#sorry this is so late. i have a concussion and typing this is hell

[officialsollux]

What do you think of erifef :-)

ahhh erifef..... it's about the misunderstanding. it's about being the opposite of who you seem to be when you're looking at one another. it's about the being kids too young dealing with stakes too high and using violence and using each other until finally that violence goes ON one another.

Feferi is VERY misunderstood in canon in part because she sounds very sure of herself and the things people around her are doing when in fact that narrative is NOT the true reality of the situation. she is. so so so. and i truly do mean so. witch of life core. she needs Eridan and she is in some ways using him and then switching her desire to be rid of him when she doesn't need him. she views the things he does always as sincere or manipulative in the opposite direction Eridan is acting, which is ironic since they've known each other for so long, but also, half the time Eridan gets absorbed. Feferi finds Eridan too much! he is too much for her! and she is someone who like. has to put herself first or she will twist the situation to suit those needs. but for Eridan she resents him in part because she did try to fit herself into a position with him for a long time because of this relationship with orphaning he had with her that she felt free of in the game. Feferi is in no place when she is a preteen/young teenager to be around very hyper-sensitive and traumatised individuals who she feels any responsibility towards. Eridan is like all of this plus she feels trapped. Which just sort of captures them in this cycles of him feelings overbearing so forth.

Eridan on the other hand is like. Not seeing Feferi as manipulative, but rather fated -- which is part of troll romance and also part of being thirteen -- but it does give some distance between who she is and how he's romanticising her. He loses himself in her perspective. And he is also devaluing a dynamic Feferi is putting effort into maintaining even though it is taxing on her because he wants her in another quadrant. And to be honest, had Feferi returned his feelings, I DO think they'd have been much better flush rather than pale -- hence Feferi being able to like Sollux who has quite a few of the traits that make her irate with Eridan. Though to be honest, I think that relationship probably would wear on her too. Eridan also has all these opinions he's loud about that he doesn't really mean that are the opposite of what Feferi's trying to do. I cannot even truly get a grasp if she believes it because I kind of do think she should be able to see through it, but I do think Feferi is very very bad at empathy. I don't say that negatively -- how you grow with low empathy can be completely neutral. But Feferi is also this counter to Eridan's perspective and they are wrapped up in each other more than anything so if we're being real, I think their perspectives match up more than people would think -- they just cope differently with coming to grips with the position they hold and how to self identify. they miss giant chunks of themselves in opposing ways. they are each other's foils.

now if we're talking about shipping erifef. my opinion is. when they are thirteen. it is not going to work. they are toxic bad bad bad for one another. Eridan is obnoxious to some extent but a lot of this is just on how Feferi kind of is -- which is why I feel like there's not enough great Feferi meta out there. She has sooooo many great traits, and she is so young, but she also is manipulative and violent and sure of how things should be even when she could be wrong. How she treats Eridan is not great on many occasions, not that she doesn't have every right to get space from him, and not that Eridan's isn't someone who shoots himself in the foot constantly trying to interact or portray himself ever.

I used to be really intense about them for a while and then I went the opposite way and I just like this week started thinking of them romantically again. But it's like very much in the context of this fic I'm writing.

I think if they both grew up enough to umask a lot (which I think for Eridan will end with a complete collapse of self and will happen fast and will end up with him falling into guilt & self hatred, still self obsessed, but with a loss of his armour and ideology) (likewise, for Feferi, I think it'd need to be drawn to her attention, repeatedly, shoved in her face what she is and what's she's like, and I think the way she'd come to grips is in fear of the weight on her shoulders and what if she, after time passes by and by and by, could become like her ancestor?) they could potentially be a romantic match.

The thing is. Eridan does genuinely love Feferi a LOT. And I do think Feferi loves Eridan too, she just isn't equipped to meet his needs. Feferi wants to help people so badly. She wants the world to be better. She has a world in her head that's counter to the violence pushed upon them, but it's still wrapped up in the huge privilege they both share. She can't really handle not wanting to fulfill a position, especially one someone else could. Like, the situation with Eridan does need to Be Flipped on Eridan, whether or not that's an accurate representation of the situation or not. Because the way Feferi needs to meet her needs also needs to met by her sense of security in perception. She resents Eridan mostly because of what she doesn't want to be for him.

now. if we are talking pale -- I don't think there's ever a time when it would be necessarily smart for the two of them to be moirails. that's like, the worst matched quadrant for them by FAR. flushed i'm like, well Feferi doesn't like Eridan and that's her right, so it's one of those things where, I wouldn't want her to change her mind to suit him unless they'd both moved on from his childhood crush you know. I CAN see her liking him as they mature. If they unmask. I think she might kind of start to like the balance Eridan has and the sweetness he holds for her. She also has feelings for Sollux who has more in common with Eridan than either of them would like to admit. I can see it being very sweet, especially if Eridan has a good moirail too. But I still think it could go VERY badly. their personalities are kind of bad for one another in many ways. So it depends on how they grow up and how stable they are.

they should not be kismeses. it would uh. destroy Eridan. even if they weren't childhood friends and he liked her red. like i cannot tell you enough how bad that would be. still perhaps not as poorly matched as moirails for both of them, but for Eridan. yeah not good.

so yeah flushed erifef could go hard in very specific circumstances, childhood friends make me SOFT. it's about the love it's about the history it's about the growing up together. i think erifef is compelling and toxic. they are foils. but in more complicated ways than people always think.

[dokidokidraft]

MHA boys HC pt.3

includes: Keigo Takami/Hawks, Touya Todoroki/Dabi, Hanta Sero Warning: tiny bit of suggestive content for keigo! (meant to be fem!reader but no pronouns/body type mentioned)

~Keigo Takami/Hawks~

-Going flying with him before bed ✨ he’ll take you all around the city and back again. Even if he’s tired, you can’t get out of it.

-Always has to make sure a feather is on you at all times. You have a necklace with one of his. He often tickles you from it when he’s at work and bored

-Good morning and good night texts

-Dinner with him looks like him just scarfing everything down and going to bed. Unless he’s on a day off, then you guys might watch a movie later

-Loves chicken. If you make some for him he would have literal hearts in his eyes

-Please, I just want to steal his jacket

-Pretty lazy. After work he’ll just chill in the apartment. If you ask how his day was you’ll just get a “it was fine” and he won’t elaborate unless you really push it

-Chronic manspreader

-Lots of suggestive comments

-He’s definitely a bit of a perv once you get to know him. Just pervy words though, he’ll never act on them. “Hey baby bird, what if I told you those pants will be on the floor in a few hours?” Usually never means it though

-Probably doesn’t have time for a lot of dates, but he apologizes repeated and eventually makes it up to you

-Helps you with your makeup. He’s a model, so he probably can do it better than you (sry). He especially loves to do your eyeliner to match his

-Wears earrings (dying for this man rn) once he met you he made sure they matched with your outfits whenever you guys go out

-*winks*

~Touya Todoroki/Dabi~

-Doesn’t really like to go on dates, thinks they’re a waste of time. If you guys do go on a date, its late at night, somewhere outside

-OR shopping dates to hot topic (he will then parade you around in your new clothes, showing you off around the LoV is his favourite pass time)

-Teaches you how to fight. He’s kinda a bad teacher but he’s trying

-You often run your hands over his scarred torso and tell him he’s beautiful. He got emotional the first couple times (if his tear glands weren't burnt he would be crying)

-Definition of big spoon. But like…big spoon when you’re on top of him (?) you’re lying on his chest while he’s on the couch, his arms wrapped around you and just staring at the ceiling. You’re so small in his arms ^-^

-Give. Me. His. Leather. Jacket

-Emotionally closed off. You ain’t getting a reaction from him, I’m sorry

-Needs help with his hair. I’m 110% sure that it’s bleach/dye damaged

-He’ll steal buy you jewelry. Often times with a cerulean gem so it matches his eyes

-Encourages you sm. You wanna get a piercing? Already booking you an appointment. Tattoo? Yes ma’am. New dress? Suddenly the money has been sent to your account. You don’t even know where the money comes from (and you don’t dare ask)

-While you (might) want the safety of a studio, he gladly does his own piercings. They usually get infected though, so just be ready for some serious complaining

-Husky voice 24/7

~Hanta Sero~

-Attempted to do the Spider-Man kiss scene with you. Ended up falling down and getting a mild concussion ✨

-Lays in his hammock with you. He’s a lazy boy and takes lots of naps

-B e a n i e s

-Definitely goes skateboarding & tries to show you how

-Sleepovers with him are the best because he has endless snacks and drinks. Also has a dvd player for his fav movies

-Button 👏 up👏 shirts👏

-Will randomly start speaking in Spanish. Best part is the nicknames “Mi amor”. Even better if gives you little hand kisses

-He’ll always “forget his notes” so you have to go over to his dorm and help him. Always ends up with the 2 of you making out though ;-;

-Flirty as hell (but only around the bakusquad so he can show u off)

-Reads tons of manga (canon) so he’ll probably read em with you 🫰

-He’s honestly super chill and won’t get jealous easily. He’ll give people little glares but that’s about it

-Does the Killua walk (you know what I’m talking about)

-Tape fixes everything

-“your mom” whenever he’s losing an argument

Hope you guys enjoyed!

@Kimyou draft I have neverwritten hcs for Sero before so I hope these were up to your expectations!

[halfgood-halfbad-badboy]

First Date

Another fic based off the Hero and Villain rp I am in :3 once again my bud on discord helped me write Virgil's dialogue.

(Ao3 version of story: Linked here)

Tw. Mention of vomit and concussion mention

Ships: Roman/Virgil

Summary: Roman is extremely nervous for his first ever date. He also doesn't quite understand why the mysterious new hero would ask HIM on a date.

(not beta read)

Roman didn’t understand how he got here. Well that’s not entirely true. He knew he picked up his rental suit at the nearby college then walked across the city to some way too nice restaurant he couldn’t pronounce the name of. No, the part he didn’t understand is how he managed to get invited by the Virgil Storm to go to dinner with him. 

To him, Virgil always seemed like the cool quiet guy that kept to herself, not the type of guy to randomly ask someone on a date. They’ve only talked like 3 times! One of which Roman threw up on his shoes and had to be dragged back to base. This whole situation felt like some fever induced dream. 

Roman kept replaying Virgil's question in his head. “ Do you want to get dinner? At 7?” It felt so random. Not that Roman was complaining or anything! He was more than happy to be asked to dinner by his first and only crush. It just felt odd how sudden and seemingly unprompted all of this is. Though he didn’t let himself think about that for too long. 

Nervousness filled Romans empty stomach. He’s never been on a date before! Hell he’s never even held someone’s hand! Virgil seems so nice and handsome, they’ve probably had tons of partners in their life! Roman couldn’t possibly meet whatever Virgil's expectations were. Maybe it would be best to turn around and find a villain to fight so he could have an excuse to cancel. 

While contemplating whether or not he should escape he turned the corner and saw him. Virgil stood outside the restaurant in line with other customers. He checked his watch and tapped his foot against the pavement.

‘Fuck’

It was too late for Roman to back out now. He sighed, straightened his posture and walked up to him. He could not afford to mess this up.

——

“Wait what do you mean I asked you out!?” Roman looked at Virgil in surprise.

Virgil responded with a laugh. “Ok ok so do you remember when you chased that speedster Villain out of town and I had to come get you?”

Roman blushed with embarrassment from the memories. “I- yes- unfortunately.”

“Do you remember anything after you threw up on me?”

Roman covered his face with his hands, extremely embarrassed. “You didn’t need to bring it up again! I apologized a million times! But no, I don’t remember anything after.”

“Well as I was getting you back to base you asked me on a date here.”

“I did!?” Roman felt like he was going to combust. God why was delusional him so confident. “Wait and you said yes!?”

Virgil smiled at him, nervously fiddling with the table cloth. “Well actually I didn’t say anything. It wasn’t until you almost lost your arm like two weeks later and I was taking care of you I said yes.”

Roman has been through a lot of horrible experiences in his life. Some that still to this day keep him up at night, but this was far worse than any of that. 

“Then why did you say ‘do you wanna get dinner’?”

“I said do you *still* want to get dinner. I wanted to make sure you still wanted to go on this date.”

Roman mentally kicked himself for forgetting and misremembering so much. Maybe getting concussions every other month was affecting him more than he thought.

“I am so sorry I don’t remember any of that. I mean- I’m very happy we’re on this date and I’m talking to you now but- I don’t know why I said all that stuff.”

Virgil looked down feeling more nervous than before. “Oh. Well. We can call this off if you want. I understand if this was all just a mistake.”

Roman quickly reached over the table to grab Virgil's hand and look her in the eyes. “No! No this is not a mistake at all! I’m more than happy to be here right now!”

Virgil was surprised, but her smile slowly crept back onto his face. “Then let’s start over.” Virgil straightened his posture and looked Roman in the eyes. “I’m so glad you asked me on this date. What do you think we should order?”

Roman now knew he was in hell. “I… I can’t read most of the menu.”

[thebabysittertm]

ㅤBeing told he was more of a 'hands-on learner' made Steve laugh again, short and surprised, because the hands-on portion of that learning had involved a lot of hands on him - namely fists belonging to other guys his age. Jonathan Byers had started it and even though he'd been in these fights this week, he was pretty sure Billy Hargrove had still finished it. He'd heard the guy laying into that last one with an audience, calling them all out as cowards for mooching on his win against Steve the week before. It didn't make him want to face the rest of the school day, but maybe it would mean Monday morning wouldn't be as bad.

ㅤ"Yeah, you're not wrong. How could the nurse say no to this face?" he asked, putting on the tone like one might if they were too handsome or cute to say no to - a joke that was all too real in its contrast to how he looked currently. There was no way the nurse was saying no, he couldn't go home, with his injuries and the note from his doctor about a concussion. He basically had free passes to be in and out of her office as he pleased, or to go home, but he'd been trying to get his shit together this year.

ㅤHe had to, because if he didn't, he'd have no leg to stand on with his dad about leaving for college.

ㅤHonestly, the whole concept sounded exhausting right then, but that had to be a goal this year. He had to get past all of this and actually get his grades under control, though how he was going to do that with his intended tutor dating Jonathan Byers now, he wasn't sure. He'd figure it out, just not today, and probably not this coming week, either. Henry might not have been the type to hold a grudge, apparently, because the conversation was slowly getting less awkward as the words passed between them, but he didn't see things with Nancy and Jonathan changing quite as much or as quickly.

ㅤ"We are, so yeah, better late than never," he agreed, considering Henry's words and drawing in a long breath at being told that he wasn't hated or disliked because that really was a concern, a question that sat between them, wasn't it? Steve hadn't been the type of popular kid to lay a hand on someone, so he wasn't beating kids up - this was the most fighting he'd done in school in his entire reign as 'king' of the social scene, but he hadn't exactly stopped Tommy or anyone else from doing it and that was on him. He'd had the social sway and the personality to make those changes, and he hadn't.

ㅤOf course, he hadn't because he'd been afraid that if he didn't hit the notes for what his peers expected of him, he'd just as quickly and as easily be on the receiving end of the attention he'd been trying to change. Keeping up appearances, that's all he'd ever been taught to do, to meet the social expectations that his parents had set, and to maintain the reputation. Being nice and well-liked for it hadn't been part of that. That wasn't what got his parents lunch and dinner dates with the mayor, or all of the traveling that they regularly did. This was what he'd had to learn to value.

ㅤHands-on learning, indeed, but he'd gotten there.

ㅤ"Still, I'm sorry. I'd get it if you did, so I guess thanks for not. Hating me, or whatever." He'd blame the headache for how awkward that came out, but he was also worse at the whole apology thing than he'd realized. It wasn't like he could show up with flowers in the dirty drama bathroom to say sorry to Henry Creel while he mopped up his face, though that was a hell of a surreal image, made moreso by the fact that he hadn't been able to give Nancy those flowers or make that apology. They'd stayed broken up because monsters had happened instead. His life was insane.

ㅤA pause, considering his face in the mirror as his thoughts went, and he shook his head slightly. "Yeah, okay, fuck it. I'm going home," he offered, not even sure if it was to himself or his unexpected company, but he glanced back at Henry once more. "Are you going to get in trouble for being here with me? You don't skip class much, do you?"

                    ❛ Don't be too hard on yourself. You're just more of a... hands-on learner, ❜ Henry replies, a knowing smile on his face. He doesn't begrudge anyone for the methods in which they learn so long as they allow themselves to do it in the end. Some respond well to paragraphs of text; others may need more of a physical approach. Steve just so happens to fall into the latter.  ❛ It happens. The point is that you get it in the end, huh? ❜

                    Now that Steve isn't fronting for an entire school, Henry finds it far easier to talk to him. Cutting the rest of the day is such a kid thing to want, yet Henry understands it all too well. Too often has he thought about slicing his own days in two— disappearing like a ghost before the second half of his day commences. He already does this with gym class; he huddles in a closet or a vacant classroom until the period is over, reading to his heart's content, or working on homework for the modules that he actually cares about. He's been doing this for a year now and he has no intention of stopping.

                    He has gym this afternoon, actually...

                    ❛ You know, I'm quite certain that being viciously attacked by a halfwit is a good enough reason to go home, ❜ Henry drawls, inspecting his fingernails as if bored.  ❛ There'd be no real shame in turning tail and dealing with your injuries at home. I don't think so anyway. ❜

                    There's a hint of camaraderie in the words— a sidelong display of understanding that he hasn't spared him before. Henry has spent a long time on the service end of a fist; the jocks aren't just dense upstairs, so to speak. He knows what it's like to feel ashamed because of somebody else.

                    ❛ Well, we're talking now, aren't we? Better late than never. ❜ And opportunities like these do not crop up often. He's not about to overlook the gift that is being able to settle your debts with a haughty highschooler.  ❛ Look, things haven't exactly been smooth sailing between us, but I'm not the type to hold grudges. I'm... very bad at it, actually. ❜ Unless the offender is a person from Hawkins Lab, but he'd argue that that's less of a grudge and more of a survival instinct.  ❛ So, I don't hate you. Or dislike you. Or whatever you might think. ❜

                    Because as shitty as Steve has been to navigate for the past year, Henry knows that the way he behaved was a sort of survival instinct, too. No threat is greater than that of being a social outcast; in school, if you aren't the bully, you're the recipient. People will do whatever possible to avoid that fate.