#sometimes it breathes smoke

[lonelynpc]

everyone in my old neighbourhood: no, i don't think this neighbourhood is weird. lore accurate godzilla head:

[carp-from-space]

Ais Eldrich cig lighter

[forgotten-daydreamer]

vent moment but my health is a bit worse than i let on, which is weird ik since it seems like complain about it all the time here, and apparently i also look sick, because two separate people in their 40s or 50s asked me, 24, if i needed their seat on the bus. kind of them. but humiliating nonetheless.

[little--leaves]

I don't know that place anymore, where I go when I need to remember your face. I don't remember the edges of your lips any longer, the slope of your nose or the shape of your eyes. But sometimes I walk past a stranger and I find myself on the path to that place again, knocking at its door, knowing no one is going to open the door.

[troublesomecousin]

I just think Kevin should engage in shotgunning with his bros. I think that would be cool and totally definitely heterosexual of them...

[suguwu]

thinking about nanami smoking when he's stressed and how big his hands look against the lighter and the cigarette

[watchyourdigits]

who would've thought that the usb nicotine you can hit basically anywhere was more addictive than a good ole fashioned cigarette

[radmista]

Leave it to a self proclaimed radfem to blatantly platform a bunch of druggies who get their fix from shit grown and moved with slave labor, almost exclusively women. You and every other junkie should be shot, and so should the men who own you by peddling you their product.

Anon, I'm not even in the fucking United States, the shit I get is grown by solo individuals in their houses. Please enlighten me on how I'm specifically then supporting the slave labor of women to get fucking grass. It's also really presumptive of you to assume everyone in the thread and I use male sellers.

Leave it to an anon coward to use "druggies" and "junkies" as an insult to devalue someone. Newsflash, "junkies" are people too, and they don't deserve less humanity because they have addictions. You sound like an incredibly stable individual who totally doesn't sound like some pearl clutcher pissed that people use recreational drugs and believe its some moral failing that people use them.

Fuck all the way off. You could have idk, been productive and civilly opened a discussion on the very real danger and horror of the drug trafficking circles between the US and Mexico and how cartels own certain towns and their inhabitants in Mexico because the government turns a blind eye. But you'd rather get your rocks off screaming at women using weed that you have no idea where they're sourcing from because it's much easier to pin blame on women than the violence perpetuated by greedy men.

[garbagequeer]

buying gift for a friend and the person who's selling it to me told me to check out their profile and if i want something else they'll send it all together for the same shipping price and they got a cool dvd collection in there

[cuterozhok]

I wish everyone who's smoking under my balcony 24/7 a very awful and disgusting evening🙏

[pipzeroes]

Context:

Was thinking about what other "wear mask" memes could be made (still need a few more for the All Your Breath Are Belong To Us vid), and since I'd already done something based on the movie poster for The Mask (1994), I figured I'd look on Wikipedia for other works titled "Mask".

Seeing Mask, the 1985 album* by Vangelis, a.k.a. Evangelos Odysseas Papathanassiou (Ευάγγελος Οδυσσέας Παπαθανασίου), I decided to modify the cover (of the version remastered in 2016 and released in 2017).

*Note that Vangelis' Mask (1985) is not to be confused with Vangelis' mask (Ninjago), which is a face cover worn by King Vangelis of the Kingdom of Shintaro (for like, a moment [while trying to find info about the album cover], I thought the Greek composer and arranger of electronic, progressive, ambient, and classical orchestral music had an alter ego known as the Skull Sorcerer, but apparently not).

Also learned that Vangelis (who was, according to many accounts [according to Wikipedia], an "inordinately approachable", "really nice" and "humorous" man, who enjoyed long friendly gatherings, was fascinated by Ancient Greek philosophy, the science and physics of music and sound, and space exploration) passed away from heart failure, one year ago today, May 17, 2022, and "according to some reports, died of COVID-19 complications".

[bl00dh0rs3]

*Person who's never heard of motifs or establishing themes*: idk i just feel like they keep reusing the same tropes, its kind of predictable :/

[icewindandboringhorror]

Daily Log 9

Trying out (probably just temporarily) making short daily-ish notes about things, in an attempt to see if it helps me be more reflective or productive lol.

Activities: Worked on the previously mentioned tapestry style painting thing for like 5-6 hours today (with a few breaks in between), and that's just for the border around the main picture lol.. I think all the little sections and detail always take longer than I think they might. But hopefully the final product will look interesting! :0

I feel like I'm entering another Sick Phase where I just am weird/ill/sleepy/having joint pains much of the day (probably some vitamin deficiencies or hormone imbalances or general bodily inflammation or whatever nonsense seems to randomly pop up from time to time lol), so couldn't focus on anything more intensive like writing or editing videos, unfortunately. It's good to have smaller crafts I can do that don't take much mental effort and are just menial hand tasks (like carving, painting, sculpting, etc.), but I still always feel frustrated falling behind on the things I see as much more broadly significant to my overall life and potential career (making games, writing, finishing videos, socializing, costumes, etc.)

Organized my desk a little. Responded to some doctor emails. Paid bills.

Planned out something I might make with pressed flowers tomorrow.

Edited like 4 costume photos.

Also have a lingering sense of dread due to the weather. The heat often makes me feel terrible, and if I'm already in kind of a Bad Phase at the moment, I'm afraid of it making it even worse... stimky..

Which I know these temperatures are nothing to some people but.. to me... aUGHHHH... I am abnormally heat sensitive + live in a dinky old apartment with no ventilation that gets direct sun the hottest part of the day.. on a 90F day outside, it literally gets about 84F inside.. like.. even people who love the heat I feel like would struggle to sleep at night if their bed is 85F lol... hewwo.. You can spray yourself down with water, drink ice water, put a fan on yourself, etc. etc. but.. sometimes it just feels so oppressive and inescapable..

ANYWAY. Aside from painting, feeling weird, and dreading the upcoming heat/contemplating my entire life and how to get enough money to move to a different climate somehow one day/existential exhaustion/etc., I didn't accomplish very much lol

Spent maybe 30 minutes thinking about a little more worldbuilding stuff, and some things in reference to the game I mentioned resuming work on at some point.

Notable sights: The clouds were really pretty and pastel this afternoon, and some stars are visible in the sky for once since the nights are beginning to be clearer. The 'forget me not' flowers that I thought had died after transplanting actually seemed to be perked up and healthy looking today, and perhaps may actually survive. >:3

Goals moving forward: Do new poll adventure post. focus on social activities, finding new friends in the places I want to move, communicating with the ones I have. Physical therapy exercises. Finish and upload videos, edit costume pictures & etc. Do the new costumes I've planned. MAKE SCULPTURES at some point, I miss them.

Notable foods: Not much, kind of a warm day so didn't really want to use the oven. No idea how I'll handle the diet I've been put on by my doctors (involves usually cooking all food fresh, using the stove a lot, nothing is supposed to be canned or processed or premade, so that eliminates a lot of 'quick easy simple warm weather' meals, etc. etc.) during the heatwave. I might just have to break the diet a little and hope it doesn't give me stomach pains while I'm already hot and feeling sick lol..

I did have a boiled egg with some green onions on top, which is very simple but was refreshing somehow lol. Another ice cold ginger ale treat today, and some cold prune juice (which I know most people find gross/it's an old person food/etc., but I like that it's a smooth textured and not very sweet juice? Like it's slightly thicker than apple juice, has a lightly bitter taste, etc. I just find it nice for some reason. More evidence I am secretly an 85 year old wizard)

[rosicheeks]

🥰

[toxicnoxie]

uhh yeah. tumblr blaze babyy

[nerefee]

smoking weed to deal with ptsd symptoms is actually a tried and true technique (I tried it and it worked)