#sorry if the quality is ass btw lol
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what if lolbit was real. and gave you 1[one] single coing
#is this anything to u guys. lolbit coing#god i love this design i rlly hope were getting fnaf world 2 or remaster or smthn PLEAASS#fnaf#fnaf fanart#fnaf world#fnaf sl#fnaf sister location#ibispaint animation#[my art]#fnaf lolbit#sorry if the quality is ass btw lol#lolbit#made this all the way back when the teaser was shown but never got around to posting it lol
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collection of all of the fansnak requests I've done on my side blog so far
here's their tag so you can look at them all individually :]
#top ones are from august of last year and the second ones are from this week#requests are closed btw i just wanted to put em all together :V#art#drey draws#bugsnax#fansnax#posting this late at night Hell Yes Dude#quality's kinda ass sorry my internet Hates me today lol
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been rewatching the vesperia stageplay aftershow bonuses and felt the urge to compile kato and tsubasa's silly gay moments so the rest of you can enjoy and cry about it too :>
#tales of vesperia#tales of vesperia stageplay#flynn scifo#yuri lowell#sorry for the ass quality btw the export did not agree with me#srly tho it's both very touching to see the way they've bonded as friends while practicing/performing#but also very bad (good) for my heart because them being so touchey and inttimate in full fluri cosplay keeps sending me#fluri if tov came out when it is ok for male characters to not stand five feet apart cause they're supposedly not gay#everybody thank kato and tsubasa for the blorbo content#might make a short follow-up for the promo interview too if i feel like it#because BOI#there's stuff to say there too#or i'll keep it for another masterpost update idk lol
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what's the buzz, tell me what's a-happening ???
#jesus chris superstar#not really this is just dolokhoded bible. but the quote is jcs !#(well i mean it could be. its not any specific production anyways.)#judas iscariot#he's the only one i tag always#but everyone's there. all the apostles plus magdalene and joanna and susanna though you can't see them very well#im not religious just insane.jpg#remember when i had an art tag#i SAID im gonna draw something proper and i DID IT OKAY#LOOK AT JOHN !!!!!!! OBSESSED WITH HIM !#my normal john design is much lamer but in this weird 70ish but not really in any real timeline 'verse he KICKS ASS#i was going for like. green eyed blonde baby cherub with him anyways but it really popped off with this specific design he's the only one i#changed so much between the two verses.#cause he looked so lame.#this is going to get less notes that like. the stupidest most half assed art i've done for fandoms that actually exist but im going to try#and not care. its fine. its fine#oh sorry for how shit the quality is btw. youre never going to get good camera quality here at tumblr dot com slash dolokhoded lol im#so broke . maybe i'll try to fix it someday.
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i was inspired by his beautiful wanted poster
#pizza tower#peppino#my art#sprite is from the intro to vigi's boss fight#ive got bad eyes and can't tell if he's actually holding a glass or not but that's what it looks like to me so. lol#i'm so so sorry this picture is such shit quality btw#not only did my stupid ass draw with a dull pencil#but i REALLY don't know how to make photos of my sketchbook look good#anyway#i adore him.
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A quick sketch of the boys I literaly just did a minute ago lol It's nothing crazy (or even like particularly good lol) but I'm just happy to have made anything at all after the months long art-block I've been on since late June
#also btw sorry for the garbage camera quality my phone camera is ass lol#boygenius#julien baker#lucy dacus#phoebe bridgers#art#drawing#my art
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Hey guys did y’all know that this (fan)art Karina Drawfee made is actually so important to me
#drawfeeposting#the link is to the ep it’s in btw#THEM ALL HANGING OUT!!!#THE DYNAMICS THE PERSONALITY THE EVERYTHING IS JUST#muah#chefs kiss#also it would be criminal for Mr not to mention that in this ep everyone starts voicing the characters all annoying Rowan and it so amazing#TIRED ROWAN SUPREMACY#GOD I just love this episode#I’m just a big fan of characters interacting in#all of the art in that ep is so good too#there’s a very awesome and cool and chill legsy#and a scary Julia which we all love#and a beautiful shmando piece by juliaaa#god this ep is just so good#also the photo quality is actual ass sorry its bc there are literally no high quality sc of this#token talks#ALSO ALSO if ur wary abt clicking a random link but still want the ep its called drawing fan art of each other’s characters#pretty straightforward lol#Rowan drawfee#York drawfee#gyorik rogdul#Jacob horse#ryjinah#goddamn is that how you spell her name#Jesus#drawfee
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it's my wriggling day (9th feb) pleas e draw my troll sona
i would appreciate it
#homestuck#i dont actually expect anyone to do it btw its just fun and i would be rly hapy#and i havent posted that image of them yet either wya#soda draws#trollsona#extra info in the tags GO#spence fucker#thats the trolls name.#voids horns are actually broken (he tried to saw them off but it was a littel difficult to do it cleanly so its kinda like equius' except.#both are broken)#its sign is aquanius(prospit violet and hope)#god damn the quality of this image is shitty. sorry bout that#i was gonna draw another ref with broken horns and stuff but h .#more horns info#its the Ichthys symbol split in two LOL#spence can wear either a black skirt + fishnets and leg warmers#pattern matching with the arm warmers#OR#just regular ass baggy black pants with lots of pockets and silly chains and stuff#also hopes wearing a signless sign necklace aranea-style#if anyone even cARES i would be very glad to talk about spence more but uh#final word#pronouns: it/its caw/caws voi/void hope/hopes he/him#etc#have fun bye thanks
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FUCK U ACHILLES U DONT GET TO TALK TO MY SON LIKE THAT.
A CHILD. A CHILD I TELL YOU. also im not over troilus fuck you again.
how the hell was he supposed to know any better when he was taken so young from the arms of his mother and forced into war that hardens the hearts of grown ass men, let alone a child who had no business being part of one, and all under the pretence of being the son of the godlike warrior he never knew, who was immortalised for his actions on the battlefield and little if anything else.
what else was he going to learn beside bloodlust and securing victory at any cost? how else was he going to see the father he never met as anything but the merciless soldier who dragged the body of his enemy (who didnt deserve that at all) around the city for days and not want to walk in his footsteps, bc thats what he was celebrated for
of course he was going to be proud of his actions thats what he was taught, thats what got him positive attention form his (adult) peers. he learnt to associate a higher death toll with appreciation, which is so sick and twisted. maybe if you stuck around more hedve learned there was more to you (and life) than murder & violence. this is kinda very on you my guy. you dont get to criticise the parenting u werent a part of.
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last note; even if u were a present father and did your bit in raising him and was all all around a good parent, this is stil not how you approach the subject. you dont blame a child and reproach them harshly, and definately not in the way you would a mature adult who would know better.
sandwich it at least; tell him youre proud of him for being a good kid and taking care of his mother, that he has many good qualities and had a good life ahead of him, be honest with him about what kind of things he mustve heard about him after his death and set the record straight, then gently explain what you find wrong in his actions and why. understand that there was so much out of his power, make peace with him and forgive him he was a child shoved into a mans armour and expected to fill the role he was much too young and innocent for. that he never should have been forced into that role and that it wasnt his fault things played out the way they did.
*combusts*
Achilles being honest
#there is one villain in this room and it aint neo#its going to be me lol#i am coming for ur ass#that last frame is evil i love it#(op btw i adore ur art style its gorgeous)#very pleased to know u also drew many of my favourite arts lol (the paris animation cracks me up every time XD)#no hate directed to anyone for their preferences ofc. i have thoughts abt the best of the greeks and they arent always pretty#to each their own#honestly and truly#theres so much to be said i think abt both the mythos and the subsequent interpretations and modern adaptations#id love to get into it more and read commentaries but alas exam season is upon me yet again ಥ_ಥ#i find it interesting that he thought of his son when patroclus died tho (i havent read the iliad pls correct me if im wrong)#so it implies he did have some bond with neo? and i think thats fascinating and well worth looking into (darn u uni)#all this to say dont idolise anyone lol#theyre all war criminals (mostly) and/ or very morally grey#(dont get me wrong flawed characters are the best and homer crafts them masterfully. morally grey is my favourite colour hehe)#i do despise achilles but its not like hes the worst figure ever with no redeeming qualities at all. no one is#theyre all complex and multi dimensional and most importantly human and in my eyes thats the brilliance of it all#for example i love ody (big epic fan lol) but he did some very fucked up things... like coercing neo into a war *glares*#and i think its important to keep the og mythos in mind when interacting with characters yk (really hope im making sense here)#also i love the tragedy of it all tbh like iirc there was a prophecy?#that the son of achilles would have to fight for the war to be won#super intriguing to me#the fates are so unkind#neoptolemus#pyrrhus#achilles#greek mythology#sorry for the ramble lol
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Wani daughter of a butch-ass kuja pirate… not much of a family resemblance. Unfortunately there is no one who has met both her AND Croc to confirm that he is now her absolute spitting image.
Well, Gloriosa might make the connection if he follows Luffy to Amazon Lily after Marineford *lol*
(Worst doodle quality, sorry, I got lazy. Btw, Vanille is Kuja!Croc's name in my silly AU - here's the comic about it - not that anyone outside of Amazon Lily calls him that. Also this is an AU where Iva most likely changed him so he could survive love sickness. Because I love angst >:3)
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Contains: harsh sneezing, dry sniffs that turn into stuffy sniffles, intense hitching, talking, nose rubbing, nose blowing, frustrated moaning, a few light coughs, & some loud-ass tree frogs in the background🙄
I’m a proper mess rn😅
The shower did help a ton, but my throat is all torn up from this attack and I’m still sneezing intermittently…
Anyways, enjoy listening to me get increasingly stuffy, frustrated, and worn out! Lol
(Sorry for the shitty audio quality btw! I was rocking back and forth as I hitched, not realizing that my microphone would pick that up!)
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Okay so I've held onto this one for quite a while bc I was self-conscious ab my art style and how it doesn't look nearly as good as a ton of other prohibited wish artists on here but I think it's time to share it-
I had this idea in my head and I just needed to get it out sooo um.
Sorry for the pain
Also I was testing out how I draw maskless Scarab (which is partially inspired by the INCREDIBLE @time-woods's design for their Carma sorry for the @ I just wanted to credit you for the inspo- btw) so it's changed a bit since I drew this bc Ive gotten more used to drawing him-
I have a ton more art in my backlog I'm just,,, self-conscious lol. trying to get better-
PLEASE [tumblr] fix the quality when I post this bc it looks like ass in the editor as Im looking at it rn
#prohibitedwish#prohibited wish#the scarab#scarab the god auditor#prismo the wishmaster#prismo x scarab#adventure time#fionna and cake#this is intended to be implied prisjake in case that wasn't clear#in my mind and in the context of this it was like. A crush that was never verbalized bc Prismo didnt want to put that pressure on him#with 1. Jake already having a partner and 2. the power imbalance inherent with Prismo being a god and Jake being a mortal#I have a lot of thoughts ab them lol#Poor Prismo is not coping#tw character death#tw implied character death#my art#scarlet speaks#scarlet draws
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My first time using Alcohol markers! Think it went okay….. other then me forgetting the c in scream because I’m have asleep so I had to color the whole other side black to fix it and the letters still turned out crap lol here is the before when I fucked up . Also sorry for the weird ass angles in this im tired and my light kept getting in the way so it may look a little fucked up lol. ( the one on right is better quality btw If you couldn’t tell)
Lol I’m fucked I need to sleep more
#scream movies#scream fanart#scream#scream 1996#stuart macher#stu macher#alcohol marker art#first time using alcohol markers#This sucks lol#Help I’m tired
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vegas, i leave for couple days, you post ANOTHER toji fic. its like you wanted me to come back bc its literally four paragraphs in and im SCREAMINGGGG
the “oh yeah” when he walks in i moaned. LOLZZZZZZZ I GIGGLED SAUR HARD LIKE UGH i havent even finished reading this 😭
“uh, ill talk to you guys later” “nah, keep that shit on” i bit my fist. theres currently bite marks on my fist ARGH HES SO DADDY
the insults.. LMFOAOAOOAOAOAPAP “he looks like he doesnt shower” I CABT DEAL
oh my.. “i was gonna for three days and you forgot how to act” TEACH ME HOW TO SCT IM OBEDIENT 😻😻😻😻😻😻😻 sorry that was uncalled for.
honestly when she said she faked everything i said LIARRRRR out loud bc i wouldve came from the kiss.. coughs.. OH MY GOD “eyes up here, not them. theyre not the ones who are gonna fuckin eat you out are they” BUSSANUTTTTT
im sorry these comments are actually making me cry “even my domain has better quality than this” “clean up aisle my pants > . <” LFMAO I CANT DO THIS 😭��
the detail. i might as well be the viewer watchin that stream cuz LAWDDDDDDDSS 😻 “mhm, pull on it” i came :P “..harder” AHAT??? HELLO??? i squirted. “that’s what im talking about” yeah im two more sexy lines away from touching myself . THAT SOUNDS SO WILD IM SOREY 😭😭
oh my GAWDWDWDS “feels good when you do that” “yeah cause i know what the fuck im doing” pla have mercy. HAVE MERTHY. im sorry he fingered me under a dinner table with my PADRE talking to me?? WHYUUULLLDDDD (wild) but we luv it 😻
“told you to keep those fuckin on me” coughs i js screamed. “yeah.” MFGGGFFFFGHHHH IM CLAWIN THE WALLLSS.
“baby hold it” YAWWWLLLLLLLLLLLLL IVE LOST MY BREATH WHYS THAT SOOOO then rhe comments. PLEASE 😭
“petition to have toji oiled and cheeked up” signed! 😛 “dad?” “lol no.” LFMAOOAOAOAO 😭😭
OHH???? “i cabt wait” “yes you fucking can, if i tell my girl to wait, she’s gonna wait.” ORDERS ARE BEING FOLLOWED ILL WAIT BB 🤤🤤🤤 THE FICS NOT EVEN OVER IT JS KEEPS CUMMING. btw, i love how they be like arch it for me/ass up like YOHHH 😻😻😻
“sorryyyy” shes so real for that. “but sweetheart, you’re not sorry.” “huh?” “huh?” ive got a mocking kink now bc of you 🙁 now whenever i get mocked or teased i giggle 🙁🙁 i act like a whore 24/7 😒 TALK TO ME NICE AAYFGGHHHH I LOVE THAT LINE IM GONNA DIE
“girl hello? i wasnt talking to you” HES SO SASSY 😭😭 but the fact he talkin to my pussy like SHE LOVES YOU TEW 🤤 THESE COMMENTS GET OUT GOJO ASKING FOR THE ONLY FANS N GETO ASKING FOR IR ☠️ “please toji im a single mom” IM DEAD 😭
we’re getting caught on stream.. im leaving.
IM HERE NO ALL MIGHT GASPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP?????? “shit i think im in love with you” OUUUUUUUU HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO ARE YOU JOKING HELLO KNOCK KNOCK NO PUNCHLINE ARE WE SRS YOHHHHH??
i LOVED this, sorry for waffling but WEOOOWWW you ate this one UP veve > 0 <
— pearl anon <3
YOHHHH IM GEEEEEKEDDDDD 😭😭🥹🥹
first of all welcome back pearly 🙋♀️🙆♀️ i hope you've been well this saturday <3
and LMAOOOOOOOO
IMCRYIKMGGGH the chat was the best part to make omg 💔 like i’d pay so much to see toji double cheeked n oiled up im just saying 🤷♀️
TALK TO ME NICEEEEEE 😫😫😫 omg ikr i love the line real bad n it just fits toji so well like ??? IMSO GLADDDDYOU LIKE ITTTTTT i was so close to scrapping it but we pulled through 🙇♀️
two more lines away from touching yourself HELPPPPPDPDGGG
omg thank you pookie this lowkey brightened my day i appreciate it commentary forever n always ☹️☹️☹️💟💟💟💟💟
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You mentioned making proper genned event pokemon, but what does that entail?
depends on the event in question!
back in the day during gens 3 and 4, IRL event distributions were often handled by running a custom GBA cart with the event distribution software and hooking up to other GBAs via link cable or with the wireless adapter, or a custom DS cart that took advantage of the DS' innate wireless compatibilities. obviously all of these carts were meant to be sent back to nintendo or get destroyed, but that... just did not happen to all of them lol. (there are also a few local distribution softwares for 3DS and stuff but wayyy less common)
you can actually buy gen 4 distribution carts for an excessive amount of money, though i can't in good conscience recommend looking for gen 3 distribution carts, they're INCREDIBLY rare and most of the listings you'll find for them on ebay are 100% fake and are scamming you out of hundreds of dollars, and most people don't know how to tell the difference unfortunately.
that being said, i'm not recommending you buy these at all actually, because most of the ones in physical circulation have been dumped online and can be downloaded. the digiex forums contains them, and you can download these and run them on actual hardware and roleplay being the toys r us/gamestop/etc employee and distribute to themself just like how it would have happened back at the time of the event lmao. for the DS ones it's easy with a hacked 3DS and twilight menu, but for GBA you'd need a GBA flashcart and the associated link cable/wireless adapters + two GBAs. this can also be done on emulators with support for local connection between two windows and has the same exact effect as doing it with real hardware, it just feels cool to do it with real hardware (pictured below is an ancient video i took of me distributing 2005 Aura Mew to myself with the actual software made by nintendo, running off a flashcart. i took this years ago and the quality is ass and my positioning is awkward sorry lol. my room doesn't even look the same...)
as for events without distribution software, old gen ones have the DNS exploit, which you can find simple instructions for here. this is much easier with gen 5 than gen 4 - you can find gen 4 help i wrote here. these restore all online functionality in the old games, including mystery gift - trying to grab a mystery gift from the internet will allow you to download pretty much any event in the game (though the one it gives you is random and you'd have to try over and over to get the ones you want). the data of these events is 100% identical to how the events actually were at the time of distribution, like completely indistinguishable, so it's a safe way to get those mons to bank and home, though you may want to change your DS date to the same date as the event in question so it doesn't look weird.
as for 3DS there is no fancy stuff like the above, you'll just want to go to project pokemon's public event gallery and browse for what you're looking for, which also provides a link to instructions for injecting these in your games. it's worth noting you can also inject all the gen 3-5 events that have been documented/archived this way, it's just less interesting than the above methods imo. this is probably the least legitimate feeling option but the data is still identical and well. other than elaborate glitches or something that's the best its gonna get. it's likely once 3DS servers shut down next year that eventually a DNS exploit-adjacent service will pop up for gen 6 and 7...
btw worth noting that gen 4 is the only gen where the name rater literally only checks for TID and doesn't even consider the "fateful encounter" flag that event pokemon are usually given, so you can RNG manip a matching trainer ID and then nickname event mons you aren't supposed to be able to nickname fully within the limits of the original game and hardware LOL. that isn't related to your question i just think it's funny that you can do that and it's technically completely legit
anyway sorry for the long ass answer i just find mystery gifts fascinating and it deserved me being a little more comprehensive
edit: oh yes and there's certain event mons that are still able to be obtained without all this wacky stuff, ie the pokemon colosseum bonus disc gives out infinite jirachis and they just released that as a preorder bonus back then. so worth looking at options for distributions like that too if you need a species of mythical or whatever!
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So. I am leaving my fic's big ass infodump here because A) having it in the comments is ugly and B) I am too busy and tired to try to make it hmtl pretty on the author notes or whatever. Plus, AO3’s character limit is ass.
Here's the fic: Tha koimithó ótan petháno.
Funnies
Akire: I trust that mister Delamer and mister Maitsu are doing well together :)
Damon: *screaming, traumatized*
Jean: *screaming, also traumatized*
Damon: Why tf are you calling me a kid I am 18
Jean:
Jean: I thought you were like 16
Jean: I am worried about you.
Damon: Hahaha.
Damon: Oh you're not joking?
Damon: HAHAHahaHAhA—
Scrapped content
In chapter 2 I forgot to add that Jean notices signs of Petechiae (Red dots on the skin/cheeks, usually present after crying) on Damon's face, which he points out in the narration and mentally ponders "maybe he is not holding on as well as we thought." I don't fucking KNOW how I did not add it because I remember writing it into the doc but I guess I accidentally deleted it???? What-fucking-ever man I am too tired to rewrite that scene. Also, this chapter would not work as well if Jean was a lot more aware about how badly Damon was holding on. Sooo, yeah. Good forethought past me question mark.
(Jean knows general medical stuff because of his job / he binge read about it after the Edward thing to avoid any other crewmates being ill / hurt. Kind of comes out of left field in this chapter sorry lol I kind of gave up mid-fic so the quality is kind of bad)
In the titanic argument I was planning for Damon to respond “The debate was so bad I regret doing it sober,” or something of the sort. To which Jean asks Holy Shit You Drink ? Ended up scrapped because Damon, even while sleep deprived, is way too secretive about his abuse personal life for his own good. Besides, the scene was getting too long.
Also, yes, he does drink (/hc). Not by own volition most of the time, but he does. Legal drinking age? What is that? The Maitsu family never heard of it. (Wolfgang would have a stroke if he knew nobody tell him)
I actually planned a bit where, when Damon bandages Jean's wound (it was planned to happen on the bed and not the floor btw), Jean explains the items™ to Damon after he points out the first aid kit being the debater's and Damon looks at the ship captain like he grew a third head. Hence, explanation.
It felt too forced and I ended up removing it. You probably can figure it out with the context I left (I HOPE), but here is the explanation just in case:
(This idea was based on a fic by the lovely Insqmniac. I don't remember the name rn, sorry ;; EDIT: Acting and Pretending!!! They deleted the work but it was very good!) Tozu left an item for all the killing game participants with deep emotional and / or medical significance in their room’s nightstands. Be it a family memento, a candy brand you liked as a kid, a perfume that isn't sold anymore, prescription pills or eye contacts: That kind of stuff. It is like an intimidation tactic or something??? Something to scare the participants with bcs of the amount of information they have about their personal lives. Or something. I don't know man, it is 4 pm I have not slept in like 30 hours I have reached a new plane of existence. It just sounds so creepy and it is definitely something Tozu would do. Maybe. I already had the canon divergence tag so might as well utilize it in a angst way while at it /shrug
Jean received Edward’s marine dog tag, Damon received a first aid kit (and he's the only person in the killing game that has first aid equipment, fun). You can probably imagine why Jean reacted like that to seeing Damon’s item and his subsequent realization. Let's just say that Maitsudad was not kind.
I had a very lovely idea very late into this fic of playing on the concept of Dragons and snakes being very similar (in mythology/religion, anyways) but I couldn't figure out a way to include it organically in this fic (considering that the themes/metaphors of the fic were already too wonk as is) so I MIGHT get another Jean & Damon fic just to get that symbolism out of my head???
Not likely. I feel horrible about my poor characterization of the dude in this fic already.
I butchered Jean's characterization so bad I made salami with it,,,
In the Damon panic attack from Jean’s POV, I had to scrap a small line where Jean notes that some of the nonsense Damon is spewing in his panic is actually Spanish. Another hc of mine, personally Damon looks like the kind of guy to throw Hispanic slang and insult all your family lineage in one breath (and yes I am biased because I am Hispanic how could you tell. But no, he is not Hispanic, it is actually kind of complicated to explain). I will probably delve into that hc and my general mental illness about the backstory I made up for the guy (yes I am very normal about Damon shut up) in another fic I have planned.
I had to scrap so many Damon lines y'all. He is just. So easy to write. This dude is like depressed 14 year old me trying to seem edgy and pretentious istg.
Info dumping
I don't think I am doing a fic of Jean alone to actually write this down so, here, have the whole Edward situation and my delusions about it: basically, back when Jean was just becoming a ship captain by himself (he probably started as a cadet/assistant of one of his relatives, who was the ship captain themselves. Jean then took the job from them later down the line, idk) at age 18ish, there was this regular crew he had. One of the people in said crew was Edward, an asshole with self-worth issues who made it everyone else's problem.
On one departure, they get news of a big-ass storm happening, and they are very much stuck in the middle of the sea trying to just survive it(tm). Luckily it was a cargo ship so the only people they had to look for were themselves, but still.
Edward decides to be the main man on everything to prove his worth, that he means something to the crew, that his life has meaning. Everyone was kind of ignoring Edward's self destructive behavior (not their issue, they said). Jean in turn decided to try to do something about it, so new into the position and wanting the best for his crew, so he went to talk to Edward so he hopefully realizes he is being a moron and stops playing the martyr.
Edward, as you can tell by this fic, does not heed Jean’s pleas to take care of himself and decides to spitefully double down on his self-destructiveness so hard he fell ass backwards and killed himself due to sleep deprivation and starvation the fucking idiot.
(His crew, who were in their late 20s to mid 50s and had already seen some shit™, took care of the corpse themselves. They didn't want Jean, as young as he was, to see the body. He saw it anyways, if only on passing. Which is also the reason why he was more inclined to believe Eva when seeing the dummy, but details)
Jean blames himself over pushing Edward “too hard” and causing his death. (While at the same time he feels like he could have done MORE to avoid his death back then, ain't guilt fun?) That's why he fears pushing Damon too much until there's nothing he can do but twist the debater's arm into actually resting after days of watching the younger consistently get worse. And, welp, we know how that ends.
At least he tried tho. 乁( •_• )ㄏ
Another thing. Was the buddy system actually chosen at random or was Damon right about it being rigged?
... Who knows! Lol
Logically speaking I think it would make more sense for it to either be rigged in the random pairings to get the most optimal-ish outcome (List of pairings in chapter 1 AAA), or like Akire actually bullshitted the random bit to try to get Damon to cooperate. But in the other hand it would be too fucking funny if it was actually made at random and Damon is just being unnecessarily hostile and antagonizing for no reason. So, I wrote it to be ambiguous! probably!! Go have your own interpretation idk!!
Other miscellaneous notes
Eva had the exact same "You are doing this to keep tabs on us" train of thought as Damon, but unlike the debater she decided to cooperate on the plan without whining about it. She and Ingrid have an amazing time playing Dos in their dorm.
Desmond is having a shit time because he wants to help Ulysses have a, at least, decent sleep schedule since they are partners. They have a similar ish arc to Damon and Jean funnily enough, except all the trauma and accidental PTSD triggering.
The Titanic bit is actually a thing that happened. A dude legit predicted the Titanic it is bonkers (I learned this thanks to 999 and thought it would be funny to add it because sleep deprived Damon likes to info dump (yes I am neurodivergent how could you tell) and Jean is the fucking Ultimate Ship Captain what better chance can you get?). Also yes ships back then were bonkers it is hilarious.
When Jean returns with food after this fic him and Damon sit down to explain to the latter all the things he missed in the class meetings so Damon is not running with fake facts again (and hopefully avoid other panic attacks about it in the future). They are forced to communicate about being partners and while they are both still very emotionally stunted because of their respective traumas they at least have a semi-honest conversation for once. Mostly because Damon is too tired and worn-down to be antagonistic.
The roommate system prooobably gets ruled out at the week two and a half(?) by a very frustrated Tozu, but by then he will need a very strong/kill or die motive to actually get a crack on the partner system itself (which is too broad a concept for him to actually rule out the game entirely).
(Realistically speaking he probably would deny the system from happening as quickly as it was brought up because he would notice it as a liability to his killing game plan, but then again. This is fic. I like my Tozu very stupid in fic)
Damon slowly starts reintegrating back into the group when he feels less like "Hi I just had 4 panic attacks in a week what is life at this point." Jean personally helps him in it.
Damon doesn't exactly remember what happened when he was triggered (bcs I hc him to forget trauma to cope, only vaguely remembering things when triggered / having intrusive thoughts). He remembers stabbing Jean because of a "overreaction" on his part and that's pretty much it. He feels like garbage about it but doesn't know how to apologize.
Thankfully, the wound was very minimal so nobody really noticed it after the bleeding stopped and Jean removed the bandages. It is their shared secret that nobody shall know about.
After chapter 1 Damon has a 10 minute panic attack, call himself cringe for it, and forces himself to go for the futon. You could hear him cursing out to all the gods throughout the living quarters. Like La Llorona but it is a dude swearing instead.
Jean brings Damon food. From things like granola bars to small portions of meals (to avoid any accidental refeeding syndrome), every time Jean goes out, he brings Damon something to eat. The others question it at first but Jean only gives vague explanations so they give up (they know, somewhat. But it is not their business so they don't push about it).
Damon has never had anyone offer comfort or food without a catch to it so he is very confused to the whole ordeal but too tired to actually complain (he still compulsively checks everything, afraid of poison, despite never being any).
after a bit he actually somewhat warms up to the ship captain !! Yaaay Damon getting comfort !!!! Finally !!!!!
Writing this my entire thought process of Damon's characterization was "abused stray cat that hisses / scratches you but all it wants is love and a stable living environment and once it has it and gets used to it, it is actually very cuddly." That's just him in a nutshell. Just add some asshole pretentious vibes into the mix & you're done
I made Edward up very late (writing session 8 out of 10) into chapter 2 because I needed a reason as to why Jean would physically force Damon to sleep. When I said the man is a plot device I meant it lol
Tozu had a Live Tozu Reaction to Jean's and Damon's fight thinking that fINAlLY SOMEONE IS DYING.. And then nobody did. Oop.
AND THEN Jean gets killed and Damon suffers horribly /jkjk
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