#sorry. im abnormal about him

[habeascorpseus]

thinks about "you would kill me?" "i would kill for you. never you," and cellbit's love language being destruction.

thinks about how cellbit will go to any length of self destruction for those he loves. thinks about him not sleeping for months, drinking coffee obsessively, until he's eventually too tired even to boil it and thus begins resorting to eating coffee beans, so he could keep himself sane. thinks about cellbit running from a bear with a chainsaw, and being forced to talk to him as a subordinate for months afterwards. thinks about him pushing people away so theyd let him destroy himself for the federation, unsure if the information he gathered would even be worth it. thinks about the slow death of the self, how much time one can spend running before they collapse from exhaustion, the love in demanding your family eat your corpse.

and then... thinks about outward destruction. thinks about broken trust in the form of an unusable xp machine. thinks about broken hearts in the form of custody battles. corpses with ciphers scribbled in blood left for long lost sisters who don't get it, not yet. badboyhalo describes cellbit pulling a knife on someone when he jokingly asks him to as less personal, and more like a dog being told to play fetch. thinks about him plunging into ravines and caves to kill bad's enemies as bad followed behind, being the first of them to die for bad's victory. thinks about "keep your hands clean." cats bring their owners dead birds out of concern for them being fed, cellbit brings enigmas and bodies because it's all the damage he can do. in a life shaped by violence, how else do you show loyalty than through a willingness to hunt for those who arent strong enough, to kill unthinkingly when they ask? it terrifies his family, but it's all he has left to give.

there are so many parallels between felps' kidnapping arc and the current one. the difference is in how many people are also at their breaking point and couldn't afford to see their rock crumbling. cellbit's mind was the bright light for every damn person on the server who had questions, and at this point, that number is all of them. and no matter where he looks, how much he wants to save them, there are no answers. there is no satisfying conclusion. if only he could go home at night and sleep soundly without thinking about the evidence of his failure to protect anyone resting beneath his feet. there are only more dead ends, more wheels, more humiliation, more degradation of his sanity as he's unable to sleep. his family has been picked off and the remainder have picked apart his corpse to scraps of marrow and flesh and are still starving, too terrified to hunt for themselves. what a blessing that cellbit's hands are already bloodied, and he's angry enough to tear apart the wardens for them to feast.

[ticklesandawkwardness]

I want to tickle Gale of Waterdeep so bad it's unreal. His laugh is so cute and I need to have my hands on him Right Now

[oceanwithouthermoon]

currently thinking about unreliable narrator saiki kusuo, and the fact that if the manga was written from anyone else's perspective then everyone would see him as a tsundere stalker, borderline yandere..

[strawberri-syrup]

rip dylan lenivy you would have loved chappell roan

[digitalcarcrash]

thinking about alex being a hardcore pacifist pre-operator, yeah sure he's bitchy to everyone more often than not but Physically he wouldn't hurt a fly, only for him to wind up breaking one of his best friend's leg with a block of cement

[werchezdeeno]

aoughhhh argenti quest...how to be the most capable but cringefail at the same time? Hes the master at them simultaneously.

the way he rlly wanted to see wubbaboo 🥺

and i find his relationship with velite very...interesting. during the whole quest it felt like smth happened between them (?) Im not sure how to describe it. The thing abt hsr is time is only convenient to the story. Weeks will pass and the reader wont be informed. Exactly how many days were we in the sting or wtv it was? Definitely more than one day. I might have thought otherwise if velite was not part of the quest, but his behavior says more time has passed. He starts with annoyance than near the end feels affection towards Argenti. He talks as if they have gotten a lot closer over the course of the quest, which further soldified my thoughts. How much time passed from the events of the quest and Argenti's mssgs? Obviously quite a bit since Velite changed careers during this time and how Argenti helped.

Overall the quest was pretty cool, but it would've been so much better if they just added a scene like "___ days later..." or smth like that. Or "the next day". The timing kinda threw me off since it didnt take very long but felt as it should have.

But what himeko said at the end kinda made me sad for argenti. He's essentially looking for something that can't be found. Or maybe idrila can idk how aeons work.

[flugame-mp3]

what do you fucking mean that's how charlie dies. THAT'S HOW CHARLIE DIES??? i mean i know the show has a penchant for killing off every character who's not a winchester brother or an angel of thursday but good god. what the fuck. charlie was such a good and enjoyable recurring character, and she had such a fandom impact that i've seen, and she's only around for THREE SEASONS?? (sidebar: it's amazing she has the presence she does for only being around for a couple episodes in the long run!) but: was this necessary? and she just dies offscreen after her skills are utilized to progress the plot of decoding the book of the damned?? oh my god. what in the actual fuck. i'm finding myself getting genuinely very upset at her death. she did not fucking deserve that. and i can absolutely see why the fan response to her death is what it is now. completely fucking unjustified and throwaway and useless.

[teslacoils-and-hubris]

scout tf2 is really the character of all time because when no one came to his birthday party he just rescheduled it for the next weekend and he thinks the whole team are best friends and he's also just a massive fucking asshole with an ego the size of the moon. Guy who would unironically say im sorry women. he can't read. He wants to do right by his crush and spends what he thinks are his last few hours alive getting slapped by his deadbeat dad/coworker to try and be good enough for a date with her but also cannot for the life of him take the hint that she's not interested and also a lesbian. He fully convinced himself that tom jones is his father and also he got a tattoo of tom jones face. He has voicelines where he calls himself daddy

[zeebreezin]

Vincent Beverley has to stay dead forever otherwise there’s nothing that could stop me from putting him in the stupidest crop tops known to man. And then the wild vivisection scar would be showing. And then what? Total collapse of society, that’s what. So he must stay dead.

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[p0rchc0ll4ps3]

speak your truth!!! tag it anyways

GUH OK!!!!!!

[apollotronica]

excited in what way ⁉️

STOP

[baylardian-1]

Ooooooooooo any plans for a Suder bunny in your new AU? :D

SO LIKE Im not Oppooooosed to the idea of doing a Suder bunny per se. Where my issue stems with Suder is that killing crewmates is a little malevolent of an act for rabbits in how like, trivial Suder plays it off as being in the episode. And the author of Watership Down described this idea that rabbits don’t think or act maliciously against one another with yknow devious intentions and all that; Woundwort being the exception,,, where like at least how I interpreted the novel as going against the idea of fearing elil and being cunning to escape death, he was a survivalist by nature and would stand his ground against foes and all that blah blah blah. And like i gotta be a LITTLE selective of the populous cuz the larger their numbers the weirder it gets to see a huge mass of homeless bunnies. 🤔 also becomes difficult considering he becomes a prisoner stuck in a room for all of voyager,,,,,, but i hecking LOVE the idea of Tuvok bunny arguing with Janeway bunny over killing/sparing him,,,,,,,, VERY TASTY,,,,,,,,

[driftwooddestiel]

last night we watched the s17 wilty ep thag charlie brookers in and my friend was like “oh he’s uglyyyy” it was so sad… they just dont get him like i do 😔

[kavehater]

WAAAAT THE HECK

[bmpmp3]

i was like. thinking about the software situation with the cryptonloids and i got curious if there was any progress on the non-miku NT banks yet so i went to listen to those vocals they use in that mobile game (if i remember correctly they use beta versions unreleased to the public?) and like. you know. despite how contentious miku nt herself is i think some of the betas for the others sound pretty good, len sounds fantastic and rin sounds about on par with her older banks (although i do miss a bit of her sharpness) and like. i may be killed with hammers for this but i was listening to the heat abnormal cover and i think i like the kaito nt beta sound more than his v3 like he sounds fantastic here. i dont dislike his v3 or anything but the nt bits ive heard has like some of the depth and richness i so sorely miss from his v1 while having the old-yamaha-keyboard-keyboard-key-spring sound that i do enjoy of his v3.... i do wish it had more of the v1 strength tho