#sorry this is so h word of me
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OMG I luv ur titties!
omgggg what these??? thank you 🩷🫶
#me#enchantinghoneypie#high as fuck and that also means i am 1 other h word so i may be attention seeking SORRY
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i’m sorry but i am a period sex truther‼️
simon wouldn’t even be phased just a “if it helps ya feel better why not” and you’re so giddy because you weren’t expecting him to be into it. in fact you were preparing yourself for him to brush you off and have to deal with the disappointment.
your boyfriend is so diligent laying down towels for you and suddenly you’re feeling shy at the thought of him seeing you like this. he’s seen you on your period of course and he’s seen you naked, but having him look at you with that hungry look in your eye during your time of the month feels a little daunting.
you’re broken out of your thoughts when simon runs his hands up your legs, caressing your thighs softly; his method of wordlessly soothing you and it works like a charm. you take a deep breath as you feel him line himself up with your entrance and you brace yourself for the familiar feeling of him filling you completely.
simon takes your hand and tangles your fingers together, he presses a kiss to the back of your hand and questions, “ya ready baby?” words fail you so you simply nod enthusiastically. in one fell swoop he pushes into the tight heat of you and you both moan in unison at the feeling. you feel more sensitive right now, your gummy walls clamping down on him with every thrust. it doesn’t take long before you feel your orgasm building, white hot heat simmering inside of you. your boyfriend has his head buried in the crook of your neck and is groaning loudly and whispering in your ear about how tight you are and how much he loves the feeling of your pussy gripping his cock.
“si- baby…oh my god. i’m-“
“i know love, ‘ve gotcha”
simon’s hand trails down and rubs fervently at your throbbing clit, the lewd wet sound of your blood and arousal fill your ears and you momentarily feel like you should be disgusted but can’t even bring yourself to be. in no time your back is arching, body bowing as you hurdle right over the edge.
your chest is heaving and you feel sort of cockdrunk that you barely even notice simon pulling out and cleaning you up. you must’ve dozed off because when you wake you’re being scooped up and settled into a hot, bubbly bath. before the blonde man can pull away you grab his face in your hands and kiss him passionately. he was so good to you, how did you manage to get so lucky?
“i’m the lucky one love” you hadn’t realize you said that out loud, but you’re not even embarrassed at your admission. simon deserved to know how much you adored him.
#mic drabbles#wrote this instead of doing my final#i am also on my period and am so h word sigh#need simon here with me to fuck me so good :(#simon ghost riley x reader#simon ghost riley smut#period sex#sorry not sorry i’m so into it#mic writes
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thinking about your fave who has a sixth sense when it comes to your mood…
he can tell when you’re nosediving before you even make the connection (it’s visible in the hard set of your jaw, the slouch of your shoulder, and your short remarks). and it irritates you more than it should—perhaps because you’re feeling prickly—that he seems to have a better grasp of your emotions than you do. he knows you’re on the verge of melting down and lashing out, of making it into a problem, so he decides to set you right the only way that works: by fucking it out of you.
he works so quickly that you’re disarmed; your mouth has trouble keeping up with his movements, and most of your complaints die in your throat as he bends you over his clothed lap. it’s hard to fight back when you’re exposed like this: wrists grasped in one of his large hands, bare ass in the air, cunt squeezing his thick fingers. he works you to the edge, ignoring your snide comments, denying you the orgasm that you finally beg for with that sweet voice he loves.
but the only way he’s unraveling you is if you apologize for your attitude with tears in your eyes. he merely pushes his pants and underwear to his thighs as he enters you from behind, stretching you thoroughly while he shoves a few digits in your mouth to shut you up. he goes slower than you prefer, relishing in the act of breaking you down, of making you submit to the pleasure that only he can give you.
when he feels you trembling around him, beyond ready for your release, his lips go to your ear—“tell me what you need and i’ll give it all to you.” so you do: you cry for him to please touch your clit and please let you come and that you’re sorry (so, so, so sorry) for being a brat. and you’re rewarded for your compliance when he fills you to the brim and fucks you through several orgasms—until you’re half-conscious and simply curl into his side, ready for a peaceful night’s rest.
#this is just horrible h word rambling#i’m sorry dash#this is so zoro and yuuji and beel 2 me#they could fix me
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every time I’m forced to see this image bc I have to describe what’s wrong w it to dumb ass ppl a small part of me dies
cw: ugly ass emo whitewashed genshin man
#ppl pointedly ignoring the part where I talk abt how he’s whitewashed#look idgaf if they wanna give n*tlan a more modern vibe but this doesn’t make any fucking sense#how are you gonna take inspo form a nigerian god then make him look like this 💀💀💀#somebody said in response to me calling him ugly asf and whitewashed ‘erm but isn’t he a vampire’ SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP#bro speedran becoming the ugliest character#I genuinely have no words#well actually I do#could probably write an essay on everything that bothers me abt this game#the worst part is probably that it has so many likable elements abd interesting shit and then at the same time being vile#like how do I explain that the g*nshin lore truly is fascinating but the ability to take it serious and enjoy it plummet when you see the#other shit. frustrating asf#also the fact that only h*yoverse games seem to stay relevant and therefor get to have basically endless content is js 💀💀💀💀#but also having some of the most frustrating fandoms and annoying ass people in said fandoms#like the rampant casual racism everywhere#sorry this turned into a whole ass essay 😭😭#I’m js sad n angry that the thing I used to love turns out to be bigger shit than when I left it#like wow#usually I can enjoy revisiting old fandoms n stuff but this is gen ass#bullshitting
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hi spoiler embargo ended. get rejuv blasted
#pokemon rejuvenation spoilers#also i finished my renegade run like an hour ago. whwatthe hell. egrhrhr#h. normal about it#M2…………………. shes so awful i love her so so bad. evil and fucked my melia moments my beloved#fucked up*#thank you 13.5 renegade route for giving me so so much while also taking away everything at the same time#shes so sick and twisted but like literally.#hher. pokemon… they. egeg erg ag#sorry this is about the best i can do im not good with wording things so take my nonsensical keyboard smashing i think#oh also love the chapter 10 cave bit ^_^ the soul thing is so cool i love giant robot ana#and the giratina friend thats awesome#also not related in the slightest but i got the a-larvesta megg on my renegade route save and its so so pretty#i love all of the new aevian forms but i think out of them all a-volarona and the a-leavanny line are my favorites by far#probably helps that both of those are some of my favorite pokemon in general but yknow#pokemon rejuvenation#btw anyone that sees this that hasnt played this before should play it immediately. please#they made the glitter girl fucked up and evil im winning
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fav engpru running gag is arthur constantly failing to get it in even in the easiest circumstances. because he CAN be sweet and down-to-earth in a very charming way it's just that once things get hot and heavy he starts saying shit like tally ho my bonny let me sire an hanoverian bastard on you. and gilbert has to Leave because his boner and all his respect for this man died an ugly death right then and there
#hws prussia#hws england#engpru#get it because the hanoverians were from germany#nOT prussia though. arthur has no respect for cultural differences alas#sorry to people who are knocking-gil-up enthusiasts#i am not categorically against it but there's better sperm donors than This Man#caused me pain to type 'an hanoverian' we do not put 'an' before words starting with h in l'anglais americain#but thats how he'd say it so i had to#text#mine
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willow for your thoughts :3
hope your situation gets better soon i give you hugs
THANK YOU SMMMMMMM SORRY I KEPT THIS IN MY INBOX TO STARE TOO 😭😭💖💖💖
#tenka willow#my sona#art for me#im sorry if i dont have the words IM JUST OUGGHGHHJGHJHUTH£H#THANK YOU SO MUCH YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH THIS MEANS TO ME#you have no idea how much it helped too even if i didnt say anything#i just. stared at this and the other drawing in my inbox cus it gave me a little bit of hope
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You've mentioned repeatedly that Host is the one who unintentionally paralyzed Mike, but I couldn't find anything about that incident.
What actually happened? I know a lot of stuff in the story has been reworked but that point still nags at me even if it's not part of the au anymore.
Aaa yeah I need to figure out a proper way to organize where I keep my lore. Stuff is all over the place and I'm constantly adjusting things to the point where I still get people asking if Tenna is canon or not lol 😭😭😭
Info of the incident (Or I guess Art) is buried on one of my Twitter art threads since it's rather old artwork by now, it was an old unfinished sketch comic with really off-model art and dialogue </3 You can see it here but I decided to rewrite it below
That part of their backstory still remains relatively untouched, I just have a hard time figuring out how to implement it naturally into the story as it's something that only Mike and Host know about and not something you can easily get either of them to talk about. It is rather traumatic for both of them </3
But yes, the incident is tied to Host's secret bossification and how they lost their voice and met Mike.
This backstory hasn't been properly adjusted to account for the "Mike and Host are dark world leaders" lore update, but I imagine there wasn't a leader *yet* and they got into that position later when there came a need for it.
Essentially Host has always been on their own, as a darkner, they have a defective screen (Which is why Tenna has visible eyes and Host doesn't), and their blank static was regarded as a disability and made it difficult to have them be taken seriously in any form.
Even before losing their voice, Host still struggled to communicate and make themselves heard, and this type of isolation and lack of purpose, all made Host particularly vulnerable to a certain lightner who spoke in hands.
Serving lightners is a darkner's purpose, and Host craved that sense of direction, but never had one directly spoken to them. They felt him telepathically speak to them, and clearly, this was no ordinary lightner either.
This one had been lost in a strange place. His essence shattered through time and space, in a limbo between light and dark worlds.
And somehow, through their TV signal, Host was the only one capable of hearing him, and they were the only one capable of helping him.
And all that Host needed to do is open their mind and seek out those lost pieces of him.
With their isolation, solely guided by a need for a purpose, Host became blind to the red flags hidden in their interactions with this mysterious lightner. The lightner couldn't exist outside of his void and Host was the only one he could speak to. Host had a presence. Host had a physical body. Host had a voice. They could help this lightner return home.
But to open their mind, Host had to do more than stare into the void, they had to look beyond it, to leave themself behind, to channel the void, and to become the lightner's host and guide them back home.
Had their name always been Host? Their memories were becoming fuzzier by the day. The lightner never called them by their name, only a "host", the "host", like an experiment. Like a labrat you don't name to avoid attachment. What an honour to be in such a divine position. What an honour to have such a bond with a lightner.
But Host couldn't do it. No matter what they did, they never could figure out how to "open their mind" like the Lightner wanted. They were defective, and their screen couldn't display images, how could they see what he wanted them to see? How could they find those pieces of him when their mind was stuck in one place? He spoke of other dark worlds beyond the Cable, but Host only saw their own.
As an experiment, the lightner decided that he was going to aid them in this. He was going to make them see. Host was finally going to be able to unlock their full potential.
But Host underestimated the lightner's power over them. Like a painful shock going through their whole body and mind, Host saw it all, every dark world, every moment, everything happening everywhere all at once, bombarding their mind, shattering their reality, and as the visions became more and more overwhelming, Host's cries in pain turned into screams.
Visions and pain so overwhelming that cries did little to ease the pain. A cathode's scream is a powerful sight to behold, but Host was far too preoccupied to realize the shockwaves that their voice released. Their voice became garbled and corrupted by the strain, as any recognizable sound corrupted into a mess of crushed static and noise.
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(There is this very old abandoned animation I made a while back meant to capture that moment, I figure visuals could help more??? I want to properly remake and finish this video eventually)
Meanwhile, elsewhere, was Mike, a nobody Microphone, all by himself which was uncommon for a darkner of his type, and unlucky to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.
Sensing the shockwave nearby, he tried to flee, but his short legs couldn't get him out of its range in time, and his fragile circuits couldn't handle the overwhelming electric shock, coming from an unknown scream of someone he couldn't see.
He felt it all over his body, the same overwhelming pain, causing him to collapse on the ground until the screaming subsided.
Regaining his senses, after what felt like hours, Mike was met with a chilling realization. He couldn't move. His body failed to respond to him. Further cursing his luck was that there was no other darkner in sight (Not that they'd bother helping something as lowly as a Microphone of all things), it slowly dawned on him that no one was coming for him. He was completely paralyzed, and if someone were to show up to hurt him, he'd have no way to escape.
Struggling to move in a body that did not respond to him, he tensed up when he heard the sound of someone slowly stumbling their way out of a dark alleyway. The tall figure meekly clinging on to the wall, and Mike quickly recognized the head shape as being one of a TV. Of course a TV did this.
In his anger, struggling to move his body, he yelled out to them. Larger darkners than him rarely to ever had good intentions, and if this TV was looking to pick on him, then he wasn't going down without a fight.
Host had been in a trance, but hearing the loud microphone's voice crying out insults in their direction, snapped them out of it, his voice louder than the visions in their mind.
And as Host saw the smaller darkner paralyzed on the floor, they quickly rushed to his aid, sparks of electricity still crawled through his body, and despite his protests over Host picking him in concern, the TV didn't budge, breathing heavily and beginning to weep.
A sound meekly tried to leave their mouth, like a weak pained croak attempting to replicate what was once a voice. Mike could have sworn it was an... apology?
He was shaken by this, and quickly realized that whatever had happened to him was tame compared to what the larger darkner was going through. Their panic, their sobbing, whatever it was that was capable of leaving a TV darkner like them in such a state had to be out of this world.
Whatever had broken them, had broken him too, and through their pain and cries, the TV kept attempting to apologize, their voice wheezing in pain, as each glitch caused them to strain themself further.
But Mike was far too shaken by what was out there that could terrify someone this much. What was out there that was so powerful that paralyzing him was nothing but collateral damage.
In their mind, Host heard the lightner telling them to take the smaller darkner with them. A paralyzed mic couldn't run away. He could be useful.
But Host only barely heard what he was telling them. Instead, focusing on Mike who tried his best to calm them down, the way someone so hurt by what Host did still showed more compassion than they had ever been given by anyone else. The lightner's words triggered a strange feeling in them. Taking the mic? Him not running away? That wording made them want to protect him. But why? The lightner was good, wasn't he?
"We can find who did this!" Host saw the small microphone speaking as his limp body still twitched with leftover sparks of electricity "I... I can't move, b-but... I can be your voice..."
Host sniffed, tears still streaming down the sides of their screen.
And I can be your body, they said wordlessly.
#Jay Asks#aniverous#mike#host#gaster#giving a short response vs writing a quick fic /spins wheel#this is still too short for my tastes but I feel like I wouldn't be able to fully capture most of the context with a regular response idk h#My Art#My Writing#Song at the end is from M&H's playlist and I kind of always associate it with their first meeting...#Writing this is making me want to redraw that old sketch comic....#It's a quick draft so sorry if some wording is weird ngfjkdng
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i swear to god the next time i think "oh i feel and function much better now, maybe i dont need my meds anymore" i NEED to remember that that is the DEVIL SPEAKING and that the REASON i feel and function better is BECAUSE the meds are IN my system and that the NEXT COURSE OF ACTION is NOT to REMOVE the from my system but to KEEP THEM THERE good god
#I AM SO SHARP AND PRODUCTIVE THESE DAYS IT IS INSANE I#I FEEL LIKE HOW I FELT WHEN I FIRST GOT INTO TOT SO SHARP AND CREATIVE AND WRITING AND ONLY NOW DO I RMEMBER THAT#THAT WAS ALSO WHEN I STARTED MY MEDS#THEN I WENT OFF THEM IN FEB-MARCH 2022#IMMEDIATE DIP IN PRODUCTIVITY AND MOOD. AS IF. MAYHAPS. THE MEDS BEING IN ME H E L P E D#AND THEM NOT BEING IN ME DID NOT HELP#I CRACKED THE CODE. THE ANSWER IS THAT I WAS AN IDIOT#dootdootdoot#sorry for the capitalized yelling but this felt like the expanding brain meme for me. guys. guys ive Written#i /wrote and finished a fic/#it's for a zine so i cant post it yet yall have to get the tot olympians zine (@olympianszine) to read this one#and then i sTARTED A NEW FIC AND I HAVE 1.5K WORDS oN THAT#and thats on top of everythng ive been working on for the nxx comp vol 2 and work and life#damn. what a good set of meds can do to a mfer. why was i so angsty about going on meds again i need this shit tf
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I went on a walk with my dad
#I’m so so so so so sorry that I keep complaining I’m really sorry if it’s annoying or bothersome or anything ask me to take this down and I-#-will; I don’t wanna bother anyone :(#But I went on a walk with my dad and after a bit of talking we somehow got to the topic of conversation on how me and H butt heads a lot#And the way he said made me feel like I was the problem and that because I am older I NEED to be the bigger person every time#And I told him I didn’t want to have to be the bigger person because I didn’t like how immature she is and he just deflected it saying that#-I’m going to need to because I’m older and more mature#He also said that I’m the one who’s always defensive or picking out the fight when that isn’t true#I don’t want to fight with her; I HATE fighting with her#And geez it’s making me feel like I’m always the problem and I’m the reason why we argue so much#That I’M defensive and immature when I know I’m not#He says I need to be more gentle with her and not expect her to get pissy and defensive bit i only do that(if i do that at all) because she#-yells and snaps at me for no reason so often! I expect her to act that way because it’s how she always acts with me!#I’m not that immature right?#And he says I need to put in the effort to fix it even though she probably won’t do the same#Why do I have to fix it? Why am I responsible? It’s not fair!#I don’t want to be the cool headed mature and bigger person every single time#If she hurts me with her words I should be allowed to make that known without her yelling at me!#🌾#again I’m really sorry for complaining to whoever may be reading this#It’s silly I know#I’m just dramatic I’ll get embarrassed for posting this soon enough and delete it#I don’t know why I’m like this :(#I don’t like it#Geez what’s wrong with me
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"are you writing weird fetish fanfiction or are you writing normal fanfiction about how much they love each other?"
OK LOOK IT'S BEST WHEN IT'S BOTH OK! DON'T LOOK AT ME
#sorry. once again the lines i am writing are SO. SO. that they are getting ME as i write#and i am getting too comfortable here so now u get to hear me whine abt it#instead of me posting very obliquely abt it on my main#catte life#not exactly snz#GOD! h/ualian is really just the ship ever.#whines abt not being able to write and then immediately turns around and pounds out 1500 words in a day#who said complaining is bad clearly it is working#part 5 is gonna have to be. chaptered i think actually#it could be all one it's not gonna be THAT long (8.5k rn & still going)#but it would still be a LOT to read all in one go as a kink fic haha ha. ha. ouo;;;;;;
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(Tw: kinda transphobia? Use of it/its for a character who hasn’t declared what their pronouns are yet. Arguments over whether a character is a person or not; that ties into the pronoun thing here. Bonus points for descriptions of canon-typical gore yipeeee)
An update from after writing this: oh this. Got. This one got away from me?? I think I started this at 4 minutes past the hour. It is now 43 minutes past the hour. shitt.
Update; it is now 17 minutes after the NEXT hour. 26 minutes after th last update. I have seen god in the past hour and she shook in fear of both my power and audacity. I have lunch with my family scheduled in like 6 hours and I have not yet slept. This wasn’t meant to be as long as it is but I was possessed and this is the result. I may edit it and make it smoother later but I’ll make that a separate post, I want this sleep-deprived chunk of words to be here as like a monument to the fact that I could have been playing stardew valley during this time but I chose to do this instead
TLDR: long ass story ahead written by a sleep-deprived and hyperfixation-driven author. Who is now going the fuck to BED
“We can’t just keep it! What if it has a tracking device? It won’t let us fucking touch it so there’s no way of knowing it has one unless it leads them right to us!”
“Ok, I hear you but think. That hasn’t happened yet. It’s been about what, three days? and that hasn’t happened, and they haven’t been violent towards any of us at all. They haven’t tried to go back either, so there’s no risk of them telling or leading Showfall where we are.”
“Why do you keep calling it ‘they’?”
“Well they can’t be an “it” now can it? …wait.”
“Ok can we figure out the gender of the thing in the other room after we figure out if it’s a threat to us or not. It’s not even a fucking person, you remember what those things did to you back there, don’t you?”
“Those people were not themselves, they were just doing what he wanted them to do—“
“They’re not fucking people! Those things are all part of Showfall, just like Hetch was! It’s just waiting for the right time to turn us in, or pull some shit on one of us like they did before.”
“They weren’t… they weren’t in control.”
“Yeah like fuck they weren’t, I saw it fucking happen!”
“You can’t just… Ok. Sneeg. Stop. You don’t speak for me, the one who, oh I don’t know, was the one that shit happened to? They were being controlled just like us—“
“No, no, not like us. We were wandering around and not knowing what the fuck was happening. None of us knew what was happening. We just went along blindly. Those things—on purpose—dragged you to that stupid wall and sewed wires into your hands—“
“Shut up, Sneeg—“
“No you shut up! You didn’t see it fucking happen! I saw them and Bitchface literally hold you down until you passed out! They were fucking choking you, they fucking—they nearly fucking killed you with just their hands, that’s not a little suggestion in the back of your brain, that’s on purpose! That is fucking deliberate, that is a thing those machines chose to do! You don’t remember, you weren’t conscious when they fucking stapled you to the wall and strapped your head in—“
Sneeg glanced at Ranboo for a moment in-between pacing as he ranted, and the far away look in their sibling’s eyes shut them up immediately. Ranboo was still present, thank fuck, but they were looking at their brother like he was holding up a knife to their throat.
“Fuck, Ran, okay, okay—I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have… shit. Do you need Charlie?”
“You don’t know when to shut the fuck up.”
“…okay. Okay. I’m sorry. Do you need me to get Charlie?”
“No, I’m fucking fine.” It did not sound like he meant that at all. His voice was less steady than before. “I don’t want him to worry about our… hitchhiker. He’s worrying enough about… well, everything.”
“The fact that it’s here, so close to us is the reason I’m trying to get you to see, Ran. What if it turns on him? What if it does that shit to him when we aren’t there?”
“We will be there.”
“And when it tries anything, we can kill it?”
“Sneeg!”
“You wouldn’t kill it, even if it hurt our fucking brother?”
“Of course we wouldn’t keep them around if they did that, could we at least just… just leave it behind? …wait, no, they couldn’t take care of themselves. If we had to leave it behind, maybe we should…”
Silence lingered for a bit too long.
“We should what, Ran?”
“…Sneeg, I was about to say that killing it would be a mercy.” The Hero laughed. “Doesn’t that sound familiar?”
The Taken didn’t reply.
“We have to help them. I don’t… I don’t want to be on the other end of a mercy killing. I don’t want to hurt anyone anymore.”
“Okay. I’m—are you okay?”
“…m fine. It’s fine. Just. Can you stop acting like they’re any different from us? Please.”
“What do you want me to think then?” His voice was softer than it had been a few minutes before.
“Just assume that they… that they were someone. Just like we were before. And they didn’t… they didn’t do anything on their own, it was all Showfall.”
“Okay. Fine. Let’s assume they were controlled, they didn’t mean to, so on and so forth. Why haven’t they talked yet.”
“I don’t think any of the drones even could talk. Wait, should we really be calling them a drone—“
“Shut the fuck up, Ranboo, we have got to figure out what to do with it. It probably doesn’t even know what is happening, what the fuck does it matter what we call it.”
“It matters to me! Do you want me to call you by your title? Do you want to call me by mine? …No? Then why are we treating them like all they are is what Showfall made them? We had lives before, we were someone, so they must have been too. They might not realize it, or… or act like it, but they used to be someone. They are a whole person, Sneeg. We have to help them, we can’t just leave them behind because that would mean we are giving up on someone just like us, and we cannot give up on each other. They… they would have hurt us by now if they were going to. And Showfall hasn’t found us since… you know, which means there aren’t any more trackers.
…okay, Sneeg?”
“…okay. If it,” he sighed at the look Ran gave them, “if they try anything, we have to leave them behind. I’m not letting a dumbass puppet be the reason we get taken back.”
“If they—ok, whatever, you’re not understanding. You can’t say one of us somehow wanted to be controlled, and they’re a ‘puppet’ but those rules don’t apply to the rest of us—“
“There is not an ‘us,’ Ran! That thing isn’t like us!”
“Guys?”
A sleepy voice shut the two of them up instantly. They had a split-second conversation with their eyes before looking to their brother. ‘We aren’t done talking about this’ ‘You’e absolutely right, so later?’ ‘Later.’ ‘We’re telling Charlie nothing happened?’ ‘Of course.’ ‘Ok good plan.’
“Why are you two fighting? I’m tired, can we please go back to sleep?”
“We weren’t fighting, we were…”
“…talking about plans for tomorrow. And you can go back to sleep.”
“I don’t want to be by myself.” Charlie looked at Sneeg pointedly, who sighed to Ranboo with a playfully annoyed expression.
“Well I guess I gotta go be a teddy bear again.”
“Have fun”
“Absolutely not.”
Charlie punched Sneeg in the shoulder lightly for that, who just giggled in response and led his little brother back to their room.
Which left Ran by themselves.
Some nights, he would join them, but some nights Charlie couldn’t stand to be anywhere near Ran, and the three of them had made a silent mutual agreement that Charlie trusted Sneeg more than he did Ranboo.
…Ranboo was okay with this. He wasn’t hurt by it. He didn’t cry on the nights he slept by himself.
He didn’t wish he could be the one Sneeg comforted sometimes. They were just fine.
They were fine, which is why they went to the living room where their… well. Their hitchhiker? They weren’t exactly a brother, or a sibling, more like a fourth wheel on a tricycle. Or a flyaway hair. Okay, maybe Ranboo needed to get tbr fuck to sleep, alone or not.
But he found himself in the living room, where their hitchhiker slept. Or, didn’t sleep, as they seemed to not need to. They would sit on the couch and stare idly at the tv. That was what had started the whole conversation with Sneeg in the first place; Ran wanted to leave some kind of entertainment for the fourth person so they wouldn’t be made to sit in the dark for hours. Sneeg took this remark as a perfect opportunity to explain all the reasons why the former drone should be abandoned, but Ranboo would have fucking none of it. Maybe the couch potato (shit, he really needed to come up with a name for them—) didn’t seem to sleep, barely ate, and stayed still unless actually verbally told to move, but they were still a person. Ranboo was sure of it.
Their hand wandered up to the fresh scabs where their mask had been. The fourth person had a mask, one that hadn’t been touched. Despite usually staying still, the person—(Ranboo thinks they might just call this person Couch for now. Maybe it’s not accurate, and they’re tired, but it’s something. C, for short.)
C would back away any time the others would try to get near them. And they did in fact try, but despite how creative or sneaky they got, C always ducked away. It reminded Ranboo of the drone who had followed them with a camera, always one step away and never letting the Hero get too close.
The mask turned to Ranboo, who stared back quietly. C hadn’t talked at all, so Ranboo didn’t expect them to suddenly start now. He wasn’t even sure if they understood what was said to them, but Ranboo wanted to try anyways. Better to be polite.
“Do you like the show that’s on? I think it’s called Lucy, or something. I don’t know, Sneeg said it was funny. And it didn’t seem, uh- scary or anything.”
The mask didn’t speak.
“If you want to change it, the remote’s right there, um, I showed you how to use it before. And there’s like, instructions drawn on there. You can thank Charlie for that one.”
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“I think I’m going to head to bed.”
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“Fuck it, can I stay here?”
The mask still didn’t speak, but the head hidden behind it tilted a bit at the sudden change in tone. Ranboo took this as an absolute win.
“So I just. I don’t want to be by myself. And I don’t think you sleep, I mean if you just sleep when everyone else is asleep that’s cool, but also if so how do you even? function? on that much sleep? It really isn’t that much but to be fair you don’t do much so maybe you don’t need it. …do you sleep sitting up? And just somehow wake up when we get close? I know, um. Sorry about that, again, we were just worried your mask had a tracker like mine used to.”
Ran laughed nervously. “I think I did convince them that it doesn’t, so that should stop now. If um. If we make you uncomfortable you still don’t have to be touched, it’s, it’s fine.”
Other than the head tilt before, there wasn’t a reply.
“Okay, since. You can’t talk, I’m just gonna… I’ll sit down beside you. On the couch. And if you don’t want me to be that close you can uh- you can leave. Or like, get up, and then I’ll leave. This is the only room with a tv, so I’ll let you stay here, but I can’t tell if you want me to be here or not, so. Okay, sorry, I’m rambling. Just… move if you want me to leave, okay?”
Ranboo waited for a response that didn’t come, then sighed. “Okay.” He kept his hands up and open while sitting down, waiting for a few moments before tucking his feet under himself to get more comfortable. “I’m just gonna stay here, okay? Like I said, just move if you want me to leave.”
The mask had tracked them to where they sat now, but the person—C—didn’t make a move to leave. Ranboo turned their attention to the tv, keeping an eye on their couch partner in their peripheral vision. During a moment of audience laughter in the show—I Love Lucy, they remembered—C turned their head back to the television as they had been before Ranboo walked in.
Seeing as how C (they needed a better name than that—) didn’t speak, this was the closest Ranboo could get to being told “you can stay here.” So they did. A few episodes later, his head was on the arm of the couch and his eyes were closed.
Five turned its attention to the Hero, who was now asleep. He had said it was a person, which was almost hilarious. And the Taken and the Hero seemed to think it couldn’t talk? They had to know it needed to be given permission first: any handler of a Drone or Prop knew that basic rule. It would wait until permission was given: it knew how to obey. It wasn’t meant to speak to a superior unless it was told it was allowed. It would wait.
…in the meantime, it studied its handler, the Hero. The other Actors, their two other handlers, called him ‘Ranboo’ but Five knew that wasn’t his actual label. The Hero was his character in the last show, and so that is who he was. Five didn’t know if Actors had a number, but he had been called the Hero in the script, and so the Hero he will be until the script changes.
It hoped to get new instructions, a new script for itself, something, soon. It was tired of simply watching the Actors go about their incredibly off-script show. It was sometimes told to participate, and since no other superiors were nearby, it had to obey its current handlers. But it was told to participate, to stir eggs, to help clean the kitchen, to attack small webs in corners with a stick with soft spikes on the end. Those sorts of things weren’t it’s usual directive, and so it found itself…
It didn’t resent its handlers. They were doing their best, and they at least knew that they were meant to give it orders. It simply wished they were familiar orders. It wished the Hero had told it to play dead, or play chase, or play camera, or caught, or prop. It would even listen if it was told to power down until needed. At least then it wouldn’t have to be conscious in this boring and unfamiliar set.
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Y EA I know they probably don’t like tvs. Shhhhhh. I didn’t think about that until like. I had already written the tv part. At this moment it is 55 minutes past th hour and I want these characters to go the fuck to sleep so I can go thr fuck to sleep /lh
And yeah Five only uses “he” for glran. That is intentional. It’ll be talked about and shit later. Something about being put into a role, something about showfall being transphobic, something something I want to go to bed
Powering down = “sleeping” for a drone. Different but similar. I’ll explain how it works later?, anyway The others hav e told Five to “sleep” but it doesn’t understand because it is only ever told to “power down” so it’s like error.sleep_not_found and it stares at them like “bitch you said the wrong. Thing. You’re supposed to know how to control me so you don’t want me to power down I fucking guess” and it’s gonna be really funny after that miscommunication is taken care of.
If you remember the Five Gets A Cold And Wants To Throw Hands With Everyone post, this is wayyy before that. These motherfuckers are fresh out of showfall. Don’t ask how they got a house. I’ll figure it out
I am! Tired! I’m not proofreading this!! Goodnight please give me your thoughts if you have them. I need to know I didn’t sacrifice tbis much sleep in vain /nf /lh (I appreciate words but you are Not required to give them. Love you have a good nigt/p)
#five the genloss blorbo#let’s not talk about how many tries it took me to spell unobserved. let’s simplynot#update like 5 years into me writing this: i also cannot spell the word peepohe it would seem#that. that was meant to be the word People. you can see m#h my point stands#it is late as fuck yet I Have to make this. it has to exist so I must make it exist#I’m hamilton writing like I’m running out of time but I’m writing g#writing 51 essays in which assorted characters get the physical and/or emotional shit beaten out of them#and me running out of time is running out of sleepy. I am a sleep y man#take a break and get away says my pillow. I am Hamilton my pillow is upstate and this goddam mess of a short story I am trying to write is M#this story is Mariah Reyndolds leading me to her bed .#I haven’t slept in a while and I’m hyperfixationed on Hamilton so that metaphor makes. 0 sense#if you’re reading this far I’m so sorry. have a cookie! and fun fact an old lady held my hand and s#she said my (Very Androgynous!!) haircut is perfect. she used those words#i almost cried right then and there. genuine compliments from people make my fucking day . ok I need to go back to editing thisthing now#I wrote it. changed a plot point. started to rewrite it. changed ANOTHER plot point#so now I’ve got several s#several layers of Oh Shit I have to untangle#im. making my own goddam escape au apparently????? it won’t make any fucking sense but I will explain it later.#and! feel free to ask questions!’ and tell me if it make’s absolutely 0 sense#I do in fact want to be able to tell the story in a way you will understand. so ask questions! give a feedback! /gen /pos#I accidentally. deleted a tag so whatever I was going to say is fucking gone now. oh I think I memerbr#they are out of character ye. I’m sleepy and I’m making their escape au up as I go.#so far I have 1) the box scene was somehow Worse#2) they kidnapped Five (yippee!)#3) Charlie is the most traumatized out of the three. I don’t. I don’t know why.#I think that’s mostly because I didn’t feel like writing a conversation between Three characters. so my brain was like this :#why isn’t Charlie here? sleeping. why are these two not including him in conversation? protectiveness.#why protectiveness? he is the most upset out of the three of them and the other two have basically taken up the caretaker role. great plan#great plan hit the showers. I have reached. max tags. shit oh well back to writing tumblr says so!
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yeah I’m a lil sl*t that likes disgusting things but I also just cried in the car cause I felt like the dress I wore today was too short.. that my friends is called the duality of man✨✨
#strangers definitely saw my ass today n I was not feeling good about that#I would’ve felt better if someone said something about it to me tbh#where were all the pervs at today???#anyways someone come use me n tell me you’re teaching me a lesson for wearing something so short in public#what if someone took advantage of me in my tiny dress? Dont they know that’s your job?#I’m h word rn im sorry ignore me
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Watching 11:59 and I can’t believe they just put a literal Hallmark romcom in the middle of Star Trek Voyager down to Shannon hating Christmas/New Years this show is wild
#HEHEHE I'm NOT interested in 'the past' based episodes of Star Trek unless there's alien shit going on#and Tuvok doesn't say anything in this episode :/#a bit boring#but that old man yelling 'JASON! JASON!' reminded me of that Heavy Rain meme#Sorry VOY writers I will /NEVER/ find an old white dude who idolizes the past to be in any way likeable even when you pit him against#a corporate stooge - I just hate em both v_v#I honestly do believe that a Janeway would monologue dramatically to herself in her car - there's just something very Janeway about that and#I'll buy that it's a family trait.#HEHEH this episode is BIZZARE....I really have NO idea why the writers think we'd want to watch this romcom between not-Janeway and an#old ol d man??? HEHEHEH#I love this stupid fucking show <3<3 like EARNESTLY I do <3#WHO thought of this??#I thought for sure it'd be a fanservice thing and the love interest would be played by Chakotay b u tn o it's just SOME GRANDPA??? HHEHEHEHE#HE' S NOT EVEN HOT#T h is is literally a bizzaro hallmark movie where the big corporation wins?? HEHEH#Neelix is so cute in this episode <3 at least he's here if Tuvok's not gonna say a goddamn WORD#He has a really good memory!!! And I like how he was teasing Seven about her having kids but as soon as she looked at him he was like#' O R NO T!! ORNOT!!!' hHEHE...he and Seven arefunny together they are FRIENDS <3#OH sorry my mistake Tuvok's singular line in this episode is#'I concur with that analysis'#-I bludgeon the writers to death-#at least we got some Harry Kim lore!! I liked his story~!!#this could have a been a neat character building episode - like if it was more focused on the entire cast rather than just Janeway#but . WHATEVER. -rueful and irritated smile-#this is still just a 'blah' episode of Voy for me it takes a lot to make me rate a Voyager episode as like..HEHE ACTUALLY bad and not fun#this is 'blah' bc its not fun has no Tuvok but I like the character interactions in the non-past storyline#liveblogging
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youre freaking kidding
i didnt know how i would feel about the deaf component of this show, considering gemini is a hearing person playing a deaf character and i wasnt sure how to feel about that
but oh my freaking goodness his own freaking mother hasnt even bothered to learn freaking sign language
she just makes him write everything on a notepad. and that doesnt even happen often cos shes barely ever home. and his dad is also barely in his life
li ming has known heart for a few months, and he can already talk to heart at an almost fluent level
and yet his own freaking mother cant even be bothered to learn a couple signs so she can have a worthwhile freaking conversation with her freaking SON
its been THREE FREAKING YEARS
LEARN SOME FREAKING SIGN LANGUAGE YOU STUPID WOMAN
#sorry i feel very strongly about this#how. in three freaking years. do you not learn sign language for your deaf son#thats 1095 days.#she couldve at least learnt one word a day or something#i know shes not home much but one word a day isnt much#especially when its your FREAKING SON#she doesnt even let him leave the house#he has LITERALLY NO ONE TO TALK TO#NOT EVEN. HIS OWN. FREAKING. M O T H E R.#HOW#HOW DOES THAT HAPPEN#ITS FREAKING DISGUSTING#and whats even worse is there are definitely people out there who are actually like this. mothers who dont care.#mothers who wont bother to accomodate for their child's disability.#it makes me so freaking angry#quodekash watches moonlight chicken immediately after watching 1000stars#mlc#moonlight chicken#heartliming#limingheart#geminifourth#gemini norawit#fourth nattawat#moonlight chicken series#moonlight chicken the series#mlc heart#heart mlc
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