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Grief tints and ruins everything for me because this song is probably meant to be sang for a lover and yet all I can think about is her and how she’s dead.
“These simple feelings were maybe all I had” and it really is just reduced to that. Simple feelings that you miss and you can not recreate ever again. Whenever I’m happy, sad, excited all I can think about is how I wish it was something I could share with her. Now I can’t even speak about her without getting a knot in my throat.
If I had known it would end like this, I would have treasured them more.
When will it be when I see you again?
I will look into your eyes and say “I missed you.”
#personal#grief#dealing with grief#I’ve liked this song for so long and it just pains me to listen to it#do I speak Korean? no. but that ain’t necessary#i can feel it whenever I listen to it#I don’t even like LIKE kpop y’know I listen to some songs that’s it#but the way this song is written and composed like I seriously should just not listen to it again???! because it just brings it up#every damn time#but I think that’s not bad either#I don’t wanna forget#ever I don’t care if I Cary a heavy heart because at least I remember her#someone needs to I need to never forget#if I forget her she is truly dead#my thoughts are all over the place forgive me#I get sick with mourning it’s such a heavy feeling you don’t know until you’re in it#it’s like being nauseous for your head it’s so overwhelming#vent post
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would you hold my face softly and tell me it will be alright?
#genshin impact#scaramouche#wanderer#furina#in my head they are already domesticated#very much in a romantic sense#i don’t see why people need to comment besties/siblings so badly#rant time#like you don’t need to ship them but this is my art and i very much ship it#so if you don’t see them that way you can interpret my art that way and go on your merry way#at this point it’s just annoying bc i could never imagine someone commenting siblings on my yantao art#i don’t mind if you see them as best friends i can also see them like that#but you don’t need to announce it#as if your integrity is in danger#im sad i can’t tag the ship bc it’s a rarepair and i’m not sure what the name even is#welp if anyone read this you can totally forget about it now i'm over it#sad scararina hours letsgoo
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Here's my controversial opinion; if you're trying to write Bruce as a non-abusive, good parent, you should also write him respecting his kids' privacy, boundaries, and not stalking&surveying them.
#my dc posting#dc#batfamily#batman#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#looking thru ur kids phone tracking them giving them no privacy etc etc is deeply damaging#but yall aint ready for the ''stalking is their love language' is super toxic' conversation </3#also can we retire the JL being completely chill about it. 'batman just knows things' not being bothered their secret identities were found#out etc can we. stop coddling the batfam#i just need someone anytime to please just call them out like 'hey dont fucking surveil me' like that is actually extremely unethical#and its frankly not hard to write a batman who doesnt invade his kids privacy n boundaries etc#controversially when reading fic where theyre supposed to be healthy n getting along i want to actually feel like its deserved n good for t#hem#instead of sitting there going 'woo thats toxic' 'oh that even worse' 'why are we passing over all that'. like i dont wanna be thinkin they#should go no-contact when its supposed to be fuffy n good :(#like if you can write away the hitting n other abuse why is this the one thing that just must always stay#like genuinely it aint hard to write a parent not stalking their children. actually maybe i should remind you all that stalking is not good#or funny#like i feel like w all the joking some of us are actually forgetting its not good. ever. like absolutely never dont stalk ppl#eh idk. this is why i cant stay in any one fandom too long bc i start developing Opinions which inevitably make me hostile to like#90% of the fandom's content 😔
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So does he, Gallagher.
#honkai star rail#hsr blade#gallagher#i based this off of how many times i used funny soda man to help be a healer with his poppin soda pop in SU#and then blade constantly just being blade as usual#its normally him saying unnecessary to my actual healer but#i kept forgetting gallagher heals and i kept healing when i didnt even need to so TECHNICALLY yeah it was unnecessary#but the amount of times blade was the recipient......#i cant use like most of my newer units in story bc i cant ascend or i run out of leveling mats so i just#get them and toss them into simulated universe for funsies cause i can match their levels better#so thats where i tossed gallagher and he is genuinely fun to play as ? like i love his punches and kicks to start the battle#funny soda man is funny (to me) and im really behind in plot still#but last time i tried to play it on my laptop and got a kickass cutscene my laptop lagged and i couldnt even see it RIP to me#so now that its like ... me trying to play it on desktop ?#i mostly get on desktop for comms and if i do much else i feel like im slacking off even if i would take a break anyway#one day i can play more story plot stuff and actually meet the funny guys#also in case you know me for Not Having Boys in HSR i need to point out#i did pull Gallagher however same 10 pull got a 4 star girl copy for someone i never use and she is at e4 now cool#and i didnt even think of the irony as i started this i just like drawing blade and i wanted to draw gallagher#so when i already had the dialogue planned and am drawing i was like OH WAIT haha im funnier than i thought#(no i am not but we can pretend)
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"See you tomorrow"
MDZS Disco Elysium AU part 4 [prev parts]
#better drawn mdzs#MDZS Disco Elysium AU#mdzs au#Lan wangji#wei wuxian#yiling laozu#Happy Belated Halloween!#digital art#Thank you all for your patience as I drove myself into a madness only known by those lost at seas alone.#I put a lot of time into this one! It's not perfect but I am very happy with it + I am so happy to put down the tablet pen.#Digital art has some nice features but I'm sticking with traditional! I need a month to recover from the 2+ weeks of torture.#Okay lets talk about the AU and the comic now#Disco elysium has some of the best existential-horror-dream sequences I have ever seen.#The dialogue here is heavily inspired by The Final Dream - A scene I'd love to talk about more were it not so heavy with spoilers.#My AU is a lot more complex than a simple character swap but I really felt like LWJ + YLLZ fit this scene.#The final dream is about being unable to move on from a lost love. From something You made holy. From something You ruined.#It is about realizing that no matter how smart you are or what you offer or how you try to change -#You will never be able to turn back time. You will never ever be able to fix what is broken. That you also have been broken for a long time#You are a fuck-up who worships the nail covered ground of someone who did not want to be holy. And even though it hurts-#You cannot let this nightmare go. The pain keeps the love close. It is worse to forget. You promised to remember.#WWX died thinking LWJ disliked him. LWJ lost someone he thought was revolted by his love.
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there's something i need to say and yall can boo me for it but deep in my heart i'll always know i'm correct: crowley already forgave aziraphale. like already would take him back at one flutter of his eyelashes. that's all.
#do i wish he wouldn't forgive so easily (tho i don't actually think aziraphale needs forgiveness since he didn't do anything wrong and#actually without his decision their love story would've been stuck as it was for more than 6000 years and also heaven would never change#without someone dismantling it and making it new)#yes i do wish that and i also wish he'd learn self worth but we gotta be realistic here he never once been able to stay mad at aziraphale#all those times they had fights where aziraphale was (mostly) in the wrong and rejected crowley what did crowley do? immediately come#CRAWLING and BEGGING back like pls yall this is why i don't read post s2 fics bc everyone suddenly seems to forget their whole canon#personalities and history w each other and it's annoying me so much like i get that we all are hoping crowley learns from his mistakes and#stops being so easy for aziraphale (not me tho) but realistically speaking it's just not gonna happen and once again aziraphale DIDN'T. DO.#ANYTHING. WRONG. yes he hurt crowley with his decision but CROWLEY HURT HIM WITH HIS TOO so if yall wants an apology dance it's gonna turn#into a waltz cause they'd both need to do it#good omens#good omens s2#azicrow#crowley#aziraphale#aziracrow#ineffable spouses#good omens season 2#ineffable husbands#go s2
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huge shoutout to rejection sensitive dysphoria and the attorney who mentioned that I'd misspelled "forfeiture" in my notes, ensuring that I will literally never misspell that word ever again. Thanks, it's just what I needed. I would have rather been shot, but this works also.
#i am not even being slightly sarcastic#someone pointing out a minor inconsequential error like that will 1. be remembered for the rest of my life#and 2. ensure that I always ALWAYS remember the right way to do it#i usually have very good spelling and it drives me CRAZY when im wrong#so for 'forfeiture#which i always overthink and then misspell#it's either an unrequested out-loud correction of my spelling#or I have to use it as a computer password until the correct spelling is embedded in my hands#also shoutout to Sargon of the Akkad#who is the correct answer to a history trivia game I got wrong in fifth grade#cool how i will absolutely never forget that hes the first known emperor#despite the fact that i will literally never need to know that again
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this is very in-text but i love that zoro gets attuned to kiku from the get-go not only because of this sword wielder code that he's followed through all extremes of the practice, from brook to kin'emon -- recognizing and respecting all masters -- but because her existence is the solid evidence, the living proof that kuina was wrong
#zokiku#in the sense that if he squints long enough and whips his head to a certain angle super fast for a fraction of a second he can see his best#friend towering over him and being the most badass samurai ever#also zoro has only seen kuina in 3 other ppl but that's a post for another day#i'm at onigashima and like he's never cared about someone that isn't a strawhat this much since johnny and yozaku#who mind you are his FRIENDS meaning zoro sees her as a friend an equal and a force to be reckoned with#op log#zoro#roronoa zoro#how could i forget to add him to the tags when most of my watching experience is prodding into that seaweed head of his w some tweezers#last but not least#op okiku#okiku#i adore her#something something gender is a performance and kiku wears both the armor and the kimono#last 2 cents on this i swear and hopefully i'm not transgressing into spoiler territory too much but when kiku is in danger like big i need#help danger he uses wado and wado only to come by her side#which could mean nothing#but it's still a beautiful way to tie it all back to kuina and his mourning process
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stumbling onto the penumbra randomly four years ago and falling in love so ridiculously fast with juno as a character when i was struggling so much and couldn't see any way out & seeing juno go through the exact same vs getting to now, at a point where i'm significantly better and trying my best & seeing juno better than he could ever be, ending his story on such a good hopeful note and knowing that we'll be just fine
#i'll stop babbling about juno eventually (probably)#i've said this before but tpp has kept me company so many times when i needed it and im clearly coping well with the finale#im just so grateful i got to know juno as a character and im gonna miss him like hell. character of all time#will never forget the quotes that made me feel like someone took a look into my brain and copied whatever was inside#tpp#the penumbra podcast#the penumbra pod#junoverse#juno steel
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religiously checking every ten minutes in the next hour if agatha all along new ep is out yet bc im insane
#bro shoutout to my brothers gf for having disney plus (but also not telling me until like 3 days ago 😭)#but im grateful bc it means i don’t have to wait an extra day for someone to upload it to dodgy sites (myflixer my beloved)#better late than never so shoutout to you queen#agatha all along#agatha harkness#agatha x rio#agatha harkness x rio vidal#rio vidal#patti lupone#alice wu gulliver#jennifer kale#i cant even imagine now waiting even just one more day to watch the ep im so insane#but shoutout to my flixer tho that shit has my back always#i will never forget my roots even if fandom family members have steaming services that i need
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WTF I JUST FOUND OUT THIS KAISHIN AMV GOT DELETED AND IDK WHERE TO FIND IT, I'M FUCKING DEVASTATED THIS IS MY LIBRARY OF ALEXANDRIA
if anyone has a copy or knows where else it's uploaded, please tell me I'M BEGGING
#kaishin#sad day for the kaishin community#IM SO DUMB I SHOULDN'T HAVE DELETED MY COPY OF THIS FUUUUUCK#i only had this clip cos i screamed about it on twitter#yt user steffy1412 if you're out there please come back 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#the ksn community needs your amv 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#the way i lost my goddamn mind the first time i watched this#DUDE IM IN SHAMBLES I WANT THE FULL ONE WHY DID I DELETE IT#i trusted the youtube upload too much that i didnt stop to consider the impermanence of digital data ✋😔#GIRL IM LEGIT SAD LIKE IM CRAVING THIS SPECIFIC AMV AND NOW I CANT REWATCH IT IM DEVASTED#at the very least steffy1412 if youre out there#i absolutely adore your work you're an absolute madman#and though memories fade through time i will never forget the way this fucking amv eviscerated me thank you for your hard work 🤧🤧🤧#PLEASE IF SOMEONE HAS A COPY OF IT GIMME GRABBY HANDS IM DESPERATE LMFAOOOOOO#it's the kamikaze kaishin amv#you know the one#dc prattles
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Okay, so in my defense, how was I supposed to read @goodlucktai 's can't help but become the sun and then not make? Something??? Like.
How could I not draw after reading this?
#illustration#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rottmnt fanart#im starting to think someone might need to metaphorically slap my hands away from my phone when i start getting into the lighting on these.#anyway please read taizi's works! and excuse the splinters they're from another one of taizi's stories that i drew a little bit for but i#forgot to erase them from the sketch page. )= i also forgot the smoothies. the jordans i did not forget. i deliberately did not draw them#i can never get those shoes in particular to look right....
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sometimes I forget that my experience has been. um. not 'your experiences are not universal' vibes but more like 'your experiences are EXTREMELY atypical'
#red said#recent events have reminded me that my life has involved like. a LOT of other people's psychosis#like not in a way where i have been Beset By Terrifying Crazies bc that's not like. a thing.#but a lot of people in my life have had a lot of really severe psychotic episodes#and i FORGET sometimes. that actually that is an Unusual Amount Of Experience With Psychosis for someone who's not#for somebody who has not really personally ever had psychotic episodes (unless severe PTSD flashbacks count)#actually i tell a lie i have maybe had One psychotic episode but because it was very situational and i knew what was happening#i was able to ride it out. because i am literally only psychotic Inside Hospitals and so that's all fine#as long as i LITERALLY NEVER HAVE TO HAVE INPATIENT CARE. Very important to me to never ever ever require surgery i think.#i can handle the amount of psychosis i get from a 1-4 hour stopoff in hospital#as long as i know I'm leaving soon then i can just Cope with the fact that the walls are moving and reality is thin#ANYWAY that's not the point the point is i forget! that most ppl i know have experience of at most a handful of severe psychotic episodes#some people i know have experienced more for sure. especially if the episodes were mostly theirs.#but people really seem to expect me to be more freaked out by their symptoms of psychosis than i am#bc i don't think i really register it as frightening unless they're in actual danger or Currently Aggressing Actually At Me#like i WORRY about them bc it can super suck but it's not SHOCKING or WEIRD#there have definitely been times ive been frightened. one time i woke up in the night and my friend was standing over me with a knife#but also like he was still HIM he was just having a moment. and as soon as i got the knife off him he just came back and broke down.#and we were fine and he was safe and i learnt the valuable lesson that even when people seem like they wanna kill you they probably don't#tbf now I'm thinking about it it's honestly a tossup whether he was there to threaten or because he felt a need to guard us#like to be clear probably don't try and take a knife off someone having a psychotic break. i was 17 and it was 3am and i knew him very well#i probably did not make the smartest call but nobody got hurt is the point#anyway you know there's that kind of psychotic episode and my granny got very violently angry a few times. buuuut you know there's also#been plenty of other times I've been with somebody having an episode and it's been chill as hell.#my ex saw and heard monsters so much that eventually she just got sick of being scared. we used to watch TV with them#i would sometimes have to sit on a bit of sofa that wasn't haunted and we might not be able to watch certain things bc they didn't like it#most of the time she was hallucinating there was absolutely nothing to worry about we just had a few extra variables#honestly of everyone i know who's had psychotic episodes or schizophrenia the amount of times it's been a material risk#is like. low single figures? maybe low double if you include self harm but idk what the cause and effect is there.#idk why you would need to be frightened like 99.99% of the time it truly is usually just Oh No That Seems Distressing For You I'm Sorry
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Someone please - I'm on my hands and knees begging - write a fix it for tf1 ending
Give me why megop
Just let them be please
#tf one 2024#tf one#tf one megatron#tf one optimus#orion pax#d 16#megop#this has to be hands down my favourite version of tf#i would watch a million angsty lovers to enemies who never forget sequels#and before you say more#just remember#AND THEY WERE ROOMMATES#why is no one talking about how they were basically roommates#yes there were like a million other miner bots there but they were still roommates#im screaming#i need someone to write a fix it#just an alt ending#or an alt dimension/timeline where they were 'friends' and leaders together#humans are overrated - we just need the autobots#a prime and his protector#ahhhhhhh#i need this#optimus prime#megatron
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Sorry I forgot Hanneman suggested Byleth undress after they show up with a different hair color. And I miss Hanneman. And also while swapping between Houses and Hopes and seeing Hanneman pop up to help in a Hopes paralogue is just devastating since he doesn't ever actually join you at all and I am denied my old man rights.
So I had to draw this. Thank you for understanding.
#fe three houses#byleth#hanneman von essar#i like that Byleth just kinda stares at him and he realizes WHAT HE SAID and the implications and is like#step back uh forget that I said that#like man so zoned in on research he blurts that out and has to backtrack mentally to AH socially bad to say that my bad#if i need to tag this as anything lemme know even though it is a conversation in game basically (minus the marriage)#also if you have never married hanneman i genuinely enjoyed his s support and was VERY surprised and hes just#honestly one of my favorites overall in 3h ?? and im still bummed i cant play as him in thropes like thats just mean#also i think if byleth was like oh well if its awkward to see someone undress randomly#then marriage would solve the awkwardness this is truly the best deduction#which is really funny that i can see it happening with both leths despite my hc of them#with fyleth as bi and myleth as ace i think both would just be like AH cool we can avoid awkwardness by marriage#and hanneman just wants to go lie down in a ditch because he said something like that#and and byleth doesnt even know about religion while working at church school they dont know about school regulations#that wasnt really on their mind to check ok just saying you could tell byleth no to something#and then they just go oh school policies i understand unfortunately#and the person is like no we just meant its frowned upon to do archery practice in the tea garden its not technically illegal just dont??
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Remember anything yet? It’s okay if you don’t. Seems like you’ve been through a lot.
#trigunedit#tristampedit#trigun stampede#trigun#vash the stampede#millions knives#vash#nai#myedit#mygifs#i have no idea how to tag this im out of the giffing loop#i only touch my computer for work class or to hurt myself making stuff like this#not really sure i liked how this turned out but i needed it out of my brain#(with tears in my eyes and screaming): THE SONG OF TWO BROTHERS!!!!!!111111#whether vash is truly amnesiac or not the fact that he's trying to play their duet by the end of ep 12 makes me (incoherent noises)#their song is the one thing vash would never forget (and neither would nai)#he's been playing it by himself for over a century after all#if you hear someone crying that's me thumbs up
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