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OKAY. I HAVE OFFICIALLY ARCHIVED THIS BLOG AND MOVED TO A NEW ONE. IT’S BEEN REAL. LET’S CONTINUE THE FUN IN THE NEW SPOT! ILY!

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BABS! HI HI HI HI! I’m gonna reboot this blog in a fresh and clean spot bc I need to. I always have Steve muse but logging on to this blog is kljfsljf. So, I’ll start fresh. Probably keep the same url or use one of my saved ones! Like this if you want the new blog when ready! xoxo

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I think I’ve followed mostly everyone who liked the posts. The url is v similar but I probably won’t show in your notifs since it’s a new blog

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Hey Babs! So, I recently surpassed 300 followers! I’m legit in awe over this and I love you all for being here so much! That’s number one. So, I’ve decided that there’s enough of you for me to do a mains call! Since my Steve is divided up heavily by verses, I will be doing mains for each verse! If you’d like to be a main for ALL the verses, shoot me a message!

Being Mains Entails:

 Priority Replies/Plotting

Random graphics or icons or gifsets whenever I have random inspiration. Which could be a lot or a little. I vary.

 Me yelling at you about EVERYTHING

 Me tagging you in things

 Being on a permanent starter call/meme call. I will send you things probably more often than you’d like.

A tag

All my love.

For each verse, I’ll do up to 3 duplicates for canon characters. For OCs, we must have interacted and/or had conversations OOC.

To be a main, you must:

         Be a mutual! THIS IS VERY IMPORTANT. DO NOT LIKE THIS IF YOU ARE NOT.

         Have actually spoken to me

         Preferably have a thread with me here or on discord or in ims

         Actually wanna do stuff with me

So, to be considered for a main just….like this and specify for which verse or message me! That’s it. So simple. I think at least. I will keep track of mains on this post! Thanks for following and I love you all!

MAINS LIST:

Main Verse:

               ↳Bucky Barnes ( @facemypast)  

               ↳Bucky Barnes ( @soldatassassin)

               ↳Bucky Barnes ( @ghoststorytm​ )

                         BUCKY   IS   MAXED.

               ↳Steve Rogers  ( @kidfrombrccklyn​) 

               ↳Tony Stark ( @ircntm​)  

Modern Verse:

              ↳Bucky Barnes ( @ghoststorytm​ )

               ↳Carol Danvers ( @flightbcund​)

No Serum

Cap Verse

                ↳Carol Danvers ( @flightbcund​)  **Ship Exclusive (I don’t ship with other Carols)**

               ↳Tony Stark ( @ircntm​)  

              ↳Tony Stark ( @arcreactorforaheart ) 

No Bucky Verse

Time Travel Verse

               ↳Wanda Maximoff ( @mxndwitch​)  

              ↳Steve Rogers ( @battlesthatmatter)  

Vessel Verse

Witch Verse

               ↳Steve Rogers ( @battlesthatmatter​)  

               ↳Bucky Barnes ( @tsebrakhn)  

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small update

honestly, it’s just time for a clean up here in general. i’ll probably do a new mains call and try to gauge interest and who’s around. maybe a url change? and def a new icon bc that one is stale now. idk, i’m just feeling like...out of place? trying to figure out where my steve falls and what i want to do moving forward bc i’m not going anywhere. i keep toying with the idea of some exclusivity but there’s as many cons as there are pros to  that and losing a partner sucks as well as missing out on all the wonderful talent. but I used to do a lot of partner blogs a few years ago and it was pretty common when rping sam/dea.n merl.in/arthu,r etc. but I LOVE TOO MANY BUCKYS for that. Anyway, I’m gonna work on cleaning this up and try to find footing again. Thank to the people that stick around and still want me here. I’m glad you like what I put out (when I put stuff out). It really means a lot to me and there’s a special shout out to @soldatassassin/ @kidfrombrccklyn , @primankapustoty and @tsebrakhn for keeping steve running even when i didn’t feel like I had a place on tumblr anymore or lacked motivation to log on to steve. y’all mean so so much to me and you don’t even know it. @primankapustoty has always had a way of keeping my muses alive even when know when else has from lisa to steve. you are the best and I love you so much. okay, i’m gonna stop because i’m gonna get sappy so...yea...this is some kind of update and if you read it then you’re amazing and I appreciate you. thanks again babs.

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HELP ME DECIDE MY URL FOR THE BLOG MOVE

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All my Steve’s personalities:

Main:

“Look, someone’s gotta be willing and if I’m willing then what’s the issue?”

Cap:

“I know you’re all depending on me but I need five minutes in that closet over there to just…regroup. Don’t worry. I’m fine. I’m good. Let’s do this.”

Modern:

“I’m just here to drink your beer and eat your snacks but feel free to talk to me about your problems while I do. I may even offer useful advice.”

No Bucky:

“YOU CAN’T FUCKING TELL ME WHAT MY FUCKING LIMIT IS. I THINK I GODDAMN KNOW WHAT I AM FUCKING CAPABLE OF!”

No Serum:

“I can’t just stop trying. I have to do something. Anything.”

Time Travel:

“I can’t believe I got so boring. I’m gonna cry about that in this bag of Cheetos.”

Witch Verse:

“I’m fine living with this looming threat of danger over my head. It’s cool.”

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Still moving this but HAPPY BIRTHDAY, STEVIE!!!

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I KNOW STEVE AND TONY WERE GREAT BUT CLINTON FRANCIS BARTON HAS A TATTOO. GUYS. BABS. CAN WE TALK?????

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I wrote a drabble bc @ghoststorytm gave me inspo. Definitely S.tucky. Could be unrequited or could be unspoken things between them. Idk. But it’s Summer and Steve can’t handle Bucky in the summer.

Summer 1937

Today was meant to be a hot one, at least, that’s what they’d said on the radio. So far, it was seemingly true. All the windows are open in the apartment and he’s stripped down to his pants and undershirt doing his best to manage the sticky and muggy feeling of the place. Bucky’s taken it one step further and is sprawled, shirtless, on their couch facing the open window. He’s gone back and forth between the couch and fire escape and honestly, the constant moving only made steve hotter.

Though, he’s not complaining either. It’s a nice view and God does he want to slap himself for thinking that but he can’t help it. The other is ridiculously attractive and Steve has ( unfortunately ) noticed. It’s the same every single summer since he was fifteen. Bucky seems to forget clothing exists and Steve has to remember his uncomfortable truths. Truths that make innocent situations steadily more complicated.

He knows he’s not like that. He had feelings for girls before. Mainly one but they’d been there. Had reassured him until she’d suddenly died. And then the only person Steve had feelings for was the other male in the room. It made Steve question himself over and over. What if was that way? What if he’d only pretended to have feelings for her so he didn’t have to think about his feelings for Bucky? It makes his stomach turn and flip as he tries so hard to bury the thoughts. The feelings. But Bucky makes it difficult. They’ve been friends for so long that easy affection comes natural for them. Hugs come randomly and sharing a bed has been a given since they were kids. Bucky has no idea that those things have morphed in meaning for Steve and Steve can’t help but feel slightly guilty by the hurt and confused look when Steve rejects affection from him.

But he knows he has to put some distance between them. Knows he has to draw lines before he loses the only person he truly has left in the world. Being the way he is isn’t exactly something just…accept. it’s not like he can look at the other and say ‘Hey, look, I know we usually share body heat in the winter, but it makes me want to rip your pajamas off and kiss you silly. So, would you mind not touching me at all tonight? Thanks!’ Because that would certainly go over swimmingly. No, he’d rather not lose his best friend because of that.

It gets harder in the summer though. In the winter, he mostly has to worry about the bed sharing. He and Bucky have been living together for over a year now and this past winter had made the elder realize that Steve will quite literally freeze the entire season due to his poor circulation. Bucky had always known it was bad but having to see it firsthand had led to them sharing the bed in the drafty apartment just to make sure Steve didn’t turn into an icicle in the middle of the night. It didn’t help that Steve had insisted packing away half the blankets in the house because they’d belonged to or had been made by his mother and it’d hurt to much to see them. Add to the fact that they didn’t have much money to buy more let alone keep the house heated? Body heat had become the best option and had made the winter nights the most unbearable and tense nights of steve’s life.

But Summer? Summer is when Bucky is at peak attractiveness. He works down by the docks, often shirtless, which gives him a nice tan. His build tones out again and he’s exactly what the girls would call, tall, dark and handsome. Like a movie star and Steve is dazzled. When it’s not unbearably hot, they’ll walk down to get ice cream or see a movie and Steve can see all the girls swoon as Bucky passes and the elder is such an easy flirt. Steve wonders if he’s even trying or if that just comes natural. Making the girls blush and getting dates without even having to ask it seems. It impresses Steve but that’s smothered by the raging jealousy that grows every time they have to stop for Bucky to chat up another dame.

It’s infuriating. Steve remembers the first time he’d felt that way and recognized it. At first, he just assumed he was jealous of how easy it was for Bucky to talk to girls. How they all seemed to flock to his charming smile and alluring eyes. Then, he slowly realized it was more than that. He was jealous that they got to be on the receiving end of that smile and those eyes. He was jealous that they’d get to hold his hands, cozy up during a movie….kiss him. That realization had hit Steve hard and he’d managed to avoid Bucky for three days before he was dragged out and forced to give a weak excuse of not feeling well. One that Bucky had barely bought. That had been 4 years ago and things had only gotten worse.

Bucky’s moved to the fire escape again and this time Steve chucks his shirt at him in playful annoyance.

          ❝ Stop moving. You’re making me hot. ❞

Bucky turns his head and snorts leaning against the rail. There’s a sheen of sweat over him and his hair has the slightest curl from all the humidity as he rakes his fingers through it.

          ❝ M hot, Stevie. What do you want me to do? Suffer? Come out here. It’s cooler? ❞

He beckons Steve closer and Steve shakes his head. Half because he doesn’t want to move and half because he can not be that close to Bucky at the moment. He’s barely holding himself together as is and would have been in his room an hour ago if it wasn’t even hotter in there.

          ❝ I’m good. Clearly it’s not that much cooler or you wouldn’t keep coming back. ❞

The other rolls his eyes but shrugs turning his attention to the alley below them calling out to one of their neighbors he apparently sees down there. Mary Margaret. Makes sense. She’s had a crush on Bucky for years and seemingly always needs to hang clothes to dry whenever she notices Bucky out on the fire escape. There’s a part of Steve that wants to tell her to get lost but it’s not his place and Bucky doesn’t seem to mind.

Suddenly, it’s much too hot in the room for Steve and he just…can’t stay anymore. He stands abruptly and goes to get dressed coming back moments later looking for his key. The commotion causes Bucky to lift a brow as he watches Steve.

          ❝ Thought it was too hot to go anywhere? ❞

Steve shrugs and shoves the key into his pocket making his way to the door. He needs to be away from the other for a moment. Needs to gather his thoughts and collect himself or he might end up doing something stupid. Lately that’s meant snapping at Bucky for the slightest of things and not even being able to properly apologize because that would mean outing himself. No, he’s got to learn to step away and come back when he can handle everything again.

          ❝ I forgot I promised Boots I’d stop in the diner and see if he needed any help. I’ll be back. ❞

And before Bucky can respond, he’s out the door and in the sweltering summer heat. Yet, somehow, this feels much cooler than it did inside his living room. Now, to occupy himself for a couple of hours and hope the evening brings cooler temperatures and an incentive for Bucky to just put on a damn shirt so Steve can focus.

                                                    Is that too much to ask?

                                                               Probably.

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Okay but who helped cover up Howard and Maria’s death. Someone knew what he had and it would have been a thing people would checked when bodies were recovered....

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Come bother me.

Disc drop. Mutuals only. Tell me who you are!

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-lays on dash- Who loves me??

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Mutuals only.

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I have a few more to post from the old one but here have a fresh!! Mutuals only.

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tiny fyi?

Babs, can I be honest for a second? I’m feeling so meh over my writing and my portrayal rn. I know it sounds silly but I get really excited to get on and then I do and I feel like…. very out of place. I think that’s part of the reason I’d started writing so many OCs in the past. I always feel like I’m not doing canon characters the justice they deserve. I have so many feelings about Steve and I feel like I’m not doing a good job getting them out. In bringing things full frontal. Ya know? I love this blog and I love you guys, I just don’t know if I’m giving you guys decent content. I read things on other blogs and I’m legit blown away by how amazing you guys are and I just…. I want to return that feeling to you guys. And I don’t feel like I am. Especially when I could list ten other Steves that are fantastic and beautiful and serving you all the good stuff. I guess this is also an apology for being so all over. I keep doing things with people that I feel, I guess, comfortable (?) with. I always feel so insecure with people, here and irl, and I tend to cling to people who make that feeling minimal. Which I think is a normal thing. But I want to branch out and talk to more people. I try to be open and friendly, but I know sometimes I’m bad at that and I’m sorry for that too. Just…my IMs are always open and I’m going to work at being more interactive with more people than just the handful that have made me feel welcome. I hope all of this makes some kind of sense. I just…this has been on me for a little. But, thank you all for being around. Thank you all for still following when some days it’s just OOC nonsense and some days it’s just me and one other person. Once I get my plotted threads in order, I might try using a thread tracker for those. I think getting more organized will help with that too. And, if you’re new around here, sorry this is one of the first things you’ve had to see but, if we’re mutuals, my opens, ask and starter calls are always open and meant for you. If we’re not mutual, feel free to hop into my ims and introduce yourself. Who knows what could happen? Just…if you actually read all this…. thank you the most. Either you’re nosy or you care but you definitely finished so. -hugs for you!!!- I appreciate you.