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goodbye goodbye goodbye, you were bigger than the whole sky 💛💜🩵🧡🌈
#we gather here today to mourn the loss of an era#and like so many that have come and gone before we accept it with reverence and respect#and the knowledge of what has come and gone before#and while we are on the edge of something truly great#something we all feel in our hearts#may we long remember the eras that have fallen to bring us here#a moment of silence for these fallen few#ashton irwin#afi#5sos#I am literally delusional#I think this is so funny#honey memes#ashton memes#mullet Ashton#5sos meme
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Girl you saw Aaron kissing on that white woman?
I hate to say it but that British black man with sum blue eyes like em PALE. (Of course I am saying this purely in suspicion)
Yeah, I seent it. So? Lmfao. Sorry. Ik folks are pressed but I simply don't understand the need to find something bad about this man?
We have so very few (practically nonexistent) Black men that we can love on in public. He's smart, sweet, talented, precious, a goofball, a nerd, and introvert, and has been nothing but precious around Black women. He practically lights up around us.
Why is it so hard to believe that he's just....a good guy? Because we have proof that he liked ONE yt? Dont they all?
But what really gets me is that folks think he's not capable of liking a yt AND a Black woman 🤔 like he has to be on one camp or the other.
And this is purely MY opinion. I'm not shaming anyone for caring. I understand. Its so beyond exhausting to feel like we're not wanted by our own counterparts. That they continually play in our faces and we love them anyway.
But until I actually see that he move funny around us, I just wanna love on him. I love that hes goofy and silly. I love that he can't dance. I love that he can sing and rap (though British rap is asssss, sorry Aaron daddy 🥲). I love that hes an introvert. I love hearing him say "opportunity, for me personally, legacy, honored, brother, bruv" and whatever else fly outta that beautiful mouth of his.
I love that hes "lightskinned". I love that I get to see him in Lanterns next year, however I can have him. Because I know Gunn will piss me smooth awf 🙄 I love that hes 6'3. I love that he works out. I love that he has tattoos. I love his big ass hands and that ass 🙌🏽 (that ass really needs to be worshipped)
I love that he dresses extremely well and couldn't pose for shit earlier in his career 🤣) I love that hes into the superhero genre as a whole (especially when everyone acts like it needs to go. Don't like it, don't watch. But don't ruin it for others who do like it).
I love that he shares a close bond with his family. I love how he lights up when he's comfortable. I love when he's in his feelings 🙌🏽🤪🥵 I love when he posts subtle thirst traps.
I love the Kelvin tiktok of him throwing his head back and laughing. I love that he can laugh about himself. I love his funny little laugh.
I love when he wears long sleeves. I love when he wears short sleeves. I love when he's tanned. I love when the camera makes him look pale as hell. I love when he wears glasses. I love when he brings those chains out 👁👄👁 .
I love when he hugs himself. I love when he has funny expressions. I love his big ears. I love his traditionally African features. I love his accent. I love that nasty tongue. I love his teefs Mr A is for All 32.
I love that he was a punk ass kid daring people to race him. I love that he had pimples. I love that hes finally getting the recognition he deserves. I love that he is only going to soar because he has a pure soul.
I love that he feels like our second chance with Chadwick. I love that his smile makes me melt. I love that every peek into his brain just makes me love him more.
I love that hes so cute I want to wring his neck. I love that I want to swing from his neck like a mf monkey 🙌🏽🤪 I love those tank tops he be wearing. Ooooof I love the hoochie Daddy shorts.
I love that hes Big Daddy. I love he went viral over an adverb. I love that hes into martial arts. I love that his thighs are so big. I love that he can lift 425 and pull damn near double that.
I love that he knows how to bring that ass outside. I love when he wears those shades. I love his photos. I love his juicy ass pink lips. I love that big headed, sloped shoulder, chameleon 🤪
I love him i love him i love him i love him i love him i love him i love him i love him
And if he turns up with a yt wife? Yes, that will hurt. But I'll always have Terry who canonically loves a Black woman from infinity to infinity (he instinctively believed Jess was the inside mole helping because he saw her as an ally)
Signed, A Certified Simp Named Mega
#megaminds asks#aaron pierre#something something if i had my faculties i shouldve made this rhyme#something something a love poem for mr pierre#i could go on honestly.#every photo every video every interview every role#i love it all#i am a certified simp#sorry no drama over here#keep in mind that this is MY opinion and it is MY blog so go on and block me if you feeling itchy over there#cerified simp#7 days a week#he makes me so weak in the knees#just the thought of him#sweet lawdt my heart racing just thinking of himmmmm#whether its aaron or terry#but all ik is that im leaving here with SUMN#black girls deserved to be loved on too#we have a good one for now yall#stop wishing ill on that man#he deserves nothing but peace and prosperity#he is our generations denzel#we at the beginning baby#WE gon be the aunties in our 60s talm bout that Aaron Pierre in a drama thats gonna win him an Oscar#and in the nursing home mourning his loss to this world#focus on what we love about him yall#dont we deserve us a him?#dont we deserve a man who LOVES us?#low key dr suess over here doe
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#I'm really heart broken about this...i hope im just being silly and missing all the SD interactions with SD Rook#dragon age#dragon age veilguard#dragon age the veilguard#da4#There's such a difference in talking about how we feel about our backgrounds between me (sd) and my Fortune friend versus the others#Like what do you mean your faction knows who you are????? Was that supposed to be an option???#I have over 50 hours already I don't want to start over so my character's background can mean something#ill get over it but right now... BW im sad
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Might be a little radio silent today and tomorrow, but I'll be back soon. Gonna run off a queue & pop in and out. 💜
#i'll be okay...just not today#tw family death#it’s the day of the funeral and it’s been very difficult#I hate saying I’ve dealt with this since I was a child in my family#but it’s my husband’s grandmother who we were close with#I'm trying to distract myself the best I can and be there for him and make time for my own feelings too#but it’s shitty. the whole thing is#it wasn’t surprising but watching her slowly fade away hurt more than I imagined it would#i keep trying to tell myself i'm fine. that i can keep it together#my first funeral as a child was traumatic cause i didn't understand it and then it...just kept happening to our family#and her (my aunt) anniversary is in September#22 years and it still haunts me in the most bizarre yet beautiful ways#I’m rambling now. I know things get better and it just becomes something you deal with#it doesn’t mean it’s easy#my heart goes out to anyone who knows what I mean#I don’t even know if I know what I mean#sigh. if you read all this thank you and I love you#truly this little corner of the internet has brought me such sweet friends and i cherish you all. so much.#☆.queue
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I have so many thoughts about saiteru but they like all cancel each other out
does saiteru is canon? the answer is more complicated than you think!
…in all seriousness id love to see a really long thought out essay on the topic of Teruhashi & Saiki’s relationship and how it changes over the course of the series. And whether or not the romantic coding was intentional, or if it was an extension of the romance trope gag. Also, how they are supposed to foil each other, but also how many similarities they share in circumstance and how goshdarn differently they tend to handle said circumstances (of always being the object of attention regardless of whether or not they want it) and how similar their internal attitudes are towards interacting with people, and how this this tends to affect their actions towards others.
#id like to pausit Teruhashis an introvert too#she just has realized she can’t afford to be one#and she’s also intrinsically a people pleaser which saiki by contrast is NOT#though he does feel bad if he treats people too harshly#he’s definitely not got the same ‘have to prove myself to everyone all the time’ bug#instead he’s trying to convince everyone else that he is something he is not and he doesn’t believe that he is either#so…#🍿#like!#so much of Saiki and Teruhashis relationship dynamic gets to the heart of what the series is about#gags aside#of how we deal with the things beyond our control#how it affects our personalities#attitudes and everything#that’s what i like about them!#romance i can do with or without#it’s interesting if applied correctly but id like to think of their relationship as something that’s actually about something larger#draft dated Jan 17 2022
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on arranged marriages
it's funny. mums been in the whatsapp rishta groups for years looking for someone i might marry. she'll send me a profile once in a while and ask what i think, if she should contact his parents or not and most of the time i say yeah, alright. nothing ever comes of it though, so when my dad calls me after work and says mum spoke to him about a rishta she's thinking of moving forward with i'm intrigued, but not particularly invested.
mum's really picky, i tell him. this probably won't go anywhere but we may as well see it through, right? dad is hesitant, but agrees when i say that i do want an arranged marriage.
but then things do move forward and the next thing i know, he is going to visit us with his parents. on the day, my uncle picks me up from work so i don't have to walk. you don't have to make a decision today, he tells me. this is just a first visit. my cousin helps me get ready and i am reminded of the similar scene in the movie vivah. nothing has to happen today, she tells me you guys are just meeting today. the thought does nothing to settle the nerves roiling in my stomach and i try to go back to my room three times instead of going downstairs until my cousin practically shoves me down them.
i enjoy meeting his mum, even though she immediately clocks my nervous clasping and unclasping of my bracelet. she hugs me as if i'm her own daughter and is so happy to see me that my heart lightens. eventually, we go to the other sitting room where the men are sitting-where he is. my nerves flare up again but he doesn't look up from his hands clasped in his lap when we walk in.
too nervous to speak, i only answer say anything when a question is directed at me and try to sneak quick glances at him across the room instead. his mum catches me more than once and smiles knowingly at me. we meet each others eyes only once for a split second and it makes my heart pound rapidly in my chest. when he speaks, i force myself to look at anyone other than him. he has a nice voice, my brain whispers and i bite my tongue, hard.
they leave, and we say they'll know our decision after a couple months. i know what my answer will be though. later, when they get back home and his mum calls my mum, i stand outside the door to eavesdrop, my heart in my throat but i can't stop my grin when i hear his mum say he's happy to go ahead with this, because there was a part of me that still worried he'd see me in person and go NOPE. she suggests that we get to know each other over the next few months and i silently beg my mum to agree. i know that where she is from, in her tradition, the bride and groom speak once or twice before the wedding if they're lucky, and that things are still done that way back home, but just as im gearing up to argue against that, she agrees. it's a miracle!
of course, chronically shy person that i am, the thought of our first conversation taking place on our mums phones is terrifying so instead i ask to get his number so we can text first. she sends his number but theres no way i'm texting first so i send them my number and thankfully he gets the hint and texts me first. i hope you don't mind me texting, i'm just shy still. i say. that's fine, he reassures me. we have time.
time, as it turns out. flies. it doesn't take long to move from texts to voice notes, to phone calls. he really does have a nice voice, i find out, and its not as awkward as i thought it would be. i didn't actually think that we'd talk that much, maybe once a week at most and yet...
i almost cried last night because we were talking about going to Pakistan together next summer and I remembered how when I was a teenager I used to daydream about going to Pakistan with my spouse and visiting all my family with him.
then over the years I sort of gave up on that idea because I'm not the type to go out and meet someone and in the desi arranged marriage market whose gonna choose me?
and now I'm 26, and we talk multiple times a day and when I catch myself thinking oh he isn't really interested, he's just talking to me because he has to to get to know me, why would anyone actually like me?? I find myself countering with well actually if that was the case why would he start calling you every day? how come you went from one call a day ending with 'i'll talk to you tomorrow' to him calling you on his way home from work and 'i'll call you after dinner' when he gets home to a THIRD call after maghrib right before bed? those are not the actions of a man who is uninterested!!
hanaas insecurities- 0, hanaas logic- 1
anyway idk where this is going except i never thought i'd be this excited and happy when it came time for me to get married but here i am and it is SO SCARY to realise that i am maybe possibly (definitely) falling for him but wow, and like? (literally the other day i was telling him a story from when i was a kid and the story had such a silly ending but it was unexpected and he laughed really hard in surprise and it made my heart almost explode i swear its so fun to make him laugh)
but like there's SO MANY logistics i'm restarting my driving lessons so i can pass before i move and i literally just got my new job in april but i'm gonna have to give my notice lmao and i've already started looking for new jobs but GAH so much stuff is happening and yet at the same time i feel so calm about it all it's wild i'm just vibing trying to enjoy my summer holidays and having the highlights of my day being when he calls lmaooo
#banana speaks 🍌#okay that's enough emosh stuff for tonight i think#time to go to bed and watch his tiktoks and kick my feet and giggle at my phone bc i can't believe this is happening still#idk why i made this post honestly but its just like...it is SO SCARY sometimes#and for ages and ages i didn't feel ready at all#my sister had a love marriage and she's been married 10 years w 4 kids she's rlly happy#but i just knew that wasn't gonna happen for me so i was happy w an arranged marriage#but also#i have really strong faith#(mostly)#and something that really helped me here was#im SUCH a chronic over thinker but literally the moment i saw him in our front room#i felt this deep certainty like 'this is it..this is him' it felt like this beautiful peace in my heart#and that was so so lovely like...there's wedding stuff and other things to prepare for but theres no doubt in my mind ab him and its just??#insane im like#its like all my doubts disappeared#and also it's v interesting bc i think if he'd tried any lines on me or flirted when we talk i would be worried but#hes really respectful and my dad likes him my mum likes him we ALL like him hahaha#inshallah inshallah things will go well#also rishta's will come from unexpected places#we were looking in the uk for AGES and couldn't find anyone#but we found him within a year of him being here because turns out...he only came here from pak to be w his parents last year#jo hai tera lab jayega indeed#once agan#inshallah it all goes smoothly :D
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it's just that sometimes you're so... impossibly happy and full of so much incredible joy that you gotta post about it on the internet otherwise you may get on the roof with a bullhorn yknow.
#gav gab#FEELING VERY GOOD ABOUT MANY THINGS RN.......#I LOVE MY WIFE. MY WIFE LOVES ME. WE KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THAT MEANS AND IT BELONGS TO US.#other option is like... dropping the lonely island 'i just had sex' song into my friends' dms lsdkjfs#and they don't need me to be doing that LMAOOOO#it's not just the sex itself that's not even really the point#(though it's. very very good. and i have now learned some ALARMING stats about straight women in relationships)#(ladies if your husband/bf/partner won't take direction that is a failure on his part frankly)#it's like... idk#intimacy. trust. fun. security. safety. etc. all these things i already had with this wonderful person in my life#and being able to decide together what we want to do and what we want it to mean#building something that's just ours. a life a home a relationship etc.#for all that there's no like. blueprint for marrying someone In A Friend Way#and that can be anxiety inducing#(i felt like my heart was gonna pound out of my chest the first time i brought up maybe kissing my fiancee lskdjfs)#it also means we get to make all the rules#we get to make all of our decisions together in whatever way we want to make them and it means what we want it to#and i think that's one of the really wonderful things about like. qprs and committed platonic relationships etc#and it's something romantic relationships could benefit from too tbh#sex ment in tags
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I am the happiest person on earth right now because I just went out with a friend to grab a late lunch and it was just supposed to be a quick casual catch up thing that turned into a 4 hour conversation in the car about things that happened to us almost a decade ago 🥲
#roadie rambles#no one’s obligated to read this but y’all…you better sit down if you’re interested bc I’m feeling SO chatty tonight#for context: this is my childhood friend I grew up with then we went to different high schools and colleges#but over the years we’ve kept in touch and we see each other maybe 2-3 times a year#we have really similar personalities#okay so basically. 👏 today we learned that we had the /exact same/ traumatic experience in high school /almost around the same time/#and not only that!!! the people who caused it were the same people who were in our childhood 4 person friend group!! (we split 2-2 in hs)#now before you get worried: I’m not about to traumadump and we’re both in better wiser healthier places now#but imagine that!!!#the same exact experiences down to a T. and neither of us shared it until now#we weren’t ready to at the time and we’re not exactly the most open with our feelings#plus. different schools different lives not seeing each other every day yada yada#but with the clarity of hindsight and both of us being adults now we were ready!!! 👏👏#we had a convo in the car that naturally led into us letting it all out#and shit man. it’s not the trauma olympics here but. I thought the aftermath of what I went through was bad#venting it out was awesome for both of us and we had a lot of good laughs over it#but my friend…she went through some awful stuff#really hard stuff.#it broke my heart honestly bc she’s an amazing person and she didn’t deserve any of it#I made sure she knew that. she made sure /I/ knew that.#we were both hurt and betrayed in the same ways. but we also learned from it in the same ways. and now it’s something we share#we both wished that we could’ve had this convo years earlier#but I know that it wouldn’t have happened in the same way bc we weren’t at our current levels of maturity back then#I believe we were meant to have this convo /today/ and now we’re both better for it#that’s on growing up and having someone to heal with babey!!!! 🥹💖💖💖#if you made it this far thank you!! I appreciate it#I’m just…gonna lay here with my full heart and think about this forever now
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i think the most sentimental gifts we receive are jewelry. it doesn't have to be fancy, it can be some yarn and even a couple beads tied together to fit our wrist. but it's what's most important. it's a show of pride; this was given to me by someone i love. this is a signifier of who i love. i am wearing them with me at all times. bracelets, earings, necklaces, rings. the stories they can hold, the superstitions and folktales in the symbolism of a bracelet, or a ring. it doesn't have to be diamonds and pearls, just to wear something, to show off to the world, something from someone we care about so much. it's our favorite display of love.
#inspired by all of our friendship bracelets#and family heirlooms weve gotten#and of the jewelry our partner gifts us that we wear everywhere#they first gave us a morganite bracelet they brought back from the philipines for christmas one year#and so we gifted them a sunstone bracelet back#unfortunately we lost that bracelet and were very upset about it and they surprised us with a new matching pair instead#both bracelets with a matching bead from the other's on the center that i always keep on our inner wrist to feel closer to our heart#they also gave us a pair of robin earings that are our favorite pair of earrings and we wear them every opportunity#and this valentines day they made us a bracelet with a feather and sapphire pendant surrounded by blue glass beads and two mini shells#and i almost cried when they gave it to us because it was so pretty and it's everything to us that we associate between the two of us#feathers for us and the shells for them#and it may be the most important gift we've received to this point in time#something so small and yet to us its everything#to us that bracelet is love. it represents our partner and them making something that reflects the both of us and thats love#thats love to me that really is#love is stored in the jewelry
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i'm in pain - "her" pt. 4
it's 2 am and something is hurting me
it's in my body my head my heart
it's controlling me
it crashes over me like waves
yet it calms me
it's sets ablaze a fire in my viens
but it chills my bones it feels like the enemy
my heart is racing filling up with endorphines
my hormones are out of control i can't see where my soul is
where does mine begin and yours start again
i cant feel my face it's got blood rushing
my body is weak i need a moment to think i cant do this again
my spirit is yours i need you to force your way back in
keep me company keep my heart locked up on your arms tonight
i am in pain but you are the rain you drench me in moonlight
#just realized all the titles to these aren't lovey dovey at all despite all of these being love poems#sorry pooks don't mean to scare you#the her series#crazy how you're like my bsf but also my gf and my wife but my cousin but my sister#makes zero sense but so much sense all at once#if i think about it for too long my heart literally starts hurting#that's crazy how our brains do that#they think all the emotion were feeling is dangerous so it needs to make something hurt to that we know to check on it(or rest it)#our brains are telling us that we need to rest our hearts#rest our emotions#but i'm not gonna do that#bc ily too much
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fucks SAKE
tumblr is ACTUALLY about to sell our data to dumb AI companies since they've already begun collecting it. and apparently it includes stuff from private posts, deleted blogs, etc. that seems like one heck of a breach of privacy and i am PISSED because if they can scrape data off a deleted blog, then what point is it of nuking our accounts?
I hope tumblr gets sued to hell, I'm so pissed off that the wonderful, unique community that has built itself here now has to migrate to other places. and there's no similar alternative (like how bluesky was to twitter) so everyone will scatter and it's gonna be hell to find fandom places
I've been here since highschool, I've seen this whole website change from the "cringe" stuff we talked about to actually understanding the world around us. We grew up, we grew stronger, and now we're gonna get torn apart
I want to hold hands with all of you, I want to stay together, I want to keep this unique vibe we've cultivated over the years, the shared experiences and absolute batshit memes we've created. everything sucks, the world is hard on us artists and creators of all kinds. let's stay strong, my friends. tumblr might be burning and crashing but we've done so much together, we'll get through this, and i hope we meet again in other spaces
Kofi || Bluesky || Sheezy || Mastodon || Carrd
#im not leaving just yet#seems like my art and posts have already been scraped which is fucking great#but im deleting everything from all my art account queues#you will not get any new art from me here so please come explore new spaces with me#we'll find something i'm sure#feels like this site will go down any moment if this keeps up#we're going down with the ship but we're singing our rebel songs#they will never stop us#we will support our trans siblings and our precious creators and keep all the joy we've gained through this site in our hearts#we will not be broken up by this#i love you all and i appreciate all the love and support you've shown me#i don't want to ever lose you
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#funny how you can feel like your heartache is healing nicely and then you do something that just rips the scab completely off#and it’s like you’re back to square one#shaking and sobbing#and using up all your tissues in one sitting#feeling thrown away abd beating yourself up for driving her to to the point of needing to throw you away for both your own good#ten years we were together#a third of our lives#a decade’s worth of love turned to poison in your veins#in your heart and soul#and the secobd longest relationship i’ve ever had only lasted 2 weeks#ya it’s just part of life#and it will make good times feel so much more significant#but that does jack shit for me right now
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she is literally the perfect antithesis to irl house
#like i can LITERALLY find a parallel/opposite irl house moment for every interaction i have with her#or that one of my classmates has... for example there are variations of my language#and one of my classmates said his version of one word and we all understand it ofc.. but she ...#repeated what he said in a mocking tone??? which is something that isn't that unexpected here but for a professor to do that...#she literally brought me to tears and it didn't even happen to me. i cried after leaving that class#and yesterday irl house was translating latin into our language and it warmed my heart when he did it with all versions of that word and#called it OUR language...#i know i shouldn't let everything get to me like this but i just feel little things like that very deeply#jo in the tardis*
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💔
#the sky speaks#okay ive had more time to process#GOD its been a day#i woke up to my parents shaking me awake in tears. ginny died overnight. we think something with her heart#a clot or a heart attack??#looks like it was quick and painless at least. better than the previous pets of mine that have passed. they were all drawn out and miserabl#im just still in so much shock. she was fine yesterday!!!! then this morning she's as stiff as a board in the dining room#she made a little nest for herself out of our mail pile? i think she knew she was dying. poor thing#she was only 10. i really thought i had another few years with her#lucy seems sad too. she slept in the same spot for hours today. shes usually bouncing off the walls#i think i want to get a memorial tattoo of her sometime. ive seen heart shaped locket ones that are cute? I'll think on it#when i first woke up i thought i was having a nightmare. my dad said hed never seen my eyes go so wide#it still doesnt feel real#im so fucking tired i keep breaking down sobbing for like. 30 seconds at a time and then continue going about my day
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#I thought this feeling would fade over the course of the day#But it hasn't#I still feel like I need to throw up#What do I do with my massive photocard collection lmao#Or my Taeil digipacks#Posters#Etc.#Or any of my 127 stuff in general?#It all feels tainted now#Everything kinda does#I've had scandals in my groups before#Some even MAJOR scandals#But this?#Something this horrific?#And an ULT bias?#How could we all have been so wrong about him?#In a million years I never would have guessed him#Literally never#I feel like all NCTzens are on the same page with this dumbfounded shocked feeling#Taeil?#Really?#For YEARS??#How could he have fooled us for so long? How could he have us rooting for him with our whole heart and soul?#I'm gutted#How could he do this#How could he be so sick and so cruel and so broken
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a handful of chinese songs that give me big robit energy
translating cpop songs is like my second favourite hobby so it's frankly surprising I haven't made this post sooner
Him - Floruitshow (马 - 福禄寿)
I've talked about this song on here before but this is the 3.7 song for me
the second chorus is definitely MR-SN but i like to think of the first chorus (Let me take a good look at your visage as we count down the time till the curtains’ close. Forgive me for holding back my voice so soon, do you know, in your graceful escape, all I see around me is disaster?) as VR-LA during the flashback sequence
specifically 'all I see around me is disaster' because yeah not wrong
'This time I’m not here to bring you home' just kills me like the please please take care of yourself because I can't be there with you anymore of it all
'Oh spring, oh warm sun, please come sooner, grant him a smooth and safe journey' same point, just the desperate plea for the universe to protect VR-LA because he can't do it himself anymore
How can I make you stay - Floruitshow (我用什么把你留住 - 福禄寿)
(conveniently I have actually done a full translation of this song!)
definitely one of the Maxim songs of all time
"You’ve believed that you can let your life pass in numbness, but [...] why do your tears fall in the moment of letting go?' YEAH because we've seen so many times how Maxim keeps trying to convince himself that he can stop just caring but it never works
'You say don’t fall in love, yet you’re unwilling to let go' same point, this man is in such denial about how he just can't stop caring
specifically the second verse feels a lot like Maxim waiting for VR-LA to return from Tu'narath
'You stay silent, holding onto starlight as you wait through your darkest hour. Your mind is struck, when familiar murmurs pierce your ears once more' aaaAAAAHH
the bridge (?) as a conversation between VR-LA and Maxim, VR-LA inviting Maxim to see the beauty and wonders of the world ('Do you want to see the sea of flowers blooming?', very 4.5 wedding invite honestly) but Maxim's trauma just would not allow him to take that risk ('If none of them come back, then who should I live for?')
fun fact the second version of the bridge in my translation ('You must stay to see the flowers bloom' onwards) is exclusive to that live performance of the song so it's not in the spotify version i linked here. as for which version you think fits Maxim more.. well.
Borrow - Mao Buyi (借 - 毛不易)
finally banging out a translation for this song was kinda the inspiration for me to make this post actually
the tldr of this song is that it's an unnamed/unidentified speaker asking to borrow various small things for the sake of somebody else (like 'an inch of frozen sunlight' to provide warmth in a cold world) so you can probably see where i'm going with this
'A simple ‘we have plenty of time’ etched into the soul to prepare for the chance of forced separation' ouch ow okay
'Those blown apart by these winds will say that they never loved deeply' / 'There is a sincerity that cannot be blown apart by this wind' DX-TR betraying the old crew vs VR-LA fighting through so much just to get them back
'There are tears that cannot be washed away by this rain' this line just haunts me. like in general
'An acre of land for him to call home, an ordinary life for him to live' as MR-SN watching over the old crew like I can't be there for you but I hope you will find peace and a home...
#rolling with difficulty#rwd starship#rwd professionals#my feel good hobby! as opposed to art: my feel bad hobby /j#im actually learning to play how can i make you stay on the guitar right now its a lot of fun but ow my fingers#ive also found a score for him but its super outside my skill level so we'll see how that goes#bmadd11 my beloathed#/also/ working on a little something based on that song but that wont... come into play for at least the next few weeks so#its an absolute monster of a project and school has started so i dont have high hopes for getting it done soon#i dont think i got to mention this on the actual post for borrow but ive literally been spinning that song in my brain since like 2020#genuinely. i've been thinking about how to translate that song for upwards of 3 years#grammar is just weird sometimes#i was gonna include let's go wandering by bibi zhou but i couldve SWORN i wrote a translation for that song before i just cant FIND it#spent 30 minutes hunting for the doc in my drive thats 30 minutes of my life wasted#but 'lets go wandering with a smile because we carry our home in our hearts' just fucks severely#also considered including forget your sorrows when the flowers bloom by zhou shen#bc im not gonna make a cpop post and *not* try and subject more poeple to zhou shen#but like that songs vibe is too... cottagecore to really make a good point there im just obsessed with one specific line#'If my memories are stolen and I forget all my love; I'll say to you “Hello!”#post amnesia vrla to the old crew??? the 'i dont know you. id love to get to know you again' of it all????#did this instead of my programming homework :|
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