#someone tell me they understand

[d-parade]

The biggest and most isolating thing about being transsexual currently is that I am unable to love.

I’ve always wanted a girlfriend, but my attraction towards women is so distant and locked away because I cannot fall in love with one the way I want to: as a man.

In another universe, I’m biologically male from birth and have the guts to confess to the girl I like. I could even be her boyfriend. I could care for her.

But in my reality, I cannot confess.

It’s impossible for me to feel proper male on female (if that makes sense) attraction when I’m socially, in the eyes of the girl I like, a woman.

And revealing that I’m a man doesn’t help because I am still transsexual. I’m not saying transmales aren’t males don’t get it twisted lmao, but I think getting into a relationship while socially still being and looking a woman, is something I cannot handle.

Even now I cannot articulate my feelings well about this. I’m left confused, disoriented, and most of all pained. Especially now because there’s this girl I really like, the first one I’ve really loved this much in a long while, and knowing I will never get the chance, ever, is making me sick in the stomach. I feel like she’s so close yet so far 😔

Also the fact that I have to reveal to others that I’m trans, even after full transition, is just kinda repulsive to me.

[hatefulxtendencies]

“What are you up to?”

Not much

Just walking outside at 2am, bare foot, with blood soaked pjs :)

[violentdelightsandviolentends]

ugh you guys i have so many f1 fic ideas with all the different drivers but i just can't 😩

i can't get past the whole writing for real people thing. it just doesn't feel right to me... can't put my finger on why. do any other writers feel the same way? not sure what it is (i think it might be to do with oversexualising actual people*... idk), but nevertheless. annoying bc you guys know i'd eat with the f1 fics 😌

*because like, there's posting a pic of a celeb with a slightly unhinged sexy caption (guilty) and then there's writing thousands of words putting them in a fake sexual scenario... do you get me? or do i make no sense lol

[notherpuppet]

Alligator tears 🦌 🥲

The beauty of the pumpkin head joke is that the true joke is TELLING the joke to people.

For those who don’t know it, this is the joke:

A man with a pumpkin for a head walks into a bar. The bartender exclaims: “My god, I’m sorry, but WHAT happened to your head?”

The man sighs and says, “So I found a genie in a bottle who granted me three wishes…”

Bartender: “Ok, well what were the wishes?”

Man: “Well, my 1st wish was for 100 million dollars. AND I GOT IT!!”

Bartender: “WOW! Okay…what was the 2nd wish?”

Man: “For the 2nd wish, I asked for the most beautiful woman in the world to fall in love with me…AND I GOT THAT TOO!”

Bartender: “Incredible! So then…what was the 3rd wish?”

Man: “Now see…that’s where I really messed up…

I asked for a giant pumpkin head”

[mythicalcoolkid]

You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side

[teaboot]

Social anxiety level: Chatting with someone experiencing a schizophrenic episode and becoming increasingly self-concious of how I'm just saying "That sounds really stressful", "I've never heard of that but it sounds scary", and "You must be pretty worried about that" over and over again

[idontmindifuforgetme]

friend wanted to see my tumblr, and when i told him i can’t show it to him bc it’s basically my personal diary he went “oh so I can’t see it but a bunch of strangers on tumblr can??” he literally does not get me. no one will get me like the people in my phone get me

[lonely-fried-art]

assortment of shitposts for your viewing pleasure

[demaparbat-hp]

Progression (and digressions).

The first post of the year belongs to the one, the only, the boy you've had for less than a month but if anything happens to him you'll murder me slowly and painfully: Lu Ten II.

His travels through the Earth Kingdom with Zuko are some of my favorite moments in the Spitfire AU! We get to see their dynamic truly flourish and deepen before they're reunited with the rest of their family.

But then the Gaang is forced to take care of Ten Ten as they move through the Fire Nation.

Spitfire grows a lot during the course of the story—and not just in height! He's the hope for a better future and the kindness needed to go through the present. I love him dearly, and I hope so do you.

[theoldkyokodied]

If you follow my main you had to know this was coming… anyway. Enjoy these bloodweave doodles :)

[spiderking-of-queens]

“You’re so quiet, what are you thinking about?”

[yourlocalguardian]

You’ve heard of t4t now get ready for:

✨ C4C ✨

Aka “creature for creature” meaning only date creatures in the foreseeable future

[small-small-slime]

"You came back!"

I animated part of a scene from As long as we are loved by @shirajellyfish! I really recommend checking it out if you haven't! It's really well-written and Sun and Moon are both so lovable!! Look at how excited Living Doll Sun is to see you!!!

Also please look at it fullscreen if you can, I worked hard on Sun's little double-take at the beginning but it's hard to see. :')

(ALSO credit to this video of the player shooting Sun with darts in HW2 for helping me visualize Sun doing a cartwheel and also for letting me listen to Sun go "Gh-! What are you doing? Shoot the board! The board!" as many times as I want. I love him)

[bunnyboy-juice]

NO MORE ASSOCIATING THINGS WITH FEMMES ONLY BECAUSE THEY ARE PINK!HYPERFEM FEMMES ARE GREAT AND I LOVE YOU CAMPY FEMMES WHO EMBODY PINK BUT ALSO JESUS CHRIST CAN YOU GUYS NOT GO MORE THAN ONE DAY W/O TRYING TO SHOEHORN FEMMES INTO BEING ONLY PINK UWU BABIES. I AM FEMME AS IN GRASS AS IN DIRT AS IN TREE BARK AS IN WEEDS SPROUTING THROUGH THE SIDEWALK CEMENT. FEMME AS IN GENDER NONCONFORMITY AS IN FUCK YOU MY FEMININITY IS WHAT *I* SAY IT IS. FEMME AS IN DEPTH AND DARKNESS AND WARMTH AND TERROR. FEMME AS IN CAVES. FEMME AS IN LIGHTNING. FEMME AS IN AN AMALGAMATION OF TRAITS THAT I HAVE DECIDED ARE FEMININE REGARDLESS OF WHAT SOCIETY SAYS. FUCK IS IT THAT HARD TO UNDERSTAND?!???

[morally-earl-gray]

i may be a romantic, but im also aromantic

[waterghostype]

volume cw (i tried lowering it but jic. also loud swearing)