would only be cherri, but since coming to the hotel he would invite the rest of the hotel along too.

his death day is the opposite. the week coming up to it angel is more irritable, drawing away from friends and loved ones to distract himself, and will usually end up taking a cocktail of drugs on the day to either cause a near comatose like state, or to be so removed from reality he doesn't know what day it is until it's over.

[izopoz]

*retired criminal voice* fine, one last fanart...but then I'm out forever

[reyolfx]

i'm sure this has been talked about before but i've actually never come across it in my short time back in the fandom - d'you think cas somehow received/grew a soul when he was human? he wasn't out there acting soulless although i suppose they did say that soullessness was different for everyone but... he seemed to care and feel a lot actually. so i think he grew a soul, and i think it actually was more like sprouting a soul from a seed that somehow, impossibly, was already planted in him even when he was an angel. because dean.

[girl-bateman]

No positive notes for today. I think my left eye got fucked up from crying too much bc it's bleeding. Tomorrow I vow to shower.

[thankstothe]

House driving a car into a house is a metaphor to represent his self-destructive tendencies. How easily walls broke speak to the fragility of his mental state. And the fact thats its a living room shows us what he thinks about that concept.

Not 100% sure tho, still working this theory, need something more substantial to confirm

[lil-stoney-baby]

Am I really just losing the same 15 lbs and gaining them back again in a soul destroying cycle of unsustainability for my whole life over and over again and going insane

Yes I am

[adainesfroggieboggy]

i remember often that my writing always coincides with recovery and it makes me so happy. there are fics i’ve written that are only there because i got better. there are whole pages filled with my words because i fought again.

remembering how far you’ve come is half of the journey. stumbling and falling down is part of life. i stood up and i made art. something about that is beautiful to me.

[hellpenis900]

just so all my mutuals know: i still have not gotten those cds out of my bed

[number1girl]

i’m so terrified for kendall

[hookerpissgourmet]

Turns out, trying to explain a rare and misunderstood disorder to someone that you

1. crave comfort and validation from

2. but also know to be very ignorant even at the best of times

can blow up in your face spectacularly.

Who knew?

[corpsegirl-sephie]

Who needs healthy coping mechanisms when you have knives :3

[bleuberrygliscor]

sometimes trying to find out what happened to a blog you liked turned into a long deep dive through the Farms and 2016 CallOut posts written by people who do not know what they are talking about, seconded by the people who are actively dismantling the community youre apart of, to defend teenage girls wanting to take selfies with Hard Lemonade and designer bags they got from escort jobs.

[raii2high]

Currently going through a battle , i thought I won 3 times. It don’t stop til it’s over .

[marlbor0gold28]

Light & Darkness, I’m a walking Paradox.