#sorry if its incoherent

[quanblovk]

before i go to sleep, i just gotta hit y'all with this random Uther fact again:

During the early days of Halcandra when they were first settling, baby Mordred would be put in the very first kindergarten Sir Uther personally founded.

Ever since then, Mordred rarely got to see his adopted fatehr's face. Sometimes he'd be left there over night.

For Arthur however, Uther even let him stay at home all day to spend more quality bonding time together! And he was always early to pick up his son after work!

[pm-00]

Pepito got so doomed the moment he got assigned one surviving parents of each dead egg. It's so evil, so fucking tragic. So much of what Quackity, Roier and Mariana have done has been influenced by Tilín, Bobby and JuanaFlippa's death. Sunny has Slime and Empanada has Jaiden. But Pepito got dealt the worst hand and it's not his fault or theirs, it's just the worst possible time. Mariana got lost following Flippa, and he knew that wasn't Flippa but even the spark of hope was enought to make him risk everything. Roier had lost the people he loved the most when he met Pepito, fresh out of purgatory, never quite over Bobby's death, dedicating day and nights to building the city that was his son's dying wish. Quackity lost everything and he wants to be death, even saying that would be a favor to him. But they still sing songs for him and give him nicknames, they are full of love, it's just that their children died, do you think he hopes they'll love him like that someday?

[beej-hunnicutt]

Stevie and I got into a Potter Ramble, which made me think of this and I just— Potter was a kid that joined WW1. The story has changed with the shows inconsistencies. But from ages 15-18 is the idea of when he joined. He talked about lying about his age to get in. And this is his response to a news reporter who came in to ask them their feelings, and the first screen was their question to him, and the bottom is his response.

I cannot stress enough the importance of Potter's POV that we were given throughout the show. We were giving an old RA man coming to terms as he's seen more, and has gotten older, things just aren't as they seem. And Potter is by no means perfect, he still sees some glory in what he has done. I think back a LOT to his dream in S08E22 'Dreams' when you see he's riding on the horse (he was in the cavalry back in the day) and he hits the grenade and that causes fireworks to go off. That is still apart of him— I expect that from an old dog like him. But he doesn't let that fully shape his views.

Like, these other moments are things that stand out for how much his own views has changed, there is a lot more. As there are plenty of other times he's fallen into the idea of the character is sad and burnt out from the hardships of the wars and what he has seen, but then there are also times where he let's Hawk speak his mind and allowing Hawk's own form or rebellion. (Potter is the CO btw) but I digress.

Two that REALLY stood out to me, aside from the screen cap one above are:

Potter makes sure to clarify this isnt a Police Action, It is a War. Even saying something along the lines of, 'just as much of a war as any other I've been to'. I think there is something so strong abt him being RA and seeing him rlly making sure to callout the U.S.' bullshit on this. He's been through these type of things. No it never gets easy. But he has seen it all. And especially with the KW, how U.S. were able to justify sticking our noses in places is shouldn't have been is something that could be talked about for awhile.

Another part, when they're talking about Christmas and he makes a toast along the lines of 'the christmas we should have been home by'. This one fills me with so much dread. Seeing his own opinions really change as he gets older and as more he sees and I really like they made sure to have HIM be the one to say it. Especially as KW, had 158 Peace Talk-esque meeting over the span of 3 years, it makes sense that this would be a moment that is reflected upon in the show. As they also bring up peace talks that lead to nowhere throughout the show.

One additional one is when he talks about the phrase of WWI, how it's the 'War to End All Wars' and how clearly that just wasn't true. This one is a lil more fuzzy, as I don't quite remember the rest of the scene but I think of this too. So this is gonna be more of a ramble than a talk of Potter. But that being a phrase from WWI is absolutely beyond me, because we know how that'll never be true. It's even more of a punch in the gut when the series reminds the viewers, and alludes to the Vietnam War. Which as the time of the show, was happening and was recently ended by the time the show had. But a war that is barely even a decade after the Korean War. The irony of a statement like that. It causes such a dreadful feeling.

I just really love Potter's character. And he is a definite favorite of mine. And I think he just offers a lot of reflections and from a rather POV than we usually see (the draftee doctors). While both are incredibly, I appreciate that they made sure to have an approach like Potter's as we did not get that when Henry was leader.

Also ending it with this. Because though he's dressed a lil goofy, it still pulls at me heart. Especially the look in his eyes in the last gif.

(screenshot credit, feuer-bluete || gif credit, lucindadixon)

[amaris-the-panda]

Why do I feel guilty for having to call out again for feeling sick. It's the third day I've done it. It's gotten harder to call in each time. Why does my brain try and convince me they all hate me for calling out and being sick.

I hate this. I hate feeling guilty for being sick. Something I literally can't control.

Some days I really, really, really do hate my brain and the way it functions.

[chiricat]

ryomina demons are winning

[constablequodo]

Honestly, there's something about the sheer horror on Spock's face when he thinks he's killed Kirk in amok time that always hits me like a fucking truck.

Now, I know this discussion probably isn't anything new to the spirk community, but jesus christ. Every time I watch that scene, I go from "Oh my god this is so gay. How the hell did the writers and production team not look at shatner and nimoy rolling around in the sand together and go 'yeah seems totally heterosexual' " to "Oh my god. This is so fucking sad."

The pure horror and shock on Spock's face when he snaps out of the fever and realises what he's done (or what he thinks he's done) is so....AAAA

I can't even put into words how it makes me feel, it just makes me so not normal about the show and those two as a whole all over again.

He thought he'd KILLED HIM. BY HIS OWN HAND. DURING A PROCESS HE SEEMED TO BE VERY ASHAMED TO TALK ABOUT AND HE SMILED WHEN HE SAW KIRK ALIVE AND AJAJSJ-

[solarsleepless]

easily one of my fav parts of season 3 of sweet tooth was just showing how feral and fucked up becky is. like, she's a child soldier. she's hung by her wrists but all she needs is about half a minute and she's out of them. the reaction of that one dude when it's revealed she killed last men? fucking priceless. god i love my feral girl. my fucked up lil dude

[shakingparadigm]

very interesting how even the sister closest to sua seems to perpetuate the cruel and harsh environment under nigeh's ownership. we've seen before from sua's interaction with the other pets that they tend to use harsh language and behave in a rather hostile manner to those they deem unworthy. although sua's older sister is considerably less rude than the others, she still refers to sua with terms such as "stupid idiot" (albeit said with some affection).

nigeh's status as a model and influencer means that they treat beauty and perfection as priority. as their pets are held to this unfairly high standard, they internalize it and begin to enforce it onto others in an attempt to regain control in any way they can. casually derogatory language and hostile behavior might be something that's normalized amongst the humans under nigeh's care. this can result in an extremely cruel environment where the humans either view each other as competition or pity those who they deem weak (a projection of their own internal issues). either way, it's difficult to form any connections that are completely free of underlying negativity.

sua has been shown to have extremely low self-esteem, and as more of her home environment is revealed it becomes increasingly clear that it has contributed to her negative self-image. as a child she was bullied, pushed around and outright told that she was unworthy of her mother's love (which was conditional to begin with). even her closest sister refers to her affectionately as a stupid idiot, already assuming that someone as weak as her won't make it very far. it's unsurprising then that sua reacts so quickly and strongly to something as simple as her classmate commenting on her physical appearance (even though it was meant to be a compliment), immediately assuming it to be an insult.

It's also unsurprising that sua grew to love mizi so much. it's been stated quite a few times that mizi's love is pure and free of any falsehood, much unlike the nature of sua's home. she found solace in mizi's genuine love and optimism, something that she never got to see while growing up.

[regular-dog]

Hey @five-rivers, happy truce! I decided to go with your prompt about danny attending a cultural ritual or event, and themed it around the far frozen. My explanation for it got a little longwinded so I've included it under a read more, along with a little extra art!

(tumblr’s probably gonna crunch all of these up a bit, so click for better quality)

I'll be honest, I haven't actually thought out the exact details of what this event would be, just the broad strokes - I tend to gravitate towards food as a source of celebration in my own worldbuilding, and I guess that bled through here as well in the form of “ice = water = probable fish based diet = important fish event?”

During drafting I couldn’t really decide between “event centred around observing fish migration and/or other seasonal habits” or “Danny being invited to come fishing with Frostbite and the other yeti”, but honestly I think either of those would probably fit. Originally I had planned to have one or two yeti characters swimming around with him to make the piece more dynamic, but a surprise attack from a migraine kind of cut into my plans a bit and I decided to downsize.

...at least until I got annoyed by the lack of a visible ghost friend in the piece and decided to paint a “small” “”extra”” “””doodle””” which rapidly turned into a whole other Thing,

There are shockingly few ghost fish in the show, apparently, or at least I could neither remember nor find images online of any examples, so I just kind of winged it. Their design is partially inspired by a short story you wrote a while back, although I ended up drifting away from the zebrafish motif as I was drafting them. I started thinking of them as maskfish as a stand-in name, and then promptly forgot to think of a better one, so. Maskfish it is. Here's some random notes I made while conceptualising them, because I constantly have specbio on the brain and couldn't not think about it

Maskfish flesh turns an opaque pale colour when cooked, and remains translucent when raw

Their eyes are covered in a clear, hard exterior, and can be hollowed out and sterilised for use in various crafts; along similar lines I could also see their bones being used to make glues, paints, and other such resources.

Their cores are located at the top of the spinal cord, in the head; their mouths are located on the underside, beneath the "mask", which makes up the entire top part of the head, and is a singular piece of a shell-like material.

Though they aren't particularly agressive hunters, they also aren't picky about their food, and will generally eat anything smaller than themselves.

Aaand finally, here's a bunch of isolated scans, since procreate ate a lot of the fine details in the collaging process.

[aetsiv]

i get what you're trying to say but i think the main reason people call him lesbophobic when talking about reyna is because of the way he handled the situation. he mocked a bunch of young lesbian readers and basically told them off for even thinking that they could see themselves in a character. i'm all for aro/ace representation but the way rick handled making reyna aro was quite a bit iffy. "reyna is reyna's better half" implies that if you're in a relationship then your partner has to be your better half, which is honestly really unhealthy. not to mention aphrodite literally telling her that no man will ever love her or something along those lines, aro people can feel romantic feelings-- it's just unlikely and rare that we do. and a lot of his foreshadowing for her being aro/ace could easily be mistaken for foreshadowing her as lesbian. for example, the whole "no man will be able to complete her" could imply that a woman could buy his logic complete her. to add, making her aro because "she couldnt find the right man" falls into both lesbian and aro/ace stereotypes. we aren't aro/ace/lesbian because we couldn't find the right person/man, it's because we were born that way. there is no right man, they don't exist. once again i don't mean to hate on what you said, i understand where you're coming from- i just wanted to clear things up a bit.

scrolling through the rr crit tag and half of the time there's incredibly thoughtful analysis of each and every thing that was wrong for him to include in books made for 12 year old and then there's also the dumbest criticisms i've ever seen in my life

[neodiekido]

it's really funny how ouma was pretty explicitly written as a morally grey character who often did shitty things for a good reason and was ultimately as much of a victim of the killing game as everyone else

and then the v3 fandom went "ah, so this means ouma actually did Nothing Wrong Ever, and the True Evil Irredeemable Villain was maki or kiibo or kaito or everyone BUT ouma" when a big theme of V3 is about, like, moral grayness and characters doing bad things for good reasons

[mcytegg]

i was gonna sleep but no i cant stop agonizing over how jumper's deep attachment and loyalty to her teammates makes complete sense when you consider everything she did and experienced in s5— especially in regards to vitalasy and the abyss. and how her wanting to be completely uninvolved in the conflicts of the server this season is also connected to this.

bc like okay so jumper is obviously incredibly attached to ro and rek. she has made it abundantly clear that they are her priority. they are the only people who matter to her at the end of the day; the people she will do anything for on the server. there is nobody in the server she would choose over them. no matter what rek does in his own time, or how inactive ro is, jumper ALWAYS considers both of them and has them in mind w everything she does.

which i find interesting bc at this point, rek almost exclusively refers to jumper and her alone as his teammate when his team is brought up simply bc ro is never here. they havent seen each other in months and i can count the amt of times rek and ro have been on the server together on one hand, so obviously rek doesnt seem to feel that same attachment to ro that jumper does.

which is very understandable but very interesting in how it contrasts to the way jumper seems to almost cling to that day 1 team up she had w ro. how she continues to include him in everything, and does her best to ensure he will be well taken care of should he choose to login at any point while shes offline.

and i...cannot help but feel that a very big part of jumpers fierce loyalty is her experience w vi. of him being gone. of her choice to not be alone, while he was gone. and her losing him in the end. like ro's absence almost feels like salt in the wound, but it also feels like its her getting a second chance to choose the other option— to wait for ro, to be loyal to him and rek, and to choose them and to continue to choose them no matter what happens.

which brings me to jumper's refusal to involve herself in conflict unless she NEEDS to be involved. i think her refusal to be loyal to anyone except ro and rek ties into this, actually!!! although part of her neutrality may be self interest, i dont actually agree w derap in saying its entirely out of pure selfishness. bc i actually think a large part of it is jumper continuing to choose ro and rek, and refusing to even consider putting herself into a position where she could ever be prioritizing anyone who isnt them. ally or enemy alike.

bc like yes. she is allies w minute. she considers (considered? idk anymore since chief tried to kill her LOL) the empire her allies, and once expressed that she would happily help them kill people and assist them w their schemes when it is requested of her, but i feel like that is as far as she is willing to toe the line of involving herself in conflict and any sort of loyalty to anyone who isnt her team bc shes already played that game before.

rek is always doing his own thing and ro is IA, but this time around jumper isnt looking for anyone else, another connection, or anybody to fight w. shes building a base for her team, supporting reks projects even if she doesnt understand, and she is waiting for ro. there was nothing she couldve done to ever not lose vi; he was always going to part ways w her no matter what decision she made, but she was never able to fully heal or come to terms w losing him in the way she did and mourn all of the time they never had so this time she is making the decision to hold onto rek and ro as tightly as she can, and to cherish every moment she is able to have them as long as she can in the hopes that she will never have to lose them like she lost vi. that she can have the memories w them that she was never able to have w vi.

[stagefoureddiediaz]

I know we’ve all been calling Eddie‘s moustache, his gay moustache and I’m as guilty of it as the next person, but the reality is moustache he’s gave far more symbolism than being gay - in fact the gay moustache is actually a very recent thing (the 1970’s!) and an intentional movement by the gay community to subvert cultural stereotypes.

You see the moustache has been symbolic throughout history. They have been symbols of wisdom (think long Chinese moustaches), status (in parts of rajput India, historically only those of an upper caste could wear a moustache so it was associated with being ‘higher born’) and in Europe and America it was a symbol of masculinity and male virility. Indeed many European armies required officers and often enlisted men to wear moustaches. So its association with the military is long founded (apart from the equipment only allowing moustaches, it’s also a part of the reason firefighter swear them - because it is a male dominated career and therefore the moustache is a symbol of masculinity) and predates the moustache as a symbol of queerness.

All of this combined with Eddie diaz having one at this point in time is so interesting, especially because we now know that he’s going to symbolically shave it off on screen as a part of his emotional arc.

Eddie growing a moustache in the aftermath of the Shannon/Kim of it all - the fact Eddie has clearly not dealt with loosing Shannon or his grief, and there is a lot of other emotions and things tied up in dealing with that grief is super important. Eddie growing a moustache is him expressing his masculinity - tying himself to his heteronormative relationship and his military past.

To Eddie right now - his military past is when he had Shannon - it’s when he had a ‘complete family’. He isn’t seeing the cracks in the walls or the fact the foundation is made of quicksand. He isn’t able to see that his In his mind that is when he was happy and that is why he can’t grieve. Which is why he’s grown a moustache - because he’s clinging to his masculinity and the time when he felt he had control over his life.

It is essentially Eddie breakdown 2.0 and in the same way breakdown 1.0 came with a new haircut, but ultimately allowed him to process and deal with part of his trauma, breakdown 2.0 is likely to be the same thing. This time, likely dealing with Shannon and very likely the fact that she was essentially a ‘beard’ for him (even if he wasn’t fully cognisant of it at the time - I genuinely believe he loves(d) Shannon - but I also believe she enabled him to not have to look at himself too closely and keep himself in the closet) so shaving off that moustache is symbolic of shedding his beard (because he’s a firefighter and cannot have a full beard) and embracing his true authentic self.

So Eddie’s moustache is a symbol of his queerness - but only when he shaves it off.

[seriousbrat]

this says a lot about Snape's character development for me. There are many parallels drawn throughout the series between Harry and Snape; obviously, they're very different characters but there are similarities too.

I think here Snape is talking about himself. The teenaged Snape we see in the Pensieve is very much like this- emotional, heart on his sleeve, easily provoked, a definite wallower in sad memories... weak. Adult Snape, though he retains some of these characteristics that do emerge in stressful moments (in PoA we see how angrily he reacts to Sirius's escape, for instance) on the whole is a great deal more thoughtful, reserved, calculating, measured.

I think that Snape at some point had to force himself to become this. I think he actually relates to Harry here, and is giving him advice based on personal experience. In my fic he begins to learn to control his emotions partially out of a desire to protect Lily; he's fully aware that she's his weakness (or really, his strength, viewed a different way) and that openly displaying any sort of emotion towards her at all makes her vulnerable to the likes of Avery and Mulciber, who will have the perfect weapon to get to him if they want to.

Severus doesn't have the advantages of his peers, he's not pureblood, he wasn't born into money. If he wants to join the Death Eaters and rise in their ranks, he needs to be subtle, cunning, careful. he can't afford to be careless and entitled like mulciber or bellatrix or even sirius. what he's got to offer isn't his name or his money, it's his sheer talent and cleverness. moving on:

When Voldemort decides to go after Lily this becomes even more important. Imo the reason why Voldemort believes that Snape only "desired" Lily is because that's what Snape told him. He lied to Voldemort's face and told him something probably disgusting tbh because that's the only way Voldemort would accept it and agree, if it was a selfish, callous request that Voldemort could understand. We can see evidence of this here:

Asking Voldemort to spare a mudblood because he was in love with her would likely not have gone over well- and as we know, Voldemort actually bore his request in mind, though obv didn't give enough of a fuck about Snape to follow through. Because although asking voldemort to spare her must have taken serious balls, Snape's mistake here was trusting someone inherently selfish to do something selfless for him.

Clearly he immediately realises this and goes to Dumbledore, which is when controlling his emotions becomes of paramount importance, because now he's working against perhaps the most highly accomplished legilimens of all time.

It's also interesting to me that Snape in this conversation is probably the character who is most forthright and informative with Harry in the whole of OotP until Dumbledore at the end; Harry actually learns a lot in this conversation. And Snape also kind of gives him credit which is interesting too:

like for Snape that's high praise lmao. A shame because if he wasn't so bitter (i.e. didn't wear his heart on his sleeve so much around harry) then he might have actually been pretty helpful to Harry and a decent teacher. Again, during the Occlumency lessons his unrestrained emotion brought up by memories of James is a hindrance. He defies Dumbledore's orders to teach Harry Occlumency because of his emotional response to SWM, as well as honestly doing kind of a shit job before that (by not being empathetic and teaching Harry in a way that would've been actually productive.)

At this point Dumbledore believes that Harry learning Occlumency and controlling his emotions is of vital importance; he turns out to be wrong about this. In Harry's case, it turns out to be his emotional nature that saves him- unlike Snape, who is the opposite. Snape's journey is about learning that some things are more important than his selfish need to give into his own emotions.

By DH Snape's learned this lesson fully; his old hatred for James doesn't stop him from doing what has to be done, from giving Harry the tools he needs. Even in the final moments of his life, he can look past James and see Lily in Harry- and, by giving Harry the information that leads to his self-sacrifice, he can let her go.

[fatmaclover]

theres something to be said about how mac still holds such a childish adoration for his parents after such a long time. how literally its shown to us by the fact that

mac always slicked his hair back as a child, when he still had contact with his father

he stops doing this into adulthood, but later in life, once mac interacts with his father again, he starts slicking his hair back again

he doesnt stop. slicking his hair back. until his own father walks out during his coming out performance. the guy he put it on for. only after that does he completely stop styling his hair that way

not to mention the constant refusal that his mom (and dad) could be anything but perfect, the way hes so desperate to do good by them, viewing them as the way to measure his success...

and. yeah thats. something.

the internal denial that his parents treated him poorly, the fact that its his primary instinct to deny that his parents suck, the constant dismissal of his own issues relating to family because his whole life hes been told that "other people have it worse". the way hes internalized that so hard. the way it takes his dad walking out on macs coming out performance to him for mac to stop blindly idolizing some guy whos threatened to kill him

the constant fear of his own father, while also believing him to be the coolest bestest guy ever. the way he always assumes his father is gonna get violent when actually talking to him, but sings nothing but praises when away from him

the fact that he still calls his dad "daddy" even.

i mean you cant really blame him for not fully growing up in some areas huh

its not even that i think he doesnt know that his parents treat him horribly, it just really seems like he wants so badly to believe thats not the case from years of having his cries for help ignored or made fun of. he cant have been treated poorly, because charlie was treated poorly, and his baggage isnt nearly as bad as charlies, so clearly macs home life wasnt bad.

i think thats proven most of all by his frustration with his own family at times, it really feels like theres some underlying issues. they can very quickly manifest as frustration and anger, but honestly its probably mostly sadness. the way he reacts to his own mother really reminds me of how i interact with family members i have grudges with but have to pretend i dont. im not actually angry at any of these people, im mostly just exhausted by them.

he very clearly is still aware of the neglect he faced as a kid, to me. he knows his home life was severely fucked up, hes just never been able to express that, so hes coped by just. pretending that it didnt happen.

and realistically i dont know if he could ever properly acknowledge that his home life was fucked and his parents suck. maybe hed acknowledge that his dad sucks now, but it wouldnt have been that bad when he was a kid and wasnt a fag. right? he was loved then. his mom still did a great job raising him, and he really loves her, and he was raised with all the love and care a child needs.

[hyperrealisticblood]

if you are making a psychological horror project with puppets you have to include some homosexual nonsense or else the president of yaoi will send one hundred (100) armed guards to your location and theyll execute you publicly. examples of what i am talking about