#sorry i don’t have many mutuals :( i’m just a little guy in a tiny blog

[vindy-vindingmachine]

thanks for tagging me! here’s my list:

Alcryst (wow what a surprise)

Yunaka (ZAPPY!!!)

Céline

Framme

Hortensia

Anna (purely because a child is saying “NO WINDOW SHOPPERS!!”)

Marni (surprised to see her in my top 10)

Fogado

Gregory (the roel influence)

Rosado

uhh… i don’t have many people to ask… @lycanloc is about all, but if you are a Fire Emblem fan reading this, feel free to join!

my top 10 favourite FE characters according to the FE picker:

Arvis (shocker, I know)

Lyon

Eldigan

Minerva

Mathilda

Camus

L'arachel

Finn

Ismaire (pretty lady)

Michalis

Do this (enable all options) then reblog with your supposed Top 10!

summoning friends: @crystalline-loptous @pennyroyald idk any other FE fans

[mamasplat]

Hi, I'm new to your asks, and I just wanted to say that you True Serena True Run and Calem Run are my favorite things right now! I love them so much, I simply cannot wait to check out your blog.

I was just wondering if you still took writing requests?

If you do, I'd love to see a scene between Calem and his dad (we've already seen his mommy issues, now we need to see his daddy issues)

[also, a smidge of Kalosshipping with slowly creeping demi realization just for me? pretty please?]

Oh my god I’m so sorry it took me this long! But hey luckily for you we’re on the heels of a holiday that fills me with a grudge strong enough to kick my writers block aside for the sake of me venting my past frustrations through that reformed emo boy.

Calem doesn’t really have much in way of daddy issues, Louis is a great father! Catrina just does enough damage for two which he is trying to fix.

Quick notes!

You will notice Shauna is mentioned here, and while I’ve hardly brought it up I have given her and Calem a sense of solidarity while being total opposites. Shauna was seen in fanon (at least on wattpad) as an obstacle to a lot of die hard shippers and I lost track of how many comments I’ve spotted that label her along the lines of being a slut or whore. Much like I do regarding Magma Admin Courtney’s fanbase interpretations I take this into account and give Shauna the tragedy of girlhood: catty teenage gossip getting you ostracized at least a little.

I don’t get to explore it in this little oneshot but the idea of Shauna being a romcom obsessed girl and being the one to try and help Calem understand himself and his differences makes me feel very fuzzy inside.

more of a chekhov's gun to my kalosshiping stuff- it gets a solo upload outside of the main dabble collection. I do have one scene written out on my true kalos run based irl blog which is the scene where Calem would have his realization, or more accurately, Shauna calls him out on what’s happening- regarding his feelings towards Serena and how they’ve shifted in a way that’s entirely unfamiliar to him.

Sooo I could flesh that out into a full one! I already have a wip. Ya know…if you guys wanttt

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The Combees and the Fletchling are Using Evasion Strategies (Hey That’s Banned in Tournament Scenes!)

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Dad wasn’t always home, it used to be family trips.

Calem, mom, dad, the fresh snow of Anistar and Snowbelle.

It was mutually beneficial, dad’s ace needed cold climate somewhat regularly, mama’s Glaceon would never turn her nose up to the chilled breeze.

The only thing keeping them in the town of Vaniville was the deed to the house.

If not for the old time-y HOA they’d have the rights to do whatever they wished with the land as well.

It was his grandma’s, when she passed then it went to his mom, and one day it would be his.

And when the home is his to care for, he’s sure his parents will finally move to their snowy escape.

When his mother started to take his training seriously the house went on lockdown.

Hardly leaving, rigorous daily routines, not a moment to breathe.

It’s worth it, it'll all be worth it.

The abnormal cold of the yard in the summer, the mesmerizing mane of a neck that went far over the privacy fence, the rain created by the hose in his hand to get his father’s Aurorus prancing a ‘bout. Her trainer tending to his Hippowdon.

The neighbors always knew when Louis was home.

His mom never was one to talk to about feelings, let alone anything related to romance- it would earn him nothing but scorn for not having his full focus on his career. She wouldn’t let him be dulled by a pretty face.

Dad was easier to talk to, a lover boy in his own right who held no shame to brag about his teen years with Catrina and just how much Calem’s grandparents hated him.

His mom sounded like a much friendlier person when dad gushed about her. And maybe she was. He remembered his mom being much more caring when he was still too tiny to train. She means well, he thinks.

“You said if I needed to I could talk to you about anything, not as a parent but as an equal.” It’s never easy starting this kind of conversation, sitting there in one sided uncomfortable silence waiting to find the right stepping stones… “is that still true?”

“Of course, what’s up?” Casual, friendly, not uttered like a dog's command to speak. An easy flow.

He won’t turn away from the gentle giant of a fossil before him, not unless prompted at least. “When did you start like…..liking people..?” Stumbling far too vague to truly get his concern across.

“What do you mean? Like romantically because oh boy i-”

“Sexually.”

…and now the silence formed a new.

“Well, hormones are a natural thing.” His father reassures before he sees the full picture, “normally people start experimenting young, i think i was around 13 when i started getting into my own feelings. But I was a little younger than you now when I actually got physical.”

“And you know me and your mom were real sneaky back-”

And he already knows where he’s trying to lead the conversation, protection, finding the right person, all advice under the pretense that Calem’s interested in any of it.

“Gross.”

“Alright alright-”

He would rather die than learn any more about his parents sex life, his mom’s mom already said too much and nothing nice of it either.

“Look at glaceon and hippowdon, they like each other a whole bunch! They sneak around to keep us from getting onto them. And that’s all fine but-”

“They’re in the same egg group…” His words an unpleasant drone.

“Yup! And when they get too much alone time we have to call the professor to rehome the egg,” or they could’ve just given the egg to Calem- but his mom insists he isn’t ready for anything beyond his espurr. “it’s not their fault! But people can prevent that with condoms and birth control.”

“You know you could just get hippowdon neutered.”

His father chooses to ignore him. The same way he’d ignore his mom and the professor. He would not neuter his hippowdon out of a deep sense of dick sympathy-

“You have a major advantage because you can use modern advancements.” He expressed like some…weird car salesman for condoms.

“I mean like, I don't want to.”

“Don’t wanna what?”

He hears the amusement in his fathers voice and it makes things harder. He shuts off the hose much to the Ice type's confusion.

“Why don’t I feel this way?”

It’s a cutting tone, it’s a tone his wife spoke in. It gets him in gear. Turning his attention fully to the boy, crouched with dusty knees on the path of their front yard.

“Hey there’s no shame in it. What’s got you so worried about it?”

He lowers the hose, the fossil lowering her head sorrowfully.

“Why am I like this.”

Homeschooled since 3rd grade to be ran like a competitive race horse by his own mother. And even when he was in school he wasn’t well liked. His inflections didn’t come out right, his expressions didn’t seem natural, his smile only quirked at one side. Hiding behind teachers legs, under tables, trying to hide in closets to avoid eating lunch around others-

Louis tried, god he tried. While Catrina didn’t see reason to worry Louis did. Kids need friends- he got him into gymnastics for a few years, got a girl to go be his friend and got lucky enough that she’d stay around regardless of Calem’s lack of conversation.

It’s not enough to soothe the obvious.

“You’re just a little behind your peers, that makes you smart. You would not believe how many of my friends were teen dads.”

A different time back then, wild times where he and his ruthless wife ran the battle scene like a block party.

“I’m not behind, I’m not even there. I’m not in the race- whatever other stupid metaphor people use to avoid saying what they mean.”

He’s not a saint, but he’s not interested. He’s a guy- he had some guy friends and more so he had guys who picked him like a scab. He was best friends with a girl who had been randomly labeled as easy. He had a target on his back; the only difference now is that he’s learned to sneer at the crude comments and explicit suggestions.

Magazines, TV, videos, photos, online, physical media- sex sells and it’s all people expect of someone his age.

“You can’t rush love, son.”

Boots thudded with more weight as the conversation went, his movements and minuscule gestures quick and hasty. Not out of any aggression but rather to distract from the heavy weight in his stomach that made everything just a little too much.

“It’s not just sex. I’m not self conscious, I'm indifferent. Why does everyone think that.”

The words bark and crackle, frustration mounting and fracturing a stoic facade as his meaning is lost in translation time and time again. More like a blurt defense to his mother rather than a conversation with his father.

“Oh that’s not what I meant, I just mean…you can’t knock what you haven’t tried, Cal.”

His father’s words are laced in a low chuckle, earnest and kind. And it does nothing but salt a wound Calem can’t identify.

“You don’t get it. No one gets it.”

He’s only leaning into the stereotype, but maybe there’s a reason the stereotypes exist. Maybe hard headed teenagers are just some projection of adults who refuse to dig deeper into the uncomfortable truths of maturing, from adults who forget what it’s like to be young and confused.

The door shuts a little louder than he wanted. And his dad simply sighs. Shaking his head with a dulling smile.

He’s not mad, he’s just dejected.

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[littlemissnoname13]

Fortunate Misfortune (D.M x Reader)| Chapter 8: Weasley & Weasley

Summary: Its his last year at Hogwarts and former Hogwarts bully, Draco Malfoy just wants to clean up his act and get through the year. Maybe even apply for a potions fellowship and date Astoria Greengrass. His plan seems perfect on paper except for a minor hiccup in the form of a feisty Hufflepuff girl…

A/n: This multi-chapter has been in my Drafts since before I started posting on here and I’ve used so many scenes from it and turned them into one shots in the past. The series is almost completed and ill just be dumping it on my blog because I don’t know what to do with it. Please do not feel pressured to read it. 😅🥲.

Reblogs and Feedbacks are always welcomed :)

special shout out to @lilmissquackson & @vodkandjin​ I ended up keeping most of the parts thanks to you guys.

Warnings: Coarse Language, soft!draco, mutual pining, some angst

Words: 1972 give or take

Chapter 7| Masterlist| Chapter 9 (vol. 1)

You were never able to trace back to the beginnings of your friendship with Astoria. You didn’t know how or even why, but she was just around sharing the sweets she’d brought back from home, and understanding you when the world just seemed to shun you for simply being you. 

“Sweets are a great way to make friends.” She would always say and you’d begrudgingly agree, stuffing your mouth full with licorice wands and chocolate frogs. 

Some days the two of you would just sit in silence and some days you’d complain about everything that was wrong in this twisted little world.

Your friendship was tacit and quiet. There was never the need to show the world that you were friends. 

And now, Astoria was sick.

Your only friend was sick and there was nothing you could do about it. 

You ran as far from the courtyard as possible till the only sounds in the air were that of muffled laughter and faint music from the frog choir reminiscent of music from the Elizabethan era. 

Sinking on the cold floor, with your arms wrapped around your knees, you fought back the tears that were on the verge of spilling from your lined eyes. 

“Y/n? I saw you run from the party so I followed.” 

You looked up, sniffling to find Astoria standing in front of you, her left hand rubbing her right arm as she contemplated walking closer. 

“You know.” Her voice cracked when she realised the reason behind your tears and you nodded at her, still a sniffling mess. 

Astoria hurriedly got rid of her heels and walked over to you before sinking on the ground next to you. She placed a tired arm around your shoulders and you rested your head on hers.

“I do.” You said quietly and tilted your head upward to look up at the sky. The pale white moon was tucked away between wispy almost feather-like clouds. 

It was a grim sight. Fitting for the situation. 

“I’m sorry, Astoria.” You began. “You should have listened to Daphne and everyone else. You can’t keep making excuses for me. Fuck, you even got diagnosed with—”

“Excuses?” She backed away looking almost offended. “You’re my best friend y/n. I don’t say that enough or at all, but you are and I am not making excuses. I just think the rumours are utter rubbish.” 

“How can they be rubbish?” You exclaimed, frustrated. “Look at what’s happening to you!” 

“Nothing is happening to me.” She stated firmly and you looked at her with a tiny glimmer of hope in your eyes. “Nothings happening to me….yet.” 

You narrowed your eyes at her and she shrugged, fighting hard to maintain a smile even though her lips were wobbling. 

“How long?” 

“A couple years, five years, I don’t know yet.” She sighed, finally letting her tears pool over and you pulled her into a hug, sobbing. 

You couldn’t tell how long the two of you sat there but the sky had started to replace the dark blue hues with a lighter shade. 

“So, what happened with Blaise tonight?” Astoria asked as she tied the straps of her shoes. 

“Nothing.” You mumbled. “Well we almost kissed, but then I don’t know, I couldn’t.” 

“But you have been dying to kiss him for the longest time!” 

“Thank you for reminding me.” You scoffed. “How were things with Malfoy though? You do like him right?” 

“I did—I do...” She trailed off. “I don’t know, maybe I’m overanalysing but there was something missing between us.” 

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“Morning Hufflepuff.” Draco smirked when you sat down on your usual assigned seat next to him.

“Hmm.” You muttered back, trying your hardest to ignore that tingly feeling inside of you. 

“So, how was it?” Draco lowered his voice as Snape entered the classroom. His head was still turned towards you but his left hand was flipping the pages of the potions textbook like he knew every page by heart. 

“It was fine.” You said weakly, as you took note of the ingredients snape was talking about. Your brain was a haphazard mess and you did not want to forget the instructions for brewing the potion. God forbid, you land into another detention. 

“Are you sure?” He whispered, now placing his hand on top of yours. “Because Blaise told me that—”

“How was your night?” You cut him off, swiftly retrieving your hand away from his. 

“Fine.” He muttered back curtly, as your shared cauldron started to bubble. “I'm meeting Astoria in the common room later.” 

You didn’t know a thing about brewing vertiaserum but Draco somehow knew every step like it was wired into his system. He was careful with the ingredients—when, how much, what amount. His shirt sleeves were rolled all the way up to his elbows and the veins on his arm protruded every time he stirred the cauldron. 

How can someone manage to look like that while doing something so mundane?

“Someone’s been studying.” You mumbled, still looking at him, dropping the ladle back into the cauldron. “I am right to presume that you have finished your fellowship application?”

“Completed and submitted.” He sighed. “Waiting for a response, now that's the hard part.”

It seemed like no one in class except Draco had even managed to make a clear and odourless potion like the book instructed. Not even Hermione Granger and you could easily make out the smugness now appearing on his face. 

Typical Malfoy.

His smugness didn't even get to last a few minutes though. 

Before Snape could even walk up to your desk and look at the potion, Pansy Parkinson casually passed by and dropped a foreign Ingredient that wasn’t called for in the recipe. 

What happened next annoyed both you, Draco and Professor Snape. 

Your cauldron started to smoke and bubble over, spilling slimy green liquid all around your desk and onto the floor. 

That’s how it began.

The war with Pansy Parkinson. 

Prank wars begin rather innocently at first. They seem like Harmless little acts to get the last laugh. 

You weren’t going to let the potions incident slide, and neither was Draco. 

Draco courteously let you into the Slytherin common room after class and Astoria gave you the directions to Pansy’s room and where she kept her precious shampoo. 

What happened the next day was unforgettable to say the least when a bleached blonde Pansy Parkinson walked into the great hall, fuming. 

Of course Pansy retaliated by enchanting the plants in your room that you barely cared for to grow tenfold and cover every piece of furniture you owned in a tangled mess. 

In order to restore peace and put an end to the prank war once and for all, you had to seek help from two rather legendary pranksters.

It was the only way.

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Draco hid behind a stone pillar at the Astronomy tower and watched you watch the grounds while nervously tapping on the railing with your fingernails.

You anxiously checked the time every and then like you were waiting for someone to show up.

Because your back was faced towards him, he could peacefully watch the way your hair swayed gently with the wind and the way your jeans hugged your body. 

He hadn’t gotten a moment alone with you in the last couple of days following the party. You always seemed to be wrapped up with homework and whatever warfare you had going on with Pansy. 

Draco had even asked you if you wanted to go to four broomsticks with him last night and you had quickly declined his invite before proceeding to shut the door on his face. 

Had he done something wrong to make you act this way? 

What actually happened with Blaise?

What was going on between you and Pansy? 

So many questions but no answers.

“You’re stalking me.” You said, with your back still facing him. The tone of your voice suggested that you were aware of his watchful eyes this whole time. 

“You’re avoiding me.” He decided to say as he walked up next to you before reclining against the railing to watch life pass by in the school ground below him. 

You simply shrugged and continued to stand next to him and your nonchalance frustrated him. How you managed to remain calm when he was out there feeling his turmoil grow was beyond him.

“Are you?” He asked again and this time, you turned to face him. 

“No.”

“I don’t believe you for a second.” He stated firmly, as he maintained eye contact. 

“Why does it matter If I’m avoiding you Draco?” You sighed frustratedly, nostrils now flaring. The Hungarian Horntail he knew was back. “We had a deal. I help you with Astoria and you help me with Blaise.There was nothing beyond that. You know it and I know it!”

“Nothing?!” Draco jeered, suddenly seeing red all around him. His blood was pumping and pressure was building. He quickly rubbed his face before settling to pinch the bridge of his nose. 

 “Absolutely nothing, y/n?”

“Want me to spell it out for you, Malfoy?” You seethed, with your chest heaving as you turned away from him.

In his mind, he began to wonder if this was in fact the end of it all.

End of the cozy nights spent at four broomsticks, end of those early mornings in the courtyard. He’d miss that run down kettle in your room. He’d miss the look you gave him when your stomach growled as a result of skipping dinner. He’d miss your lips. 

God, he’d miss those lips. 

“You can keep pretending like nothing is happening between us, Y/L/n.” He said, grabbing you by the arm before you could walk away from him. “But for how long?—It is happening. It’s happening this very second.”

“Fine!” You barked back at him. “Something is happening. Is that what you want me to say?! I left my big date with Blasie to come and see you at the Party. I don’t know why I did it but I just couldn’t help myself.”

“You came?”

“Yes.”

“Why?”

“I don’t know. I just wanted to—I—Just forget it, Draco.” You sighed, and he reluctantly let go of your hand and watched you start to walk away from him. 

One slow step at first, and then two and then three. On your fifth step away from him, you paused. Draco maintained his gaze on you and the way you clenched your fingers into a fist, like you are still bubbling with rage. 

“Draco—”  You said as you whirled around and took a step back towards him. 

Your eyes looked conflicted like you were considering the option of running away from him again but this time around, he wasn’t going to let you. 

Instead, he did something he’d been wanting to do since the minute he saw you at the tower.

Walking right up to you, Draco tilted your chin up and captured your lips in his. 

You stood there frozen and he half expected you to push him away. You even lifted your arm to do so.

But as the seconds passed, your hands ranked themselves onto his hair, deepening the kiss even further.

The way you moved your lips against his made him feel feelings he wasn’t capable of understanding or deciphering yet. All he knew was that he wanted to kiss you for as long as possible.

“Who knew Malfoy was the romantic type?” A very familiar voice startled him, making the two of you quickly back away. 

“Do you think his father will be hearing about this, George?” Fred Weasley looked at his twin brother who was now scanning Draco from his head to his toes. 

“Don't you have a joke shop to run at Diagon Alley?” Draco muttered the only response he could think of because In his head, he was still thinking about the way your lips moved against his.

“We do.” The twins said in unison. 

“Then what on earth are you two doing here?”

“We’re here to prank Pansy Parkinson.” 

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[zhowongli]

hello! i started a new thread because the other one (+ this one) got really long, so sorry! but i guess this is my love letters to you guys because you’ve made my tumblr experience so, so much better && i’m grateful for all of you guys + all of my mutuals and followers!!

first of all, @himawari-senpaii thank you so so much for your kind words! meggi, i love your sunflower motif because it suits you so well! sunflowers make me smile whenever i see them, and it really brings me so much joy to see you on my dash/notifs. your tags are always so fun and sweet. thank you for tagging me in this 🥺 

@animoozies connie, where do i even start? you were my very, very first tumblr mutual on this account! i’m so thankful you reached out to me before, and you’re still checking up on me even now. words can’t describe how much i adore you + how appreciative of you! when i see you on my dash with your stories, i always end up cackling because you’re so fun. idk how you do it working all those hours + going to nursing school, but you is a mf boss ass queen!!

@hoekaashi ash, my queen!! my tag for you is my day is blessed because ash ✨exists✨ because that’s honestly how i feel about you. i am truly blessed with your kindness, your humor, your friendship, you. thank you for always keeping me company through our struggles in pharmacy school! you are one of the realest people i know, and i feel so honored that you always send me random kenma pics & fics you think i’d like 🥺

@kanao annette, the other half of my soul, my whole heart, my literal soul sister. you are one of the biggest blessings i’ve received this year, and i honestly don’t know where i would be without you listening to my dumb shit and supporting me through all my mess LOL. thank you for validating me all the time, even if it’s just stupid stuff like enabling me to buy all the random stuff that i’ve been thinking about LMAO. i love how we are always ✨speaking✨ and  ✨manifesting✨ good things in our futures together. i literally feel like i can talk about any and everything with you, and i love that about us 🥺 i am manifesting that beach vacation 2021 for us, okay!!! 💖

@sapphitedreams leo, my cutest menace in the kitchen 💖 thank you for reaching out to me when i was too shy to reach out to you uuuu. you’re such a chaotic calm in my life, and i love your energy. i am constantly in awe with how adorable, supportive, and creative you are! even though you bully me sometimes and only make things for characters’ birthdays, you are so so talented and it floors me every time i see your creations because they are so amazing idk how they’re real. i hope you are able to get some rest even if you have to work during your break (& i hope you don’t accidentally fall during work anymore smh HAHAH)!

@onefortyninecm danielle!! my love!! i know i mention this before, but i am always so so inspired by you. you’re so tiny, but you have such a big heart and soul. you’re so beautiful inside and out + your humor is god tier. i’m so glad you were the very first person i’ve ever commissioned from (& spiraled me into comissioning indulgent kenma art HAHAHA), and i’m still amazed by your talent and kindness every time you post something new omg. i still can’t believe you DREW ON YOUR PHONE what the heck!! you’re so talented it’s crazy HAHA. i’m always thinking fondly of you + dandy wedding in a pumpkin patch 2021, okay thanks. 

@p-irozhki rissa!! i am so blessed with all the gifs you create and all your content on my dash! whenever i think of you, i think about all the smol icons you use because to me, you = cuteness = i wanna hug you so much!!! i think i already said it, but i’m always so thankful when you read all my self-indulgent fanfics and leave kind comments on them 😭 thank you for culturing me about mangoes HAHAHA. there’s never a bad time with you, and i’m thankful we got to meet this year!

@hoshino-a lena lena! you actually have so much bde that i am in constant awe by you. you are such a baddie & i have this like clear imagine in my head of you with crisp and clean vibes + the skies from your pfp on discord, hehe. i love you and all your brain rots about your exes. at this point, every time i see semi, my first thought is “ah it’s lena’s ex” and whenever i hear some sad song, i would be like “omg it’s lena ab her ex semi eita” LMFAOIOAGJDLA. i love talking to you because your energy is just immaculate + i just love your presence 💖 also please get some sleep because do you even sleep 😭 

@myelocin nic!! you’ve painted my world in so many iridescent shade so life, i can’t even begin to describe how much you mean to me. you works are just so beautiful so imagine how much i shrieked when i saw you followed me LMFAOOADIGDALJ i love that your blog is your safe space because it has become a place of comfort for me as well (and i’m going to miss you so much when you leave 😭😭). your makki brain rot is so strong, and sometimes i think about makki and you making dinner and teasing each other and throwing flour at each other or something idk. this is nic’s world now and we are all living in it tbh. 

@tsu-kiss nina!! you are someone i find such comfort in. i’m not really sure if that even makes sense LOL. but your blog and you are a source of comfort for me. in my head, you have such an older sister vibe even though i’m older than you LMAOOADGHDAKJ. i hope life is treating you well because you deserve all the best!! seeing you thrive makes my heart so full 🥺 i love you so much!!

@souheii lisa!! i kid you not, the first time you dropped an ask in my ask box, my heart skipped a beat because you told me you love me and i love you and you are so cute and i cri!!!! i know we don’t talk often, but every time i see you on my dash or in my notifs or when we do talk, it’s like a little shot of serotonin every time :”) thank you for being such a lovely human being mrs. iwaizumi hajime, 27, althetic trainer😭

@ultkags​ cas!! my first child 💖 i know you’re on a hiatus right now because school really, really sucks BUT you are seriously one of my biggest blessings. you are literally my ray of sunshine because every time i talk to you, i gain so much warmth and energy from you. every time i see your edits, it absolutely AMAZES me because i literally don’t know how i am able to see all your edits FOR FREE?? all your thoughts behind the composition and symbolism for each piece is CRAZY. please remember that i’m always your biggest fan + i love you so so much. please take care and remember to drink water and get some rest!! your grandma is always here to send you love + forehead kisses because this grandma can’t bake :(

@u-make-my-heart-tsumtsum​ ree!! hi, i know we’ve only started talking recently but i love how open and warm you are. our love was so strong that even tumblr tried to stop us 😭 conversations with you are always so easy and lovely, and you are just such a cool person!? i love reading all your thoughts (& i can’t wait to dive into your masterlist after school ends because we live for fluffy tsumu content 😭). i’m not sure why you even follow me, but i adore you so much!!

@neonghxst​ el, where do i even begin!! you are such a lovely person, and i literally have no other words to say because you always leave me speechless. your writing is so so gorgeous, and you are so so beautiful. i love reading all your stories because they truly leave an everlasting impact on me, and i love reading your interactions + just seeing you on my dash. you are so thoughtful, and you take care of everyone around you so well. i hope that you are also giving yourself the same treatment because you deserve all the best as well! remember to drink water in between your coffees and get some rest as you go into your final 2 weeks of the semester!! 

@und3lla​ maliha! hi love! i know we haven’t spoken much or in a while, but i really do always think of you randomly. you were one of the first mutuals i made && you are such a sweet soul. i love how every time we talk, it really fills me up with happiness. thank you for just being such a lovely person && you truly are one of the softest people i’ve met. thank you <3

@deadontheinsidebut angel, my dumb ham, my queen, my hoe (heaven on earth), my everything. i know you are also on a semi-hiatus right now because everything that’s going on, but i hope you are properly taking care of yourself >:( i’m always here to remind you to drink some water in between your coffees and teas and to GET SOME REST. you are so so driven, and i really admire how open and friendly you are. you truly are your namesake because you are literally an angel, and i always feel so blessed to be in your presence (even if you bully me sometimes for being a boomer 😔). words can’t describe how much i love you and care about you && i hope that you are able to find what you’re looking for during your break! 💖

@rumprich​ ananya! hello! i am so thankful to see you and all your content on my dash. you have so much creativity, and all your edits are so aesthetically pleasing to look at? like it’s so light + pretty!! i’m so so grateful that we are mutuals somehow because ahhh i really don’t deserve you. you are so adorable, and i truly am blessed to see your presence! 

@yuki-souma​ vee! i know we only started talking very very recently, but you are so much fun to talk to! i love how diverse our conversations are, and i love that we have similar favorites, and even when we don’t, it’s always a fun conversation that i look forward to! i love how open and inviting you are, and i’m really grateful that we are mutuals + i love and appreciate you so so much! 

@owlywrites​ owly! hello! you are seriously one of the most supportive souls i’ve met on this website. your kindness and drive to learn always leaves me speechless because you’re so amazing. thank you for being so kind to me, and i hope you extend that same kindness to yourself! don’t be so hard on yourself and remember to take breaks and take care too. you are such a beautiful soul, and i hope you’ll remember that i’m always here to support you!! 

@graphicstills-in-motion hi arianne! thank you so so much for always being so kind to me. i don’t know what i did in life to deserve you, but i must have done something right to have someone so kind like you in my life! thank you for being such a sweet soul + always boosting everyone around you up. your kindness is definitely contagious! i love seeing your edits and reading our conversations because there are always so many thoughts put in. thank you <3

@applepienation​ justine! thank you so much for always checking in on me whenever i post random shit on my dash. i really do appreciate you and all that you do for not just me, but also for everyone around you. you are such a ray of sunshine, and i’m so thankful that you’re in my life! i know uni is crazy for you right now, but i hope you’re still taking time to take care of yourself! sending you lots of love and positive energy!!

@touyax​ drake! hi love. i absolutely LIVE for your tags LMAOOADJGALD. they are literally my thoughts but you just typed them out HAHAH. i’m so thankful that i get to see your beautiful content on my dash, and i’m always in awe by all your edits! thank you for always being such a fun person + never leaving me feeling like a fool whenever i post ask games LOL. i love and appreciate you so much! 💖

@kagehjna​ ilayda! my kagehina supplier 🥺🥺 i love seeing your presence on my dash because you truly post all the best things! you are such a lovely person + i love reading your tags HAHA. you are truly a joy and we will definitely have matching kagehina icons one day okay 😭😭 12/7 is finally here/coming SO I AM SO EXCITED FOR YOU!!! thank you for always blessing me <3

@sadaharus hi mei! you are literally the definition of softness to me. all your content and edits are just so soft and beautiful, and i love seeing everything you post. you are my main gintama supplier HAHA. i really appreciate how kind you are + how you’re always so sweet to me. 🥺 i know it’s kinda funny how i started following you because of a random ask game, but i’m so so glad i did because i always feel so thankful you’re here! 

@fake-charliebrown charlie! my little sprout babie!! i have so much admiration for you because you have so so much talent! your style is so distinctive, and i love that!! it’s so soft + vibey, and i’m honestly so so amazed by it all. not to mention, you have the best haikyuu thoughts! thank you for sharing all of that with me! i’m thankful for you, thank you <3

@itachihaa​ ay! my froggy princess 🥺 thank you for always being so kind to me + having the patience to deal with how slow i am to responding!! i’m really appreciative of you always because you make/have so much beautiful content and you are so so sweet as well!? and the way you call me miss starlight 🥺 that makes me so soft like!! uuu i love you. 

@stardust-make-a-wish​ star! you are so so adorable!! i LOVE reading your tags because they make me feel so fuzzy and soft but also relatable HAHA. your presence is such a joy + thank you for always interacting with me even though i just spam random stuff LMAO. i love how thoughtful your answers are + how much you love cake/sweets (very suiting because you are so sweet 🥺). thank you for being interested in me even though i am the one asking you questions! 

@karasu-hoes​ daisy! hello! i have so much admiration for you because you have so much creativity and kindness! like your events are so cool and unique + your writing is so beautiful! i love reading your feral thoughts + all your work. i also really love reading your witching hours!!! thank you for blessing me with you 🥺 you are always so kind + i love how much you care about your friends and the people around you. i hope you’re taking care while renewing your teaching certifications! 💖

@frailuta nico! hello love! i know we haven’t really spoken before, but i just want to know i love you so much. you make the most beautiful gifs + i truly am in awe every time you post something. life is tough sometimes, but you are tougher! sending so so much love and positive energy to you + please remember to take care! <3

to all my mutuals and followers: thank you so so much for sticking with me and my mess of a blog. i honestly don’t really contribute much to anything, but i’m so thankful you guys are still here! thank you, thank you, thank you! i love and appreciate all of you guys + my ask box/messages are always open if you want/need someone to talk to 💖 thinking fondly of everyone today + so much love to you guys mwah mwah!

[itszephoria]

Saw this pop up and your followers ask you which ones they’re interested in. But people don’t really ask much when I post or they don’t ask the ones that might make you feel uncomfortable. And well, honestly I’m so bored that I’ve decided to break all the damn rules and just answer all the questions because I can. *shock horror*

So information dump on the ‘Be nosy’ that popped up in my feed today. If you’re interested.

Be nosy

1. What’s your sexual orientation? 

Straight. But maybe for the right woman I could sway but wouldn’t go so far as to call myself bi or bi-curious though.

2. What are you obsessed with right now? 

Obsessively obsessing about my health and how to get well and failing it all. Oh and anime movies on Netflix.

3. Ever done any drugs?

I do drugs everyday. But I assume this is referring to illegal. No and was strictly no up until recently. I now take marijuana oil on a regular basis for pain management. Also being stoned/high is not pleasant and I don’t understand why people would enjoy that as a leisurely pastime.

4. What piercings do you want?

I want to get my ears pierced again. Holes have closed up, but currently due to my health that’s not possible. I can’t even enjoy clipons :(

5. How many people have you kissed?

The massive number of 5.

6. Describe your dream home.

It’s tiny in the sense it has all the space I need. A cosy tiny-like home. But not one on wheels, fixed to the ground. And it would be made of all natural materials, stone and wood. It would be unique and resemble something out of a fairy tale. It would sit a beautiful clearing with only nature to view in the distance and all the animals and wildlife would stay well away because I’m pretty much terrified of all it, 

7. Who are you jealous of?

Healthy, painfree people. I am jealous of past me who didn’t realise how lucky she was and miss her.

8. What’s your favorite show to binge?

I don’t binge any show on repeat. I’d rather look for a new show to watch or enjoy, there are so many. The last shows I binged in two days was Queen’s Gambit and Emily in Paris.

9. Do you watch porn?

Yep. But struggle with it because it’s overdramatic, unrealistic and would kill or someone to make porn with a decent storyline with people that can act. 

I prefer to read it if I’m honest or maybe just write it for myself.

10. Do you have a secret sideblog?

Sort of? More like my other one I used I was known for all my slash writings in F1. But now I just hang out here.

11. If you could teleport anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?

No where. The world is riddled with co-vid and well, I’m probably in one of the safest countries and I’m at risk of death should I catch it. So I’ll stay here in my safe bubble.

12. What’s one of your fantasies?

I wake up tomorrow and I’m not me. I wake up and I can take a deep breath without gasping for air, I wake up in no pain, I wake up and my body isn’t terribly scared, I wake up and can have a ‘normal’ life.

13. Do you have/would you get your nipples pierced?

Nope and no desire too. Won’t that just hurt?

14. How would you spend a million dollars?

I’d by that dream house I described, set everything up to be self sufficient. Pay and travel to try every cure available for my diseases. And then bank the rest and live off interest. Or maybe donate it. I don’t want money and I don’t really want a lot of things.

15. Are you in a relationship?

Yep and it’s a struggle and am constantly fighting to prove it’s worth continuing. Oh and that’s a relationship with myself.

16. Do you follow porn blogs?

No.

17. Are you angry with anyone right now?

No, I suppose it’s more disappointed and let down by people more than angry. I’m working everyday on letting it go but it’s not easy.

18. What tattoos do you want?

I have always wanted one, but have never found something that I really loved and haven’t been imaginative enough to create something unique. The older I get though, I’m not sure I want one. I did for the longest time though think about getting a Ferrari tattooed on my inner wrist, but pleased I never did that. I don’t love the sport or Ferrari enough anymore to want a permanent reminder of that.

19. If you could change your name, would you? What would you change it to?

I am changing name actually. Hoping to action that in the next two weeks. I would have done it earlier but they closed the borders. I have a dutch sir name that has two words. It confuses every one, systems don’t get it, it has caused issues with plane tickets. And well I’ve decided no more and am dumping a portion of it.

20. What is something you’re obsessed with?

This is a duplicate. Skipping.

21. Describe your best friend.

When you meet her for the first time she can be a little crazy and wild, and she kind of scared at me first because she’s so unlike me. But as you got to know her, the *real* her she doesn’t let people see, you realise how kind and soft she is, and she’s the most empathic person I have known. She gives so much of herself to everyone, thinks so little of herself and her needs because she’s one of the most selfless people I know. I love her more than most of my family and would do anything for her.

22. Tag someone you think is hot.

Is this followers? Uh most I don’t know what they look like? I assume they’re all hot!

23. Who are five of your favorite bands/musical artists?

Don’t have any really. My music is varied and is based on my mood and really changes around. And with most bands, I generally lean towards one or two songs. This is one of those questions I really struggle with whenever I see it. Will say however, have been enjoying The Beatles recently and a bit of old school stuff.

24. What are three places you want to travel?

Japan. Norway. Canada.

25. Describe your perfect Friday night.

Generally hanging out with people I like. Enjoying a good wine, some cheese, either playing some board game or dungeons and dragons, or watching a really good movie. Good company makes any night a good night.

26. What’s your favorite season?

Autumn. One because I think it’s neglected as a choice and every season should be loved, and two because I love the colours of autumn and the colours associated with autumn. 

27. What’s your pet peeve?

I’m sure I have a heap of them, but currently it’s people that have an issue with you and instead of being an adult and talking to you about them choose to silence and blank you. I’m so tired of it, I’ve quit being peacemaker in those situations, those people are no longer worthy in my book.

28. Who is the funniest person you know?

Uh... I don’t think anyone I know is super funny. Friends and family all have a good sense of humor. But out of my circle of life people I’m always told I’m the funny one, which I find the biggest joke ever. 

29. What’s the most overrated movie?

Can not think of anything off the top of my head. I will say if I think a movie is getting too much hype I refuse to watch it, whether all the reviews are raving or not. It’s why I didn’t watch Harry Potter for like ten years or any of the new Star Wars movies. I just refuse to be apart of all the hype and jump on bandwagons.

30. Tag someone you want to talk to but have been too shy to message.

I’d love to talk to everyone. I’m shy to start any conversations to be honest and I think all the people I talk to regularly were the first to message me, and I love them for it.

31. Do you like paper books or ebooks better?

100% love an old fashioned paper book. The texture of the paper. The smell of a book. That being said, I don’t think I’ve picked up a proper book to read in years. I live in fan fiction more than anything or am busy writing myself.

32. If you could live in a fictional world, what world would you pick?

Any of the disney worlds, anything from the past, or verging on fantasy like. I want a simpler time not full of technology which I grow to hate more each day. The older I get the more I’m pretty sure I’ve been born in the wrong decade.

33. If money was no object, what would your wardrobe be like?

I’d build the perfect wardrobe capsule. Everything would be of high quality, not necessarily brand name and all the clothes would be sourced from ethical businesses or be handmade.

I like classic pieces, love the fashion of the 50′s and 60s and while stylish it would be comfortable to wear and everything could be worn in public (sorry comfy tracky pants).

34. What’s your coffee order?

There ain’t no coffee order. I don’t drink it. Sorry @leoni-speedyf1 I know how addicted you are to it, happy to buy you anything you like though :P

35. Do you have a crush on anyone?

In real life? No one.

36. Do you still have feelings for any of your exes?

Not romantic. I have feelings in that I hope they’re doing well, achieving what they want and they’re all happy. I didn’t have any ‘bad’ breakups and all my relationships ended very amicably.

37. Have any tattoos?

No. See above for more on this.

38. Do you drink?

Rarely. Can’t with medication and condition. But on occasion I do enjoy a good glass of red. Pinot Noir is my preference. 

39. Are you a virgin?

Nope.

40. Do you have a crush on any of your mutuals?

Not in a romantic way? The ones I talk to regularly I love immensely though.

41. How many followers do you have?

99

42. Describe the hottest person you know.

Uh all the men I know I am not attracted to. Probably a good thing as they’re either family or partnered with a friend or family member.

43. What’s your guilty pleasure?

Can’t think of anything. I try not to feel guilt for anything I enjoy to be honest, whether it’s food or an activity. Life is too short for that.

44. Do you read erotica?

Yep. Even write it.

45. What’s the worst date you’ve ever been on?

It was a few years back. I met this guy online and we went to the city and spent most of that time just strolling next to the river for our first meet up. Why was it the worst date ever? Well it wasn’t the location that’s for sure.

The guy had two kids, and I’m a firm believer all parents have favourites, though I have yet to meet a parent that will voice that aloud. This guy, had no qualms with telling me about this favourite kid, and that wouldn’t be a problem if didn’t spend just as much putting down his younger son. It kind of left me reeling and wondering how his son felt if his dad didn’t hide just how much he didn’t like him as a person. The kid was four and the reason his dad didn’t like him was because he didn’t like bikes.

And so the guy was a bmx rider so he spent the rest of the time on our walk just pointing out all the tricks he could do. He didn’t ask about me, only talked about himself. It was also lunch time and assumed we would get something to eat together, but nope, no food was offered. And when I suggested to get something to drink because it was so hot and we’d been out in the sun for like an hour, he just took me to a subway and told me to get a drink and waved me to the line. No offer to join me, no offer to pay (which doesn’t bother me btw, but this was capping off a terrible day), no offer to get food.

I was so happy to get out of there. Didn’t speak to him again once I had left.

46. How many people do you follow?

I currently follow 59 people. I don’t follow anyone that creates drama, and try and follow only people that post about F1 as that’s all I use tumblr for now.

47. If you could marry any celebrity, who would you pick?

Either Sebastian Vettel or Ryan Reynolds. Both are married though, so I don’t think that’s going to turn into a reality anytime soon.

48. Describe your ideal partner.

I want someone that shares the same core values as me. Doesn’t want kids, isn’t super religious (grew up in a cult like religion so I avoid it now), is on the minimalist side and isn’t someone that needs new things things all the time or is desperate to replace something the moment they deem it out of date. Someone that doesn’t live their life on social media. Someone that prefers simple things, someone who is kind and giving, and someone that truly loves me - and it’s the last part that I struggle with finding more than anything with all the guys I have dated. 

I am currently not looking for a partner, I am not in a place for a relationship and am fully focused on myself. And I am very content with that decision.

49. Who do you text the most?

Currently my bestie.

50. What’s your favorite kind of weather?

Clear blue skies and a warm day to enjoy the sun. But there are times when I simply love the rain, hearing it on the room, watching it fall endlessly and knowing that everything will be green from it.

[benhardyisdaddy]

my plus one - part 2

MASTERLIST 

(hello babes!!! so ive been starved on soft roger so i needed that rlly bad in this part as u can tell lmao i hope u all like it, i seriously have so many ideas and im excited!!) 

Word Count: 1,694

You dreaded airports. You dreaded them even more when you were with Roger Taylor, the famous drummer of Queen. Every person you walked by would gasp and point at him as they get all giddy and weird. You have known Roger since before Queen, so the star struck feeling wasn’t mutual with you. You just saw your best friend and that’s all. Oh how he loved to tease you over it. 

“How does it feel to be friends with a rock star?” he asks right after signing something for a girl and her friends. 

He has a smug look on his face as he smiles. You laugh and roll your eyes. 

“Yeah, okay, Mr. Rock star. Do they know that you still sleep with your tiny stuffed tiger at night?” you ask, a smirk playing on your lips. 

Roger’s eyes go wide as he brings his finger to his mouth and shushes you.

“Shhh! Don’t say that out loud!” he warns you, his voice dangerously low. 

You wiggle your brows as you open your mouth to talk even louder. 

“Oh, do you mean the stuffed tiger you sleep with named Bubs?”

Roger leaps forward and places his hand over your mouth with a warning look on his face. You can’t help but laugh against him as he chuckles as well. The two of you stare at each other as he slowly removes his hand, a faint smile on your faces. Suddenly, the look goes serious as he continues to look at you. You swallow hard and look away fast as you rub the back of your neck.

 “We should get some snacks for the plane.” you tell him as you walk away. 

Roger takes in a deep breath and he agrees with you. The two of you walk through the gift shop and gather what you need. When you’re done, you make your way to your gate. People are still looking at Roger and probably wondering what he’s doing not on a jet. He offered to use his own, but you were more comfortable this way. 

“Ugh,” you groan out. 

“What?” he asks, removing his headphones from his ears. 

You were finally on the plane and in your seats. People were still walking through the aisle and trying to find theirs. You look to Roger and frown hard. 

“The trip’s almost six hours long.” you pout. 

Roger rolls his eyes as he opens up a small bag of chips and throws a few into his mouth, talking with it full. 

“I go back and forth on an eleven hour flight from here to London. I think you’ll survive six.”

Your eyes are wide as your head falls forward just slightly. 

“I don’t know how you do it.” you tell him. 

“Imaykesureidrinakalot”

You squint your eyes and frown. 

“Don’t talk with your mouth full!” you scold him. 

He swallows hard and starts again. 

“I make sure I drink a lot.” 

“Ohhh. Can’t blame you. Can I have one?” you ask, looking to his chips. 

He scowls as you make puppy dog eyes to him. 

“You said you weren’t hungry when I asked if you wanted anything!” 

“I wasn’t, but now I am! Pleeeeeease!” 

Roger sighs and takes a chip from the bag and holds it up. 

“Open up.” he tells you. 

You know what he’s going to do. You open your mouth and laugh as he tosses a chip up and you catch it, causing you both to silently cheer. He throws one again and it hits your forehead, causing you both to laugh hard. Maybe the plane trip won’t be as bad as you think.

***

“Who’s picking us up?” asks Roger. 

The plane had just landed and you all were able to make your way off. You had a hold of Roger’s shirt so you wouldn’t get separated in the sea of people as he carried your purse for you. 

“I think my mom is.” 

“What if it’s Alex and Ellie?” he asks with a smart aleck look on his face. 

You frown and bring yourself closer behind him, your chest practically pushed against his back. Roger’s laughing at his joke as you slip your finger under his shirt and pinch his side, causing him to hiss. 

“Ow!” he yells. 

“Oh, I’m sorry. Did that hurt? It was funny to me.” you tease back, causing him to frown. 

You finally make it off of the plane and inside the airport. You look around the busy place in search of a familiar face. You find one. You were right all along. Your mom was picking you up. She looks around the room and spots you. A giant smile appears on her face as she hurries to get to you. She opens her arms and pulls you in for a hug. 

“My baby!” she says loudly. 

She squeezes you hard and leans away, getting a good look at you. Her eyes go to Roger and she almost gasps. 

“Roger Taylor, is that you? Look at you! All grown up and so handsome!” she coos. 

Roger blushes and smiles to her. 

“Hi, Mrs. Y/l/n. It’s really good to see you as well.”

“Roger’s doing really well now, mom. He’s in the band Queen!” 

She squints her eyes and shakes her head, not understanding. 

“Who?” she asks, causing Roger to snicker. 

“Queen? The famous band? They’re all over the media.” 

“Oh, honey. You know I’m not much into what’s popular and what’s not. But congratulations, Roger!” she tells him proudly. 

“Thank you, Mrs. Y/l/n.” he says, still trying not to laugh. 

“So,” she starts as you make your way to your luggage. “When were you going to tell me that you two are a couple, huh?” 

You stop walking which results in Roger running into you. You look to him fast as he shrugs and doesn’t know what to say. 

“Oh, mom. Wait, n-” 

But before you can answer, someone’s talking over you. 

“Sis! Over here!” 

It’s Ellie. You hear her voice and your skin crawls. You slowly look to your left and there she is with Alex right beside her. He’s almost frowning as he awkwardly stands there as she grins and waves her hand in the air. You feel like you’re going to be sick, but Roger places his hand on your arm and you’re better. You relax. 

“What are they doing here?” you whisper to your mom. 

She frowns at them and just shakes her head. 

“Apparently Tweedledee and Tweedledum wanted to join in on the welcome party. I told them not to.” she explains.

Before you can say more, Ellie comes rushing up to you and hugs you tightly. 

“I missed you so much!” she squeals. 

“Gee,” is all you can say back. 

You look to Alex and he’s watching you closely. You don’t dare say hi to him. Ellie takes a step back and grabs his hand, making you almost shiver. What makes you feel better is the sheer disgust on your mother’s face as she looks at Alex. It made you love her more. 

“You guys were in a serious discussion. What about?” she asks, curious. 

She’s smiling so hard, her face might get stuck. You secretly wish it does. 

“Oh,” starts your mom. “I was just talking about the new couple in front of me! I had no idea!” 

Ellie looks between you two and her eyes narrow. 

“Wait, you two are dating?” she asks, confused. 

Alex tenses his jaw and stands up straight. Roger opens his mouth to tell them no, but you cut him off. 

“We are!” you say a little too loud. 

Roger’s eyes go slightly wide as he stares at you in disbelief. You awkwardly smile and laugh as you grab his hand and hold it. You show everyone and slowly lean yourself into his arms. 

“We’re… Dating.” you say, forcing a smile. 

Roger, on the other hand, looks like he’s just seen a ghost. His mouth is still slightly open as he looks between everyone beyond confused. 

“Oh my gosh?” says Ellie. “That’s amazing! Best friends who found love! Awwww!” 

And a sister who found my ex! Awwww! But you don’t say that. You just give her a tight lip smile as Roger starts to calm down and realize he needs to just go with it. 

“Uh, yeah! We’re just so in love.” he says, squeezing your hand. 

“Here,” says your mom as she pulls out her phone. “Lovebirds in paradise. Let me take your photo. Give her a smooch.” 

Both of your eyes go wide this time as you look at each other. You’ve never kissed Roger before so this was beyond awkward. He stares at you with a fake smile on his face. He’s secretly cursing you with his eyes and you can tell. 

“Alright,” you say as you turn to face him fully. “One smooch.” 

You slowly and awkwardly lean in as he does the same. Your faces are inches apart as you slightly turn your head. You can feel his warm breath on your face and your stomach was going crazy. You did not think this through. You look down at Roger’s lips and then to his eyes, watching him do the same. You lift your eyebrows up playfully, causing him to smile. You both slowly lean in and kiss. You think it’s going to last for a second, but it doesn’t. You close your eyes and lean into him, Roger doing the same. You melt for a moment until you hear the camera shutter. 

“Alright, got it.” she says. 

You both lean back and look away. You bring you hand up to your mouth and graze your bottom lip. Roger’s licking his mouth as his face is bright red. Ellie has a sweet look on her face as Alex just frowns. Roger looks to you and you both let out a breathy laugh.  

“Shall we get going?” asks your mom, turning around to sling her arm around yours. 

You all begin walking out of the airport. You’re breathless as Roger stands next to you. You never imagined yourself doing that in this moment, let alone lifetime. The kiss was sweet and gentle, nothing serious about it…

Right?

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[allamericanbcya]

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Babs, can I be honest for a second? I’m feeling so meh over my writing and my portrayal rn. I know it sounds silly but I get really excited to get on and then I do and I feel like…. very out of place. I think that’s part of the reason I’d started writing so many OCs in the past. I always feel like I’m not doing canon characters the justice they deserve. I have so many feelings about Steve and I feel like I’m not doing a good job getting them out. In bringing things full frontal. Ya know? I love this blog and I love you guys, I just don’t know if I’m giving you guys decent content. I read things on other blogs and I’m legit blown away by how amazing you guys are and I just…. I want to return that feeling to you guys. And I don’t feel like I am. Especially when I could list ten other Steves that are fantastic and beautiful and serving you all the good stuff. I guess this is also an apology for being so all over. I keep doing things with people that I feel, I guess, comfortable (?) with. I always feel so insecure with people, here and irl, and I tend to cling to people who make that feeling minimal. Which I think is a normal thing. But I want to branch out and talk to more people. I try to be open and friendly, but I know sometimes I’m bad at that and I’m sorry for that too. Just…my IMs are always open and I’m going to work at being more interactive with more people than just the handful that have made me feel welcome. I hope all of this makes some kind of sense. I just…this has been on me for a little. But, thank you all for being around. Thank you all for still following when some days it’s just OOC nonsense and some days it’s just me and one other person. Once I get my plotted threads in order, I might try using a thread tracker for those. I think getting more organized will help with that too. And, if you’re new around here, sorry this is one of the first things you’ve had to see but, if we’re mutuals, my opens, ask and starter calls are always open and meant for you. If we’re not mutual, feel free to hop into my ims and introduce yourself. Who knows what could happen? Just…if you actually read all this…. thank you the most. Either you’re nosy or you care but you definitely finished so. -hugs for you!!!- I appreciate you.

[audoldends]

This year was very hard for me personally but so many people here made me smile and laugh. You made it bearable and even great so here’s to you guys!

@sarah-yyy the first person I followed to tumblr after getting an AO3 way back in high school during my Les Mis days and someone who I’ve always thought was pretty great and now I know is pretty amazing. Thank you for giving me your time and effort and for continuing to grace us all with your lovely presence 💜

@sluttynewwiee for being my first mutual who wasn’t a friend irl. Your posts always make me smile and whenever I see your name my day always gets a little bit better 💜

@weilongfu for indulging my prompts and my eternal stalking of your blog. You’re a gift to all the fandoms you’re in and I’m so lucky to know even a little bit of you 💜

@fkyb my eternal enabler who, no matter how absurd, has always indulged my requests and constant comments. You are talented and amazing and I hope we continue to follow each other into fandom hell 💜

@florbexter my My Dream trash buddy simmering in confusion with me in this tiny fandom. You’re amazing and so very talented and I can’t wait to be confused again with you during My Dream Alpha 💜

@andwebegin the TinCan gif overlord who creates such lovely things for us all to enjoy. You are a wonderful remarkable person who deserves every bit of praise 💜

@randomingoftherandomness the person who has tolerated my absurd screaming on your fantastic stories. Thank you for indulging my eternal fangirling you lovely lovely human 💜

@bl-phillip for shouting about things with me and explaining all the nonsense I’m confused about. Your are my stellar senpai and you noticed me 💜

@earthpodd you’re a gift to fandom and I love all your heartfelt adoration of things. Thank you for introducing me to things to love all well 💜

I don’t know any of you particularly well but I just wanted you to know how absolutely fantastic I think you all are. You’ve made a difficult time easier to handle and made me feel less alone just by virtue of posting things that made me laugh when I didn’t think I could. I’m sorry if I’ve forgotten anyone but everyone in the fandoms I’ve joined this year have been instrumental in helping me through. I see you and I appreciate you 💜💜💜💜💜💜

Special shoutout to @dontdrinkthechocolatemilk for blowing up my notifications. I adore you 💜

[prettysei-remade]

graphic design is my passion actually the last time i made a graphic of any kind was when i was like 10 and i have sadly Not magically improved since then rip;; also dont worry the comic sans is ironic im not that awful......or am i 

hey there angels (instead of demons bc ur not demons ur all angels get it haha), it’s me, ya maknae! this is a very looooooong post so buckle in, my pals

AHEM 

exactly this time last year, i was probably laughing and/or crying at the thought of ever having mutuals here, much less having too many to do a proper follow forever in a rush the day before i post it (rip) so becAUSE i ran out of time and would probably give up in the middle, i decided to just talk abt how much i love everyone in the Stream Team gc and also make a shitty graphic so i could bless ur guys’ new years with ot13 and make it seem like i know what i’m doing :) 

ok im gonna get sappy for a sec and then u can all get to the part u actually care about (the part that’s also sappy but directed at specific people) 

my friends!! my loves!!! the bestest people on the planet!!!!! i love you <3<3 you guys are the sweetest, kindest, most understanding, most hilarious group of friends in the world and i’m so fucking lucky to know all of you. you make me laugh,,you make me cry (in a good way),,,,,you make me like myself when i dont feel like it,,,,im so?? blessed??? to have people to talk to and scream abt kpop with and be myself around. i’m more comfortable with u guys than probably anyone else?? like. even irl because 1) i’ll probably never come out, 2) none of my friends know anything abt kpop, and 3) none of my friends are rlly.....aware of the things my brain tells me about myself sometimes. which brings me to the last thing before i start yelling abt u all in alphabetical order: 

thank you guys for being the Good Brains to help out when my Mean Brain gets too mean. 

💙 

@byungjoo 

laura!! idk if u think abt this as often as i do (probably not) but like,, remember before we were friends and we had that ““discussion”” for abt .2 seconds regarding toppdogg going on the unit and then i thought u hated me for a couple weeks and then we became like the most amazing friends?? well reminding you of that is basically my long roundabout way of saying that our friendship is kind of a miracle to me, and i’m so so thankful that you’ve become someone i can trust with anything and not be judged for it :’) you always know what to say and you always make me feel special when we talk and just?? wow...don’t forget me when you become the biggest bts blog in the world......i saw one of your gifsets that had like 5k+ notes and almost shed a tear i was so proud of u.. i love you and thank u for being amazing all the time!! and for introducing me to twice and gfriend aka the most amazing girls!!! and of course....#laurjoo5ever <3

@gipsydangger 

yo jo (that was lame im sry you deserve better) you havent been in the chat for super long but you’re One Of Us and also 1/2 of the Official Ruby-Got-Me-Into-IZ Squad so lots of love for you!! thank you for singing all star with me in an attempt to cleanse our chat of ******** (im just (all)starring out his name so he doesnt find this post and try to eat my heart again), thank you for being so nice and thoughtful and sweet and all the other amazing things youve been already, thank you for giving iz a shot and somehow becoming a fan in like 5 minutes (???amazing) you!! are a rock star!!! wow!!!!!!

@hjjxxn​

ok alex i know you’re not tec h ni c a l ly in the chat but lets be real;;you’re still my Toppklass Queen ;; ur adorable! ur so kind! u work so hard! ur such a sweetheart! forget toppklass queen, u r the queen of my heart 💖 i cant believe we’re both hojoon stans AND yoongi stans it’s like we were meant to be friends or smth idk?? and you got me into winner and sent me the bEST videos of them holy shit im still laughing abt the one where theyre dancing to ‘hello bitches’ jshdkahds and mino’s duck song,,i cri :’( you have the best taste so i’m vv grateful to know you in the first place and! talking to you is super fun even tho we dont do it often <3<3 ilu <3

@itsachocolatecake 

jess <3 our leader,,mother,,,resident Cutie Pie <3<3 i am so fond of you?? you’re loads and loads of fun to talk with and the chat would be so different without u, i’m not even gonna imagine it!! instead im gonna remember how you always cheer me up right away and help me remember whats good about myself and tell me that i’m not alone and give me great ideas for metaphors involving brains (like mental brains not physical brains)!!! our mutualness (mutualism? mutuality?? idk) goes waaay back, like, relatively, so thank you for following me in the first place bc it means we’re friends now !! love you <3 

@kimsanggyum 

kaliiiiiii!! my wonderful fellow scorpio (AHEM i mean what im not a scorpio who said that i’ll fight them) ur super fun and cute and as soon as you joined u fit right in even tho we’re all kind of weird and now you are One Of Us and it’s kind of hard to believe that you havent been since the beginning?? you’re such a cutie and i love love love talking to you and stuff <3 jdkjsldf dog pics are one of the many ways to my heart and your dog is amazing!!! thank you for sharing!!! you are amazing!!! tell canyon monroe i love him (again) and tell him from me to be nice to laura too,,anyway!! love u lots <3 

@lapillity 

melia. you. are. the. best. my text posts never go noteless bc of you :’) you’re honestly truly just the greatest?? not just bc you like my text posts tho, youre genuinely sweet and suuuuper nice like,,i cant say anything bad about any of the Stream Team tbh but MELIA!!1! you would have to murder a man for a not-justifiable reason for me to say anything bad about you :/ i think you are an Angel and you’re so cute??how are u so cute i dont get it :(( thanks for being my friend and also helping me reject that guy that one time,,without you i definitely would’ve screwed things up tbh so seriously!! thank you and i love you <3<3 

@minty-sugar-kpop 

minty i think i should tell u now that whenever i type “rip” on my phone the next suggested word is always “minty” :’) we’re always screaming abt kpop groups together like!! when clap was released u screamed about seventeen with me!!! when i told u i was getting into twice u screamed about twice with me!! when nothing else is happening u scream about toppdogg with me (and the rest of us)!!!! i love that youre as excited about your fave groups as i am about my fave groups because it helps remind me that it’s NOT weird to be really super extremely dedicated to things that make u happy and i still struggle with that sometimes so.... thanks for being you i guess?? also for getting rid of ******** from our chat with the power of ot13 :’)) love you <3<3<3 

@reallyabananya

kat!! my Superhero!!! the lifegiver for minsung stans everywhere;; i am so grateful for literally everything you’ve ever done in your life but specifically 1) translating every. single. one. of minsung’s often long and very complex posts, 2) being my role model for running an update-esque blog! like!! if kat can do everything she does for her blogs and translate stuff and be so efficient at everything, i can do it for my one tiny little blog!!, 3) working so hard but always being so so sweet to everyone and being so amazingly humble all the time and being somebody i admire not only as a blogger but as a person too <3 (wow that was che e s y lol) im love you!! <3 

@saltygot7 

hi kendall! another scorpio wowie!!! of course i say “another” bc i already mentioned how kali is a scorpio,,it’s not because i’m a scorpio. because i’m not haha. anyway. im sorry i let ******** come between us, i know you didn’t mean to create a demon that would eventually possess both you and your phone and try to eat all of our hearts. i know and i’m sorry and i love you!!! i also know that you still think those asks u sent were hilarious but i forgive you bc i know you love me too <3<3 i can’t believe my Ultimate Bias and the true visual of our group loves me!! wow!!! thanks for all your amazing selfies, they always make me smile :’) you rlly know how to cheer everyone up and get us in a happy mood and just,,,thanks for always being your lovely self! love u lots <3 

@sunshinesanggyun 

bella 💕 i love you, i love you, i love you 💕 idk if you know this or not, but you were actually my first tk mutual <3 i remember when i got the notif that you followed me back and i was so excited because this person!! this person with an amazing blog and who i already thought was super cool!! wanted to follow me!!! i still think it’s amazing that you wanted to be my friend but i can’t really say that i “can’t believe it” anymore because i can;;; you’re my friend and i’m your friend and i love you!! i’ll remind you of that every day if i have to. you’re the other 1/2 of the Official Ruby-Got-Me-Into-IZ Squad (along with jovano) and it makes me so happy that you’re a fan now too!!!! you’re just awesone tbh?? you help me with my shitty stuff and i try my best to help you with your shitty stuff and!! you’re one of my best friends!! i’m so so happy and lucky and blessed and thankful to know you! never forget how much i love you forever 💕💕💕 

@toppdoggzz 

jacqueline;; the awesome aunt that’s super nice and who helps people when they’re sad;;(i can’t remember jess’s exact wording but it was True);;;; you’re so cool and amazing and honestly i find it incredible how you’ve been with bts from the beginning!! is that a weird thing to say as a compliment?? shdfsdhkd sorry but sticking with a group from debut is really admirable, especially because bts didnt start out super big but you stayed with em anyway :’) you’re such a star and you reblog my selfies when i ask you to (btw ur tags on my latest selfies had me cryin;;find someone who will compliment you every day like jacqueline complimented my decent-ish selfies;;) and you’re so great to talk with and yeah!! i love u!!!! 

@zombietwink 

isaiah. i hope u believe me when i say, from the very bottom of my heart: you are the Meme to my Internet Connection, the Cherry to my Bomb, the Chanyeol to my.....You. idk. you take my worst text posts that i make at like 3am and add the best things to them and make them Good and i love our convos in the replies of my posts alsjdsfjjs also can i just say?? i’m still not 100% sure what the whole thing is with like the “kin” meme (i get what it is but i dont rlly Get It u know) but literally any mention of it ever reminds me of you :’) it’s actually astounding how many memes make me think of you tbh..anyway, ur very very cute and soft and nice and youve been mutuals with me for a Long Time so thanks for thinking im cool enough to follow!!! and for still following me!!! love you <3 

wow that took a long time but it was worth it!! tho i honestly wouldn’t blame you if you just skipped everything and only read the little section abt you lmao 

well, happy new year! i hope lots of really good, and happy, and lovely, and wonderful things are waiting for you in 2018 ✨✨✨

[andrebearakovsky]

Hockey season is back!

Congrats, folks, we’re about to embark upon another season of hockey-filled insanity. This is going to be my first full season running a hockey blog, so I just wanted to jump the gun and lay down exactly what my blog is going to be about this season.

I plan to cut back just a tiny bit this year. My hope is that if I spend less time on tumblr, I’ll have more of a real life, but that’s just a wish. I’m definitely going to try my hardest to be in less drama and bullshit and hopefully see less of it on my dash, I’m making that a priority this season.

Please keep all p*ns away from me. Please. I don’t want to see them. Dear god keep them away from me. I won’t blog about them, please don’t talk to me about them. Ever. This also applies to the H*wks btw.

Please don’t come to me with questions or concerns about players’ political affiliations. I know this is a hot, touchy subject right now, but I am not the person to talk to about that. People on this website can get really hot and bothered over the tiniest little thing, and overblow it to the point where a player liking one thing on Twitter means that they’re evil. People are already making me feel guilty about liking some players. Please just let me appreciate what they do on the ice; that doesn’t mean I condone or agree with their political affiliations. So please, just try to keep that as far away from me as possible. I try to talk about stuff like that as little as possible on here. I don’t need to know about it if they’re not boasting it. If someone has literally committed a crime, that’s one thing, but otherwise I don’t need it here. If you’re a mutual, and you have a tag for stuff like this, please let me know so that I can blacklist it.

If you need me to tag anything, triggers or otherwise, please do not hesitate to ask. Send me a message, and I’ll try my best to remedy the situation and use the tags in the future.

I tag all teams and players as best I can. To the best of my knowledge, I tag players as their names, along with team names. Hopefully this can help you guys in case you want to blacklist anything.

I use liveblogging tags. I tend to liveblog a lot, and if you don’t want to see that, I use a number of tags depending on what team I’m watching. Obviously the most used one is caps lb. I also have knights lb, blues lb, leafs lb, and there are likely going to be more as the season goes on.

What teams do I even like, anyway? First and foremost, I’m a Caps fan; they are my one true team and the only team I truly root for. However, I cheat on them with a few other teams: Blues, Leafs, Knights, Preds. I also find myself partial to the Jackets and Oilers at times, and I know I’m going to follow a number of teams for the sake of former Caps (mainly the Devils, but any team that now has a 2016-17 Cap is going to make an appearance).

Fair warning, I can be a little annoying at times. I do tend to post a lot, so my apologies in advance.

If you’re polite to me, I’ll be polite to you. I like to be polite and treat you with the same respect you treat me. So if you’re polite to me, I’ll be polite back. If you have any sort of grievance with me, come to me and we can civilly try to resolve it. But if you’re rude to me, anticipate the same back, and know that blocking is not out of the question if you go overboard.

I will be continuing to add to the masterlist on my page. My masterlist is an index page on my blog of many Caps videos of all kinds, found here and here. Throughout the year I will be continuing to add interesting Caps videos as they are produced. I’ll try to do this all myself, but if you find some video that I don’t have up, let me know and I’ll add it.

Need help finding a link to a Caps video? Chances are I have it. Send me a message or ask and I’ll give you the link if I have it. Also know that all of my links are always up on my masterlist pages.

Disclaimer: I am an adult. If you’re a minor, and this makes you uncomfortable in any way, you can unfollow immediately. I won’t be offended.

You are under no obligation to follow me. If you’re uncomfortable, don’t like what I post, are annoyed or angry with me, or I’m not your cup of tea, you’re under no obligation to keep following me. Tumblr is meant to be a place that we all enjoy, and you are free to unfollow me for whatever reason. Doing that is a whole lot easier than sending anybody hate.

My ask box is always open. Feel free to ask me any question you have, alert me to anything you think I need to know, come to me with any questions or concerns, or even just chat. The box is always open.

My main is @charlie-pippin-faraday. If you see this blog, it’s me.

I know that’s long, but I just wanted to lay out what I’m going to be about. Sorry if this makes me seem pretentious or anything, I really don’t mean to come across that way, I mean this more as a welcome and an organizational tool. Don’t think this means I’m going to be highly regulated, I’m still going to be me and my hot mess self. I’m still a human being. I want to try to make this as stress-free and enjoyable as possible. This is supposed to be fun, isn’t it? We’re all here to enjoy the game we love, so let’s try to keep it that way.

So that’s that, and welcome to andrebearakovsky for the 2017-18 season!

[privateerings]

Hey! Last monday I hit the halfway mark to a year of running this blog! That went really fast. And I find that to be an accomplishment because I don’t always make it that far and it’s around 6 months that I have a tendency to lose interest. But hey, I’m not feeling that way at all!

So I think this calls for a tiny 6 month anniversary thing. I’m not going to do a “follow forever” post because I’m afraid I’ll accidentally leave someone out, and then it’ll be sad and awkward for them. Besides, mostly everyone is on that follow forever list already. What I will do is something I’ve been wanting to do for a while–which is an unofficial relationships page that updates monthly and anything else I think of later on, but anyway I just wanted to say thanks for supporting me during this (uh, very trying) active year. It means a lot to know that there are people who think my writing isn’t awful and that I have a decent portrayal, even if I have difficulty conceptualizing and accepting that. I don’t know what’s going to happen in the next 6 months, I can only live in the now and enjoy writing Vace Asteris because he’s fun and always messing with my emotions asdfadsfjk

So yeah, yaaay! Also I’m throwing this silly thing in no particular order for people I’ve gotten to do some interacting with. I am not responsible for anything ya boi says, it’s his special week and therefore he is the supreme ruler of the cosmos and Always Correct but More Correct Than Usual. Precious boyo…

Two days ago it was “ listen here, cumslut” but now the mun wants to be nice when cake is involved.... sll right this is fine

(@hothrebels) Valeria Phiskar - “Ah… I don’t uh, know this person. I think there’s a typo on this pad. Do they mean Valeria Asteris? Ha, okay, that was a really lame joke. I never thought that I would end up having any kind of relationship with a woman I almost shot to death when I raided her ship. She might have shot me to death too, I don’t know, she also pointed her blaster at me. It was an exciting day, what can I say? I’m glad neither of us killed each other though, because it turns out we have some things in common, such as law breaking and an intense hatred for the Galactic Civil War. We’re like, the only people who know that nobody’s going to win this thing so we’re just stuck in the middle of it all. We have each other though and that’s what’s important. Val is deceptively strong and… she’s probably stronger than me. If anyone is going to make it out of this alive, I think it’s going to be her. I’m lucky to have her. I want to be more than enough for her, but instead of asking how to be, I end up just saying something that makes no sense, because I’m in love. Sorry. 

(@victory-class-captain) Elena Tarunt - “If I received news that the Justicia had blown up spontaneously I would probably feel only a little bad. Mostly for the Stormtroopers and anyone that had to work under Captain Tarunt’s supervision. They probably never experienced anything enjoyable prior to being killed off in a terrorist attack because the captain doesn’t like fun, happiness, or… anything that people consider to be pleasant. In a way I pity her for being like that. I kinda dig the “mature woman who takes her high position of power seriously” but the most one can do with that is look at her. And I’m pretty sure she will bite your head off just for looking in her direction, so… yeah, I’m good. Maybe one day she’ll find out where that stick has been in her ass all that time and pull it out.”

(@jundlcndwastes) Anna Hart - “Anna is like that friend you didn’t know you had and then when you realize you did, you’re really happy about it. Well... that's because basically we once a really long time ago on Tatooine and when I found her again it felt like I was seeing an old friend. We have a lot to catch up on. I'm not quite sure if she wants to share everything and honestly I don't really think I do either. I was a different person back then. I’m sure we’ve done some less than savory things just because that’s the nature of the job. Man, things were so much more simple back then. I was embarrassingly optimistic. I can only hope that we can still find some common ground, despite how much we’ve changed or it was all for nothing.”

(@notamailman) Gabriel - “G̛abr̀i͏e͏l͡,͝ ̸Ģabrie͏l,̴ Ga̴b͟ri̧el͜. The archangel of war. God's little boy scout. Beautiful soul. I think he's a good guy, really. Great drinking buddy who always knows what to say. He's also one of my favorite people to fuck with. I don't recommend anyone else doing that, though. I̧'m͢ ̸De͡a̕t̷h̡. ҉I͠ hąve ͜pŕìv̀il̛eg͢e͘s͘, b̕i͢tch͝. But really, I can’t say that there are too many people out there that put me at ease when I’m around them. I... I would say that I admire him but it’s not that, I just... let’s call it admiration and leave it at that, mkay? There are only a few things that I wouldn’t do for him. I wish I could do more to comfort his fears, but I’ve never been very good at that with anyone.”

(@arkhevia) Arkhevia “Kee” - “I don’t want anything to do with Kee but I keep crossing paths with the kriffin’ freak for one reason or another. We’d probably get along if her personality wasn’t so obnoxious and her voice wasn’t so grating on my ears. I mean, she’s a great fighter and isn’t afraid of anything. Perfect companion to get things done with, especially if they’re not so savory. But her head’s too far up her ass and there is nothing likable about her otherwise, and the worst part is she thinks she’s above me. Me. Standards? Looking and dressing like that? Really? Step the hell off.”

(@knxw-your-mxster) Kly’tem - “Okay, on one hand I feel a little bad that I’m so rude to her, but on the other hand, she’s weird. She stole from me and is basically extorting her way through space. I just... why is she like this? Why are people like her like this? I would ask, but she doesn’t exactly think much of me. The feeling’s mutual, I suppose.”

(@virtueundefined) Maura - “I would call them a partner in crime, but I don’t like to put labels on relationships. They’ve been a reliable person so far. Weird? Yes. Closed off? Yes. But compatible. Surprisingly. It’s not every day you run into a capable slicer who can also defend themself where necessary. Multi-talented people are my favorite kind of people. I don’t have time for duds--only winners! Take notes, guys.”

(lxst-wxnderer) Olivia - “Do I regret getting into a fight over Olivia? No. Now I get it, we all want some fuk tail and we have different ways of trying to achieve that. but in the Asteris House, you do not put your hands on a woman who wants to be left alone. Oh noooo. But anyway it turns out she might have some talents I could use too, so not only do I get gentleman points, but I also might get a valuable partner. A very pretty one, too. Don’t tell her I said that.”

(@masteroflightanddark) Revan - “A woman of surprising stature that doesn’t match her actual stature, if you know what I mean. She is an ancient god, one that will probably give me plenty of w҉͔o̷̖͙͎̰͉͎̹r͢k to do in the coming years. Where has she been all this time? Who knows. She’s not going anywhere, that’s for sure. It’s always nice to have someone who is old enough to understand you.”

(@gurlpilot) Sh’lari - “OH THANK THE STARS THIS BEAUTIFUL BLESSED LADY IS SAVING MY LIFE I OWE HER EVERYTHING. I’M SO HAPPY I COULD KISS HER. I WOULD LIKE TO KEEP MY LIPS, THOUGH, SO I WON’T.”

(@ofbirbsandbees) Lucia - “I don’t think I’ve met a person as nice as her. I don’t actually believe that there’s a sweeter person in the galaxy than Lucia--it’s just not possible. She might actually be some kind of alien and doesn’t know it. Kindness like hers just doesn’t exist out here anymore. I’m glad I decided to save her because it is totally worth it to me. Those cookies are to die for. And I’ve never met someone who loves life as much as she does. It makes me appreciate things I never thought I would. Also, she’s always down to fuck and I’m so into that.”

[frostbittenfemme]

Tagged by: @polyhexianchicken Thank you for the tag!

Tagging: @x-de-con-struct-ed-x @bytesnbolts @omicrontheicequeen Feel free to do so if you wish and I apologise if you’ve already done it and anyone who I haven’t tagged feel free to steal if you so wish. I’m really crap at stuff like this. 

MY MUSE IS.   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless

Is your character popular in the fandom? YES/NO  I mean she’s not popular at all but I think being an OC really contributes to that unfortunately. 

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  WELL… / NO / IDK. 

I mean I’d say she’s rather cool. (badum tss)  I don’t really now if she’s considered hot? I mean atleast one muse thinks she is?? I mean I think she’s an attractive femme. Wild however doesn’t hold such an opinion of herself.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.  I mean she’s an ex-gladiator? So I’m gonna go yes because damn you need some strength for that. Mentally she’s strong too but she only sees herself as physically strong. 

Are they underrated?  YES / NO. She does indeed need some love and TLC and sometimes even I underrate her. Sorry Wild. 

Were they relevant to the main story?  YES / NO. I mean kinda just slotted her in and she can exist outside the main story so I’m gonna say no?

Were they relevant to the main character?  YES / NO

Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO. Maybe in Kaon? Tiny femme gladiator kickin aft? I’d like to think she was known for that. Or the fact that she’s now a medic I mean honestly what a career change. 

 How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. Depends on what point in her life you get her at. 

HOW STRICTLY DO YOU FOLLOW CANON?

I mean I try and follow canon as much as possible but like its hard sometimes with all the universes and not having knowledge on them all. I do try and match and stick to the canon of whoever I’m interacting with though.

SELL YOUR MUSE! (aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutual.)

ICE AND SNOW GUYS AND GALS! I mean that’s pretty freakin awesome! She’s a really loving caring medic who just wants some damn respect and 5 minutes peace and quiet. She was raised to be a gladiator only because her Sire knew of nothing else and he saw potential. Kaon was tough but Wild was tougher. Once she had enough of fighting and had the funding she went to medical school, battled to become a doctor against the reputation she’d built through pit fighting and then went back in the pits to help those who needed her.  She puts up a cold hard front sometimes because she’s known nothing but fear and anger and had the only mech who cared for her ripped away, but with a new location came a new chance, a fresh start.  She isn’t perfect but then who is? 

NOW THE OPPOSITE! (list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?)

While she is a sweet and loving femme that gladiator spirit still burns in her and some days it just really craves a fight. She is stubborn and she can be a bitch and she knows it and she doesn’t like taking orders because she’s usually the one giving them. Her being an outlier can be off putting which I understand but its part of who she is. I’m not sure what is mostly offputting but sometimes I think its just the idea she’s an OC which is quite sad because OC’s are wonderful and interesting and I think if you gave her chance and got to know her you’d see she isn’t that bad. 

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO RP YOUR MUSE?

Wild was my very first OC I made her when I was about 8-9 years old, she’s gone through many changes and only recently have I solidified the story line and her designs and such. She got put on the shelf for 11 years just gathering dust because I didn’t have any friends who role played or were transformers fans. 

Only recently I decided to make a blog for her because I found old art of her and she made me fall in love with transformers again. And I’ve got to say thank you to @x-de-con-struct-ed-x for being so damn supportive of both me and her because I really was considering just damn right deleting this blog because Wild just wasn’t going anywhere. Hell there are still days I feel that way now but they’ve been a big help and they’ve also helped me develop Wild as well. (and got her someone to love at the same time) and I’ve got a best friend now too all because of Wild so I’m grateful for that.

I’ve been RPing for a while now with my fiance through a different OC so it’s not like I haven’t got experience in it but I’m lacking in experience with Wild. I love Wild I really do and I want to see her grow and get more popular I want people to see past the fact she’s an OC and see she is a unique femme with an attitude but will put her own damn life on the line to save others and will mother hen you to protect you but also won’t hesitate to kick your ass. 

YOUR INSPIRATION

People’s reactions to this small femme medic are great, especially in reaction to her powers or the fact she was a gladiator. She very much is a trouble maker and she likes a challenge and I like writing her. While I did make her before frozen existed I won’t lie when I say it does inspire me in regard to her powers but and how she reacts and it’s even a running joke between other mun’s and even muses some times.  I’m here to have fun and show her off because she is amazing and it took me too long to realise that and that’s what inspires me, I want others to appreciate her.

SOME MORE PERSONAL QUESTIONS FOR THE MUN.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO.  I really wish I was more skilled to portrait Wild I really don’t do her justice at all.

Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO.  Yes I do write drabbles and I promise I’ll write some that aren’t all Wild/Ironhide but damn they’re the best couple and I will go down with that ship. I’m working on some currently although practically no one reads them :’) But it’s a bit of fun I think and it goes a little deeper into how Wild reacts to situations.

Do you think a lot about your muse during the day? YES/ NO. I am forever thinking about Wild and there’s always ideas bouncing around my head whether its AU’s, headcanons about Kaon or ideas for Wild herself. 

Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO. Again I’m not skilled enough to portrait Wild I really wish I was but no one else could portrait her because she is my creation and y’know what that’s okay. Hopefully we can develop together.

Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO. I try my best and just hope the crap I dish out is ledigble and understandable.

Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO. I am and that kinda shows in Wild sometimes?

DO YOU ACCEPT CRITICISM WELL ABOUT YOUR PORTRAYAL?

I’m open to constructive criticism and I’d try and take it onboard. Telling me you hate Wild and how I write her won’t end well. I’m trying my hardest and I do this for fun and if you don’t like it just don’t interact.

DO YOU LIKE QUESTIONS, WHICH HELP YOU EXPLORE YOUR CHARACTER?  

I love them! Feel free to send them in anonymous or not I don't mind any question others have about her, seeing people curious about her really makes me happy and it helps flesh her out a bit more too!

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES TO A HEADCANON OF YOURS, DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?  

Well I’d be curious about it so sure? but that’s the best thing about headcanons they’re open to interpretation by everyone and everyone has their own. My headcanons are for me and while you don’t have to agree with them please don’t get aggressive.

IF SOMEONE REALLY HATES YOUR CHARACTER, HOW DO YOU TAKE IT? 

?? Why are you still on my blog then? I mean I might be offended but I do respect that people have their own opinions and that’s okay. Just don’t be spreading hate okay?

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE EASY GOING AS A MUN?  

I like to think so? I mean I’m a bundle of anxiety and depression so I do have my bad days so if I’m overbearing please do tell me and I’ll dial it down.I’d love to get to know other muns and make some more friends but I’m so damn anxious about interacting sometimes I could and sometimes do cry. Please don’t hesitate to send me an ask or a private message I will get back to you as soon as possible but do bare in mind I’m from Britain and most likely in a different timezone. Ya just gotta get to know me I’m like a coconut, I take a while to crack but I’m good on the inside? I nearly put delicious? Maybe I am delicious on the inside but we shall never know, 

I enjoy OOC interactions as well as IC ones just sometime bare with me because I am very tired and awkward so sometimes replies take a while. If you have a problem with me or my content or you’re having trouble please do come and talk to me about it because honestly we’ve all been there and I like helping. I look forward to interacting with others because I am 100% an introvert and the internet is my only escape from real life. Hopefully we can make some more friends. 

[del-co-mrade-blog]

I’m sure at some point I’ll try to morph this blog into something with a theme - maybe communism/activism, maybe aesthetics, I don’t know. Right now I kind of need an outlet, so I guess that’s what it’ll be. I only have two followers, and one of them is my boyfriend, so I guess you two can enjoy the ramblings I’m gonna post here for a while. This tumblr was made because I wasn’t allowed to have one, so I guess I’ll run with the theme of doing things I didn’t think I could do, and actually try to process and be open about my feelings without bombarding one person with them. So, if you’re here for some reason, I guess read on. 

If you’ve made it this far, hi. 

I don’t know what I’m gonna write about in the future but since this is my first post I guess I’ll just go for what’s on my mind.

I’m really sad rn. A bit ago I reconnected with an old friend. Things didn’t end well between us in the past, due to my past relationship and drama in that friend group, but since I’ve grown and some time had passed, we ended up getting along a lot better than I had originally expected. We reconnected to talk about my ex, who was her friend, and who was a really shitty, abusive person, from whom I have plenty of mental and emotional scars (I’m sure I’ll go on about him sometime in the future). We talked about him, and she seemed to agree that he was toxic, and we ended up talking about a lot of other things, and eventually having semi-consistent contact via snapchat/other social media. 

That was so great. I felt like I finally had the friend that I felt I never quite had back in the day, since I think we were both in different places in our lives, and I for one wasn’t able to be honest or genuine with anyone at that point. I had always heard about what an amazing friend she was, especially from my boyfriend, so it was really nice to experience what he was talking about, and be able to connect with someone in the way that we did. 

Fun shit, though, her boyfriend of many years hates me. Not to get into that too much at this point, but there is a mutual disdain between us due to things that happened following my breakup with my ex and the beginning of my relationship with my new boyfriend. He resents me (supposedly) for being shitty to my ex (lmao), ripping my current boyfriend out of his life (which my bf doesn’t regret sooo), and I guess just generally being .... idek to be honest haha. I’m not a huge fan of him for being a horrible friend to me and pretty much anyone else I’ve ever witnessed him be friends with, in my opinion a bad boyfriend, and p much the opposite of someone I’d want to have anything to do with at this point in my life. Oh yeah and sexual assault, but that’s nothing compared to what my ex did I guess. 

Side note, I wanna point out a little lesser known irony. While in a relationship with my ex, I was dead inside to the point of intense suicidal ideation. I was extremely depressed and had endured so much abuse on so many levels, I didn’t know how to get out or what to do. One aspect of our relationship is he had spend over a year convincing me to be okay with “polyamory” (aka he wanted to fuck multiple “flavors” (races) of women while dating me). Eventually, with his knowledge, I started a relationship with a mutual friend (my current bf), which began 3 months of confusion wherein I fell in love with one guy while realizing how horrible my past relationship had been. There was a lot of back and forth, since I was scared of leaving the relationship I had been stuck in for so long, but eventually I left and am now dating my wonderful boyfriend. Here’s where the irony comes in. Both my ex and my friend’s ex (from above) resented me for what happened. Thought I was a cheater, a bad girlfriend, whatever. Here’s the tea. 

My friend’s bf actively pursued me without my ex bf’s permission for a bit. Even while sitting in the same room, he made me feel him up and kissed my neck - not even 6 inches from my bf at the time. When my bf would step out of the room, my friend’s bf came over and tried to kiss me - when I dodged, he turned the lights out and tried again. He liked being physical with me - said it was bc he was on a break with his gf and wanted to touch someone - but did all of that behind my ex’s back. Same ex he was pissed that I “cheated on”, even though that situation was with his permission and much more above ground. It was about a week or so later he sexually assaulted me, jumped on me shirtless and shoved his tongue down my throat after cornering me in the basement alone. (My bf’s takeaway of all of this, after telling him I was kissed and touched against my will? “I wish he would have asked my permission first”.)

Tea #2: After breaking up with my ex, I tried to stay friends with him because I hated myself so much for “hurting him” (no regrets now, tho). I was so apologetic and just wanted him to forgive me, so I was quite a yes man for a while and didn’t want to cause any more waves in our friend group (that didn’t go so well tho haha). To jump to the chase, about 2 or so months after we broke up, he started telling me about who he was interested in. LO AND BEHOLD, it’s this same friend that I just reconnected with, whose bf sexually assaulted me. He talked about how he wanted them to break up, how he thought about her sexually all the time, how he had fantasies about fucking her in an elementary school (how didn’t i see he was a pedo at that point?), all kinds of stuff. He was trying to find out shit about their relationship in the hopes that they’d break up and he could date her. Told me about how he was talking to her at night and trying to find out her kinks and prove to her that he had the same ones so maybe she’d like him. All kind of shit. In retrospect, maybe I should have said something. Ironic that he was actually trying to do what people claimed had happened between the three of us during the breakup. 

The summary of this is: my friend’s bf always had a problem with me since the breakup since I was a “cheater”, and my bf “stole me away” or something. Meanwhile, he was doing the same thing behind my ex boyfriend’s back about 9 months before, AND my ex was doing the SAME THING to him the fuckin second he was single. They’re both shitty, inconsistent people, and I will never have a single good thing to say about either til the day I die.

Getting back on track. My friend’s bf hates me, and since he found out we were talking again, he apparently had a big problem with that. I don’t know many details, but apparently he was v upset with her about it and felt like she was betraying him (I won’t even begin with the levels of irony here). The two of us kept talking for a while, but I knew it bothered her that she was being dishonest with him. One night recently she opened up to me about something going on in their relationship that involved her bf secretly texting his ex behind her back, and one thing led to another and he managed to blame it on her talking to me (fuckin snake). As I have been since we started talking again, I wanted to be supportive of her, and I stand by that because she deserves to know what healthy respect and boundaries look like from someone, but it led to her deciding that she wanted to try to make it work with him, and that we shouldn’t talk anymore.

That’s been it for the most part since then. I’ve checked her social media a few times since (even though we had to disconnect on p much everything) and I’ve refrained from liking any of her posts, even though I’ve wished I could. It sucks because I can tell she’s going through some shit still, or at least was as of a bit ago, but I can’t ask if she’s okay, reach out to her, be a support system - be a fucking friend.

And this is what led me to start typing here as an outlet. We had a tiny bit of contact today, which I felt and feel guilty about since I really don’t want to stress her out or get her into any trouble. I was just reading an article about abusive relationships and “trauma bonding”, which is something that happens in an abuse victim’s brain that makes staying in their abusive relationship almost addicting, making it very hard to leave or see the situation clearly. I read it and very closely identified it, but also read it and saw a lot of things that made me worried for my friend. See, I know her boyfriend. We were friends for a while and I watched him be shitty to other people, and shitty to me, and honestly shitty to her for a long time. He’s not a good person. He reminds me so much of my ex it makes me sick, and especially makes me sick to know that she’s in that relationship and doesn’t feel like she can/should leave. Everyone has known it since high school - she’s better than she thinks, and deserves more. He has never treated her right for longer than it takes to get back into a relationship with her. That’s not to say there aren’t good things he does - all abusers give you something to hold onto so you can rationalize staying. I’m sure he does, my ex did, all shitty boyfriend and abusers do. I read that article and got really sad and really scared for her.

She told me that she doesn’t know how much she’ll let him hurt her. I have the same fear. I let my ex hurt me for so long, and would have let him do it to this day if my current boyfriend hadn’t gotten involved. I know she wants to make it work, but what I don’t think she understands, and I didn’t want to tell her out of respect, and it’s not her problem. 

There is nothing she can do, or should do, to make it work. All she can do is push down how she feels and make excuses in order to maintain an unhealthy relationship. She idealizes who he was in the past, yet admits he wasn’t good to people in the past. She says he wants to get better, yet all I’ve ever heard is that he apologizes and repeats the patterns. She says he is sorry for the things he’s done and wants to make them right, but I know several people he has wronged, and never seen him do anything to make it up to them. He says what he needs to say, and since he’s good at being manipulative, it works. And I don’t blame her. I don’t think she’s stupid. I don’t think a single negative thing of her. I was there, I know how it is. They’re really fucking convincing and can make even the worst things seem okay, turn anything into your fault, or take the blame and yet avoid blame altogether. 

I don’t know what to do. I can’t sit here and watch someone go through what I did. In retrospect I would have wanted someone to get me out, even if it hurt (in fact, my bf did, and I will be forever grateful). I want to help her live her life in a way I bet she doesn’t think is possible. Live truthfully. Surround herself with supportive people. Find someone who truly truly loves her and respects her. Have total control of her body and mind. Be fucking truly happy for more than hours or days at a time. SHE CAN DO IT. I fucking know she can. If she believes that she’s worth it and she wants what’s best for herself, she’ll leave. I wouldn’t say it to her before, but I spend a lot of time studying abusive relationships both because of my past and because of my field of study. She isn’t in a healthy relationship. He’s not good for her. It’s never going to get better. It’s not her fault.

So many people care about her and will be there for her (hopefully) when she decides to leave him. We will all support her and help her be her best self. She won’t be lonely, there’s always someone to talk to, usually someone to hang out with. 

God I wish things weren’t how they were. I want to respect her boundaries, but equally I want to help her get through this and be in a better place.

What the fuck do I do.