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Why is everything so boring?
#there's nothing to look forward to. there's no hope. i'm just wallowing in my failure and nothingness#and anything that changes are things that don't matter#maybe it's just in my head. my life won't always be like this right? it's just a pause. God will take me somewhere....#somewhere good hopefully....#random#personal#lethargic#night depression#long sigh
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man how messed up is he? (3/24)
#noco family au#How I Met Your Father (Again)#total drama#total drama noah#total drama cody#total drama noco#noco lore#sorry for the long wait ill try not to goof off as much when it comes to arcs#hopefully I get this one done somewhere round early feb#got too many ideas for this damned au#but yea also I like how everyones going on about the last few reboot eps#and like im like hey guys look at this its drunk noah look at him#but other than that the last few episodes were just meh#priya and Caleb thingy could have not dragged out for that long#winner was good though#very based#reboot season was very hit or miss#but when it hit#it hit HARD#idk
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COVID-19's long-term effects on the body: an incomplete list
COVID’s effect on the immune system, specifically on lymphocytes:
NYT article from 2020 (Studies cited: https://www.biorxiv.org/content/10.1101/2020.05.18.101717v1, https://www.biorxiv.org/content/10.1101/2020.05.20.106401v1, https://www.unboundmedicine.com/medline/citation/32405080/Decreased_T_cell_populations_contribute_to_the_increased_severity_of_COVID_19_, https://www.medrxiv.org/content/10.1101/2020.06.08.20125112v1)
https://www.biorxiv.org/content/10.1101/2022.01.10.475725v1
https://www.science.org/doi/10.1126/science.abc8511 (Published in Science)
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC9057012/
https://www.forbes.com/sites/williamhaseltine/2022/04/14/sars-cov-2-actively-infects-and-kills-lymphoid-cells/
https://www.cleveland.com/news/2022/10/in-cleveland-and-beyond-researchers-begin-to-unravel-the-mystery-of-long-covid-19.html
SARS-CoV-2 infection weakens immune-cell response to vaccination: NIH-funded study suggests need to boost CD8+ T cell response after infection
https://www.merckmanuals.com/professional/hematology-and-oncology/leukopenias/lymphocytopenia
https://thetyee.ca/Analysis/2022/11/07/COVID-Reinfections-And-Immunity/
Dendritic cell deficiencies persist seven months after SARS-CoV-2 infection
https://www.frontiersin.org/articles/10.3389/fimmu.2022.1034159/full
https://www.n-tv.de/politik/Lauterbach-warnt-vor-unheilbarer-Immunschwaeche-durch-Corona-article23860527.html (German Minister of Health)
Anecdotal evidence of COVID’s effects on white blood cells:
https://twitter.com/DrJohnHhess/status/1661837956875956224
https://x.com/TristanVeness/status/1661565201345564673
https://twitter.com/TristanVeness/status/1689996298408312832
Much more if you speak to Long Covid patients directly!
Related information of interest:
China approves Genuine Biotech's HIV drug for COVID patients
COVID as a “mass disabling event” and impact on the economy:
https://www.ctvnews.ca/health/report-says-long-covid-could-impact-economy-and-be-mass-disabling-event-in-canada-1.6306608
https://x.com/inkblue01/status/1742183209809453456?s=20
COVID’s impact on the heart:
https://www.dailystar.co.uk/news/world-news/deadly-virus-could-lead-heart-31751263 (Research from: Japan's Riken research institute)
https://www.brisbanetimes.com.au/national/queensland/unlike-flu-covid-19-attacks-dna-in-the-heart-new-research-20220929-p5bm10.html
https://www.mdpi.com/2077-0383/12/1/186
https://medicalxpress.com/news/2023-04-mild-covid-effects-cardiovascular-health.html
https://publichealth.jhu.edu/2022/covid-and-the-heart-it-spares-no-one
https://www.bhf.org.uk/informationsupport/heart-matters-magazine/news/coronavirus-and-your-health/is-coronavirus-a-disease-of-the-blood-vessels (British Heart Foundation)
COVID’s effect on the brain and cognitive function:
https://www.openaccessgovernment.org/article/brain-infection-by-sars-cov-2-lifelong-consequences/171391/
https://www.cidrap.umn.edu/covid-19/study-shows-covid-leaves-brain-injury-markers-blood
https://www.theguardian.com/world/2020/jul/08/warning-of-serious-brain-disorders-in-people-with-mild-covid-symptoms
Cognitive post-acute sequelae of SARS-CoV-2 (PASC) can occur after mild COVID-19
Neurologic Effects of SARS-CoV-2 Transmitted among Dogs
https://journals.lww.com/nsan/fulltext/2022/39030/neurological_manifestations_and_mortality_in.4.aspx
https://www.salon.com/2023/06/17/new-evidence-suggests-alters-the-brain--but-the-extent-of-changes-is-unclear/
https://www.scientificamerican.com/article/covid-virus-may-tunnel-through-nanotubes-from-nose-to-brain/
https://neurosciencenews.com/post-covid-brain-21904/
https://www.thelancet.com/journals/lanpsy/article/PIIS2215-0366(22)00260-7/fulltext
https://medicalxpress.com/news/2022-08-covid-infection-crucial-brain-regions.html
https://news.ecu.edu/2022/08/04/covid-parkinsons-link/
Covid as a vascular/blood vessel disease:
https://www.salon.com/2020/06/01/coronavirus-is-a-blood-vessel-disease-study-says-and-its-mysteries-finally-make-sense/
https://www.salon.com/2023/12/27/brain-damage-caused-by-19-may-not-show-up-on-routine-tests-study-finds/
https://www.nih.gov/news-events/news-releases/sars-cov-2-infects-coronary-arteries-increases-plaque-inflammation
https://www.mdpi.com/2077-0383/12/6/2123
https://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2021/10/211004104134.htm (microclots)
Long Covid:
Post-COVID-19 Condition in Canada: What we know, what we don’t know, and a framework for action
https://www.ctvnews.ca/health/coronavirus/more-than-two-years-of-long-covid-research-hasn-t-yielded-many-answers-scientific-review-1.6235227
https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/london/cause-of-long-covid-symptoms-revealed-by-lung-imaging-research-at-western-university-1.6504318
https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/montreal/long-covid-study-montreal-1.6521131
https://news.yale.edu/2023/12/19/study-helps-explain-post-covid-exercise-intolerance
Other:
- Viruses and mutation: https://typingmonkeys.substack.com/p/monkeys-on-typewriters
Measures taken by the rich and world leaders
Heightened risk of diabetes
https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jama/fullarticle/2805461
https://www.nature.com/articles/d41586-022-00912-y
Liver damage:
https://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/city/mumbai/46-of-covid-patients-have-liver-damage-study/articleshow/97809200.cms?from=mdr
tl;dr: covid is a vascular disease, not a respiratory illness. it can affect your blood and every organ in your body. every time you're reinfected, your chances of getting long covid increase.
avoid being infected. reduce the amount of viral load you're exposed to.
the gap between what the scientific community knows and ordinary people know is massive. collective action is needed.
#putting this somewhere at least as reference for... somebody hopefully#covid#disability#y'all. it is bleak out there but some very good people are doing their best to help#we need as many people aware and helping as possible
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my first time drawing legato :3!
#trigun fanart#trigun#legato bluesummers#legato trigun#legato fanart#the blue emo one#first time drawing him!#i wanna get designs for all the ghg made eventually#felt legato was a good starting point#i like his sad eyes#did kind of a quick interpretation of my own#bc i see alot of stuff with him and bones in official art snd think he deserves a ribcage somewhere#legato fanartists r so cool i love how ppl draw him#more in the future hopefully!
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Drawing a randomly generated Haikyuu character (almost) every day until I give up
50. Hanamaki Takahiro
#haikyuu!!#haikyuu fanart#haikyuu#1hqaday#my art#hanamaki takahiro#my good friend makki my good friend hanapippi#we hit 50!!!#hopefully ill have commission info up sometime tomorrow#i got insp for this pose from somewhere very specific... lmk if you recognize it hehe
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It's pomegranate season :)
A redraw of this piece from around a year ago
#hello guys...(:#i started school back in mid September! its hell#and my chronic pain is rly bad these days i can barely do anything#and my next break will be spent at the hospital#but love and light at least we're trucjing along and getting somewhere hopefully#this drawing isn't exactly the most finished the most effortful what have you but its all i can guve you#confession time: idk if i have it in me to keep drawing the guys#dont get me wrong still adore them. but i feel a little out of it#maybe this'll change the second i post this but whatever.#i had an amazing time being active in the fandom you guys are so sweet and you got me thru rough patches <3#I'll still be around just even more inactive#anyway i hope you enjoy this!!!#i feel like I've improves substantially which is good#cwilbur#dsmp fanart#my art#thx to everyone that's loved my art yall hold a special place in my heart#alright bye bye xoxo#ps esteemed mutuals and lovely audience never hesitate talking to me i am always around and i love ppl I'm just socially anxious#fennec.art
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So, my mom was telling me how much free time I have, and I was like, "I have no freetime wth do you mean?????" And I just wanna see if this is like. A normal way to think of things?
Things I need to do:
Finish reading icebound land
Make a whole lotta art that I promised people
Research study abroad programs
At least one Dutch lesson a day
Keep my room clean
Talk to my friends so they know I love them (and so I don't go insane)
My math homework
Keep myself clean (showers, finally brushing my teeth after months, etc etc) so I don't go insane
Eat at 7pm
Various things I enjoy as to not go insane
All from 6pm to 9 pm, every day, after being at school from 8 am to 3:30 pm and then The Public (teen center) from 3:30 to 5:30, and I need to be in bed by 9:30 and asleep by 10:00
So, basically, I'm "on the clock" from 7 am (When I start getting ready for school) until 9 pm, with no breaks
But yeah no I totally have free time. Yeaup
#“but you never actually do that stuff! you just sit and scroll!”#yeah cause if I'm not doing what I need to I'm not Allowed to do anything else#but I'm just. too tired. to do what I need yo#I hate high school#rambles#adhd#executive dysfunction#<- I've heard that this kinda mental math can be a symptom of those things? idk#im so tired#burnout#adhd burnout#(????? I think????)#high school#I'm just so tired of all of this#the sun is going down way too early and I barely speak at all at school and I never finish work early anymore and the teen center is loud#and I still want to be active in the fandom but I don't have time to make posts anymore#and I don't have any in person friends anymore and I don't know when the last time I got a hug was#and I'm just. so. tired. my room is clean and I have good grades and I talk to my friends everyday and I shower routinely#why the hell am I so stressed#I do everything I'm supposed to do#I just want to go somewhere else man#The Netherlands hopefully#I wanna actually DO something#go on a trip for band#not just finish the work put in front of me day after day after day after day#I wasn't built for this shit#I'm so fucking tired
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(I am still in love with you, can't admit it yet)
#throws this out into the wild n then immediately goes to bed#top 20 edizzy songs of all time (there are so many edizzy songs out there)#this came up on my shuffle and i just. had to make a stupid little edit. it makes me think about them every single time#see also: 'Im not ready to see you this happy'#(the song is 'good arms vs bad arms' by frightened rabbit if you dont wanna click the link!)#nyxtalks#ofmd#our flag means death#izzy hands#israel hands#stede bonnet#edward teach#(in spirit. he may not be pictured in this post but his presence is undeniable)#edizzy#blackhands#edit#i tried messing around w the colours n lighting etc for this one! i am not sure i really succeeded but it is important to mess around#and see what things do#hopefully its not awful. also on other monitors ghbfjkd#colours lose all meaning pretty quick i find. like yeah this looks great! (hides filter) oh no. its all wonky#skin colour is so hard to keep right i found. n these images are Not lighted for it either#but it was fun! feel free 2 think its bad though thats fair#gotta start somewhere!
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crossposting some more of the DRDT shitposts I've made over the last couple weeks here!
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putting the rest under the cut bc there's a bunch...
(please go watch the voice actor streams and support them they're all awesome!! (also that's what the context for the first video is lol))
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#i wish i could make actual silly animatics for these audios#but im not really that good at that sort of thing (yet? hopefully)#so sprite edits it is ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#drdt#danganronpa despair time#drdt meme#teruko tawaki#arturo giles#whit young#xander matthews#eden tobisa#david chiem#monotv#ok im not tagging everyone but theyre all in there somewhere too#Youtube
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Humanity has reached the stars. Broken free of the confines of the Solar System, discovered other habitable worlds, and sent colony ships out to settle them.
But on one watery world, they discover we are not alone. The shuttles land, people step out onto a new landmass for the first time, only to behold ancient yet highly advanced ruins of a long-gone civilization. Ruins, and something else...
Ten years later, people have flocked to this world, dubbed Planet Sliplane. Pilots, mechanics, and engineers; using the technology discovered in the ruins to pioneer a whole new type of high-tech hovercraft, that can transform and shift as needed to adapt to any terrain. And what are they used for?
To race, of course.
Sliplane's many islands are covered in and connected by a vast network of radical racetracks, packed full of sick loop-de-loops and death-defying jumps, along with plenty of automated hazards. Here, racing meets exploration, as pilots of insane skill and radical courage are encouraged to test their talents by forging into the unknown, charting a course through the archipelago, and plumbing the ruins for valuable secrets. Can these ladies make a splash into this new frontier?
Of course, the best adrenaline rushes only come from the most intense danger...
S L I P L A N E
Coming Soon* to every console**
#not a reblog#sliplane#*probably somewhere between 'not for a long while' and 'never'#**probably just pc at most#RADICAL and not in the terf way#late 90s early 00s racing games#with late 90s early 00s sci-fi aesthetic#but with vehicular combat#and hot queer women as the playable characters#and a hopefully actually good plot#OH and a sick symphonic techno hip-hop soundtrack#this is my vision
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RWBY at Anime Expo like:
#don't mind me#rwby#we ain't done yet baby#viz media is a good deal#hopefully we get v10 news soon#and also maybe get all the seasons up and streaming again somewhere
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Leave Us Be
Merlin flees with Freya and begins working with her to try and find a safe way to manage her curse and live a full and happy life. But one crisp dawn, Camelot's hunt for the Bastet ends.
Only Merlin is curled up along side her, a protective arm across her tired body. His eyes stap open as they approach, the promise of fierce resistance glowing defiantly through the morning gloom.
#mine#merlin#doodle#freylin#freya#merlin freya#I love the idea of freya#but like#in canon#she really just#is there for a bit and then Merlin gets her in helpful bottled form later on#bottled girlfriend#the actor did a really good job tho#and i think it happened early enough in the show#for it to not feel TOOOO strange for Merlin to fall so hard#any later and we'd be like#HUH#Merlin wtf your destiny and arthur and whatnot my guy#but he will come back#even in this AU#I'm sure he'd eventually loop back around to Arthur's side#hopefully with freya chillin somewhere#munchin on berries or somethin
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Yuma Month: Day 23: Hand Holding
“The more I held hands with Halara…the more tired I became…”
Prompt based on yet another fic of mine.
#Yuma Month 2024#whumpcode#rain code#master detective archives: rain code#yuma kokohead#halara nightmare#pixeldoodles#my art#yeah time to put yuma through the fever ringer again#I think he should have a penalty to using his forte too#so I made one up and obviously it involves fatigue and illness#I think halara is the one he held hands with the most times#not me making a prompt to share my writing lmao#I know that this isn't the best...#and I admit I heavily referenced a screenshot for the hands...#but I had to get this done before I ran out of time#gotta be somewhere again tonight#so I kinda speedran this art...#hopefully this works for the prompt#and yeah I wanted to draw yuma going through it again... x'D#sorry he just looks so good with it I don't make the rules :3c
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it's not sinking in that today might be the last day in my house and town for many months to come
#like how do i even feel#on one hand im excited because like now that i finally agreed to dads stupid whims he technically will have to give in to things#ive been wanting since FOREVER like going to the gym#plus it's impossible to eat junk food when he's there he won't even let me kacchi maggi because maida hai bimar ho jayegi#and aadhe se zyada din toh pyaaz ye sab nahi kha sakte so it rules out any outside food#which is so good because like i just found out im pre diabetic lol#like borderline sugar like ab kuch nahi kiya toh seedha type 2 diabetes#so i need to eat healthy or ill literally die#i mean eventually but whatever being diagnosed with this in my 20s would kill me#also simply the fear of living with him is so much that i HAVE to study#and i want to now it's high time#but yeah want doesn't really work for me#i read a quote somewhere that 'goals' don't mean anything because winners and losers have the same goals#and i was like WOAH. like the person who gets an all india rank had the same goal as me: to pass the exam with good marks#but they succeeded and i didn't so it's isn't our goals that differentiate us#which ik is obvious but like still idk put things in perspective#anyway yeah that way my life MIGHT be fixed#but there's also living ALONE with my sociopathic FATHER who has more mood swings than me on pms#and being cut off frm the rest of civilisation and yk developed roads and buildings and ice cream shops#i guess it is mostly food ig :( which is good like the most junk food i can eat there is a burger from a nearby stall and that's pretty#much it they literally do not even have havmor or anything in walking distance forget scoop wali ice cream#but i like my bed and i like my ceiling with the stars and i like looking out of my window and knowing that the first ever crush of my life#lives right next to me and i like knowing that ill meet my bestfriend atleast once a month#i don't really love my mom or my brother tbh but idk maybe ill miss them it's weird ive never lived without them#i don't know i really hope that this is like a boot camp kota types experience rather than so much isolation that i sink deep into#depression. but then ive hit pretty shocking lows this year so hopefully i can handle it#my sister did say that when she lived alone with him for a month it was quite peaceful and okay because he usually gets more angry when mom#is around warna mostly he's fine#i don't know i don't know bhagwan ji please ab aur mushkil mat banana life bohot jhatke de chuke ho already ab pls#mujhe apni galtiyo ko sudharne ka mauka dena 🙏
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Alina didn’t choose to have her powers taken from her and she didn’t intend for them to be lost. You can’t say Alina chose her ending when the ending was deliberately forced on her without her consent, and she is actively upset by this.
It has been said before and I will say it again:
Alina explicitly wants her power in the books. She has conflicting feelings on it, which is normal, but does on multiple occasions admit to herself as well as others that she likes the power, that she wants it, and that she does not wish to lose it.
This is not due to a lack of conceptualizing Alina liking her powers and Alina’s greed for power as separate things. This has nothing to do with Alina’s greed. Outside of Alina’s greed for power, she comes to love this part of herself she neglected all her life because she was raised by people who could not understand her and who taught her to be wary of her own people and culture, so much so that she subconsciously avoided dealing with who she actually was.
Equating Alina’s power with her greed is exactly what those oppressing grisha do in justification for their hate crimes. You are using the same logic as a cast of people set on genocide and oppression. Not to mention the direct connection between grisha being based on jewish persecution and how the thing that defines grisha is equated with greed, which is a highly common antisemitic depiction of jewish people.
Alina is the ethnic jew raised by goyim. She is the repressed queer child of homophobic parents. She is everybody who only got to realize and express themselves after finding and connecting with their community late in life.
A story about a persecuted minority hunted because of what makes them different ending with your main character, who is a part of that minority, losing that piece of themselves and being forced to assimilate, is incredibly problematic. And anybody who makes this criticism about “Alina choosing” forgets that Alina is a character who’s only choices are those made for her by the person who wrote her.
Another thing that people constantly misrepresent is that Alina is not happy to be stripped of her powers at the end, and explicitly expresses sadness, grief, rage, and anger about the loss of her powers. This is separate from her finding happiness despite her grief, but the grief never goes away. Which means that anybody saying she was happy to lose her powers or chose to do so is factually incorrect. Her agency is stripped from her in the end.
She doesn’t get to choose the peaceful life because the peaceful life is chosen for her. This is not a natural ending to a meaningful character arc of self realization. This is the regressive and brutal shafting of a character who’s arc was abused at every turn, and who’s actual development was walked backwards. Not because of her powers but because she is prevented from ever finding peace with her powers by the narrative.
She doesn’t have to fight a war ‘because of her powers’. She has to fight a war because her people are fucking oppressed. Laying the blame on what makes her different instead of the people who have singled her out because she is different indicates a severe lack of understanding in regards to racism, persecution, and oppression.
Her powers didn’t become so corrupt that they failed her in the end. She didn’t see the consequences and choose peace to avoid them because she wasn’t allowed to see anything at all. Her path was decided for her before she could even look down the other.
People focus on Alina and her powers because that is the story. It is a story about realizing something crucial about yourself that has been kept from you and repressed your whole life. It is an incredibly important story to tell. It is a coming of age story about self realization and self actualization and finding agency after a life where you realize you had none.
Blaming Alina being grisha for why she is stripped of her grishaness is fundamentally flawed argument. If the greed for power was what was supposed to be punished, then she would only have lost that which she sought in her greed. And if a balance needed to be reached, then there would be just as many sun summoners as shadow summoners in the world. Because she lost more than that and because of the discordance in thematic symbolism, the message becomes a punishment not for “greed” (which shouldn’t have even been the message in the first place for a plot and setting like this), but for something else. It becomes a punishment for her being grisha and coming to love and accept herself for it. It becomes a punishment of reveling in one’s difference. It becomes a statement about living outside of the boxes society tries to place people in. It becomes a message about oppression and assimilation on the side of oppression and assimilation.
The most important criticism about the ending will always be about the framing of Alina losing her powers. Alina choosing peace and love over power as a message would only have been able to work if Alina had been able to choose it. And to do so she would have had to choose it when she still had her powers. That is the only progression her developmental arc of “choosing peace and love” could have taken if it didn’t want to become regressive and strip her completely of her agency.
#grishaverse#shadow and bone#sab#alina starkov#sab salt#sab critical#ruin and rising#sab negativity#sab meta#myramblings#i need to get this off my chest before i explode#this is a vagueblog yes im sorry i had to put all of this frustration somewhere im sorry#this isn't worded very well but i am at my wits end#hopefully after i make this i can go back to focusing on the positive things that i actually like about sab#i actually dont mind the ending (it isn't as if cheap endings dont exist)#but when people come out and say it was good for alina or that she liked it or that the message was in any way a good one?#when it was actively harmful and entirely regressive?#no#alina's arc is a regressive one#which isn't exactly bad#but when it's framed as GOOD well... then there's some bs going on#fandomcourse#negative#negativity#antisemitism mention tw#genocide mention tw
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ough canada mail strike. my nekos........
#strikes are good generally hopefully they get what they need#but Concern about nekos getting lost in a warehouse somewhere.............
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