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Second 5k Poll?
So I've recently been throttled by the bot purge on Tumblr (or at least I hope it's bots, though I'm convinced it's both bots AND inactive accounts because I refuse to believe that in less than a week over a hundred people suddenly decided to leave in droves; and that I had a hundred bots following me XD)
So I'm going to see this as an opportunity to allow for a second 5k milestone poll with a different list of options should I ever reach it again! We are currently at:
Here we go again folks-
#sylchat#I can never have nice things-#often whenever something good happens something bad must always happen#hit 4.6k? got jury summons#5k? a purge happens#apply for a project in the hopes I can grow as an artist? get rejected basically three times with one 'we're sorry but-'#sorry for the tags rant XD#I've just never been a fortune person#the universe doesn't want me to succeed but I'm always too stubborn to back down XD#sometimes I feel like I'm doomed to eternal mediocrity#I try to make the best of it though
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Kaiser-goal analysis Part 3: Magnus
This is the final part of my analysis that started out with me trying to make sense of the Kaiser’s goal celebrations, and why they differ from other strikers’. I highly recommend you to read part 1 and part 2 before reading this. Or, at least checking out part 1, if you don’t have that much time
[Tagging u again @pixie05love and @fyeahkainess]
The leadup:
I had left it off with how Kaiser is utterly irrational now, emotions clouding his judgement. This has never occurred to this extreme before, even though he’s been fixating on Isagi for a while now. What I find interesting is that Ness actually comments on Kaiser’s strange and irrational play, and how it doesn’t benefit him. I think this is the first time that Ness has dared to propose an idea or tried to take control in any way.
Kaiser does not give a shit about Ness’ suggestions however: because of his miskick, his offer from real is on the line too. He is feeling it more than ever, the threat of having nothing to his name, of becoming inhuman again. So then he throws it all away, and accepts that he is a “piece of shit”. Discovers his one true ego, his one true desire: to be loved.
(I’m sorry, I’m aware this was me re-narrating the story and what everyone already knows, but it’s very important to be on the same page for the continuation)
Another small thing that I just can’t fit anywhere else: now that Kaiser is playing with cool rationality again, it’s Ness who makes emotional, and desperate plays. But Kaiser now sees that unless the conditions are met for his weapon, it is not worth risking another failure.
Symbolism for love: the moon, the ball, the goal
There is a strong visual connection between Kaiser’s confession to the moon about how he wishes to be loved, and the ball, which will help him accomplish this desire. Look at the placement of the moon and the ball: they are in the same place in their respective panels, and they are (almost) of the same size as well.
And in the panel above, it looks like the ball in motion doesn’t have any details. It resembles the moon. The thing that Kaiser reaches up to, as if it could help him accomplish his desire to be loved. It looks like the “moon” is the ball, but it is not stationary anymore, it’s moving towards the goal, helping Kaiser accomplish his wish.
The act of scoring a goal is aiming for love and receiving it. For now, it’s the only way Kaiser thinks he can be loved, as it is said out loud later in ch 279.
Celebration
There is an astronomical difference here: directly contrasting the first goal celebration, instead of Kaiser leaning down into the shadows, he is engulfed by light. This light comes from upwards, and ONLY illuminates Kaiser, the background is black otherwise -> darkness ~ night, light ~ moonlight.
He is reaching up for the moon again. Just like in his childhood, he’s reaching up for love.
And he has acquired it for now with this goal. He closes his fist here, he has gotten a grab of the moon, of the love, all thanks to this goal. He looks much more uncomposed in this pose than he ever has so far. It’s cathartic, full of satisfaction and self-fulfillment as he’d acquired his one true wish in that moment.
He’s also not looking for the other players’ reaction. Causing pain and taking pleasure in it doesn’t matter anymore, it’s not the root of his ego. He does not celebrate with sadism any longer, instead he is totally focused on himself, head tipped towards the ground, standing in a pose that is simultaneously solitary and beautiful.
And he doesn’t even face us, the readers either. Nomura and Kaneshiro are indicating that the celebration is solely for Kaiser to have: no one else can get close to observe his celebration, his expressions, and his emotions.
Vines and Ego
Another thing that solidifies how he has found his true ego are the vines. Prior to this, they had been colored white (or green or whatever) … the point is that they are now darker. They look solid, unbreakable. Before - just like his glass chain on the cover for volume 19 – the white vines appear snappable, like you could cut right through them if you tried hard enough: visually indicating his fragile ego. Now they look thornier than ever, stronger, more resistant. Like no one could break his desire to aim for love, his newfound ego.
But what I find interesting is that the black vines do not appear when he’s first changing his playstyle and throwing himself into restriction. They are still white, which clearly indicate that this new mentality is not the right one either: him perceiving himself as a piece of shit who can only live in restriction, is just as a fragile of a mentality is as the one he’d had before (his desire live on as a scar inside others). Even when he prepares to shoot the ball the vines stay white.
They only turn black AS he kicks the ball and as he remembers what he longs for the most = love. After the flashback we can literally see the vines turn gradually darker and stronger.
After his goal, he revels in “attaining a bit of love”, so the vines stay black for a while.
However, in ch 279, as Kaiser gets the foundation of his existence wrong again (“I can only live by hurting others”) the vines are white as he’s aiming to shoot. They are only dark when the ball is not in his control anymore: when it’s on its own way to the goal = on its way to fulfill Kaiser’s wish for love.
And in ch 283 they are white again… and I’ll be honest, it’s quite difficult to figure out what it could mean. Maybe that after ch 279 Kaiser is pushing himself into the wrong mentality again…? This masochistic view of himself, about how he’s a piece of shit who can never be loved and can only hurt others… how he always SHOULD yearn for love when trying to score a goal, but he can never gain love outside of football.
(At least this is how I personally interpret the inconsistent coloring of the vines…)
Also, a sidenote: as I’ve tried to analyze how the moon symbolizes stuff and how it holds so much importance regarding Kaiser’s story… plus how he wants to gain love through scoring but doesn’t view himself as someone deserving of it outside the pitch… yk what this reminded me of? MICK MOON’S STORY
Yeah…
If you follow me, you will never escape the “Kaiser might end up like Mick Moon” theory.
Interactions with Ness
So, Ness did not assist for the Magnus goal, however he is still happy for Kaiser (“at some point his dreams became mine” + kaiser’s manipulative love-bombing after the goals). So he approaches him, even though Kaiser is keeping his back to him again, instead of being affectionate.
So when Kaiser turns to him over his shoulder we can get a brief look at his eyes: and to me, they look full of pity and sadness…
After that though, he directly turns to Ness to acknowledge him but ultimately breaks things off. And this is important: Ness has a clear view of his face, of his eyes, emotions, all of that. But we readers do not. We can’t see his expressions because it doesn’t matter what Kaiser is feeling while speaking and cutting Ness off. It doesn’t matter whether his face is emotionless, sad, pitying, full of regret…
Because it doesn’t fucking matter FOR NESS. Only the outcome, the words, the results of Kaiser’s words does: that Ness is not needed anymore.
Which implies that this scene's protagonist is NOT Kaiser. It’s Ness. So, it’s fair to assume that he’s going to get a lot of development eventually, because of how this scene’s been constructed specifically around him.
And later on, we’re still seeing Ness chasing after the affection that Kaiser usually gives him as a reward, really just confirming my theory about Kaiser love-bombing him intentionally. Ness has been treated this way FOR YEARS, his only connection is Kaiser, his dreams literally depend on him… of course he isn’t just going to give up all that. Of course he still tries to stick to Kaiser, as he does not know how to play football otherwise (and how to exist otherwise…)
(I’ve always found it a bit strange that some ppl were just expecting Ness to immediately side with Isagi, get revenge on Kaiser, or to just get over him during this match… Ness had been manipulated to stay by Kaiser’s side for a looooong while, there is no way he can realistically find himself again that quickly)
Interactions with Isagi
Directly contrasting his break-up with Ness, we see Kaiser’s face more clearly than ever: it is not covered by his hair, as he’s intentionally pushing it out of the way to FULLY face Isagi, and his eyes are totally open here instead of his usual half-lidded look (I’m referring to the panel to the right).
And this scene not only contrasts with how he interacts with Ness, but it’s also a 180 when we consider his past interactions with Isagi. In my first part, I’ve mentioned how he has either kept his back to him (only turning to belittle), or how after the bicycle kick goal, he looks at Isagi from afar, not bothering to talk to him. He looks at him from underneath his fringe, as he’s trying to cover his frustrations and expressions with his hair.
But now he acknowledges, respects and understands Isagi’s strengths. After all, it is the thing that has catapulted his evolution to score the Magnus.
This respect shows in the way that he doesn’t actually touch Isagi during this new confrontation. They are finally standing eye to eye, challenging each other without trying to belittle through physical contact.
And on a larger scheme, this indicates how he’s able to face a challenge head on now: with respect for his opponents, and the will to aim higher than he is now.
. . .
Whew okay, i'm finally done.
First of all, I'm very sorry that I'm posting this so much later than I had promised. Truth is, I was kind of afraid to start writing this, bc there are already a lot of great posts analyzing this goal specifically...
But if you've read down this far, i truly love you in the least parasocial way possible. Honestly.
#uhhh yeah...#the more i keep re-reading this the more unsatisfied i am w it...#but yeah it’s whatever#what’s done is done#i’m done ranting now sorry xd#kaiser goal analysis#blue lock#bllk#michael kaiser#alexis ness#isagi yoichi#kainess#kaisagi#(again i’m not necessarily trying to indicate romance w these tags)
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Y'know what screw it I haven't seen Oppenheimer but I've seen plenty of jokes and I have two thoughts about this quote from a rhetorical and linguistics perspective:
"Now I am become death, destroyer of worlds."
"I am become" is the archaic form of "I have become", a.k.a the present perfect tense. It is not grammatically incorrect- just old as balls. As far as I know (and feel free to correct me), this quote is Oppenheimer's own translation from the Bhagavad Gita and therefore one he would have put a great deal of thought into. You can see similar phrases in Jane Austen novels and Shakespeare scripts, as well as in the King James bible. "I am become" is absolutely not on the level of "I haz cheeseburger" and I am getting REAL TIRED of seeing the two compared.
The nuance of "I am become death" is COMPLETELY DIFFERENT from alternate phrases such as "I have become death" or "I am becoming death." "I am become" gives a sense of finality without being in the past tense; a sense of continuity without being imperfect. Using this archaic form of the present perfect is a rhetorical choice, and a very intelligent one at that- in other words, it sounds fucking cool and there's a reason all of us remember it to this day.
In summary: "lololol famous Oppenheimer quote has bad grammar" is a VERY SIMILAR sentiment to "Maybe the curtains are just blue" and some of y'all need to do 5 seconds of research before saying things on the internet because that's about how long it took for me to confirm my thoughts on this.
#RANT OVER#sorry this post is ridiculously heated skdghkjsdghdjs#I swear I have a sense of humor but these jokes are NOT FUNNY to me#nevermind em#Oppenheimer#I guess#meta#because I guess I should have a tag for that at this point XD
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suddenly I have realized my bad habit of procrastinating has become a nearly debilitating fear
#Like#for ex I had an exam due today#I meant to study for it over the week#But every time I sat down to do so I just got really scared and stressed and felt like I wasn’t going to be able to study enough???#And so I couldn’t concentrate and did literally anything else instead and it ruined my entire week bc I was so worried#And anyways I ended up actually studying for the exam for only around 3 hours. TODAY. And took it and sent it in just before midnight.#Which is a very bad habit that I have#I’m pretty sure I did well tho#bc despite the fact I was so worried I wasn’t ready for it that I didn’t GET ready for it#I do actually know the material pretty well#And now I’m sitting here with the knowledge that if I’d sat and just studied even ONE other time this week#I could easily have gotten a 100#And now I’m realizing that I may have anxiety#Which I knew before but like. Now I KNOW#And also a really bad case of I Need To Be Perfect Or The World Will End And Everyone Will Hate Me#also the adhd isn’t helping#So yeah#That’s something that happened#I tend to put things off bc “im not ready” for them in general now that I think abt it. Huh.#evie rambles#Evie rants#It has become a habit of mine to vent in the tumblr tags#Sorry folks#XD
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man I know you've got a million what ifs and I don't expect you to spin this anywhere but I was just looking at some Yusuf fanart and wondering how Desmond would feel if he was reborn as Yusuf
It would be such a weird intersection of Ezio and Altaïr memories for him
and the twin pulls to go to Ezio and help him however he can, and the rancid bile that is Templars making their home in Masyaf
and of course the Petruccio problem, that Desmond feels like he took someone else's life, someone he knew enough to know he's not him, that he's an identity thief.
(And also the continued tragedy of Desmond being born in Ezio's era, but too late to help him in his youth.)
We can keep Desmond from going ‘fuck it’ and either joining Ezio or doing something about the Templars’ occupation in Masyaf thanks to Yusuf’s backstory of having no father and only having his mother raised him. His mother would be the only reason why Desmond continued to stay in Constantinople. Honestly, what we know of Yusuf’s life is from the novelization of the movie where his descendant relived his early years. From that though, we can get Desmond into accidentally creating a Brotherhood made up of street urchins. They’re more on the side of thieves than actual Assassins because Desmond focused on keeping everyone alive and healthy.
So when the Brotherhood heard of an organized Thieves Guild, Ishak Pasha is the one to look into it.
There, he meets up with Desmond (who goes by Desmond with only his mother being the one to call him ‘Yusuf’) and Ishak mistakes Desmond as one of the leaders’ main messengers.
Desmond didn’t bother to correct his misconception and lets Ishak watch them in action with Desmond talking to himself in 3rd Person much to the amusement of his fellow ‘thieves’. Ishak learns they call their leader ‘mentor’ and realized that a lot of them move like Assassins.
When he sees Desmond’s Hidden Blade which he had received from his mother a few years back, Ishak finally realizes that Desmond is the mentor.
After this, we can go either:
Desmond and his Brotherhood of ‘street rats’ are taken in by the Brotherhood for formal training or
Desmond and his Brotherhood remain to be a separate organization that are closely allied with the Brotherhood but do not bow to any mentor.
I feel like Desmond would pick to remain independent for various reasons but mostly, he decides to be independent because he doesn’t see himself as an Ottoman Assassin, clinging to his Levantine roots. Ishak might even think that Desmond was truly a descendant of a Levantine Assassin of old, maybe of even the great Al-
No.
Probably not.
With Desmond’s Brotherhood being an independent organization, he gets to train people he trust to keep his mother safe. Once he’s sure they’d be fine by their own, years have passed and Desmond…
Desmond knows Ezio would be making his way to Masyaf this year.
So…
He goes to Masyaf as well.
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Okay, so we know that Desmond would searched for the Masyaf Keys as soon as he could and we can give him maybe most of them… except one. The key that seemed to have disappeared, most probably in Templar hands that Desmond is still searching for.
This way, we have an excuse for Ezio to go to Constantinople with Desmond after they cleaned up Masyaf.
Ezio tries to reason that even if they kill every single Templar in Masyaf, they’d just bring in more and finds Desmond’s insistence to clean up Masyaf as a fool’s errand. At the same time, he’s jealousy of the passion Desmond has for the Creed but worries of how Desmond seems to be stuck in the past as well.
Desmond would be a bit cagey of who he is but he’d tell Ezio that his name is Desmond. Ezio would be surprised but he wouldn’t believe Desmond is the same Desmond that Minerva talked about because, as far as he knew, Desmond was meant to be alive centuries from now. Desmond didn’t bother to tell him the truth. Not yet, anyway.
Maybe after they have said their goodbyes to Altaïr…
Maybe.
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The Petruccio problem will definitely rear its ugly head every time his mother would call him ‘Yusuf’, the first time Ezio would learn his real name is ‘Yusuf’ and whenever he sees the Brotherhood have a different mentor instead of… the real Yusuf Tazim.
That was also a reason why he decided that his Brotherhood (maybe we’ll name it the Brotherhood of Shadows? It would be funny if Desmond goes “we’re the Hidden Ones” without having any ideas that that was the original name of the Brotherhood) would work independently. He’s trying to step away from Yusuf Tazim’s footsteps, like an exact opposite of the initial plans of the Desmond Miles who became Petruccio Auditore.
He wants to carve his own path because he believes he’d only be sullying Yusuf’s memories if he pretended to be him.
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……… Wanna fuck with Desmond some more?
Of course you do XD
So…
How about Suleiman and Desmond actually meet and they sorta-kinda grow close in a ‘I think of you as a friend’ way for Suleiman and in a ‘I know you’re gonna be sultan later so I’m being nice to you’ way for Desmond.
But the more Desmond talk to Suleiman, the more he notices…
Suleiman sounds a lot like Malik.
And his memories of Malik make Desmond feel… a kinship with Suleiman that may or may not even be there. And Desmond is now worried.
That Suleiman would become the Lorenzo to his Giovanni and compromise them all.
(And yes, I did think of this because Suleiman and Malik have the same voice actor!)
#it’s still annoying that they got malik’s voice actor#but didn’t bother to add malik in any of altaïr’s memories#i feel like they planned to#but the yearly releases fucked with that plan#anyway#sorry for ranting in the tags#if you want to go rare pairing route#suleiman x desmond is definitely a left field pairing XD#ask and answer#assassin's creed#desmond miles#ezio auditore#yusuf tazim#suleiman the great#teecup writes/has a plot#fic idea: assassin's creed#you might not expect much#but i will still do my best#because that's how i roll XD
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Hi sorry if this is weird to say but i saw some of your Persona 5 art on Pinterest and i wanted to check you out bc i really really liked ur style and HOLY MOLY YOU HAVE IMPROVED. Ofc i know that it's old art and time passes and new things will look different n shit but!!! Dude!!! Your art looks fantastic!!!
NOT WEIRD AT ALLLLL HELP THIS IS SO FUNNY I LOVE U. Genuinely one of the best reactions gotten outta me like I can’t imagine going from seeing the older art to the new that fast you just like speed ran my own life LOL but srsly tysm!!! It always makes me smile so wide seeing ppl come from my persona art bcuz it is and was such an important part of my art & life yknow !!! I hope to draw more of it again!!! honorary verterans badge for liking my older stuff (blows my mind to think it’s still enjoyable dhakgswh) even if u weren’t here for when I was originally posting it cuz only real ones loved that stuff way back . This has done NUMBERZ for my brain btw
For anyone curious this is from an old comparison I did on my main last yr. HUHHH ⁉️⬇️
#TY AGAIN 🐢#asks#not tomaart#I always struggle w insane thoughts like ‘I haven’t progressed at all *bashing head*’ and then wonderful little doves carrying a lovely#mssg from above (asks like these) and I realize#that time DOES pass and new things look better <3 hurrah#WAIT SORRY TAG RANT BC OLD ART REMINED ME#have i ever told u guys abt when I was rlly big in the persona fanbase here that ppl would comic dub my art all the time w/o showing me and#then I stumbled on one and the comments were like WHY DO THEY ALL LOOK LIKE GIRAFFES XD and the op was like IDK XD and that changed me 5eva#started drawing necks short n big to leave my tortured past (bullied on utube) behind *eagel caw*#like in this u cant rlly see the giraffe necks but I promis u. it was scary .#I think the true scare tho was when I didn’t draw noses for a time.... WHEN I LOVE DRAWING THEM⁉️ *hides under the bed* so scary
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two conversations i want to have about "dead dove do not eat"
it's annoying how people treat it as a genre or descriptor in and of itself when it hypothetically should have no ties to "problematic" or "dark", it literally just means "what you see is what you get with these tags" - which is a concept that can encompass any kind of writing. in an ideal world dead dove is not a Type of fic, it is literally just a neutral descriptor, and i think it's very annoying how it got largely co-opted by proshippers who think it's shorthand for Dark And Twisted Porn™ and treat it as some kind of genre in and of itself
it just sounds incredibly lame. what's wrong with just saying "yeah heed the tags this is serious" instead of assuming everyone knows about a nonsense vaguely-artsy meme phrase. can we not just use our words
#babbles#all my love to this commenter (WHO WAS VERY SWEET) someone once recommended we tag tttaac as dead dove which#1) no sorry. i dont like the phrase.#2) i already said in the description and the tags of that fic... to heed the tags... and i warned people... thats what dead dove means#for all intents and purposes that does the same thing as actually tagging it dead dove would...? what difference would it make. no.#i said a million times in the tags and summary 'this is dark and heed the tags' if youre surprised by it at that point idk what to tell you#do you need a dead dove tag so you know its DARK™ when its already tagged as dark and gore and horror and tragedy???#all my love to that commenter i am not genuinely mad they were a very lovely commenter i just have picked a very particular#niche fanfiction terminology hill to die on and iv been sitting on this rant for months XD#times someone has called tttaac dead dove: 2. which like. huh? why???? do you think dead dove just means Dark...?#SORRY. IM SORRY THIS IS UP THERE IN SOME OF THE PETTIEST IV BEEN ON THIS BLOG
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That TCU post…that is truly one of, if not the greatest thing I’ve ever seen come out of this fandom. I tried my own hand a while back at writing “the dsmp but taken seriously”; gave it a name and a playlist but didn’t really write much before I went back to my other projects. If you ever have the motivation to do more with that outline I’d be honored to be a co-writer or help out in any way, or if you want you could just use my title as a name for the series: A Ballad of Broken Dreams.
holy crap op this is so sweet. Thank you so much. I’m… wow ok. That. Wow. Thank you. That’s legitimately so kind and I’m so glad you enjoyed it XD. Id also Love to see your playlist and your thoughts behind the songs if you’re down?! That sounds awesome :D
funnily enough, I’ve had a drafted outline for this heccin thing running around in my head since the Butcher Army arc. Right around when SAD-ist dropped her animatic, I simultaneously realized ‘oh wow, I Adore this concept’ and ‘oh wow, I Highly doubt the CCs are gonna manage to do this the way I’d want to see it’ and lo and behold: I was correct. So painfully correct. (There were also People Involved whom I had Really Bad Feelings About from very early on that, sure enough, turned out to be exactly what i thought they were, rip) So the Emduo prequels, Icarus heccin Dying, and the end of Axe of Peace have been around for Ages.
I’d honestly love to do more with this concept, (i am designing movie posters as we speak) but due to Chronic Illness Pog I’m in a rather unstable financial situation? And don’t have a ton of free time for art. Any big projects are gonna take a While, or id need to find a way to use it or something adjacent to fund, y’know, Rent. That being said, I’m definitely writing the emduo prequels, both as movie scripts and as novels, as those are the films focused on, yknow, My Bois. I also think it’d be hilarious to release the novels and then the scripts and watch people Loose Their Minds over the ‘inaccurate adaptation >>:(‘
I’d absolutely love to work with other people in the fandom on this stuff, though I’ve never been the best at directly co-writing (my writing method and style is painfully specific (ie needlessly poetic) and I’m very autistic: I don’t like it when people touch that Specific Thing) but literally anything else? Im open ears. I love collabs.
and finally, I adore your name for the series, (excellent word choice there /srs, it fits perfectly with the symbolism of the whole story) and I think it works really Really well for the actual DSMP, but if I’m entirely honest… I’m not sure it fits the TCU? Like genuinely I’m so grateful for the suggestion, I love when people offer ideas and bounce things around like that. But one of the main things I tried to do with this concept was work out how the story could actually end Well. A deep-seated belief in the good-but-fallen nature of man, the importance of hope, and the inevitability of redemption kinda comes part and parcel with the whole Being-A-Christian Thing (if it doesn’t, you’re missing the Whole Point Of The Bible) and while the actual DSMP may have ended in broken dreams… this doesn’t. That was my first thought when writing that outline: This Is Going To End Well. Not for wish-fulfillment reasons, not because I’m naive or I don’t like bad endings, but because fundamentally, everything sad is a lie, and if the story has ended in tragedy, it hasn’t ended yet.
If I had to pick a series name now, I’m not sure what I’d pick. A part of me balks at referencing anything popularized by Our Local Redacted, but ‘unfinished symphony’ wasn’t his in the first place, it was from Hamilton. “The Finished Symphony” has a cool ring to it? I dunno. If anyone else has ideas please feel free to toss them in here aight, I’m not settling on anything for a While.
Anyways, thanks for Ted talking with me, drink water 💜
#TCU#Sure hope that tag isn’t already used for anything horrible I don’t know about XD#Technoblade Cinematic Universe#Asks#I’ve never really answered an ask before this is new and exciting#Op sorry for co-opting your ask to rant about the goodness of life and the importance of redemption for a sec there#Well I’m not Sorry sorry but you get my meaning XD#technoblade#dsmp#dsmp au#antarctic empire#emduo
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I NEED to get this off my chest
Just...ignore me DO NOT COME AFTER ME
Idk if anyone will even see this and altho I hope I'm not the only one in this I rather be ignored and I don't think anyone who follows me cares so here goes
Okay, I really wanna read a glitch in time, but a part of me just... I can't. I haven't been up to date on a lot of Danny Phantom stuff, and I am trying. I am just busy, and I am trying to rewatch the show to refresh my memory first and foremost cuz it has been a hot second, and girlie over here needs a refresher cuz she got the memory of a goldfish
But the reason I can't specifically read glitch in time, even tho I have it with me right now is that...well, I hate the finale of the show, I specifically hate Sam and Danny getting together, especially the way they did, I knew they'd probably be end game but to have it confirmed hurt my soul, I've been avoiding it for that and I know it's silly IM SORRY but it's true 😭😭😭
I feel bad cuz I've only heard good things about it, especially with Vlad, who i love, and I WANT TO, and I hate that what's holding me back is this of all things, its so stupid, I know, I fucking know but UGH! I can't help but cringe. When I first rewatched the final season a while ago I couldn't even finish it
I liked them as friends tbh, it just worked better, imo so I shrivel up inside seeing the two as anything but friends
#salty rants#ignore this little rant#danny phantom#only tagging this for organisation sake#cuz mobile tumblr is shiiiiit#but yeah#i guess you can call me a salty greyghost shipper#whatever#im not ashamed of being a greyghost shipper#and im not sorry over the fact i thunk they would have been better#but i really do not mind if people ship them#sam and danny i mean#i really dont! i see why and all#it just...for me personally it sucks#im not gonna tagret people who ship them#and if you follow me and like them#you do you bbg i aint judge#youre probably judging me harder for being such a baby over this XD#I'll get to reading it eventually dont get me wrong#just gotta watch the show again before i do#but im still scared#and i know this focuses on sam and danny but i also really dislike the finally and im scared how thats going to carry over to the comic 😔
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i keep fucking forgetting i left off at a really bad line and having to reread it again...
#twist rambles#like. im sorry the billionth time marius is like lol XD my slow minded and good slaves. im so fed upppp like ENOUGH. like i could get into#how badly she handles the MULTIPLE slave owning characters as like... not an actual problem and just set dressing for their character but i#dont want to get into that rn. however know im really miserable reading this bookkkkk and im not even 100 pages in :(#vc posting#i nearly forgot to tag... i was too ready to rant in the tags#FUCKKK hes started talking abt how the roman empire was the only civilized partof the world im going to become the jokerrrr
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Respectfully, who cares if the TADC fandom is “already cringe” just bc people are having fun? Literally grow up?? Stop harassing people just for liking things like harmless shipping & headcanons? You’re literally just showing your immaturity at that point if seeing something you don’t personally like is the end of the world to you
Just don’t harass people omfg if something isn’t your cup of tea, you can just block and move on? You don’t have to engage in the fandom either, whether you want to or not is Your choice
#rant#the amazing digital circus#yeah I’ll tag this#ppl need 2 see this xd#all of the characters are adults#& goose doesn’t care who we ship#I’d love 2 live in a world where smth being cringe was the biggest problem the world had#I’m sorry but ‘cringe’ is literally such a non-issue
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I read your tags for the unpopular whump opinions post and I agree so much omg??? The male default in whump is getting a bit tiring. Don't get me wrong, I don't dislike male whump, but I'm just tired of how even generic one-shots often have the type of language that implies they're meant to be read with male characters in mind, even when the pronoun "they" is featured.
Also, I kinda like the purposefully dramatic, borderline flamboyant exchanges in Hero/Villian dynamic whumpfics but it's so UTTERLY obvious that a lot of them are usually written with male characters in mind - to the point where when I see people blatantly write out Hero whumpfics with he/him pronouns, I think "Thank you, at least you're being honest with yourself."
My whump preference is for heavier sickfics (like stuff that's a bit beyond the usual "oh no whumpee has a mild cough oh no cuddles") or survival whump over generic torture and abuse, but I also like to mentally insert either my own OCs in the unspecified stuff I read and write (most of whom are women from my non-western region), or actual characters from various franchises - and I'm more active in fandoms that are female character-heavy. It's not too difficult to find what I'm looking for, but still... I also feel as though "ladywhump" is too often reserved for the more violent type of whump??? IDK, that's just my impression.
Anyway sorry for the novel, I've been a long-time whump fan but only recently started venturing into the community and I found so many people who agree with your sentiment in that post, it was refreshing to see.
Hey nonny! I'm glad that my probable tag rant resonated with you; it's always nice to know you aren't alone with your opinions in the community, and I'm happy I could provide that for you <3
(of note, I'm pretty sure I know what post you're referring to, but I can't find it and its driving me crazy lol. Any chance, if you see this, that you could send me the link? 🙏)
I can't really say if I've noticed lady whump being reserved for the more violent whump, as that's where my interests lie and I haven't really seen much outside of that, but with the reasons I've seen for why some people find lady whump triggering, that wouldn't surprise me.
I'm gonna leave off on any further opinions, as I'm not super interested in starting a discourse on lady whump, so I'll end this by saying that I sincerely wish there was more acceptance of gender equality in whump, or even just a disregard for the gender all together.
Thanks for sharing this with me, nonny! 💜
#starlit asks#Anonymous#this is where i lament my lack of organization and inability to stick to a tagging system 🥺#i had a really hard time keeping this moderate#and i hope i was successful 🤞#i really don't want to fight with anyone XD#but i do has the Opinions™ lol#that are usually tempered by smth like everyone is entitled to their preferences BUT#XD#i should probably tag this with smth like lady whump but that defeats the whole purpose of what i ranting about to begin with sooooo...#sorry not sorry? 😬
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Just had a lecture about the geomorphology of coasts which got my brain running for ideas about the coastal cities in Bleeding City. (It takes place in the future after all the climate catastrophes basically became reality and now humanity finally learns/learned that you can't work against nature without losing in the end.)
So today we are trying to work against the sea that forms the coast. We build dams and try to preserve/expand the coast line. But personally speaking, I don't think that will work in the long run especially once the sea level rises and storms are getting stronger.
Now I was thinking... how could humanity build/preserve cities that won't be destroyed by floods? Here are some of my ideas:
1. Build every city far away from the coast (unrealistic and boring).
2. Build huge walls that keep the sea outside (kinda reminds me of the anti-kaiju wall in Pacific Rim. Ugly af and basically like what we do now but huge so not what I want. Maybe in some places of the earth).
3. Put the cities under a dome where the water can flow over (nothing new I feel like but probably looks really cool + you could have air filters for places where the air is still badly polluted).
4. Swimming cities (how do you do that without everything flying around when bigger waves hit and without everyone getting sea sick?)
5. Cities on platforms that are anchored in the ocean floor (not dynamic enough, would need a lot of maintenance, could still be flooded)
6. My ideal solution that I haven't figured out yet lol. Something dynamic, maybe either possible to close up with a huge dome like thing (that's less dome shaped and more slow rising like a beach) or one that can be flooded without taking (a lot of) damage, maybe even works with the tides (idk like as an energy source or maybe even with filters so you can make fresh water out of it or cultivates phytoplankton for oxygen and nutrients/food for animals).
The thing is... rn the story doesn't even take place in a coastal city so why am I thinking so much about it?? (Although I can still change that) Also I didn't plan on this part of the worldbuilding to be a focus in the story, the whole medical and political thing about the vampires should be. xD
#btw sorry to everyone who tagged me in games and their writing posts#uni is currently kicking my butt but hopefully I will have some time this weekend#idk where this came from but I really wanted to get it out xD#worldbuilding#wip: bleeding city#mine#rant#science fiction#oc story#dystopia#solarpunk
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[Caption: the first self reblog contains a screenshot to another post, saying "Media that emphasizes cruelty is written by those who dream of the battlefield. Media that emphasizes optimism is written by those who have survived the battlefield." The last self reblog contains a screenshot to a reply left on this post by user swamp-spirit; it says "Thank you this post has been driving me up the wall. Like... even naive, edgelord pessimism is often an attempt to process intense emotions that are outsized to the current situation. Sometimes teens idealize the battlefield because then they'd understand why they wanted to die. And by that I mean sometimes teens need to write about being an evil lab experiment with hetrochromia."]
hey guys, i solved it! optimistic fiction and pessimistic fiction have the same moral value! we’ve done it! we’re free
#well see some of us write ‘��pessimistic’’ fiction because doing otherwise would feel like lying#beside the point.#because sns but i’m never going to see that view (the one in the first screenshot) as anything but callous#towards victims that didn’t react to their trauma in the way these people find acceptable#(by being ‘‘hopeful’’ ~despite their pain; by healing in a way they approve of etc.)#the idea that only people who haven’t suffered write pessimistic fiction is an incredibly myopic one#just as the idea that no one else (and specially no one who’s suffered) can’t find solace in it as a reader#I’m just tired of seeing ~optimistic fiction~ fans say again and again how it’s ‘‘inferior’’ art by their standards#how they’re tired of seeing it#well maybe it’s not for you. maybe try to find art that resonates with you and leave the rest (just like *EYE* do with your cozy fiction).#I assure it: it has its public. and we’re just as deserving of finding good stories that match our sensibilities as you are#reblog#sorry for the tag rant but this is something that’s been frustrating me for a long time now xD#fandom nonsense#the writing tm#bitter lau tag
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IM SORRY ABOUT BAD NIGHT ANXIETY I AM GIVING YOU ALL THE HUGS :[
THANK YOU PETE :( 🩷 I'm just. augh. all anxious rn </3 So I really appreciate the support 💖
#dru speaks#i'm all tense and!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i keep remembering more and more stressful things#i literally left a discord conversation i was part of cause i could tell i was starting to get melodramatic about something that happened XD#just. AUGH#i would just go to sleep but i'm not super tired yet... getting there though#ANYWAY. sorry for ranting in the tags of your ask#i really appreciate the support pete you're so kind ^^ 🩷#thank you so much 😊🫶💖 i really appreciate it#<3#asks#bunn-iiii#undescribed
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I'm so done....
I've spent the last three days working on a website. It's gone really good up until just now when I saved the file, reloaded the site, and discovered that somewhere in my hundred something lines of coding I made a mistake... I've been rereading my coding for the last thirty minutes... MY EYES HUUURRRRTTT....
#web design#complaining#life problems#life#website design#web designing#coding#computerskills#computer science#ranting#rant post#sorry for the rant#rant rant rant#blech#someone save me#ran out of tags#uggggggggh#never mind found one XD
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