#sorry it’s. literally OVER. a year later…

[meetmypointlessaddiction]

let me chase your demons away | l.howlett

First post of the New Year, hoping to write bigger and better things this year :)

Summary: Logan struggles to sleep... but not when you're around

Warnings: nightmares and panic attacks

Pairings: leaning more towards a fem!reader

Enjoy and please like and comment if you do. Something as simple as an emoji literally makes my day better so please don't hesitate to comment and obviously reblog to share my work.

Requests are also open if there is anything that people want me to write 💛

Logan had struggled with nightmares for as long as he could remember. Up until now, there had never been anything that could prevent the neverending terror loop his brain played on a night. Up until you.

You hadn’t been at the school long, Charles had invited you to come and teach English to some of the younger students, but Logan could tell there was something about you, something about your scent that made him relax. Your sleeping habits were just as messed up as his meaning that, whenever you both found yourself unable to sleep, you would both end up on the couch in the mansion’s living room, watching shitty movies to try and tempt you both to sleep. More often than not, it worked for Logan but little did you know that it wasn’t the mind numbing films or the peaceful silence, it was your company. 

For weeks, Logan would simply allow himself to fall asleep on the sofa beside you and it was the best night’s sleep he would have all week. He would ensure there was a good amount of distance between the two of you, not confident enough that he wouldn’t have a nightmare and go all Wolverine on you. You would wait until he fell asleep and then arrange his legs and neck comfortably on the couch, laying the thick blanket over him and then heading off to bed. 

When you were out on a mission or away from the mansion on a long period of time, Logan would have many nightmares. Nightmares meant a sleep deprived Logan and a sleep deprived Logan meant suffering for everyone else in the mansion. One night in particular, snow was falling heavily when Logan went to sleep and you were out of town, visiting some friends in a nearby village meaning a nightmare was 100% guaranteed. Snow was hard enough for Logan to manage, reminding him of Stryker and the physical and mental toll he went through. 

He woke with a start, his chest heaving and feeling tight, dripping sweat and struggling to concentrate on taking deep breaths. He didn’t know why it occurred to him but for some reason his first instinct was to call you so that’s what he did, not even considering the late hour, knowing that you were more than likely awake. 

In the next village over, your phone buzzing interrupted the conversation you and your friends were having over a bottle of wine. “Who’s calling you at this time?” Your friend, Georgia, asked with a smirk. 

“You got a secret boyfriend, you’re hiding from us?” Faith nudged you with a cheeky grin but you just gave them a half smile, standing and excusing yourself to take the call. 

“Logan? Has something happened?” You asked down the phone, alarmed by the heavy breathing and almost whimpers you could hear. 

“I-I think I’m havin’ a heart attack bub.” He said and you knew from then what was wrong. Since when does the Wolverine have heart attacks?

“Logan, you’re having a panic attack honey. You need to take deep breaths, sit yourself down and stop pacing, okay? Are you sat?” You asked and heard the creak of a bedframe as the man grumbled an affirmative. “Alright, in through your nose and out through your mouth. It’ll pass, Logan, I promise.” 

After a couple of minutes, his breathing began to even out the amount of noise he was making reduced. “I… sorry for interrupting your evenin’.” He ended the call quickly and you were left standing in the hall of your friends house, confused. Why did he call you out of everyone?

~~~~~~~~~~

A few days later, upon your return from your friend's house, Logan pulled you aside with a stern look on his face. “What happened the other night, didn't. Understand? Forget it.” 

You look at him, confused and slightly insulted. “What? You think I’m going to tell someone or something? You think I think of you any less because of it?” Your protest seemed to throw Logan off guard and he looked at you with wide eyes and his mouth slightly agape. “I don’t know who you think I am, Logan but that’s not the type of person I am.” 

~~~~~~~~~~

For the next few nights, Logan didn’t go downstairs to sit with you on the couch and watch shitty films, didn’t allow himself to bask in the comfort your company gave him. Instead, he suffered on minimal sleep and caffeine, causing headaches for everyone around him and snapping at every minor inconvenience in his life. 

Eventually, you grew tired of it and grabbed him by his forearm just as he was about to head to bed, dragging him towards the couch. “Everyone’s tired of your shit, Logan. Sit on the damn couch, watch a movie with me and sleep.” You demanded, pushing him to his side of the couch and putting the blanket over him before plopping yourself down at your side, closer than the pair of you would normally sit. Logan resisted for as long as he could but pure exhaustion gave him no other choice than to relax and sleep. His eyes fell shut and within minutes he was asleep, snoring and drool coming from his mouth. However, instead of going off to bed like you normally would, you rested your head against his shoulder and let yourself doze off. 

When the students and teachers of the school began waking up and racing downstairs to fight for the tv, they all fell silent at the sight of the notoriously grumpy Wolverine cuddled up with the cute English teacher, his face pressed into your hair as he spooned you, deep snores emanating for the man. Storm and Jean ushered the children out of the living room, telling them to leave the pair of you to rest for a little while longer while Scott immediately found a camera to take a photo to tease Logan with as soon as he woke up.

Dividers: @coolcatsgraphics

I'm also on A03 :)

[lennadanvers]

The Heartbreak Chronicles

Eddie Munson x Reader

Edward The Freak Munson was your first love.

(He preferred to be called Eddie).

(That’s why you called him Edward. It was his father’s name, too).

He was also your first heartbreak. And the worst one yet.

It started in Hawkins. All the bad things in your life had started there. You couldn’t have been more than five years old, and Edward was almost adorable back then. He was fun, had an amazing imagination, and loved playing with you. You loved him, too.

You slew dragons and fought in the name of Queen Buttons- your stuffed hippo- for years, so when his first actual battle came, you expected to be by his side.

He didn’t, apparently. His mom was gone and his father abandoned him. Eddie ended up living with his uncle in a place that held little resemblance to a castle.

Of course, he didn’t tell you any of that. Instead, he described the infinite garden he had in his new home; how it was full of adventures and characters out of a tale. He told you about the dangers he faced- the monsters in the hallway, the darkness wanting to take him, the fae that stole his lunch. He explained that the way to his abode was long and full of traps and risks. He didn’t want you to venture into such a dangerous path.

So you didn’t. With Eddie, imagination and reality were always too close to see the difference. Besides, he was just as energetic as always. He even gained some weight; it was easy to tell.

There were other changes, though. Ones that happened slowly. Seamlessly. His favorite color went from red to black. He said once it reminded him of his mom, and proceeded to ask what colors you liked best in the same breath. His childlike interest for shiny things evolved into a collection of chains. They started appearing clasped onto every pair of jeans he owned. His laugh was louder every time you said something even remotely funny.

And his eyes were weaker and weaker.

They used to have a wild spark. Two dark bonfires, the promise of well-intentioned mischief. But his laugh was a gush of wind, and every time he opened his mouth it was like blowing at the agonizing embers.

It was a dark spell, a silent curse that poisoned him- or so you thought. He bailed on you one time, and you forgave him instantly. Who woulnd’t? He said he was sorry. And did it again a couple weeks later. Nothing to worry about. He hadn’t bailed in literal years; you could cut him some slack. Until there weren’t any more sleepovers or playdates, no more walks to find treasures by the forest or cheap ice cream listening to his stories.

Then came the summer break, and Edward disappeared. Not really, of course. You saw him once with his uncle at the grocery store. Once. He was alive and healthy, as far as you could tell. Then where had he been? Why hadn’t he been with you, as usual? You didn’t even remember summers without him.

The last day of vacation, you found a silly little dragon ring. It was most definitely made out of plastic, but it was gold and has two fake diamonds as eyes. With a little bit of imagination, it could pass as a dragon rider’s ring. It was meant for Edward, of course. Who, if not him, would wear it with pride?

But he never wore it. Not even to try it on when you gave it to him.

It was the first day of school, and, after years of friendship, the first day you sat alone in class. Which was stupid because he also sat alone. His hair was gone, and his eyes looked even bigger. It just made it worse when he smiled and nodded as a thank you, because there was no light in them. The fire had gone out, at last.

You had tried, alright. Over and over. But if the princess didn’t let his hair fall, then there was no way for you to climb the tower and save him.

You made friends with other people, life went by. It never stopped for things like this.

That was the first time Edward Munson broke your heart. At least, that time he had the decency to do it slowly, carefully. A death by natural causes. He didn’t have the same consideration the next time.

A/N: new series!! A little old, actually, but new for you guys! Hopefully it's at least entertaining. Chapters will be short but bitter, just the way I like my writing ;)) If you want me to, I can make a taglist (I have one for Pure Imagination, but I don't know if anyone will be interested in being tagged for this one), just comment or send an ask and I'll add you. Have a nice week! ♥️

[thesunfyre4446]

“This makes a huge difference to how the GA will precieve her”

It will also affect how they perceive Alicent and Helaena in contrast to her as well.

In S1 Rhaenyra had two birthing scenes, this not only humanises her but endears her to the audience. She’s no longer an entitled princess, now she’s a loving mother 🥰

Alicent and Helaena are not given the same opportunity. Alicent’s interactions with her kids varies from mild disinterest to verbal berating. Her emotional moments are solely with Rhaenyra, we are told that Alicent should prioritise a woman who wouldn’t even spit on her if she were on fire over her own children.

Same goes for Helaena, in the first season it’s barely even addressed that she’s a mother. All we get is a 10 second scene where she watches absentmindedly as the maid plays with two nameless toddlers. The scene then moves to Helaena recoiling from Alicent’s touch, showing neither women are particularly affectionate mothers. Again, compare this to Rhaenyra lovingly presenting Aegon and Viserys to her dying father.

Then in Season 2 Rhaenyra spends a whole episode mourning Luke, we are told over and over again that she’s a mother who lost her son and thus humanised as more than just a tv character.

Now compare this to how they treated Jaehaerys’ murder. Helaena barely puts up a fight, then refers to him as “the boy” completely dehumanising Jaehaerys to ensure no one feels too sorry for Team Green. Alicent doesn’t even comfort her weeping son, whilst Rhaenyra was being paralleled to Catelyn Stark when she tearfully held Jace.

Moreover, Luke’s funeral is heart wrenching and emotional, his mother and brothers mourning silently as they burn his personal effects. His death is shown to be something so evil and heartless that even Alicent lights a candle for him, because she should feel bad that Rhaenyra lost a child. Rhaenyra does not have the same response to Jaehaerys, because again the audience is told they shouldn’t care a random 6 year old was killed because it’s clear his own mother and grandmother don’t.

yeah i agree

but tbh doesn't seem like luke's death really effected rhaenyra for more then 1 ep. she literally goes to meet up with alicent an episode later & goes on and on about wanting to prevent a war.

i think that besides wanting the audience to only sympathize with rhaenyra, the show's "all women are peaceful and men are baddd" narrative & not doing a good job at writing grief in general = s2 rhaenyra and alicent.

[floatingseaotter]

The Worst Day Ever

or It's My Party

Song - Dream by Priscilla Ahn

"...at length" count - 59

Part I: Carlotta

REAL! This truly is the worst day ever and me reading the entirety of the beginning of this chapter is quite literally *grumble grumble grumble*

"I think it's going to be a good year for you, lily."

- Yeah girl we just gotta suffer first😭

ARGGGGGGHHHH Carlotta!!!! Sirius is so real like Carlotta really has not done anything wrong (except betray Shelley to a degree) but I'm sorry I cannot stand it and her!!!

"Not really," said James. "Most of our mystique, I hear, is just smoke and mirrors."

- a Lily quote right?

CALRLOTTA LEAVE HIM ALONE! She's desperate to go with him to the prefect meeting it's making me mad but it's okay Sirius once again saving me from this plight of reading Carlotta x James😌😌😌

Lily noticing them my heart my heart my heart my heart

Then, as Lily located her bag, her eyes flickered towards James and Carlotta and, for the shortest of seconds, Carlotta thought she noticed Lily's eyebrows lift infinitesimally. Everyone else noticed, too. "We're dating," James blurted out suddenly, and Carlotta—who was not the blushing type—felt the heat rise in her face. There was about half a second of awkwardness, and then Lily smiled brightly. "Cool." With that, the Head Girl started to rummage about in her bag for her badge. Everyone, including the Ravenclaws and Hufflepuffs, stared at her.

-- I HATE IT!! I am fairly sure she cries right? i am imagining her wiping a tear later? This was so unbelievably unfair by James especially in the way that they are all just watching her for a reaction, cannot bare it! at all!!!

The rest of the dorm is so behind Shelleyyyyy! I forgot about her make-over but I feel like there is an underlying plot here that I either never learned or just can't remember? Like specifically with the potion...

Remus sticking with Lily <3<3<3

Not Sirius not knowing who Shelley was; a violation lmao😭

Suspiciously: "Why do you need Lily?" "Well... I don't know," Carlotta had to admit. "I just... I needed her advice on something. Can I talk to you?" "Why on Earth would you suspect that's a good idea?"

-- EXACTLY Marlene! I think that's what bugs me so much about Carlotta's character is that she is so dense and it's so frustrating!!

"No," sighed Carlotta. "It's not that kind of problem. It's... I... I keep having these strange thoughts..." I knew it! You're a lesbian!" "Marlene!"

- AHHAAHAH what marlene😭

Who is the random child with the new DADA teacher—with the inoffensive ponytail and goatee (which sounds like a contradiction to me but whatever)—because I have absolutely zero recollection of this or who they are?😭

THE THERAPIST!! YES THEY BROUGHT IN THE COUNSELLOR AND LILY AND JAMES HAVE THE JOINT MEETING DON'T THEY! But i dont think we ever actually see that chapter i don't think?

Every time Sirius sasses Carlotta a confetti cannon goes off and a baby smiles<3

OMG SHELLEY KISSED MARY'S BOYFRIEND! I FORGOT ABOUT THAT! What if the magic potion she was taking was like infused with some mystically love potion thing? Also Mary upholding Reg's statement that boys can be slags too!!! Where is my mannn

  "...AND WITH THAT FAT, UGLY POCKMARKED BINT!"

- the insults in this remind me of Angus, Thongs, and Perfect Snogging. "She's just a big fat minging minger with huge knickers and a ginormous schnozzle!"

Mary Macdonald essentially: Shelley Mumps is a lad nabbing letch who can't keep her slutty minx hands off of other peoples boyfriends!

Mary was so happy with Stebbins in the summer too, so sad :(

Not Mary revealing Shelley's evil master plan!! A masterplan I fully forgot about (shocking i know) and 😭

"What plan?" "I don't know," said Mary. "I'm sure you'll be able to figure it out, though. You taught her everything she knows, right?"

- OOOOFT

There is a lot of infidelity in this fic, huh?

Carlotta x Frank

Shelley x Stebbins

Donna x Charlie

...Admittedly, sometimes i think its quite a good plot point so i am not complaining as long as it suits me! Sue me!!

Mary suggested going to the Raveclaw dormitories and tear Stebbins limb from limb, but Marlene didn't want to go to prison.

- aahahahahahaahha

It's funny having so little Lily so far!

Without knocking, Carlotta opened the door to the Head Boy's dormitory. James knelt on the floor, already in his night clothes, as he fumbled through his trunk for something. He looked up upon Carlotta's entrance and smiled, but there was something—something just not right in his expression.

-- WHAT HAPPENED I MUST KNOW—I say as if I am not fully aware that he and Lily did not miraculously end up together and all is well but whatever I actually have no idea.

Truthfully, James was Head Boy now, and it was not of Shelley that Carlotta was afraid.

- so she leaped from the gallows and levitated down her street, crashed the party like a record scratch as she screamed, WHOS AFRAID OF LILYYYYYY EVANS ...you should be

Part II: Mary

To be in love, even superficially, on the first day of school, is a wonderful thing indeed.

- aww Mary

Obsessed with Mary and Sabrina Barbery just updating each other on all of the gossip.

OMG YES! Bridget at Hogwarts and protective Donna!

Lily is sullen. Did she see James and Carlotta kiss on the platform? hm... She must have because she doesn't seem surprised when Mary tells her.

"It's still strange," said Marlene; she seemed the most perturbed by the matter, and she kept looking at Lily. Even Mary had to find it a bit odd that Lily's reaction was non-existent. Whether or not Lily had ever reciprocated any of James's feelings for her—and Mary could never decide what she believed on that matter—she ought to have some opinion.

- So sad :(

Shelley's potion is definitely suspicious!

Donna on what she did over the summer: "...and ordered around a well-respected auror." Yeah you did! Lathe mention!!!!🚨

At least they are all worried about Shelley too... I don't believe we ever got to see the end of this plot point?

IS MARY PREGNANT—i say this because she was dizzy and there was a curious "or for some other reason" as to why she was dizzy and as someone who enjoys a good pregnancy trope... that is where my mind always jumps too okay!

Part III: Donna

Donna is so protective of Bridget<3

Please do not tell me Lily was waiting for James because that would crush my spirit to smithereens. —She was waiting for James.

"Alright, Donna?" said Marlene. "It's been—what? All of a week? How was your last day at the pub?" "Fine." Marlene smiled slyly. "Anyone interesting drop by?" Donna glared; "You've been talking to Black." "Whatever do you mean?" "Oh, shut up." Marlene looked smug.

- LATHE LATHE LATHE LATHE LATHE

Charlie is threatening Bridget! Oh dear. RAT MAN!!

She was wondering what Bridget was doing just then... she'd joined Millie Bones in a compartment. Could Millie Bones be trusted? Kingsley evidently thought her a fit companion for their younger sister, but Donna had not verified this. Millie Bones could be a corrupting influence. She could (and probably did) mean trouble. This Millie Bones character had to be stopped.

- hahahahaaha Millie Bones public enemy no.1

Adam distracted by Marlene, as all things should be.

Donna worrying so much about Bridget is obviously so sad because it's rooted in her overthinking after her parents death but the fact that she has beef with Millie Bones and Dromio Prewett (a Little Boy™️) is so funny to read.

Aw Donna apologising to Cassidy!

"Well I've never heard of you feeling guilty over anything," the food trolley lady spoke up again. "Right?" "Once again, no one asked y—how would you even know?"

- HAHAH not the food trolley lady piping up; she's in on all the gossip its giving Dorota from Gossip Girl.

Did you two fall in love?" teased Adam. "Working all those late shifts in the romantic lighting..." "Shut up." "You're blushing." "I am not." "You are! Wait... Shack... did you really fall for Black?" "Don't be thick. I do not fancy Sirius Black." Adam considered her carefully. "But you do fancy someone?" "Fuck off, I don't." "Liar. It's not that Charlie Plex bloke, is it?" Donna glared at him. "I guess not. Who is it? Why all the secrecy? Is he married?"

- JACKLEBOLT JACKLEBOLT JACKLEBOLT JACKLEBOLT

Oh was Adam wondering if Marlene maybe had a thing with one of the Marauders over the summer?

Donna putting creepy Charlie Plex in his place!

Lily looking paler than usual and James looking off... what occurred?

Part IV: Marlene

Marlene feeling like everybody is a sexy baby and she's a monster on a hill :(

"Well, she does," Marlene insisted. "Anyway, it was... kind of frightening." "The wedding?" "No, the protest." "What protest?" "Did I not mention the protest yet?" Adam began to laugh. "Marlene, I have no idea what you're talking about."

- Aw Marleneeeeee my girl! They are so cute I am so sad!! also why didn't Adam's sister tell him about the protest lmao

"... I meant more like..." They began to walk again, "We both love. him... differently. You're like a sister to him!" And only one thought registered for Marlene in response to that: I am an awful sister.

- HAHAHAHAHAHAH

Knew what a prostitute was when you were eight, did you?

- Marlene skskskskks

I LOVE Marlene's growth from first day of sixth year to first day of seventh year!

WAS SHELLEY ALSO IN LOO WITH STEBBINS nah it was a random Hufflepuff lmao

Lily sitting by herself in the prefect carriage she is so sad😭

There was something dull and uninterested in Lily's voice, however, that prompted Marlene to ask: "Are you feeling quite well? You seem a little... off."

- and contemplative 😭 like novembermy girl! I am not ready for her POV. Though i think I remember the Marauders minus James all meet her in the Prefect carriage :(

"What did I do, Lily?" she muttered, sniffing. "Why didn't I just...? Why couldn't I...?" "You weren't ready," said Lily. "It's not your fault." "It is though. I was so stupid..." "No, you weren't. You were just getting out of one really complicated, really intense relationship, and you weren't ready to jump into another one. That's not your fault. None of this is your fault."

- the way they are both in the same boat and Lily is comforting Marlene without Marlene knowing yet that they are going through the exact same thing! My heart!!!

"You know it's going to be okay, don't you?" Lily asked softly after a while. Marlene looked skeptical. "It is," insisted the redhead. "Prudence may be cute and sweet... she might be Dear Prudence, but you're... you're..." Lily smiled: "You're Here Comes the Sun."

- this is genuinely such a sweet comment I love friendship. Also, Marlene is right that must be one of the nicest things anyone could say to you🥹 Lily as Golden Slumbers—I see it.

Ahhhh Adam did know about the protest he was just a dummy.

They both grinned, and Marlene, momentarily, forgot that it was not—and never again would be—like it had been once upon a time.

- girl it is okay dont be so dramatic! matters of the hear just require time!!!

Part V: Lily

Here we go... i am not ready!

She is fumbling and i am so sad for her!!!

Before he left, Sirius draped an arm around Lily's shoulder and leaned close to her, muttering so that none of the others could hear: "Evans, I think you and I have some catching up to do." "Damn right we do," Lily could not help but retort. He raised his eyebrows and then departed with Peter.

-- Sirius and Lily's friendship deserves all the flowers in the world. I love them so dearly.

Side note: i just remembered Lily did Alice's flowers at her wedding and it was such a sweet callback to Lily always being good at flowers🥹

James Potter too right your amusement should be nervous!! And too right Lily should speak coldly toward you!!

Lily smiled politely, rather than quipping in reply. James evidently sensed something must be amiss by her lack of bantering retort, and so he offered to help her carry her things—which consisted of her sling purse and a book—and, for a moment, Lily felt incredibly trapped. "I'll do it," Remus volunteered suddenly. "I'm sure you want to get back to the compartment." Lily did not think she'd ever appreciated Remus more than in that moment.

-- The Marauders sans James all rallying around Lily makes my heart BURST!!

I swear I am not making up a scene where they meet her in her dormitory or something and then Sirius jokes about them figuring out how to get into the girls dorms in second year or something and they hug? right?

"Do we get our own Common Room?" "What?" "Our own Common Room." Lily frowned. "No. Where on earth did you get that idea?" "I don't know," admitted James. "I feel like I read it somewhere."

- James has been reading them fanfics fr

"Is something bothering you?" asked James suddenly. Merlin and Agrippa, what do you think? "Nope."

- He's only 17 he doesn't know anything, does he?

"You're an idiot." "What?" "I said 'you're an idiot.'" "I heard what you said! Why am I an idiot?" Lily did not think she had it in her to answer, however. She merely shook her head in disbelief and continued down the corridor. "Evans! C'mon don't..." James caught up with her, pulling her to a stop. When he did not immediately remove his hand from her arm, she glared, and he withdrew it at once. "Why are you...?" And then it was all too much. We're dating. They're kind of perfect for each other. Just close enough to... "Why didn't you tell me you were dating Carlotta?" Lily snapped, before she could help herself. James dropped his gaze. "I-I didn't... it didn't come up." "It didn't come up?" (This, practically shouted), "Really? Because I have this weird memory of sitting in an office with you and asking how your trip went, and you just said 'fine,' and then you got all snippy with me, like you always do when you're hiding something, and oh-my-Merlin, how could I be so stupid?" It began to make sense, "I thought it was just the Head Boy thing, but... Agrippa's sake, that was what Sirius was trying to get you to tell me, too, wasn't it? And Sam... 'the ginger but not the girl...' I am such an idiot! How did I not realise?" "You're not an idiot, I just..."

The entire room had lit up upon her entrance, and yet none of these details had any effect upon Lily. She barely saw them, for suddenly her eyes were blurred by tears. Her breathing grew heavy and staggered. She fell back against the closed door and pushed her hair away from her face, forcibly attempting to fend off the attack of panic that quickened her heart and made her head spin. No good at all.

-- Oh Lily😭😭😭😭😭

me reading Shelley and Carlotta—then Lily—screaming at each other in the dorm, like damn lmao. Get 'em Lily!! My queen!!! she was really like ...AND FURTHERMORE!

"The both of you need to get your acts together right now! I am done caring if Carlotta is seeing the bloke that you fancy, Shelley, or if Shelley is trying to sit on your boyfriend's lap, Carlotta. Whatever. But all of this whore-calling, and shouting, and making this dormitory miserable, and... and... snogging my friend's boyfriend to prove a point to each other—all of that ends now! AND..." she spoke over two attempts to interrupt, "before either of you say that this is none of my business, I am going to spare you the risk of getting hexed out that window: this is my business, because I'm supposed to have my own room tonight, and yet now, I get to spend the evening agreeing to repetitive statements about what a git Stebbins is! And, also, because the two of you are insults to the very word 'friendship' with how you're behaving! And, also, because I'm Head Girl, and there's NO SHOUTING ALLOWED IN THE DORMITORIES!" She finished her speech. Shelley and Carlotta did not speak. At some point—and Lily had no idea when—Donna had entered the dormitory from the bath, dripping wet from her shower and clothed in a bathrobe. She looked from Lily to the other two, amber eyes wide with wonder.

- I really could not not include at least a wee snippet off that speech because it was far too good. Donna's reaction is too good too, i love it.

A few minutes later, Carlotta went up to bed (in the Head Boy's dormitory—Lily decided not to think about it)

- real

Ah not the twelve hours earlier talking about today going to be a good day :(

For a moment—only a few seconds—Lily observed the two Marauders. The warm morning light caught the Head Boy badge pinned to James's t-shirt, as well as the amused glint in his hazel eyes. He ran one hand through his hair, shaking his head, and replied to some remark from Sirius with a few words of self-aware cleverness that made Sirius laugh out loud. When Sirius gave another reply, James listened, a crease forming between his eyes in subtle interest, one hand idly rubbing his jaw line. Lily's mind leapt to an evening, not long ago, when she had stood close enough to fill the space and then some that currently existed between the two Marauders-close enough to feel James's breath, close enough to kiss him, if only she had let herself stop thinking a minute or two... And then, for a moment—only a few seconds—Lily's breath caught in her throat, and she realised something. She realised that her stomach was doing back-flips. She realized that a little piece of her ached to be standing close to the Head Boy. She realised she hadn't been breathing for several moments. Lily realised she would very much like to kiss James Potter just then. It was a moment—only a few seconds—of clarity: a realisation that was immediately surprising and then quite obvious. Right there, right then, she wanted nothing more than to kiss James. It wasn't alcohol speaking; it wasn't just hormones; there could be no more excuses. She liked James Potter. She really, really liked James Potter. Lily realised this... for a few clear, hopeful, comforting seconds, Lily realised exactly what she wanted, and it was the first time she had really known this for a very long time. She felt a glow of enlightenment, as one often does when they arrive late at self-revelation—when they finally have a grip on what, exactly, would make them truly, ridiculously ecstatic at that instant in time. And what a thing to discover, that it should be James Potter... James Potter, who had liked her once before, and might like her again, if given encouragement... For a moment—only about nine and a half thrilling, wonderful seconds—Lily was happy. People hurried past her, shouting and talking but mute; the train revved and roared, but silently; her heart pounded, the heat rose in her face. This was going to be a good year. Then, into the frame of her sight which had now narrowed and centered on James Potter, a new figure entered. Brunette and lovely and flawless, Carlotta Meloni appeared. She wrapped her thin, sun- kissed arms around James's neck and kissed him on the lips. And James kissed Carlotta back. And someone walked by to punch Lily in the stomach, knocking the wind out of her for a full six seconds. Or if they didn't, they might as well have.

-- PAINNNNNNNNNNN I hate it here!

What a chapter though!!

I have also realised that James and Lily were just pale and of because of their argument? I need more from James on this because all we saw was his conversation with Carlotta... But damn.

I am re-reading The Life and Times

And it is getting documented. Purely for my own benefit.

The Life and Times by Jewels5

She was dramatic. He was dynamic. She was precise. He was impulsive. He was James, and she was Lily, and one day they shared a kiss, but before that they shared many arguments, for he was cocky, and she was sweet, and matters of the heart require time.

[http-byler]

Ok so for the jargyle doodle requests could you draw them at a carnival? With Jonathan holding a prize that Argyle won for him? Thanks!

☆ carnival nights! ☆

[avi-draws]

Not now sweaty Mommy's cyberbullying

Bonus Cleo cause I liked their og colours ⬇

[apollos-boyfriend]

the instant downwards spiral of danganronpa’s female characters after thh is so insane to me. like while thh has its issues and is no way perfectly written its female cast is largely treated like Normal People with real motivations and complex inner lives on par with the male cast. and then you get to literally every other game in the series and it’s like. killing women off to enhance male characters’ development. obscenely obvious pedo bait. literally 0 character. sexualized sa victim. killing women off to enhance male characters’ development. killing women off to enhance male characters’ development.

[the-judicial-assistants-notebook]

sits up in bed. so lana and ema definitely thought they were responsible for edgeworth "choosing death", right?

(the rest of this post was supposed to go in the tags, because it's not very well organised or written, but it got too long so. here are the slightly edited tags for your reading pleasure (or otherwise)):

i was going to make this solely about ema because she's the obvious one with her open adoration of edgeworth, but the thing about rfta is that it goes to great lengths to emphasise the connection between lana and edgeworth as well.

the sl-9 incident showed that lana grows attached to people deeply, hence angel starr's comment on how, when neil marshall died, 'she (lana) felt like her own brother had died.' with edgeworth, i think it was similar but worse. because he's not just a coworker or subordinate who's dear to her. he saved her life. and it cost him his own.

at the beginning of the case, edgeworth says he was mistaken for thinking that lana was always looking out for him post sl-9 (a statement interesting on its own because that's when everyone else says she grew distant), and, later on, he brings ema fingerprinting powder because lana asked him to. then, of course, there's the 'lady luck' comment he makes.

similarly, on lana's side, you obviously have the end of the trial when she says he did well, but there's also that additional moment post-trial where she's the only one to notice — in a group comprising her, ema, phoenix and gumshoe — that he's 'hiding', listening to their conversation. point is, there's enough to suggest that she might have been the nearest thing edgeworth had to a mia; his 'chief prosecutor' to phoenix's plain 'chief'. they're as close as two people can be in a relationship where one of them is constantly lying and the other is von karma's star pupil.

rfta is pretty straightforwardly depicted as the case which solidified edgeworth's resolve to do what he did; i don't think i have to prove that. rumours about him have reached new heights, his car and knife were involved in goodman's murder, he makes an unprecedented mistake in court by failing to connect the evidence room and carpark incidents, thus forcing the chief of police to enter the trial to do so himself, and he's publicly revealed to have relied on falsified evidence to secure a conviction in the sl-9 case, all of which only happened because of lana. jake marshall even claims that from the beginning — that if you trace edgeworth's rumours back to their source, you end up meeting one person: lana skye.

and it gets worse because at the end of rfta, she thinks he's fine!! she literally says, 'i was afraid the pressure would break you, but you rose above it,' and reminds him he's nothing like gant because he's not alone. she leaves the case thinking he will be okay. and then, what, like a week passes, and she finds out that he wasn't, and that he's gone, and it's her fault. even after she was freed from gant's control, even after she had finally stopped lying, she couldn't prevent herself from claiming another life. so much for 'lady luck', i suppose.

and the game reiterates this multiple times. gumshoe states at the start that edgeworth's ties to those higher up in the department have made him the subject of constant rumours, and phoenix says (in front of ema) that he shouldn't be held responsible for the forged evidence because that was all lana's doing, which then leads to edgeworth commenting (again in front of ema) that he feels as though 'something inside him has died.' it all goes back to lana. we can argue and say that it was technically gant's doing that caused all of this, but lana still took actions that led to it. even her complicated friendship with edgeworth isn't spared; it's that closeness between them that exacerbated those rumours. how could she not feel responsible in some way?

and with ema, it's rather obvious, isn't it? if she hadn't gone poking her nose into things, none of this would have happened or come to light. and, of course, she'd never choose anyone over her sister, not for anything in the world — it's simply not a question, but that's the problem, isn't it? it's not a question. it's not some hypothetical moral dilemma. it just is. she may not have killed neil marshall, but she still has one king of prosecutor's blood on her hands. and now she has to live with that. she just. has. to live with it. no matter if he chose otherwise.

moving on from that a little, i think it's actually wild how much of ema's journey to becoming a forensics investigator is paved with bad memories. neil marshall's death and her subsequent inability to testify are what drives her to begin pursuing it, her first proper investigation results in her idol's "death" and when she finally graduates, the person who saved her sister has been disbarred, and she can't even help because she isn't allowed to. all that pain and constant pursuit of her goals, and she's still the same ema skye, still that girl shrouded in darkness, always one step behind the truth, one step a little too late. no wonder she was angry in aa:aj. i would be furious.

[iholli]

haven't watched the World's Finest ep of Superman TAS for a couple years, and my god, I didn't realize how ridiculously fruity Clark and Bruce were the whole time.

good for them. good for them. 🏳️‍🌈

[sundial-bee-scribbles]

I've been looking for this one au where Len basically becomes a mad scientist and turns his friends into robots one by one for a while now, and I'm beginning to realize that I just read through your blog while half asleep a few months back and mixed together my memories of your flower hivemind and composite au

this is very funny to me. i'm absolutely honored this blog's posts were enough to evil-farming-game an entire vocaloid au into your memories 😂

i can give you this doodle; it's composite au but i'm sure it'd fit very well with this theoretical mad scientist len au lololl

[oh-cramity-its-amity]

hmm... are you sure?

[derpinette]

memory: when i was a toddler OMW back home with my mother on one of those intercity travel buses when we suddenly heard women screaming only for me to look down & see dozens upon dozens of cockroaches running up my legs & under my dress

[hythlodaes]

i swear moms want to be right about something more than they actually want to help you 😑

[anotherpapercut]

working with children really will make you examine your thought processes and emotional reactions like nothing else. I've found myself being so much more thoughtful in my daily life about how I respond to my emotions and environment, as well as the reasoning behind why others behave the way they do

[tittyinfinity]

when you're disabled, being financially abused by your parents never ends

[actualsunflower]

hold on I just started crying because I stared at this pic of the Earth from the moon. The Earthrise photo from the Apollo 8 mission.

Not only was this pic taken in 1968 but it's from the fucking moon. There's so many people in this picture. And animals. And plants. And everything. Everything is right there all in one picture. There are people in this picture who've passed away and are forever immortalized from the moon. FROM SPACE. taken by a Human FROM that planet ..well I guess not every human is in that pic cause some of em are on the moon lol