#sometimes I see these people and I just think you would probably feel a lot more secure in yourselves if you got out of your heads and

[voidingintotheshout]

Thank you @drdemonprince . It can be really tough to talk to people on anti-depressants because they’ll be like “I spent the day sitting in front of the TV and I spent nine hours watching TV. I feel happy and fulfilled about how I spent my time” and I’m like “why?? How?” For the longest freaking time I thought I was missing some weird life hack on how to appreciate life where you just sit there staring at a rectangle your entire life and you’re just always loving it until I realized that a lot of these people are just on a lot of antidepressants, or have an endless stream of attention span that someone like me with ADHD does not, and they just aren’t really concerned with the passage of time. Like, the more I spend time with other people the more I’m sure that I don’t have it as not-figured-out as I thought. So many people seem to have lives like leftovers in the fridge. They spend their time chilling or hanging out. Doing nothing. Like I didn’t have a very productive day but if you asked me was my day good I would say yes because I heard at least five different birds singing outside of my window and the temperature was lovely and I felt kind of crappy earlier in the day but I feel really good now and I’m still feeling great because I finished writing a short story yesterday. It wasn’t like it was earth-shatteringly productive, but I was happy about that and I was happy that I put away my dishes. Did I blow a load because I put away the dishes? No. But I was happy that it got done. It reminds me of that old realization from when I was younger that the problem with depressed people is sometimes not that they are less happy than other people, but that they don’t actually know what Neurotypical people think of as happy. The people with regular bouts of depression or anxiety, often confuse feeling happy with feeling ecstatic or thrilled. My theory is because people with anxiety or depression can sometimes only get the happy chemicals in extreme situations and so that’s why, they associate people who feel happy in general with something akin to euphoria or mania, instead of just being satisfied with how you have spent your time, which is closer to what happiness actually is. 

Like a good example is that Fred Astaire dance from singing in the rain. They would see this guy dancing around in a rain storm, singing all by himself as an example of being happy but that’s really more of an example of ecstatic or mania than just general happiness, which is probably closer to feeling content. Like a scene where a woman is just drinking a cup of tea reading a book on a comfortable couch, would be identified by Neurotypical people as happy, but I think people with depression, or anxiety would view that scene as more neutral, but the dance from singing in the rain would be viewed as happy. Like, maybe I’m just rambling like a crazy person but I found it to be true that the problem is sometimes wonky brain chemistry or painful memories but sometimes it’s just having a very unrealistic expectation of what the general population is feeling when they describe themselves as happy. 

Are you actually happy you got (basically) divorced? Or do you ever have moments of longing for that stability?

HA! HA HA HA! the stability of WHAT? having some permanently dissociated emotionally unavailable workaholic artist who wouldnt clean a dish or pick up a sock, filled the house with clutter, could not contribute to finances, didnt fuck me, didnt want to touch me, didnt help with the pet, ruined a bunch of my possessions using them as stage props without asking, and also couldnt find the free time to do literally anything with me one-on-one for years sleeping in my bed from 4am until 2pm every day? what stability was that?

[novas-corner]

OH DEAR GODS PEOPLE ACTUALLY LIKED MY WRITING???? I hope y’all know I’m freaking out about this, it will get to my head (my apolocheese)

Anyways, a singular person asked for more… so… more it is!!

Again with all of this I know almost NOTHING about the game, I’ve missed out on a lot of lore since I am simply a card collector… and I’m very biased towards characters 😭‼️

Also this was NOT proofread properly (I’m doing this on no sleep at eight in the morning.)

Anyways, part 1 is here!

Also I’m basing their schedules around THIS post here!! (I think it’s official stuff? Idk)

Thank you for listening to me yap… back to being isekaid!!!! (I still do not know how to spell that)

Oh also there’s angst ish in here? Idk man I’m just writing out my thoughts at this point LOL

OH FUCK AN ISEKAI

Alright well sleeping was… a nightmare. All five of them argued until you eventually gave up and went to the couch. Damn boys, they’re gonna make your life trouble and you know it. But you gotta admit… five guys fawning all over you is kinda nice! The attention? Fantastic. They give you massages? UGH, so nice.

Well… you’ll need one of those mentioned massages tomorrow, you know damn well your back is going to be killing you in the morning.

You’re surprised to see Sylus walk into the living room, sitting next to you.

“You shouldn’t sleep out here sweetie, it’s not good for your body… what if I took you back to the N109 zone with me? You could sleep in a nice comfortable bed there and there would be much more space”

You groan, sitting up

“The only way I will do that is if you bring the other four with us. You need to remember that we are all not technically in our own universes since this ISNT the main storyline of the game. I don’t want them to be stranded here, I’d feel bad about that”

He sighs, but smiles down at you, pulling your head into his lap.

“Always thinking of others before yourself hm sweetie? Be a bit selfish sometimes okay?”

You huff, but relax into his embrace nonetheless.

“Yeah… I’ll try. Why are you up anyways? Couldn’t sleep?”

He’s running his fingers through your hair (or just rubbing your bald head, idk man) and chuckles down at you.

“Oh come on, I thought you knew all about us”

He’s teasing you… cocky mf-

“The N109 zone doesn’t have a day or night technically, so my schedule is a bit off from everyone else”

Oooooooh… riiiight… you had forgotten about that, honestly there’s probably so much you’ve forgotten. You never did read through the events or stories, just let them play in the background to get more pulls for banners… maybe you should get back into the story after all this blows over… or then again… maybe you won’t have to due to being with them all the time now.

“Right… I forgot about that… well I’m… tired. So I’m going to sleep- lemme move-“

You’re trying to shuffle off his lap to not disturb him, but he just rests a hand on the small of your back and tells you to ‘not worry’ and that he can ‘handle you sleeping for a bit’

…that’s sweet…

You’re relaxing into him almost immediately and drifting off, letting your slumber take over you.

What you don’t know however, is that once sylus is sure you’re asleep, he’s analyzing you, trying to see if this was all some ploy to not be caught for cheating… but it’s really a different person. What was once a person he knew was now just someone who knew him. It was a strange feeling, they had the face of the one he loved, they almost sounded like them too— they just spoke differently. It felt so right and yet so wrong to have you there… maybe he should have Zayne give you a physical checkup tomorrow, make sure you’re healthy and all.

Sylus tries to not care for you, after all… you’re not HIS, not the person he knew. But you acted the same in so many ways… hopefully this can all be fixed. For now though, he sits running his fingers through your hair as he reads a book.

~Timeskip~

It’s morning now and you groggily wake up to the smell of bacon. You’re sitting up, rubbing your sleep ridden eyes as a cheerful voice calls out from the kitchen.

“Oh! Sorry pips, did I wake you up?”

You’re standing now, walking over to Caleb with a yawn.

“Nono… I just woke up… whatcha making?”

He’s all smiles, you’re honestly not sure how he has so much energy at six in the morning but whatever.

“Just some bacon and eggs! Want some?”

He says with a grin, pointing to the plate of bacon and eggs. You pause, eyeing the plate.

“Were the eggs made first? I’m allergic and can’t really risk cross contamination… don’t wanna die today, y’know?” (I’m reminding y’all that this is ME written as if it’s YOU. We ain’t having eggs together homies 🫵🥲)

“Oh?? Uh… I think so? Maybe you shouldn’t eat them to be safe… I’ll make you something else!”

He’s saying while already looking for something else to make… at least they know where everything in this apartment is located, I’ve got no clue.

You’re trying to find bread and hear him mumbling something about how his version of you isn’t allergic to anything… guess that’s a difference.

He sees you rifling through literally every drawer and pats you on the head.

“You know you can ask for things… right?”

“Well- maybe I just wanted to see if I could do it myself, this is technically my apartment after all… but uh… where’s the bread?”

He’s laughing at you, pointing to the bread literally in the counter, you blind blind mf. Your shoulders almost slump in defeat as you pop some toast into the toaster and open the fridge. Huh… fully stocked… that’s nice, where’s the butter though…

As if reading your mind, Caleb walks behind you and grabs the butter for you.

“Here, it’s buried in there, you wouldn’t have found it alone”

You’re just kinda looking up at him, he’d got you cages in between him and the door- HE DID THE HOT THING WHERE THEY GRAB SOMETHING FOR YOU GANG. Ugh you forget that this is a game about flirting and they’re gonna be doing that.

“Oh… right, thank you”

You’re quickly scurrying away from him— and as everyone does, you get spooked by the damn toaster. That mf laughs at you AGAIN. Jerk…

Anyways you’re buttering your toast and watching as he plates his food, having made extra for the others… that’s sweet of him.

“I usually ask my version of you to work out in the mornings… so… would you want to join me for a morning workout after breakfast?”

You look up from your toast, a mouthful and crumbs on your face, he just smiles at you as you swallow your food and wipe your face.

“Mm- sure? Im not the strongest though so expect me to not keep up.”

Which gets you thinking… how in the hell are you going to do the job of the MC??? There’s no way you could deal with wanderers… would you being here jeopardize the job the MC has? Oh gods I mean you can technically rely on the guys for money but what if they get sick of you not being their MC. Not only that, is time passing back home? Will people realize you’re gone? Are you going to end up like an unsolved crime case?

“Hey… are you okay?”

His voice snaps you out of the despair trace you were in, you look up at him with wide eyes and see him looking at you concerned.

“Oh… yeah sorry I was just thinking… I’ll join you for the workout, it’ll probably take my mind off things.”

You’re trying to keep smiling, you’ve been obsessed with these men for months and they’re literally all here, you should just enjoy this in case it’s a dream, y’know?

He’d still visibly concerned but decides to drop it, finishing his food and grabbing yours and his empty plates, putting them in the sink to wash later.

“Well let’s go workout then shall we? You can sit on my back while I do pushups? Alright pips?”

OH BOY!!! You’re standing with a smile, nodding along and following him along to the door, pausing and looking down at your clothes.

“Ooooh wait I need to change my clothes first”

You begin to wander back to what you found out is your room, walking in to see Zayne buttoning up his shirt, and Rafayel and Xavier cuddled up in bed… well more like Xavier cuddling up to Rafayel but whatever they look kinda cute, y’know?

You smile at Zayne, he just nods to you, finishing putting his shirt on.

“There’s breakfast there, Caleb made eggs and Bacon, plus bread for toast”

You’re saying as you walk over to the closet, rifling through the clothes there. You know that MC has got to have something for a workout other than this damn hunters uniform… surely right?

Oh thank the gods they do. (I actually could not find one but I’m gonna guess MC has a workout outfit)

“Are you working out? Have you eaten breakfast yet?”

You turn to see Zayne, who is now hovering behind you.

“Oh! Yeah Caleb invited me to workout with him, I guess him and the me you know worked out in the mornings”

He just nods.

“Alright, enjoy that then, I’ll be back later, I’m going to try and stay with you overnight and whatnot to see if I can help figure out what’s going on, the rest of the men have also agreed they want to be around as well.”

You just nod, biting at your lip slightly. It’s sweet that they care about you enough, but you’re sure they’re only caring because they want their old lives back. You can’t really blame them though since you just want your life back too. Again, it’s nice to be here with men you’ve simped over… but you have friends, parents… ugh be positive damnit, we can’t be depressed all the time.

“Right okay…“

You’re trailing off, not really knowing how to proceed.

“The white haired man— Sylus I believe? He mentioned that I should give you a checkup at some point today. Would you rather visit the hospital during my lunch break or wait I til I get back?”

You raise an eyebrow at his words. Oh boy these mfs are in for a TREAT, they’ll never expect the amount of things wrong with me. Huh that begs the question, will my body function differently than theirs? I mean obviously I don’t have the protocore heart and whatever else… but is it different since they’re game characters?

OH MF YOU DIDNT ANSWER-

“Probably just when you get back, I’m not really sure how to get to the hospital after all.”

He just nods, patting you on the head and walking out.

“Sounds good, I’ll expect you to be ready when I get home then. Have a good day.”

HE’S SO STOIC???? I don’t know how to feel bout that but whATEVER YOURE SUPPOSED TO BE WORKING OUT.

You gather your clothes and move over to the bathroom, as you’re getting dressed you can hear Rafayel waking up and causing a ruckus over being cuddled by Xavier. God damn he’s loud…

You’re changed now and walk back to the living room, where Caleb is sat on the couch waiting for you.

“Ah! Finally pips! Felt like I was gonna have to search for you in case you had gotten lost!”

He’s honestly adjusted really well to the fact that I’m not the me he knows. I wonder if it’s a facade, I know damn well he cares a great deal for his version of me. STOP THINKING SO NEGATIVELY. DAMN.

Anyways you’re smiling slightly at his words, listening to him yap about what he’s planning to do for his workout, it’s just going in one ear and right out the other if I’m being real.

You leave the apartment and go to the gym that I guess the apartment has? (I’m making things up as I go at this point, things will just appear as I need them too)

He’s doing weights and stuff, you’re struggling to get through his tough workout (I’m crippled sorry gang, if I gotta struggle so do you 💔)

He notices this of course and slows his pace down, eventually stopping and patting you on the shoulder.

“Hey… you don’t need to do this y’know?”

You just sigh and look up at him defeated.

“Does your version of me do this every day? That bitch is ATHLETIC.”

He laughs at you and offers to just help him with his workout I stead, which you joyfully agree to, watching Caleb workout? YES PLEASE.

So now here you are, sat on his back and counting his pushups for him. Huh, suddenly the angst from earlier is gone as you watch his ARMS??? UGHHHH 🤩

He eventually finished that up though (UNFORTUNATELY) and just looks up at you… still on his back, making it just a lil bit hard to get up.

“Pips… you gotta move y’know?- I will just roll you over, you should know this.”

Oh we gotta know what that means.

“Hm? The ground is talking, how strange…”

You’re looking up at the ceiling with an almost expectant grin on your face, which he does not fail to realize. Well you asked for it.

Suddenly he has managed to roll you off him and have you underneath him. Don’t ask the logistics of it, just go with it.

You’re looking up at him with wide eyes, Christ it was fast— how in the hell did he do that???

He just chuckles and gets off of you, offering a hand out for you to take, which you do and he pulls you up. "l have to say, you don't act all that different, it's easy to forget you're not the same person I've known." OUCH????? OK ANGST IS BACK IG??? He's walking you back up to your apartment, the hand he used to help you up now wrapped around your shoulder "Oh?.. is that... a bad thing?" "I suppose it isn't! It makes you fun to be around!" "Ah okay..." You trail off, you know what you want to ask but... "What happens if you can't get... the other me back?" The words tumble out of your mouth before you can think to stop them, he almost freezes in his tracks but keeps walking, smile faltering slightly. "I'm... not sure..." "Would you stick around knowing I'm not the person you knew? Or are you just here to get them back?"

He doesn't know how to answer you, because of course he wants his version of you back... but would he just.. leave? He doesn't even know himself. "For now lets not worry about that, okay pips? I'm here now and that's all that really matters, we'll figure everything out eventually" You just nod, looking down and mumbling a small apology... well that's... sad. So anyways you finally make it back to the apartment, and head to your room to grab a basic outfit.

Xavier is STILL asleep- does this mf have narcolepsy??? Whatever, you grab your outfit and turn to go to the bathroom, you need a shower to think again, plus you smell like sweat.

The door to the bathroom is closed when you get there, you knock only to hear Rafayel telling you to come in. You walk in and OH MY STARS-

“OH- sorry didn’t realize you would be IN the bath- I can come back later I’m so sorry-“

He cuts you off with a wave of his hand.

“No no it’s okay, did you need something?”

He’s asking with a slight tilt to his head. Dear gods man he is sculpted like a god, probably because he literally is one- STOP STARING.

You manage to snap yourself out of it, face absolutely red and looking down at the clothes in your hands.

“Sorry I was just trying to shower and get dressed- I can do so later-“

He’s sitting up in the bathtub, motioning for you to come closer.

“You can come bathe with me if you’d like? I don’t mind sharing.”

SIR?????? You are red as a lobster and I fear he is reveling in this fact— HOW IS HE SO CALM ABOUT THIS????

“No- that’s fine I’ll just… see myself out… thanks for the offer though”

You manage to mumble out, looking anywhere but at him and finally turning yer butt around to walk out. You hear him chuckle behind you and call out to you as you shut the door, playful as ever.

“Your loss Mx bodyguard!!”

TEASING MF. Ok anyways we need to find somewhere else to change it seems. So you opt to just shut yourself in the little closet and get changed. Xavier is still asleep in bed, which is kinda cute, he’s out like a ROCK. Honestly and earthquake could pass through and not much would happen I fear.

You wander around the place, Caleb, Zayne and Sylus are all out somewhere, Rafayel is in the bath and Xavier is asleep. There’s… not much to do.

You’re tired though and you slept on the couch, so you find yourself walking over to your room and climbing into bed opposite to Xavier.

You pass right out.

—————————————

Gang I’ll be honest, you could FEEL it falling apart at the end😭‼️

In my defense, it’s almost eight in the morning and I have not slept.

I wrote myself into a bit of a corner too since there’s like… nothing going on ‼️‼️‼️

I also do not know how to write seggsy time so I had to QUICKLY 180 from that.

Anyways I have ideas for another part, if people don’t burn me at the stake for being a crap writer I might add another part to this disaster LMAO

Okok yap session is over, thank you for reading this !! 🤩

Tag list ?!?! (Ask to be added 🤩)

@lunia-likes-pomegranet

[wyervan]

HI HI HI

How're you, how's life? I hope you are doing well! <3

A little suggestiveeee-ish of an ask. I'm daydreaming about smoon, how do you think they would kisssssss. Like on the lips(I feel like a kid writing it like that but idk how else to). Or if that's like a lil too far, what would be there favorite ways to show affection to their partners

I've literally scrapped this ask like multiple times because I'm so embarrassed to ask about it.

Anywho, AAAAAA, im gonna curl into a lil cacoon this took mental prep to send. Have a good day! Or night. Or whenever you see this. <33333

Hel~looooo *twidling my fingers at you* You’re cute~ No need to be shy. I certainly don’t have issue with these sort of questions. Definitely wouldn’t consider at least this ask to be too far, or honestly any of the others I’ve gotten on the subject so far.

Tho I should say (with both this ask and similar ones), it can be hard to give anything but a vague, probably dissatisfying answer without knowing more details about the situation the asker is presenting. How Smoon would react or behave in a scenario strongly depends on setting, the other personalities involved, if both of them are there or it's just one of them, etc etc.

And it keeps me from publicly answering sometimes because I can’t answer all asks, but I like for the ones I do to be thought-out full responses. But anyhoo, a little more on the subject below.

Starting with the second part of the ask—how do they like to show affection? Assuming this is a well-established relationship, both Sun and Moon are very physically affectionate, especially Moon, who is already a strongly physical communicator. Lotta little casual touches and holds, leaning against you. Moon also just wants to share the things he enjoys with the people he loves. Show you his favorite games, movies, or spots around town to eat or people-watch.

Sun’s more verbal with his affections. Expect lots of praise, pet names, and general gush (but it is very genuine). He’s also likely to want to pamper his partner quite a bit, feel like he’s taking care of you. buying little things for you, attempting to cook

But like I was saying above, how they show affection depends heavily on the other party involved. Like between Sun and Moon, for example, Moon HATES be doted on and Sun knows it.

Okay, so “how” do they kiss? They're definitely equipped and inclined for smoochin', with the right person ofc. But there's a lotta context to consider when answering such *important* questions. Is this in private or public, who's kissing who, what are the events that have led up to such a moment. Are you asking me if they use tongue? Teeth? 😝 definitely the later if Moon’s involved. Eheheh I might be teasin’ you a lil bit anon dearest, forgive me🖤🖤🖤. But as always, I invite you to interpret their characters as I've conveyed them~ How do you think slasher Smoon would kiss?

[echantedtoon]

A thought, since in the novels Haganezuka master keeps trying to play matchmaker and hook him up, what if one day, the match set for him is actually a good match? Like a woman who not only respects him but also highly values his skills as a swordsmith? What would he do, mayhaps some headcanons?

Ive been waiting for something like this!!! @iron-embers

-Right off the bat Haganezuka is NOT an easy man to get along with for a lot of reasons. His pride, temper, attitude, tendency for violence, and a few other things. The only ones whom really seem to get along with him or he likes back is Tanjiro, the master whom raised him, and Kanamori. So he HATES it whenever his father figure tries to play matchmaker for him.

-Sometimes he's rude to the woman that's sent to him on purpose because he's just so annoyed with this. Other times they leave on their own because of his attitude or occasionally he'll chase them out if he feels they offend his work. Sometimes he regrets it when in hindsight some might've just not understand him or misunderstood but he feels it's better that they left in the long run. However this ALWAYS peeves off the Master who scolds him every time.

-Believe it or not it's probably Kanamori who saves both their sanities by giving Master some relationship advice being one of the only swordsmiths cannonically married. "Instead of constantly sending ladies to Mr. Haganezuka, why don't you take time out to really think about who'd be a good match for him?" Thank Buddha someone has a good head on his shoulders there.

-Well he does, and around a few months time he showed up again on his doorstep with another young lady. "YOOHOO!! HATORU, CONE HERE!! I HAVE A LADY HERE TO MEET YOU AND SHE'S SO LOVELY MIGHT I ADD!" Cue the loud groan he gives off because master is playing matchmaker again. "NO!! I have no time for useless courting rituals!" "You come out here and see her this instant!!" "NO! My blades need sharpening!!" "Well if you won't come out then I'm sending her in!" Cue another long groan as he just faceplants his workbench. "Not again.."

-He's waiting for another typical reaction. Girl flirts with him irritatingly. Insults him. Etc. But he's surprised when he hears the sounds of..Wind chimes? He's surprised when a very pretty lady shows up master behind her and one of those pretty glass windchimes like the ones he keeps on his hat in her hands. "Look, Hatoru! Isn't she so pretty!?" His master is frantically waving his hands at her. "Ooh! And what's this? She brought you a gift!!"

-He's surprised by the gift as it's something he genuinely likes but he assumes his master gave it to her to give to him. Wouldn't be the first time. He's suspicious as he takes the gift from her. "...Thank you for the gift, but you shouldn't have brought anything. We don't know each other." "I understand, but after I heard you enjoy wind chimes I thought you'd might like one of my family's." "Eh?"

-Turns out she had also come from a family of craftsmen. Jewelers. Tailors. Carpenters. And yes even a few glassblowers whom happened to make some of his favorite wind chimes. A whole bunch of people creating different things. And just so happens his master found out they had a single lady with no suitors. "Now you kids behave.~" he's literally elbowing Hatoru and winking at him from under his mask. "I'll just leave you alone to get to know one another.~"

-He's speechless sitting there with nothing to say, but she breaks the silence first. "That blade you're working on. Is it steel?" "NO! Are you blind?! It's clearly Nichirin!" She lightly frowns. "Now that's no reason to yell at me. I only inquired about it's materials. It looks relatively finished. How long has it taken you to make it?" He's surprised by the brush off but just frowns at her. "Five weeks! Now I'm very busy. Just save us both the trouble and leave!" "You are being very rude to a guest." "My master invited you not myself. My work wouldn't interest you anyways." "I wouldn't say that. Considering you're folding the metal to make it stronger."

-This man is staring as she not only explains his own process back to him, but suggests a few tweaks to make it sharper. Turns out she's related to a few metal workers too. He's surprised by her knowledge, but that opens up the topic of how he makes other blades or his interest in how some of other swordsmen make strange custom swords (such as Mitsuri's ribbon sword or Gyomei's mace/chain/axe combo). Or her family's products he uses such as tools, crafting tables, and of course his beloved wind chimes.

-He doesn't even realize he's actually enjoying the talks they're having until his Master shows up as she mentions it's time for her to go. "Well what do you think?" Haganezuka is just glaring at him after she leaves. "She's stubborn and not my type!" "But she didn't run away or look angry.~ I think this is progress.~" "STOP TRYING TO PLAY MATCHMAKER FOR ME, OLD MAN!!"

-Well he doesn't- "Hatoru, I brought her to see you again!!" Every week at least once his master brings her to visit him and each time he's annoyed but ends up just talking about his swords or other projects. Listener x yapper dynamic with him, he doesn't have a lot of people who he can just talk to about his projects. Unfortunately he doesn't realize he's starting to LIKE-like her at this stage. He's too busy showing her things. It's actually kinda cute.

-"This is the remnants of the sixth sword I made Tanjiro. Im reusing the metals by melting it down and adding more to strengthen it. And here! Im working on a new blade you can fit in your wallet! It's strong enough to still behead a demon!" "Why so small though?" "In case they need to go undercover of course! Look, look, look!! I'll show you how it works!"

-He still acts like her presence annoys him though. Until she starts to show up on her own without the master, he's shocked but assumes he still put her up to it. Never the less he's dragging her to the workshop to show her something new he made. "Hatoru, I didn't know you could make such beautiful combs."(I can't remember where but I read Haganezuka can make other things out of metal but prefers blades) It's a metal hair comb with a metal flower on it. Very realistic looking and beautiful. "If course I can! To know how to truly make a sword one must know how to utilize metal in all it's possibilities." "Well it's so beautiful. Would you like to come see how my family makes glass chimes?" "YES!!"

-He LOVES coming to watch others craft as well, and it's a good way to get him out of the house and around other people. He still hasn't come to terms with his feelings until he's working late one night and it sorta dawned on him in the middle of hitting a red hot sword with an iron hammer. "....Oh..Oh no!"

-He's suddenly VERY self conscious about the idea of courting her. He hadn't considered anything was courting up to now, and he knows he's not the best man. So he goes to the one person who he knows can help him with courting a woman- Kanamori ends up screaming finding Haganezuka climbing in through his back window. "MR. HAGANEZUKA!! WHAT-!?" "I DON'T KNOW HOW TO COURT WOMEN!!" Poor Kanamori nearly had a heart attack from Haganezuka asking for dating advice.

-Next time she comes to visit it's a HUGE spectacle. She arrives to find Hatoru shrieking at the top of his lungs cursing enough to make a sailor blush and chasing a screaming young man with knives in his hands. Right behind him is Kanamori who's trying to grab Haganezuka before he shishkabobs the teenager as the master just sighs.

-"Master, what's going on?" "That stupid child stole the courting gift Hatoru made you, a pretty ruby studded hair pin, and now he's at it again." "Should we stop them?" "He'll either run out of breath or the thief will. We'll step in then."

[cultkinkcoven]

Weird strange. random and confusing shit I’ve noticed Lucifer does (NSFW)

1. Tends to be left handed, I only noticed this last night. He usually writes with his left hand.

2. Watches me swallow stuff- this is probably related to the mouth fixation thing. He likes to watch me swallow- drinks, food and whatnot but also just in general, spit. When he offers me a drink he watches me until he sees me swallow it, or he’ll explicitly order me to swallow it even though yeah that’s obviously what I’m going to do.

3. I’ve mentioned this before but he has a size fixation. He comments on my smallness often, (which is interesting because I’m not particularly short or anything, I’m 5”7) the size of my hands, my feet, my head, my nose. He finds the smallness of the human body to be endearing.

4. He’s a big sniffer, he’s extremely into bodily odours but also just scent in general it seems like. He smells the food offerings I give him more than he eats them.

5. He’s actually really mean- not to me, ever, but towards strangers. I’ve noticed that he sometimes makes comments about other people when I’m out and about that are SO mean. It’s usually not entirely unprompted, but sometimes I’ll be in the mall or something and a guy will bump into me, and I’m like oops sorry. And I hear Lucifer be like “this fucking idiot doesn’t seem to know how to walk straight.” We see a guy and his crying child making a scene in the store and he’s like “what a pathetic excuse for a father” LIKE DAMN OKAY

6. He’s extremely territorial about my body being touched by strangers. Lucifer has never been protective over me in regards to like my boyfriend, he loves when my boyfriend touches me. But if we’re in public and someone brushes up against me, his energy manifests pretty immediately. He doesn’t always say anything, it’s more so just him becoming extremely aware and watching to figure out who touched me and why. This ties into the last one, because if it’s a stranger he may have something unkind to say about it. “I don’t like his filthy hands on you,” lol okay love it was literally just a touch in passing it’s okay.

7. Makes comments about my hormones??? This is a really fucking weird one. So yesterday he was doing that thing where he sniffs all up on me, and he made a face and said something like “oh, you’re ovulating, have you been feeling hornier these last couple days?” and I was like pardon my fuck??? For context I am a trans man on testosterone, I haven’t gotten a period in literally like a decade, I didn’t think I even could ovulate anymore. But he was like “yeah, lseems like you’re ovulating right now,” and he said it in a way that was so obviously charged. Wtf bro. I’m only now realizing as I’m typing this that his scent thing is probably a hormone thing. He’s probably smelling my hormones. Alrighty then.

8. His sense of humour seems really random at times. This is perplexing because sometimes he’ll laugh over something that doesn’t really seem funny at all, like what’s the punchline?? He says often that he thinks that I am very funny. His laugh is very cute.

9. He actually does care quite a lot about his spaces. Like astral spaces, places I go to during trances. For example, his throne room office. I always assumed these things were more metaphorical, just the way my mind rationalizes his energy and the place. I didn’t think he would care if I spilled wine on the carpet for example, because in my mind this place wasn’t actually real. It’s just a projection. But a couple times we have been smoking together on the couch and I’ve accidentally ashed on it, and he’ll like furrow his brow and try to brush the ash away without smearing it on the couch. He’ll ask me to use a coaster when having a drink with him as not to stain the table. The one time I actually did spill wine on the floor he wasn’t mad, he tried not to make a deal about it, but I could tell it did bother him, and he spent a minute trying to soak it up.

10. He’s a tickle monster. And FUCK him for that. It usually serves a practical function, if I’ve been very deep in a trace or altered state of mind, his tickling immediately brings me back to lucidity. It’s a shock to the nervous system. Doesn’t make it any less evil though.

11. He’ll re-explain things seemingly at random. Like we’ll just be hanging out and then he’ll be like “that time I told you that thing, I didn’t explain that correctly, I actually meant this.” and i’m like oh ok. And..? and he’s like “that’s all. I just thought I should correct myself.” It’s usually something like “I told you once that Jupiter doesn’t have rings, that’s technically incorrect.” and I’m like ok. I wasn’t even thinking about Jupiter or that conversation but alright good to know.

[moonyskarma]

dating history in my . . . SINGER REALITY

─ the real list is short, despite what critics may say. the speculated list, however? well, that's another thing. love stories built from lies and paparazzi propaganda. shall we start with what's real?

⋮ ⌗ . . . jamie campbell bower

jamie and I met through mutual friends when I was seventeen. I fell in love with him almost immediately—but thought we would never happen, since he was... well, older. he was twenty-nine when we first met.

in november 2019, 7 months after my 18th birthday, jamie and i publicized our relationship that had begun in august. he was everything i wanted in a boyfriend—charming beyond belief, ever so respectful, the sweetest man i knew. my london boy.

many critics didn't agree with our relationship, especially due to the age gap (twelve years). hateful articles claimed jamie was pedophilic, that he was taking advantage of me.

let it be known that none of that was true.

towards the end of our relationship, jamie and i began to want different things. he was in his early thirties at this time, and was thinking about settling down. i was nineteen, and didn't want that at all.

thus began the beginning of the end. a publicized breakup in august of 2021, an on-and-off situationship that didn't truly end until august of 2022.

arguably the worst time of my life was the breakup.

written about him . . .

╰┈➤ butterflies (august 8, 2020) — my debut album

╰┈➤ casual? (september 10, 2022) — my first EP

╰┈➤ the exit (january 11, 2023) — my first single

╰┈➤ mirrorball (december 1, 2023) — my second EP

╰┈➤ all too well (june 3, 2024) — my second single

╰┈➤ ghosts (august 18, 2024) — my second album

╰┈➤ naked (january 23, 2025) — my third single

as you can probably tell, getting over him and the relationship was a very long (and difficult) process.

p.s. he never did settle down, after all. not without me.

⋮ ⌗ . . . yungblud, aka dominic harrison

dom came to one of my shows in 2020. it was my first tour, while he'd been touring before, and he gave me tons of advice. we really hit it off, and became extremely close. he's one of my closest friends.

again, we're seen together a lot. both of us are rather physical people, i suppose, so sometimes it kind of looks like we're all over each other. (i fear we are)

i'll admit, we have hooked up a few times. nothing serious, no real feelings involved, just... best friends. (with benefits). was he my rebound after jamie? maybe. did he just... happen to be there when i needed someone? also maybe.

⋮ ⌗ . . . charles leclerc

charles and i met years before we became friends, when i was about twelve and he was fourteen. i'd always been interested in motorsport, and began following his career when he was still in karting. the first time we met was in his last year of karting, when my father arranged a little meet and greet because he knew i had a little crush on charles.

our meeting wasn't anything special. a picture together. he complimented my ferrari t-shirt, and I told him he was going to become my favorite formula one driver one day. he laughed, said "we'll see about that", and that was that.

we met again in 2021 at the silverstone grand prix, a few months before jamie and i publicized our breakup. nothing happened, of course. he was in a relationship at the time, as was i. we became friends, though, occasionally hanging out when he had time between races.

it wasn't until about 2024 that we became much closer. he had broken up with his girlfriend in 2023, and i was still grieving the loss of my relationship with jamie. we began dating casually — i'd come to some of his races when i could, he came to a few of my shows, we'd meet for lunch or dinner.

casual dating turned into serious dating. love letters he'd read before races, whispers that i was his lucky charm, flying back and forth to see him. we publicized our relationship in april of 2025, but it had been going on since about february when we spent valentines day together.

he's my everything. my world. the air i breathe. my soulmate, of course.

written about him . . .

╰┈➤ fever dream (november 9, 2025) — my third album

╰┈➤ better people to leave on read (september 2, 2026) — my fourth single

there will definitely be more written about him as our relationship progresses !!

⋮ ⌗ . . . billie eilish

billie and i have known each other since we were really young, and we've been best friends ever since. she's definitely my platonic soulmate, but that's it.

billie was my first kiss when we were teenagers — her 13, me 15 — but we never had feelings for each other.

since me and her are so close and are seen together all the time, the media loves to assume we're dating.

like, no. platonic friendships exist.

⋮ ⌗ . . . timothée chalamet

timmy and i met years ago, when we were teenagers. we've been friends ever since. he's practically part of my family, like one of my brothers.

honestly, it's kind of gross how the media takes things out of context. a photo from my instagram of timothée and i in a hotel room, cropped to exclude my brother, is pretty much the only "evidence" of our so-called love affair

⋮ ⌗ . . . thomas depp

this one's just diabolical. THAT IS MY TWIN BROTHER. saw articles about our "romance" and lost my actual mind because what the fuck...

the only reason this speculation began is because some random news platform took a photo of me kissing tom on the cheek and ran with it. HUHHH.

disgusting. like um. what the fuck. and when they were called out THEY DOUBLED DOWN IT AND TRIED TO MAKE OUT LIKE TOM AND I WERE ACTUALLY DATING AND IT WAS TWINCEST. sued them so hard for this shit because no actual way...

no you did not see yungblud switch categories what are you talking about xx

[thistle--bug]

Watching KinnPorsche for the first time

I finally ended the semester so I am buckling in and watching KinnPorche for the first time (and rambling about it here). I have heard very mixed feedback on it and thought I'd finally watch it to have my own opinion. I honestly have no idea whether I'll like it or hate it but let's go!

Episode 1:

Not that I know much about it, but right off the bat the cinematography is really good. I love all the colorful lighting and wide shots.

Italian mafia is involved I guess?

That intro where we cut back and forth between Kinn and Porsche is *chef's kiss*

Porsche is well established as a character from the start and as cliche as it is, I love when a character's motivation is their sibling :,)

They are very dear to me!

The fight scenes feel well choreographed and exciting to me

Sidenote; Kinn dons truly impressive eyebrows. I keep getting distracted because I'm staring at them in awe

Kinn feels so genuinely threatening in the bar scene where he kidnaps Porsche

I wonder if the show will ever go into classism...probably not but there's a lot of material to work with

Man fuck the uncle. Your nephew works his ass off to pay off a debt and pay for his brothers education and you spend it all? Bitch

Okay initial thoughts: This is really immersive. Kinn so far is kind of just hot-tempered and arrogant, so I'm interested to learn more about him. The tension was really convincing and I wanted to mention the music too! The intro slaps of course, but the background music is chosen very well and adds to the immersion

Episode 2:

Okay what the hell. The first episode had some elements of humor but was very much not a comedy and felt more serious and tense. This is straight up a comedy now and I'm not really about it

Like Porsche did not want to do this job at all because his morals don't align with it, and I would have liked to see him grapple with that more. We saw how panicked he was after he escaped Kinn in the first episode and how he immediately told Porchay to pack his bags and how much he cares about him....and in this episode he doesn't even mention Porchay? He must be worried sick about his brother and it's killing him not to be able to communicate with him. Can we SEE THAT maybe?? And he was so antsy around guns in the first episode that you think he'd struggle with it instead of being like "wow this is just like james bond :D" idk. Maybe I'm nitpicking but his character feels so reduced in this episode.

Oh hi Pete from tumblr gifs :) Glad Porsche at least has a friend who can help him out

Again, did not match the tone AT ALL but I do like Tankhun

Like this was funny but it's just such an INSANE tone shift from episode one. Like it just felt like a gag reel

The minor family is very interested in Porsche for some reason idk, HOWEVER I do recognize Vegas also from tumblr gifs >:)

Anyways. Weird ass episode. I wouldn't mind this if episode one was also like a weird gag reel but it wasn't. I wish they would actually go into the stuff they had set up.

Episode 3:

You know what, good for Tankhun, he needed to go out lol. Curious about the kidnapping when he was younger? Will it be elaborated on?

Oh a fashion icon

Last episode Pete said something about Kinn being kind before something happened, and now Kinn is beating up a guy for embezzling and selling his secret. Curious once again about this guys backstory

Ok we're back to taking Porsche seriously let's go! We're actually addressing his conflicted feelings and how he's essentially doing the same job as the people who hurt him and his family when they couldn't pay their debt on time. And delving into Kinn being more bothered about his job than we thought

GIVE IT UP FOR WOUND TENDING

JEFF SATUR😭��🥰💓😍💗😚💕

Ok way better than episode 2. We are back on track

Episode 4:

Poor Macau lmao??? Tankhun was like thank you Porsche for hitting him he deserved that and you are now my hero and now Vegas is like yeah sometimes I wanna beat his ass too. This poor kid

"You're afraid that when you open your heart, you will be hurt again?" Damn Vegas. The vibe between these two is rancid. What is their DEAL with each other...

"How did you not know Kinn was gay?" you're kind of right Pete

Kim having a giant portrait of himself framed in his house...iconic. And his crimeboard???

Porsche I'm so sorry :( Will they take him being raped seriously? Probably not

Hm.

I bet Kim is "suddenly" going to offer Porchay guitar lessons after all because he suspects him for...something idk. Whatever the crimeboard is about

[lore-grandma]

I’m bored so I’m going to just like make some headcannons as to what it’s like to live in the mansion.

I genuinely like to believe the mansion is an entity, and like if any renovations need to be made the house just kinda creates it. Thats likely how they got electricity, I think something that would be kinda funny was if the house doesn’t quite understand how something works. Like a new room gets added but it lacks roof or something and some poor rookie has to figure how to build a roof because “it’s your room man if you want it to be specific way then you either have to teach the house or yourself.” The house has totally just decided it’s going to break appliances and like it’s plumbing. Like yeah sure slendy could scold it, but you’re essentially scolding a bratty child.

I think overall slender feels neutral about all of his proxies and whatever we could possibly call the other creepypastas that aren’t exactly stated to be his workers. I think he sees them as just kinda part of life. He truly is a boss, doesn’t care about your person enough to give you more than 3 sick days but cares enough you to make sure you have those 3 days, or I guess heal you with his Eldridge magic. Honestly he just sees them as a resource that’ll need to be replaced eventually. I do think that is why he kidnaps kids sometimes is so that way he just has potential followers. Like the current cast of people he has is probably the longest surviving group he’s had.

I’m now just realizing that the only reason why slender even needs followers or to murder people is for food. Idk why I expected some deep emotional backstory behind it.

Sally honestly just kinda appeared in the mansion, slender didn’t even do anything. One day she appeared and everyone just accepted it.

I made a post about how all medias and electronics are cursed in the mansion, which is how you get BEN and sonic.exe. But I can’t tell if it’s just all coincidence or if slender is just kinda like “oh so they want a computer huh? Well I’ll give them a computer. *pulls out the drowned computer that holds Ben* here you go assholes.” The paintings might be cursed too. Maybe the mansion is a child that died in the house and now holds the power of construction.

I think smile dog is also a situation where the creeps begged to get a pet, and slender just kinda appeared with smile. Anyways everyone had nightmares for a good 2 months before smile just kinda realized that these people are fucking insane and won’t kill them selves no matter what mental damage he tries to inflict. And let me tell you it’s a lot. It started with his og speal, then he went for the insecurities, then family life, then he started just giving them weird fucking dreams. And then as a Hail Mary he tried to make their dreams if they were living a happy normal life. It didn’t work. He did get a lot of pets.

There’s a graveyard somewhere, slender hasn’t had any dead proxies lately so no one is sure if it’s just people associated with the mansion, just a random graveyard, or where slender bary his favorites. Though it seems too large for people who are rather rare.

Slender doesn’t quite understand human basic needs. Like if the proxies want air conditioning they’d either have to take it up with the house, or like sleep outside. Oh you’re dying because it’s so hot and you’re cooking alive? Well I feel just fine. Anyways I do think like when it comes to food, the creeps are pretty independent. Honestly probably like what I’d imagine a frat house to be like. Or like living with 10 roommates in a 2 bedroom apartment.

The whole house is probably grimy and kinda barely held together. Remember the house doesn’t understand how buildings work, like it’s not going to quite understand how to preserve it self, what it does know is how to move a room around. Also you think slender sleeps let alone in there? Please the mansion is more like shed full of tools. I do think if slender does sleep, it’s probably the cleanest room in the house. Because slender isn’t picking up your shit, the murders aren’t picking up their shit, and the house hasn’t figured out how to be a house.

In conclusion slender is a dad with a permissive parenting style to the point of neglect, the house is held together by a mysterious force and none of its building materials. The creeps are… well they’re just kinda there. Really the only thing you can say about a living house filled with murders and an Eldridge being or 2.

[princess-glassred]

I finally made an IT OC!! 🎡🎢🎃🎟

Norma Nell Dresden

•Born October Eigth 1976, making her star sign Libra

•She's lived in Derry Maine her entire life, and in the time frame she's become well aquinted with how weird everything is

•Norma is autistic and she's legally blind, which is why she wears those big thick glasses

•Her special interest is Universal horror monsters and old horror movies, she lives and breathes monsters. She is CRAZY about them.

•She loves to make minatures and little models of sets and creatures from her favorite movies, sew costumes for herself, do SFX makeup, make stop motion films using her miniatures, read horror comics/books, and draw- even tho her art style looks like rejected yaoi art.

•Really Norma is in love with all of he technical elements of making horror movies

•She's the kind of girl who would happily dress as a vampire every day of her life if she could

•She dresses like monsters so much people forget that she's a girl half the time. If you asked Norma tho she'd probably say something like "I'm not a girl i'm a dracula".

•She has a pet tarantula named Corncob who she loves dearly. She loves all types of spiders, she thinks they're misunderstood, like her!

•Norma gets picked on at school a lot for her interests, people call her the R word sometimes and Henry Bowers has been known to steal her notebook and laugh at her crappy drawings. People also tend to slam things around her on purpose because she hates loud noises. Sometimes Victor criss will steal her action figures out of her hands or rip a page out of her creepshow comics on the walk home. She hates them, and she wishes frankenstein would toss them all into a pond.

•Her personal fashion sense leaves much to be desired tbh, she's so girlfail

•I was a teenage werewolf is her favorite movie

•Although Norma is generally a sweet girl, she's sometimes very blunt and apathetic due to her autism and the fact most people around don't seem to understand her.

•She can also be a real snob when it comes to movies. She thinks most new horror movies are bad and cant hold a candle to the classics. She'd rather watch a movie in black and white over a block buster any day.

•She also has little patience for monster jokes that shes heard a million times, and if you say something wildly incorrect about monster lore she will go off on you in a nerd filled rage. Afterwards she'd shrink back down and apologize for her temper, but she's just heated because she's passionate.

•Her favorite colors are green and orange

•Her favorite person ever is Mary Shelley, if you bring her up she'd probably go "The creator of science fiction Mary Shelley? The mother of Frankenstein Mary Shelley? The daughter of the founder of feminism Mary Shelley? That Mary Shelley?" And scream. She loves her.

•Norma also loves amusement park rides and theme parks, she just thinks it's so awesome seeing all of the magic and planning that goes into making a world feel themed.

•When she was young she used to say her dream career was an imagineer at disneyland

•Her favorite place in the world is actually Canal Days festival at Derry, solely because she has many happy memories there of riding rides and eating the food and enjoying the band.

•If you looked in her bedroom you'd see a big model of Derry Township she built herself, horror movie posters, collectibles, a film projector, cosplays, a vanity for her to do her SFX makeup at, a comic collection, a bookshelf filled with horror novels, and many more.

•She doesn't have a voice claim yet but i think she'd have a huskier voice like Emma Stone.

•She snorts when she laughs, something she's embarrassed of.

•she's also very lanky for a girl, another thing she's embarrassed of.

•Her home life is a little rocky.

•Her mother, Mary Lianne Dresden works at a department store doing alterations, and she's as supportive as she can be of her daughter. She's very deadpan and sarcastic though, and she's painfully aware of how much of a loser her daughter is. Frankly, she does not have the time or energy to reel her in anymore, so she just lets her live in her little movie monster world.

•She has a step dad that she hates named Paul Keyes, Paul is not physically abusive like Alvin Marsh but he is a bully who often makes Norma feel bad for her interests. He calls her a freak and threatens to throw out all her stuff all the time, trying to force her to have some kind of normal interests. He bounces from job to job a lot, which makes Norma see him as a total bum, and he spends most of his time yelling at the TV because his football team is losing. One time Norma asked him why he kept watching sports if they just made him angry and he said that he was just used to it, to which Norma replied "being used to something doessn't mean you like it. You're used to me and you hate me.", which got her a talking to over her "smart mouth".

•She has a step sister named Becca Keyes, who, although they can sometimes be seen together in public, doesn't like her much. Its not exactly evil step sister territory, but Becca sneers at Norma's interest and often makes her feel like she's not girly enough to fit in anywhere. Norma hates most feminine things, but Becca does pageants and has all the typical girl interests. She's also friends with Gretta Keene which makes Norma pissed cause that means Gretta is at her house all the time.

•Her father, Archibald (Archie) Dresden is the member of her family she's closest to, which is unfortunate because he's been dead for years. He passed away when Norma was only six, and the way he passed away burned itself in her brain. He used to work at the Derry paper mill until he fell into the machine and met his maker. When he came out he looked like fucking hamburger meat, and they had to bury one of his watches since they didn't have a body. Ever since then Norma has been oddly intrigued by all the weird ways someone could die, and she thinks that all death should be as explosive and memorable as her dads. She thinks its sad when someone wastes away into an old husk and ends up just dying in a hospital bed, if it were up to her, she'd die by getting decapitated on a rollercoaster in her 50's. Life is one big party, might as well make a memorable exit- right? With all that being said, she does miss her father a lot. She makes it a point to go visit his grave once a week and tell him about what's going on in her life. Of course he cant hear her, but norma just talking to herself anyways.

•Another interesting thing about Norma is thar she is asexual, mostly due to the fact she doesnt understand why people bother with that stuff since watching movies is more fun, but she gets crushes insanely hard.

•She had a very intense crush on Bill Denbrough for a few days because he was handsome and wrote cool horror stories, and this led to such confusing teen awkwardness she's lucky they only spoke more than a few times. She used to have dreams about him sneaking through her window at night as a hot vampire and whisking her away to the woods, which then inspired some truly terrible artwork in her notebook. Then went on for a while until he saw her flirt wirh Bev and her little heart broke. Norma can be a little overdramatic sometimes, and this was her first heartbreak, so she got really depressed afterwards like bill had somehow hurt her on purpose. She got over it though, and to prove it she burnt all her drawings of bill in her backyard.

•She's into Mike Hanlon now, who she feels she can be much more of a normal person around. They both like researching old and disturbing things about Derry, and when she showed him her model of Derry Township he thought it was the coolest thing ever. They helped each other on a history project where she made a scale model and he made a collage, it was so much fun. They also bonded over having lost a parent in a really graphic and horrible way, but Norma managed to change Mikes perspective on death by saying at least he will always remember his parents, even if they died when he was really young. For halloween Mike asked if she'd be willing to make him a costume since he had no money and she went so hard, he made him a gender swapped bride of frankenstein costume and even did his makeup. Their ideal date would be either the library to research derry more or the movies to see an old black and white film. In short, she likes Mike a lot and the only thing that could make her like him more is if he had fangs.

•As an adult she opens up a horror theme park named Hellville Park that combines all of her interest into making the best immersive experience horror fans could ever want. She went very hard on planning it all out, and it's made her filthy rich in the process. She also makes stop motion movies as side projects, so she's kind of like a combination of Walt Disney and Tim Burton.

•Her greatest fear is the headless horseman, even tough she knows it's very ridiculous. Ever since she first saw an adaptation of it on tv as a small child she's been terrified of him. If Pennywise attacked her it'd transform into the headless horseman and chase her on her walk home alone at night right over the Derry town bridge, only to toss it's flaming pumpkin head at her and nearly kill her. If you want a deeper meaning as to why Norma is terrified of him, i think its because to her- the headless horseman feels like a lose of identity. He doesn't even have a face or a name, but he used to be a person at some point. Norma doesn't wanna lose parts of herself as she grows up, she likes herself as is, but everyone around her treats her interests like theyre just a phase and soon she'll be a normal girl again. She'd rather die than let that happen.

•Norma always loves "the other" and "the outcast", which is partially why she loves horror movies like frankenstein and the creature from the black lagoon so much. Her favorite childhood fairytale was beauty and the beast for a reason lol. Maybe it's because she's been the ugly duckling her whole life and she's always eager to look beyond the surface and rethink who deserves sympathy and who doesn't.

•All in all, Norma is a pretty interesting girl who's just going through the worst years of her life. She'll find her way through it tho im sure. ;)

R.I.P Norma, you would have loved The Shape Of Water.

[clumsypuppy]

learning abt friendship decay and "not reaching out to your friends for months at a time unprompted is not neurotypical behaviour" has me feeling a certain way

[floorpancakes]

funny thought that just came to me do you think watanuki would start crying getting spooned for the first time because he's emotionally overwhelmed

[milfbrainrot]

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I feel like in the past the mix of this site being used for both activism and fandom helped contribute to a lot of unhinged politicized fandom discourse where yeah ofc there's a political tie to media but ppl used it as... a form of activism where it was given disproportionate importance compared to other activism discussions? Whereas now we're swinging to the opposite site of How Dare You Care About Meaningless TV Shows When Politics.

Like... we can have a mix of realizing there's more important stuff to focus on than shipping discourse in the world at large without also minimizing the insane doxxing and death threats behavior going on in fandom that people in fandom have to take into consideration to be able to do their hobby, esp given how those attitudes stem from irl political climates at times in ways that are telling to study. Hobbies are kinda how we prevent activism burnout also. Crazey how that works.

[icewindandboringhorror]

I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

[n0heart]

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[somelazyassartist]

Hard to remember I exist sometimes and it feels like a lot of other people forget too and I don't really know how to feel about that right now

[hollow-vok]

Ohh im obssesed