#sorry feeling yappy today

[bitchslapblastoids]

thinking of when a beloved moot reblogged a 100k-note meme post that I’d never seen before that happened to center around a picture of my beautiful brilliant dead ex gf who I still love with every fiber of my being and who I had just finished putting a picture of up on my bedroom wall and then I pulled open tumblr and there was her face on my dashboard of all places and she is Dead you see which means having novel experiences involving her isn’t a thing that exists anymore and my tumblr is also wholly separate from my irl life and so seeing her on here in a moot’s reblog was probably one of the top five most surreal disorienting moments of my life

[rosy-crow]

Me: UGH, I don’t just want Sephiroth to be popular for his badassery or looks, I want his fanbase to be into his full story so we can all talk about it because I love it so so so much, but sometimes I feel like the majority of people only like him as a one-dimensional sexy villain character and what if this discourages the devs from going even deeper with his interesting writing dammit

Hamaguchi: Sephiroth’s popularity comes from everyone’s love of his background and humanity and relatability in losing that humanity when he becomes a villain ☺️

Me: I’M SORRY

[juhanis-litterbox]

Have yall ever watched a show from like the 2000s ish and its mostly fine, semi diverse, except occasionally it is very weirdly gender essentialist like 😭 okay

[da-birb-writes-sometimes]

Hi, I discovered your writing today and I loved it. So I wanted to request the frist years with a partner who is gender fluid.

First Years With a Genderfluid Partner

Characters; Ace Trappola, Deuce Spade, Jack Howl, Epel Felmier, Sebek Zigvolt

Content; Genderfluid reader (I don't use pronouns though, since everyone's experience is different), fluff, crack, romance, some implications that strangers are rude but not in detail

Word Count; 600+

Author's Note; Sorry that these are pretty short anon (brain is being mean), but I hope that you enjoy!

Ace Trappola

He’s still a little imp, regardless of everything else. But he’s perceptive. He notices the small things; and he’ll reaffirm you as well.

“Huh, they’re not all that bright if they can’t see that you’re obviously the coolest person around,” he’d scoff. ��I mean, my dad only allows me one gender- OW WHY DID YOU HIT ME?!”

But he would say things like that, but he does in fact think you are the coolest person around. 

He does take mental notes; of what terms make you happy (pronouns and pet names), what clothing makes you comfortable, and more. No, he doesn’t keep a little notebook, but he has it memorized. 

Deuce Spade

Always checks in to make sure that you’re comfortable; he doesn’t want to screw up, even if it’s something you may consider small. He’s just trying his best and wants you to be happy.

“Wait, do I call you my boyfriend, girlfriend, joyfriend, partner? I want to make sure that you’re okay with it.” He asks that question pretty often, since he wants to make sure that you’re okay with it; you always come first.

He learns more about your identity, only because he’s curious and feels that he needs to do so. Please tell him to put the books down and just come and hang out.

Well-meaning but a little too gung-ho. He just doesn’t want to mess up, but he also wants you to be happy. 

Jack Howl

The most normal of the group; he likes you for you and nothing changes really. He’ll touch in though, making sure that you’re comfortable.

He would let you (within reason) try out some hairstyles or makeup that you want to try out on him. He doesn’t really mind, plus sometimes it takes looking at someone else to realize that that look is indeed a look and a great one at that.

Jack is a pretty large guy, so if you’re smaller than him he raises a brow at you stealing his clothes. But if you’re larger than him? He might wear one of your outfits (he likes lowkey matching outfits couples do).

Super understanding if you have ‘blah’ days, and will let you vent to him. He may not have much to say, but he’s there when you need him.

Scary dog privilege #1

Epel Felmier

He would come to learn more about your identity throughout your friendship before the two of you started dating. May have messed up here and there at the start, but not anymore.

The accent will be coming out if someone is being rude towards you, and Epel doesn’t care if he gets scolded or not; no one treats you rudely and gets away with it.

Pomefiore also helps him understand that gender is a spectrum; nothing is wholey masculine or feminine, that they blur, and that blurring is beautiful. 

“Pardner” is one of his go-to endearments; you’re his partner (in both the romantic, but also if either of you feel like committing felonies).

Scary dog privilege #1.5 (scary like a very yappy pomeranian way)

Sebek Zigvolt

Sebek definitely knows a few people who are genderfluid back in Briar Valley; fae live for a long time, so playing with gender is pretty normal. He commends you for being honest with yourself.

Now, he is putty in your hands, absolutely WHIPPED for you. You thought the praise he was singing for Malleus was bad? Well, multiply that by fifty.

But it’s quiet, not shouted. Yes, it is still obvious for anyone to see; the way he holds your hand and looks at you. You are the royal of his heart; his Monarch, King, and Queen.

Would be semi-awkward if the two of you went to a pride event; he just doesn’t know what to really do. He's having fun, just awkward.

Scary Dog Privilege #2

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[woso-dreamzzz]

Uni Love II

Deyna Castellanos x Reader

Summary: You'll follow Deyna anywhere

It was a no-brainer, really.

To follow Deyna from America to Spain. You didn't have roots firmly planted in America anyway, more than happy to disappear across the world with her.

You roll your eyes as girls tumble into your apartment, organised chaos as they strip off their shoes and jackets. You've got a patient file on your lap, jotting down the last of your notes before you slam it shut and place it in your filing cabinet.

"Hola, y/n!" Laia cries as she vaults over the back of the sofa.

You roll your eyes again as you slap her feet off the coffee table and then turn to slap at Elena as she takes a sip from your water. "You are too comfortable in this house!" You declare but they ignore you, fighting over the remote as you make your way to the kitchen.

You lean against the fridge, arms crossed over your chest. "Your teammates are children."

Deyna smiles at you, crossing the space and pressing a soft, lingering kiss to your lips. "But you love them anyway?"

"I love you," You reply," I can tolerate them." You open the fridge. "And I'm not cooking for them. If they want food, they've got to order it."

Deyna nods, yelling out your orders to the rest of the girls in your lounge. "How was work?"

"Long, boring." You shrug. "The usual. I had a teenager come in today looking for antibiotics to treat an STI." You groan. "And then an old granny who definitely is hooking up with the twenty-year old carer that brought her in."

Deyna winces at you weary tone and pulls you into a hug, letting you rest your head against her shoulder. You slump against her and close your eyes, content to sway back and forth in her arms.

"Oi! Lovebirds!" The voice of Laia cuts through your relaxed bubble. "Can we order sushi?"

"You brought her home," You say into Deyna's shoulder," You talk to her."

"She's not a dog."

"No? One of those yappy terriers? Barks when you're eating dinner? Squares up to the bigger dogs?"

You can hear Laia stamp her foot from where she's waiting for your answer in the doorway. "I'm right here!"

You pull yourself out of Deyna's embrace and run a hand over your face. "Don't you have someone else to bother?"

"No!"

"No sushi for you." You kiss Deyna's cheek and brush past Laia back to the lounge.

"But! y/n! That's not fair!"

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Trading sunny Spain for rainy England had also been a no brainer.

England was always hunting for doctors so getting a job was easy enough and Deyna settling in at City was even easier.

"Don't touch that!" You snap, firmly placing the ice pack back onto Deyna's swollen ankle, having taken a nasty fall at training.

"It's fine!" Deyna whines, trying once again to remove it. "It's cold!"

"It's meant to be cold!" You whirl around to tuck Laia back into the blankets. "You! Stay still!"

"y/n," She whines too but you silence her with a look. She'd come bursting into your home with the chill and you'd immediately tucked her into a seat with a blanket.

"No!"

You glance around the room, happy that your two patients are doing as you say before falling back on the sofa and grabbing the remote, flicking away from the football game playing.

Laia whines at that too but Deyna doesn't. Instead, she leans her head on your shoulder and places a placating kiss on your neck. You lean into her body too, arm moving to wrap around her shoulders as Laia continues complaining.

"Do we have to keep letting her in?" You ask softly as Laia gets tangled in the blankets as she tries to free herself.

Deyna grins at you. "She'll just bang on the door until we let her in again."

You groan, loudly before returning Deyna's smile. "How's your ankle? Feeling better?"

"Freezing."

You roll your eyes. "But better?"

Deyna rolls her eyes too. "Yeah," She admits finally," It does."

You cup your ear and give her a teasing grin. "What was that? Sorry, I can't quite hear you?"

She sighs, loud and drawn out. "Thank you for your unsolicited medical advice."

You flick her ear. "I'm a doctor. You have the pleasure of getting unsolicited medical advice every day."

She rubs her ear but still presses kisses to your lips. You grin at her, surging forward to slip your tongue into her mouth. She kisses back, a hand coming up to cup your cheek.

Your front door slams open though and you break away, catching Laia's eye (who looks suitably horrified at having seen you and Deyna kissing like that) before turning to look down the hall.

Leila's there - another one of the strays that Deyna's picked up along the way - and you have to suppress a scream of annoyance when you catch the bruise forming along her cheekbone.

"It was an accident!"

[living-mites]

Mnnnbb angst

angst is my middle name omg let me cook

(idk if u were asking for it but i js got my acrylic nails off and im a yapping machine) TW for alcholl and depression ig

SO when Dallas died Buck went into a crazy depressive/manic episode where he couldn't keep the bar/road house thingy open bc that is where dallas lived ofc and Buck saw himsself as a father figure to Dallas and it was hard to watch Dallas run himself to the ground.

Tim also had a hard time and he took it out on his gang and Curly + Angela. He drank more, and smoked more, started to become a lot more reckless which ofc effected his little siblings. AND Pony let him have the st. Christopher necklace which he wears NON-STOP

When Johnny died his parents cared but they didn't go to the funeral because it was "too much for them" but in reality- they were drinking themselves under the table and didn't even try to attend.

Ponyboy suffers major major trauma (obvi) but it's to the point where Darry can't light a fire on the stove or fireplace or even a candle because it brings back too many memories- similarly, ponyboy can't take baths or go to the pool without getting harsh flashbacks of the drowning.

Cherry suffers from depression and she believes that what happened to Bob was all her fault, and that she could have prevented it by not sitting with Ponyboy, or trying to stop Bob from drinking and driving.

Marcia already has mental issues (in my mind) and her parents are kinda forgetful and I feel Marcia as bpd or something of the sorts, so when Cherry is distant and depressed from her literal Boyfriend dying, she feels like she is alone and nobody wants her as a friend.

Randy cuts off all ties with everyone (even Marcia) after Bob's death so that he can improve his mental health.

-This is all Headcanon but bro i'm so sorry im feeling extra yappy today.

[mimikyvvnz]

guys is somwthing wrong witj me i see gore and i go "okay" like its the most normal thing ever like i will NOT be unsettled. i'll feel bad for the victim nd stuff but blood and organs nd shit does NOT faze me 😭 is it cause i used to watch surgeries and stuff as a kid ?? (i really wanna be a doctor) and also i like true crime (im a woman and i want to avoid getting literally raped and or murdered) SO sorry for the rant guys i am FEELING YAPPY TODAY

[kiddphel]

sorry im feeling particularly yappy today. i hate how much im invested in one piece now for not just my faves i wanna kiss but also other characters who are just my friends. anime of sooo many free friends

[crab-ran-goon]

sorry analysis is so scary for me and this is like a weird scrapbook of a discord conversation i had earlier today but like thinking abt Eiji Hino and what OOO reveals about him so early on in the show. a disclaimer is that i’ve seen under 10 episodes of ooo so like. obviously i lack the full picture this is just personal observation cus to me eiji sticks out from other kamen rider protagonists from shows i’ve seen! and i find it fascinating!

putting it under cut cus it got yappy

besides gavv, i had only ever watched heisei 1 shows. ryuki, blade, kabuto and i’m currently watching kuuga while having seen roughly half of den o. ooo is my first time watching anything neo heisei and i’ve seen no completed reiwa shows (so i can’t compare shouma to how a reiwa protagonist is like for example) ! enough like. background information my point is

To me Eiji Hino is not the typical primary rider. While I ultimately think his heart is in the right place his attitude towards saving others differs from early heisei “i protect others because i love humanity/love people/love this world” or any kind of variation on that sentiment. I took note of Eijj telling Hina pretty early on he saves people because he’s afraid he might regret it if he doesn’t.

So what does this tell me about Eiji? I feel like in a show all about greed and desire he’s holding back his true feelings. He’s not the hero because he feels any particular way about being one and being proactive but because he fears the person that would make him and his regret. I don’t think he’s a cruel person or an indifferent person at all. He shows a shit ton of kindness for his fellow humans as he has a lot of empathy for victims of the greed and regularly bickers with ankh about it. But he kinda carries this misery to him under a cheery carefree demeanor. He doesn’t want to let himself feel bad about things, because would it then force him to look at himself?

He doesn’t seem to want things. I don’t think he lets himself have these desires because he personally thinks he doesn’t deserve to be tied down and have a place of belonging. While pondering this I thought about how he was unlike other riders for his attitude on being a hero differing from characters like Godai and Shinji. It has a mild kick of “this is just the right thing to do and nothing more” but now that I think about it more he’s really just a good kamen rider protagonist too cus he has all those isolation from humanity type of feelings. I guess my point is 7 episodes in I can sense he has smth wrong with him and won’t let himself be happy.

But he will smile like a dumbass and bicker with Ankh and try to help Hina the best he can even if there is something he’s holding back and then he can allow himself to pretend there’s nothing wrong <3 clocking his depressive vibes when he’s done nothing but smile 👍

[chrissturnioloo]

Bro I got these 2 fake ass friends and they always liked to leave me out n shit (we’ve known each other since we were 11 and 10 keep in my mind we’re 19 n 18 now) growing up my mom was more strict wit me like I can’t go out alone (she would have to come chaperone all out hang outs and they didn’t like it) type shit and because of that they would make plans without me, n im just like cool ion really care but when I turned 16 my mom was becoming a bit more lenient with hangouts and boys and all that shit but they would still leave me out like they would make plans together in our group chat or like in front of me, and obviously i starting getting mad bc like come on bffr and they would both dismiss my feeling n shit. Now the dynamic of our lil trio is im the oldest more like the yappy cheerful one, the other girl lets call her Gabriella is more like the stereotypical leader of the group? She kinda like Regina George from mean girls and then we have Sarah who is Gabriella’s little minion and the other day me and Gabriella hang out but Sarah couldn’t come and today she would tell me “I feel like u and Gabriella have this special bond and like I always feel left out with you too” I wanted to tell in her face so bad and punch all her teeth out her mouth.

Anyways sorry for my lil rant im upset

That's really rude from them but its okay love you can always rant

[akehoshimystar]

Yuzuru SR

A Brief Moment of Break

Part 1

On the road to Aporia, which is still too new to be described as familiar.

Ito: (Seems like there’s enough time to stop at a convenience store.)

As I was walking at my usual pace, I heard footsteps coming right behind me.

???: Yashiro-san?

Yuzuru: Ah. It was you after all, Yashiro-san. Good morning. Ito: Good morning, Kise-san. It's quite rare to meet you here in the morning. Are you going to work by train today? Yuzuru: Yes. The car is being used for special service at the moment. May I join you to Aporia? Ito: Of course.

Kise-san walked next to me and slowed down his pace a little. He must be trying to match my pace.

Ito: (He really is a considerate person, isn't he?)

Even among the members of Aporia, who comes with unique characteristics, he is an embodiment of kindness.

Ito: (Even in an unfamiliar workplace, I can work without hesitation because he always takes care of me.) Yuzuru: Have you gotten used to the work yet? Ito: Yes. It’s because Kise-san has provided me a very helpful guidance. Yuzuru: It almost looks like I forced you to say that with a sudden question. I'm sorry for talking about work before office hours. Ito: Not at all!

I'm worried that he would be stressed out if he’s too careful about every little thing.

Ito: …..Umm, Kise-san. Is your stomach okay? Yuzuru: ? My stomach is quite healthy actually. I can eat a lot thanks to that. Ito: (I didn't mean it that way, though…..) I'm glad to hear you’re doing well.

As we continued our slightly disjointed conversation, we eventually reached a convenience store below Aporia.

Ito: Um, can we stop by here for a bit? There's something I'm interested in. Yuzuru: Yes, of course.

Ito: Oh, found it. This cough drop has been popular recently, so I thought I'd buy one. Yuzuru: Oh, I've seen the ads before. The color and shape are really cute, aren't they?

After paying, my eye suddenly fell on the products lined up on the shelves near the register.

Ito: Is this… Yuzuru: A convenience store lottery? The prizes are "Snack brand-printed T-shirts" and "Snack brand mascot". I think I know someone who would want this. Ito: We’re probably thinking of the same person. Ito: There are only 5 left and the grand prize hasn't been picked up yet… Yuzuru: The chance is pretty good. Ito: But they might be sold out in a flash. Yuzuru: Maybe I should call him. We can draw in his stead.

Just as Kise-san was about to take his smartphone out of the pocket… The door to the store opened, and that person made an entrance with a lively sound.

Part 2

Roka: Oh? If it isn’t Yuzu-kun and Yappie! Yuzuru: Good morning. We were just talking about you actually. Roka: Me? That's an honor! What's the topic? Can I guess!?

Roka-san is as lively as ever, even in the morning.

Kise-san responded with a gentle smile, it almost looked like Roka-san had been here with us all along.

Roka: Oh, I get it. You mean this lottery ticket, right? Not only did I meet the two of you, I even found a lottery ticket that suited my tastes It really is true that the early bird catches the worm! Let's give it a try. Excuse me….

When Roka-san tried to call out to a nearby store clerk, a customer who was paying at the register also did the same thing.

Customer: Excuse me. Can I have all the remaining lottery tickets?

Yuzuru & Ito: Ah.

A sold-out sticker was pasted on the lottery shelf, and the grand prize T-shirt with a snack brand print was delivered to that customer.

Ito: Umm, Roka-san?

In the midst of indescribable atmosphere, I timidly peered at Roka-san.

Roka: It’s no problem, Yappie! It just went to someone who actually needed it. This is probably also the guidance of the stars. I'm actually glad for him ☆

Somehow, his back seemed kind of dejected.

Yuzuru: I know he said that, but I can tell he’s feeling down… Ito: Yeah….. Yuzuru: Yashiro-san, I have a suggestion.

Kise-san whispered something to me so Roka-san couldn't hear.

Ito: Umm. Roka-san. Would you like one?

I handed over the bag of cough drops I'd bought at the convenience store earlier.

Ito: Sometimes it comes in star-shaped. If you get one, it means you’re lucky. Yuzuru: If you get a star-shaped one, I'll give you some of the secret sweets in the office.

Roka: Yappie…. Yuzu-kun! Ito: Come on, Roka-san. Try your luck.

When Roka-san opened the package, what came out was a rainbow-colored candy. It's shaped like a star.

Ito: Huge jackpot! Yuzuru: Congratulations. You’ve earned a special macaron from a famous patisserie.

Roka: You two…

His face was dazzling for a moment… Soon he was smiling brightly as usual.

Roka: Thank you…! Now I truly believe that early bird catches the worm.

As we watched Roka-san joyfully heading off to the office, Kise-san and I exchange glances. The thing is…. Every single piece is star-shaped. To make such a wonderful suggestion, Kise-san really was a kind person.

[chemtrails-over-the-cvntryclub]

Always Almost

Authors note: Sorry for the long wait on chapter 2, I had started it over a week ago but the holiday season took so much of my time, also why its kind of a boring and short chapter I promise chapter 3 will be better. Chapter 2: Larissa had been showing me around the school for what had to have been about 30 minutes at this point and I had not noticed one thing about it. Despite her long descriptions of almost every last square of the school the only thing I seemed to retain was every feature of her as if scared to never see it again. Although I knew nothing of what she was saying I still loved hearing her speak, her voice elegantly flowing with every last syllable she spoke, the kind of voice that will forever be etched into my brain.  Out of nowhere a raven haired girl approached with her bubbly blonde friend not far behind. I hadn’t paid much attention to her but some part of me felt she may be important. The one thing I noticed of her was her almost knowing look. I used that as my que to stop staring at Larissa, I couldn’t take the chance of a yappy student risking my brand new job. As the two friends had passed I noticed that I missed Larissa talking to me for the second time that day, great first impression. “I'm so incredibly sorry, I think I missed what you said again, I'm not normally like this I have no idea what has come over me today-“ she cut me off again “It's quite alright, this school is definitely a lot to take in” I wasn’t about to tell her I hadn’t noticed a thing about the school. “I was just asking since we finished our tour if you would like to go grab a hot chocolate with me so we can talk a little about your job” “Oh, well I mean if you have the time this afternoon I wouldn’t mind going out with you” WRONG CHOICE OF WORDS WRONG CHOICE OF WORDS “haha umm I mean like going out to town with you” Absolutely kicking myself for the mistake of words She chuckles in return, definitely noticing the effect she holds on me now if she hadn’t before “then it's a date” I definitely hadn’t missed the very short wink she had given me after saying that. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The drive to the coffee shop was long but far from awkward. There was barely any exchange of words but words were not needed. Just being in the presence of such a goddess was enough for me, the talking could be saved for another time. We approached the coffee shop, The Wethervane,  it was quite the charming little place it fit perfectly into the small town. It had a modern yet cozy feel, with lots of wood accents, adorable red benches, a bit of greenery, and the amazing smell of coffee, quite a basic coffee shop but it definitely had its own charm and sense of community. We had ordered our drinks, her a simple hot chocolate and me a peppermint bark hot chocolate.  We only spent maybe five minutes talking about what my new job would entail before getting into our life stories, surprising I know, we spent what felt like hours talking about ourselves and I had a very good feeling we would get along more than swell.  After around 2 hours Larissa had checked the time and a second of panic washed over her. “I hate to cut this short but if we dont head back now I may miss my meeting.” she said in a sorry way. “It's quite alright, I need to unpack my stuff and get my classroom ready for Monday. We should do this again sometime.” I proclaimed  “I quite like that idea” she smiled “how about this Wednesday!” “That sounds perfect” I smiled back

[hismercytomyjustice]

Also, because I have nothing better to do with my life, here are the song inspos for my Bloodweave BG3 fic Ancient Books and Horror Stories title and chapter titles!

Mostly I pick them because of particular lines I like in songs that embody what I’m trying to write. Almost all my fanfics have song titles as their titles because I’m terrible with and get very stressed out about titles! Yay!

Songs beneath the cut to save people’s screens. I don’t think there’s any spoilers included for the fic if you’re a reader who wants to check these out.

I am apparently just very bored and feeling particularly introspective today. And also in a wildly yappy mood.

Oh, well! ┐(´∀｀)┌

Fic Title: Ancient Books and Horror Stories - Big Houses by Squalloscope

Heard this one originally on the podcast Welcome to Night Vale. It’s the weather for, I believe, episode 33. I’m not caught up on Night Vale, tho I did an actually get to meet Cecil Baldwin and Joseph Fink at one of their first live shows back in 2013. I even got a pic with them and an autograph and they are so beyond fucking nice. I fucking love their show and them.

This song ended up working better than I thought for the fic as a whole and I love it so much.

Chapter One: Why did it have to be me? from the Mamma Mia 2 Soundtrack. I’m sorry I’ve only ever really experienced ABBA through covers, please forgive. (ಥ﹏ಥ)

I struggled with this chapter title because it was originally gonna be “Ancient Books and Horror Stories” before I realized I wanted that to be the actual title. I like it tho! A little more upbeat than I necessarily wanted this chapter to feel, but captures the “helplessness” of falling in love with someone haha.

Chapter Two: All I Know is I Don’t Know a Thing - Dust and Ashes from The Great Comet of 1812 Musical

I fucking love The Great Comet of 1812. Hands down one of my fave musicals of all time. I am NOT IMMUNE to Josh Groban’s wiles.

I feel like Gale and Pierre have a lot in common, both being nice scholarly types who long for connection and a Great Love™.

Chapter Three: For I Sing Songs Until the Break of Dawn - Noel’s Lament from Ride the Cyclone

Not as familiar with this musical but love a few of the songs from it. Felt Noel envisioning himself as a sex worker really fit with how Astarion sort of views himself. Y’know minus the part of actually wanting to “be that fucked up girl.”

Chapter Four: This bottle of light from the sun - Calling the Moon by Dar Williams

I think this was actually an accident, oops. I was looking up the lyrics for Call on the Moon by D’Anna Stewart because I really liked it on the First Kill soundtrack (LET’S GO LESBIAN VAMPIRE LOVE STORY). I don’t know if I’ve ever heard the first song prior to me trying to find the lyrics again for this. OH WELL, still like the chapter title.

Chapter Five: Lucky to have what's left of your sanity - Digital Hallucination by OR3O

Spotify recommended this to me and it is a BANGER! Love OR30’s music in general (my fave is Greedy) even though I’m not super familiar with her inspiration for most of them. OR3O was the start of my descent into Electroswing, I fear, but damn if I’m not loving every minute of it.

Chapter Six: Give me one reason why I should live - I Imagine You’re Upset from Bat Boy

My bff in high school introduced me to the Bat Boy soundtrack. I thought she was joking at first. But here I am, still listening to it and loving it all these years later. Yay more vampire related inspo! Can you tell I like vampires?

Chapter Seven: A Hunger So Strong - Comfort and Joy from Bat Boy

MORE BAT BOY?! It’s more likely than you’d think!

Chapter Eight: Shared our Tears and Shed Our Sorrows - Stay, I Pray You from Anastasia

This is the result of me mishearing the actual lyrics of “shed our tears and shared our sorrows” and fucking loving the twist of expectations. OH WELL. More oopsies on my part. BUT I REGRET NOTHING.

Chapter Nine: I should be fine but it's all too much - Overwhelmed by Royal & the Serpent

Damn if this song doesn’t speak to my anxious ass OCD having self.

Chapter Ten: Sink your fangs into my soul - Hold Me, Bat Boy from Bat Boy

Uhhh only just now reading how many chapter titles are from Bat Boy. This was not intentional. WHOOPS.

Chapter Eleven: The Pretty Lies, the Ugly Truth - Teen Idle by Marina and the Diamonds

This group was introduced to my bff who used to listen to them a lot while I was riding in her car with her.

Chapter Twelve: How can nothing seem to last - This Too Shall Pass by Danny Schmidt

Heyyyy!!! More Night Vale weather! This time from episode eight! I started relistening to the podcast recently as well as their after show (this one included the weather artist) and came to really love this song.

Chapter Thirteen: Under a gathering storm - A Gathering Storm from Hadestown

Fucking LOVE the music from this musical. Yay Greek mythology too!!! Only been obsessed with that since I was I a literal child. Hermes has always been my fave, which is why I gravitate towards rogues/thieves in BG3 (coughAstarioncoughmyTavcough).

This may have actually begun my descent into Jazz related music and thereby Electroswing… And then Hazbin Hotel attacked…

Actually got to see this musical in person and loved every minute of it! Tho I’d suggest maybe knowing how the story of Orpheus and Eurydice plays out before going. Was with some friends who DID NOT and were a bit upset at the ending, haha.

Hmm. I’m sure there’s no parallels to that myth and this fanfic AT ALL.

Chapter Fourteen: Hoping you will ever find me in any place - The World from .hack//sign

Got into this anime around middle school/high school (can’t remember which) and fell in love with Yuki Kajiura’s music. Still listen to a bunch of songs from the .hack//sign soundtracks and used to actually own the CD haha. Really need to sit down and rewatch the anime it at some point.

…also just found out she composed some of the music for Demon Slayer and Aldnoah.Zero too. God she’s fucking amazing.

Chapter Fifteen: And they'll teach you not to pray to light - This Too Shall Pass by Danny Schmidt

LOOK WHO’S BACK. Didn’t realize I used this song twice but IF IT FITS!

Chapter Sixteen: At least then I would be free instead of frozen - I Think You’re the Devil by Ellee Duke

The vampire lesbian romance from First Kill is BACK BABY! And this time I didn’t confuse the song for a different one! Yay! Fucking obsessed with this song tho. Love so much of that soundtrack in general tbh.

Chapter Seventeen: I have Died only to Find I’ve Come Alive - Teen Idle by Marina and the Diamonds

Ayyy look who’s back! Another unintentional repeat but OH WELL. Apparently I have no self control. This is going to be part one of the two part epilogue!

Chapter Eighteen: Trees Instead of Gravestones - Big Houses by Squalloscope

And the only INTENTIONAL repeat in this whole thing is *drumroll* Big Houses!!! This is for part two of the two part epilogue!

Felt very fitting to “start” and end the fic with the same song. It’s also not lost on me that the song is kind of about dealing with religious trauma and embracing your spirituality your own way.

Between this and This Too Shall Pass, one might think there may be “complicated relationship with spirituality” undertones to this fic! Definitely couldn’t be inspired by me growing up in the Bible Belt! No siree!

Anyway, if you read this far, kudos to you! And if you check out any of the music, I hope you like it!

Did not intend to steal from so many vampire related songs, but OH WELL.

I literally went through my Spotify playlists looking up lyrics for songs I liked that I thought might fit and put the snippets I liked in a notes doc with no added context. So yeah, serendipity lol. Genuinely the only one I actually meant to use twice was Big Houses. Dunno how the rest of those repeats snuck in.

So, ahem, can you tell I fucking love musicals???

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you have the bestestest taste omg!!!!!!!! and the thing about favorites is SOOO REAL my indecisive ass cannot have a favorite anything

how was your day<3!!!

your qotd is: comfort show/movie? and why<3

-your secret santa💌

thank youuuuu <3 being indecisive and then the blanking upon being asked about my interests im sure makes me seem like the most boring person irl i swear lol, i find it so much easier to communicate over text where i have time to think about what my answer will be!

so far my day has been pretty good! i woke up kinda early because my body is still on east coast time and now i am waiting for some bread dough to rise, taking it to a friend of mine's soup party tomorrow! (its cheesy and im also bringing tomato). i also got some amazing new lotion at the store when i was getting ingredients, it smells so good and is so soft!

sorry i am rambly and yappy today lol, and sorta get into it with these answers esp the first one so just a warning of mentions of parental death both fictional and personal to me

my comfort movies are the princess diaries movies, the first one esp when im missing home cause i grew up in san francisco and there are parts of it that are filmed in the same neighborhood that i moved to when i was 11/went to elementary school, so i would really really day dream about being a princess and being whisked away into a new life but we don't have time to unpack why lmao, it was already a favorite and comfort movie before my dad passed away, but after there was just another layer of mia being relatable to me even though the relationship between me and my dad was very different from hers. i was a girl growing up in sf with a dead father and a single mom and had (two) black and white cat(s), it was built for me to project onto. and the second one, because, come on.....we've all seen it.

tv show wise, i think it is heartstopper one being that i started reading the comic in like 2017/18 and just watched it grow into this whole thing with such a lovable and perfect cast, it's as close to that feeling of wanting to be able to watch a fanfic as i have gotten from any media, and really is like a warm hug when things feel hard and complicated. my favorite thing about it is the real complex issues that come up that have sort of an optimistic and positive solution.

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BROOM, CRASH, BOOM,, shin ryujin.

WARNINGS: mention of heights, ryujin slightly snaps at yuna ( how dare she ), Yeji pulls Y/ns hair, mention of food, Ryujin loses control of her broom, Ryujin knocks Y/n unconscious 😍, implied Hufflepuff!Yeji and Y/n, other than that an attempt was made at fluff <3

IDOLS MENTIONED: the whole of Itzy, Tzuyu and Momo (t), Lisa (bp), Minho (skz), Karina (æ).

NOTE: my tumblr is glitching, and I’m about to have a mental breakdown— so please ignore all of the paragraph replications.

WORD COUNT: 2.3k <3

RYUJIN carefully sat atop her broom, lingering a few hundred feet in the air, and relishing in the dampened dewy eye of morning. It was too early, and the dark haired girl's teammates practically carved the words into her brain, screeching, as if it were a chalkboard and their voices the sharpened claws. She knew it was early, she could feel it first hand.

“I need to sleep too, and if they don’t shut their yappy little mouths they’ll be grazed by the bullet.” Ryujin grumbled to herself, rolling her shoulder blades. She was rambling, and didn’t mean to seem so harsh, but there was only a limit to her tolerance; testing it in the morning was a cheat code to letting her temper free.

“Unnie-yah, can’t we have a five minute break? It’s literally the buttcrack of dawn!” She heard a familiar voice whine. The dark haired girl sighed, knowing that the girl was elected among her peers to try and sway the quidditch captain. They weren’t exactly wrong to select the girl over all else, Ryujin did have a small soft spot for her, and they were the closest. Nonetheless, the elder girl swivelled her head around, glaring at the younger girl; Shin Yuna.

“Unnie-yah, can’t we have a five minute break? It’s literally the buttcrack of dawn!” She heard a familiar voice whine. The dark haired girl sighed, knowing that the girl was elected among her peers to try and sway the quidditch captain. They weren’t exactly wrong to select the girl over all else, Ryujin did have a small soft spot for her, and they were the closest. Nonetheless, the elder girl swivelled her head around, glaring at the younger girl; Shin Yuna.

“Unnie-yah, can’t we have a five minute break? It’s literally the buttcrack of dawn!” She heard a familiar voice whine. The dark haired girl sighed, knowing that the girl was elected among her peers to try and sway the quidditch captain. They weren’t exactly wrong to select the girl over all else, Ryujin did have a small soft spot for her, and they were the closest. Nonetheless, the elder girl swivelled her head around, glaring at the younger girl; Shin Yuna.

“We’ve been here fifteen minutes, Yuna. You know we have a game later today, and that we always practice beforehand. Even if it is at the buttcrack of dawn.” The captain deadpanned, tilting her head down, and harshly sighing through her nose.

“Look, Shin, it’s one last practice, the game is in less than three hours. And the slytherins have hogged the slot closest to the game. It wasn’t my choice,” she almost whispered, but Yuna still heard her. If Ryujin hadn’t made them all use a spell that enhanced hearing, the younger girl was sure she wouldn’t have done.

The blonde haired gryffindor nodded, frowning at the fact she pressed the girl. All Ryujin was doing was her job as captain, and Yuna now saw that.

“I know. And there’ll be no more complaints from me, unnie. I’m sorry.” The elder Shin smiled at her teammate, softly patting her back in thanks, and soon dismissing her.

And yet, all Ryujin could do was wonder if a certain someone was going to be there.

Bloody hell you were tired. It was nine in the morning, and you had just endured the wrath of a very grouchy Yeji. You just wanted to sleep, for pete's sake! The only reason you were to wake up this early on a Saturday was for the quidditch match. And the only reason you were going to the quidditch match was out of a partial feeling of duty.

Quidditch is a staple of Hogwarts, and appealing to that fact you felt as if it was your job to attend a few matches. Namely the ones where your house were playing, and the final match of the season. ( But, if you were asking Yeji, she’d tell you it was for the cute gryffindor captain. )

You stretched out your arms, and yelled a little in satisfaction. You sounded a little like a dinosaur to Yeji, and she always reinforced the idea whenever you practiced the action.

You groaned loudly, and again, to try and affect the older girl occupying the bathroom. If she was going to wake you, she needed to hear your discontempt.

“Y/n, stop whining! You know fully well you asked me to wake you!” Yeji yelled from next to the sink, the bathroom was only to the left of your bed, so she really didn’t need to yell. You whined, swivelling your dishevelled head to the left.

“I can, and will continue, Yej! I have a right to sleep, and I’m not sure who you are to think you can take it away—“ you slightly rambled, your voice rushed and heated.

“Seeker Shin is playing~” Yeji sang, and -despite still in the middle of chugging along your speech like a whizzing train- you suddenly grew quiet. Your best friend giggled, knowing exactly what would quieten you.

“That is so not fair!” You yelled, rushing to acquire some flattering clothes. It didn’t really matter what you wore, though; you looked gorgeous in anything. You may not think it, but blimming heck does the rest of Hogwarts know it.

You ran around like a headless chicken, looking for your mustard wool jumper. Snapping your head around every few seconds, you finally locked your eyes on a tuft of yellow, peeking from a small pile of tidily folded clothes.

You shed our pajama shirt, an oversized piece of merch from the muggle group Red Velvet, and replaced it with the soft jumper. The fluffed material welcomed you, and you grinned in comfort.

Wiggling on some jeans, you ran into the bathroom, much to Yejis amusement. Quickly brushing your teeth, brushing your hair, and doing whatever to your face you felt like wearing.

Yeji smiled, coming up from behind.

“I love that jumper on you, you have to let me borrow it at some point,” she playfully pouted, pulling your hair from your shoulders and crossing strands over one another. You loved it when Yeji did your hair, she was always so gentle. You let out a small laugh, smiling at her reflection in the mirror.

“Thanks, unnie. I think you’d really suit it actually.” The elder girl smiled over your shoulder, securing the braid with a hairband.

“Come on, Y/n-ah, let’s go down to the great hall and eat.” The Hwang prompted, yanking the hair she had just tied. In response, you gave a squeak. You blinked a little, not expecting your head to be thrown backward in such a swift motion, and cupped the hair she had just pulled on.

“What the heck, Hwang!” You called, swiftly hurrying toward her running frame. All you heard were Yejis giggles as she escaped you.

You didn’t eat too much for breakfast, just a small nibble, and now you found yourself and Yeji walking to the pitch. The both of you trot up the stairs, thee stone barely cushioning the fall of your steps. You were practically the mirror of a heated dog by the end of the journey. Heaving breaths, the two of you ran to be rested, eventually finding empty spots next to Lia, one of their best friends.

“Jisu-yah, do you mind if we stand here?” Yeji asked the girl, slightly surprising her, which was evident in the little flinch she made.

“Sorry, we didn’t mean to scare you, unnie,” you softly stated, wincing a little in guilt. Lia simply smiled, her eyes closing in the process, her head jumped with her little giggle and she raised her hand in dismissal.

“It’s fine, you just took me a little by surprise. Go ahead, I was hoping you’d be the ones to sit there.” She patted the park of the wall diagonal to her, her face now sculpted into a calm grin. Yeji shared a look with you, before deciding to surge into the spot designated to the person right beside Lia. You smiled, completely fine with occupying the spot at the end of the row.

“Thanks, Lia!” The oldest girl hummed, and you followed narrowly behind. Lia simply laughed a little, again, dismissing the thanks.

“It’s going to start soon, we’d better pay attention now,” The Choi swivelled her head toward the space of green grass, adorned with hoops hanging in the sky that were propelled by metal bars.

And they were off, two full teams of quidditch players zooming around the air of the spacious land plot. You recognised a few of the participants; Shin Yuna, Gryffindors keeper; Lee Chaeryeong, one of Gryffindors chasers; Chou Tzuyu, Slytherins seeker; And, of course, Shin Ryujin, Gryffindors seeker.

The game had barely started and yet there was already a lot of action, for one, Chaeryeong had almost been hit by a stray bludger ricocheted from a very guilty-looking Lee Minho ( or, so the commentator, Yoo Ji-min, had claimed his name was ).

And, the second pile of action was the very heated beginning to the first score. An upperclassman by the name of Lisa, had narrowly missed the same bludger as Chaeryeong, and the flying ball had coincidentally diverted the quaffle into the direction of the Thai girl. It was quite a journey to get to the hoops, but luckily the Slytherin keeper had been too involved in trying to dodge a bludger.

And while the players were impressive, your eyes wouldn’t leave even the shadow of the seeker. Honestly, if your house hadn’t already had a seeker, you’d be a great candidate with how intent your stare was.

But, even then, your eyes would latch onto Shin Ryujin.

Anything she did captivated you, and your brain would melt into mush at the mere sight of her. And, perhaps, that was why all you could do was stare hopelessly as she flew right toward you.

“Y/N— LOOK OUT!” Was all you heard before it was overtaken by the sound of a thump, and a loud crack!

All Ryujin felt was guilt. She should’ve had more control over her broom's movement. But she didn’t, and now it was her fault you were in the hospital wing. That her crush was in the hospital wing.

She may have been in the infirmary, too, but that doesn’t mean she's going to get any treatment for the overwhelming emotion. So, she sat beside your bed waiting for you to awaken.

And, as if on cue, you groaned and your eyes fluttered into a wince. The Shin sighed in relief, and it could clearly be seen washing over her face. At the sound, your brows furrowed further, and your eyes snapped open.

The confusion infused into your face was almost comical. Why was Shin Ryujin holding your hand, and why were you in the hospital wing?

Wait.

Why was Shin Ryujin holding your hand in the hospital wing?

“Y/n! You’re awake!” Said girl almost cried, her presence further overwhelming your senses. The older girl almost surged forward to hug you, but stopped herself in the nick of time.

“I, yeah… What, what happened?” You groaned, unknowingly tightening your grip on the dark haired girl's hand. The girl opposing you’s reaction was almost instantaneous, shocking you as she looked sculpted from the mould of a scolded kitten.

“My,” she sharply inhaled, “I lost control of my broom, and I couldn't gain it back..” she closed her eyes, and let out a small awkward cough.

“It was too fast, and I wasn’t paying attention, and neither were you.. I accidentally crashed into you,” the older girl tore apart the bandaid, and slightly caved in on herself. She was honestly afraid you’d scream at her until your lungs hurt, and further than that. But, she’d understand if you did such, she gave you a concussion for goodness sake!

“Oh,” you blinked, raising your unoccupied hand to itch your eyebrow, as you did your eyes skimmed over the Shin girl. Realising your hand was in hers, finally, you squeezed it. She raised her head a little, probably to scope out if you had noticed the action; and when she realised you did, she may have blushed.

“I’m not mad at you. If anything, I’m thankful you’ve gotten me” you leaned a little closer, “out of potions, Slughorn is honestly insufferable,” you winked, acting as if you were telling her a low profile scandal.

It made her giggle a little, so you took that as a win. You were proud of yourself for making your crush giggle, even if it was a short one.

“Eh?” You suddenly heard someone shriek, making you jerk a little. Your eyes soon connected to Ryujins. She had made that noise.

“What’s wrong? You sounded like Momo unnie,” you nervously chuckled, seemingly confused by the large grin on her face.

“You.. have a crush on me?” She had answered immediately. Her face was no doubt cramping, but she still held the smile proudly. You blushed brightly.

You didn’t..

You said that aloud.

You gasped loudly at the realisation and Ryujin laughed at the visual of it. Your hands almost immediately ran to your face like magnets, and you blushed even darker at the newest revelation that your hands were still intertwined.

Taking charge, the older girl pulled your hands from their shielding positions and pulled them down onto your lap. Unlinking her right hand from your left, she raised it to cup your burning face.

“Don’t hide from me, love. You don’t ever have to,” she rubbed her thumb along your heated cheek, linking her eyes to yours.

Your lips parted a little.

Hers did too.

And then they darted to your lips. And at your nod, which was an unconscious plead for more contact, she placed her lips into the perfect puzzle slot. Her lips fit yours so perfectly, and that was all she had hoped to happen.

When the two of you reluctantly pulled from each other, another force pulled you close again, making you place your forehead onto hers. Your eyes didn’t open, and you let yourself linger in the memory of the kiss.

“If it isn’t obvious, a crush is the exact thing life replicated for me too. I have so many feelings for you Y/n.” She hummed. Your eyes finally fluttered open, and you stared at her, a pure look of adoration plastered onto your face.

“I’ve liked you for so long, and I’m not going to hide that anymore.”

“The second you kissed me, I didn’t want you to either.”

But, if, when Yeji checked up on you, the two of you squealed for a long time; that was something you wouldn’t tell anyone.

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▸ The Puppy Interview | cc!George ֙⋆ ་ .ᐟ

＃ʚĭɞ warnings too much fluff. from the puppys and from a domesticated gogy? ugh I lob it so much

ʚĭɞ＃author's note(s) this took a bit of time writing for honestly no reason but I hope you guys love it <3 This was inspired by Tom Hollands Puppy interview and istg that man is just the absolute cutest

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“Hey, guys!” George smiled towards the camera giving it a wave which you do as well. “Today Y/n and I were invited to Buzzfeed to answer questions and play with puppies,” He trails off a bit looking over at you as you bounce up and down excitedly.

“Y/n has been trying to convince me to let them get a puppy for ages and maybe after this interview I will.” An accidental squeal leaves your mouth at the mention of getting a little puppy of your own.

“If you were to get a puppy what breed?” A crew member questions from behind the camera.

You pretend to ponder the question but you’ve always known what pup you’d get. “My first would be a Golden Retriever they’re so bright and energetic and honestly I feel like they just match my energy one hundred and ten percent, ya know?”

“You said first what would be the others?”

“Second would be a German Shepard, and a third would be…”

“A Husky.” You and your boyfriend finish at the same time, causing the two of you to break out into a fit of laughter before the camera cuts to the multiple little pugs running into frame and greeting the two of you.

A few minutes go by before the scene cuts. “They’re releasing the demons,” George whispers as three small puppies come running out and both of you get one to hold. “You’re so cute, I just want to eat you.” You tell the puppy rubbing your face up against its own.

“How long have you two known each other?”

“We met about five years ago through Clay and Sap-” He stops talking mid-way when the puppy begins to lick at his cheek. The brit just smiles pulling his head away from the young one to finish his answer. “And when Y/n came to the Uk we went on like four dates throughout the duration of their 3-week trip.”

“So after we tried long distance but that didn’t work so I moved in with him and we’ve been dating for three years now.” You smile petting the head of one of the Pups that decides to plop down right on your thighs seemingly tired with the little he’s done.

“Any plans on getting married?”

“Yup, waiting for them to propose.” George chuckles when you gasp offendedly.

“Is there any place you plan on getting married?”

Neither of you hears the question as you become too drawn to the cuddle pile forming between the two of you. All of the little pups are huddled on top of each other in the small gap between your and Georges’ legs.

“Do you think they’re cold?” You question scratching the back of the yappy one on top. He seemed to have a lot to say about what was going on.

“No, I think there’s a lot of body heat coming from all of them.”

“Sorry what was the question?” The crew member repeats it with a laugh.

“I think we’ve both decided on Aruba it’s a beautiful place, so maybe by the beach.”

“Would you stream your marriage live?” The question catches you by surprise which causes you to be thrown into a laughing fit. George just smiles and shakes his head as he looks over at you as your arms go around your stomach trying to catch your breath.

“Sor-.” You breathe in and out. “Sorry, sorry. Umm, I think I’d want that moment to be a bit more private but possibly I would be okay with doing a vlog before the wedding day.”

After a few more questions and the Puppy’s all waking up from the pile they had made the two of you began to wrap up the interview.

“You are just so talkative today aren’t ya!” You quizzed the yappy little pup who was barking at you and nibbling softly on your hand any time you tried to pet em’. Whilst George was laid down one puppy bitting on his shoes another licking the makeup off his face and one rested on his belly snoring cutely.

“That’s it for this interview guys! We hoped you enjoyed, and don’t forget that you can adopt these cuties at the North Shore Animal League, so please, please find these little ones a home!”

There's another cut to the two of you sitting next to each other with George’s hands over your eyes as they bring out your surprise.

Your boyfriend removes his hands to reveal your three favorite breeds of dogs all with red bows tied to their collar.

“Suprise!” He and the rest of the members call out as your eyes begin watering at the thoughtful sentiment.

“Sorry, Allergies.”

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