#soul has adhd

[souljellied]

What ADHD looks like for me

I've been doing some journalling lately trying to process this late diagnosis of ADHD and explain to some close friends. I wrote out this list and was surprised to realise some of the ways I've masked which I hadn't even thought of as being related to ADHD. I thought putting this out there might be useful for anyone looking at signs and symptoms and trying to make sense of their own experience.

Feel free to reblog and share your own experience in comments/tags!

For me, ADHD is this:

Too many thoughts all the time, no way to switch them off

Constant low-key, maddening existential boredom - never fully able to engage with anything

Constant low-key irritation and frustration…

…Which blossoms easily into overwhelming rage

Intense, uncontrollable, unregulatable emotions that escalate quickly

Loud, chaotic energy

Inability to focus

Daydreaming and trapped in my own head often

Thinking, doing and feeling a million things at once

Lots and lots and lots and lots of hobbies

Periods of intense, uncontrollable hyperfixation

Over-analysing and over-thinking

Addicted to my phone

Binging on food, alcohol, sex

Missing very very obvious social cues a lot of the time

Trouble with eye-contact

Inability to think long-term

Inability to form habits

Inability to sit still

Talking over people

Talking too fast

Forgetfulness

Impulsive behaviour

Periods of overwhelming depression and suicidal ideation

Forgetfulness

(Hehe, see what I did there? Seriously though, forgetting really obvious stuff, all the time)

Time blindness

Compulsive nail-biting, hair-pulling, skin-picking

Disordered eating

Sensitivity to textures

Executive dysfunction (i.e. knowing you NEED to get up and do something but being physically unable to)

Only able to function under a certain level of anxiety or panic

Exhaustion, needing frequent naps to ‘reset’ my brain

Difficulty prioritising tasks and staying organised

Difficulty working on long term projects

Difficulty making decisions

A deeply internalised sense that I was most likely going to fail or get off-track before I even started a task

Stimming

For me, ‘masking’ (hiding the above symptoms in order to be Normal) looks like this:

constant lies about why I forgot stuff, scrambling to cover up mistakes

staying awake all night to complete things at the last minute

over-exercising so I’m tired enough to sleep

drinking alcohol so I’m tired enough to sleep

putting off errands for ridiculous amounts of time and telling people ‘oh I was just too lazy lolololol’

masking with self-deprecating humour

writing every single little thing on a to do list from ‘brush your teeth today!!!’ to ‘work deadline 2PM’

self-harming in order to regulate thoughts and emotions, and to punish myself for my failures

pretending I didn’t care about the deadline or event or whatever that I missed out on anyway

making ‘chaotic and crazy’ my entire personality because it’s easier to do that than admit to the guilt and shame

isolating myself so that no one can get close enough to see how fake everything is

taking on Team Leader roles to create that same distance and give a sense of control/purpose to my interactions

arriving super early to things so I’m not late

hiding things I’m interested in because they’re unconventional or weird

staying quiet so I don’t interrupt people

sabotaging relationships

forcing my stimming into more appropriate verbal/physical tics

obsessively checking my phone for free dopamine hits

avoiding situations where I might not be able to hide my illness

chronic perfectionism and high standards

double and triple checking *everything* to avoid mistakes

[dollypopup]

hm. idk, maybe the reason Luke Newton isn't announcing new projects or posting any Bridgerton content is because some of you demons treated him like hot trash instead of a creative that you wanted more work from and he decided fuck it, this isn't worth the stress. you know, like a lot of creatives who get mistreated do?

like this is a man who went from couch surfing in a friend's house and bartending to make ends meet, deciding that the Bridgerton audition was the last one he'd do before he quit, to suddenly being recognized on the street because that last audition propelled him to star in a global show where fans who have zero media comprehension blamed him for his character's actions and literally stalked him at any hotel he happens to stay at. he went from being a dude doing musical theatre and shopping at thrift stores and recording random songs with friends and posting silly memes on Twitter to being harassed on his only social media page and his friends insulted and his partners bullied by his supposed 'fans' and anything he posts being so microanalyzed that he can't do a damn thing without someone coming out the woodwork screaming about how he's the WORST and won't he think of the FANS!?

like damn he can't have a girlfriend without being harassed, he can't travel without being harassed, he can't like or not like social media posts without being harassed, he can't post a fucking MEME without being harassed, he can't take a vacation or cut his hair or hold someone's hand or just live his life without being blamed for some bullshit or another. but yeah, okay, 'when will Luke Newton come back?' as if it isn't your fault he's AWOL now

[heywriters]

sad at myself for writing some of the most romantic, heartfelt little scenes, and then never finishing the wip or posting the story :\

[synthshenanigans]

Its that autism vs adhd meme as heart & mind but they both lose to soul cos he has both

[pinkfrog66]

Tfw the hyperfixation has changed ( I am going insane please help)

[kairyudee]

NEW NOTEBOOK AND SKETCHBOOK!!! 📝📒📚

ill be debuting these at the WA Gaming Expo in Puyallup on 3/28-31!! If youre in the Seattle and south sound area, come stop by! I'm really excited to be doing my first 3 day convention booth and I hope everything goes well!

[dino--draws]

Finally read where this little freak came from and I had to do some drawing [and toss a headcanon into the pot] because I am normal about REISNO Cannon/TL-5956-X

Edit: Now with inked fullbody!!

[5-htagonist]

i am genuinely so crazyyyy about lbruuuuu.... like Genuinely Genuinely. its pretty bad guise

[thelilreddragon]

Given your AU potterverse, would Mr.Granger(Hermione’s father) be cool with her daughter and this green eyed, glasses boy being soulbound so young?

Oh definitely not. He’d have a heart attack.

————

“Are you telling me, that my 6 year old daughter is going to be bound to this boy for marriage?!”

“Yes. That’s exactly what I’m telling you.” James Potter tried to hide his fidgeting fingers, and maintain eye contact with his son’s magical father-in-law. “When Mother Magic made our kids, she gave them eachother. However, they found eachother before they found themselves.”

“Do they know they are bound?”

“No. Harry has said that he feels empty when she’s gone, and knows that she’s important to him, but we haven’t told him about that kind of magic.” James paused. “He’s barely old enough to understand magic itself.”

“Is there anything we can do?” Mr. Dan Granger asked.

“You’re not going to like this answer, Dan.”

“I don’t like any of these answers, James, but do go on.”

“In soul binding, there are 4 stages. The trigger, which was Harry pledging to be there for Hermione for the rest of their lives, the shield, which would be their realization of loving feelings towards the other, the sword, which would be their love confession, and the seal, which is when they would… consummate… their relationship.”

“The trigger, the shield, the sword and the seal,” Dan echoed back. “So we can’t stop it.”

“No, but we can prolong it. Make sure they’re old enough to know of the bond, and to encourage them to not make leaps until they’re of age. They will get married young no matter what.”

“I guess we need to come up with a game plan.”

[ozlices]

doctor apt was shit but the ladies at the desk were cool and set us up for a better, nicer doctor next month so. we'll see how that goes but i can say i've never been so fucking flabbergasted in my life at the bullshit coming from a doctor's mouth and with the amount of medical trauma we have that is seriously saying something.

[fabledteeth]

something something the aesthetic use of body horror in bg3 and it’s central theme revolving around bodily autonomy and the complete and utter lack of it

[anonymous-tals]

Sometimes you’re too overwhelmed to do an elaborate drawing and you just gotta sketch some little guys being silly and goofy.

Gob and Buster have the neurodivergent sibling bond.

Michael is forced into a one-sided-neurodivergent sibling bond, haha.

If Tony ever leaves the house without Gob, I think Gob would likely, like, text him intermittently, if not all throughout the time that he’s out.

[dullahandyke]

Man I've been self diagnosed adhd for so long that its weird to be official w it. In my head I've been using the word debilitating n then the clinical psychologist described it as 'severe' and I went Wait Really

[yourheartinyourmouth]

seriously can we talk about how fucked up it is that someone told my husband to divorce me just bc i am disabled and can’t power through incredible misery like NTs apparently can

[lucaonthropy]

Huh. Rewatching Ducktales 2017 and getting massive low empathy nd vibes from Louie tbh

[sheikah-simp]

still editing exile//vilify and kind of in awe over how autistic i accidentally made astor