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brekker-by-brekkerr Ā· 2 years ago
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It was literally implied in Season 1 that Gina is used to getting the lead role before she came to East High. But in Season 3, Gina mentions this is her first time getting a lead if she said ā€œThis is my first time getting a lead role in over a yearā€ that would of made more sense but they had to change what was already canon. It also seems like the writers were just trying to pretend some things in Season 2 never happen because all the backlash they got from Rina shippers about season 2.
r*nas please dni
hi anon! yeah in season 1 they're very up front with how Gina is experienced in theatre and gets leads before coming to east high. i couldn't find where she says this is her first lead but it's been a sec since i watched s3. i agree overall it's like they were just trying to erase a lot of season 2 and there's so much i love about season 2 so that hurts
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ghost-proofbaby Ā· 2 years ago
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i can't believe someone read my spencer reid fanfic. my baby. my meticulously planned pure angst fanfic. solely written to absolutely break me.
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kathaynesart Ā· 5 months ago
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Bit of a random question, but as a teen I'm curious, what would you want to say to kids of today? Any advice?
Hm... every person's life journey is different, but I don't mind giving a few tips based on my personal experiences! If they can help in anyway then I am glad for it!
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Ted Talk below the cut.
Life will always change. YOU will change. You may feel stuck or trapped in some aspect of your life right now and are worried that things will never get better. But they do... it will take time, but you will get there so long as you keep moving forward.
Try not to stress too much. All those things that seem like such a big deal right now... most of them will be forgotten within a few years. So it helps when you feel overwhelmed to step back and not let these little (or even big) missteps take control of your life.
No really, go touch grass. I can not express how important it is to disconnect from social media and just be present in the moment. Going out to a cafe or a park to help you unwind and ground yourself. If life allows, try traveling! Even if it's just a road trip. Get out and see and experience different things because those will be the memories that will stick with you!
Change things up. Even if that's just taking a different path to school or trying a different snack. I find that stepping away from the mundane daily schedule helps bring so much more variety to my life and helps me be more present in the moment.
Be flexible. Especially in your goals and expectations. We're expected at such a young age to choose our destination in life, when it's the journey itself that we should be seeking. So while it's great to have goals, do not make them so rigid that you will deem yourself a failure should they not come to pass. Often times it's the things that surprise us in life that help lead us to opportunities we had never even considered.
Your worth does not come from what you produce, or how many milestones you hit, or how much money you make. It is something you give yourself as you relearn time and time again to love yourself.
Your health is important! It is something we often take for granted when weā€™re younger but it will mean so much as you age. Also should you feel that youā€™re ever in pain or unwell, speak up. There are so many instances of people coming to greater harm because they only listened to the first doctor who brushed them off. Seek a second opinion. Know that your body is worth proper care!
Just because you have to grow old does not mean you have to "grow up." Those things you loved that sparked joy in you as a kid? Hold onto them or find new ways to instill them into your life. Keep that passion and remember what fun is! Because you will need it just as much when you're older. It is a major ingredient in the spice of life.
Remember, you ARE special. You may not feel like it... but the fact that you exist is such a mind boggling feat in this vast universe of mostly empty space. While that may be difficult to grasp as we are, stuffed in this tiny jewelry box we call Earth, that does not make any one of us any less special in the grand scheme of things. And in this tiny but overflowing box of treasures, there is no gem that is quite like you. You managed against all odds to come into existence. That is AMAZING. Congratulations! Hard part is already done. Now go shine!
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orphiclovers Ā· 3 months ago
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...Huh, I wonder what happened to 1865! Kim Namwoon
That's actually a really good question, I've never thought about it before.
I think he must have been swept up in the crowd with all the other people kimcom saved in the 1865th round. Like Lee Jihye's classmates, he became just another normal high schooler who survived the start of the apocalypse by crushing bugs.
Since he wasn't their companion in the only turn Kimcom knew, they didn't pay any special attention to him. The only one who knew that he was supposed to be a part of this all is Yoo Joonghyuk, and he probably decided to leave him alone for once.
Kimcom was already so united and isolated by their experience in the previous round, bring a 'stranger' into their fold for no reason would seem strange and unnecessary for them.
...It's sort of bittersweet. Kim Dokja's disregard is what saved him from the curse of being a protagonist in ORV. He is not stuck in the cycle like kimcom is, all because Kim Dokja decided not to save him.
Kim Namwoon is the only character that can be said to have truly and completely escaped the narrative.
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evercelle Ā· 6 months ago
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Could you elaborate more on the previous askā€”more specifically about how Saihara is a mystery to Ouma as much as the reverse is true? I agree with the sentiment but Iā€™m curious about your thoughts as a fellow saiou enjoyer and feeder of the fandom :3c
I undersand how Saihara feels more straight-laced to us, since we as the Player get to read his every thought, but Iā€™m curious as to what makes him mutually intriguing to Ouma as well.
saihara's a bunch of surprises when we're not in his brain! he's a bit of a social doormat who's thrust into a leadership position. he's skilled at a talent he resents because he's both cautious of the power the truth has and fearful of the responsibility of wielding it. he's closest to the heroic & charismatic people, but he's willing to lie to his advantage in trials... and if you're doing FTEs, he returns to hang out with ouma repeatedly, which is probably strange in and of itself. it's a safe guess that few if any of the other characters tolerate, pick up on, or are willing to engage on ouma's layered antics at all, so i think saihara coming back for more would be surprising & intriguing to ouma, too. we get to know saihara via omniscient viewer and his 2 FTEs, but outside that, he's also a person who tries to hide himself. just with a different performance and motivation than ouma, and curious minds love a mystery...
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millennium-queen Ā· 1 year ago
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No because I was so surprised at the amount of people who think Peeta would have pressured Katniss into having kids. Like did they not understand his character at all?? If anything the MOST he would have done is ask her over the years of she felt she was ready, and then backed off when she said no. It's more likely that Katniss could tell that he pined for children by watching him interact with the kids in the district, and others (possibly Haymitch) brought the topic up with her. But Peeta forcing her or guiltily her into it? Never!
HONESTLY!! HONESTLY!!
My personal headcannon is maybe a little controversial lmaoo but I actually think that Peeta wouldnā€™t be in a rush to have a baby post MJ anyway?
Just like how Katniss has her reservations about having kids because of the trauma that the games inflicted on every aspect of her life, (along with a very disjointed relationship with her own mother) Peeta has his own host of things to work through before I think heā€™d be ready enough to admit he wants to start a family.
Once he does tho I think heā€™d only bring it up the once, see she wasnā€™t on the same page, and then heā€™d leave it because hey!! he never even dreamed theyā€™d get to where they are now!! Safe!! And in love!! He doesnā€™t need kids to be happy he just needs her!!
So in my head itā€™s Katniss who starts the first real conversation about having kids once she sees just how sweet and kind he is to the little ones coming into the bakery with their parents and even then I think heā€™d probably drive her insane just double and triple checking that she actually wants this?? And itā€™s real?? They can try for a baby??
This whole idea that he would pressure her is just Peeta slander!! plain and simple!! lmaoo
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awakefor48hours Ā· 5 months ago
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Do you have any LGBTQ+ black clover headcanons? Talk about them!
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I sure do have LGBT+ headcanons for Black Clover characters so let's go over them.
Black Bulls
Vanessa - Bisexual
I headcanon Vanessa as bi (leans more towards women) because her backstory feels very similar to a queer allegory.
Vanessa is has pink hair and pronouns, grew up with a strict maternal figure (who does have Catholic imagery), who forbade her from having relationships with people of a certain gender. Then as soon as she leaves and finally joins the outside world, she starts to dress in more revealing clothes and drinks a lot.
All of that together, it just feels very similar to the way that people who have grown up with overly religious and strict parents behave when they leave to go to college.
Also this haircut
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The certified bisexual haircut.
Finral - Bisexual
I headcanon Finral as bi (leans more to women) for pretty similar reasons to Vanessa. They're parallels to each other after all, older siblings to abusive parents that didn't treat them right only to leave to help themselves while also choosing to be the older sibling that the Black Bulls deserve.
He also reminds me of my bi friends, he does finger guns a lot, and is very comfortable when it comes to complimenting men.
Magna - Bisexual
I ship magluck so my opinion is definitely going to be skewed but I fully think he's bi (no gender preference). The way he talks about being a man and masculinity, it just feels like a bit more than just appreciation, to me at least.
Luck - Pansexual
Like with Magna, my opinion on this is skewed because I ship magluck but I headcanon Luck as pan (no gender preference). His design is nearly the pan flag (just missing the pink) and he hasn't shown any real preference to anyone when it comes to forming a romantic and/or sexual relationship. When it comes to Luck's relationship with dating, it's a bit muddy because he's never been shown to be explicitly in love with anyone but from what we've seen he's not against dating women and the only person he's blushed around was Magna. Also when the Black Bulls share the type of people they like, Luck doesn't specify gender his preferred partner by gender (source: chapter 103).
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As you can see, save for Gordon, everyone else uses gendered terms (or just say the person's name) to describe their preferred partner, expect for Luck.
I will say, I do know that when the captains answer, they use more gendered neutral terms (source: chapter 167)
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but here's the fun thing about fanon, I can pick and chose when I want to stick my fingers in ears and go "lalalalalalalala! I can't hear you!"
Noelle - Biromantic/Asexual
This is a headcanon that's a bit skewed because Noelle reminds me a lot of Marinette from ML so I share a lot of headcanons between them. Putting that aside Noelle is bi (leans more to men)/ace (sex neutral).
First of all, I'd like to look at her upbringing. Even though it doesn't seem like homophobia exists in the BC universe (basing this off of the devil worshiper arc) I wouldn't put it past the royals to be queerphobic or have amanormative/heteronormative views.
With that in mind, it wouldn't be too strange to believe that Noelle would pick up some comphet beliefs. She definitely like Asta but I also feel like her relationship with Kahono is also a bit romantic.
Let's also not forget that Noelle has a hard time with her emotions, Kahono even notes this herself. (Source: chapter 103)
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With that, I think that she struggles to understand her romantic feelings so it makes sense to me that she wouldn't realize that she does like girls.
I headcanon her as asexual because when it comes to being physical, Noelle seems a bit finicky, in a word. We see that does like intimacy but when it comes to Asta, her love interest, grabbing her or any time of physical contact, suddenly she's very uncomfortable and it just feels pretty asexual.
Grey - Genderfluid
When it comes to shape shifters, I pretty much always headcanon them as genderfluid or trans and Grey is no exception.
Throughout most of her time in the Black Bulls, everyone saw her as a man. She chose to present herself as a man an never corrected anyone when they used he/him pronouns for her, it was also the form she was more comfortable with. She also doesn't seem too uncomfortable when she's presenting as anyone, male or female.
Also, it's no secret that Grey's backstory is based on Cinderella and I once saw a tumblr thread talk about how Cinderella being trans ties the story together (points such as, the slipper only fitting on her foot, the reason why the prince charming didn't even know she existed, it's also why her step mother hated her a lot, etc) and since that stuck with me, I ended up seeing Grey in a similar way.
Nero - Aromantic/Heterosexual
When it comes to Nero's relationships with other people she is a bit closed off, especially since she was a royal that lost her status early on in life. Then you look at her relationship with Lumiere and their relationship never really felt romantic. It was emotional, they were together, but it wasn't romantic at all, to me at least. Then you have the times when she was a bird. I don't ship Asta and Nero but it does seem like she prefers physical relationships than emotional relationships seeing as how she liked Asta the most and was always found on his head.
Nacht - Aro/Ace
Can't get into this too much without dipping into the manga so I'm just gonna say āœØvibesāœØ
Golden Dawn
Yuno - Aro/Ace
I headcanon Yuno as romance-neutral aromantic/sex repulsed asexual. I feel that Tabata wrote Yuno to be aromantic-spec and/or asexual-spec because Yuno absolutely does not vibe with sexual or romantic relationships in the slightest.
He's called handsome by everyone around him, the male and female characters, and has tons of girls flaunting over him. In fact, in universe, he is literally the hottest guy (source: chapter 105)
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Despite everything playing in Yuno's favor to have a romantic partner, he doesn't bat an eye to anyone ever nor does he have a single major character as a love interest.
(I know that Charmy technically has a crush on him but I personally refuse to acknowledge it because as someone who's been both 15 and 19, it makes me very uncomfortable that Charmy was 19 when she fell in love with a whole ass 15 year old.)
Additionally, he just seems so uninterested in any type of physical/sexual relationship and I think the biggest example of this comes from the hot springs arc. even though Yami got all the men hyped up to peep at the women, Yuno could not be more unbothered by the idea. Just look at him. (Source: Chapter 111)
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This kid would not care about peeping if his life depended on it. He says that he's "not this kind of character" (which feels like a way of explaining asexuality without knowing the exact wording for it) and Asta even adds onto this by saying that Yuno has been this way since birth. With all of that I just really cannot help but think of Yuno as an asexual or ace-spec.
When you combine his complete disinterest in romance and in anything sexual, it really feels like he's supposed to be somewhere on the aro or ace spectrum. If he's not, he is in my mind.
Mimosa - Lesbian
I know I'm like one of three people to headcanon Mimosa as a lesbian but hear me out. Yes in canon she has a crush on Asta but in my fanon, she's comphet.
This is my headcanon for a few reasons. First of all, like Noelle, Mimosa grew up basically in the household with the same expectations put on them. So as mentioned with Noelle, I wouldn't put it past the royals to have queerphobic beliefs.
Also, Mimosa is an airhead. When it comes to other people's emotions, she cannot understand them to save her life. This is the main reason why Noelle had a hard time seeing her when Mimosa in the dungeon arc. If she's this bad with emotions, it's not hard to believe she would struggle to navigate her own emotions.
Then that takes us to her crush on Asta and I'm still holding onto the comphet lesbian headcanon. Mimosa is trying to go through life her own way, this is why she's in Golden Dawn and not the Crimson Lions, meaning I wouldn't put it past her that this is the first time ever she's really interacted with people outside of her family.
At the end of the dungeon arc, Asta happily smiled and thanked Mimosa for what she did. That was the moment Mimosa fell for him but due to my headcanons/warped perception of the show, I don't see it that way. Even if she was straight, it just feels very comphet to fall for the first boy outside of your family that was nice to you more than once (it's important to remember that Klaus kinda sucked at this time and that Yuno struggles to show affection). In fact, I've personally experienced this and have siblings who've also been there.
Also here's the difference between how Mimosa looked at Asta, after falling for him, and Lolopechka dressed as a queen.
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She is just taken aback completely by Lolopechka's beauty but when it comes to Asta, she's just timid. All the moments when Mimosa is blushing around Asta, to my heavily biased POV, it feels more performative than actual attraction.
To even bring Yuno into this, Mimosa hasn't developed feelings for him at all. Throughout the whole series, girls are constantly throwing themselves at Yuno's feet to get his attention and is, once again, he is the most attractive male character in Black Clover. Despite this, Mimosa, the girl who is constantly near him, gets to see him when he's vulnerable, just doesn't develop even a twinge of romantic feelings towards him. She sees him as only a friend.
Lastly, I feel like Mimosa being a lesbian works well with her crush on Asta because it's pretty obvious it's not gonna work out in the end. It doesn't take a genius to figure out that Astelle is going to be canon and when that happens, I think Mimosa taking time to separate her feelings from Asta and move on is something I think is bound to happen, if that happens, I think it'd be really cool if while she's sorting through feelings, she comes to a lesbian realization and pursues relationships with other people, (if I had to be honest, I'd say Rebecca because then you'd have two girls who were heartbroken by the same guy, bonding over that, getting together in the end, and Rebecca finally gets to live a life where she doesn't have to worry about money.)
Alecdora - Gay
This man is madly in love with William with bad coping mechanisms for it, and I refuse to hear anything about it. Fellas, is it gay to devote your entire life to a man to the point that when his attention is diverted to someone else, just a little bit, it gives you so much anxiety that you lose weight because it?
Crimson Lions
Fuegoleon - Bigender
This literally has nothing to do with anything Fuegoleon has done in canon, the reason why I headcanon him as bigender comes from this thread and I wasn't able to stop myself from seeing him as bigender. I think about it so much that I genuinely forget at times that's he's not bigender in canon.
Mereoleona - Lesbian
Originally, this did just start from āœØvibesāœØand the fact that she does fall kinda fall into the cliche of lesbians that live alone and scare off the men in their lives. Then Sword of the Wizard King came out and that solidified the lesbian Mereoleona headcanon to me.
I know that Mereoleona said her preferred partner was a "man" but once again, this is fanon so my fingers are in my ears. When it comes to Mereoleona's romantic/sexual life, the one and only character I can see her working with is Princia, Mereoleona did mention she wanted a partner that wouldn't die in mortal combat and Princia didn't. In fact, they were evenly matched, and they're sun and moon coded (methinks soulmates).
I also started shipping them because I'm me but can you really blame me this time? Mereoleona and Princia had a fight in which they very physical with each other, had their clothes get constantly torn off, and kept asking to keep going at it for another round. I feel like I'm describing a fanfiction but I'm just describing what happened on screen.
She's never really had this relationship with anyone else. Everyone, even Yami, is scared of her. So to have a partner that's able to not only handle her energy but able to dish it back to her just feels fitting.
Grey/Aqua Deers
Rill - Asexual
Part of this comes from the fact that I've never met a single cishet artist in my life. Every artist I've ever known has been queer in one way or another.
But to actually look at his character, Rill just seems completely uninterested in any sexual relationships. His one and only romance blossomed when Charmy kicked his ass and it feels a lot like he's admiring her beauty and strength but not in a sexual way.
Blue Rose Knights
Sol - Lesbian
She pretty much fits the lesbian stereotype to a T
Princia - Lesbian
Along with a lot of the reasons that I headcanon Mereoleona as a lesbian and she did become the captain of an all girl squad so I'm already doubting any straight behavior.
Coral Peacocks
Kirsch - Queer
When it comes to Kirsch, I feel like no other description is better than he's himself. I don't think he'd use any label for himself (I can, however, see him picking his favorite pride flag and saying that it's his).
Other characters
Kahono - Lesbian
Kahono definitely likes Noelle, I just interpret it as romantic. They were able to bond so much over their short time and the first thing that Kahono does after getting her voice back is hug Noelle, this is to saw she barely acknowledges Asta's existence. Then after going on the double date, Kahono just immediately suggests that she and Noelle go on date (Source: chapter 103).
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We don't get to see what happens next but Kahono did start these dates to get Noelle to realize her feelings and seeing as how Noelle just sent Asta flying, my headcanon is that Kahono saw this as a way to shoot her shot to get Noelle to notice her.
You also have the fact that Kahono grew up in the Seabed Temple, meaning that her experiences with being queer are probably going to be different than the other characters and she's probably more open to it.
Sister Lily - AroAce
I headcanon Lily as a romance and sex repulsed aroace for two reasons. The first reason is how she views Asta's crush on her. Sure, Asta is annoying about his crush on her I also think that part of her disinterest comes from being aroace.
The other reason comes from the fact that she became a nun pretty early in her life. If I remember correctly, Lily became a nun when she was 16, that's a pretty young age to swear yourself to celibacy and I know people do it but there's a part of me that can't help but think it's because she's aroace and saw an out to any potential relationships.
Vanica - Lesbian
Vanica has men constantly falling over themselves to be with her, yet she doesn't really care too much about them. When it comes to the women, however, she's pretty open when talking about their beauty. Also, once again, because I'm me (and because of my moots), I do ship her with Noelle.
I know I have more but that's all I got at the moment
+ As a bonus
The characters who I think would be over the top with their allyship: Asta, Leopold, Klaus, Lumiere.
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monstermoviedean Ā· 25 days ago
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imo, cas feels like he needs to be useful or else hes not earning his keep as a member of the team (he never seems to learn that hes allowed to just exist without being a soldier) ... BUT. this is primarily self reinforced by cult mentality (angels had to be useful or they probably were insulted and demeaned) and his own insecurity (especially with how he feels useless when his powers arent able to handle the situation which is a frequent plot point when cas is in an episode).
but i dont... think he feels *used* i think he feels *useless*
i agree entirely!!! where i take issue is when people overlook/forget about the cult mentality and the insecurity, and/or suggest those things are dean's fault. i think cas often feels useless and his actions are an attempt to feel useful and therefore valid. and it breaks my heart! i want him to know that just existing is valid enough!
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egginfroggin Ā· 7 months ago
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Imagine...
Emmet is transported to Hisui.
He became five or six years old.
When he comes back, Ingo learns that he will now become a father.
Extremely late answer, sorry, Anon.
I feel that Arceus would get punched by a very irate Subway Boss in that scenario, I love it.
This has spawned many words in the master document, as my brain has decided to positively gnaw on this idea, and alas, nothing is finished yet, so have a bit of worldbuilding and some drawings in the meantime.
Worldbuilding and close-ups under the cut, and please click on the images for better quality.
And again, thank you so much for the ask, Anon, this was really fun! ^^
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Pencil sketches:
first doodle of the Little Guy
height comparisons to further emphasize the "Little" part of the Little Guy
a) Akari and Rei making the mistake of turning their backs on Emmet for 0.5 seconds as he notices something off-camera b) the twins continuing to talk, oblivious to Emmet's act of absconding c) the twins turning around to talk to their teeny charge d) swift baseball bat of Realization at the Emmet-shaped absence in their immediate vicinity
Pen sketches (part of a page of sketches that were otherwise unrelated, hence the numbering):
3. a very happy lil man, despite the oversized hat 4. he skrungle scribble 5. who's he looking at? who knows
Digital art:
Emmet craves violence. Akari and Rei are used to this (featuring: probably the best expressions I've ever drawn)
he's a bit older now, but still smaller than his evolved starter; Typhlosion can tell his soul is older, but he is physically small, so she abuses his lack of height to shower him in affection
an internal mess of conflicting instincts, thoughts, and emotional maturity, but Arceus's plan is set in motion, and there's nothing Emmet can do about it
Worldbuilding:
Emmet got shrunk on his way to Hisui, due to the Rift's distorted power affecting him on the way out; he lands on Prelude Beach, drowning in his Depot Agent uniform now that he is teeny tiny
Arceus, panicking a little bit, communicates more directly with Emmet, urging him along on his mission
Emmet's memories are messed up, and his conduct is an odd combination of a child and an adult. By which I mean he can be disconcertingly clever and mature, but also the poutiest little guy with a habit of crying
Young age plus being overwhelmed plus stress equals one mute boi; this does not change his penchant for causing Problems
Jubilife is a lot more lenient with him because of how young he is, but Laventon, Cyllene, and Kamado suspect that he isn't supposed to be like this due to how he was found
Emmet is in an awkward position as far as finding living conditions go, being too odd for most parents to want to take in but also much too young to live on his own
Akari and Rei are assigned babysitters. Let the stressing and development of gray hairs commence
Emmet is Perfectly Behaved and causes no Problems at all, of course, why would he? Why would he?
(He bolts for the gates the moment Akari opens the door in the morning) (Ress caught him)
After sending Emmet home, Arceus shortly feels a distinct feeling of being in danger
After finding out that his brother has been shrunk and not fixed, Ingo fixes metaphorical (and perhaps literal) crosshairs on the back of Arceus's head
Arceus may be in danger
Close-ups of the digital art:
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(Program used for the digital sketches: Krita; time taken: about 90 minutes)
Thank you for reading all of this! I hope you have a wonderful, blessed day. :>
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incesthemes Ā· 6 months ago
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TW CSA
So I know itā€™s not implied anywhere but I like to project. Sams demon blood arch and being ā€œdirtyā€ since he was kid resonates a lot with me as someone who has csa. Like you are no longer holy no fault your own and your biggest fear is becoming like them.
the narrative of the show and the general ambiguity of the characters and their backgrounds often lend themselves to alternative readings just like this. the symbolic usage of blood especially allows for interpretations of queerness, rape and sexual assault, incestā€”things that are generally seen as impurities that make a person dirty and tainted. the thing is inside you and it's part of you and you can never get rid of it. it's not you, not inherently, but it's with you, an inextricable brand on your soul that you'll carry with you forever. blood is equally immutable, inside of you, tied to your essence yet just a part of your complete self. blood represents bonds and relationships. blood kin, blood oaths and sibling pacts, the heart is the source of love and emotion. if the blood is corrupted then so is the self. you've become impure and dirty and you can never remove the dirty thing because it's infected every part of you. it isn't you, but it's in every part of you and when you bleed everyone will know.
it's a strikingly poignant symbol that allows for such varied yet overlapping interpretations, especially in all the ways it's utilized in the show. sam is made impure as a baby; he's not born with it, it's not him, but it's forced onto him and he has to carry that with him forever even though he never consented to that burden. the desire to repent and be good and scrub himself clean is just as resonant: the vain hope to undo what's been done to you and return to a state of innocence even though you can't change the past and you can't retroactively stop what happened. in the end all you can do is become strong enough to carry that weight.
combined with the recurring theme of cyclical trauma and abuse it creates a compelling narrative that strongly resembles CSA. sam may not have been literally sexually assaulted as a child, but the themes and liminality of the narrative generates an anxiety that lets those connections be drawn. the emotions are the same. and that's what stories do: they let us see ourselves through abstracted and symbolic narratives. they let us connect with others through our shared emotional experiences. it's what it's all about.
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mxtxfanatic Ā· 4 months ago
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i used to send some whack anon asks to you and your friends. i would like to apologize bc after a long period of reflection, i realized that it was me allowing others thoughts and opinions predominantly about their fanon and headcanons play a greater role than the original story and what was true. i guess i struggled with feeling like i needed to accomodate their opinions and ultimately defend them which was bizarre.
i wish you and your friends lots of good health, joy and many years in the fandom!
I appreciate the apology, and Iā€™m glad youā€™ve been able to come out the other side of this self-reflection better for it. If you feel the need to defend other peopleā€™s fandom ideas to the point of doing things you wouldnā€™t want your name and face attached to, itā€™s time to sit down and consider whether you have a healthy relationship to those people or ideas. I hope that others are able to come to your same conclusions and decide that life is much more enjoyable when we focus on the things we love rather than dwelling in harassing others over the things we hate in an attempt to make everyone miserable.
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charamuscadmango Ā· 8 months ago
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What kind of abilities do you think the jashlings would have as DST characters?
Ā I HAVE THOUGHT SO MUCH ABOUT THIS THANK YOU SOĀ  SO MUCH FOR ASKING THIS
Ā So about individual abilities:
Heart would have a big advantage at night, because heā€™s already mostly blind and wears the blindfold most of the time heā€™s already used to the dark, so he would lose sanity a bit slower than others and also would have no problem picking up things in the dark. He would have higher health than most characters but itā€™s compensated by lower sanity.Ā 
Mind,since she has mechanical hands, wouldn't take damage if she picks up aĀ burning/smoldering object. She would have higher sanity than most characters but itā€™s compensated by lower health.
SoulĀ  has average stats (loser), he's a bit faster than others but only at dusk, thereā€™s also their trident (Iā€™ll get to that in a bit).
I also thought about each of them having their own individual items they can craftĀ 
So Mindā€™s would be her crown, which would be crafted with rocks, boulders and gold (I was thinking marble too but itā€™s a bit harder to obtain that the other minerals I mentioned so idk.)Ā It would essentially have as much durability (8 days) and sanity boost as a top hat (so +3.33/min), it would also give her a speed boost during the day but would make her attacks weaker, at dusk and night she would just walk normally. The crown only gives said benefits to Mind, if any other character wears it their sanity would decrease.
Heart would have his blindfold which would be crafted with silk, petals and grass (or reeds) and like Mindā€™s crown it will increase his sanity (about +2/min)Ā  and have as much durability as the garland (6 days), the difference is he will lose sanity if itā€™s not being worn during the day, heā€™s fine without it at night and dusk, he would only lose a bit less sanity than other characters like I mentioned,regardless if heā€™s wearing the blindfold or not. His blindfold would also make his attacks stronger at night. It only works on Heart too, if any other character wore it they would decrease their sanity.
Soul would have his trident which would be the hardest item to craft out of the 3 since they would need boulders, marble and gold (not super hard to find materials but would probably take a while to obtain enough of all of them), it would be used as a weapon and it would would deal about as much damage as a tentacle spike (so 51 damage per hit.) The advantage of it is that at dusk whatever he attacks with their trident will get Soulā€™s sanity to increase, if they attack anything with it at night or during the day it will decreaseĀ  their sanity. If he manages to get a red gem he can put it in the trident and the attacks would be even stronger, but so would be the sanity aura of it. And like the other two only they (Soul) can use the trident, if any other character tries to pick up the trident it would decrease their sanity significantly (even more than the blindfold or crown). In addition Heart's and Mindā€™s sanity will decrease if theyā€™re near Soul while he's using the trident.
I also think it would be cool if each of their items could only be crafted at specific times, Heartā€™s blindfold at night, Mindā€™s crown during the day and Soulā€™s trident at dusk.
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kinnbig Ā· 2 years ago
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oh my god, tell us more (about the arm tankhun fake dating fic in your head), please! :D
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OKAY so the concept is. about 6 months post-canon, the main and minor families are invited to the destination wedding of one of their allies from a hugely powerful mafia family - it's a few nights staying on a private tropical island, and as a respect/trust/hospitality thing, it would be considered really inappropriate for guests to bring more than one or two bodyguards per group.
so Tankhun is like ā€œwell then obviously I canā€™t go?ā€ because while he is now much better at leaving the house, heā€™s not quite ā€˜get on a plane and fly to a random island for several days of intense socialisation with incredibly dangerous near-strangers without a single Trusted Bodyguardā€™ levels of better.
heā€™s talking to Chay about it and Chay's like ā€œyeah, it's kind of fucked up that everyone gets a +1 but not a bodyguard. how would anyone even know if your +1 was your bodyguard?!ā€ and Tankhun's like ā€œ.....Chay you're a genius. Arm, I need you to be my wedding date.ā€
commence the fake dating shenanigans! they ā€˜revealā€™ their secret, long-term relationship to the entire family, and then theyā€™ve got to pretend to be a couple in front of everyone while Arm actually works as Tankhunā€™s bodyguard. as the only other person who knows their relationship isnā€™t real, Chay is helping to mastermind the entire operation. what Chay also knows is that Khun does actually have very real and Not Fake feelings for Arm - and you can be sure heā€™s going to be a menace about it.
luckily, Khun is being just as much of a menace in return - the wedding is the first time Kim and Chay have been in the same room sinceā€¦ well, everything, and Tankhun has watched them both silently pine for each other for long enough. background KimChay reconciliation era my beloved!
and so the usual fake dating antics ensue! lots of piningā€¦ plenty of acting out intimacy while wishing it was genuineā€¦ Chay putting them in so many Situationsā€¦ lines slowly blurring between what is part of the act and what is realā€¦ and. obviously. there was only one bed.
šŸ„° thank u so much for indulging me, i love talking about blorbos from my shows and my silly story ideas for them! i came up with this with @aikinn and @thewholedamnboulangerie during some kind of group astral plane projection, which makes it especially delicious as they always have the best and most objectively correct Tankhun takes šŸ’Ŗ
my brain is currently on 24/7 armtankhun lockdown soooo if u have thoughts about Themā€¦ plsā€¦ i would like to eat themā€¦
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ssreeder Ā· 5 months ago
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Hoii!
I'm kind of new, has been finished with LIAB a few weeks ago and I'm reading RIA now
Just a question/recommendation, have you heard about the song Leave it all behind by Cult to follow? Not only in title, but the song itself really vibes with LIAB in my opinion!
HIIII!! Sorry for the late reply but OH MY GOSH YES THE VIBE IS SO THERE.
seriously, itā€™s wild how well this song fits into the overall vibe of the story. Itā€™s so my kind of music too so thank you very very much for this. I hope you continue enjoying the insanely long fanfic haha <3
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hush-house-yard-sale Ā· 1 year ago
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Hey Librarian, I just wanna ask, how fortified is your house against thieves? Specifically people who might take a peek at books? Specifically diaries? Specifically looking for pages that might imply your true feelings for someone and all this "I don't like you" is just an act because you developed affection towards someone but want to push them away cause the m-word is not a place for love and so you just pen these memories away in a book so all that love will not die? Cause I would HATE it if someone sent an expedition of talented followers to break down locks and seduce guards just to infiltrate *my* inner sanctum and read about all these things I actually wrote myself.
I'd hate it and I'm just... Checking how you prepare against those?
-Cul... cumber. CUCUMBER
How... fortified is my house against... thieves? You... you want to know how fortified my house is against thieves? Oh, for the love ofā€”
First of all, Mx... [scoffs] "Cucumber," you should be well aware that there is no need to resort to breaking and entering if you wish to look at books. This is a library. The purpose of a library is so that patrons can come and look at books. No, I daresay that the only reason one would need to resort to breaking and entering is if one were trying to, oh I don't know, bypass the librarian and steal the books for yourself. And I assure you, Mx. "Cucumber," that that is something for which I will not stand!
Second of all, the only book in Hush House authored by me contains my life's work. You are very sorely deluded if you think I have not made arrangements for its publication, should my endeavors succeed! If you want to read my "diary," as you so dismissively call it, you can purchase it from any reputable retailer of occult works in 2-4 business years. But frankly? I doubt you will even bother, given the disdain you've had for my "nerdy essay." At best you'll flip through it searching for confirmation of this theory you've concocted to fill the void left by the Forge-of-Days' various rejections, and fall back to your opium when you find nothing of the sort. I could translate it intoā€” into Vak if I so desired and it wouldn't make a difference to the amount of information you'd retain upon reading! Perhaps I shall! Perhaps I already have!
Furthermore, for all your obsessionsā€”oh yes, I know all about your obsessions. Do you truly think yourself subtle? Or clever?ā€” you clearly have no pride and no self-respect if you intend to send your followers to discern my feelings for you. Did your followers also write this letter for you? Do they choose the people you woo? When you kiss your lovers, do they position your head for you? There are some things that must be done personally Mx. "Cucumber," if they are to be done at all. And if you will not then you are a coward, and have no hope for earning even a crumb of my respect.
You may be obsessed with me, for what reason I cannot possibly fathom, but you have shown that you have no respect for me, no respect for my library, and no respect for my life's work! You hide behind a false name, and pretend that I am too stupid to see through it. No, I know only one person this callous, this self-centered, this entitled, this... immature.
YOU ARE THE DESPICABLE THIEF OF THE HISTORY OF INKS!!!!!!!!
You will receive no further correspondence from me until the tome is returned.
Firmest disregard,
The Yard Sale Librarian
Post Scriptum: Please inform your followers that my legion of guard vipers is ever-growing. And soon I will overthrow the world.
Post- Post Scriptum: Every last one of them is asexual.
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future-crab Ā· 7 months ago
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Please..tell me everything thatā€™s on your mind about hesitant alien, Iā€™ll start: Haunted house is underrated
Haunted House IS underrated, youā€™re so right anon
Anyway, I have SO many thoughts about Hesitant Alien that I donā€™t even know which ones to focus on (hence why it took me like 2 months to answer this ask) but one thing that Iā€™ve been thinking about a lot recently is tracks on Hesitant Alien that feel like sister songs to stuff from mcr. Iā€™ve already talked kind of a lot about Drugstore Perfume and Kill All Your Friends, but the ones Iā€™ve been thinking about lately are How Itā€™s Going to Be and Foundations of Decay. They both evoke for me (tho obviously thereā€™s multiple ways to interpret them) the specific feeling of, like, ā€œI spent my whole life thinking I would die young, and then I didnā€™t, and now Iā€™ve reached an age I never thought Iā€™d get to and I have to figure out what to actually do with this life.ā€
And thereā€™s something I find so fascinating about the contrast of Foundations, a song with a very dark, moody sound that is, at heart, deeply life-affirming (ā€œyou must fix your heart,ā€ and all that) vs How Itā€™s Going to Be, a song that sounds on the surface really saccharine and lighthearted but that has an undercurrent of deep anger and resentment (ā€œYou said weā€™d all be dead by twenty-five,ā€ ā€œYour disappointed sighs,ā€ ā€œWeā€™re just bored youā€™re still alive,ā€ etc). Idk. Much to think about.
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